#i'm a mediocre person anyway.

[my-balls79]

my mother was ranting at me again, the following is paraphrased: “the fact that you never do anything, can’t manage to do your school work and you can hardly take care of yourself tells me that you are a LAZY person” yes, mother, i am lazy, how could you tell? you do not even know the full extent of it, would you believe that i’m also too lazy to derive pleasure out of anything? would you believe the amount of times i’ve nearly killed myself because i am too damn lazy to be alive? i’m well aware of my laziness. fucking cunt.

#complaning #sorry to that one guy who follows me i think you should block the 'complaining' tag if you'd like. #i have made a decent post every once in awhile if you'd like to keep sticking around in hopes i make another one #i don't know why i'm still alive. #i know it likely isn't going to work out. #and even if it does for what? #i would have to had gotten through highschool by being dragged through it by infinitely patient friends while having done barely anything #i can think of ideas and thats about it. i can hardly compose anything for any assignment #and not even for things i enjoy. not even for things i would've wanted to do #i don't understand why i'm like this. i've been trying to get better i really have. #it's been going on for ages now. i don't know when it will end and even if it does like i've said #i'm a mediocre person anyway. #i would've wanted to have some sort of silly hobby. a surrealist painter or a pretentious humourist or marxist political theorist #or experimental percussionist. i don't know. something that i would enjoy and be passionate about #and then have some sort of #i don't know. plumber or truck driver. some butch lesbian type job #oh and at the most hopeful going to college and getting a degree in sociology or something. but i now realise that is far from possible #but really i don't think i'm capable of any of that. i'm hardly capable of answering simple assignments without someone else there to #carry me through them.

[lunetual]

HI, THIS IS TAEHYUN ! REALLY GLAD TO BE HERE ! [ 220730 LOLLAPALOOZA ]

#kang taehyun #taehyun #tomorrow x together #txt #txtnetwork #moasource #moahour #moacentral #oh this coloring is mediocre i'm so sorry a;lkfdjasdlj i'm on my work computer and it's Different from my beloved personal laptop #also i don't have camera raw filter set up on ps here <///3 #anyway i have like 5 more gifsets i want to make but !! later. gotta pack alkdfjaslf #mine: gif #txt.meg #usermowah #usergyukai #hijaehyukkies #userfairy #marieblr #ayabestie #ocora #majatrack

[sunnyscript]

[ID: Picture is a lineless piece depicting Vox from Hazbin Hotel in the CCTV (Closed-Circuit Television) control room inside his lair.

Vox is standing slightly on the left behind a table. He smiles deviously and slightly look up toward a light source that is casting a glow on him and the table. His left elbow is on the table. Behind him is the round platform of his evil lair. On left, you can find computers and cables. Behind the round platform is a bridge over some pit. Further back is another platform. Above said platform is a bunch of blue and red pop-ups. The walls of his lair are red.]

[ID: Picture is a lineless piece depicting Vox from Hazbin Hotel in the CCTV (Closed-Circuit Television) control room inside his lair.

Vox is standing slightly on the left behind a table. He smiles deviously and slightly look up toward a light source that is casting a dimglow on the table. His left elbow is on the table. Behind him is the round platform of his evil lair. On left, you can find computers and cables. Behind the round platform is a bridge over some pit. Further back is another platform. Above said platform is a bunch of blue and red pop-ups. The walls of his lair are red.]

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Apparently twitter voted and decided this tumbler sexy-manified tv head was the most attractive male character in Hazbin. So there you go.

(I don't complain he's my favourite male character)

Edit: I finally stopped being lazy and added ID on text and in alt!!!

#i'll add id later it's almost 3am I'm tired #hazbin hotel fanart #hazbin hotel vox #vox the tv demon #i don't find any of the males design to be crazy good aside from maybe Val's but I was surprised Luci lost since the fandom is crazy abt hi #personally i'm not but 🤷‍♂️ #honestly this show was mediocre when it came to writing but like some characters are a lot of fun and the fanarts and animatics go crazy #kinda surprised how this quickly became a hyperfixation like why do I never get obsessed with good things I don't have complains about #sunnyscript #sunnyscriptart #anyway #i realise posting the image rn that I messed up his hand. #oh well #id in caption #id in alt text #with id #vox fanart

[saph-yells-into-the-void]

the amount of DISDAIN I get from some ppl saying that blue flag is written for the straights.

