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[princessasmosprincess]

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#i want to post more there but rn it's like speaking into the void #come chat with me it's a bit lonely on there lol #the princess speaks #obey me #omswd #obey me shall we date

[orcelito]

Honestly hate how hard it is to start writing again when you've gone too long without it. Like for fuck's sake man Why's shit gotta be like this

#speculation nation #daydreaming of the early discacc days when i wrote 70k words in 3 weeks. those were the days... #im just... so tired and wrung out and everything is so fucking hard #im barely even Doing anything besides working. my apartment is in horrible shape rn. #what is it about grief that makes life so hard to live man. you lose a cornerstone to your life and suddenly everything is in shambles #and i know he wouldnt have wanted this for me. for me to be Barely functioning bc my brain has been so bad in response #im alive im going to work im feeding myself and showering every day #but i havent been doing the dishes i havent taken out the trash theres Stuff all over my floors and cat messes i havent cleaned #and i dont have the energy for any of it. i get home i eat and then i climb into bed. rinse and repeat. #im just... tired. im so very tired. #i keep wanting to turn to my hobbies to cope with things but it's so fucking hard to stick to #constantly oscillating between manic moods where i think i can finally start moving on (but i dont have the focus to do writing) #and depressive moods where Good Fuckin Luck doing anything besides laying in bed #if you couldnt tell im in the second boat right now. in bed as we speak. and so i shall remain until it's time to go to work #at least ive been going to the woods almost every chance i get. it hasnt given me the power to write but it's been good for me i think #get out of the apartment. experience nature. pick up a snail. you know how it goes. #i kinda feel bad for entering a fandom and trying to dig out a place for myself and Kind Of succeeding #i have a good handful of followers. people who wanna see more of my analysis and fanfic #but i havent posted anything significant in like a month bc i have belonged to the void. all month. #losing family will do that to a person i guess. doesnt stop me from being frustrated though. #negative/

[marshmellowtea]

honestly confession, both my dhmis and markiplier extended universe hyperfixations are being lovingly edged out in intensity by who's lila, i just haven't been posting about that game because 1) there's less fan content to reblog in general (though i have been meaning to go through the tag), 2) i don't. think many or any of you have really heard of it and i kinda dread posting things that i know won't really get a response of any kind and 3) i am deeply petrified of being kicked out by the like. three still active people in this fandom by being too weird so idk really ajdgkljdsklg

#and like. like. it's not that i don't know i post niche stuff and am not used to not getting much attention #but at the same time there's still like. an audience here that's guaranteed in these slightly bigger fandoms. and that's nice to have #because as much as i love posting what i want to a crowd of like three people i still know that at least three people are enjoying it #idk it just kinda sucks to know you're not going to have ANY dialogue whatsoever when you're posting something on a public platform #screaming into the void tends not to be very fun especially not with my fragile ass mental state rn lol #anyway there's also the secret fourth and fifth reason of i've been wanting to rewatch a playthrough of the game to refresh myself on it #and gain greater understanding of stuff i was confused by the first time around #and also the ever present problem of head full but no coherency to my thoughts whatsoever. which is always sooooo cool and fun #idk maybe eventually i'll post something more coherent than just frothing at the mouth at william clarke's mere existence ghlkdsjflkaf #he's just. god. guys. it's like he was designed to be catnip to ME specifically #i am UNWELL about him #marshy speaks

[glacierclear]

Having some mad fuckboy!Leon thoughts rn

After he's unlearned all the stuff he taught himself and is basically done with the whole fuckboy thing oh man he would be SO soft. Holding your hand? Check. Cuddling at his dorm? Check. Being more gentle and loving during sex? Also check.

Also, stealing his hoodies. He'd melt for sure

oh, for sure. healed fuckboy!leon would be a SIGHT TO BEHOLD.

he wouldn't be perfect...

progress isn't linear. he'd stumble a lot. make a lot of mistakes and backward steps. you would need to be patient. you would need to be careful. especially in the early stages. because damn, he's trying. he's trying so hard. and you need to acknowledge the effort, even if it's hard to see, because any praise towards this will mean so much to him.

it'd come out especially on his bad days. he's more impatient. short-tempered. lashes out over seemingly mundane things. you'll need to be firm but not demeaning. catch his tells, his habits, and figure out the real reason he's behaving the way he is.

you'll need to slowly teach him the true depth of his words. that they hurt you just as much as they hurt him. he's unfamiliar with the idea of accountability, so you need to teach him about consequences. let him know you're upset and angry at him. but just because you're upset doesn't mean he's irredeemable. he'll assume any pushback is you ending things permanently. he needs the space to fuck up and forgive himself.

and damn it all, he's the jealous type. possessive. protective as all hell. it's toxic, and you need to teach him boundaries. it'll be tough. he worked so fucking hard to get you, doesn't he deserve to have you the way he needs? but no. you need freedom. he'll learn eventually, but be prepared to send a lot of "im safe and i miss u" texts to him when you're out with friends.

speaking of toxic. the toxic masculinity will be hell to unpack. sometimes it's nice! he insists on you being passenger princess. he insists on picking up the bill (well, once you're actually dating). he doesn't mind taking care of spiders (and fine, just because you asked nicely, he won't kill them). but...the bads get real bad.

displaying any kind of vulnerable emotion is like pulling teeth. when he's nervous, scared, anxious...he'll take it out on others. or himself. early progress will be made when he's blackout drunk and spilling everything to you. he reveals the deepest, most fragile parts of himself on these nights. it's like he's an entirely different person. and the next morning he'll do his best to sweep it all under the rug, but you have to fight for it. accept him and love him despite how "totally fucking lame" he acted (his words, not yours).

