#i saw his face and cried bc why is he literally me

[samstronomy]

hes me i fear

#i saw his face and cried bc why is he literally me #i have had this kind of interaction on MULTIPLE OCCASIONS #THE IMMEDIATE REGRET #HES SO FUNNY #he’s so boyfailure #sorry for bad quality #btw #i made this on mobile #trafalgar law #law #law one piece #one piece

[anxious-witch]

Okay, okay, fine I am doing analysis of Damon Baker's photoshoots 😂

That said, since a lot of people already analyzed Kris' and since Bojan's has less picture, I am gonna start with his. Also obviously, this is totally subjective, I am not claiming this is one true or absolutely correct analysis, just my thoughts on it.

Under the cut bc this will deff get long

So I cropped the pictures so I can analyze them separately

To start off with these two, because I think they were put like this bery purposefully. On the left, we have Bojan with his arms crossed, his expression is, the reminiscent of "The Fallen Angel" by Alexandre Cabanel (I apologize, someone else already did a comparison but I can't find it rn, feel free to tell me in the replies and I'll tag you). Bojan looks almost angry, his crossed over arms showing he is closed off and the spikes on his biceps emphasizes that. It literally feels like a warning sign. His eyes are downcast, as if he is looking down on something or someone. He is something to look at, but not touch, if you don't want to get hurt.

Then we have a smaller pictures right next to his one, that's almost exact opposite. It feels like we caught him in a momen where he was not meant to be seen. His face look tortured, like he just cried or is about to cry. His hair is messy in a way that doesn't feel like it was on purpose, but rather as if he messed it up during his inner turmoil. There is also a cigarette, which implies he is taking it to calm himself. His eyes are pointed upwards, as if he is seeking guidance from someone above him.

I feel like, for me, from storytelling perspective, these two pictures put together like this hint at Bojan's struggle with anxiety.

He is trying to appear tough and untouchable, the way he feels he has to be, but he is struggling internally. This is overall theme of the shoot, I think.

Next we have this shot of his outfit. My first thought when I saw this was "this looks oddly rugged for Bojan". And I do stand by it. The shirt is half undone, half tucked into his pants, but half outside in the back. Like he got dressed in a hurry. Like he doesn't care or perhaps doesn't have the energy to care about how he is appearing. And then, tbe belt buckle with a broken heart. I think, that's the core element in this particular picture. Especially in comparison to Kris' heart necklace. Despite the rugged clothes, there is something fragile underneath all that. His heart.

Then we have this one. And it's such a stark contrast than the previous three, I was genuinely shook. In this one, Bojan is openly vulnerable towards the camera, towards the viewer. Not looking up or down, but directly to the camera. Also the detail that @theraggedygirl11 pointed out about him wearing Damon's "safe sweater" broke me. It's almost as if he is saying, "look, this is how I am when I am allowed to be safe. This is how I am when I am not suffering".

What a contrast to the above outfit! The open shirt only poised as fake vulnerability, when a truly vulnerable Bojan isn't showing off his skin at all here, but rather his face. His emotions, all on display.

Another thing that strikes me as amazing in this particular picture (can you tell this one is my favorite?) is that his pose looks comfortable and his hair falls gently to the side, freely showing off his gray hairs, that are especially visible in black and white.

Then at last, we come to these three, all in color. Unlike Kris, who had water, Bojan has fire as his "element" in this photoshoot. Fire is passion, light, warmth. It entices you, and it's much more noticable at first. But it can also burn you. There is also a reason why we say we "burn out" as well. Bojan holding a literally lit match in his mouth is such an amazing imagery.

We all know that magic trick of a man extinguishing a match in his mouth, for the entertainment of all. Putting himself in a very vulnerable position. Lips, mouth and tongue are so soft, especially compared to fire that burns. And is that not in a way, exactly what Bojan does? He pours out his heart while he sings, leaving it to the crowd to decide if they are entertained with his preformance. And surez ither do it too, but I think we can agree he is the most on display.

The way he is looking at the camera first, as if waiting for a reaction, and then as the fire gets closer, his eyes close too, as if he is too scared to look.

Just....augh, I love the way Damon Baker showcased his personality through these and how he expressed so much through just a few pictures. Also, please feel free to add your own thoughts, I love hear other ppl's opinions on things like these

#rio rambles #joker out #bojan cvjetićanin #damon baker #rio's analysis

[vxntagedior]

hello! i've got a request if you don't mind. could you please write xavier x reader who's kinda like wednesday (in a way she's afraid of being seen vulnerable) but is really easy to make cry if it makes sense(?) maybe they're some kind of rivals and one day (a really bad day for the reader) xavier is a little too harsh on her (comparing her with some other girl so her competitive side who's rival with him is all "!!!") so she wants to go away to hide the tears but the boy is to mean this time so he follows her and see her crying. then she ignores him for 2 weeks bc boy needs to suffer a little. you really can do whatever you want with it it's just a thought. i always see reader being written as a badass but when a boy literally mocks her bad she's all oh please let me make out w/you<3 but cmon boys need to suffer a little too. deserve to be forgiven you know?? that's why i liked your aftermath the best! you're so talented i want to thank god for your brains! thank u in advance! take care! (sorry if anything's wrong, never wanted to make you uncomfortable)

adding salt to a wound

summary | after a harsh day, xavier just had to take another jab at you

pairing | xavier thorpe x fem!reader

warning | academic rivals to lovers, angst with a hopeful ending insecure!reader, their relationship is unclear at the end

word count | 1.2k

Just waking up in the morning, you already knew it was going to be a bad day. You spent the entire night last night on the phone arguing with your mother. What started as a normal catch up, turned into a screaming match between the two of you that probably woke up all the girls on your floor. 

Your eyes were still puffy as you cried yourself to sleep, your cheeks still a little swollen. You always hated crying, hated the pity that people gave you when they saw those tears, how it brought down your emotional wall, and letting people see you in a state that you hated. 

Your roommate didn’t comment on the subject which you were thankful for, hoping the rest of your day would go as smoothly as possible. Marissa, your roommate, the two of you weren’t always friendly with each other, constantly competing for that top spot in classes constantly. 

Going out for classes, skipping breakfast, trying to clean up your face to make it seem like you didn’t ball your eyes out for the whole night. 

Classes went as good as they could, none of your friends commented on your appearance, nor did they ask about your day yesterday. You stayed quieter than usual, listening to everyone instead of talking, something that they didn’t seem to notice which you were happier for. 

Coming back for the day, you liked the little moment of solitude you had before a Nightshades meeting. You were never good at keeping track of your time, constantly running late for everything, like you were now. 

Running from your dorm, trying to be as quiet as possible knowing curfew was coming up, making your way towards the Poe statue and down to the library. 

“You’re late.” God you hated his voice. Xavier had been a pain in your side since as long as you could remember. The two of you had just clashed the moment you met. It started as academic rivals but you soon were able to surpass him easily and since Xavier had made his mission in life to make your life as miserable as possible. 

“I was doing my history project.” You rolled your eyes, joining Yoko and Divina, as far as possible from Xavier. 

Before Bianca could start again, Xavier had interrupted her. “I don’t even know why you’re trying, we all know Marissa is gonna get a perfect score, showed it to us earlier.”

He knew that hit a nerve, everyone at Nevermore knew the academic rivalry you had with your roommate.

Ignoring him, you turned back to Bianca, Xavier letting out a smirk knowing he was able to get to you. 

Bianca continued to talk about the Rave’N and such, none of you really listening anymore. 

So you know who you’re taking?” Ajax was never the best whisperer, thinking he was, but everyone could hear their conversation. 

Turning his head slightly, Xavier could see you out of the corner of his eye, listening into his conversation. 

“Don’t know yet, I’ve been hanging out with Marissa a lot, maybe her.”

