#i was calling a friend on friday

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I Fucked Up

#i was calling a friend on friday #we got to talking about the summer camp we both work at #and i knew what positions people would be offered even before offers were sent out #i mentioned that i knew where she worked and she said 'i know where im working i just dont know if im assistant director or not' #and i said that unfortunately shes not #after that the conversation kinda died and i was at work so i said bye #today she texted me that she was really upset that i just dropped that news and left #and i didnt know what she was talking about #she said the only thing she was looking forward to was being assistant director and i just dropped that news and left her as she was crying #i didnt realize she was crying! i didnt realize it had meant that much to her and it had affected her so negatively #otherwise i wouldnt have left. but i feel so bad now cuz i love her and i know shes not doing too well rn #so that was uhm not ideal #but then she texted something to the effect of #'its okay it helped me realize no matter how many people say they care ill always be alone at the end #so i should just start to be myself instead of a fake person that i hate made for other people #so uh... glad she's working on herself. not idead that this is how it happened #not great that i hurt someone i care so much about #ive been told that i dont think before i speak. perhaps this was one of those times #but goodness gracious i never thought i could fuck up this bad #i feel so bad... she gave no indication on that call that she was upset. i didnt hear her crying at all #i feel absolutely terrible and i really dont know how to fix this #she said its okay now but theres clearly a lot of negative feelings still there and trust needs to be earned back #fuck

[starry-bi-sky]

i have been unmedicated for the entirety of spring break and thus have had little interest in writing this down, but i have been thinking about this for the entire week (as well as a dpdc clone danny au that resulted in it becoming its entirely separate batman au that includes a teenage vigilante bruce wayne, an ocarina, and me entirely incapable of making a batman au without making bruce dirt poor but we're not talking about that) and so i've finally went 'fuck it' and forcibly grabbed my laptop. I will get this done in one sitting even if it kills me.

BUT. This is about neither clone^2 danny nor about who i am calling Ocarina Batman. This is about my Danyal Al Ghul Au and more SPECIFICALLY it's me thinking about his relationship with Sam and Tucker specifically.

Tucker and Sam? Adore this asshole (affectionate) with every fiber of their being. And it is very much a reciprocated feeling, but Danny's thoughts will not be delved into much other than he would kill for them.

Tucker? The only person currently capable of getting a deep, loud, belly laugh out of Danny. Sam can get him to smile and to laugh, but it's the kind that's a chuckle-under-the-breath. The quiet, looks-down-while-huffing laughter. Snorts once with laughter and then grins stupidly.

But Tucker? Tucker can crack a slew of stupid jokes and Danny will be incapacitated for the next five minutes because he's laughing so hard that he can't breath. He lands one well-timed pun or quip and Danny will be close to tears. His laughter is their favorite sound in the whole world.

Sam is lowkey jealous of this ability, and she's gotten a belly laugh out of Danny a few times. But alas, it is Tucker who wields this power and has gotten it the most times out of the two of them.

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They're also both physically affectionate with Danny as much as possible. It started roughly around when they were 12-ish, a year since they befriended Danny, and they noticed that he sought after touch but never seemed to initiate (and was in some ways repulsed by it). They started slowly being more touchy with him. Hooking a finger around his to lead him somewhere, tapping his wrist, looping arms. Little touches, grabs, etc, to get him used to it, and once he started doing it back they started increasing it.

It's gotten to a point where he will now just. Lay on them. Like a lizard sunbathing on a rock. Leaning on their backs when they're sitting in class before the bell rings, his chin on their heads. He'll talk about anything with his arms looped around their shoulders.

If they're sitting on a couch at either of their houses, he'll lay his legs on theirs. Him and Tucker will press their feet against the other's and try and push against them (newsflash: Danny always wins, Tucker claims its the ghost strength but Danny's been winning since before his accident)

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Naturally, both Sam and Tucker know where Danny keeps his weapons on his person, and are allowed to grab them off of him if they need it. His only requirement is that they don't lose his weapons if they take it and forget to return it immediately.

They both understand how big of a thing this is from Danny, and so they do their best to treat his weapons with a lot of respect and care because they know its his way of saying he trusts them.