that being said. the good parts? oh yeah. Boyfriend Material 100%.

he'd do anything for you. anything. don't even say shit as a joke because he'll do it. at a certain point he doesn't even care if his friends think he's being stupid. you're his whole world. he'd wear stupid t-shirts for you. go to that concert you're dying to see even if he thinks the music sucks. he'll bash his head into a wall and learn to bake french pastries if it'll get you to smile. through hell and high water, he'll follow.

and yeah, he weans himself off social media. stops posting thirst trap photos and cuts ties with his sneaky links. but the lack of external validation is felt, and it kind of falls on you to fill the void. clingy won't even begin to describe what he is. he'll resort to begging. he will. late to work in the morning? that's not his problem. you're staying in that damn bed and you are cuddling him. you think him wearing tank tops in the middle of December is just a dumb mistake, but you catch on quick when he starts to shiver and needs to huddle you for warmth. "you want me to die of hypothermia? c'mon, babe. get closer." and yeah. those ice cold hands are going straight on your stomach. have fun.

part of the excitement will come from truly learning who he is as a person. most of his herculean facade is a persona. he doesn't actually like beer. he likes dry whiskey and refined clear liquors. he doesn't actually enjoy parties. the crowds make him nauseous, and he can always blame it on the alcohol. he's not actually all that into sports. you figure out he has a well-loved public library card and he knows the mystery section like the back of his hand. he's vibrant. shockingly intelligent. gets that light in his eyes when you nudge him about his interests. it'll be hard to get him to admit it, but his favorite part of the week is huddling on the couch watching nature documentaries with you.

and it's a two-way street. he remembers everything about you. early on in your relationship you casually assume he'll never keep track of the important dates. that's the stereotype, right? you couldn't be more wrong. birthdays. anniversaries. doctor's appointments. your fucking dog's yearly vaccine. he won't necessarily go all-out, not until you're more of a long-term thing, but what he does is meaningful. sincere. you won't get $500 of flowers and chocolate for valentine's day, but he'll abduct you from work, drive you out far, far into the countryside. lay out a patchwork blanket and stare at the night sky. he brought your favorite brand of pita chips and sneakily worms a gift box in your hand. it's that stupid $15 thing that's been sitting in your online shopping cart for weeks that you could never justify buying. and yeah, he'd appreciate a blowjob under the stars, but seeing you happy is enough.

and you could never begin to imagine how loving and passionate he can get during sex. it's totally different than his usual flavor. casual hook-ups and one-night stands are merely a fraction of his power. he tends to avoid intimate gestures on those nights. no eye-contact. hardly any kissing. he likes it rough and he likes it fast. but with you? he takes his time. commits your body to muscle memory. his gaze is intense, and he watches every reaction, trying to map out your flesh like a cartographer. he'll happily make out with you for upwards of a couple hours before you even begin the real foreplay. and you always cum first. always.

oh, but if you're not a fan of PDA...he might be a problem. he's proud of you. you're the hottest thing on two legs as far as he's concerned. he'll have no issue grabbing your ass, wrapping a hand around your waist, kissing along your neck, whispering the most obscene things in your ear. it's not even to make a point. there's no rhyme or reason. he just wants to. and you're right there. and what right does the world have to tell him to stop? does it make people uncomfortable? who cares. he'll lay off if it really bugs you that much...but if he catches anyone staring at you too long he'll ramp it up. it's almost aggressive. you turn to scold him, noticing how his eyes aren't even on you. he's staring at someone else. someone who's looking at what's his.

he's a yes man, too. if you need restraint and careful guidance in your life...he's not the one. he'll support any weird, out of the blue hobby you want to pursue. if you even joke about quitting your job he'll egg you on. "i'll drive right up there and tell your boss i'll fuck his wife!" and you have to talk him down. he'll punch the sun for you. he'll be behind every impulsive purchase. every 4am trip to walmart. every instinct to feed your id. any "little treat" you want to have he'll get it. because you deserve the best. if you ever want to have a stable bank account you need the be the voice of reason. because it's not gonna be him.

yeah. he'll have a lot of problems. don't worry about that. but, at least with fuckboy!leon, you'll almost never have any doubts that he loves you. once you manage to pin his heart on his sleeve, it's there for life and it'll always be yours.

#fuckboy!leon #leon kennedy #resident evil #shut up glacier #suggestive #headcanons

[voidedsoul5]

OKAY HERE WE GO, ANALYSIS AND THEORY TIME.

Spoilers for the new TMP episode (Ep 8)

NOT ONLY did we get my babygirl back (Who definitely has something going on with him but we'll go back to that later) we also got another hint about one of my other working theories about Celia and this universe... I am losing my mind rn and I need someone to talk to about this even if it's just screaming to the internet void. More below cut. Split it because it's a semi-long post.

I think Gertrude is for SURE coming back at some point, literally no reason for her not to especially considering I don't think TMP team is going to pull the 'But this time she's actually just an innocent old lady' thing. It's cheap, and she likely knows stuff that will come up later when (I believe) she still has worked at the institute before it burned down due to her age. Plus, someone had to have cleared out those files.