Your friends constantly teased you that your relationship with Xavier was soon to turn romantic, finally taking all your hate into passion. You thought about it, Xavier was handsome, he was an amazing artist, you couldn’t take that from him, and his personality was nice to anyone but you. 

As the meeting ended, you were the first one out of the library, making a beeline out towards your room. It was still fall, so the sun was starting to set, light still out. 

“Did you have to do that?” Divina glared at Xavier, “Look whatever relationship the two of you have is odd, but did you really have to hit her when she’s already down.”

Frowning, Xavier watched the rest of the Nightshades, making his way towards your room. Sliding past the housemaster and Weems, he knocked on your door praying you were the one to answer. 

Swinging the door open, your eyes widened seeing Xavier in front of you mid-cry. Xavier was just as shocked as you, never seeing you cry. 

“What do you want?” You sniffled, knowing you couldn’t keep your tears at bay. “Here to compare to Marissa again, go ahead, I’ve heard all day.”

Opening his mouth, Xavier tried to speak, his sentence never coming out. 

“Leave.” Your voice wavered, never giving him a chance to speak, you slammed the door in his face. 

Xavier stood there for a few minutes, taking in all that happened, reflecting on the two of you. It was best that he left you alone, leaving and going back to his own dorm. 

Going out for breakfast the next morning, Xavier watched as you came out, seeing you silently sit with your friends, giving them all a small smile, one that didn’t reach your eyes, making a face for everyone. 

During classes, you ignored him, during activities, you ignored him, during Nightshade meetings, you ignored him. He didn’t know how long it was going on, maybe almost 2 weeks at that point. 

Not keeping to his words, Xavier went to the Rave’N with Bianca, not that he truly wanted to. Seeing you walk in alone, your dress coming down to your thighs, you were beautiful. 

Xavier kept his eye on you during the dance, Bianca being annoyed, leaving him alone. All your friends were dancing with each other and their dates, seeing you sitting across the hall, seeing at a table alone. 

Your chin rested on your hand, just watching the sea of people dancing. 

Hearing the song change, a slower song, everyone eventually starting to couple up, holding each other close. 

Xavier saw how your face slightly dropped, seeing your eyes sullen, swallowing, Xavier got up walking towards you. 

Seeing the shadow in front of you, you looked to see Xavier standing in front of you, offering his hand towards you. 

Before you couldn’t even reject him, Xavier beat you to it. “You don’t have to talk to me, you don’t even have to look at me, but please dance with me?”

Looking down at his hand, looking back at him, before placing your hand in his. You let Xavier bring you out, standing closer to your friends, all who were looking at you and Xavier. 

Letting his hands fall to your waist, you wrapped your hands around his neck, happy that you wore heels. 

From the start of the dance, the two of you were barely close to each other, seeing a prominent gap between the two of you. Slowly, the two of you became closer and closer, ending with you, resting your head on his shoulder. 

Xavier rested his head on top of yours, swaying the two of you together. As the song came to an end, the two of you stayed together, still swaying together. 

Your face was turned to your friends, seeing the look on their faces seeing you and Xavier together. 

Still not talking to him, you pushed your face away, just simply looking at him. Xavier just smiled, looking down at you, seeing you give him a small smile before leaning back down on his chest. 

Wrapping arms tighter around you, Xavier continued to dance with you hoping the relationship the two of you had was mended.

fin.

#xavier thorpe x reader #xavier thorpe x fem!reader #xavier thorpe #xavier thorpe x girlfriend!reader #wednesday #wednesday x reader

[walrus150915]

Goldenheart headcanons for when they have only started dating and were awkward as hell

(because I am a trans bi teenager who wants to experience mlm love yet can't because I'm afraid to date boys due to my dysphoria)

I noticed you people like when I make long posts like these and I love them too so I think I can share some hcs of mine about this stage of their relationship bc I have a lot honestly :]

- they started dating when they were around 16yo

- none of them actually had feelings for each other before puberty hit and they were like "damn my bestie is kinda fine- WHAT"

- Bal fell first. Ambrosius fell and broke the floor under him bc boyyyy did he fall HARD

- Bal navigated his feelings like "Ugh okay I guess that's what happens when you're friends with a handsome guy everyone has a crush on. That'll pass. That's part of puberty. Stay calm" meanwhile Ambrosius screamed in his pillow and freaked out and cried only to pretend nothing bothered him. It was hard to pretend when you literally study at the same academia/school/whatever and see each other every day bc you're best friends

- during the mutual pining era the PE lessons were DIFFICULT. Especially when they were put up against each other

- they look like friends who had no problem hugging/brushing each other's hair/being close physically in general yet when the feelings appeared, the things which used to be very easy turned torturous

- Ballister was the one to ask if Ambrosius saw that their friendship changed. Ambrosius couldn't hold it in anymore and mumbled through his confession so fast and awkward Ballister has only understood phrases like "I really like you" and "romantically I mean" and "you're very cool and that'd be sick if we became boyfriends"

- Bal turned his face to the side and muttered something like "yeah I think it would"

- and so they became boyfriends!!

- has something changed in the way they behaved around each other? Yeah but also not really. They were still besties and the physical contact became A LITTLE easier now that the sorta relationship they had was clear between them, but they just couldn't help but blush while touching each other

- their first kiss was a mess dude😭😭

- Ambrosius wanted it to go as smoothly as possible so he watched romantic movies and practiced kissing with his hand (embarrassing? Yeah I now) but when it was time to finally show off his skills he panicked and pressed his lips to Ballister's for a few seconds then his nose almost bled out bc of the nerves (not me projecting on Ambrosius but that's literally what happened to me when I had my first kiss)

- Ballister seemed calm about this whole thing but it doesn't mean he was. When they had their first ever date he brushed his teeth extra clear just to make sure he'd smell good during their first kiss. Bro was THRILLED

- basically Ambrosius was overthinking this and Ballister was... Also overthinking I'M SORRY THESE TWO ARE HORRIBLE

Now the headcanons are for the time when they've been dating for like more than a few months and have kinda got used to each other in this new ~romantic~ way

- Bal's way of flirting wasn't really obvious since he doesn't look like a guy who can come up with romantic compliments on the spot, however I think he touched Ambrosius if he wanted to express his feelings for him. Stroke his bleach-damaged hair, make their pinkies intertwine, put his head on his shoulder and nuzzle into him - this or he'd infodump new history/physics/chemistry facts he learnt

Bal: Okay, did you know that [some really complicated science stuff I cannot describe in words because I'm a literature major]

Ambrosius, heart-eyed, no clue what he's talking about: Wow that's really interesting anyways do you want me to change my surname to Boldheart-

- Ambrosius looks like a total theatre kid so I think he often flirted with Bal by quoting some love poems they had in their curriculum. Of course he quoted their analogue of Romeo's monologue under Juliet's balcony why do you think he wouldn't

- Having said that, whenever he quoted something which referred to a woman, he changed pronouns and general words bc he's attentive like that. Sometimes it got absurd tho. "Manservant of the moon" instead of "maid" like dude😭😭😭😭

- Ballister tried his best not to laugh but also not to pass out bcuz of the amount of praise his boyfriend gave him which was actually a lot. My man is as much of a mess as Ambrosius is let's not forget that

- one day Ambrosius quoted something which was not from the curriculum but instead from Bal's favorite book. I think Bal liked adventure books about knights which sometimes included romance and I imagine the dialogue going:

Ambrosius: "And even if I had to turn against the whole world to follow you-

Them together: "-I would do it with no hesitation-"

Ambrosius: "Because you are my world, Sir Redsword"

Them: *staring at each other*

Bal, all blushing: ...that's not from the books our teacher told us to read

Ambrosius, also blushing madly: Yeah but I figured I like some variety

- That's when Bal knew this guy was his forever soulmate

- Bal used to be taller than Ambrosius for a long time of their early years but then Ambrosius got late height boost or idk how it's called. Basically dude went from 5'5 to 6'1 overnight and I know Ballister was PISSED

- these two totally kissed in the janitor's closet when they needed some privacy I'm telling you (not even in a "steamy" way although I think some sort of tension existed - cmon they were late teens bro do you really think puberty is nice to teenagers???).

