#i’m optimistic rn enjoy it while it lasts

[lowkeyorloki]

just applied for graduation… this time last year i finished writing asis. not to compare an entire college education to a professor loki fanfiction but i’m just feeling some type of way

#graduating in december with two BAs!! #+ my scholarship comped the cost of applying to graduate which is nice :3 #anyway #just thought the asis crowd would appreciate it :’) #bc i appreciate them #maybe i’ll write more fic next semester #i’ll only be taking two classes #if i don’t pick up another job… who’s to say #i’m optimistic rn enjoy it while it lasts

[toyafreethoughts]

Ladies, Gentlemen and Non-Binary Pals we interrupt your time on here with a special matchup trade with @fourtyfourcatss !!

A/N: Hello again! I’m very happy to be able to do another trade matchup with you, i hope you cherish these matchups as much as you did the first time because I putted a lot of thought into these to make them perfect ❤️, I also loved all of these characters I put you with, Enjoy my friend !! o(｀ω´ )o

For your Bleach Matchup you have been paired with…

Rangiku Matsumoto!

Let me explain this, she is one of the beloved characters in bleach after all, i can see something going on here, I think with you being levelheaded would be good for her, when you compliment her in outfits (if there skimpy or not) she would be over the moon, and if you would keep complimenting her and helping her not wear skimpy outfits to get attention and figure out something for her to get other peoples attentions then she would be so grateful and start falling for you.

She enjoys having someone who’s realistic, and also optimistic, she’s by your side, supporting you in your hobbies, decisions, and quite literally anything she’ll be with you, cheering for you like the supportive girlfriend she is.

She would enjoy reading with you when it’s night, she’ll be laying on your shoulder in bed while also reading whatever book you may be reading. and wi annoyingly tell you to go back to a page to finish what she was reading.

Oh and she enjoys drinking too, now I have given you a drinking partner LMAO.

Round-Ups: no one rn, I liked this one.

For your Helluva Boss Matchup you have been paired up with…

Verosika Mayday

I can also explain this, it just made a lot of sense in my opinion, with her past relationships (with blitzø too) it wasn’t the best we see, so she’ll probably be mean spirited and manipulative when she meets you, but sense I know that your pretty much a mature person and you can be blunt she’s taken by surprise! when she gets to know you better, she starts getting more comfortable around you, she starts to feel familiar feelings, she isn’t uncomfortable by them though, she’s more accepting and optimistic about them, this last time.

She loves that you can find situations, she’s always in situations and you somehow always get her out of them, she’ll always be grateful for that, and maybe she’ll start trying to not get in trouble, she also likes going on walks with you, somewhere quieter and with less (wayyy less) people around because of paparazzi.

She’s also very fond of your lips, she LOVES kissing them mostly.

Round-ups: Octavia

For your Hazbin Hotel Matchup you have been paired up with…

Husker!

I kinda like this match a lot, I can see this working out with him and you a lot, your very realistic and optimistic and to him your actually very chill and less annoying like Alastor, Charlie, Angel Dust… he also likes that your big on improvement, he feels like he could also use some improvement on himself as well, he doesn’t care that you run your mouth and trip up, her also super ecstatic that your blunt, not really anyone is blunt unlike vaggie.

He supports your hobbies and etc, even if it doesn’t seem like he cares, he really does, but I’m sure you would know anyways, he enjoys that your funny, he’s also happy that your there to find solutions for him when he’s stuck somewhere where he needs help.

He doesn’t seem to have a lot of hobbies other than gambling and just drinking booze but I’d think you would get him into to some of your hobbies! He would enjoy walks with you.

EDIT: I just given you another drinking partner bru😭

Round-ups: Vaggie, Vox (?)

For your Twisted Wonderland Matchup you have been paired up with…

Riddle Rosehearts!

Ok, I really, REALLY like this matchup, I think you didn’t expect this huh, probably no one did, when they found out that riddle and you were together, they were all shocked, literally how did you make him fall for you (what are your tricks bro) anyways, I think he would like someone realistic and blunt, you guys would get along at the hip tbh, it’s something I can’t explain, it’s like a thing that happened so fast, he’s also not easily impressed with anything but you do happen to make him impressed, you made him interested in you.

He also dislikes anyone pestering with him, he would find it HIGHLY annoying, you both are on the same both, you guys would definitely talk about what you like and dislike while having a little private tea party in a little, fancy garden with beautiful flowers, the best green grass and a perfect weather feeling.

All in all, he really loves having you as a partner and he hopes you both will have a long (forever) lasting relationship with each other.

Round-Ups: no one now, this is perfection.

For your Cookie Run Kingdom Matchup you have been paired up with…

Sea Fairy Cookie!

Again, another unexpected matchup probably (In my own POV), i can also see something going on here too, I think with your mystical mix of being a calm, mature bit also optimistic, and levelheaded person, I’d think you’d make a powerful match indeed! She enjoys you being passionate in anything, she loves seeing you also help people find solutions for them when there stuck, it just makes her fall a lot more in love with you.

She would let out satisfied sighs and little giggles whenever you made her happy or just made her feel better about something, or when she was having a bad day, I can see you reading a book to her while she lays in your lap, probably taking a nap and feeling comfortable in your presence.

She would never do anything that you don’t like, and one thing I know is that she doesn’t pester people at all, she’s just so loving and caring for you, such a gentle lover………. \(//∇//)\

Round-Ups: No one.

For your Obey Me Matchup you have been paired up with…

Lucifer

I don’t think you expected this at all, but I did, here’s why, even though it took a little for you both to officially become a couple he would just already be so in love with you because of how opinonated and quite literally everything you are, he thinks your the most mature person out of all his other brothers.

He’s so supportive with you doing your best to make improvement on yourself, have you ever considered how special you seem to be? Well he hopes you know that. Coming from him.

He also enjoys reading, you guys are often seen in the library reading books together in the most comfy chairs while you have been caught not once, but twice by holding his hand in yours. he’s just so soft for you good god.

Round-Ups: Mammon, Simeon

For your Turn To Die Matchup you have been paired with…

Reko Yabusame!

I also enjoy this pairing as much as I’m in love with the others, you seem you would also go well with her here! I had a lot of other options of characters here but this one made more sense to me, he would enjoy a partner that’s also realistic and blunt, she’s glad that there’s someone like you who can be serious in bad situations and help people and her get out of most situations, she’s very fascinated with you…!

She love your creativity, she also loves your writings and she (shyly somehow) asks you if it would be ok to read them, she also likes listening to music, I think she would like a lot of metal, vkei and rock music/IMO and she would share one of her earbuds with you.

She also compliments on your dark academia outfits you put together, she would tell you to spin for her while she admires the outfit(s) on yourself.

Round-Ups: Sara Chidouin, Kai Satou

For your Haikyuu Matchup you have been paired up with…

Kenma Kozume!

I think you guys would get along with each other right away as well with the others too, you guys are just so chill with each other, I think you guys would hang out at one of your guy’s houses and either play video games and eat junk food or just talk about literally anything on your guy’s minds, you both aren’t easily impressed with a lot of stuff either, if you are it would be pretty rare.

He likes watching you draw, he probably asked if you can draw some anime characters or game characters he likes it show him your sketch book if you have one, he would draw little doodles and notes saying how cool your art is.

I can tell that this will be a long-lasting and happy relationship.

Round-Ups: No one rn…

Now lastly, for your Tokyo Revengers Matchup you have been paired up with…

Takashi Mitsuya

I believe this is one of the other bests that I have paired you with, you are passionate while he’s compassionate, you guys are very chill with each other, very gentle, helping, peaceful and so, SO much more, he’s yet another one that’s not easily impressed, but would you be surprised that you both impressed each other at the same time? It’s like you guys are literally made for each other if you are in this anime.

He likes reading with you, as like a date maybe you both would do study dates for an upcoming test, and you both would be relaxing with your favorite beverages and talking about your day and anything you’d think you’d talk about, he also seems like someone who enjoys listening to music, you guys would definitely recommend songs or bands, singers, etc to each other or make each other guess what songs their listening to.

He seems like someone who keeps up with his hygiene by taking daily showers, not forgetting to brush his teeth and take care of himself, etc, honestly I really just adore this last one I just wrote.

Round-Ups: no one, I think I just matched you with your Tokyo revengers soulmate omg

#joey posts! #matchups #matchup #matchup exchange #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel matchups #helluva boss #helluva boss x reader #helluva boss matchups #cookie run kingdom #tokyo revengers #your turn to die #obey me #obey me matchups #twisted wonderland matchup #twisted wonderland #twst #twst matchups #twst matchup #bleach matchup #bleach matchups #bleach #anime #manga #cartoons

[lacunafiction]

Progress Update: 15 May 2022

I hope you’re doing well and staying safe! Hello to new and old readers.

The masterpost with the demo link is: HERE. Reblogs are always appreciated.

> Here is a more specific update regarding what I have been doing:

- I have been primarily focusing on making edits or revisions to what I’ve written so far…

- …That^ probably doesn’t sound like the most exciting bit of news to share, haha. (I think most people prefer writing to editing? I do enjoy going back and re-discovering scenes I wrote a while ago.) The good thing is that those edits are coming to an end with each day I spend hours going over the scene files. I won’t suggest a tentative date for when they will be over, but I’m optimistic about it being soon! 😊

- One positive about this part of the process is being able to re-visit choices that I wrote many months ago with a fresh set of eyes. Adding choices/options allows me to mix the editing part with some new writing along the way. There is this one scene in particular with B that I’m so excited for you all to read. It lets you learn a bit more about the road trip that led to your arrival in Fernweh; there’s some humor to it… Well, depending on what you pick and your MC’s mood at the moment.

Below is a very tiny teaser without much context, though I will say that the change in season around where I live has made the greenery quite photogenic. I could see B snapping pics around Fernweh too:

“No more twine.”

B pouts a little at your comment. “It was the world’s largest ball of it, not just twine…”

“It was a glorified heap of string,” you weakly retort, attempting to shake off your somber thoughts, even if your remark indirectly relates to them. This town is a tangled web that you can’t get caught up in. “Let’s focus on scenery related sights first, okay? Photo-worthy things.”

- In my last update, I also mentioned stat balancing. I am relatively set on how the pluses/minuses and tailored text are triggered after going over them repeatedly. I will likely be testing it once more in some playthroughs.🧐

- I’ve also been tinkering with new chapters, though the editing is taking priority and focusing my writing on certain sections of the story that I have written. I’m psyched to get back into mainly writing!

- - -

> Here is what I plan to work on:

- I will be continuing to edit, though that will change when I move to playthroughs of the unreleased material. I’m about to hop back into Chapter 12 after I post this on here and queue the post on Tumblr.

-  I think seeing the chapters in the DashingDon format helps me notice things since I’m familiar with the colors/layout of the coding editor I use…? Hopefully that makes sense. I used to be the same way when typing in documents versus putting those same words in powerpoints for my classes and catching stuff or seeing places where a sentence could be changed a little. A change of scenery, maybe?

Thank you all for your patience and support! 💚 I’m diligently working on Book 1 even though I’m a little quiet on social media while working on it rn. (I tend to fixate on things.) Best wishes to each of you!💐

#fernweh saga #weekly updates #(<--- except not really since this is more of a progress update and not a weekly one.) #who do queue think you are? #i would look at twine with you; B. it's okay. ignore the MC's lack of appreciation for it in this one choice response. XD

[anotherblblog]

My School President Finale Quick Blurb

The MSP finale delivered.

I did want more TiwPor and Mrs Gim.