Gerry is happy and it makes sense. Gerry in TMA was trying to be a kind person, but he'd witnessed too much and seen too much to be able to do that. In this world, if the fears didn't exist Mary would've likely not been AS deranged. OR mary might not have existed at all given Gertrude claimed Gerry as his grandson. Removing Mary, Gerry really doesn't have a reason to be so reserved and abrasive. HOWEVER. I think there's a possibility that isn't his actual personality. The happiness (as mentioned in the unofficial transcript) is maybe a bit too played up. I wouldn't mind if this is just how he was, a slightly erratic messy artist. But pairing him specifically WITH gertrude in this universe stood out to me. So here's my mini theory.-I'm not saying it's drugs, or Gertrude is casting black magic or something, but I do think she's doing something to keep Gerry out of this 'mess'. Even if that's just living with him and helping him have a normal life as a painter. Gertrude has always had a soft spot for gerry in TMA, in this universe where she's probably not as battle-hardened, trying to keep him safe and out of it all isn't out of character. Mostly, this idea just came from the fact that she tried to brush it off, then seemed disappointed when Gerry spoke about the gifted kids program, despite him being well enough able to speak for himself. She probably doesn't want him involved. This however all relies on the context that Gertrude knows stuff. Honestly, she might just be his grandma that he now lives with either for rent reasons or because his parents might be dead. It could honestly be that simple, I just like rattling off ideas.

CELIA KEEPS DROPPING HINTS OF KNOWING SHIT. SHE KNOWS SOMETHING. SHE KNOWS THINGSSSS. I have another post about my TMA theory of these reoccurring characters from TMA beginning to remember things from the TMA world. Its so incredibly on the nose for her to immediately start asking questions about the 14 fears WE KNOW, ask about alternate universes, AND BE THE ONE WHO PUSHED SAM TO LOOK INTO MORE STUFF ABOUT THE PROGRAM (Sam said it was her idea at the end of Ep 8) I don't know exactly how thisll work, but I get more and more convinced each episode that this theory has some merit.

And this is a small one, but blah blah Norris reading a paper about loneliness, isolation, and hostile architecture blah blah blah metaphors symbolism blah blah you get the jist

I rlly just wanna talk about this show to anyone, I don't have friends who've seen TMA or TMP so my only option is talking about it here. PLS feel free to talk about your own opinions and ideas in reblogs and shit. I don't care if they counter mine I just wanna talk about this show I love it sm </3

#tma #the magnus archives #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #the magnus protocol spoilers #the magnus protocol #sam tmagp #gerry keay #gerry kaey #tmagp theory

[beelsbignaturals]

🐄 DEMON FORMS: BELPHEGOR 💤

AN: thanks void for helping w the tags ♡♡♡ also jsyk my requests are open and I am gonna be working on them slowly but surely. I have a con in like... a little over a week? So I'm a lil busy rn but thank u for the love on my creepy demon posts. As always you can check the obey me world building tag on my blog to see the other parts of this series :3

inspiration for this part: honestly, nothing specific unless you count like,,, The Hat Man

TWs: body horror, possession, sleep paralysis, mentions of insanity, mentions of psychosis, lesson 16 mention, demons being demons

● Okay, Level 1.5 belphie is more common than a regular human looking belphie because he can't be bothered most of the time. Also, he doesn't like humans that aren't you, so why would he want to be palatable for them? He has permanent eyebags. He goes back and forth between blinking way too fast or not at all. Which …Is unsettling. He can stare for hours and fall asleep like that. He has cow ears, and his tail is out because he plays with the fluffy part as a stress response. It makes him feel safe (probably bc beel will brush his tail for him when it gets all tangled, and he secretly LOVES it. Puts him to sleep in seconds.) Speaking of sleep, if you look directly at Belphie, he is very…. Fuzzy looking. Like you just woke up and everything's blurry, but it's only him that looks like this. 

Today is the day you learn demons can purr. You knock on the door of the twins' room, entering when you hear a quiet "come in." Perhaps you expected to see Belphie napping on Beel's back while the larger twin does push-ups. You certainly didn't think you'd see the pair sitting on the floor, Belphegor's tail being meticulously detangled by his brother. Belphie looks a bit like a house cat, curled up on the floor, eyes closed and purring as his tail occasionally swishes about. You silently take a video and leave before Belphie wakes up and forces you to delete it.

● Level 2. His tail grows large thorns, perfect for thwacking anyone who annoys him. He constantly smells like lavender and something else that no one can for sure define, but if you stand too close, you will get drowsy. Everything about him seems a bit… uncanny valley. He doesn't look terrifying so much as he looks…. Just,,,, Incorrect. His breathing sounds like a white noise machine.  This is the form he takes during lesson 16. He chooses it specifically so he doesn't make you run immediately. 

Despite the trauma that you experienced, you have learned to find comfort in Belphegor's demon form. Sometimes, you doze off to the sound of his breathing while your hands play with the soft fur of his ears. On more than one occasion, you have compared Belphie to one of the children from Polar Express, which got you smacked in the face by his tail. But even when you get on his last nerve, he is careful not to cut you with the sharp barbs on his tail. A silent apology for killing you once upon a time.

● Level 3. Goodbye sleepy, cozy weirdness, and hello sleep paralysis demon. The thorns on his tail get larger and spread to cover his arms. His eyelids just. Fuck off. He doesn't have them anymore. Jeff the Killer looking bitch. The longer you look at him the more…absolutely fucking AWFUL he looks. Five minutes? He has double the normal amount of teeth. Ten? His horns are casting shadows that look like every nightmare you've ever had. Twenty and all of a sudden you are literally frozen in place. If he's feeling kind, he will use magic to knock you unconscious. If not, you are going to be stuck like this until well after he leaves. If he leaves. Also, he eats dreams.