- why would you get a private space where you can explore this side of your relationship safely when you can have a literal closet with racks and mops and buckets, am I right

- Ambrosius tried writing poems for Ballister they SUCKED

- Ballister still saved each and one of them. One day, he'll sort through his things to move to his own place after the wall comes down and find these yellow checkered sheets of paper, full of bad rhymes and silly words. He'd bring all of them to his (and Ambrosius's) new apartment

Okay now the last hcs which I honestly have no idea how to call but umm ✨what people around them thought about their blooming romance✨

- Queen Valerin understood something was up on the spot. Like, for a straight woman, her gaydar worked flawlessly😭 it was enough for her to see them hide the fact that they held hands to go "I know what you are". She was pretty supportive although she did ask Bal on their one-to-one meeting to "use protection" like all moms do🖐

- The Director also knew something was up but her reaction was more like "Sir Ambrosius will grow out of it". As you know, he never did LMAOO

- Todd was hilariously oblivious despite teasing Ambrosius like "HAHA LOLLLL GOLDENLOIN WHY R U ALWAYS WITH THIS COMMONER GUY ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH HIM OR SOMETHING". He did it in a cishetero "haha gotta mock my homie for being gay" yet DID NOT REALIZE his homie was, indeed, gay

- some cadets could pick up on it, some didn't

- anyway I think the general public knew nothing about it bc if they did that'd be a scandal worse than Henry the 8th's when he created a new religion bc his loins were on fire thanks to Anne Boleyn

ALSO GET THIS LITTLE PIECE (which I don't really like bc of the coloring choices) OF THEM :D

I swear Ambrosius isn't yellow irl😭😭 I'm myself asian I now better than that

That's about it I guess! Lemme know what you think (if you wanna use/adopt these hcs, feel free to do whatever you want with them! Just tag me so I could see it wjsjjajaj!!!!) ;3

#nimona #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin #ballister x ambrosius #goldenheart #nimona fanart #headcanons #nimona headcanons #man why's this so long #sorry guys #i hope my words make sense sorry if they dont #theyre tiny😭

[turtledovenycx]

Idk why I’m saying this here but one time I cried bc of how beautiful Chan was, it was a very humbling and universal moment for me. That’s it, thank you.

Hi anonnie 🤍

I'm happy you said it here. I'm sure many of us on Stayblr can relate to this emotion. I've had celebrity crushes the infatuation stays for a week or two, and then it fades.

But Bahng Chan... How I feel for him is a different emotion in itself. I know reality, I know he will never be mine but it still doesn't change the way I feel. I would choose him again and again in every universe in every circumstance.

Anonnie, I understand how you feel the most... I'm an emotional person and I react deeply. I've cried so many times too. I cried when I saw his face the first time he won the award. I've cried when I saw how hard Chan worked to become who he is today, I've cried during Chan's room and cried so much when it had to be shut down, and I've cried when I think about how beautiful he is inside and out. I've cried because I am so proud and happy to be able to live, breathe, and admire him. I am overwhelmed with what I feel for him but at the same time, it calms me.

How can he be this beautiful? Like how? He is so handsome. Even if he believes differently. If I could, I would cherish him every day, and give him so much affection till he believes it himself. Channie is so handsome. He is the dream of many out there, he is mine I know that. His eyes- they crinkle when he smiles, his big nose that I've grown fond of- his nose is one of his insecurity but to me, it is the cutest thing I've seen, his plush lips, his cheeks, his smile lines, his dimples, his hair, body, arms, fingers, legs, everything!! god, I love this man so much. I love his smile and laugh... I'd die

However, Channie is more than handsome. His beauty is not limited to his physical features. I could say a million things about his features and millions more about his character and personality. Trust. The trust the team has in him, the trust the boys have in their hyung, he is their boulder you can't tell me otherwise. I picture him being there for the most mundane things without complaint. The way he cared for each one of them in the way they needed. He calms Jisung when he is anxious, and defends Changbin. Channie makes Seungmin believe that his voice is of an angel and that Minnie's smile is the best, he literally raised Jeongin. Chan is Minho's only hyung, He is Felix's best friend and Hyunjin's comfort. Us stays don't have to worry about whether the boys are taken care of. I know they are well taken care of and loved by their leader.

His soul. I have cried so much thinking about his soul. Chan has the kindest most beautiful soul I just know it. He has endured and he is wise. He is humble reminding us that to be perceived and respected you have to be down to earth. I've seen men at their best and their worst. I've experienced the worst most of my life but Chan made me believe that there were good and bad people, I was just stuck among the bad ones. He made me feel appreciated even though he was speaking generally, he made me feel valid, and he made me feel seen.

Some people can't understand that and I don't blame you, But if you have been through what I have been through, if you were in the darkness like me I think you would understand why I fell in love with a man who doesn't know me. I cry when he is sad, I cry when I'm proud of him and I cry because I love him. I hope he will learn to love himself soon.....

So love, I want you to know that when you feel the most humbling and universal moment, many are there with you. I am there with you. He truly is one of the best humans out there. I love him and I will continue to do so. He saved me, he saved a lot of us.

I kind of got carried away but I'm not really sorry. I love him, words are not enough, sentences are not enough, and pages won't be able to cover it.

_nyx.☽༊˚

#stray kids #skz #✮⋆˙sweet anonnies 🩶 #nyx replies🤍 #nyx rambles.☽༊˚ #bang chan #bang chan fluff #bang chan thoughts #oh how I love this man #chan skz #skz fluff #Channie #christopher bahng

[googledetective]

PART TWO OF THE FICS WHILE HIGH SERIES

@valhalla-ee requested CHARWHIT ANGST!!! WOOAOAOOAOAOAHHHH!

so here it is

TW for racial slur and whipping

“OA OA OA OA OA OA!!!” Whit spun in Roblox and danced, Pissings off Charles in Roblox who was like an angry ass old teacher who was staring down at you with a bigg ass wrinkly frown.

“Charles screamed a racial slur at Whit” and then emoted.

Whit stopped his emote and turned to Charles in the true neutral body position and wifened his eyes in shock. He did that like a deer in headlights thing for about a minute and then stopped to cry.

Charles whipped and nae-naed at Whit.

“Wh-Why d-did y-you c-call m-me a r-r-r-racial slur!?” whit fell to his knees and started to sob into his hands.

“Bc you’re a noob at Shadow Boxing, LOSER!!!” Charles sneered at whit, pulling up his goggles 🤓

“Charles screeched another racial slur” at whit and then he started whipping Whit as Whit sobbed.

Whit dubbed and sobbed, “IM BREAKING UP WITH YOU.”

Charles then dropped his Whip and ofc it landed on Whit, whipping him one more time.

Charles stood over Whit, looking at him. Charles then started quite literally licking Whit’s wounds and sobbed in them, “I n-n-need you” CHARLES JOJO POSES

Whit looked back up at Charles and saw Jesus in Angel form hovering over Charles and illuminating over his face. Whit stared in the raw beauty of it, and then started passionately making out with Charles. FULL TONGUE xD.

THEN THEY HAD GAY SEX!

Charles broke away after being deeply engrossed in it for a few seconds, “you’re not gonna leave me right!?”

Whit then slid up from under Charles and Charles had to watch Whit take the L infront of him, and then ascend into heaven.

“Say hello to Kobe for me my little *racial slur*” Charles mused, and then he broke down into the floor and cried again.

“What a fucking loser,” whit said from heaven.

THE END!!!

