#i was in my feels tonight what can i say

[ladyrijus]

Skyward Sword Zelda is such a tragic figure in my opinion. Just put yourself in her shoes and imagine this.

It's the best day of your life. Your dearest friend, dork that he is, has finally become a knight. It's what every kid on Skyloft works towards and he finally did it. You're so proud of him. When you fly together, you muster up the courage to tell him you love him.

You never get the chance.

Instead you're whisked away into a world you believed was left behind, and saved by a woman who declares that she is your guardian, chosen by you. You have never met her before. You didn't even know there were people like you who lived down here, in the Surface.

"You must purify yourself if you are to transcend time and hold the seal," the mysterious woman with the painted tear remarks as she shepherds you through strange destinations unlike anything your books have ever taught you, "it was your will." No matter how many times she tells you this, in every iteration the language could allow, it doesn't make sense. Why would a goddess need to turn human? What could you do, that she could not?

Where does divinity and humanity diverge?

Connection.

A goddess is revered by her people who pray, in spite of her silence, for her benevolence and guidance. She is their unwavering stone, a higher power to rely on. But a girl? A girl is loved. She is someone tangible, a figure who people will see, and know, and care about, and fight for.

And that's when it clicks. Your friend isn't really your friend at all, but a hero, a pawn, who was intended to be used against an enemy of yours you no longer recognize.

You're using him. You've been using him all this time. It's sickening.

With each prayer, with each goddess damned spring you rush to, you are faced with your own marbled reflection, a testament to the fact your humanity is only a pretense, carefully timed to ensnare your friend into a hero's fate.

He doesn't seem to understand that though. He keeps running after you like the fool he is, hoping to save Zelda, his precious Zelda, that you no longer are. The smile you wear becomes harder to hold. You were Hylia first, and that is all you will ever be.

You play into the charade anyways. After all, Zelda was the reason why he went through his trials. To tell him now that she was gone would mean to destroy everything you had worked for. So you tell him everything he wants to hear: that you're your father's daughter, that you're his friend, that you're his Zelda.

And when you close your eyes, smiling from within the amber and ignoring the dull thuds of his fist against its surface, you wonder if you look anything like the statue you and your love had stood upon on the best day of your life.

"Maybe all of this is a dream," you wonder while drifting in between millennia. Time passes like the waterfalls in Skyloft, rapid, yet everlasting. Maybe you'd wake up in your bed in the Academy again. Your love would have been sleeping in (again) and everything would be how it used to be. You could be Zelda once more. And most importantly, Hylia would be nothing beyond a giant statue for you to ignore for the rest of your days.

... There's something to be said about how you fall again once you wake up.

"What kind of goddess am I," you think crudely, "to sever my own wings?"

But this time, your love is there to catch you. And he does. In that moment you pray, in your own name, he doesn't let you go.

#i was in my feels tonight what can i say #skyward sword #legend of zelda #zelink #egregious lack of groose and for that i apologize #loz #tloz #the legend of zelda #zelda #link #hylia #impa

[yikes-ajax]

I dont have a clever and witty sarcastic comment tonight, I just think she's cute

#my brain isnt working rn its 3am ive been reading fanfics while hyperventilating over the irreparable damage i managed with my limited life #tee hee im just kinda feeling moody tonight 🤪 #somebody please ban me from tumblr between 1am to 11am i do not function as a stable person between those times #i schedule my mental breakdowns they work really well with my schedule #its multitasking cause I'll already be up from insomnia its really efficient in the grand scheme of things #ah i love the fact that nobody can stop me from writing the most deranged shit in the tags of a cute cat pic <3 #animals #petblr #cat #cat life #cat lovers #catblr #my cat #cat photos #cat pictures #cats of tumblr #calico #calico cat #OH UH THATS WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO SAY FOR AMERICANS THE REASON IM SAYING ITS NIGHT WHEN THIS IS POSTED DURING THE DAY IS BECAUSE ITS QUEUED #i queue most stuff because i dont usually have the energy or time to be active at good times #i get little bursts of post motivation and dont wanna flood my 9 followers (at least 6 are dirty bots) with my bs #im just a dumbass that never tags shit