You will occasionally wake up in the dead of night to the sound of raspy breathing. When you look up, you find a pair of eyes staring intently at you. In the first few seconds after waking, your dreams are so incredibly vivid that it shocks you when they dissappear from your memory, as if it never happened. You yawn, throwing a pillow at the demon's face. Which causes Belphie to laugh, not losing balance from his perch at the end of your bed for even a second.

● Level 4. He is more mist than corporeal. He can be more on the solid side. He just prefers not to. If he is in this form, hold your breath and run. Breathing in any of the mist has…. Very bad side effects. You might find yourself unable to sleep ever again, no matter how tired, until eventually you go insane. Or perhaps living your worst nightmares is more your speed? Either way, it's absolutely horrifying, and he doesn't even have to do any work to destroy you. He just makes you do that yourself. If he likes you, he can make the effects a lot less awful. Breathing in the mist is literally breathing Belphegor, so he can also read your mind (all the better to find your deepest fears). You can hear a whispery voice in the back of your head… that's him. He likes to hang out and chat with Beel like this. Or plot anti-Lucifer activities with Satan since only the person he is possessing can hear him. He can suggest you do all sorts of things, and if you aren't paying attention, you might think it's your body working on its own. If he talks normally while just being a cloud of mist, his voice is surprisingly loud, encompassing the whole room.

A tiny voice, one you know all too well, speaks in the back of your mind. The first time this happened, you thought it was your conscious or something. Perhaps a psychotic break. But no, it is just the youngest of the seven demons you live with. Belphie enjoys backseat driving while you go about your day. He laughs when you trip (honestly, it might be him that caused it...), makes jokes at the most inappropriate times, causing you to choke on your own spit, trying to suppress laughter. And when someone is being particularly rude, he gets rather descriptive in his insults. But hey, he means well. You think.

#om! shall we date #obey me #obey me x reader #obey me belphegor #obey me worldbuilding #obey me mc #shrimp writes #obey me belphie #obey me belphagor x reader

[easy-revenge]

im shaking screaming crying and eating concrete bc of the sheer concept of ino in sukuna's vicinity in the manga rn.

like same goes for kusakabe, they're both extremely disposable and sukuna could canonically oneshot them by breathing in their general direction, but ino is my special little guy. i have a bit more faith in choso but im stressing about him, too.

besides screaming into the void the point of this post is to put out there my vision for what's gonna go down with ino even though i lowkey hope that im wrong and he makes it out in one piece:

I've been thinking a lot about his scene after gojo's unboxing where he wanted to talk to gojo, shoko and ijichi about sth related to nanami. we don't know what that was about but I've been theorizing that it's got sth to do with nanami leaving behind a letter of recommendation for ino to be a grade 1 sorcerer.

it would make sense to bring closure to the scene of them eating that we see in the flashback during the shibuya incident and also as a focal point for ino's character.

more specifically my vision is basically that ino will get hit/heavily injured in this battle with sukuna and we're going to get a flashback to what he wanted to talk to gojo and shoko about aka the nanami thing. then, thinking that his motivation to impress nanami no longer stands, it would make sense for his character to use this memory as a boost to push forward and prove nanami right for believing in him. honoring his memory in the process and the like.

realistically speaking, i dont think ino can survive a one on one with sukuna or his ct, so there's a very good chance he's not making it out, and maybe his last thoughts would be about nanami as well, based on this theory, but i can't even bring myself to think about that rn.

so im gonna end this by hoping that this goes down and the thought of nanami is enough to somehow get ino safely home after this fight !! /delusional

anyways if this is substantially close to what ends up happening next week, know that i am in fact gege akutami

#ino takuma #the only man ever #he's just like me if u even care #esfp solidarity #nanami simp solidarity #who said that #ill be praying next wednesday i will look up the leaks with shaking hands ik it #is anyone else losing their marbles? #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen manga #jjk #jjk manga spoilers #jjk 245 #jjk leaks #jjk 245 leaks #jjk theory #jjk ino #nanami kento #jjk spoilers

[lumilasi]

I've been meaning to finish this one for aaaages, but always kept pushing it back. I also wondered if I should draw his full body ref too, but I just can't be bothered rn.

I wanted to go for a slightly different direction from what I typically see portrayed with any Deity relating to War. Nature vise I mean to be exact.

I decided to make this post into more of an info dump on the Heralds beyond just War, given two out of three others are somewhat relevant, even if they don't appear directly at any point. (Famine is not included as they're not relevant in any way) Admittedly they are more relevant on the whole in the spin-off story (The Mage and the Mobster) rather than the main one NCP

More info below:

ABOUT WAR/SOLDIER

They are the youngest of the four "siblings" and always manifest last, as life first tends to need to reach sapient state to have actual "wars"

Their appearance changes depending on the times/current cycle. During some lifecycles War might've appeared as a woman for example.

He is currently a white male because of the World Wars being the most recent large-scale battles on earth.

He is generally very mellow and quiet, coming off like someone very tired of just existing, which often tends to confuse those who assume the Herald of War would be more fiery.

The Weaponsmith Warlocks are the only beings directly channeling his power. He initially created this ability in hopes that if someone could "see directly" what he does, they'd start to learn not to cause war so much, but unfortunately that tends to not work...

ABOUT DEATH/END

They are described as a "story collector" by their siblings and Reapers who get to speak with them. Curious to hear the story of each soul a reaper is currently shepherding to the next cycle.