But I’m still very very happy. Definitely my biggest surprise from a bl. I went in with no expectations and was pleasantly surprised with how thoughtful this series was.

Also I appreciate the finale being so long. I really think that should become a thing. Send (good) shows off with a big fanfare and not worry about wrapping it up in under 30 mins or 1 hour. Take your time and have your panning shots and long takes and just stretch your legs and enjoy the world you’ve built and story you’ve told.

The My School President finals felt a very nice and well fucking deserved victory lap.

And I haven’t really felt a series capture the end of a school period bittersweet hopefulness so well.

It wasn’t a perfect series but I think it did really did hit home for me what it felt like. What love and being young and queer feels like. It is a very optimistic series and ultimately an intentionally light and hopeful one but it still showed the ugly sides of growing up queer and how those external forces and fears hurt and stymie the individual. The paranoia, growing pains, realizing who is and isn’t in your corner while and also figuring out (or thinking you are figuring out) who you are.

While also taking those first steps at acknowledging and acting on your romantic and sexual feelings and sense of self. So yeah no biggie.

MSP was flirty and funny and charming and I think above all sincere.

It felt sincere watching Tinn and Gun find real meaning in their feelings towards the other and want to act on it but also be hesitant and insecure in those feelings. And working through that and also maturing and coming into their own as people.

There is also a bit of whiplash with this last arc of MSP overlapping with Cheating McChicken and seeing Fourth, Gemini, and my baby daddy Mark Pakin in these vastly different but somewhat similar characters is really interesting in a meta sense.

The parental trio in this series honestly was an amazing supporting cast and I think they are some of the best parents I’ve seen in a bl. They also felt very sincere. Sincerely loving their kids and sincerely loving themselves. Mrs Potjanee was easily the third lead/foremost supporting character and I think her arc in some ways was more appreciated by me (as I closer to her than a high schooler in age).

The songs were catchy and the musical romcom vibes were great.

I used to think gmmtv would one day need to stand trial for their sins against the actual queer community but I do think they have made meaningful adjustments to whatever happens in their writing rooms and whatever decisions it takes to run a company/studio.

I started this show cuz Teh’s hot roommate from IPYTM was in it and I’m glad I did. Mark Pakin is still my baby daddy fr. And thirst bias aside he was really outstanding as the supporting character of the series.

Ok this quick blurb is kinda not quick but whatever.

Ugh my top 20 series list is shaking rn.

🎶 Come rain or shine

Your shoulder is there to get me through

I don’t know what tomorrow brings

But with you I’m ready for anything 🎶

#my school president #MSP #my school President 12 #my school President episode 12 #the first mark Pakin series of 2023 has concluded and the mark Pakin renaissance is glorious

[surveysandthings]

3.

do you feel the need to be popular? I did when I was younger. And then I got it and it’s not as great as it seems.

why do you like taking surveys? They’re relaxing and I enjoy typing!

to what store would you like a $50 giftcard? Target or TJ Maxx.

what is a good present for you birthdays? I like experiences!

what month baby are you? January. Worst birthday month!

what do you think about squidward on spongebob? Wuh??

at what hour do you begin to feel tired? Depends on the day.

do you think a lot? Constantlyyy. It fuckin sucks.

are you religious? do you like religion? I was kinda forced to be as a kid but I’m not and am very staunchly anti-religion now.

what is the last thing you ate? Chipssss.

what are you looking forward to? Nothing at the moment.

are you an optimistic, pessimist or realist? Pessimist, for sure.

how do you like to wear your hair? I like the look of it being down with air wrapped curls most but it’s most comfortable when its up in a bun.

do you watch a lot of youtube on a regular basis? I never watch YouTube anymore!

what is a rule or boundary you have for yourself, that you have followed? I don’t google symptoms! I spiral really bad and it’s not worth it.

what is something you love to do on the weekend? Sleep in, build puzzles, watch movies, spend time cooking fun food we typically don’t have time or energy to make during the week.

do you 'hate mondays'? Yesss.

have you ever played battleship? Obviously.

do you wear skulls on your clothes? When I was like 13, sure.

do you like red lipstick? Yes! It’s my fave.

what do you need to do tomorrow? Nothing really! Our weekend is pretty free. 

what candy do you want right now? Can’t say I want any candy rn.

do you always have the tv on? Not always!

do you get paranoid while vacuuming the house alone? No? Should I?

do you ever feel bitter about the 'way things are'? For sure, especially when it comes to the way my family is.

do you like to record yourself? No, it’s awkward.

do you like the color hot pink? I do!

do you like watching wrestling? Absolutely fucking not.

where do you fit in? No where, really.

what kind of class would you like to take? I would love to take a cooking class! It sounds really fun.

are you prescribed any kind of meds? Nope.

are you tired or sleepy right now? Nope!

do you like cookie dough? how much cookie dough do you eat when you have a roll? I loved cookie dough when I was a kid but it’s not very good anymore. I also don’t think I've ever made cookies from a roll of dough. We make homemade dough.

are you an often starbucks goer? what do you order at starbucks when you do go? Oh hell yeah. White mocha frappuccino with brown sugar syrup or a strawberry açaí refresher with lemonade!

would you rather a giftcard to starbucks or olive garden? Starbucks. Olive Garden is genuinely gross, I don’t know why its so popular. I could make pasta quicker and for way cheaper at home + it would actually taste better.

what kind of cookie do you want right now? Chocolate chip would be pretty nice.

what kind of people do you respect? Ones who don’t ‘demand respect’, when they really mean obedience.

how is silence golden? I dunno??

is your hair dry? Yup!

what shampoo do you have in your tub? Redken and Pureology.

what color is your shower curtain? or is it glass/plastic? It’s glass!

do you like to draw with pen or pencil? Pen!

do you like to draw on lined paper or does it bother you? I hate drawing on lined paper.

spiral notebook or composition? Spiral!

have you ever had a macaroon? Yeah, they’re not my fave.

are you stuck in the past? I don’t think so. I live in the future most often.

do you find yourself saying 'that's stupid' in your mind? Yeh.

do you like to talk a lot? I do!

what would you like to do with really close friends? lol what close friends?

would you ever consider taking a yoga class? Wouldn’t be my idea of a good time, no.

do you play second life or have you ever? I’ve never played it!

what do you think about the sims games? I loooove Sims. Wish they had better developers tho.

do you have mercy on others? Depends.

are you evil? are you good? are you neutral? I’d say I'm pretty good.

do you prefer normal dreams or lucid ones? None of my dreams are ever normal.

tell me about the worst sun burn you've ever had? I’ve only ever had one sunburn and it wasn’t that bad.

do you think it's normal for girls to have hair around their butthole? It grows there so yeah, it’s normal.

do you feel embarrassed a lot? Not really.

do you like to get wasted? I hate drinking.

are you interested in drugs? No.

do you feel smarter or dumber than you were 1 yr ago? Smarter, actually.

are you always trying to improve yourself, or you don't pay attention? I’m always trying to improve myself and its exhausting.

what is life to you? I just want my little family to be happy and healthy.

what is the most important thing in life, quick answer? Happiness.

what magazines are you subscribed to? what do you do with them? None. This isn’t 1994.

what do you like about the sunday paper? Again, this isn’t the 90′s, bro.

do you read your horoscopes religiously? Not religiously but I read mine whenever I come across one.

do you feel your zodiac describes you well? For sureeeee. I'm such a Capricorn.

are you nails painted? if so what? Yup! It’s a red by OPI but I don’t remember the name of it.

is black lipstick your favorite? I don’t mind it but it’s definitely not my fave!

do you like combat boots? They're not my favorite but again, don’t mind em.

do you wear glasses? Yup!

would you ever get back with one of your x's? I don’t have any!

do you sometimes feel dissatisfied with your love life? Nah, my relationship with my husband is the one thing that I never question. 

do you like mac more than pc? Yesss. I would never go back to a PC.

are you friends with your neighbors? We’re friendly but I wouldn’t say we’re friends! 

are you super generous? Not really!

do you feed the strays in your neighborhood? We don’t really have strays, just outdoor kitties in the summer and I always make friends with them and bring them food/treats!

would you rather live in a apt, house, or mansion? A house preferably!

do you think old houses are creepy? Nooo, I love them!

have you won any trophies/ribbons? which are you most proud of if any? Maybe in school? But I don’t remember them so obviously they weren’t very important.

do you like living somewhere with four seasons? Yes!

what is your favorite season? least favorite season? why? I like late spring/early summer because everything feels fresh and new and it’s warm but not hot. I hate winter because the sun goes down at 4pm and it’s scary to drive in.

do you like to answer surveys explaining yourself, or being really quick? I like the more thought provoking ones that require longer answers.

are you afraid of being sucked into quick sand? I’ve never come across it so it’s not really on my list of top fears.

do you think it's ok to be selfish? I think we should be selfish about more things.

do you type home row or with two fingers? Home row.

are you bad at basic math? Absolutely. I don’t think I could do long division anymore if you paid me.

do you wear a watch? No, they make my wrists look weird.

do you like the smell of cig smoke? No.

do you like smoking weed? I tried it once and it was not a good experience.

do you read poetry? I genuinely hate poetry.

do you have a celeb crush? Not that I can think of off the top of my head!

do you feel connected to any certain celeb in some weird way? No.

do you listen to music a lot? A normal amount, I think!

what is a website you cannot live without? I could live without them all.

do you like to donate money to charity? I don’t donate to charities. I don’t trust that they’re putting their money towards what they say they are. I prefer to support real people with whatever extra money I have.

have you ever cheated on your bf/gf/wife/husband? No and I wouldn’t ever.

what kind of outdoor activities do you like? Picnics or hammocks in the park!

would you rather date at a school football game or theatre play? ...what?

what kind of role would you play as in a play? I wouldn’t.

in a movie would you be the villain, hero or main person? I’m the main character for sure.

if you could get anything in your trick or treat bag, what would it be? Money or Reese’s.

do you like thunderstorms? I love them!

do you like to drive a car? It makes me anxious.

what car do you want? what color? I genuinely don't care about what kind of car I drive.

are you a speed racer or more cautious? are you too cautious? I’m a grandma driver, always have been and always will be.

do you stop at the stop sign or skim it a little? Full stop.

favorite gel pen? Papermate Ink Joys are the bestttt.

is the world going to end in december? do you know anyone that really thinks this? Was this written in 2012??

do you like to fish? Never been but I don’t like fish and it seems quite barbaric.

would you ever be a butcher? Not if I had any choice.

do you mind chipped nail polish or does it look trashy? I don’t care what other people do with their nails but on me, when my polish starts chipping, I take it off. It feels messy to me.

what is your desktop background? A collage I made of us.

do you ever say something is your favorite then you lose favoritism 4 it? I don’t really ever announce favoritism on anything. 

did you play mash as a kid? do you even know what that is? In like the 6th grade.

is it ok for an adult to have a kiddy toothbrush? Why would I care about what another adult puts in their mouth??

do you like glitter? It’s pretty but a bitch to get rid of.

play doh or clay? Slime?

do you journal? This is a form of journalling, right?

what is something you do pretty much every day? Snuggle my bbs!

give me some good advice to live by. ...I need life advice, I shouldn't be giving it.

your name is? Oop.

what was your fav. time in your life? why? When I first met my husband. It was fun to be young and in love.

do you type in all caps, lowercase only or normal usually? I type the proper way.

do you feel you change everyday or are you stagnant? I like a good mix of routine with some spontaneity.

do you go to 'haunted' houses for october? what would you like to see in one of the houses? I’ve never been to one.

what are you being this yr for halloween? what about next year? I didn’t do anything this year and have no leads for next!