girl I did not stay up til 6am reading this manga, tearing up and crying bc of how much I saw myself in characters like touma and masumi and how painfully relatable their pain/struggles were just for you to say that blue flag is for the straights

be so fr rn

#the usage of queer pain in blue flag was done so so SO fucking tastefully and with care towards ppl who experience similar struggles #there were so many very well done nuanced discussions not only relating to queerness but also towards other topics such as heteronormativit #and societal standards and choices and change #hell I even thought that the whole discussion on homophobia towards the end was done with care- there I said it #bc it isn't just like: HOMOPHOBIC PPL BAD!! #there's layers and different sides shown that some ppl may not agree with but Jesus Christ ITS PART OF THE FUCKING DISCUSSION #yall NEED to hear these other sides and stop closing your eyes to everything that isn't just like- homophobia bad >:( #bc god forbid we have nuanced talks about touchy subjects #sorry I'm just so annoyed that this is a fandom-wide agreement that the homophobia talk was handled badly #bc imo I don't think it was it was just trying to shine the topic in a different light #anyways this manga is brilliant and amazing and I need more ppl to read this #I'm even hoping for an anime adaptation idc if itll most likely be mediocre I just need more ppl to find this story #this manga resonated with me on such a deeply personal level as a queer person that I didn't even know was possible #'blue flag utilizes queer pain as a tool for the straights-' stfu speak for your fucking self #this manga wasn't written for the straights it was written for ME actually #blue flag

[aromanticannibal]

so funny to me that there are genuinely people trying to defend wish

#as in the Disney movie #I'm not fucking w/ you I just saw a post saying “oh if encanto or Moana was the 100th anniversary movie you would've hated it too” #ENCANTO AND MOANA ARE GOOD MOVIES WERE NOT FUCKING IDIOTS #I don't give a shit that wish is the 100th anniversary movie or whatever the fuck #(except to laugh about how funny it is that such a mediocre movie was put out for this occasion) #also saw someone say that “we just can't see ourselves in a poc main character” which uh. I mean maybe that's a problem in some people #but I havent seen anyone that isn't a massive racist say they can't identify to Moana or mirabel bc they're poc #mirabel and moana have personalities and problems and are genuinely good characters and asha isn't. that's the problem #anyways. I think it's funny that there's people on tumblr of all places sucking Disney's dick about this movie #like cool if you liked it! you deserve better!!!

[lovecanbesostrange]

Oh no, I did a stupid thing. Flipping through old stuff I dared to look at Uncanny Avengers Vol 1. CHARACTER ASSASSINATION OF THE HIGHEST ORDER! Let me rant:

Seeing Wanda under the telepathic Red Skull influence is the most icky. Honestly seeing her work with Hydra in the MCU was at least understandable within that framework. But that stuff is shlock for the shock factor. I hate that run so much, but I have forgotten the finer details why and now I need to bleach my brain again...

Actual meaningful interaction from Young Avengers: The Children's Crusade

X-Men have all shown some anger towards Wanda and when leaving Cyclops made a big speech that he would kill her himself if she stepped out of line again. But then Rogue looks back and tells her they will come around. There is a long moment in this story where Wiccan rattles of a list of all the bad most of these people have done before becoming heroes and he was right. And it makes so much sense that out of everybody there Rogue does extend a hand...

Honestly, the only thing that should have happened when those two met again was jokes from Wanda about if she could call Rogue Step-Mom now or something for fucking Magneto. But no, I get this bullshit in Uncanny Avengers:

They fight next to Xavier's grave. Rogue calls Wanda a race traitor blending in with humans and Wanda bitches about X-Men playing the victim card.

I can't even describe how bad this fiasco is! I reblogged that fun post with the deragotory-pepperoni - yes, that was Brian Michael Bendis adressing the very shitty respectability politics brought forward in this trash pile comic run. When Havok said he didn't want to be called a Mutant, because he's a Human. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...

My blorbo was used in the worst way possible. Let my girl kill people, be emo, make bad decisions in the field, partake in unethical methods for the greater good - but not this! And this is the insulting offender that in the end not-Magneto's-kids with Axis. RAGE! RAGE!

There are many moments I like to ignore in X-Men history (because it's a long history and of course weird and stupid stuff happened). I am so not on board what they did to Moira for the whole Krakoa era. But if there is one comic book I want to erase completely? It is this. I suffered. I suffered so much. The shadowban on the X-books was bad enough, but my little blorbo had to take part in this and was estranged from her family. (And I liked the O5 and the stuff going on in the X-books, she could have had some fun there.)