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Sam and Tucker are so fond of Danny it's insane. Like fr. That's their goddamn best friend, and they are so protective of him. Emotionally, physically, you name it. They will tear the head off a grown man if they need to, Danny's had scars since he arrived in Amity Park and Sam and Tucker both are going to find the person who put them there and make them pay for it.

One time, Tucker overheard a bunch of upperclass girls speaking nastily about Danny and about the rumors surrounding him, calling him names like 'freak', 'monster', etc. Danny was with him and heard it, and seemingly appeared unbothered by it, even telling Tucker that he was used to such rumors.

Tucker was so furious that hacked into the school system later that night and tanked those girls grades. They were kicked out of their clubs and had to go to mandatory tutoring for the rest of the year. He made sure to leave some way of letting them know it was him who did it.

And Sam doesn't like using her money for things, doesn't like abusing that wealth. So instead, whenever her parents talk bad about Danny, she causes a media incident that has her parents scrambling to deal with. She does something wild, outrageous by her parents' standards.

She heard some boys on the basketball team making fun of Danny once, similar to those girls had. She kicks up a fuss about something eco-unfriendly at school and forcibly holds a protest on the same day of the big home basketball game, forcing them to cancel the event and reschedule to a visiting school.

She anonymously donates money so that there's new uniforms for the team but oops! Looks like she "forgot" to donate enough money for them to get uniforms for all the team members, and strangely enough those boys in particular didn't get them! Looks like they'll have to wait until more money gets donated for the basketball team to get their new, nice uniforms. The old ones look so ratty in comparison, right?

And since the football team gets most of the sport money, that might just take awhile. And if (and when) they kick up a fuss? oops! Off the basketball team you go, :) such unsportsman-like behavior is unfit for the team.

(The only good thing about how corrupt the school system is is that she can use it to her advantage too.)

The both of them know that Danny suspects them for the sudden misfortune falling on these people, but he doesn't call them out on it. He's kinder than he used to be, but not kind enough to vouch for people who speak badly of him. Sometimes, he might just congratulate them on not getting caught.

Because Danny is their wonderful, hurt friend with a "slightly" Blue and Orange Moral code, and enough scars that people have been calling him a criminal (and worse) since he arrived in Amity Park when he was ten. And they'll be damned if he gets hurt anymore.

#dpxdc #dp x dc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc crossover #dpdc #danyal al ghul #its kinda hard to get my thoughts in order bc i am ✨unmedicated✨ rn BUT #this is the gist of it #i could wax poetic about how much sam and tucker adore danny as their friend but alas. the wax is not waxing. it is stuck to the paper #and i am chipping it off with my nail and its getting stuck under it. #ocarina batman has been in my head since friday someone come sedate me. him and pit fighter batman too. who is ALSO a piss poor teenage #bruce wayne who instead of a vigilante and villains is a PIT FIGHTER. he fights blindfolded thats why he's called the bat #ocarina batman's Look is if you combined punk + assassins creed aesthetic together and then gave it an ocarina #the ocarina is because i thought it'd be cool if its how he and robin communicated across long distances bc they didnt have comms #because they are ✨poor✨ and live in a one room apartment in crime alley. #and also the mental image of him sitting on. rooftop ledge in the rain playing 'song of storms' from LoZ was too fantastic to ignore #like bro imagine hearing that as a criminal. you're off doing shady shit with your gang and in the distance you hear the faint and #haunting melody of an ocarina. two of them in a call and response duet. and its getting closer. and you cannot find where #siren type shit fr fr #look he has the assassins creed hood and a long ass coat that has spikes on the end that when flared out looks like the silhouette of a bat #on fucking GOD i am this 👌 close to finding an artist doing commissions to make this for me. i am frothing at the mouth #he is 17-19 years old with his little brother-son Robin. Logically Robin is Dick but in my heart of hearts the first Robin is Jason #and he has perfected the art of getting his older brother to play songs on the pan flute for him. long pitchy whine on his own ocarina #the familiar childlike 'pleeeaaaaaaase?' and he knows he's won when there is a 10s silence on the other end before his brother plays #a lullaby. #look up 'sailor moon - pan flute (relaxing) on youtube' and when there's the thumbnail of two green skinned aliens with long blue and pink #hair. click on it. THAT is the song Bruce plays. #hhhhhhhhhhh frothing at the mouth over this au sooo fucking badly