#surveys

[rev3rb]

I always love your thoughts and today’s were no different! Honestly, the way you’re able to look at the bigger picture and make inferences on where things are headed gets me so much more excited for the series. At this point I’m really just anticipating how everything is gonna culminate and shake out. Reading your response made me realize just how many characters are back into play rn. With Mika deciding to be a demon we’ll be able to return to the squad and their next move, we have a couple demons up in the air loyalty wise, plus the First is apparently making a move that multiple progenitors are gonna respond to. With all these groups in place there’s so many possibilities for how exactly the next big confrontation or step in everyone’s respective plans are gonna play out. I’m especially curious to know if Yu’s squad is gonna have a ‘enemy of my enemy’ type of alliance with the vampires or if there’s gonna be a 3-way conflict. I mean it could even be 4-way if the army gets back involved.

So yeah, I’m feeling pretty optimistic that things are somehow gonna settle into place soon, maybe even for the main/final climax of the series idk?? But what you said about what might happen with Shinya, Kureto, and Mika made me feel a lot more confident about my faves’ fates so thank you for that lol. At this point, I’m just gonna keep my fingers crossed that Rigr’s plan works without too many casualties to our protagonists 🤞🏽

Aw thank you for the kind words anon! I'm glad you enjoy hearing my ramblings. Owari no Seraph as a whole is pretty hard to predict. I do my best since it's fun to speculate, but I could be incredibly wrong. Only time will tell if I'm right. But yes, like you said, it's apparent that things are finally starting to come together. I believe Kagami has either outright said this or has implied it, but I think we're reaching the climax of the story here? Maybe he just said midpoint. Either way, we're building to something big.

Alliances are ridiculously hard to pin down. Everyone is using everyone and while we know motivations, we don't know what that entails for their plans. This is just off the top of my head so I may get some of the characters we haven't seen in a while wrong, in which case I'm sorry. For a quick rundown on how chaotic this all is:

Rigr: Get revenge on The First for abandoning vampire kind

Urd: Maintain/Restore order in vampire society (help Rigr?)

Guren: Stop his friends from dying and resurrect everyone who's died because of his ending the world

Mahiru: Stop The First's plans? (tbh her exact goals are a little unclear iirc. She's helping Guren but I don't believe her goal is the same)

Yuu Squad: Protect/save their family (Mika primarily atm)

Mika: Nothing atm really since his memories are messed up, but essentially it's Protect Yuu

Krul: Get Asura back

Ferid: Get revenge on Rigr for his vamprisim

Shinya and Guren Squad: Save/Protect Guren

Kureto: Firmly establish humanity's place/power in the current ruined world

The First: Stop a catastrophe? This somehow involves reviving Mikaela.

Everyone else is backing one of these parties without a big goal for themselves. My point is this is a mess. Not really a problematic mess as it's not bad to see so many different goals clashing, but jeez. End of the day, I could def see some of the currently formed factions teaming up if their goals align, and I think it could be argued that they do.

As a last note, let's just hope what I said about Mika, Shinya, and Kureto was right. This series could easily throw us a curveball, but I'm glad my thoughts have made you more optimistic!

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[brave-clarice]

“Clarice” Liveblog: Episodes 5 & 6

Since these are extraordinarily late, I tried to keep them more concise/focused than before. I’m sorry for how long it’s taken me to (almost) catch up. And to the handful of you who’ve enjoyed these and encouraged me to do them: thank you!

Episode 5, “Get Right With God”

the music at the beginning of this episode might just be in the maintenance guy’s headphones(!) but it was still a…Choice.

there’s something so tragic about watching Clarice be unable to use her legs… :’(

this whole scenario feels like a twisted parallel universe version of the end of Hannibal.

glad to see Ardelia finally has her priorities straight and is going to fight for her best friend! let’s forget her Episode 4 subplot ever happened.

good: the warrior finding a weapon even in the direst of circumstances!

bad: those damn moths are back. at least this time they might be drug-induced.

“she worked Bill alone” no, she didn’t. not really. (Hannibal: I’m right here.)

stop trying to make Likable Paul happen, it’s never going to happen!!!

I HATE the “Reesey” nickname, y’all. HATE. IT.

plus, we know that her dad called her “Baby”?

her father’s appearance doubles down on the end-of-Hannibal vibes...Not Sure If Want.

wow, Clarice is being literally tortured? thanks, I hate it!!!

really doubt that Clarice’s Pinto used to belong to her father (who drives a truck in the books??)... weird flex.

and how would she even have gotten it? her mother would either have driven that car into the ground out of necessity or else have sold it for the money the Starlings needed so desperately.

Pintos also weren’t super high-quality cars and were definitely not built to last ~20 years.

Clarice already being able to chat with her father whenever she needs to really undermines the therapy Hannibal will eventually give her, but…I guess they’ve already accepted they’ll never make it that far?

“you’re trying to get in my head” yeah, and she’s doing it, too–’cause she learned from the best!

“you get an answer, I get an answer, Felker.” she’s Hannibal’s girl all right.

this episode’s had flashes of brilliance before diving back into…whatever tf watching one of your favorite characters of all time being tortured is.

I really wanted Ardelia to say that no, but Clarice was like a sister to her.

it took FIVE episodes to get some lamb imagery, but we’ve been looking at moths for the entire season?!

oof, Clarice voicing her own insecurities about her childhood abandonment and using them to twist Felker’s arm...painful but smart.

HANNAH!!!

I would die 4 baby Clarice

after all that, Clarice is going to apologize to Ardelia about last week? this episode SUCKS.

Good: Clarice playing mind games with Felker like Hannibal did to her; Ardelia going to bat for her bestie, lamb flashbacks, baby Clarice, and HANNAH!

Bad: So much. Clarice being medically tortured multiple times, moth hallucinations, the several-years-premature (imo) Daddy-as-Guardian-Angel plot device, “Reesey”...did I mention Clarice getting repeatedly tortured?!

Ugly: Krendler backstory + making out with his wife. Ew.

Wow, this episode was a hot mess, and I kind of hated it. I loved Clarice’s really Hannibalesque approach to Felker, and I’m so thrilled that Hannah got mentioned at all (tho...did they need to be so heavy-handed with the helmet and gun and everything?) Also nice to see Ardelia behaving much more in-character. That said, it was sickening and imo totally unnecessary to further traumatize Clarice the way they did. To make her almost helpless.

Clarice, and by extension Rebecca Breeds (who is fantastic and deserves better), has been given very little range so far. She’s frequently been shown as miserable, afraid, desperate, traumatized, angry, resentful, but I also want to see her joyful, laughing, silly, relaxed...something else that will give her depth. Her life wasn’t miserable 24/7, 365. It was just unfulfilling. We got glimpses of this in the first two episodes. PLEASE bring it back!

And rn I’m questioning how Clarice’s career can possibly drag on for another six years after this. Her apparent PTSD is already interfering with her job performance as it is--this experience is only going to make it worse. Her “body count” in Hannibal was around five, iirc, and that was enough to slap her with the “Death Angel” moniker. In the show at least four people have died in close proximity to Clarice in the space of like...a week. How does she come back from that, even as the savior of Catherine Martin? It’s a PR nightmare for obth Clarice and the FBI.

They’ve also sort of forgotten that the Martins existed while continuing to flesh out Krendler’s (?!) character? It’s weird.

I almost don’t even want to watch Episode 6 after that. But here goes...

Episode 6, “How Does It Feel to Be So Beautiful?”

the freaking MOTHS again, I hate them!

frankly, yeah, Clarice should be on leave.

Clarice’s nondescript monochrome suits and constant ponytail are just so boring. in the book she’s described as never having to put effort into making her hair look good--so why is it always pulled back in this show?

I’m not sure it’s very in-character for Clarice, at this point in her career, to go over her boss’s head to get out of admin leave (one she really needs to take tbh) even for the sake of solving a case

lol what the actual hell @ AG Martin guilt-tripping Clarice, who was very recently tortured and almost died, for not calling Catherine back? Clarice is not Catherine’s therapist!

THIS is what my Vogue-reading heroine with burgeoning great taste wears for a night out? so disappointing.

never in my life did I think I’d be sitting through Krendler’s personal drama in a show ABOUT CLARICE STARLING.

her costume sucks and her hairstyle’s from years in the future, but dang does Clarice look gorgeous.

and I love thinking of her getting a taste of the luxury she’ll enjoy with Hannibal. :)

you know what? I think I was actually fine with them forgetting that the Martins were in this show.

whyyy is Krendler being made so sympathetic?!

now Catherine Martin “loved to sew” just like Frederica Bimmel? hmm. (tbf, maybe this is in the novel, and I’ve just forgotten.)

her gift for Clarice is sweet, though.

so beautiful, indeed

Christ on a cracker, that confrontation between the Martins was painful to watch (not a criticism). this show’s AG and her daughter are very much two of a kind in terms of emotional manipulation.

I stan one (1) doofus

now either Catherine’s gaslighting Clarice...or Clarice’s trauma (over BILL! again with this!) is so pervasive that it’s twisted her memories. either way, I hate it.

so Krendler’s lawyer is dirty and that’s why he’ll (probably) turn against Clarice? but WHY? why can’t Krendler just suck?

Good: Clarice looking gorgeous, Ardelia continuing to fight for Clarice, female characters in positions of authority everywhere

Bad: Clarice’s underwhelming costumes, Clarice’s primary/worst trauma apparently STILL being Buffalo Bill & having Clarice break down crying again (and NOT over what happened last week, which would tbh make a lot more sense).

Sad: Shaan’s backstory about his wife, everything involving Catherine

Ugly: Krendler subplot. Ugh.

I just don’t know how I feel about this installment. Wish I cared more about the overarching conspiracy plot, but I’m really only here for Clarice and Ardelia. And while no show can stand on the shoulders of a single character, for a show about Clarice, there seems to be quite a bit of screentime devoted to her bosses, Martin and Krendler, and even to her team members. And all without Clarice herself getting much character development. They don’t seem to be exploring much of her character other than her traumatic backstories, and I’m no longer very hopeful that she’ll be much more fleshed out in the last four episodes, either. It’s a bummer. I really think Rebecca could shine like Jodie did if she were given a chance.

Most of the scenes with the Martins were visceral and felt so real that it was hard to watch. That said...the AG Martin/Catherine content all strikes me as being somewhat detached from the rest of the show, as if the writers are making it up as they go along with no real end goal in mind.

Man...these two were rough going. Very little humor or warmth and absolutely no joy. Of course the source material is dark, so a somewhat dark crime drama is to be expected, but I really think the show needs a slightly less intense, bleak and (dare I say it?) unpleasant episode. But they writers have really dug themselves into a hole by zeroing in on Clarice’s PTSD. And unlike in Hannibal, there’s no love interest with whom she (and by extension, the audience) can flee her misery and pain. 

I'm cautiously optimistic about the rest of the season. A lot of the ingredients are there, and despite my many criticisms, it’s been great to spend time with a character I love. Fingers crossed that they finish strong!

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[tricktster]

I feel your pain. My brother has lifelong health problems that are rapidly getting worse. Every appliance that uses water has broken at some point over the last month. Also, I have bought snd exchanged three fish tanks, because each fish tank had a leak. My dental cap ollied out. To be fair I DID do some black magic adjacent shit. So like. I'm bearing it as gracefully as I can :p

Hoo boy, you and I should grab an age appropriate beverage sometime because i also have a loose filling and an unexpected aquarium shrimp tragedy on my list of grievances...

okay well it’s not that huge, it’s just that I was getting anxious because Baja Blast, my recently acquired and spectacularly beautiful blue pearl neocardinia, was acting sluggish and her gills, which had been tinged a distinctive looking neon green a few weeks ago, now looked impacted and weirdly frilly.

