#ANYWAY past my bedtime good night gotta shove my insomnia alter into sleep

[lesenbyan]

Me: maybe I don't have OSDD. Maybe I'm just faking. I can't hear any voices but my own and no one else takes full executive control and intermittent OCD might just mean I'm faking that and-

Me: finds aphantasia posts in the DID subreddit

Me: oh. maybe I do have osdd. ok.

#personal; #MUCH more validating to see other people #someone was all 'sometimes i know i have cohost bc mood' or something on those lines #and i just OH! OH MOOD #(literally going down this hole bc i'm p sure the like. really bad OCD belongs to Someone but also felt like saying that felt Fake™️ #along with the Super Bad Insomnia (maybe same person? dunno) and a few other Neuroses) #so that was nice. most of these replies aren't as complete aphantasia as me which is frustrating #but ANY is much more helpful than the super visual focused language normally used #(ig i should start a journal?? never been good at those) #ANYWAY past my bedtime good night gotta shove my insomnia alter into sleep #(i just wanna be able to figure out who is who and has/thinks/feels what yk) #(All i know is Eve is an alter- which is part of why i squint bc now i gotta consult the kin list) #(i had a mediocre shitpost about that i never made bc it was mediocre and i wasn't out of the system closet to my mom who has DID) #(and also mom baggage re: kinning but that's. sorted? something like that)