#i want to be a bullet so bad

[itachanta]

Just here, oogling Vash's beautiful hand animations

#trigun #trigun stampede #vash #vash the stampede #hands #i love hands #this is visual p*rn #*blushing hard* #the scenes where he reloads the gun have to be one of the sexiest things i've seen in a long time #so fluid and graceful #i want to be a bullet so bad #i swear everytime they focused on his hands #i was fascinated #studio orange are gods #tristamp #my gifs: itachanta

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

fantasy au scribbles!!

#ft. bardaby and wall beefing <3 #ok yeah im just gonna call possessed wally wall. #cause yk. homes. home. walls. wall. #the alternative options were like. walome. holly. etc. bad options #In My Mind that scribble is the result of barnaby's first time seeing home possess wally #he did not know home could do that! they'd already had a very stressful and bad few months! #both of them were at their limits and were ready to Start Biting! #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #wh au #welcome home au #anyway yeah i gave howdy a lil ponytail. what about it #and his lil magic bullet bandolier <3 #ALSO DRAWING THE PUPPETS WITH TEETH IS FUN BUT ALSO VERY STRANGE #I AM NOT USED TO SHOVING CHOMPERS IN THEIR FACES #but in this au they're Real Fleshy Beings so. they need teeth i guess #ok i just wanted to give them teeth in a way that my brain allowed #still very unwell about this lil au btw #my little imaginings have been keeping me going lately #my favorite plotlines at present are bardaby-home bonding / wally & home are separated / ocean adventures / disembowelment <3 #fun things all around!

[sunlit-mess]

consumed by the inevitable

#messyr #you know- I kept thinking: One day. The cage will be open but I feel like I'll stay. Because if I run- I'd wind up dead from their bullet #so I just- tend to- follow as much as I want to rebel and put sense into this fuckass household. I hate seeing the others in pain as well #and it hurts more that it feels like I can NEVER be the one to break this cycle of abuse- when I knew from the start- when I knew too much #but here I am ending up like the rest of them- helpless and unable to do jackshit about the situation. I cant say or do anything at all! #I dont want to end up like them- if anything I want to BREATHE- i want all of us to LIVE without this pain that has existed for generations #I want to help so bad no matter how much I know I am unloved. #no matter how much hate i carry- no matter how much burden- Underneath it all- I'm devoted to them- that's how fucked up I am #i know i'll never be enough. I know how often I think of death and wish it. #But I have a dream to achieve and I am not planning to die until I reach it. Not yet. If pain is where I strive best then so be it. #doodle #vent art #artists on tumblr #bpd #toxic behavior #learned helplessness

[lorephobic]

literally nobody asked for it, but here's my list of saltburn essays that i've slowly been drafting over the course of the last week which WILL be required reading for anybody trying to engage with me about this movie. my very personal saltburn 101 syllabus just dropped

A Wolf in Deer's Clothing: Saltburn's Attempt at Innocence

an examination of party costumes and our character's last attempts to masquerade as something they're not: felix—an angel, all-forgiving and all-knowing, something to be worshiped; and oliver—a prey animal, prey to class-divide, prey to saltburn, prey to felix.

thoughts about oliver specifically are loosely organized in my #bambi tag

A Midsummer Night's Mare: Farleigh Start as the Ultimate Victim of Saltburn

a farleigh character study, about the ways he was mistreated and manipulated at saltburn, about fighting to stay alive and the scars left behind by knowing when to give in

alternatively titled "QuickStart", may be adapted into a conclusive essay specifically focusing on oliver and farleigh's relationship

The Eye of the Beholder: On Saltburn's Voyeurism & Violence [working title]

how wealth and class pushes the catton's toward the volatile reality of being able to look, but not touch. on desire and the lack thereof, and portraying yourself as an object to be desired

may end up as two separate essays on wealth and aestheticism but i'm pushing toward a conclusive essay about the intersection of the two, which i feel is at the heart of saltburn

alternatively titled "Poor Man's Pudding: A Melvillian Approach to Saltburn's Class", again, may be adapted into it's own essay

Gender-Fluid: A Study in Sexuality and Saltburn's Desire to be Dry

a deep dive into the bodily fluids of saltburn and how oliver upsets the standard of men who are just so lovely and dry. on the creative choice to lean into the messy wetness of sex and desire and the audience's instinct toward repulsion

a celebration of the grotesque and an examination of why we would label it as such

least developed of the four, heavily inspired by @charnelpit's lovely post about the fluids in saltburn

if anybody is actually interested in any of these, i can work toward something closer to a finished piece instead of just bullet points and quotes in a google doc, but mostly this is so i can share my very brief takes on a multitude of themes in saltburn that have been haunting me

edit for people seeing this in the future: all posts about my essays are being organized into my #saltburn 101 tag if you’re interested in following these through to development!