So I did some googling and discovered that Baja Blast had ellibiopsidae.

Ellibiopsidae is a fungal parasite that looks kind of like a lichen and essentially eats a shrimp alive from the inside. There is literally no cure recognized by the scientific community, though there are some businesses that will really try to sell you otherwise. I am at my fucking limit for snake-oil miracle cures rn, so I did the same thing I do with regard to my parent’s condition, i.e. skipped the bullshit and went right to the peer reviewed journal articles... and yeah.

Not only is there no cure, but if the infected shrimp molts or dies and the other shrimp eat the infected shell or body (which happens all the time because shrimp are grade a nastyboys), it’ll spread through the tank. So, I had to do the right thing for the good of all my animals, which is the worst thing, and euthanize this little tiny beautiful little being.

I am soft about being the cause of animal death, and getting softer. It’s been years since I ate any mammal (or ridiculously, octopus) meat, which I originally claimed was for environmental reasons, but is in practice because if I can look into the soft, vacant eyes of my idiot axolotls and see that there is some sort of inner life therein worth respecting and protecting, well, shit, have y’all met a pig or a cow?

(If anyone is curious, I still eat chicken and fish; fish, because it is incredibly hard to avoid and because I can vote with my dollar to support sustainable and ethical fishing practices, and chicken mostly because I have spent enough time with chickens to know that if they had any say in the matter, they would eat me first)

Anyway, even though I’m soft about animal death, I will absolutely push myself past any amount of squeamishness when it comes to an animal in my care that is suffering. So, I made the call not to subject her to weeks of untested and possibly painful treatment with little chance of success, and I euthanized a being, even though it really bummed me out, because it was the right thing to do for the greater health of my colony.

I’m getting introspective here, because the analysis I had to engage with there is, on a much larger scale, what my parent is dealing with. I’m trying to respect their confidentiality and not put their personal struggles on blast, but I think maybe an analogy is useful: what is going on is akin to contemplating the amputation of a dominant hand.

Sticking with the metaphor: My parent has a congenital condition that, unmedicated, would lead to the total loss of function in both hands. This is a nightmare for them, as it would be for anyone who has gone 65+ years enjoying full use of their hands, only for that ability to suddenly falter. Due to recent medical advances, they have been recieving regular medical treatments to retain function in their hands, which is extremely unpleasant to go through, but has been worth it because the treatments have not only stopped the progress of the disease, but actually produced some improvement in function.

As with any medical procedure, though, the treatments my parent recieves have some wildly unlikely possible complications. Two weeks ago, my parent received their treatment and it quickly became evident that one of those incredibly unlikely complications had occurred in the most severe way possible. Since that day, it has been a constant, round the clock battle trying different approaches (all extremely painful!) to combat this complication. My parent lost all function in their “hand” on the day this all manifested, and has not had any restoration of function since.

At first, the goal of the medical approach was to restore function to their “hand”, but we are pretty far past that now; the goal is now to not lose the “hand” entirely, forget function. Things have somewhat stabilized, but the prognosis is incredibly foggy and unclear at this point, and all the while my parent has required constant care and has been in incredible pain. Emotionally, they are at the point where it is a question of how much more of this it is fair and reasonable to subject themselves to. The prospect of amputation and prosthesis is extremely upsetting, and the thought of going forward like this indefinitely is ... also extremely upsetting.

My brother is an incredibly smart man with a ton of knowledge on the issue of maintaining quality of life in elderly populations - that’s his life’s work, in fact. He is very concerned about the prospect of amputation and prosthesis because he fears that it will have a potentially huge impact on my parent’s quality of life going forward, and because he is optimistic that we are on the right track to have further medical breakthroughs that would allow my parent to regain function down the road if their “hand” is not surgically removed now.

And me? I’m soft, and my parent is in excruciating pain, and I cannot help but think of the calculus I always have to run for the beings in my care - is the possibility of a cure sufficient to ask them to endure an indeterminate period of suffering? Is it fair and ethical to ask them to endure this, on the offchance that whatever’s wrong can be fixed?

There was a simple answer for me in the case of the shrimp. There’s not one when it comes to this, to the big thing looming over my life and thoughts that actually really matters. And, of course, my family isn’t alone in struggling with something like this, particularly now, with a pandemic boiling through my country that is forcing so many of us to face similar dilemmas; what is kind, what is fair, what is medically possible, what nightmare will develop next that we are powerless to prevent? How do you do the right thing here, when the worst and most unlikely scenario has manifested?

So, with ALL that said, I just want to express how profoundly furious, how absolutely enraged and impotent and wounded I am today, to witness a political party of bigots and sociopaths cluster together this afternoon to ensure that a judicial nominee is seated on the supreme court specifically because she will actively work to make these intimate and painful medical decisions harder and more scarring and with greater risks to consider.

This post is ALL over the place but needless to say I am in a mood.

[sunflower-riki]

Hey I was wondering if I could get an enhypen ship??

My mbti is entp-t and my enneagram is 6w5. I can be really talkative or quiet depending on who I’m with. I naturally take care of other people more and take on the role of the mom friend/therapist friend. I’m good at listening/talking. I can get annoyed quite easily but I never get mad. I’ve been told my aura/energy can be quite intimidating and I have a resting bitch face so those combined make me a little unapproachable to some people. I don’t really like skinship (handholding, arm linking, & people laying on me are tolerable to me) and I hate when people are super clingly as I’m pretty independent. I’m 5’5, I have black hair with curtain bangs that stop above my mid back but it’s dyed rn. I have brown eyes and some freckles. My face is more round(?) and I have chubby cheeks too. My style is mostly casual/simple and I stick to more neutrals/shades. My hobbies include cooking/baking, listening to music ( pop, kpop, indie, rock are my top genres according to Spotify), playing around with makeup, photography/videography(filming), shopping, and talking to people. I also enjoy watching movies my two favourite genres are crime/true crime and psychological thrillers. Idk if this is enough info so I’ll just sprinkle in some random facts about me lol. I really enjoy chemistry and biology and am planning to go into the medical field when I’m older. I have a hugeee fear of spiders and bugs, I refuse to enter rooms if ik there’s a bug/spider in there. I have two dogs and I’m planning to get a cat (hopefully) soon. Im bilingual but im getting kinda rusty in the other language 😞😞. I did dance for like 4-5 years when I was younger but I stopped and haven’t done it in 3(?) years. I joined almost all the sports teams in elementary but I wasn’t really good at any of them except for track but I hated that lmaooo. Also don’t be fooled by the last statement I literally don’t do any sports now and I’m not athletic that was like my prime time for sports but now it’s over.

Hopefully that was enough info 💕

Thank you and hope you’re safe and healthy 💖💖💖

Thanks for requesting 🥺!!

I ship you with Jungwon !!

calm yet talkative couple

You guys would most likely cook together while blasting music

He would most likely be such a thoughtful bf

Like imagine during your bday, boy buys you a camera and video camera

And most likely at times remind you to bring it along

Oh y/n we are going to see the cherry blossom today as date!! Don't forget to bring your camera !!

He encourages you

Always optimistic

He will definitely binge watch crime thriller or true crime documentaries ( homicide, man slaughter etc)

If ya want to he would have no issue playing some sports with you

Just really lovely couple tbh 🥺

Btw hi besties!!! Am glad to meet a crime documentaries and movie enthusiastic like me !!! My ambition is to become a criminal psychologist.

#enhypen scenarios #enhypen reactions #enhypen x reader #enhypen fluff #enhypen jungwon #enhypen ships

[kiara-carrera]

teen wolf movie. thoughts?

when i tell you that was the last fucking thing i expected opening instagram today ... like tyler's post slapped me right in the face!!!! 13 to 17 year old amanda is losing her goddamn mind rn.

as for my initial reactions .... i'm gonna be completely honest here and i preface this by saying i was a teen wolf fan since day 1 like i remember watching s1 when it first started airing and i wrote teen wolf fics and teen wolf was a HUGE portion of my life for years — after s3, i felt like the show kinda fell flat for me. there were things that i liked and i loved pretty much all the new characters, but 4-6 just didn't hit the same as 1-3.

and honestly i think that the show had a fairly decent ending, like things were wrapped up pretty well, which is why i've spent the past year watching fans (especially newer ones) on tiktok rally for a s7 or something of the sort being like can we just let it be pls ... but hey, what can you do?? so while i'm excited by the prospect of new content, i'm also a lil wary.

overall, i will be watching this the second it drops because i am nothing if not a whore and i'm being cautiously optimistic and hoping they don't screw up character development or focus heavily on stiles, because it's scott mccall's fucking show and i have spent too many years being mad at people for treating him as anything less than the main character. HE IS THE HOT GIRL!!!! and i will say i'm super happy for tyler posey because you can tell how much he adores teen wolf so he's probably so fucking pumped to be playing scott again and i just enjoy the thought of him being happy. but i will fight jeff davis myself if something gets fucked up idc that man has taken enough from me.

#asks #i feel like i'm living in another dimension tbfh #claryxjackson

[elaboratedbee]

Bigby x Reader

Pairing: Bigby Wolf x Reader (i changed this to be gender neutral!)

Summary: bigby deals with his rapidly growing feelings for the new Fable that moved into the apartment above his, a nymph. (alternatively, you give bigby flowers)

Rating: E (hella fluff)

Word Count: 4208 (idk how it got long it just did i’m so sorry)

Note: hey guys, this is my second imagine! :) I just love this wolfman rn and I literally cannot wait until s2! i’m a new blog so pls feel free to interact, or request something, bc corona has given me hella free time ;)

You Belong Among The Flowers

You

As you set down the last box in your new apartment, you let a sense of accomplishment wash over you. It hadn’t been easy to save enough money to afford an apartment in the Woodlands, but you worked hard managing your business, growing flowers and owning a florist as well as growing fruit and vegetables which you sold to the grocery stores in Fabletown. When Snow had informed you of the two new apartments that had become available, you couldn’t help but fall in love with the idea. The place you were living before was a little sketchy (read: it was a total shithole, and you were definitely close to getting stabbed on several occasions). 

This way, you would be closer to the allotments you had managed to buy right at the edge of Fabletown, closer to Snow who you had thoroughly enjoyed getting to know during the first couple of months of her deputy mayorship, and it was a hell of a lot safer. The Woodlands had the extra insurance of being the home of the big, bad wolf. Fabletown harboured some pretty stupid criminals, but there weren’t many people stupid enough to target the apartments across the hall from the Sheriff. 

The place needed some life in it, as soon as was possible, however. The stark and empty room made you uncomfortable, and as soon as you set your first fern down on one of the shelves, you immediately felt better. The best part about the place, which really convinced you to part with most of your savings, was the balcony. You couldn’t wait to have it bright with life, a practical jungle on your doorstep. A flower nymph with no flowers was not a happy being, so that was the first thing you got to work on, planting your seeds and setting out your pots. 

It was already falling dark by the time you were done, but you were more than content to spend the night on a mattress in the middle of the floor now that you were surrounded by, at least the beginnings of, a flower garden. 

Bigby

By the time Bigby reached his cramped, little apartment in the evening, it was usually long after darkness had fallen over Fabletown. As he turned the key in the stiff lock, a sigh escaped his lips. He’d been tracking a car thief all day and had not been successful. The detective hated going home with a case hanging over him; there was no way he would be able to get any real sleep while all of his thoughts and theories were racing through his head. 