No one really knows what they look like, and the siblings often indicate Death looks like everyone and no-one the same time.

In practice, typically any Grim Reaper discussing with them will just see their own reflection, but with pitch black, void-like eyes. Mortals may sometimes be possessed by a fraction of their essence too, but this is rare.

Death doesn't know where a soul goes once they pass the "veil" as they call it; if there is a heaven or hell or a rebirth. All Death does know that eventually, every single soul - if not destroyed - does make their way to the next cycle of the World itself. (In this story the world basically cycles where it gets destroyed and is reborn over and over again. I think there's even a theory/concept about this in IRL physics lol)

Grim Reapers were all living souls once, choosing to become one either while still alive, or once they are being escorted. Reasons as to why one does so wary greatly.

Death does also permit a fraction of their power to be used for a short period of time without turning into a Grim Reaper, utilizing special stones. these are very risky to use however, since using them for too long transforms you permanently, forcing the individual to leave their past life behind, unable to ever return to their loved ones.

ABOUT PESTILENCE

They are most involved with mortal realm despite not often manifesting physically. They have not one but two "follower" types, both helpful and chaotic ones.

The Chaotic ones are the Plague demons, who, while might have tendencies to be less-than-good people, aren't always necessarily evil either, hence they are described more as "chaotic"

The Helpful ones are the Blood Sage Warlocks, whose powers are typically used to help people with their ailments.

BONUS: Famine

All that is known of them is that they appear as a hermit humanoid that wanders across earth, and wherever they go, the chance of a famine gets higher.

They are very passive and the siblings often indicate they're not really mentally present, less of a person and more of an entity that just exists.

STORY RELEVANCES:

War/Soldier is mostly relevant in NCP/the main story as the "uncle" who visits Marci Raye, and generally may interact with other characters outside their family as well. He is also seen spending time with the local light Deity Spectra, and the Soul Eater King Amaros.

Pestilence & Death: They are relevant to the conflict between Angus Belmont and his ex friends-with-benefits Vincent DeVos. Vincent is obsessed over him, and wants to turn Angus into a Grim Reaper, because that way their souls can reunite at the end once the world is to be purged of life.

Angus is VERY MUCH against this because he has a kid to look after, and a sister to take care of. Also a student. Angus is a good candidate for this, because he already has a connection to the Heralds thanks to his powers, which gave Vincent this idea in the first place. (Already existing connections make these transformations easier)

Vincent's reasoning for wanting Angus to become a Grim Reaper specifically rather than turning him into a Plague demon - which would achieve the same goal - is very shallow and also slightly ignorant; he finds Reapers more attractive than his own kind, and doesn't realize turning Angus into a Reaper would mean he can't be around Vincent either, until the very end (something he'd be too impatient to wait for)

#artists on tumblr #story lore #four horsemen #oc doodles #lumi's chaotic creations #lumi's art scribbles #Night city parlor #the Mage and the Mobster #I'll draw a full body look for War eventually #I just wasn't on the mood for it rn #I wanted to post these already as they'd sat on my computer for months #and I was worried I'd accidentally end up deleting them before I manage to post them #so might as well do it now lol

[sweetdreamsbuck]

hi babies🥰

so i've been doing some thinking and i need to take a break from writing for a little bit. (i have been on a break, this is just an official post about it lol) as you know, i've been going through a really hard time in life rn and writing used to be fun and a great escape. but it is so tiring and draining for me now and i can hardly work on anything without crying and deleting it a million times. i just seem to hate everything i write and it really feels so sucky tbh

i have run into a very very bad habit of comparing my silly things to other things i read or other brilliant writers on here and it is no one's fault but my own, so i think it is best if i simply take a step away for a little while. i truly enjoy being a reader first and foremost and i can't do that while i'm trying to write and not cry from constantly comparing to other people or just plain feeling insecure about what i'm writing. that's not healthy– and it's not why writing is used in the first place. this hellsite should be fun and freeing and it isn't if i'm using it incorrectly

i know my fluff isn't "popular" (as liked as my smut) or everyone's favorite, but it is what i enjoy writing. (fluffy smut as well hehe) i want to be able to write it and share it without comparing the "quality" of it or getting upset about the number of notes or lack of engagement. i've been on here long enough to know that the lack of engagement is always going to be an issue, and as someone who craves validation allllll the time, i need to check myself and make sure i'm only sharing things for me.

i want to get back to a place where writing is fun and silly and something i do when i feel good about it. so thank you for always being patient! i of course will post a fic or blurb or an answer to one of your asks if i have the burning itch to immediately write some thoughts down and share them hehe, but for now i'm going to be just enjoying all the fics i've been dying to read that i just haven't had the time, headspace, or energy for. (all asks you've ever sent in are saved and are more than likely written and completed in my docs, i just haven't had the heart to share them yet.) this is just me speaking into the void a bit hehe, but i just wanted to be a bit more candid and share

xo

#thoughts with mir #don't rb

[virgyvandijk]

AHHH I'm so happy you saw my ask 😭 I thought there was a chance you were completely inactive and I was speaking to the void.