#drdt #drdt fanfic #danganronpa despair time #fanfic #charles cuevas #charwhit #whit young

[hxlda-hxlda]

writing snippet!

was meant to be on friday then sunday, now it's monday for me, etc. you get the idea. either way, thank you for the tag, wonderful @just--vi !!

this one is from the upcoming chapter of that's the idea, it's a little longer than a snippet but it makes me laugh every time. okay, enjoy:

Sirius sighed, a long thing full of frustration and lethargy, as he turned to glare at the boy behind him. “Can’t be helpful for once, can you?”   Lupin looked up from where he was lighting his cigarette (third of the hour, but nobody was counting). The flame from the funny metal contraption made his eyes warm and brown. It caught the gold in them. “What?”  “Fucking useless,” Sirius muttered, whirling around and beginning to stalk toward the collection of kids. Hufflepuff. They were yet to notice the prefects, idiots. He opened his mouth to shout a warning when–  The high pitch of a piercing whistle cut the words from his lips. It was the kind of loud, shuddering sound that he jumped at, then winced away from on instinct. One that was only made worse the way it echoed and bounced across the tiles of the desolate castle halls. The gaggle of Hufflepuffs scattered immediately. Sirius understood why, McGonagall was known for that kind of whistle. But when he turned back over his shoulder he faced no Gryffindor Head Teacher, just their gangly prefect. Remus had two fingers pinched at his teeth, the other holding his cigarette by his hip.  “What the fuck was that?!” Sirius cried, whirling around to face him completely.  Remus dropped his hand, picking the other one up to take a drag. “Helpful?” he said around the breath of smoke.  Sirius just stared, dumbfounded, still half caught up in the leap of his heart at the sudden sound. “Could have used a warning,” he managed eventually.  Infuriatingly, Lupin only shrugged.  Sirius huffed another sigh and spun on his heel, pushing down more petulant urges.  “Thought it would take more,” he heard from over his shoulder.  He snapped his head back. “What?”  Remus shrugged again. “To scare you.” Another pull from the fag. “Thought it would take more.”  “You didn’t scare me,” he replied immediately, indignantly, “just caught me off guard.”  Lupin raised an eyebrow. The scarred one. “Sure,” he said, the single syllable elongated.  “How the fuck was I supposed to expect you’d do that?” “I don’t fucking know, legilimency or some shit. That’s the kind of thing your lot do, innit?”  Sirius refused to dignify that with greater response than another glare. One of his most unimpressed, he hoped.  Lupin had the audacity to look amused. With himself or with Sirius, it was hard to decipher, but Sirius hated it regardless. He glared some more.  “That was a joke,” Lupin conceded eventually with a sigh of cigarette smoke and a roll of his eyes, less brown and more green without the flame. “You’re allowed to laugh, you know.”  “Say something funny and I might.”  It could have been the lack of light, the darkness of the hall, the funny way the tip of the cigarette cast shadows on Lupin's wonky features, but Sirius could swear he saw a quirk an eyebrow (the freshly scarred one) as though accepting a challenge. It was gone and Lupin was turning away from him before he could be sure, though.

no pressure, ofc, tags. take this as a polite 'pls i wanna read more of ur stuff' tag bc i luv u: @mblematic @fruityindividual @fiddleleafedfig @iliketoreadstuf @imsiriuslyreading and @ literally anyone else, you're tagged. let me read all of the snippets!!

#to those of you ive tagged a million times today im so sorry im just rolling through the lot of them #tag game #fic: that's the idea #writing tag #marauders #wolfstar #sirius black #remus lupin

[golbrocklovely]

I don’t have a tik tok. What are they saying about our boys 🙄

omg thank you so much for sending in an ask about my post bc… i need to VENT lol

first and foremost, what aren't they saying about the boys on tiktok??? that's the real question.

imma just list the shit i've been either told or saw myself said about snc (but mostly colby).

sam should sue colby for the killing best friend prank (this one was brought to my attention by @xplrvibes like yesterday lol)

colby was molested

colby was sexually assaulted

elton made colby show his self harm scars on camera

colby has a bad relationship with his brother

sam cried being sexualized too much

the fans broke shea and colby up

colby has hated elton from the beginning

snc were talking about elton on the that one video years back (the one where they did the lie detector test on awesomenesstv)

not a SINGLE one of these are true, btw. that's the insane part to me. like…. every single one of these is a lie that i have no clue how they got started or who said them first.

and here, for anyone's benefit (in case you're curious) i will disprove all of these in one go.

sam was IN on the prank and has openly said that himself in the past

didn't happen/colby has never said that this has happened

same thing (granted if you want to make an argument that some fans have almost done this, that's a different story. but that's not what the fans on tiktok are talking about when they mention this)

colby has never self harmed. colby has never had depression, anxiety/has never been diagnosis with any mental illness. he even outright said in a video, EXPOSING THE TRUTH ABOUT COLBY BROCK, when asked if he was emo "depending on your definition of emo, if you say emo is somebody that hurts themselves - no. i'm not emo in that way." not to mention that if this is something that did happen, how come there was not a WORD about it until 2022??? the last time snc collabed with elton was in 2019. there is no WAY this shit could have happened, only to be talked about now with no proof. ALSO colby literally stated multiple times, back on metalife and even in a livestream in 2020/21, that he has never suffered from a mental illness, which is why he doesn't feel comfortable giving advice on it.

literally…. how would anyone know this in the first place? colby doesn't really talk about his family. but if you want to get technical, for a while in the back of his videos in 2020/21, you could see on his record player his brother's bands record. plus he literally went and saw him run a marathon in 2022 so… his relationship with him is fine.

that's literally not a thing at all lmao

shea and colby never dated, as much as shea would like you to believe otherwise. and if the fans are talking about their friendship… they are two grown adults. no one can make them do anything they don't want to do.

snc lived with elton for a full year, and continued to collab with him until 2019. elton didn't even become a hater until late 2020/early 21. so… no. colby didn't hate elton from the beginning just bc he has resting bitch face in some of the videos. if you want to make an argument that elton took some of his pranks too far, sure. but that's not what this is about.

this one is just ppl taking an old clip and trying to make it make sense to nowadays, so i'll give some slack. but again, this wasn't about elton. it was about aaron when they had beef with him for like a week and a half in 2019 lol

there is probably TONS of other shit said on there that i don't remember off the top of my head. but the fact that i've seen tons of these comments and tiktoks saying this shit is true is bonkers to me. idk who is starting these rumors, but like… dear lord above stop.

like i'm literally gonna have to make a snc tiktok account just to dispel rumors bc it annoys me to no end how these fans believe this stuff with literally NO PROOF.

#ask #personal #sam and colby #sam golbach #colby brock #elton castee

[pink-strawberry-kissess]

Saw your post about how hard it is to characterize Ada and I just had some thoughts:

For Ada especially. When going back to OGRE2’s writing there were literally unsubtle exposition that Capcom throws right into the players face with how Ada views herself and her wants as character “I know I’m not capable of caring about anyone, but I don’t want to lose you” to “I really wanted to escape with you Leon, escape from everything”. So I feel like Ada does want to leave the Spy life, but can’t. Hopefully Capcom remembers this and decides to expand on this in a future game.

And with Resident Evil I feel a big part of the game is the concept of scenarios. Obviously there is the “official” canon, but I feel different scenarios are still in the realm of what the characters would do. In OG Leon A/Claire B, in the scenario where she saw a Claire fighting the tyrant she would absolutely help despite not knowing her, so this popular belief she’s the type to only help Leon or anyone for her own gain is false.

The epilogue card of her you get after beating OGRE3 where she cries after what she went through in Raccoon city, who’s to say that not the type of feeling/reaction she still had when they basically still kept Leon’s epilogue. Maybe she still does after every difficult jobs she takes on. “I’m just a Woman who fell in love with you” and “A woman looks at herself in the mirror” Capcom emphasizes a lot of the difference between Ada the woman vs Ada the spy. Even at the end of Separate Ways when her helicopter flies away, she takes off her playful mask she uses with Leon, closes her eyes to let out huge sigh and stares off into the sun with such a melancholic expression. I feel like Ada’s vulnerability has always been on display for people who paid attention.