Bigby opened the door, dim yellow light from the hallway seeping into the room. The lingering smell of smoke from his Huff and Puffs and the scent of whiskey hit his nose even harder once the door was opened, and even he grimaced slightly at the smell. He flicked on the light and took his phone off of the ringer, a habit that he’d developed long ago. It was nice to be enveloped in peace and quiet in the evening. It was the way he liked it, he told himself. Somewhere in the very back of his mind, he knew that he really made himself unavailable because that way he could pretend that being alone was a conscious decision that he made.

Making his way to the small window in his living space, he opened it in an attempt to allow some fresh (well, as fresh as it got for New York city) air into his apartment. Bigby froze as an unexpected scent was the first to hit him, and he inhaled deeply. It was a floral scent, different kinds of mingling together. Some overpowered the less aromatic ones, but Bigby’s sense of smell was heightened enough that he could pick out each individual smell and he traced it to somewhere above him. The pitch-black darkness outside made it a futile goal to find out where it was coming from, so he simply stood and basked in it, sure that it would be gone in the morning. He assumed that someone in a nearby apartment had received a bouquet of flowers and had left it on their windowsill. It was concerning that they had left their window open, he noted, even the Woodland building wasn’t particularly safe. 

A bittersweet pang of homesickness ran through his body like a shiver, pooling in his chest and making his heartache. Mostly, he avoided thinking about the Homelands, as it always resulted in the sad longing that he was feeling now. But with the scent in his nose so reminiscent of the beautiful woodlands and sprawling idyllic spaces that they had once called home, there was no way he could avoid it now. Once the initial sadness passed, he allowed himself to relax into the sense of security and joy that were stronger than any negative feelings when he thought back to their home and all of its splendour. Although the person, or monster, that Bigby had been back then was a source of regret, he could not deny that he’d do almost anything to trade the dirty, concrete cityscape outside of his window for hills and mountains, forests and rivers. 

For the first time that he could remember, he didn’t reach for a cigarette or a tumbler of whiskey when he sat down in his chair to rest at last. Instead, he inhaled deeply, and let the smell of flowers lull him to a restful sleep. 

When he awoke, he was pleased to find that the pleasant smell persisted, which made him considerably more optimistic about the day ahead. There was one lead that he thought to chase up, but he figured that he ought to fill in Snow on the recent happenings before making his way out. She was much busier now, since the Crooked Man. Things weren’t perfect, he didn’t think they would ever be, but they were certainly better. Snow was making changes, just like she had promised to herself and everyone that she would. When Fables came through the door of the business office, their wishes weren’t always granted, but they were always heard.

Bigby thought that was a step in the right direction. 

After showering and getting dressed, he stepped into the elevator and pressed the button for the correct floor. The line for the business office was already fairly long, despite the early hour of the morning and he resolved not to take up too much of Snow’s time. Ignoring the eye rolls and general disgruntlement from the Fables in the hallway as he bypassed the line, he made his way into the office. Snow was busying herself with a stack of papers, looking rather stressed at it all. He didn’t like to see her that way, but he did prefer it to the look of frustration and helplessness that he caught glimpses of when she was working as an assistant. 

Opening his mouth to announce his presence, he promptly closed it as something took him by surprise. On Snow’s desk was a vase of flowers, a big and beautiful bouquet. Proud white roses were peppered with baby's breath, all sitting on a luscious green bed of eucalyptus and hydrangeas. It was perfect, it was if it were an incarnation of Snow herself. He looked at it and realised, at that moment, exactly why people gave each other flowers, he had never had a reason to consider it. 

He must have been staring for a lot longer than it felt like because what finally broke him from his reverie was the sound of Snow’s laughter, soft and musical. Frowning at the sight of her mocking him, he flipped her off, which only made her laugh more. “Who’s the secret admirer?” He inquired, “I’ll need their address too, you know, just in case.” 

Snow glared at him.

“I’m kidding.” Bigby placated her, raising his hands in mock surrender. The smell of this bouquet was different from the one coming through his window, telling him that it was a different set of flowers, but surely the giver of these was also the source of the others. It seemed like far too much of a coincidence, otherwise. 

With a pointed look, Snow said, “you already know it. I told you last week that someone new was moving into the Woodlands! Since Crane is gone, we renovated his hideous penthouse into two new apartments.” Even the mention of his name raised Bigby’s hackles and got his blood boiling, so he could only imagine the disgust that his friend must feel whenever he’s brought up. 

“Right,” Bigby agreed, hazily recalling the conversation that he had definitely not paid his full attention to. It was no wonder that Bigby had missed them moving in, considering that he usually leaves the Woodlands in the early hours of the morning and returns in . . . the early hours of the morning. Yikes.

“I told them about the apartment, so they sent me these as a way to say thanks,” Snow explained, gesturing toward the flowers.

He wondered what their connection was to the flowers, whether they just liked them or whether they were a part of their history, their story. Once again, Bigby opened his mouth only to be interrupted by an inpatient sounding knock on the door. Snow jerked her head towards it before throwing an apologetic smile towards the Sheriff. “I’m sorry, Bigby. I have a lot to do. I should probably get going with these meetings.” 

That was his cue to leave, so the wolf nodded at her and made an exit from the office. He was busy, too, and things were never really peaceful in Fabletown, so it was probably for the best that he got going, but he couldn’t help but wish he had asked for a name.  

He was soon to find out, however, only a couple of days later. Taking a long drag from his cigarette, Bigby used his free hand to open his mailbox. It was more of a tradition at this point, considering he couldn’t actually recall the last time he received a letter in the post that wasn’t a bill. 

An out of tune ding announced the arrival of the elevator but Bigby didn’t turn around, not wanting to invite conversation. He had just placed the car thief into custody, and Snow was going to arrange a trial for tomorrow. The system was much fairer now, more democratic and he liked it that way. Being the final authority on the Crooked Man last time was some heavy stuff, and there was no way to make everyone happy. Now, there was a jury, a real trial, fair sentencing. Fabletown was slowly but surely dragging itself off the ground and trying to become a more just place, a more safe place. If Bigby could do anything to make sure of it, he would. 

Finally looking up, he turned his head to see which of his neighbours had joined him at the letterbox. It was you.

He almost choked on the cigarette in his mouth as he regarded you, and when he took it out and crushed it underfoot, he could smell you, too. Without the overpowering scent of smoke under his nose, the floral scent that he had been succumbing to every night since the first overtook him and he felt a strange constriction in his chest.

You were beautiful, ethereal, but in a much different way than he could usually describe. It was the quirk of your mouth as you offered him a grin and the glint behind your eyes that suggested you were laughing at your own joke internally. “Sheriff.” You addressed him by his formal title and Bigby was torn. He wanted to hear you say it again, over and over. Sherriff. You said it with respect, with admiration even. It wasn’t an insult, a sarcasm, unlike when most of the Fables addressed him with his title. But he also wanted to hear you say his name. It was this desire that returned his ability to speak.

“Call me, Bigby.” 

You closed your mailbox, holding your letters in your hand and smiled wider, introducing yourseld in return.

“I’ll see you around, Bigby.” 

You were walking away, and Bigby, for the first time, was struck with the desire to stop you, make you stay, talk just a little longer. 

“I, uh, I like the flowers.” He managed to growl out. You looked a little taken aback at his tone and he cursed himself, but you recovered and offered him yet another smile. He noted how you gave them out like it cost nothing. 

“Oh, Snow’s?” You prompted him for more information. 

“Yeah, and I can,” he made a vague gesture towards his face, “smell the ones you have in the windowsill. From my apartment.” 

Your eyebrows raised a fraction in surprise, and he felt a weird sense of pride. What the fuck is wrong with you? He thought to himself. 

“Really? I’ll keep them there,” you were so sincere, you made such a simple comment sound like a promise. He nodded, unable to think of yet another reason to delay you and altogether confused about why he was freaking out the way that he was. You stepped into the elevator and was gone. 

You

You stepped off of the elevator and into your apartment, placing the letters down onto a table. The place wasn’t huge but you had made the best of it. The walls had a fresh coat of white paint, making the place seem more open and bright, the furniture was simple, mainly second hand, but it fits. Best of all, your beloved balcony. You guessed that’s what the Sheriff had confused for the flowers on your window-sill.

Great, leafy ferns and potted plants adorned your apartment all over, but the balcony was the centre of it all, and it was only just beginning. You had planted all manner of things, and you were only getting started. Due to your being a  flower nymph, they grew faster, strong and healthy, and the seeds that you planted mere days ago were beginning to form buds, and even open up. The scent was sweeter. The plants were happier, but you couldn’t really explain that sort of thing to another Fable. They would laugh at the notion, but you could feel it.

Moving to the city had been hard for you, really hard. The nymphs were the caretakers of the homelands, the trees, rivers, lakes and plants. The animals, too, even if they didn’t always know it. To have it ripped away was more painful than anything else you could have experienced. It wasn’t just a home that had been taken from you, it was a part of yourself that had been left behind. 

Your mind drifted to your recent interaction as you watered them with care, and you felt your heart rate pick up when you thought of the Sheriff. He was tired, you could tell, but he seemed kind enough. It was a common mistake that nymphs only took care of the plants in the forest, when really they guarded the animals, too. It gave you more of a read on the beastially inclined residents, and you could almost feel the weight on Bigby’s shoulders as you stood next to him. 

I like the flowers. 

The compliment played over in your mind. It had taken you by surprise, considering what all of the other residents had told you about the big, bad wolf. You trusted Snow’s word above the others when she told you about him, that he was a man that wanted to change, had changed. He wanted to make this place better, she had told you, just like her. But even Snow had grumbled to you a few times about how stubborn, how hot-headed and how harsh he could be. 

Over the next couple of days, he was stuck on your mind. You paid far more attention to the coming and going of the wolf than before, realising for the first time that he was rarely home at all. Could this really be the same man that everyone complained about downtown? The one that Fables still questioned as to whether or not he really cared at all? Every time you passed him, you sensed his exhaustion, his frustration. His loneliness. But there was something else when you passed him, too. This little spark of joy and excitement. You knew it must be the scent of the flowers, what else could it be? He had already remarked on it.

Deciding enough was enough, you went about making him the perfect bouquet. 

Throughout the week, you worked on your gift. You arranged it untraditionally in a long, thin wooden box which was overflowing with greenery. Succulents and hydrangeas were scattered amongst them like stars in the night sky. Wild berries shone like jewels, clinging to their stems. Most importantly, bright white lily of the valleys hung like bells. You picked them because of their sweet scent, hoping that the wolf would enjoy them. They were common in the homelands, and you wondered if it would remind him of the place. 

Finally satisfied, you picked up the arrangement late one evening and stepped into the elevator. Am I being crazy? You thought to yourself as your grip on the box tightened. You just thought that all of the things the Sheriff did for Fabletown deserved a little recognition. It was the least you could do say thanks, right? 

Arriving at the correct floor, you took a deep breath before knocking on Bigby’s door. It was a little late for a house call, you realised, but he wasn’t home at any other hour. The wolf opened the door, scowling until he saw you. Confusion replaced the general displeasure on his face until he noted what was in your hands. “Oh,” his voice was full of realisation, “I can hand those to Snow if you want, but if you just wait until tomorrow, she’ll be back in her office,” he explained to you. 

What? You realised quickly that he thought the flowers were meant for Snow and you shook your head, a little saddened that he didn’t even think that they could be for him. 

“Actually, Sheriff, they’re for you. For your windowsill.” 