[ohmydumbledear]

Late night Dorian ✨️

#dorian storm #dorian #cr dorian #critical role #critical role fanart #cr fanart #bell's hells #bronte wyvernwind #blue flower #i've had this sketch of his face laying around forever and i always really liked it #wanted to draw tonight but didn't feel like making something new so I had some fun with colors #i love him #i know this is almost the exact same palette as my other dorian drawing #what can i say #his cape is iconic #my art

[mokeonn]

Before I go to sleep I leave you all with this piece of advice: sometimes you don't actually have to answer big political questions, sometimes you can just say "I am not smart enough to know that, I just know the small things I do to help." Like you can often times completely avoid making a fool of yourself if you just say you don't know.

#simon says #to explain here and not in a reblog: #sometimes when you try to explain big picture solutions you're gonna sound dumb #you might not have done enough research #you might not have a rebuttal to a counter argument #you might not be articulate enough to explain why you think this #sometimes you gotta take a step back and give the simple solution. the one man solution #you do what you can to fight against the problem #you talk to people to help spread awareness and how to fight the bad problem #and you vote and invite others to vote for bigger steps towards solving the problem #like you can talk about theory and how you believe we need to do a huge drastic thing to solve and issue #but people will disagree and argue til you're blue in the face #they'll poke and prod until you mess up or lose your temper and use it against you #and you'll feel dumb and they'll learn nothing #sometimes the best thing to do is step away from the big picture and just say 'idk what the solution is I just know the things I can do“ #sometimes you gotta admit you're not a scientist/expert and you can't answer that #i used this while talking with my Dad tonight #he brought up our climate crisis and space travel as a possible solution #and I said I think that's just addressing the symptom and not the cause and we need to care for our Earth now #and he asked me what solutions I think would fix it #and knowing my incredibly smart Dad who is articulate and ready to throw rebuttles at a moments notice to play devils advocate #and my past experience in struggling in this topic with him before #i just told him I didn't know. all i knew is the little things I can and do do to help #and that hopefully by spreading the word and habits and encouraging others to vote for those bigger solutions I could help make a change #but all I really could do is the little things I have control over #and the topic became much less stressful about the little things we have control over #like planting native plants and recycling and adopting habits that are healthier to our planet #which was 100% more preferable to if I tried to give a big solution. because I would reveal i didn't have all the knowledge needed to argue #and my articulation would make me sound like a stupid kid who only thinks they know what's best #so yeah I basically suggest that if you dont wanna feel like shit after debating someone just step away from the big picture for a moment

[benetnvsch]

I want to see them having more casual interactions please-

#Lil sketch for tonight bc I feel Bad for Not Drawing them for a bit #(it's been?? like 2 weeks if you don't count the gay cat drawings oh geez im sorry-) #also I have no idea why this looks so different than my normal art I think ?? it's the faces??? #I really only have been drawing humans seriously since getting into BSD (woof) and so in still feeling out my style #this felt good though I liked doing this silly sketch #also I am a huge kunikida dyes his hair believer thats so fun #every time I draw him im like mmm darker roots and then I forget - #so this is my apology (kinda) #kunikida doppo #Dazai osamu #kunikidazai #knkdz #bungou stray dogs #bsd #kite draws #this originally had some dialogue to it but it would not make sense without a paragraph full of content and im too tired for that rn #so u can make up what Dazai is saying #funniest answer gets a thumbs up #I HAD SO MUCH ART INSPIRATION TODAT BTW finished like 2 drawing and started and finished 2 more #hopefully I can continue this steak for the rest of artfight at least :Flex:

[mukuberry]

you;re having a normal one about round 6 huh?