And then you keep reading and UA Volume 3 rolls around and somehow Gerry Duggan gets back to the storyline and Red Skull is still his evil self, but the story works. Everything is so terrible how Wanda is written in Vol 1 under his influence, but when later he has Rogue almost beat Deadpool to death - it works. I can't explain it, but when you read those issues next to each other the difference is just FELT. The respect for characters and telling a story with their emotions in mind, not going at it to shock readers and be edgy.

#WHY DID I LOOK AT THAT AGAIN?! #please somebody hold me #if you have followed me for a while you know that I'm a mostly chill person #I thrive on mediocre media - I embrace it #I shrug off a few bad apple moments because well... things happen and telling stories isn't easy #BUT THIS... OH A THOUSAND YEARS DUNGEON FOR EVERYBODY INVOLVED #UA Vol 3 is fun though even though it was in the Captain Hydra era - they said fuck that Cap and did stuff anyway #ramblings

[lesenbyan]

Me: maybe I don't have OSDD. Maybe I'm just faking. I can't hear any voices but my own and no one else takes full executive control and intermittent OCD might just mean I'm faking that and-

Me: finds aphantasia posts in the DID subreddit

Me: oh. maybe I do have osdd. ok.

#personal; #MUCH more validating to see other people #someone was all 'sometimes i know i have cohost bc mood' or something on those lines #and i just OH! OH MOOD #(literally going down this hole bc i'm p sure the like. really bad OCD belongs to Someone but also felt like saying that felt Fake™️ #along with the Super Bad Insomnia (maybe same person? dunno) and a few other Neuroses) #so that was nice. most of these replies aren't as complete aphantasia as me which is frustrating #but ANY is much more helpful than the super visual focused language normally used #(ig i should start a journal?? never been good at those) #ANYWAY past my bedtime good night gotta shove my insomnia alter into sleep #(i just wanna be able to figure out who is who and has/thinks/feels what yk) #(All i know is Eve is an alter- which is part of why i squint bc now i gotta consult the kin list) #(i had a mediocre shitpost about that i never made bc it was mediocre and i wasn't out of the system closet to my mom who has DID) #(and also mom baggage re: kinning but that's. sorted? something like that)

[vitrines]

i like following the leftism tag so that every two days i can see a fresh new post that kind of sucks

EDIT: just realized what this looks like. to clarify iam also a leftist i just dislike infighting

#i dunno why the tag is so mediocre #like lads. lads why are we fighting. lads #looking nervously at the doors pointedly ignoring the folding chair fight happening in the other room #you all have Got to adopt “being a nice person especially to people who agree with you” into your ideologies #and if that statement gets misinterpreted i'm biting someone. btw #no i'm not saying be nice to bigots/oppressors/ect. anyways. looks out the window #talking time

[hook-line-and-anarchy]

started to entertain the idea of trying a dating app, someone please put me down like a horse

#personal #actually put me down anyway #i'm having a mediocre time

[torgawl]

a bit obsessed with the idea of kusakabe dying as a form of sacrifice to specifically protect/save somebody else. it's consistent enough with the theme of the past generation achieving no meaningful feats against significant threats but it's also ironic enough that someone without a technique and who claims their philosophy is primarily self-sacrificial - although he tends to stay from his own ideals in critical moments, proving he's not only brave when necessary but he does have a sense of responsabilty and guilt - ultimately redeems themselves through death resulting in the achievement of something his colleagues have failed to do. not that i'm wishing for him to die, i hope he doesn't. but it would also make a clear-cut distinction between him and a character like mei mei, who narratively serves a very similar purpose (besides her being a foil to nanami). to have someone be awarded by their selfishness just for it to not be worth much within a world and system that runs and sustains itself due to the sorcerer's labour power, whose only means of subsistence is to sell themselves away. a class of people who is doomed no matter what path they choose to take, as long as they do not break free from their duties and as long as the system doesn't collapse. a death that could serve as a symbol of punishment towards solidarity and altruism but a win for revolution.