The man’s face went completely blank while he processed the information, which was kind of scary. The guy really didn’t give anything away. 

“For me?” He repeated, sounding almost suspicious as he raised his hand to his mouth and removed his cigarette, seemingly wanting to inhale the flowers instead.

“Yep.” You assured him firmly, “you said you liked the scent of them so I thought you might like some of your own.” With your words, the energy of the wolf changed. The exhaustion and anger faded substantially and he finally seemed warm, almost as happy as your flowers. You seized the opportunity. “You mind if I come in? I can tell you about watering them and stuff.”

Bigby failed to hide his face a little more this time, a hand coming up to rub the back of his neck in embarrassment. “I don’t have anything to offer you, and the place is a real shithole.” He warned you. 

“I didn’t come for anything, I just want to bring you these,” you answer and he relents, stepping backwards and opening the door to allow you in. You expected the smell of cigarettes to be worse, but he had an open window that seemed to be helping with that. You set the flowers down on the windowsill and turned to face him. He was closer than you had expected, and a blush broke out onto your cheeks at the proximity of the wolf to you. You are overwhelmed with the desire to step even closer, but you stay put. The man was already freaked out, he didn’t need your crush to make it any worse.

“Why?” He seemed reluctant to ask like he had been trying to answer the question himself but just couldn’t figure out the answer.

“To say thank you. You do a lot for us, especially those of us who live in The Woodlands. I think of how much safer this place is just because you live here. And you said you liked them.”

“I don’t exactly do anything other than be the Big, Bad Wolf.” He points out, and you catch a cutting undertone to his argument.

“Bullshit.” He seems surprised at your choice of words and raises an amused eyebrow at you. “You get up at the crack of dawn and you get home little before then, sometimes not at all. You single-handedly protect all of the Fables in this town. You deserve a hundred flowers.” You pointed this all out casually, shrugging your shoulders but Bigby looks deeply uncomfortable. You wondered why he was so tense as you pointed out all he does. 

You wondered if anybody does.

Bigby

He thought that if you come any closer to him then he won’t be able to stop himself from kissing you. He also thought that he can’t move away. 

The scent of the flowers, your scent, was making him feel almost dizzy. It was hard to believe that you were in his apartment, that you brought him flowers. You brought him flowers, you brought him flowers, you brought him flowers. Ever since they spoke, such a small, meaningless conversation, he hadn’t been able to get you off his mind. Sure that you had forgotten it by the next day, he felt like such an idiot replaying it in his mind before he could fall asleep at night. 

But you hadn’t. You had remembered what he said and brought him flowers. 

“Thank you.” He realised he hadn’t even said that yet, and he turned away to admire them, and so that he didn’t have to look at you anymore. Clenching his jaw, he implored himself not to ruin this already, to just control himself, like he had with Snow once upon a time. But this time, it seemed impossible.

Then, you touched his arm. 

He was so acutely aware of your hand on his skin the whole time that it was there that he could barely hear what you were saying. All of the nice things you were saying about him, falling on deaf ears. God, he felt pathetic. Was that really all it took to turn him stupid? One compliment, one touch.

He hadn’t been touched in a while, though. Not like this. By someone who wasn’t trying to hurt him, or calm him down. Not by someone who just wanted to be close to him. 

Fuck it, he thought, and stepped closer, leaning into your touch. There were inches between you now. 

You

All of a sudden, he was in front of you. His skin was warm to your touch, and his eyes were simmering with something. You think back over the last couple of days. The way you had watched him, the way you’d thought of him. How you had spent hours finding the perfect flowers, arranging them just so. That wasn’t gratitude or friendly admiration and you knew it. You wondered if he knew it.

You looked up and met his eyes, they were almost gold now that you were close, more than brown. That’s the last thing you remember thinking before you weren’t thinking anything, but feeling the wolf’s mouth on yours. His hand comes up to cup your face, holding you close and the other hand moves to your waist. It’s needy, and almost desperate as the both of you simply give in to whatever desire you were pushing back. 

His face was rough, and you delighted in the coarseness of his hands, a shiver running through your body. He invaded all of your senses, occupies all of you for the minutes, or hours that the two of you are interlocked. The sharpness of his teeth on your bottom lip, gone as quickly as it came prompted you to gasp ever so slightly, allowing his tongue passage into your mouth. When you finally pulled away, air a terrible, evil necessity to you now, you dared to open your eyes and reassure yourself that you weren’t dreaming. Bigby was still pressed up against you, his eyes a brighter gold than they had been before and his breathing urgent.

“I like the flowers,” he chokes out, “I really, really like the - “

You cut him off by grabbing him by the tie and pulling him down towards you once again, rolling your eyes slightly at how awkward he was. You’d figure it out. Kissing him breathless, you finally released him and met his eyes. “I like you too, Bigby.” 

The wolf shared a genuine smile with you, one that reached all the way up to his eyes and flashed his sharp incisors. You wanted to see it again, a million times.

You were going to need more flowers. 

#the wolf among us #bigby wolf #bigby wolf x reader #bigby x reader #twau #imagine #bigby wolf imagine #my underappreciated baby #someone give him a hug #the wolf among us fanfic #bigby wolf fanfiction #the wolf among us imagine

[lesbiancarat]

Ahh my fish slapping comment xD lolol I am happy it makes you laugh but no reference. It's something I just have been saying since like, oof I was like 14 and on the internet? I truly don't know how or why I started saying this but I randomly did and it stuck with me ever since. Sadly not a cool backstory to the fish slapping

True, true. While you will spot similarities (as they are under the same company per se, that also means the manufacturer who creates the merch has things set up for not just one specific artists always) its how they do make it unique for said fandom. It is the first round of the new hybe rebranding so let's see how it goes for sure! I have some minor worries but I'm being optimistic! Oohhh that si also a good idea! I do know bighit did this for bts and school luv affair if memory is correct. The re-released that album for its anniversary as limited edition and I think there was some small merch for it as well. I do think that will be cool for the boys as well but as you said, we may have some minor issues with the repriting. Sometimes that can be solved but other times that cannot so sadly we don't know. I believe you can(?) Still get their older albums. Granted last time I saw this was during oh my era so I haven't checked since then via online stores.

Oohh no that makes sense! Doing bday merch isn't all too bad (granted not a western artist thing from what I have seen) but it is just well, capitalism lol. I do think they could have done the scoups (and possibly future members) differently. Like a book with pictures isn't a bad idea but idk...give me some pizzaz ya know? Like I get the simple design and I respect that but like you said, make it be related to the members personally like a cherry for cheol or tiger themed for hoshi (it would be chaotic but I would be here for it) if it is meant FOR fans. Make it seem like it has some thought besides just wanting an extra $$$ ya know? Apparently I saw that the scoups book has the letter H on the spine so some theorize that all together you get "happy birthday" spelled out which is unique if true! I just hope it is a bit ya know, something more. Not the worst but I hope you know what I mean! Ahh gotchas, gotchas. No, no thay makes sense with the svt ring merch. I think doing rings isn't a bad idea but it could have been a bit more unique to "carats" so have the ring be in either the official svt colors (so one in serenity and another in rose quartz) with something like "say the name! Carats!" Engraved into the ring, that would be I think a cute idea? A way to connect to the boys while being something unique? Of course it could be a bracelet or a necklace with a small pink or pastel blue diamond instead with a little charm with the engraving I suggested. Being too close to the rings the boys wear I think is slightly stepping lines but making a ring that is different but related to svt would be a good balance? Again just my suggestions (which am curious on your followers on what other merch would you like to see? I feel like you could so so much here! Just please no more plastic water bottles xD)

Oof yeah I think for me it is a similar time? Plus I sadly am not doing great money wise this week so I sadly have to miss out on it. But to those that will, have fun! I watched the 2018 one and it was fun (granted many stuff was cut? K believe the special solo stages weren't shown in the official vlive video) but it was a fun time so enjoy this year's caratland!

dhfjf that's fun though! the fish slapping does make me laugh 🤣

yeah i have hope for merch in the future as well! as far as old albums go i just bought my first "old" album this summer which was YMMDay and I ended up getting it used... a lot of sites have YMMDay and other old SVT albums listed but they're all sold out and as far as I know pledis isn't still printing new albums except for those on weverse shop (so like an ode onward. although i just checked and an ode and hitorijanai are sold out on WV shop too rn, idk if that's temporary or if they're permanently sold out too...). honestly this is why I'll probably keep buying svt's albums as they come out just so if i want them in the future i don't have to search for it, in hindsight i really wish I had just bought YMMDay back when it came out 😭

yeah exactly, i just wish they'd put more effort/personalization into the design rather than making it an obvious cash grab... it would be a cute design feature if the spines spell out happy birthday! and yeah exactly instead of the ring they could have done something else with its own meaning 🥺

I'm also interested in other carats merch ideas... whenever i see ppl talking about it i feel like they have such good ideas. and there are some carats on like twt and such who do merch resigns or theoretical concepts just for fun and they always look soooo good. honestly pledis/hybe just hire some carats for your merch team... DHGKGJG

caratland has come and gone which once again shows how long it took me to answer this DHFKGJ i know i don't have to explain myself but just to give you an idea of what I've been up to i was on the road for a week coming back to the Midwest and then going my sister's graduation ceremony and seeing family i haven't seen since before covid, then i moved into my apartment and spent a week settling in and catching up w a few friends i haven't seen since before covid, and today was my first day of classes! so I've been a bit busy and socially drained (but in a good way!) the last few weeks. but i did enjoy caratland! especially perf. units cover of chocolate, that lives in my head rent free DHFKGJ i think the links i posted before got taken down though, I'll need to update those at some point... did you have a favorite part from caratland if you watched it? (or from any clips you've seen djfkgjg)

#melia.ask #📖 anon #long post

[motherstone]

When you have the time could you share the bad au?

Anon, I am deeply grateful that you asked, but I must warn you that this is LONG (16+ arcs long and that’s because I havent conceptualized the others yet) and i am only sending you pt.1 Be warned.

More under the cut:

Deviation from canon:

·        Anything involving the aliens is dropped

·        Algos island won’t be a gas station, but an actual fucking island

·        The Voice is spiritual in nature.

·        The Old is New scene occurs around Book 5

·        Trellis eventually gets some fractions of his memories, but I dunno how yet

·        The Resistance at Frontera won’t be THE Resistance but the Elven resistance – they refused contact with the human resistance because they’re very discriminatory and hostile. The ER is composed of the researchers/engineers/etc and their kids that the Elf King failed to purge when they revolted once they fully realized that they are actually creating weapons of mass destruction

·        Emily gets trapped in the Void

·        There’s a whole lot more, but I can’t recall all of them

Note: Do take that these are not yet properly developed. Many of these are ideas I just enjoy playing around with. It WOULD not put much attention to most characters because a.) I haven’t nuanced their roles nor what part they should play in the story and b.) the narrative focuses on Trellis because I’m biased and ngl the potential of the story he could create is a LOT. He has sooo many potential conflicts, be it in self, society, and nature I couldn’t help myself. Also, do take note that this story is meant to be a tragedy – it’s going to explore Trellis and his reign, and the burden and subsequent consequences from it. The narrative doesn’t seek to “punish him” because 90% of the problems he encountered are out of his control and there is barely a perfect solution to anything, so he is bound to create ruthless and even questionable decisions as a result of his inexperience and young age despite his intelligence; all of these I am intrigued to explore about because all of it I just made up lmao.

In addition, my head blurred between what is canon, what I want canon to be, and what you know about the “canon” in my head (which is likely, not a lot because I never post abt it), so I may suddenly spout things that may seem out of context because you guys lack the background behind it. So if you have questions, pls feel free to send them my way. These arcs are INCREDIBLY condensed because if I spout too many details, I’d forget the details in other arcs. So. Yeah.