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#thanks for the ask! #IM TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT. PEOPLE ARENT MAKING SENSE #he didnt need to keep strangling him! but others have pointed out he wasnt actually on his windpipe! so im guessing my last post is right??? #BUT WHAT IF IT ISNY #GAY PEOPLE ARE RUINING MY LIFE #im not familiar enough with these characters to know what theyre thinking!!!! to know why they do the things they do!!! #maybe its to make him hate him?? so he would mourn less?? maybe it was to remind him how it feels to nearly die- to put fight back in him?? #ppl are saying its to make him unforgettable to till but i feel like the kiss already did that yknow... #alien stage i will cry i will scream unless i get an answer im happy about. i wont sleep tonight until i can figure it out

[sleepinglionhearts]

Once again I am thinking about becoming an art teacher vs. thinking about how fast I'd get fired if I became an art teacher

#idk I work well with kids but I dunno if I'd survive a classroom overfull of 'em #and like ok sure I could try teaching in Austin or something but the thing is #I would WANT to teach in town or in some other middle of nowhere small town because I feel like #those are the students who like. NEED to have someone teaching them wild ideas about art and communication #and what art can do and what art does and what art has to say #i would get so fired so fucking fast lol some kid would be like 'guess what we did in class today' #and then parents would come down on me for teaching art history to their 12 year olds #and not in the conservative white friendly way hsgshsgshs #oh who am i kidding I'd get fired as soon as parents (or some other teachers!!) find out I'm queer #happened to my 10th grade english teacher #anyway. just having some thoughts tonight

[nighttimepatrons]

Another dragon au? from Nightie? who would have thought???

this time featuring Nolofinwe not respecting Feanaro's personal space.

Fingon and Maedhros will be Nolo and Fea's respective riders (ofc) but one of main blocks to their relationship progressing is that their dragons Do Not get along in the slightest.

Feanaro originally hatched for Miriel and after her fading/death was successfully transferred to Maedhros. On the other Nolofinwe either hatched wild or simply refused a rider until Fingon charmed him with his persistent singing and probably doing something cool.

Not sure what will happen in this au, it just came to me while biking to and from school today.

#my art #fingolfin #feanor #the silmarillion #fingon #maedhros #silm #silm au #dragons #middle earth #while typing this post i suddenly thought about Mae being Nolofinwe's rider and Fingon being Feanaro's and omg omg that has something to it #I just like silly aus what can i say #that chances of this having fingolfin/feanor are extreamly high #nolofinwe #feanaro #also I have no attachment to the dragon designs #i think they suck I just wanted to spend my time tonight actually drawing and not designing so there! #also I really don't know enough about Fingolfin to feel like I can design a dragon version of him well

[romansmartini]

the sick and messed up truth is that you have the capacity to be so productive and feel so good if you are not blogging on tumblr dot com 24/7. this is why we need to make blogging a full time job with benefits and retirement options. more on this at 10

#jillian.txt #makes me mad for the same reason i get mad people say yeah eating/going outside/x will make you feel better and less depressed. like #WHAT DO YOU MEANNNN. i want to do nothing and treat myself like shit and feel so good. can scientists make this happen yet #anyway hey guys. hoping to return to the beautiful messages and asks i have but we will see how heavily dw keeps my attention tonight 🫰

[moregraceful]

one time my mom told me that our young neighbors loved our persimmons so much that they decided to plant some trees of their own. so they planted four persimmon trees ☠️

#OH YOU SWEET SUMMER CHILDREN LMAO #we have two trees planted in 80s. they put out conservatively at least 300 persimmons each. maybe more #FOUR PERSIMMON TREES #fuck around and find out of ALL time #<- says the guy who is inheriting a house with 14 different fruit trees on the property #i feel real fear when i think about my future sometimes #not bc i am afraid of growing old. but bc i am afraid of the amount of gardening i will be doing #but like what am i gonna do - cut down the persimmon trees? those trees are my family. all the fruit trees are my family #anyway if any of you are like should i plant 1-4 persimmon trees? NO just COME TO MY HOUSE i will GIVE YOU THEM FOR FREE #fresno oilers.txt #feelin real chatty tonight but i was just at church for 5 hours and am trying to recover from the yearning #so i can get started editing my fth fic #i got stuck in traffic while going to church tho and untangled a motif that was driving me crazy so i'm feeling MUCH better abt it #and we stay silly above it all

[waytooinvested]

Me: I've decided to be the kind of person who doesn't over think my fandom participation and just comments on/replies to/generally engages with content and creators. I LOVE it when people do that with my stuff! There are hundreds of posts out there about how much everyone else also loves it when people do that on their stuff! I'll be spreading the joy!