Only if you have the time/energy/etc to do it! Again, it wasn't really a request because I didn't want to seem pushy 🙈 (Nothing I hate more than the thought of accidentally pressuring a poor writer-) I just thought you'd like the little idea/thought of mine based off of what you've written before and what has happened haha

And if you do decide to write it, whether it's tomorrow or next week or next month or next year, I'll look forward to it either way! And while I wait, I'll keep rereading your old works ❤️

BTW that Arsenal game hmm? Looks like we're getting somewhere? Maybe?? Perhaps???

like i said i'm always in the shadows watching 👀

i'm working on another fic rn that i really wanna get finished and posted (it's taking SO much longer than expected lol this always happens) but believe me talks have been had about that incident 👀 there are defo some ideas there!

god i want to get my hopes up but i've been hurt too many times this season....... how on earth we can win 9-0 and 7-0 and look so convincingly good then go and lose the next game to relegation fodder is beyond me....

[magic-weirdo]

I posted 7,616 times in 2022

That's 5,298 more posts than 2021!

302 posts created (4%)

7,314 posts reblogged (96%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@reblogging-random-stuff-i-like

@moth-rothko

@sassychaostrash

@socks-in-the-void

@samaravi

I tagged 594 of my posts in 2022

#magic's rambles - 259 posts

#cw cursing - 41 posts

#cw swearing - 40 posts

#saving for later - 27 posts

#cw caps - 24 posts

#ask - 20 posts

#cw caps lock - 17 posts

#reblog bait - 16 posts

#magic's art - 14 posts

#cw vent - 11 posts

Longest Tag: 136 characters

#my sister's already taller/tall as me and even though my brothers half my height now he's -according to some doctor- going to be 5'7-5'8

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

we’re only in the middle of one conversation rn and it’s making me sad :/ speak to me, dearest sibling! we shall have many conversations and confuse ourselves as well as our comrades!

Do not be sad!!!! then I'll be sad!!!! and then it'll set off a chain reaction of sadness!!! we cannot have that!!!

I have like 11 assignments to do in the next two days and two of them are essays but I shall always make time to speak with you, fellow sibling, and confuse the comrades!!!

So, how's life???

87 notes - Posted March 21, 2022

#4

ur amazing <3

no u <3

114 notes - Posted February 6, 2022

#3

taylor swift opinions i need to know

uhhhhh..... I listened to her music a ton in like.... 4th grade????

and I think I based one of my unfinished stories from like 3 ish years ago on one of her songs???

but other than that all I know about her is that she's some singer/songwriter and I haven't listened to her newer music

wait- *squintints suspiciously* why do you NEED to know???? are you trying to make me think about my 4th grade self??? hm?? what are YOUR opinions on her???

117 notes - Posted April 11, 2022

#2

The only reason we know nothing about Steve's childhood is because the writers don't want to admit he's trans

170 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Boys with nail polish. you agree. reblog

12,983 notes - Posted August 4, 2022

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[liesandbrokenhearts]

Girl, my point is you need support from people irl like your family. No point going on Tumblr and showing skin to get sympathy from dudes who'll stop giving a shit about you and your problems once they nutted. Am sorry for your loss of your dad. Losing a loved one sucks so better to spend time with family and strengthen relationships rather than chasing clout and sympathy from randoms on Tumblr. Stay safe, girl. You're a good one.

And rn my close family is in the same boat as me and I don’t feel like venting to them and making a bad time worse, so my plan was to get it out on a place where not many see it for my own sanity. That’s it. You never wanted to just speak into a void before? And showing skin to get sympathy? Does that look like what I’m doing? That makes me wanna delete my whole blog seriously. that’s not what I’m here for, nor is that what people are doing to my pictures. I’m not here for attention I started posting pictures to feel more comfortable in front of the camera and to document my makeup and outfits for myself. Don’t know why I’m explaining that to you but okay. And I’m not even addressing anything else but I didn’t know that talking about my dad dying was clout chasing either, but what do ya know. Learn something new everyday

#you just said I show skin to get sympathy on the internet then just say you’re a good one stay safe? #seriously

[rottingskunk]

Whats the deal with hook ups and blind dates?

A demiromantic lesbian rambles: the blog

If i sound incoherent lets blame me waking up at a good early time(7am—).

Disclaimer: This is not meant to sound pretentious it is only my thoughts on the matter if you do these congrats have fun stay safe!

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Recently through the years i realized to myself i was part of the ace spectrum. I mostly identified with being demiromantic/sexual as well as greysexual. With this in mind you might have more context as to what I’m thinking about.

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For years i couldn’t wrap my head around the concept of blind dates. Other people seem to understand it better and sometimes have long term partners from it. Me? I just don’t see myself doing that. I want to be the one who chooses who i get to date not let someone choose them for me. I wouldn’t mind suggesting someone, i just wont always pursue them? Its not their fault in any means its just that I don’t have my head fully on the blind date thing.also i just feel bad if i don’t feel a connection between the person and i :((

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Hook ups, yey,,,? Im not gonna be too detailed on the spicier sides of this concept bc im unsure of tumblr censorship 😍! Anywho I also didn’t get these, still don’t. In concept in theory i understand it is for instant gratification, something to get with no strings attached. For me though I don’t feel the hype towards it? When i love or do that with someone it is with full passion,dedication and knowing them beyond an interaction or two. I think i would be in ruins if i tried doing this to myself knowing my passionate tendencies so i choose not to do it.This is most definitely the demisexuality / demiromantic side speaking rn.

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Consequently bc of that i end up feeling isolated? Detached? Unsure when people discuss their experiences with it. I lack the understanding or ability to wrap my head around the subject. Not because I’m grandiose and full of myself thinking “I am better than everyone else. I personally sleep with people I took the time to know while you peasants fool around.” This is not the mindset if anything I’m happy for those who partake in this granted ensure mutual safety and protection, it never hurts to be safe than sorry. I just know I won’t likely have those experiences to mutually relate to. In turn i feel desperate and longing to try those things but knowing full well i clash with those concepts most definitely, i stop myself.