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #david tennant #catherine tate #:D #so hello friends i went back to work today after taking friday off sick #and now my voice is disappearing..... lovely.... :( #but!!! i'm reading this dw book called doctor who origin stories #and i'm loving it #the short story that sophie aldred wrote about ace before she met seven was so fun #and she clearly wrote it after she filmed potd since she linked in meeting thirteen #but ahhh it was great i loved it #ok guess i'll go to bed and keep reading #and hoping my voice heals overnight :(

[tblsomedoodles]

Some armor designs for the twins

It's a little different than the comic i did, but yeah. These are basically what the two wear while working for Draxum. They didn't really choose it? Draxum had the outfits made for them and what not (which is why they look like variations of his armor. but without the helmet because i am not drawing those horns more than necessary lol) The masks are really the only things they choose to wear either because they were theirs from before or because they were gifts from either Mikey or Raph (maybe to replace their old ones that were getting tattered? more thoughts needed.)

i was going to get into a little more of a breakdown on, well, them, but i don't really have the mental capacity to do so tonight.

i'll give you a quick tidbit for the road, though. Basically, as soon as they leave Draxum, they ditch all that armor and gear except for the masks. THey want nothing to do with it anymore. Leo keeps his sword for just in case moments (and also kind of a fk you to draxum.) Donnie just straight up breaks his weapon b/c, again, wants nothing to do with it. So, because at this point they can only use their powers through conduits like those weapons, Donnie can't really use his mystics (except for high emotion/stress situations like when Shelldon was hurt.)

#tmnt #rottmnt #mikey's imaginary friends #my doodles #tmnt donatello #tmnt leonardo #i was going to say it was still friday so it counts #but it's not anymore #i spent too much time trying to figure out what the hell that donnie's weapon is called #halberd maybe? #with a mace at the end??? #idk #i couldn't find it on the wiki either #so it's a weapon #one that donnie broke #the end lol

[finniigan]

✧You shine like the stars You light up my heart ✧

#baekhyun #byun baekhyun #exo #exo art #exo fanart #bbh #my art #mine #cos i was in the mood to draw even though i should REALLY be working on my con costume T.T #my friend invited me super last minute so i have to come up w a costume by next friday. while also working like 10 hours a day lol #im gonna be taking my sewing on the tram -.- #anyway baekhyun was calling to me so. im always down to make decisions that make life for future me harder skdfhjsdf #finn.txt

[angeloflightandsunshine]

After seeing people comment how creepy Wiggly's voice is in Black Friday, I gotta ask, am I weird for genuinely getting really happy whenever I hear it?

Like, if I were a dog, my tail would be wagging and my ears would prick up whenever he talks.

#jon did such a great job #I had a hard time telling it was him #and I would have never known if I hadn’t watched npmd #anyway I really like it and I really like wiggly for some reason #maybe I just like green characters who call me friend #starkid black friday #black friday #starkid #wiggog y'wrath #wiggly

[haveyouheardthispodcast]

Propaganda below the cut:

My absolute favorite show. Trope aware portal fantasy that blows me away with every episode. and it’s been going for TEN YEARS.

#The Once and Future Nerd #The Once & Future Nerd #poll #fiction #fantasy #drama #comedy #From the summaries on Podchaser and Wikipedia it looks like it follows the Wolf 359 trajectory of comedy -> drama. #Off topic but this blog might be taking a brief hiatus. Or I'll slow down the queue again. #It is currently Friday night and I'm missing my best friend's hockey game because I have to work tomorrow and it is still past my bedtime #by an hour but I wanted to queue up one more poll because that will get me to Saturday afternoon when I might be able to queue more when #video calling with my other best friend. But my weekend is pretty full and next week I'm working 8 more hours and two more days than usual #so...... yeah. Earlier this week I came back from a two week trip to see the total eclipse which was excellent but I did not queue up #anything for this blog during it. —Mod Nic