#saltburn #saltburn posting #really desperately need someone to pay me to write saltburn essays all day #or else these will never be more than a smattering of bullet points #and these are only the most developed of the millions of the thoughts that i've had rolling around in my brain this last week #idk if lengthy meta-essays are interesting to literally anyone other than me #but if any of these speak to u and u have thoughts abt them #of course u are welcome to send them my way #i think all of these were born out of either seeing bad fandom takes (ie. everything ive seen about farleigh and oliver) #or rly good fandom takes that haven't been talked about enough like the fluids thing #anyway #oh also if u want any interview clips that back up any of these ideas i have a list thats like a million miles long #and would be happy to dig for any specific things im talking about here #bambi #also also im sorry i kno the colon in academic essay titles is so overused i just love a subtitle sm #i love love love a clever little essay title. titling my essays was literally my favorite part of the essay process in college #saltburn 101

[little-miss-dilf-lover]

Hello, could I please request in general dating Tangerine from Bullet train headcanons please :)

hii!! ofc ofc! hope you like it💌

—

DATING HC’s

tangerine x f!reader

I have MANY thoughts, listen up

(some of these have probably been said in my other hc’s, but I’ve done so many it’s hard to know what I have and haven’t said😭)

— I don't think he has just one love language- he has at least 3: acts of service, gift giving and physical touch. acts of service- he'd get you drinks and snacks without asking. picks up stuff you might want/ need from the shops. does something for you that you didn't want to do. makes you dinner. fills your car with fuel. cleans your car. dishes. takes off your shoes and puts away your coat (all in all, princess treatment) gift giving- always brings back something for you when away on work. treats you to shopping days (he's very well off, so likes to splurge on you) gives you his card when you online shop (he trusts you with it. you may not want to use it, but he'd reassure you or steal your phone/ laptop to pay for it) gets you lavish gifts. physical touch- likes to know that you're near, especially when out, needs your hand in his or your arm wrapped around his. soft touches when he walks past you (small of back, shoulder, hand) unintentional strokes on your arm or leg when watching something. plays with your hand/ fingers, makes circles, light brushes, that kinda thing. plays with your hair. cuddles and kisses

— ties in with love languages, but he gets you something when he goes to the shop for cigs. goes corner shop and always brings you back a bar of chocolate or a drink. also gets you flowers just bc (but not down the road bc it's a rip-off!! (even though he has a shit tonne of money (I think anyway) he's sometimes pretty tight with it - frugal if you will))

— tries not to raise his voice around you

— lovingly calls you 'insults', like nob, dick, twat

— in bed, he sleeps closest to the door (he thinks that keeps you safe)

— takes you on date nights whenever he gets the chance

— he doesn't treat you like you're disposable

— he respects women bc I say so, and not just you bc he’s dating/ with you. but women in general - waitresses, staff at the shop, an old lady in the street. I reblogged this ages ago, but something about it’s “okay to kill people (have to specify fiction) but never okay to disrespect women,” that’s him

— wants to eventually lead a simple, quiet life with you

— isn't great at expressing himself but tries hard to be better at it for you

— very observant and takes time to learn things about you. he listens to you, even when you think he doesn't. remembers things about your family, friends & work

— — — — — — — — — — ☆ — — — — — — — — — —

#ask #I want him so bad I wanna cry #tangerine #tangerine x reader #tangerine bullet train #tangerine x you #tangerine fluff #tangerine headcanon #tangerine x fem!reader

[moochio7]