#okay gege came for me when i said i didn't like kusakabe and now i'm thinking so much about him and his purpose in the story #why would he go against his own ideal and what is his purpose besides introducing questions like 'is self sacrifice noble?' you know? #so that got me thinking about him dying or suffering a big loss and how that would consolidate his character in my eyes #unless his purpose is completely different and i'm just deeply misreading the situation #if his purpose is to simply highlight personal choices and free will vs his generation's dogma #then i suppose him dying could serve no purpose but i'm not finding that side of the coin very straightforward or totally compelling #but again i feel like i'm failing to read him so maybe it is skill issue #anyway obsessed with kusakabe today awkkajwkaj feeling personally attacked by this twisted chain of events #gege really came for my ass after i was vocal about my kusakabe hate (which i feel like is dead at this point rip 🕊️) #which by the way is so mean. god forbid a bisexual do anything 😔 why can't i be a hater man? #also don't take this post seriously it's more about my mediocre reading of his character and my headcanons/wishes than a theory #i'm not trying to imply he will die or that there is narrative purpose in that #just that it makes sense in my brain if that's the case and the plan gege has for his character #but also he's literally the info dumpster gege probably wouldn't kill him because who will explain things to us 😂 #he's like our amateur narrator i bet that gives him total plot armour #ps. maybe this is just my zero braincells moment #i just hate that i don't get it like i want to understand why he exists #but i'm aware that maybe this is a me thing and maybe everyone else just get it #and that makes me feel like that meme #let me iiiinnnn #okay bye

[ohhgingersnaps]

i'm considering starting up my bullet journal again solely to track how often i am crying at work and i've gotta say that's not a great sign

#the real issue here is that i need to learn how to take criticism less personally i think #but dang if it isn't frustrating to keep having people tell me i'm doing a mediocre job and 'you can do better' (meant kindly) and like #do you realize WHY i'm doing a mediocre job? #it's because i (one person) am being told to do like five people's jobs at once #yes the announcement could have been written better! it WOULD have been if i hadn't also been managing regressions and the release and #customer support and social media and graphic design and webinars and the website and grant writing and licensing and coding and and and!! #if you hadn't given me three days to do something i told you i needed a week to do!! do you understand??? anyway #negative #delete later #venting

[ereh-emanresu-tresni]

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#speaking of mediocre faggotry i think i accidentally outed myself to my bio dad in like. the best case scenario of how he took what i said #in a conversation when i visited over Labor Day and like if so it clearly wasn't a major issue at all the only response was 'I'm amazed at #what uve told me tonight' which could also just as well be shock over being told i despise everything about how my life is unfolding lol #and that facist bullshit does in fact personally impact me and my interests rather than is #something that i can easily just pretend doesn't affect my individualist interests lol #but also the way that specifically came up is inextricably linked w gay bars and what would otherwise be unreclaimed slurs so i honestly #would infinitely prefer i did out myself in that case lol #but anyway IDK where I'm really going w this it just feels weird bc ik my sister did apparently come out a couple years ago and he vented #to me about it being phase probably bc of moral corruption from her mom so like IDK how much waa even actual acceptance #vs not wanting a scene given that and i literally do not know where I'm going w this i just want to post it lol sooooo posT

[dearedwardteach]

I open tumblr just to see your tags 🙏 it’s a highlight of my day

armys don't scare me. i've been on the internet for fifteen years and i used to be a directioner, jungkook fans wish they were as insane as me 👍🏽

#ksjhfjksjhdjksjd ily too #i finally listened to golden btw #(cant believe i wasted 30 minutes of my time on this when i could have been listening to indigo instead but ANYWAYS) #my take is: still not sure how 3d is supposed to be about heterosexual sex and the term champagne confetti still has me rolling on the floo #i guess i kinda like closer to you? but i like major lazer's stuff usually and it's clearly not my fav sound he's ever put out so yk #grasping at straws there #his falsetto in seven is good but that's about it with this song #overall jk's voice when it's not completely overlaid with autotune is nice he's doing what he does best #but his voice is not enough to save the overall mediocrity of the songs #(also bc i guess his voice is the one i like less in the band so ofc it won't hook me like jin's or tae's singing voices might) #(but that's very personal in no way i'm saying he's a bad singer) #standing next to you sounds like a rip off from a michael jackson song so it's not that it's bad necessarily #just that it's... not... original. at all? i mean the song is very representative of the whole album in that way. #it's not that i dislike it necessarily just that it sounds like a cover album more than anything #the only thing i truly hate about golden is that i don't listen to bts to listen to mediocre white men's music and that's all that album is #yes or no is a skip boring as fuck #please don't change is. lyrically and musically underwhelming but i do like his voice? id say it's a white people festival song which. yeah #hate you. white man christmas movie song. skip. #somebody is ewwwww i do not like his voice in it at all and the rest is uninteresting so yk SKIP #too sad to dance. unoriginal literally have nothing to say about it. white man song. skip #shot glass full of tears. once again it's not that it's bad per se. id even say i like it. its just that it sounds like somebody else's son #this is so frustrating!!!! gaaaaaaaah!!! everything about this is frustrating! #id say im disappointed but it's what i expected since seven came out so im not. #overall boring and disappointing i beg u poc artists dont let white men make music for u thanks for coming to my ted talk #raplinenthusiasts #ask #answered #it's not even that golden is horrendous it's just... mediocre. idk what's worse tbh #anyways not tagging all that i might be insane but im not gonna consciously invite the crazy armys in #thank god for rapline huh