ARCS

STONEKEEPER TRIALS

-      Guardian Council arrives at Algos Island which contains the knowledge to purify the Voice from the Elf King (which should weaken him and thus easier to kill him)

-      Stonekeepers of past made sure to put security measure to prove the worthiness of the person seeking said knowledge and using it responsibly for the right reasons by subjecting them to a Trial (they will experience their deepest greatest desires and greatest fears as well)

-      Technically, the knowledge isn’t a concrete thing – it only works once per keeper, but it modifies itself to fill in the gaps of the knowledge they lack but seek (so like if youre seeking how to heal, the Temple will give you that knowledge and THAT knowledge only)

-      Lacking time, all three decided to take the Trials separately but at the same time.

-      This is supposed to be the fic on ao3 is about, even had an outline n all but its too long so I’ll post it later

-      tl;dr: Tellis finished first and is the one who gained the knowledge, and Vigo finished second, but Emily isn’t waking up at all. Eventually they all got attacked by the shadows

-      Trellis sends Vigo up to get the airship to them as he stays behind to protect Emily from the shadows

-      He’s getting super desperate as the enemies increase but Emily isn’t waking up until she suddenly transforms and tries to kill him

-      He barely survives but the Firebird gets away. The rest of the crew retrieved him, but when he retells them what happened…

-      They didn’t believe him. They think he sabotaged Emily.

BURNING OF IPPO

-      It more or less goes the same in Supernova, except the memory thing doesn’t happen and none of the Amulet trusts him except Riva and Vigo. Leon Miskit and Karen are still on Cielis while Navin n Aly are on Frontera but they don’t know that yet.

-      So the firebird attacks as usual, but instead of taken out early in the game, he is pushed to the limit protecting the city and its citizens as he’s the only one who can create a barrier while Vigo distracts FB and Riva evacuates the people

-      Trellis also bothers to release the elf soldiers in prison when it burns so they would be able to evacuate (will be important)

-      He nearly dies from exhausting himself, but manages to repel the FB to leave Ippo alone after much of it is burned. He is devastated by the aftermath because most of the people burned right in front of his eyes (will be important)

-      Worried at FB’s destructive power, they argue between pursuing it or ending the war. Riva argues trellis can’t go around protecting every city as its too fast for them, so it leaves only one viable option; end the war as quickly as possible to focus on Emily before she  burns everything and kill everyone

-      They eventually reunite with the Cielis army, but eventually gets abandoned again alongside the human resistance because they refuse to serve under Trellis, who was going to command the assault

-      Lacking an army, the elven, Luciean, and Ippoei soldiers then offers to help

-      They reconvene with the ER on Frontera, finally reuniting with Navin, Aly and Pil, who were all horrified by the news. Navin has mixed feelings but ultimately agrees it was his fault and is optimistic Em will be ok. Aly on the other hand is apprehensive but continues to trust him.

-      Meanwhile, Vigo departs to convince the CA to change their minds and get more allies, while Trellis, Luger, and the rest forms a plan…

BATTLE OF VALCOR

-      Trellis pretends to be captured by Elf Army to get close enough to the Elf King to kill him – avoiding as much bloodshed as possible. Unfortunately, he was decided to be executed before he could confront him so all hell breaks lose as the disguised soldiers ditches their disguises and fights the remaining EA on the king’s side

-      Note: Trellis is waaay more powerful and skilled here although his destructive powers are nowhere near Emily’s

-      He tries to make his fights as curt and decisive as possible to avoid wasting precious energy for the confrontation (I swear to god the fight sequence is more elaborate in my head but hnng I’m busy rn). Eventually he does make it at the temple of kings – where his father was waiting

-      Trellis was nowhere weak, but he barely holds ANY dice against his father’s power and was very close to nearly dying

FALL OF THE KING

-      He was saved by the timely intervention of Vigo and Riva – who has finally arrived with the CA (who got threatened into cooperating)

-      They barely get the upperhand, but they manage to get Trellis close enough to enact the Scission but, got uphold by the fact that the man they were trying to kill wasn’t dead in the first place but ALIVE

-      The Elf King begs Trellis to end it all, the mercy of release, for death, and it horrified him into freezing into place – MISTAKE

-      He gets a fatal wound being stabbed because the EK was tricking him (he is alive, but he was not really manipulated by the Voice – He was always evil all along), sneering at his softness that was never quite wrung out by the abuse

-      But that also gave Trellis the perfect opportunity to cast the Scission, which he then does at nearly the cost of his own life

-      The Voice gets cut off from the EK and retreated to the Void, and the EK dies from his wounds, and Trellis was about to meet the same fate

-      All three of them are barely held together by threads, but Vigo uses the last of his power so trellis could survive. At this, Trellis just has a mental breakdown and he doesn’t want to go any further, being so close to his breaking point because of all the horror he has to endure (ohh boii and it doesn get better from here)

-      But Riva was pleading for him to get up, get the mask and get to the other side, to show the mask, the soldiers that he WON and Gulfen surrenders and end the war. These two stumble slowly, but steadfastly, Riva practically the only thing supporting Trellis as they try to get to the fighting

-       They eventually manage to reach it, but trellis has to stand alone, composed, undefeated, because if it were anything less, people would challenge him. He declares a surrender.

-      The battlefield silences. One by one, the weapons drop.

#ask #asks #amulet bad ending au

[vent-inside-bitch-outside]

by and large this blog has been one of the only places I feel truly comfortable sharing my thoughts. I’m not auditing my own thoughts when i type here. that being said, i wonder about other people finding this. I can’t tell if I dont want that to happen or not. Like, i’d never lay myself bare like this to another human being, maybe this is the only way i can ever communicate about my feelings earnestly with another person? or on the other hand, maybe people are meant to have a place where they can process their own thoughts without expecting, wanting, or even entertaining the idea of someone else reading through their “writings.” I’m not sure what’s got me this talkative rn, but if i’m reading this back at a later date or “imaginary scenario where someone else reads this” comes true, i’m like, typing the thoughts exactly as they come to me, hence the conversational tone. Im also not reading this back now for a reason that i cannot particularly articulate at the moment. Posterity? that’s probably not right. Earlier, i was listening to hip-hop and i was feeling really sad cause it was like, all the plaintive kanye west songs i enjoy and i was letting my sad fester (white boy listen to sad kanye song cringe moment) and then spotify fed me some really positive  Q-Tip songs so im actually feeling kind of good. Last thing worth mentioning is that uhhh the reason my emotions are all stirred up rn is because I was playing amorous of all things and some of the more intimate (romantically, not sexually) moments made me feel... things.

like, the game would describe a passionate kiss or feeling safe while holding someone and i just,...  yeah ://// I got really sad. thinking about it just now made me kinda idk get more energy. I wish i could properly articulate it but it made me feel things, loneliness, I guess? like reminding me of what i dont have, a simulacrum of what i yearn for. Ive got a lot of energy but im gonna try to go lie down now.

Not sure who i’m addressing right now (future self? reader whom I know? Some random tumblr person who found this? If you know me irl and are reading this without my knowledge thats fucking weird. Regardless of if you exist, i’m addressing some vague individual in the future. That feels weird. I hope future me is... better. If he directed you here (if he’s still “he” but i do not intend to discuss nor acknowledge that repress repress repress repress its gone ok) then he really isn’t the person that wrote this, for the better obviously. The me(s) that have put their thoughts onto this blog are not the kind of person who would open up to someone like that. If he gave you this blog voluntarily, tell him i’m proud of him for the degree to which he’s grown :). My mood has rapidly shifted to more optimistic, but, i am truly hoping for better things in the future. If future me is who’s reading this right now, do i sound crazy rambling like this? I know you can’t answer this unless time travel exists in the future lol. But also I hope you’re finding this in a better place than i’m in writing this.

This is uuhhhhh pretty cathartic. I feel like i’m working a lot out right now. I’m going to make a seperate post so i don’t have to read thru all this later but I just realized that i am at least a little better right now. i am wishing well for myself. I AM PERMITTING MYSELF TO FEEL BETTER, AT LEAST A LITTLE BIT. im not ready to say the L-word to myself yet but im getting somewhere. but god fucking damn i need to stop having emotional epiphanies at 3:30 in the god damned morning. Doubt ill feel this well in the morning (or afternoon more realistically lol)

sometimes i just get the phrase “I love you” at the back of my throat, like wanting to come out randomly. so whoever is reading this, friend, stranger, future self. I love you :)

Every day i try a little harder to become a better person i hope.

that’s probably what i’ve been missing recently, a sense of hope. I think it may be coming back to me as of late :)). time will tell.

goodnight, and I wish you well. Thanks for listening.

[shikai-the-storyteller]

WFC: Siege watch!

Part 1: Episodes 1, 2, and 3

[Part 2] (Linking because Tumblr isn’t even showing the post on my blog or on my dash 🙄)

As a side note: every single person in this fandom is horrible at tagging their spoilers, you guys really need to do a better job at that because I’ve got a bunch of blockers on and I was STILL almost spoiled multiple times. Come on you guys...it literally came out today, be better about this.

Alright going to try and keep expectations low because I feel like the target audience for this is G1 dudebros who take a series about transforming cars way too seriously, but I’m still cautiously optimistic because a friend vetted for the dudes working on this show so WE”LL SEE

Episode 1

Aw man there’s only 6 episodes??? Bummer, I wonder if they’re already working on Season 2 or if they’re going to see how this does and let it die in the water if it’s not popular enough.

Things I know going in: Skyfire / Jetfire is in this, Megatron has big lips, and Elita is in it. That’s literally it, I’ve managed to avoid spoilers thusfar (though a few of the promo images implied Skyfire’s a Decepticon, so you KNOW that’s gonna break bad eventually)

WHEELJACK Wednesday THURSDAY

OH MYG OSH IS THAT SKYWARP??? EXPECTATIONS ARE NOW SKY-HIGH

The transformation sequences look so reminiscent of those stop-motion videos people do of their Transformer toys transforming. This isn’t a dig at the animation style, I think that’s rather charming and I wonder if it’s intentional.

Wow Bumblebee sounds like a jerk. I’m instantly on-edge, please don’t make all the characters ~hyper-masculine mean guys who don’t know how to have fun or talk about their emotions~

“The Autobots aint paying you for attitude” YOU TELL HIM WHEELJACK

Yooo Velocitron exists!

Ahh so Bumblebee IS just a mercenary, not an Autobot

OHOHO HERE”S JETFIRE

Wow Jetfire you’re really going the bad dude route huh

Ayyyyyy there’s Starscream

YOOO THERE”S THUNDERCRACKER

Thundercracker I appreciate that you’re using fancy tech to identify wheeljack but his Autobot badge is literally Right There

WTF

WELL THAT DIDN”T LAST LONG HUH...that’s a bit disappointing

OH NVM THAT WASN”T A HEEL-TURN THAT WAS JUST A STRAIGHT UP “I”M THE BOSS” MOVE

huh so they’re making Skyfire the target of Starscream’s desire for power. hmm

WHY ARE YOU GUYS RUNNING JUST TRANSFORM INTO CARS unless they’re too low on energon to do it??

There he is...Mr. Big Lips

Well that’s a surprising take Megatron

Isn’t that Cybertron and Luna 1 in the sky though?? Are they on Cybertron rn or not??

Megatron’s voice is really throwing me off, if it weren’t for his helmet and color I’d really think that was Overlord

ITS TRUCK DAD

OHOHO HE SAID THE THING!!!!