Ao3 has been down so long I made a short animatic

#adding another thing to the list of drawings never to be finished #I get bored easily so i just do a bunch of sketches then one finished piece that’s like a gift for a friend or smth #this is supposed to be speeding bullet but it can be whatever you want it to be ig #tumblr ruins the quality pretend it ain’t bad 👍 #my art #tf2 #scout tf2 #miss pauling #miss pauling tf2 #speeding bullet #moochiposts

[ickyguts]

Friendly fire

#I HAVE THINGS I WANT TO RANT ABOUT AND I ABSOLUTELY WILL #thinking a lot about flippy backstory and his trauma #i have made an antagonist for flippy and i wanna rant about it rly bad #anyway take this doodle before i head to work #posting from mobile once more so i hope it doesnt look like trash XD #htf #happy tree friends #my art #htf flippy #htf fliqpy #lore time #htf bullet #lets just say flippy gets pushed off the deep end and does smth he regrets #GNAHAHAHA

[teal-gerard]

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#i want the bullets one so bad why am i soo broke 😫 😩 😭 #my chemical romance #i brought you my bullets you brought me your love #three cheers for sweet revenge #the black parade

[starjunkyard]

"Im not even sure anymore if we get to choose who our friends are" There is a part of me that resents you for making me a worse person than i want to be but i am inexplicably uncontrollably drawn to you. You make me a worse person which is the last thing i want yet i want you in every way. If i could leave i would. Maybe i can but i dont want to. I have fun with you. You challenge me and you captivate me and you push me and pull and run circles around me and it makes me feel like a younger man. For the price of being a worse person i get to feel truly, wholly alive. You are the blood that runs through my veins; vital, inseparable. I was reborn when i met you and you are the womb that haunts me. You are the one person on planet earth who knows me. I wish i could leave, move on and be the man im supposed to be but my heart is tied to yours in a gordian knot. There is a part of my soul that rests in yours, magnetic. For as long as i love you i cannot be better than i am. But maybe thats something i can learn to live with. Gregory House-- I think you're worth it.

#house md #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #johan being crazy about yaoi md #johan's mindpalace #Im crazy #like im tearing up #this scene is so romantic it genuinely makes me nauseous #the lowlight setting the lingering stares the soft little smile a dam thats finally broken #I need a 12 gauge bullet in the thigh #Please watch this scene screencaps do not do it near enough justice #do you know whats so genuinely actually sickening #its been months since i finished house md #and i have not watched a single show that has managed to fill even a quarter of the gaping bleeding hilson shaped hole in my heart #shows that have actual gay people actual representation and not a single one has managed to alter my brain chemistry the way hilson has #since day 1 episode 1 #Like its actually nauseating a little its so over for me for the rest of my life #Like im actually never recovering #people say “they dont make xyz like they used to haha” But Guys they Genuinely dont #Im going through withdrawls #I need my yaoi cocaine so bad but my plug died 12 years ago and i cant fucking Move #House md capital of fatphobia homophobia transphobia early 2000s edgy humour outshining modern shows with actual rep like im sick #Its not even because i want to like i feel like there are worms in my brain. I feel like ratatoullie if the rat was evil #This is not what the stonewall riots were for #I feel like so nausous why couldnt i be crazy about an actual gay pairing like a normal gay person. Im gonna throwup #Why couldnt i like music and girls #Its not even that house md is objectively logically better than these shows like no. Im just crazy #Im so sick they make me so sick i feel like there are worms in my head. My head #Dont know when i will ever be onorlmal again. Sorr

[alphacrone]

my villain origin story is that my tenth grade english teacher misunderstood the ending of 1984 and argued with me over it in front of the entire class and would not even consider that i was right (i was)

#winston doesn’t die physically he dies mentally the bullet in his brain is a metaphor!!!!!! #she was like idk why they didn’t kill him at the end of the movie adaptation and i was like???? #bc they didn’t have to???? that’s the point????? #the govt doesn’t have to kill you physically to stop you #they kill your mind and spirit #this was right around the time of the obama-mccain election too so we were at the end of #eight years of dubya and cheney so i was i suppose an annoying radicalized 15 year old #but still like idk how you can read an obvious metaphor and take it so literally #it’s almost a throwaway line #she was still one of my favorite teachers but i never forgave her for this #i suppose no teacher wants an insufferable know it all to call them out in front of everyone #but she was making herself look bad first