[fightwing]

trade offer: i receive: a like you receive: a million little memes in ur inbox

#aka inbox call 🤪 #i am hoarding the asks from last night like a little dragon to plot but i cannot write on mobile. im not anyones strongest soldier #i dont arrive until friday so i am currently haunting ao3/the dash and now #if i may be so bold. ur inbox 😶‍🌫️ #can i do the fingers the 🫸🫷 mmmm not quite. but close enough #okay bye my friends i hope u have nice days <3333 #* i'd love to write but it's just not realistic / ooc.

[sharkieboi]

wait wait wait Mother Timothy Goose being an older gay man, also being transmasc and having had his and his husbands kid biologically…like omg my fucking heart 🥺💙😭

#shhh sharkie #D20 #Neverafter #Ally please let this adventuring party be canon #listen i don’t want to be pregnant ever but that’s Me #and i have some other strong feelings that aren’t relevant to this post but w/e #but like. my heart is so full for the trans people that want to have biological children #like that’s so amazing for you and i’m so happy for you #like both ways like a transmasc person carrying a baby or a transfem person contributing (??????) to a baby #had a moment as i was typing that tag that i literally don’t know what else to call it. #contributing? making? synthesizing? pre-parenting??? idk will reach out to transfem friends for a jury #anyway #like listen i don’t want any babies to come from my body. physically or genetically. #but i have so much love and respect for trans people who DO want that #anyway i’m high as shit it’s my friday ignore the rambles

[adashofniallandasprinkleoflunacy]

guess who got a really bad stomach flu and spent all of last night throwing up

#I genuinely thought I was going to die #like I’m talking projectile vomiting bro #my best friend’s dad’s bday was Friday and we went over to their house to cut a cake and he’d been having some stomach problems #but we all thought it was bc he’d eaten some bad leftovers the night before #cut to my bestie texting me the next morning telling me both her and her sister got the same thing so that meant it was a virus 😭 #and now I’ve spent all day sipping Gatorade and eating tiny portions of apple sauce bc I can’t keep anything else down #and then I have work tomorrow and I can’t call out bc my PTO hours aren’t available until June #luckily I don’t feel horrible anymore but today’s been hell just swimming in and out of consciousness and trying to stay hydrated #without hacking it all back up 😭

[sailforvalinor]

In other news, my church sign has been hit by a car for the *checks notes* fourth time

#my dad says he’s starting to take this personally lol #also The Boy is calling me Friday. less nervous than before but still nervous #I think the thing I may have figured out as to why I’m feeling panicky about this is that (at least currently) it doesn’t feel intense at #all. like does that make any sense? maybe this is because I’m not a teenager anymore but like #he’s smart he’s funny and makes me laugh we share some interests but are also fairly different he’s easy to talk to but I don’t feel like #I’ve been hit in the head with a frying pan? does that make any sense?? #argh. and he literally has said nothing about feelings like at all #which is chill with me on the one hand but on the other I have NO IDEA how he feels about me #I mean the fact that we text all the time and he talks to me for hours on the phone kind of says a lot but he’s literally said NOTHING #like he’s probably just waiting until I’m not on the other side of the globe that makes sense and I like taking it slow but also THE #UNCERTAINTY GIRLIES #I love the friendship and the fact that we jive so well as friends but though I may not seem like it in-person I AM A ROMANTIC HELP

[scatterplot-official]

:(

#i wish i had more than two friends #i love my mutuals #but i have 2 irl friends and i genuinely see them only twice a year #I LITERALLY LIVE A BLOCK AWAY FROM ONE OF THEM #and last Friday was the first time ive seen her since October #my brother has friends he sees weekly and hell talk to them all day on call #im so tired of this #scattered speaking #vent ish