Why does bumblebee have lips too

“What do you know of slavery?” Alright that line did make me go “OHHHH”

“Alpha Trion would be ashamed!” “Of us both, I think” ouch, but nice to see Alpha “Grandpa” Trion back in a series

Megatron PLEASE don’t say “I’m enjoying this, Prime” in that voice while I can hear Optimus groaning in the background

AYYY ELITAAAAAA

Why are the Seekers chasing these guys, who are running on foot, ON FOOT??? CHANGE INTO YOUR DANG ALT MODE

WHEELJACK SWORE

man I’m only like a few minutes in and I’m already bored. I’m going to watch the whole thing, but I feel like this is really lacking soul or personality so far. It very much feels like the script was written by people who aren’t familiar with these characters, so they’re writing them how they EXPECT them to sound, not writing them as they actually are. It’s more than a little disappointing, but this is only the first episode, so I’ll keep going and see if this is consistent throughout the series.

Oh man, just listening to Elita you can tell she was written by a dude. Oof.

There’s the Ark!

Dang everyone’s running low

Jeez Optimus and Elita wouldn’t just walk by all these injured Autobots!

And Optimus wouldn’t brush off his officers!! Agh!!!

YO Ultra Magnus!

Chromia!!!!!

oh my gosh is THAT Red Alert??

Hey where’s Ratchet though

Gosh the writing is so STIFF!!!! I can’t stand this, if I wasn’t a die-hard Transformers fan I would’ve bounced a few minutes ago

 It might also be the way the VAs pause between words, please speak normally, these constant pauses between words are frustrating

Ok but where the frick is Soundwave

“His arrogance I actually like” pfft

Annnnd here comes Ultra Magnus to accept the treaty on Prime’s behalf, where he’ll get held hostage and probably wind up beefing it.

Episode 2

SOUNDWAVE!!!! BABY

And Shockwave!!! 

YO SKYWARP ACTUALLY GOT A SPEAKING LINE

I want to know where Megatron got all this fabric for those stupid flags and where Ultra magnus got that cloak

Is. Is that Prowl with a weird paint job

Wow bad aim dude

Ultra Magnus you dummy....

Ok but if it was a battle then who were they fighting against???

Wow you’re really just gonna stand there and take that Magnus?

I know they’re on a time-crunch because they only have 6 episodes, but they have to do more to make me care about the characters. I’m inclined to care about them already because I’m familiar with the series and because as a stand-alone, even I’m like “Ok. So?” whenever new problems come up for them. I’m not invested!

Not to compare the two, because I feel like this entire liveblog will turn into a comparative essay, but Cyberverse got me invested in characters within the first episode! They were on an even TIGHTER time-crunch because their episodes were only 10 minutes, and yet they did a great job weaving a tight narrative and making good use of their time to tell a story and have characters charm the audience.

Optimus: Til All Are One Rodimus, coming out of nowhere: TIL ALL ARE ONE

WELL THAT”S NOT THE VOICE I WAS EXPECTING FOR SHOCKWAVE he sounds a bit reminiscent of his TFA version

What does de-rez mean

Ok but that’s assuming that this thing will automatically reprogram them?? Reformatting doesn’t automatically mean someone will turn into a Decepticon!

You know, there’s a lot of talking in the show but the dialogue doesn’t actually say a lot. It doesn’t reveal much about the characters or tell me who they are.

YOOO THERE”S SOUNDWAVE

AUDIO BOOB

It really annoys me that characters always pause after saying “I”. It’s always “I.........[long pause] rest of their sentence.”

what do you mean “Teams” Optimus there’s like 5 of you guys

I love you Soundwave!!!

Whoa wait was that Impactor in the background?

ughHHHHHH I HATE THAT MY BIGGEST PET PEEVE IS “what have you done?” SAID UTTERLY MONOTONE WHEN IT’S NOT EVEN A BIG DEAL!!! YOU CAN”T FLIP THAT LINE OUT WITHOUT ACTUALLY PUTTING IN THE FOOTWORK TO EARN IT!!! AGH!!!

Again, it feels very much like the writers read the wikipedia page for Transformers and maybe the first sentence of each character’s bio page and then wrote the entire script from there. It’s frustrating. I hate being so severe in my reviews because I hate dunking on my fellow writers because they don’t always have final say in what happens, but this is astonishingly poor writing.

Like, I can see what they’re TRYING to accomplish, but it feels like they whiff so badly.

YO IT IS IMPACTOR

oh thats Barricade that’s why I thought that was Prowl

Chromia!!!! My darling!!!! I can’t believe there’s only two girls in this show so far

Oh that’s Cog, I wasn’t sure if that was Beachcomber or what

Nice one Chromia

Oh is that Mirage?

Ugh ANOTHER WRITING PET PEEVE: Constantly having characters start to say something but then then their dialogue gets cut off. It’s fine if it’s once in a while but over and over it’s annoying

I also feel like a lot of the VAs lack...emotion. They don’t emphasize the lines. Like, “Get him into the repair bay” is one example. Depending on how you emphasize certain words in that sentence, you can infer a lot! Emotion, the state of mind of the character, etc. But when it’s delivered in such a bland way, it’s a bit like “ok whatever”, which is how I’m starting to feel about this whole show. This doesn’t go for all the VAs or all lines, but it’s consistent enough that my mind’s wandering.

RAVAGE??? RAVAGE???? RAVAGE?!?!?!??!?!

It was probably Bumblebee.

Not to be nitpicky but it should be “Neither we nor the Autobots”

The idea of reformatting is so stupid!!! It implies that Autobots and Decepticons are inherently different, which is stupid!! It’s so dumb WHY DO YOU GOTTA GO THAT ROUTE IT”S SO STUPID (ESPECIALLY SINCE THEY”RE TACKLING THE TOPIC OF OPPRESSION??? THEY”RE SAYING THEY”RE LITERALLY DIFFERENT SPECIES AND USING IT AS A PLATFORM TO SAY ONE GROUP IS INHERENTLY BETTER THAN THE OTHER. THAT SUCKS)

Episode 3

RATCHET!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lmao love your lipgloss Megatron

Ohh is Ratchet going to fix Impactor??

PROWL??? HE”S SO SHORT

Gosh please, please don’t have humans in this show

lmao Skyfire called Starscream a tool

RATCHET!!! :D

I’d like to see who was on the writing team of this show

Isn’t that Mirage?

YEAH THAT IS MIRAGE

Again with the sentences consistently being cut off....

Is that Sunstorm?

Points to Chromia and Mirage for showing the first bitof personality in this show.

Yooo Ratchet! Oof he’s not chummy with Prime huh

YOO CAMINUS EXISTS TOO

LMAO FEISTY GRANDPA

Oh Mirage come on

Actually no, don’t shut Impactor up he’s right

“I didn’t patch you up just so you could blow a valve here” *snorts*

Wouldn’t it be frickin hilarious if Magnus just popped open a panel and Minimus came out and just dipped outta there

lmao nice lightsaber Jetfire

LMAO “PULL THE TRIGGER MAGNUS”

JEEZ JUST PUNCH HIM RIGHT IN THE FACE WHY DON”T YOU 

Ratchet is the ONLY character they’ve given personality in this show so far.

Jeez Mirage cool your jets

Oh for frick’s sake Optimus be cool

Megatron please stop torturing your ex boyfriend

Ok but who did they rise against??? Were there Quintessons in this universe too?

oh come on you guys

Oh boy something tells me Skywarp isn’t going to survive the rest of this episode

Oh jk, Skyfire just let him go. Well alrighty then

I’m not sure how they found the Autobot base, they implied that it was because of Impactor but that doesn’t make sense

This post is getting long so I’m going to spit it between two posts

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Omggg I was totally wondering about Ferid & Crowley too, but didn’t bring them up bc there’s so little info about what they’re up to rn. I truly get not wanting to get too deep into theories about it, especially with Rigr himself acknowledging the climax of the story, I got no clue to whether quite a few of the side characters are gonna come back into play. I’m hopeful we’ll get some more scenes with them for closure’s sake at least before everything is wrapped up.

Also, I’m super glad you brought up Yu’s personality. When I see other ppl talking about it, it’s usually just criticism of him being too happy-go-lucky, but I totally agree with addressing it from the perspective of a coping mechanism. I definitely wanna see how Yu and Mika are affected by being together again in a new way. And how Mika’s gorgeous demon sword power is gonna stack up against the 1st.

Oh and thank you for once again assuaging my fears about the well-being of the characters lmao. I love these little check-ins. Your feedback never fails to help me process the chapter better and get me more invested in the story <3

Aw, that's really sweet anon! I'm glad you enjoy my little rambling thoughts. <3

That's the whole reason I left it as a crossed-out line. I wouldn't be surprised if they were yet again left as a sort of deus ex machina and are currently doing something to help further the plan off-screen, but *shrug* who knows. Then again, Ferid was left as a head last we saw. He'll... probably(?) be whole when we see him next? Idk

What I want to know is where Narumi is. WHERE IS HE?? He went with Kimizuki and Yoichi and then dropped off the face of the planet. At least with other characters that have disappeared, we kind of saw them go their separate way. Narumi just faded out of existence. You and I both hope that everyone will get a proper wrap-up.

Yeah, I've seen that too, and I mean, it's fair to complain about, but I really do think it's a coping mechanism. If you track Yuu's character progression across the series, Yuu did genuinely become a more happy-go-lucky person after he reunited with Mika. However, it wasn't to the degree it is now. That was a very sudden change that didn't appear until after Mika died, and if you compare it to his optimistic moments prior to that death, these moments feel almost forced now. I'd have to go back and check if it's consistent, but the actual text lends itself to this idea a bit too, at least in this last chapter. The more over-the-top moments are in a different text font. It's not something I really noticed before this chapter, but I couldn't not notice how often it was used here. The only time Yuu wasn't really using it is when he was talking about family, which all that talk is just typical Yuu. I don't want to get into a full breakdown because that would be long, but here's some "quick" analysis. Yuu has developed a sort of twisted belief that everything will be okay as long as he has his family with him. Losing the (arguably) most important member of that family broke Yuu. We can see how it tore him apart. Yuu was at his absolute lowest when Mika died. He was so hurt that he was ready to die too. He only came out of that when he heard Mika could be saved, and the second he heard that, he smiled while tears streamed down his face. He hasn't stopped smiling since really. Yuu hasn't properly acknowledged what happened to Mika in a serious way since then either. You don't ping pong personality-wise like that unless you're repressing how hurt you actually are. I suppose it could just be absolutely terrible writing, but Yuu lives for other people. Mika dying showed us that. He's also shown us countless times that he doesn't think his own personal pain and suffering matters so long as his family is happy and safe. This wouldn't be the first time he brushed off his own pain and suffering to help someone else. The only difference is that this is emotional rather than physical, and that kind of pain is very hard to brush off. Emotional pain doesn't heal instantly like physical pain does in OnS. We see it with how much Guren is still suffering and agonizing over his friends' deaths. Forcing a smile and saying everything will work out just makes sense for Yuu, after all, he has to be strong for others right? There's so much else I could say, but again, I'm trying to be conscientious about length.

Anyways! I too am excited to see just how powerful Yuu is now. Probably ridiculously powerful.

#Owari no Seraph #Owari no Seraph spoilers #OnS 107 spoilers #Yuichiro Hyakuya #I really could sit down and do a Yuu analysis #but the amount of work that'd require oof #I'd need to carve out some time for it for sure #Asks #Anonysis Asks #Rev's thoughts