When she talks about Luis in Separate Ways, “His history betrays an enthusiasm I once shared.” Makes u think about a young version of herself who had an enthusiastic outlook on life, but clearly something she experienced destroyed that. I’m sure she saw a lot of that in Leon when she first met him too, I’d like to think after their experience together it he brought back some of her positive outlook on life.

And I know it’s popular that Ada is super but when she says to Krauser, “I don’t like it when men play rough” I think she totally means it, if anyone is gonna be soft with her it’s gonna be Leon 😂

Even her in Umbrella Chronicles “it is important to remain calm and collected even in the most extreme situations” is why she’s so good at her job. It’s funny bc when I watch playthroughs of RE2R so many people are always like “how is she so calm?!” when she first shows up. She likely does have an initial panicking but can turn it off immediately to focus. Staying calm is such a big part of her section too, once Mr. X arrives, all of a sudden people panic and can’t think straight enough to remember her hacking tool they used less than a minute ago lol

Sorry for all the random thoughts I had to get out, even though this is what I feel I still love seeing other peoples interpretation of Ada, so when you ever do Ada’s POV I’ll be interested to see!

this was long so it took me a while to get to lol

one of the characterizations i don't see often talked about is the fact that it's likely she was forced into a life of crime from a young age and needed it to live. most people who are normal would see this as a form of abuse/trafficking/or just taking advantage of her. i see it as interesting if she choose to use that, to her advantage and using those same organizations that tried to use her. it makes more sense and gives her a sense of agency on why she double crosses people. she does it to whoever she sees is "the lesser of two evils."

and when she comes across people like leon who are genuinely good people, especially in re2 (albeit a bit naive, since leon still was appealing to authority example: chief irons, and how he still works for the government (corrupt) for many years)

I feel like Ada’s vulnerability has always been on display for people who paid attention.

this is literally why i think that people who do not pay attention to ada completely misunderstand her as a character. she's not an easy character to read, and it's so easy to just label her as some dumbed down "spy lady with no feelings" type of stereotype. like genuinely i think ada antis just lack critical thinking skills and media literacy because i've seen the worst takes about ada. and they're always rooted in

they didn't actually pay attention to the story

they didn't even play ada's campaigns

they didn't try to view ada's story from an unbiased perspective

they still think carla is ada in re6

or they're being outwardly misogynistic

or they're being racist

or both or all of the above

if people can't see in re4r that ada has several moments of vulnerability, then i just have no faith in people lol

the characterization of ada in separate ways is so needed for remake separate ways, i just need to see more of what she's like behind the facade of "ada wong, the mercenary." we've always seen glimpses of it because we actually pay attention lmao. but yes we need more

i think to think that she's so detached from her personal self sometimes she even scares herself. she definitely does when she cares for others and cares about leon. she's an incredibly multi-faceted but also flawed character, and we love that. give us women that make mistakes and then have to live with it. have her develop and change. have her self reflect on her choices.

but yeah tysm for this!

#ask heart #heart answers #ada wong ramble #ada wong #aeon #leon x ada

[vamp-stamp-fics]

Eddie Munson hcs

Tags: Eddie Munson Headcanons, mostly fluff, Eddie lives!Au, some steddie hcs too while I'm at it, some inconsistency

A/n: some of these hcs are based off of my own experiences so enjoy that lol

Edit: here's some old hcs I have that I found lying deep in my drafts collecting dust lol

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One time in 9th grade screamed "hail Satan" during the pledge of allegiance

Has a childhood stuffed animal (probably a teddy bear) that he still has out of nostalgia and that he's too connected to it to let go of it

Had a pet fish when he was younger. when it died he cried and buried it in the backyard. You can still kinda see the watered down cardboard headstone behind the trailer

This man is gay and realized that probably around middle school

Literally cried when he found out bc he knew what would happen if anyone (especially his dad) found out

Uncle Wayne's the only one in Eddies family that's supportive

I personally hc that's why Eddie lives with Wayne bc his parents found out and kicked him out :(

When he's not playing dnd or hanging out with the rest of the group he kinda just tends to stay in his room and practice guitar. That or goes into the woods

Or selling drug's lol

Has an extreme fear of bugs. Literally screams if he sees a cockroach in the trailer as he violently stomps the shit out of it

But if he's with the kids or the queer quartet (especially with Steve) and there's a bug he'll just act all brave and heroic and kill it

"seriously Harrington, with that scream the neighbors gonna think There's a girl in here"

"yeah haha real funny Munson"

But internally he's just as freaked out

Eddie secretly kinda always wanted to have a younger sibling so he could teach them stuff he knew and get them into stuff he was interested in and that's why he absolutely loves his relationship with Dustin bc he's like the younger brother he's always wanted

was absolutely ecstatic when he meet will

Basically took the kid under his wing like he did with Lucas, Dustin, & mike (A/n: side note people need to bring up more about Lucas when talking about Eddie being mentor for Dustin & Mike cus he's also a part of hellfire club so goddamn I'm doing it)

He also encouraged will to wear his "will the wise" costume to at least one of the campaigns

Speaking of hellfire club-

There's this hc I saw on TikTok that I absolutely love that Eddie lost a bet to Lucas and had to wear a princess costume to a campaign

Makes me laugh every time I think about it

I just imagine Eddie with a deadpanned face as the rest of hellfire tried not to laugh Thier asses off

Also Erica decided that she actually liked going to the hellfire campaign and decided to go more often

Tho she won't officially call herself a member cus "hellfire clubs for a bunch of losers" lol

(this for the Eddie lives!au where Eddie just goes with Dustin instead of going and trying to fight the bats off. I'm still mad about that 😒) How Eddie met will was after the "earthquake" when the rest of the group are at Wheelers house and the California crusaders (argyles group lol) are back in Hawkins and there all hugging each other and just happy everyone's okay 👍

"but vamp Eddie is wanted by the police shouldn't he still be in hiding and not in the public eye" I THINK A MURDER SUSPECT IS THE LEAST OF HAWKINS WORRIES AFTER A EARTHQUAKE THAT DESTROYED THE TOWN JUST HAPPENED

Anyways Mike and Dustin introduce will to Eddie (someone pls write a fanfic of this PLEASE-)

Eddie sees alot of his younger self in Will

Like ALOT

Besides the fact They're both queer (will didn't say shit about that btw, Eddie just knew) they're both seen as freaks and have similar interests with dnd so when Eddie and will learned more about each other and realized they had more in common

Steve & Dustin 2.0

obviously Eddie doesn't just sweep Dustin under the rug now that wills there but c'mon he can have 2 younger brothers can't he?

And Steves his bf he's gotta take care of their kid together/hj

Speaking of steddie Steve & Eddie kinda give off divorced parents taking care of Thier kid together and Secretly still are in love with each other but doesn't say anything to the other ab it

Eddie's also the 2nd person for Will to come out to and Eddie immediately accepts him

"I mean byer c'mon it was a little obvious"

"huh?"

"you're kidding right? I see the way you look at Wheelers brother"

Of course Eddie doesn't tell anyone unless wills fine with him telling someone else

which let's be honest he probably doesn't want Eddie telling anyone else at least until he's absolutely sure how they feel about queer people. And even then will probably be a bit hesitant on telling the person WHO he likes (A/n: totally not projecting or anything)

After will comes out him Eddie decides to pull a switch a roo out of his ass and come out to will as well

"besides the fact that I also know how you feel, considering I swing that way too"

Will is absolutely shocked

Bamboozled even

Just :0

As if Eddie doesn't look like a walking Skittles ad

Tbh I might make a little fanfic of this scenario :)

Back to when Eddie gets introduced to everyone

Argyle thinks he absolutely fucking cool

"wow man that's a pretty sick jacket"

"you, like metal?"