[futuresafe]

I dont know. i wish i was as smart as i pretend to be sometimes

#my posts #oh the imposter syndrome. #experiencing The Symptoms #the truth of the matter is i'm not very creative and i'm mediocre at art and writing #and i may act like i understand music and music theory but i don't #and i pretend to know a lot about metal but i really only know anything about aluminum and copper #and i act like i understand planets and stars and their relation to each other #and i think the worst one among all these things i pretend to be knowledgeable about is ethical philosophy. #i've really only taken two and the other philosophy classes i've taken i eked by on #genuinely don't know how i passed my logic course so much of that goes over my head #i like acting clever because it makes me feel better about the simple fact i'm not really skilled at anything #most of the time when people ask me things i supposedly know i do a quick google search and just rephrase it #do i think this makes me a bad person? no. #it just makes Me feel bad #and honestly who Doesn't like the idea of being smart #and tbh is experiencing that Youngest Child Inadequacy which is t fair to my brother at all but oh baby when that sneaks up on you #anyways i don't really have anyone i can talk to about this stuff #i mean i do but i don't like burdening people with my vents so i use my blog sometimes as a journal #negative/ #tbd.

[piplupod]

love that people are making music more and regular ass people can make music and release it but goddamn so much of it is just fucking devoid of feeling or incredibly underwhelming. like they try to make it sound big and BOOM in-your-face but it just comes across as empty and shallow and feels like an empty grey room.

this is specifically about one "influencer"s music btw lol if you think it's about you it's not I promise you lmfao

#chrissy whatever her name is. she's releasing a song and hyping it up so much but imo it just kind of fucking sucks #like hashtag girlpower girlboss feminism win or whatever sure but it just. doesnt sound good #the buildup is alright but then it just fucking falls flat and i just shake my head every time we hear it lmfao it sucks man #could've been good even! but theres just not the right climax to the chorus (unless thats a verse in which case it still sucks) #like it definitely is not our music taste but man idk. it just falls flat lmfao. disappointing to hear every single time #also i'm well aware music doesn't have to be like... good or clever or deep or whatever. its fine to just have fun songs yeah absolutely #but i feel like they have to still sound good??? this one just doesnt sound good i'm sorry lmfao it's just. disappointing and underwhelming #and i just KNOWWW everyone is going to be drooling and slobbering all over it because she's somewhat popular and an attractive person #also i'm aware that different taste and different preferences and different opinions yadda yadda yadda lmfao #but i can appreciate music from every fucking corner of every genre and understand what is good or not for each thing #and this just is mediocre at best. even for its girlboss epic feminism win style of music. #anyways i'm done here lmfao back to accounting assignments bye #nine speaks

[homiro]

To the person leaving long comments under my ere/rei fic, if you're here reading this, just know that I want to hug you and am still trying to think of what to say because damn. Made me cry for real. I never know how to deal with people saying nice things about the stuff I do because I think it's not good. It's easier to take insults because it's just well yeah no something I've never thought. Ahhhh

Yeah I'm here. No I'm not running from twatter. I've been out of that place as in Stan/fandom Twitter since January and it'll stay that way obviously now it's just watching from my priv as everyone cries about muskrat taking over lmfao I just idk vibe around with memes and shit yeahhhh

#personal #text #i dont remember what tag i used for posts like this #anyway yeah i read all commenrs and this is making me emo and i have no idea what to say but yeah #like when i say I'm mediocre im not fishing for anything lol like they literally were ableist against my stupid ass #because i had a meltdown after what felt like confirmation that i really suck #and then privileged brats trying to patronise me like lol #they only like to read about grossly misrepresented romanticised mental illnesses #when they're presented with the real thing they want to send us to the loony bin #especially with asd a cptsd #anyway #that's aaaall