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What was the point of this whole blog post? Nothing much really just spilling my thoughts on allosexual concepts i cannot grasp for myself for personal means. Is this gonna be thrown into the void? Most definitely but i hope someone relates to this post I suppose.Anywho have a lovely day everyone! This is ambrose signing off with a community gif🏃💨

#demisexual #demiromantic #ambroserambles #lgbtq #queer #greysexual #lesbian

[tsui-no-sora]

I am on a talkative mood rn so yes have this <3

To be fair I am a lurker pretty much and I was so close to being a lurker with Karmaland too; the only reason I made a side blog was because I wanted to make a pun out of the url (Quackity with K of Karmaland - Kuackity).

I didn't see more than a couple of reblogs, maybe a tag or two in the future of that blog. I am usually nervous talking like in text cause I am not the most elocuent person nor the one with the best gramatic and wording.

But I think you were the one who made me want to become active, I just couldn't help responding to your takes and the back and forth of input made me so happy that I decided to invest myself in this of being active and voicing things.

Thanks to you I made a pinned comment (yes my example was your own, sorry), I started liveblogging (seeing you reblog my live blogs was special), you were my first ask (and probably the reason I have gotten asks since most are anons and you told me I had it off), I made banners cause I saw you made one, and so many little things.

Now I have 30 followers (is not a lot maybe to some but I was always on 2 in my main), a lot of posts, people reblogging content, adding their own, I have guides now, and anons with special names and so much.

I am sappy now, but thank you so much. I am so glad to be your mutual (you my first mutual too) and I am just happy in general to be able to droo here, or in your tags, or see you in my tags, in my asks. Just yeah 💜💚

-kuackity

Sorry I read this and then I re read this and then I read it again because I was freaking out I took screenshots of it so I don't lose this ask

You don't know how happy it makes me hear that me yelling back to the posts you wrote made you want to be more active I have never really been active in any fandom before except for one where it was literally just me and my irl friends posting for each other it's really difficult for me to get enough confidence and energy to post my fics and to post my analysis about things even now I still have so many posts on drafts because I get nervous and scared easily you are really like the first person I have interacted like this with ever

You are also the reason I even get asks and stuff now I have always been used to just sending them and lurking around but now I mostly get at least one or two asks a day you don't know how insane that is to me and trust me I get it 30 doesn't feel like a lot compared to other people but I had my main for about eleven years now and used to be really active on it and never got past like 10 followers and they were all irl friends so it is a lot

It's so cool being told you made the banners because you saw mine because I loved the banners you made and immediately wanted to use them and I inspired my own pin posts out of the blogs I looked up to the Liveblogs thing as well I got more interested in posting my random thoughts in real time because I saw you doing the same and I wanted to keep reblogging and interacting

I initially thought that posting about Karmaland was just going to be me yelling to the void with maybe one or two reblogs here and there you don't know how happy it has made me to actually have somebody to speak about my Minecraft series with and somebody to send asks and reply to posts back and forth to make theories and headcanons with it's really the best part of fandom

You are the first mutual on this fandom that I actually speak with consistently and I really love your posts and I'm glad I helped you get a little more confidence to share them with the world our community it's rather small but I like that it exists and we are in it you know it's really cool it warms my heart and you even got your anons with cool names

Thank you too for being such a cool person and hanging out with me in my blog I love hanging out in your inbox and in your tags all the time

#❤️💖💗💓💘♥️💝 #k i love you let me give you a hug #for real aaaaaa this ask made me so happy #you have no clue how nice it is to hear this from u #u the best #kuackity tag #beloved's asks

[eirian]

im going insane so im going to tell you about it and by that i mean make a post to scream into the void about my troubles

this will be a rambly, stream of consciousness post so watch out. unmedicated adhd brain shenanigans are afoot

i feel like i need to draw for myself more. i try to very often, i do, but i still feel like im caught in the whole “if i dont draw for attention then whats the point” hellhole that ive been trying to get out of for years. but i feel like the reason for this is that i literally Need the attention to up my chances for commissioners??? because thats how i make a living rn???  like i literally rely on commissions as my main source of income and that pays for shit like rent and medication and appointments and food :( i barely buy shit for myself anymore b/c im putting it all towards needs and not wants

also im worried my merch wont pop off as well as it did when i first released the submas merch. i know those were in high demand, but im afraid the demand will go to single digit sales for them as well as everything else i sell.  im honestly thinking about just buying very small stock, maybe 10 of each item at most, and opening the orders that way (after i ship things out of course).  speaking of shipping my last shipment STILL hasnt come in and im a little frustrated b/c im like. bruh i need to ship out these preorders. im not gonna do preorders in the future i dont think, im waiting way too long for this stock to come in :( i dont want yall to wait forever for like..a keychain

ive been trying to work here and there on both villain + school and facets (facets is completely written and scripted, v+s just recently got solidified as an outline Finally) but i kinda only had energy to do so for One Day so im not sure when those’ll be out lmfao. sorry bout that

i want to make more ocs, i havent made new ocs in a hot minute and im like :( wah. my character design brain is kaput right now.  i wanna make more cool db ocs and such like i used to. it used to bring me so much joy.  or maybe even inazuma eleven ocs idk im just wanting New Boys