"well Eden listens to metal so if she likes metal I say it's pretty cool 😎"

Eddie, argyle, & Johnathan are smoking buddies

+ Eden sometimes if argyle visits her

(I'm sorry but I love argyle x Eden sm. They're in a long distance relationship damn it)

If Edens with them Eddie talk ab different type of music they're into sense they have somewhat similar taste

I hc Eden prefers goth music (Siouxsie and the banshees, the cure, joy division, sisters of mercy, Bauhaus) but listens to metal as well so if she wants recs she'll ask Eddie

They all just hot box in argyles van

Anyways back to Eddie hcs

When he graduates (finally) he does exactly what he said he would do: flip principal Higgins off and run like hell out of there

Hellfire club + the rest of the queer quartet, and Wayne was there in crowd cheering him on

After the ceremony tho he was absolutely ecstatic

Wayne gave him the biggest hug out of all them

"I'm proud of you kid"

Nearly teared up when Wayne said that

Jonathan took a bunch of pictures

They had party at Wayne's trailer

Nothing too fancy but there was enough people to call it a party

He also has a pet rat named Ozzy

A/n: anyways these are all the hcs that I could pull out of my ass for now but I might update this post if there's more I can think of

#eddie munson stranger things #eddie munson #eddie stranger things #eddie x steve #eddie munson x steve harrington #eddie munson x male reader #stranger things s4 #stranger things #stranger things season 4 #stranger things fanfiction #eddie munson headcanons #eddie munson hcs #stranger things headcanons #stranger things hcs #fanfic #fanfiction #new fanfic #fanfictions #fanfiction community #new fanfiction #fan fic blog #gay fanfiction #gay writer #fanfics #fanfic community #fanfiction blog #fic by me #fanfic blog #eddie munson fic #headcanon

[houseofpendragons]

PRAY THE PAIN AWAY

Summary: Daeron takes Aegon to pray and what a little prayer without trauma making your eyes leak 👍

Warnings: Minor mention of oral (m receiving) in passing, sadness, grammatical errors (bc I was too lazy, sue me😂) and I think that's it but let me know if I missed anything

Word Count: 2459 Words

A/N: This took forever to write and I've had this idea for a while so I finally finished it in an attempt to get rid of my writers block

The left side of his face felt like there were a thousand tiny pinprick needles stabbing the usually pale flesh of his cheek. He could feel it reddening, swelling under the ghost of her hand, never soft or caring when directed towards him like a mother should direct to her son, no - hers was always a fist of steel and iron that hurt worse than if he'd been dealt a blow by Ser Criston's morningstar.

His eyes watered on instinct, his hand frozen in midair with fingers reaching out to soothe the abused flesh. And then she was gone, she'd just left him by himself in that room, disappearing in a flury of green skirts.

Aegon had been found with some girl again, whispers had already begun to echo through the corridors. He wanted to laugh, he wasn't sure why but their was an undeniable urge there as he realized he couldn't even recall the girls name. That had been the question that had made her strike like a viper, venom seeping into his veins and filling him with its poison, except she was his mother and not a snake. She used an open palm instead of venom. And that hurt far worse. She'd asked "who is this girl? So that I might fix this with her family!" And he didn't know.

The laughter turned to a pain in the back of his throat. It burned as his throat tried to close, it hurt as the tears slid down his face, it hurt in his chest as the muscled constricted and a pang struck his heart. It made him angry how she has such an affect on him, he should be used it by now, she had struck him countless times over the years. But...she was his mother, she was all he had. He loved her. And he felt her rejection of his cries for help as literal knife to the heart.

He looked at his skin now, as if he might see the thousands of scars that littered him just below the surface staring back at him. But all he saw was the unamarred flesh, practically devoid of color from months of being sheilded from the sun since he preferred to sleep away from the sun and live by the moon and stars. It was the only way he knew, at night he was less likely to be seen, he did it for her, he tried for her. But she didn't see it that way.

Daeron stood anxiously just outside the door to Aegon's room, his own eyes were tearful, guilt eating away at him seeing as he was the one who'd informed and delivered him to their mother in the first place. He bounced his knee anxiously and clutched one trembling hand in the other as if to steady himself. His breath trembled as he tried to gain the courage to face him. His mother hadn't seen him as she'd rushed away, stomping as if their was some bug under her feet. He was glad, or else she would've forced him with her. He was the youngest and so she had a tendency to baby him, but he wanted to be a man right now.

He thought he had his courage now, but when he turned his body to stand in the doorway of his room it all slipped away from him, as if water disappearing from between his fingers.

Aegon had always...intimidated him? No, that wasn't it. Truly he and Aegon had never been able to bond, or allowed to perhaps. They were such different people. Aegon was so desperate to get away from any semblance of who he was, whilst Daeron was molded to be, well everything his eldest brother was not.

His eyes were hard like stone, but their was no denying the fire that danced behind it. The flames were reaching out, licking the air for a taste of chaos, they longed for it like an addiction. "And what do you want, Septon Daeron. Here to get me into more trouble, or are you looking for a change of pace and decided to gloat?" It wasn't a question, it was a dismissal. But the youngest brother also felt like it was a cry, "Please don't leave me alone" he felt the words actually meant. He wanted to answer that call, he reminded himself that he was full of fire too and pretended that he could feel it just below the surface of his skin, scarred from training. It sounded stupid but it always comforted him.

Daeron gulped down the lump in his throat. "Do-Do you-" He cursed himself silently in his head, he'd pray for forgiveness for that soon enough. "Would you like to come with me?"

Aegon eyed him, clearly distrustful, not sure what underlying motive was hiding behind clouds of masked innocence. Daeron couldn't blame his distrust. The guilt nipped at him again.

"Please."

Suprisingly, Aegon scoffed and rolled his eyes after a few moments of silence where he just stared at the dwindling flames in the fireplace. "Fine. Just don't waste my time."

Dumbfounded, Daeron only stood their for a few moments as his brother shouldered past him. His eyes were wide and his mouth was damn near on the floor. A smile broke out on his face and he turned around and rushed to take the lead.

~•••~

The carriage shook and rumbled as the wheelhouse made its way down the broken and uneven streets of King's Landing. Inside, Daeron and Aegon sat in an awkward silence. Aegon was looking out of the window and Daeron stares silently at the side of his face. He wanted to understand him, he liked to think of people as a puzzle, it made it fun and easier for him to comprehend. To Daeron, Aegon was the most complicated puzzle of all. There were so many layers to him - sometimes he was just a broken boy, other times a menace, uncaring, unfeeling, full of laughter, mischievous...and sometimes he was just nothing, simply a hollow shell. It was as if he could leave his own body and...who knew where he went.

Daeron was guilty yanked from his thoughts as he saw Aegon's head turn towards his direction. He snapped his head foreward immediately, a slight flush creeping up his neck in embarrassment. He had nothing to be embarrassed about though because his brother truly didn't care. Aegon rolled his eyes and sighed dramatically at the sight of his brothers awkward posture and blush.

"Where are you taking me?" It struck him hard and fast that Aemond had asked him that same question when he was thirteen, when he'd taken him to the Street of Silk. He didn't know why he suddenly thought about it and he also didn't know why he felt like bile was coming up his throat. Now it was his turned to quickly look away from his brother, whom looked so bright eyes and innocent, yet also so stong and wise, just completely ready to see all the world had to offer him with no fear. It made him nauseous, he couldn't handle it, he felt like he couldn't breath.

"Nevermind, it doesn't matter anyways." Daeron's eager smile for conversation fell. He twisted his lip and sank into the cushion behind him. Aegon took this in out of the corner of his eye. He felt guilt. He sighed. "I'm sure it'll be great." He added just to lessen the blow. He didn't know why, but he wasn't ready to be the one to kill that ember yet.