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: June 1

"Easy Come, Easy Go” by George Strait

#song of the day #I lost track of time even more than I already had and forgot to call an end to Friday #Friday was essentially the same day as Thursday is the thing. song would've been 'Crucible' by Sleigh Bells #same album and all #today-yesterday (Saturday) I slept a lot but in the weirdest chunks and when I was awake mostly I was still pretty out of it #I got to see more FFXIV stuff and hear a little from some friends I've really missed #it was lovely #uh I'm trying to think what else was yesterday-today #the garden work which is why George Strait is today's song #too fuzz-brained to remember anything fancy but there's a handful of songs I could sing drunk & upside-down at the end of the world #'Easy Come Easy Go' and 'Go On' and 'I'd Just As Soon Go' and 'If It's Gonna Rain' and 'If You Can Do Anything Else' #'I Can Still Make Cheyenne' and 'Amarillo By Morning' and 'Ocean Front Property in Arizona' #always love George Strait #I made more cheddar-dill bread! it just finished cooling so that was definitely today #it's a little over-sugared because I wasn't paying attention but still pretty good #I'll be out of dill after the next loaf (until my plants grow a bit more for me. lovely things) so I'm thinking onion & mushroom soup mixes #maybe without cheese? or just with parmesan maybe. I'll have to see #more than anything what I need to do tomorrow is answer all my messages #I haven't been all of me together with free time and internet much and all these notifications are going unread #I am eternally grateful for what patient friends I have <3 #I'm going to sleep now and when I wake up maybe I'll have an entire brain again

[alpinelogy]

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#lovely that i told a friend i am not a fan of a sketchy airbnb and would rather pay for a slighly more expensive but a better placed one #and now he wants to cancel the entire trip cause i called us incompatible when it comes to travel standards... #shouldve known. bro is a spoiled brat. false hopes that maybe id have fun #mf took so long to decide anything that the airbnb we initially picked out got booked and now were less than a month out #anyway in other news i bought myself a friday ticket to a con i wanted to go to so much when i was younger and plan to spend #an obnoxious amount of money at the artist alley. i finally understand the love for prints they fuck hardcore. already reserved #several from an artist i really like + a couple stickers as well and i am *excited*. i am going to be so broke (friends have warned me lol) #to be deleted

[yohankang]

i'm so anxious abt tomorrow i feel nauseous

#i took 2 days off and i didn't answer any calls #last time i took few days off they were literally waking me up with calls... so this time i put my phone on silent #i have FIFTEEN (15) missed calls #like i know it's mostly from people who don't know it's my day off #but still. what the fuck 😭 and just seeing the missed calls got me shaking i hate this job fr #but just 3 days and it'll be weekend... my friend is coming over on friday and she'll stay with me until sunday #and i baked a carrot cake and chocolate muffins to take with me tomorrow #it's gonna be fine #🥲 #i just need to take a few deep breaths #k.txt

[icterid-rubus]

😕

#scheduled my cat to be put down this Friday #don’t wanna make a post about it but I wanna talk about it #asked my mom to come with to drive me and do the talking. dad asked to come too #except he doesn’t do earnest emotions well and says really stupid and insensitive shit when people are emoting #and I will be sobbing through all this. I already am #on a zoom call with family so they can say goodbye to Chloe and he’s going on about how bad she is sees I’m trying not to cry and says #gee! I don’t think she’ll make it through this! hohoho! #I don’t want anyone to be there with me at all but I know I just won’t be able to talk to the vet and pay #really just a fucked up year. ducked up like 6 years running but whatever #really tired but I can’t sleep. don’t want to talk to people but isolated #I want Chloe’s suffering to be over but I don’t want to let her go. #meanwhile I have bumble person on discord talking to me and it feels like such a slog. I want to ghost. I’m just tired in them and having #to keep up this like essays long reply chain about the minutia of our lives that doesn’t change ever #but that also feels mean because they haven’t been pushy and have been really considerate even when they asked to meet again and I said to #hold off because of my cat and it’s been like two weeks #I haven’t been in instagram because I don’t want fish store person to ask me out #trying to get stuff done for friends baby but realized in all this mess I forgot to block anything. feel like such a failure at everything #making baby presents. keeping my cat alive. making connections #I just don’t want to be perceived at all. I feel like such a non entity #or rather I feel like I should be a non entity. a picture on the wall of a disused room. #I’m so tired.