Also me: ohnowhatifI'mbeingreallyannoyingisitweirdthatIjustdidthatmaybethatpersonthinksI'mcreepynowarghistworepliestoomuchit'stoomuchisn'titIshouldprobablybackoffnow

... What the hell brain? 🙄

#This is not about any one interaction in particular #But talking about the first sentiment tonight it did make me ponder the second #I'm going to go ahead and blame the autism for my inability to pick up the unspoken rules about what is the 'right' level of engagement #and where that line exists for most people #On the plus side here on tumblr people can always block me if I get really annoying #Soo that does offer some freedom to just do whatever and hope for the best #to wit if I am really annoying you please feel free to unfollow and/or block me because your blog should be a fun place for you #That said if you share the sentiment of this post even a little bit please know I will always be thrilled by engagement in whatever form #unless it's mean. #But you wouldn't be mean would you? #So come say hi whenever :D

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

(never) give me what you’ve got, I’ll take you for all that you have

it’s never been easier or harder to use someone else’s words

how easy it can be(come) so complicated to rest in someone else’s dreams

how can I not explain it when someone else who doesn’t know me can

(someone i’ve never met can somehow still write me best)

it’s like there’s a well inside me waiting to be unlocked

but i can’t twist the key or the words with my own hand

i can never be satisfied with what comes from me but i fall in love with nearly everything else i see

i’ll always be second (to last) best

~ Love yoU (best for your broken heart)

#that last line after my sign off may have taken a step too far but at this point i don’t care. idk if it’s true or not #it probably is. which probably makes me a bit screwed in the head but like. i’m not unpacking that on tumblr dot com #i’m not… yeah there’s not a damn thing i can say here in my own words #and if i say what i’m thinking the entire meaning of this stupid poem ends up laid out flat and idk if that’s really what i want #i’m just in my feels tonight. whatever #sometimes i think i could write poetry

[juicedbeetle]

when the note doesn't light up (fav moments 6/?)

#Beetlejuice #beetlejuice musical #gif #mine #bonus blum for some reason not changing the wig from the green one at all?? i thought it was just in the red but no. no purple either #i have another 🐍 but i wasn't able to put the specific part that has say my name on my phone so i- #still dont know if the note works there 💀 whatever I'll just do another gif when i have it all in order if so #very troublesome format it's in :( but its ok we can cope #i feel so lucky in this chili tonight that two masters were able to capture both BRIGHT and BLUM having a note technical difficulty #so i can effectively compare them 😭 isn't it beautiful. or am i the only one that cares about something like this #what were the CHANCES #dude what was UP with that wig i need to know why they didn't change it the whole time #me in my happy place making gifs....... my relaxing activity..... hoping everyone else likes them too :3 #i used to compare 🐍s by seat placement but the new ones i have all have the same seating #😭😭😭 so i will get confused between them #very excited to debut this gifset in like a week lmao i make them so in advance #fav series #sowwy todays daily gifset took so long to post i took hours to make a new one teehee got lost in the sauce

[rainia]

just had a great evening catching up with some old friends, also came out to them too and they immediately told me they’re taking me to a gay bar (I am not a clubbing person) (im glad they were so supportive but Help) (im a boring stay at home gay plsss)

#LMAOOOO #it was such a fun evening my friends are so fucking chaotic #this was a group of Straight Friends™️ #so I never bothered to tell them before because whatever #but I was feeling a lil wild tonight what can I say #rain rambles

[izzy-b-hands]

I NEED my brain to stop waking me up with nightmares but

got 7 hours of sleep this time around despite it. I'm actually proud enough of that to post abt it lmaooo

#text post #that and i finally got my shot done #i say finally bc i fuckin forgor what day i did it last week but i think it was weekend time? #it is now lol #im gonna get myself out of bed now and get some shit done #so i can hopefully crash again tonight and actually sleep during the hours meant for it a little #nightmares or not bc at this point they are just Happening lol #i know they don't mean anything really but it does feel like a signal of what my brain is percolating on and it's like #bro wtf do u want me to do with any of the random bs these nightmares have had the ppl in them will NEVER apologise to us #can we pls get over it and stop dreaming abt things to do with them aksndjfbf