i have so much to do or at least so much i could be doing. like i could make new merch art but that feels pointless if i dont have the money to buy the merch. i still need to ship out my FIRST orders, christ.  and im trying so hard to get commissions rolling so i CAN ship out my shit but :( its a struggle. im struggling. god im stressed to hell and back hi

sometimes i do be like i wanna die !  but i wont.  i’ll be ok things will be ok.  i will get commissions its only the 6th.  i have time. and im going to check out some cons that i can maybe table at in the future. thatd be wonderful. fuck i need to reprint my business cards with my updated twitter im a little mad i ended up getting my account unsuspended right after i made those cards. at least i only made 50 of them i guess

i need like an online journal or something to write this shit into instead of like, a public tumblr post LMFAO. but i cant use washi tape online so there goes that /hj

i really really need to figure out a way to let the general furry population know that i will draw their stuff for commissions. like. i Will. i Have. i Can.  just give me a chance bro i’ll draw your inflation fetish art just give me a chance to make some money to live LOL.  i would draw more furry art but i am so unmotivated and sluggish its so hard..

i kinda feel like i should try to get back into adoptables too but ive been so depressed and down and unmotivated its really really hard for me to design things for myself let alone to sell. so im like ok now what i have no income. im too brain fucky to get a “real job” so im just like. sits here on my ass doing absolutely nothing except being sad.  ok so i might have depression

anyway life is hard thanks for putting up with me

[greenbloods]

🕸 waifnumber17 Follow

she let me hit becuause behind my whimsy there is this Sorrow

[this post was made by an adherent of the great council of 101!!! DNI if you adhere to andal succession law]

🌻 littlelordroses Follow

omggg my fields have been absolutely THRIVING since the tyrells have brought comfort and prosperity to the capital. feel so proud to be a reachman. thank youuuu @ mace_the_ace

🦁 hearmerawr Follow

mace tyrell is a separatist and a cryptofascist btw

🌻 littlelordroses Follow

umm could you provide some sources for this?

🥖 heelobread Follow

LANNISTAN GLOWIE SEETHING RN

🏵 ofthegreenlands Follow

lolol thats def cersei isnt it

🦁 hearmerawr Follow

it’s not my job to educate you

❄ whorefrost Follow

ok this is a long shot but if any of you are in the area around the godseye i lost my raven Moonwing yesterday and i was wondering if any of you might have seen him. he was pacing around my room two nights ago mumbling things like 'snow' and 'king' and 'hardhome'. my brother likes to play pranks on me so i thought it was just one of his games but when i woke up my raven was gone. i miss him a lot so i wanted to reach out to see if any of you might have seen him

🌙 moonglowinherhair Follow

heyy im in the godseye area too (im from Crofter's Fall if youve heard of it) but i was wondering if you have any more information about your bird? theres a lot of ravens around these parts haha

❄ whorefrost Follow

hes black

🌙 moonglowinherhair Follow

anything else?

❄ whorefrost Follow

he bites me a lot

⚔️ swordcrosseryaoi Follow

streets are saying sansa poisoned joffrey and took off from kings landing on leathery bat wings to go to the wall you go girl!! starks stay winning

fireandboob Follow

oh my fucking none of these people care about you. a stark brigade literally plundered my whole village!! can we not do this again i hate this goddamn site

🍏 fossobabe Follow

does anyone know if we have tomorrow tomorrow

🍁 plummpudding Follow

for man, perhaps. but for a tree, time is different. a river roiling back and forth, both here and there, but inconstant--always inconstant. a thousand years are but a mere moment through the eyes of a heart tree

📿 sparrowsbones-777-deactivated2990707 Follow

yeah go pray to your rivers northoid. and when the shaman comes to tear your heart out and sacrifice it to your trees, maybe spare a thought for the Seven and their divine might. we'll be waiting.

🍁 plummpudding Follow

254.421.81.132

❄ whorefrost Follow

yooo thats near where i live! if you see a raven flying near your house, could you dm me?

⛓ rhllorbot Follow

The night is dark and full of terrors.

[Beep-boop! I look for heathens and non-believers. Sometimes I mess up.]

🐗 bobby-b-bot Follow

IS THAT HOW YOU SPEAK TO YOUR KING??

🐀 askmeaboutmylengtheory Follow

every time i scroll past this post i have to reblog

🦀 crackedclaw Follow

hey can i ask you about your leng theory?

🐀 askmeaboutmylengtheory Follow

No.

🍏 fossobabe Follow

what the hell happened to my post

🗝 adropofdragonblood Follow

alright we're solving this once and for all

🧀 bloodncheesewasan1n51d3j0b Follow

op you coward wheres stannis

🗝 adropofdragonblood Follow

many have been asking the same question

🕯glasscandle-was-taken Follow

ok i know i shouldnt be surprised bcz its popular on this site to bandwagon onto the next popular thing but just a reminder that if youre supporting the conquests of daenerys targaryen youre supporting a literal colonizer and imperialist. plus slavery is literally a unique and traditional part of ghiscari culture so we cant be surprised that people over there dont like her. begging yall to pick up a scroll once in a while

🍷adornishred Follow

K

👁️ eye-motif Follow

U

⛈ pisswaterprincess Follow

N

🩸 blood-motif394 Follow

what if we were both locked in the formless dark void of the dungeon together, bereft of our own names and our own identities, bereft of everything that made us who we were. and we were both boys

🐒 littlestvalyrian Follow

haha that would be pretty epic i think

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