[lalanotes]

April 3-9

🌸💜 Bullet journal weekly spread 💜🌸

wooooowoooooo its finally spring time and im no longer freezing because the sun is out!!!! it’s also Easter break which means no uni work for a bit and ive been gardening a lot so I have a ridiculous amount of mosquito bites :(

<listening to: Sugar Rush - AKB48>

#bujo #bujo aesthetic #bujo spread #bujoinspo #bullet journal #journal #journalling #studyblr #studyinspo #scrapbooking #recently this week I’ve been rewatching sailor moon and I remember how cool sailor Pluto was and I wanted to look like her so bad

[kideternity]

#spiderman #spider man #marvel #spider-man #negative posting #<- general tag if you want to blacklist like more negative or controversial posts #from me #dinu yells into the void #the abbreviation is for the spectacular spiderman (cartoon). i can elaborate on any of these if needs be #also obvious disclaimer im not trying to claim otto or tssm or whatever is Bad i dont care if you disagree or think im a lying loser #this is all just for funsies this is for me being a little hater okay? okay #btw some of these suggestions were from my mutuals or friends im just taking the bullet for them #edit: i rewrote this a bunch of times so other abbreviation explanations- JMD is J.M DeMatteis #KLH ks Kraven’s last hunt #so on so forth

[grimcatician]

Yoooo Happy Birthday to Kingdom Hearts and to the sweetest silliest goodest boy 🥺💖

Still a WIP but I really wanted to get something out for him! He deserves the world!!!

I only recently began playing KH. It was always on the list of “Things I Know I’ll LOVE to Bits Because It’s Got Everything I Love But I Am Putting Off Until I’m Ready To Commit™️” but thanks to needing to clean my room and some certain YouTube videos a couple weeks ago I finally started playing and I have noooooot stoped thinking about it!

#kingdom hearts #kh sora #sora #I’m still on kh1 right at the last save point bc I want to beat the scary ghost and I’ve titan but I am #Bad at Video Games so it’s taking a bit! #also work!! is keeping me from the fun things in life #I put on that 3hr long recap video of all the games while cleaning my room and I was only half paying attention #but right after it was the 6hr Riku is Gay and idc about spoiler tbh and I know it was a pretty fruity franchise like I had hs friends into #it back in the day so ya know #but HOO boy let me tell you it really was the final nail on the coffin for me and I finally but the bullet and bought it #I knew I’d love the damn Mickey Mouse ff game bc it always seemed so silly but so EARNEST and heartfelt which is my absolute SHIT #the lil “my friends r my power shit? #my absolute favorite trope ohh I knew the moment I saw the scene in hs but no means to play etc so #ANYWAYS! #I will eventually finish this but coloring hard 😣 #grim art

[sp-ud]

New rule for the eggs! They only have to be taken care of for 3 days per week, every streamer sighs in relief lmao.

#qsmp #spud originals #figured it only made sense to include all 3 languages version of the tweet #i feel so bad for all of the qsmp staff. like imagine thinking this would be like. a week long event. and now you're probably going to be #used in some psych study of how humans easily get attached #do u think trumps admin feels like they dodged a bullet? #also i feel bad for the few ccs who feel like they cant be on the server cuz of this #rubius apparently got hate for how he was being antagonistic to the eggs (i assume with how he was responsible for chayannes first #death due to it being him telling slime he'd give juana a gun if he killed another egg) #and spreen apparently not wanting to log on because he's not a fan of having to play dad #(saying apparently because i dont speak spanish so obviously this is 2nd hand)

[robinredacted]

happy birthday gerald

#want that shirt so bad lmao #redacted media #illustration #digital art #digital illustration #gerard way #mcr #my chemical romance #danger days #the black parade #three cheers for sweet revenge #i brought you my bullets you brought me your love #ibymbybmyl #tcfsr #hesitant alien #the umbrella academy #tua #killjoys #mcrmy

[whimsical-roasting]

In your atj era i see

in my ovulation era and god.. the man that he is.. sin itself.

#I WANT YOU SO BAD #FUCK ME LIKE U MAD AT ME BABYYYYY #aaron taylor johnson #tangerine bullet train #tangerine