Aegon tried to remeber the last time he'd even seen the boy next to him, well he was a man now, but back then he'd been a boy. He'd honestly look alot like Aemond, just without the freckles, and his hair was a bit shorter as well. Even now the similarities were still there, both in looks and personality, but they were also so very different.

He was ripped from his thoughts when they suddenly stopped. Daeron eagerly jumped up say something along the lines of "Ah, we're here" before jumping out without looking back at him to see if he was even going to get out. Whatever Aegon had been expexting to see when he exited the wheelhouse it was not what he saw staring back at him as his feet met the cobbles.

He stared up at the great stone building for a few moments, looking like Daeron had when Aegon had first excepted to go on this trip in the first place.

"The Sept..." Suddenly he burt out into laughter, completely unexpexting this and yet also not suprised at the same time. This was the first time Aegon remembered genuinely laughing in a long time, nothing fake and for show, just real laughter. And the best thing was, he didn't even know what was was funny.

Daeron was trying not to join in his brother's maniacal laughter, wanted him to see how serious he was about this. It was hard to do.

"Ah, I'm sorry. I just- you just-" He heaved for breath. "Alright let's go and get this done with, Septon Daeron." He through an arm over his little brother's shoulder and joked about confessing about his sins of gluttony, and alcohol, and all sorts of deviant types of sexual activities.

It suprised Daeron just how seriously amused Aegon found this. He watched his brother strut and smirk at all the confused Septon's who glanced their way. He was more confused when Aegon reached the alter first and knelt before the candles with his hands folded in prayer.

"Alright, now where to start. Well, here's a good one. Would the Seven be so kind as to forgive me for enjoying the feeling of that girls soft, plump lips around my cock so much-"

"Aegon!" Daeron was horrified. He looked around as if he was the one who was doing something wrong. He was beginning to think this was a mistake, but then he saw something, merely a flicker, but it was something.

"What?" He asked through laughter, pushing a strand of argent hair behind his ear. He was trying to hide it. But when he looked into those wide eyes so full of innocence, pleading, he gulped and nodded. "Alright, fine. What do I...what do you want me to say."

"It's not about what I want you to say, say what you wanted to say." He was quick to add. "Quietly."

Aegon smirked, watching as Daeron closed his eyes, completely unaware that Daeron was praying for forgiveness for getting his eldest brother hurt. Then he closed his own eyes.

He thought about that girl again, the nameless girl. He thought about his mother and how he thought he was the reason for her unhappiness, how he was never enough for anyone. He thought about Rhaenyra's unwarranted hatred, he thought of his fathers willful blindness and how he and his sibling were invisible to the man that was supposed to love me more than anything.

He felt anger bubbling up inside of him and riveting off of him in waves, but then it dissipated into a sea of sadness. He wanted to run, he'd spent his entire lift running from this thing he couldn't see.

Aegon didn't like this. He didn't want to feel sad...he wanted to feel...numb.

Nevertheless the big, hot tears kept falling freely down his cheeks, only to dive down onto his top dau pld tunic. Every when spot thst littered him he glared at in loathe, not liking it when his masked slipped and showed the world he was really just a damaged boy pretending to be a man.

And yet his brother said nothing, staring at him with the calm, cool lavender eyes thst his younger siblings all shared - again making him with his dark purple eyes, the outside again.

It made him cry more.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry." He didn't even know what he was apologizing for. Was it for not being who his mother so desperately wanted him to be, for that nameless girl who he'd never see or think about again, for the things he did to sweet Helaena, for Aemond whom he was never there for, or for not being a good brother for Daeron. Maybe it was for himself, for the broken boy that he truly was inside, the boy who didn't know anything.

Daeron reached for his brother's trembling hand, and as if he knew exactly what to do he sat in silence and let Aegon get it all out, he watched patiently, and squeezed in hand comfortingly.

Aegon snapped. "I'm sorry." He rubbed at his eyes furiously, angry at the tears. Beneath his wye became raw and Daeron had to grab his hand lest he being to bleed or heavens forbid claw his eyes out - he could never be to sure with Aegon and how far he'd truly go. "This isn't me, this isn't me. I-"

"What isn't you, brother." Daeron felt sorrow in his chest, as if he too was feeling his brother's pain. Aegon's only response was to shake his head back and forth rapidly, as if the fight the invisible demon that he called emotion.

He shushed him gently. It only made his brother cry harder.

"I know you don't understand me. I don't understand me but- I don't-" He was visible shaking with every breath. "I don't know why I do the things that I do. I don't know why I hurt people. Why I hurt myself" Daeron pulled him into a hug, as if to wrap him up in his arms like a blanket. Daeron could laugh at that moment, it was as if he was the big brother and not the other way around.

"I don't know why I-I don't know...I don't know anything." Aegon choked out as he continued to sob.

"It's okay, big brother. I'm here, I'm here. Just let it all out."

Suddenly, it was as if Daeron and Aegon finally, I mean truly, saw one another as brothers. "I'm glad you got out." And their eyes, meeting in the dim glow of the candlelight, conveyed all the rest of the words left unsaid.

That night when they returned to the Red Keep it was in silence, not the uncomfortable one that they had left in, but something like understanding. They went to bed that night and they never spoke of what had happen that day in the Sept again but their was a change in how they interacted with one another that day and that brokenness was the sad secret that bound them together, not the blood I'm their veins. But the tradgedy in them instead.

#hotd #house of the dragon #aegon ii targaryen #daeron targaryen #daeron the daring #king aegon ii targaryen #aegon targaryen #team green #hotd imagine #hotd imagines #hotd fanfic #alicent hightower #aemond targaryen #helaena targaryen #criston cole #rhaenyra targaryen #viserys i targaryen

[articskele]

Yall I just gotta spill my incoherent rambles about Its Name Was Cesar Torres because GRAAAAHHHHH

Spoilers under the cut!

I saw one post that was like “Ok but which would be more fucked up: the alternate killing Cesar while wearing the face of his mom, or vice versa?” And this fic gave us a third and even more devastating option holy shit-

“Picking up the receiver, it paused before pressing at the shapes in the pattern it knew would make Cesar Torres’ friend speak.”

DO YOU REALIZE HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS LINE.

Understanding the how but not the why, having the knowledge but not the experience, the inhuman detachment of it all. One small detail that betrays its whole state of being right now: An imitation.

And don't even get me started on the headcanons for how alternates work bc they're so FASCINATING

The way alternates just. Absorb? Things? To take on their form? One of the comments mentioned the alt wearing Cesar's corpse like a parasite and AOUGH

The way emotions have taste- Altsar's initial plan to understand pain just so it could make Mark's suffering that much better to savor- It's just the sheer embodiment of their nature as entities of consumption, born into a state of empty eternity

The way alternates have no personal stake in the war and are just doing what they do best because they can- The way alternates can't die and are just cast back into the void from whence they came, only delaying the inevitable-

Pfffft Mark walks in and just sees Altsar like 🧍 aksjdalkfh- Not a single thought between those eyes dude

Mark with the chewed up fingernails he just like me fr

THE BIBLE REFERENCES THE BIBLE REFERENCES OUGHHGHGHH HOLY SH IT

I don't even know why I love em so much they just make me FERAL- OK BUT THAT SCENE IN CHAPTER 2 WITH MARK RECITING THE FUCKIGNF PSALM AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

BRO IS CLINGING. HOLDING ON FOR DEAR LIFE SOMEONE HELP HIM. GO CHRISTIAN BOY GO!!!! Voted God's little lamb most likely to be slaughtered-

THE PANCAKESSSSS. WHAT IF I CRIED. A glimpse of silliness in the storm, and Altsar fuckin grinning from ear to ear (perhaps literally lmao-) I love that and I want them to be ok in the end-

Can we talk about the deer alternate. Can we tALK ABOUT THE FUCKING DEER AAAAUGHH

They had us in the first half not gonna lie with the Mark fakeout- The way I slapped my hand over my mouth like "WUH? HUH??"

