#i wish i had that

[butnobodyhome]

The temptation to liveblog everything I’m doing and seeing rn because I’m so anxious and need the gay people in my phone to cope

#( ooc. ) #there was a little girl with a scooter attached to her suitcase #it was sick #I wish I had that

[squeakyfir]

How true this is!

@dragon-kazansky don't you agree? 😆

#tombstone 1993 #tombstone #val kilmer #doc holliday #loyalty #frienship #so true #wyatt earp #kurt russell #i did not make this #i wish i had that #pls follow me

[sarcasmiclife]

Yes but when Camila said

Who the fuck do you think you are, cheating on me? You think there's a woman alive who's better than what you have?

#that woman is my role model #taylor jenkins reid #daisy jones and the six #i stan her #i wish i had that #camilla dunne #billy dunne #daisy jones

[salem-the-silver]

Wish I grew up like this

#therianthropy #otherkin #alterhuman #fox therian #moodboard #fox moodboard #I want to be a fox kit learning how to be a fox so bad #I wish I had that #I appreciate my humanity but damn #I want fox parent

[angria]

So T focused on the SH, mainly in the context of how we really need to work on my self-worth and confidence in self, recognizing my values and how I am not just trauma.

Except the other context to this is that he is worried about my attachment to him in the sense he isn't going to be around forever. He keeps using 10 years since he is in his mid-50's now. However, he also said those 10 years aren't a guarantee since he has health issues, so he wants to be sure we are working on these things now. We've been together for 11 years and he validated that I have made a lot of progress, but it's also incremental and who knows how much time we have left.

As though all this talk lately about him not being around isn't freaking me the fuck out. I have repeatedly thrown back at him that he is making it seem like he's going to retire in 2 years or something. Why are we talking so much about this if it's still 10 years away? I get what he is saying. It's taking me this long to reach this point, so it may take just as long to improve my self-worth, etc. (I didn't view this as him invalidating me, like oh you are taking so long to make progress...I agree with him that it's been slow and incremental, not in a bad way). And I get that the 10 years aren't a given, especially considering his health.

But, my head is screaming that he wants to make me less attached and if that happens, I will be alone and have to take care of myself by myself. Just like when I was younger. Terrified and abandoned with no one there. On top of starting to have that feeling of being kicked out of the nest before I'm ready...I never got to have this kind of attachment and I don't want to let it go. I know it doesn't work that way, but it's still scaring the shit out me.

I hate this. I don't want to talk about this. I don't ever want to talk about this. He's right, but it's too terrifying.

#cptsd #bpd #trauma #abuse #therapy #self harm #disordered attachment #i just want T #it's not fair #i wish i had that #terrified of recovery #nothing is safe #angriadm

[amaritheartist]

TMA Vast fits!

#the vast #fashion #avatar of the vast #i wish i had that

[thebirdqueen]

Nahobino is 100% a pansexual king like have you SEEN the dudes and gals they flirt with!?!??

#nahobino #smt v #They got some guts #I wish I had that #But that's just on their Nahobino form #He's shy IRL- #At least to me he is.... #smt #QueenBird Rambles

[redmaple-goblin]

Me: rewatching tuc god knows how many times

Also me: still cries when dale or liz are mentioned

#dale lee #kingston brown #the unsleeping city #sofia lee #sofia bicicleta #they’re just so good for each other #i wish i had that

[maryjanegirlblues]

i wish i had money 2 afford to live in all the places i wanna live in. i still havent found a place where it feels like home. im surrounded by ppl here where i am who dont give a fuck abt anything except getting married + having kids and it makes me feel like such an outsider bc i get shamed for it/made fun or treated less than or like im an inexperienced little kid all the time. im so frustrated bc im still so young but the years are going by faster and faster. i at least wanna spend the rest of my youth in a place where i feel i finally belong to.

#im so jealous of ppl who are still friends w their childhood friends #if ur one of them and reading this never take that shit 4 granted #i wish i had that

[edwardbonnets]

how to ask the demon you've been smitten over for 6000 years to dance: an angel's guide

bonus:

#goodomensedits #goodomensgifs #good omens #good omens s2 #good omens spoilers #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #userkristi #userlauren #userstede #userisaiah #userelio #userhani #my gifs #edit: the old caption has been fixed!!! changed it to 'we' like god (neil gaiman) intended #EDIT EDIT: NEIL GAIMAN HIMSELF REBLOGGED THIS POST AND CONFIRMED ITS NOT 'WE' BUT 'YOU DONT DANCE' LIKE I HAD ORIGINALLY OKAY #im returning to my roots #(aka making gifs but adding my chaotic commentary and editing to it) #i wish i was at home i'd be able to use a better quality video but im also ~impatient~ #hopefully no one beat me to the punch #because this scene is genuinely one of my favorites like look at azi look at his smile im gonna fucking cry :'))))) #like michael sheen!!!!!!!! michael sheen i am banging at your door like a wild chimpanzee #the ACTING CHOICES #the way you can literally SEE his thought process and excitement over asking crowley to dance i am in shambles i really am

[cheddar-baby]

heres my advice to any followers i have who are young. Don't delete things when you think you've outgrown them or they're cringy. If you make youtube videos just private them don't delete them. Save your files, you can bury them in multiple sub-folders if you think they're cringe now but DON'T DELETE THEM! It doesn't feel like it now but years in the future you will look back fondly at who you were and wish you still had those things.

#i mourn losing my old youtube poops thats just rotating a image of squidward and putting filters on it #and my minecraft lets plays #it is invaluable stuff and i desperately wish i still had it all

[lillhappycloud]

I have feelings about how these two are mirror opposites in reaction to monstrous trauma.

I have spicier stuff on my Patreon.

⭐⭐⭐⭐

#baldur's gate 3 #karlach #astarion #comic #art #bg3 #bg3 fanart #artists on tumblr #tiefling #dnd #I wish they had more conversations about this #karlach embraced life while astarion actively rejected it #rpg

[bunabi]

girl what happened to just creating fanwork to satisfy your needs

going directly to the developers for canonical changes to the work has gotta stop like what happened to boundaries

#all ive talked about for a decade is 'I wish DAI had XYZ thing' and never in my life have I DM'd Mark Darrah like a wish-granting mirror

[dappermouth]

There was something you were hiding, on the night you ran away.

#artists on tumblr #illustration #gothic americana #halloween #liminal #canine #black dog #night #i wish you had just bitten through me #jennabarton

[great-and-small]

I have to say that “warm gentle glow emanating from the shell of a turtle” is without a doubt my favorite genre of lamp

#my childhood nightlight was really close to top left #I wish I still had it #turtles #turtle lamps #funny

[angria]

Love having a huge attachment trigger with T in the last 10 minutes of the session 🙃🙃🙃 Said something about his kid. That I desperately want to hear from him.

He tried to talk about it, reminding me of his care, but I completely shut down. So already dealing with attachment and abandonment triggers, now get to pile my stupid fucking wish onto the raging dumpster fire.

Going to go sob now. Want to SH myself to shreds. I'm so fucking done with everything, everyone.

#therapy #haha what is my life #just want to rip my skin off #blasting trigger music #disordered attachment #dealing with so many triggers #i did not need this right now #fucking hell i hate myself #it's not fair #i wish i had that #currently sobbing #angriadm