AND THEN ALTSAR, OVERWHELMED WITH RAGE, STRIKING THIS ABOMINATION WITH ALL OF ITS THEIR MIGHT. AND YET IT JUST KEEPS TALKING. WORDS DRIPPING FROM ITS SLACKED JAW LIKE SALIVA. WHY WON'T IT STO P.

The moment Altsar realizes he's gotten way in over his head past the point of no return- The constant change of it to they to he, struggling with newfound humanity and unable to see where the alternate ends and the dead man begins. Is there even a difference anymore?

The whole warm and cold thing..... Mark taking Altsar's hands into his and bandaging his its wounds..... Injured. Broken. Both of them living a lie for as long as they can.

AND CAN WE JUST APPRECIATE THE WAY EVERYTHING COMES TOGETHER AT THE END:

The Mary statue and the deer alternate coming back

Mark's righteous fury framed by the shards of the Evangelist

The change from ¬ Shoot me, Mark Heathcliff. I am not what you think. ¬ to ¬ Don’t shoot me. I'm not what you think. ¬

Altsar finally experiencing pain, only for it to be at the hand of his best friend. Bleeding out as he screams for the one thing he just can't go without.

“It hurts, Mark. It hurts.”

IT'S JUST SO!!! GODDDDDDDDD. WHAT IF I CRIED. WHAT IF I TURNED INTO A LITTLE PUDDLE HUH. WHAT THEN.

I just. I struggle to find the words to describe how much I adore this fic, yall. If you were to look in my brain you would just find that one video of the guy shouting "HEEEELP. HEEEEEEELP. HELP MEEE." with the most expressionless face-

I like this fic. I like it a whole lot. And I can't wait to see what comes next ouo

#mandela catalogue #hail true body au #my nonsense

[onlyjaeyun]

The way I’m shaking like a leaf… She cried? Oh my gosh. She really feels not so great about herself right now… Poor baby 🥺 I hope Hoon says something or does something to make it better. An offhand comment. Some amazing aftercare. Something! Oh my gosh I was literally shaking after reading. But knowing Hoon he’ll just go beat the shiz out of somebody over it.

I am very curious to see if he’ll mention it or ignore it or what. Literally I’m just so excited for what happens next.

Like I just know they’re in their head about each other. I saw your beautiful thought about the skating rink and I wondered whether there are moments when they’re together that their bodies and minds remember what it was like to hold each other. They had to trust each other so much to be partners. Know each others unspoken communication and body language and they never forgot. That’s probably why they’re so good together in bed. I just have it in my head that she looks down at him—meeting his gaze when he’s about to taste and her mind flashes back to that same face so much younger and happier. Eyes filled with affection and laughter—all for her—all about her—and it’s so painful and beautiful at the same time that she has to turn away… There’s such a tragic beauty to losing love in childhood. Your heart and innocence is just frozen there in your memories… When I tell you this chapter broke my heart…

Like I know he doesn’t want to care but I would be willing to bet in that moment, when he saw her cry, he had that same kind of flashback, you know? Her tears probably always tore him apart because her smiles were so beautiful. Maybe once upon a time it broke him to see her in pain… and maybe he hates that it still does. Maybe that’s why Jaemin had to suffer. Because he can’t (shouldn’t want to) fix what’s broken in her anymore so he settles for breaking what broke her instead.

It’s all there… you painted this incredible world filled with emotion and it’s all there and I just let myself drift in it sometimes. That’s really the magic of a truly good story with really amazing characterization like yours…

I haven’t had time to write in a long time. I miss it so much, and stories like this make me remember why. I hope you know that you really are that talented.

I really can’t wait for more. I just love this story. It’s a lovely highlight to my day. I look forward to it. When I was writing I would get anons and followers that would write me long paragraphs and daydreams about my characters and my stories and my worlds (especially The Alpha—I used to receive NOVELS about that story) They always made me smile because I knew it meant that they were as invested in the world and characters I created as I was. So I hope me sending you these daydreams doesn’t make you frustrated or uncomfortable. To me, creating a world that is rich enough to daydream in is the highest achievement. And you really have done that. Thank you so much.

STOP you know one thing i LOVE about writers who read? they just send you comments like this so casually like bestie you just wrote the most beautiful and well thought through commentaty on my work and i just wanna say i love and appreciate you so much.

i always see your comments and asks and replies and i cant lie they never fail to make me tear up. maybe its your phenomenal way with words or just the way it feels so kind and genuine but either way i just wanna say that i genuinely and truly appreciate every word you've sent my way 🥺

the fact CH is such a big part of your day is smth i will forever keep close to my heart and honestly i dont even wanna comment on your thoughts bc theyre so beautiful and ive been thinking about them so much yet have not find the right ways to reply. i love and appreciate you so, so so much i hope you know that 🥺💗

#; mailbox 📬 #; cold hearts

[thekidsarentalright]

HELLO I SURVIVED!! my voice is extremely fucked up from screaming and my legs hurt but i’m alive!! i feel like there’s so much stuff i need to ramble abt so i’m just gonna write a fuckin essay here lmao i’m so sorry 😭

ok so the stage looked SO cool in person. the backdrops were gorgeous <3 and everything was like a physical prop, not projections… including the giant replica of bubbles the dog <3 pete kept pretending to put his hand in its mouth and patrick was singing to it! and the pyro was insane, i could feel the heat from it and i was Not super close to the stage. they Also had a clock on the side of the stage that would go backwards every so often… like going back in time to play older songs 😭

UM?!?! THAT SETLIST?!?!?! ginasfs was NOT a possibility in my head at all, so that was absolutely insane, my god!!! everyone was like “???” after pete said they’d never played it live. and then it started and my brain literally blacked out. like my only thought was “there’s no way this is happening, what the FUCK”. that song is so important to me and honestly was one of the first ones i remember loving when i got into fob, so that was a whole moment!! if there’s a different song every time that’s so scary, i SO hope u get the song u want if that’s the case! <333

“don’t forget who left the light on 20 years ago” had me tearing up and then all the tttyg stuff… fob wants us all dead fr! and THEN HEAVEN IOWA?! AND HEADFIRST SLIDE?!?!?! i was HOLLERING the whole time, my throat still hurts 💀 and FAKE OUT OMG WHERE DO I EVEN START 😭 the pink lights worked and it looked so pretty!!! it took some ppl a minute to get theirs set up, so the stadium kinda gradually lit up more and more and by the middle of the song it was fully lit! i swear i saw the exact moment where patrick realized what was going on and he smiled so big <3 i teared up so hard (was trying not to cry bc i had glitter on my face lol… i kinda cried anyway) and then pete gave us a shoutout! i’m def keeping my seashell on like… my wall or smth <3

also the covers!! that first song patrick did at the piano is lake shore drive, it’s actually what he was playing in that tiktok of him in the studio back in like… february! (it’s the piano thing right after the clip of him playing trumpet) my mom recognized it when i was watching that video originally and asked why he was playing it, so i already knew the song… was Not expecting it live tho 🤯 and then don’t stop believing?!?! we were all v confused but excited lmao… and then crazy train a bit later 😅

and pete did baby annihilation!! honestly when i said he could do it and i’d cheer, i did NOT expect him to actually do it lmaoo… but he did and it was fantastic!! hold me like a grudge was also incredibly fun, it goes so hard live <3 shoutout to the ppl who were doing the clapping during the bridge w me lol

every time patrick started talking he’d go “hi” in this soft voice and i was just like “HIIIII 🥺” AND HE WORE DOC MARTENS!!! AAAA 💓 he was so sunshiny and just skipping around like usual <3

OH ALSO!! idk what the other venues on this tour are like, but wrigley has this thing above the stage where they have a couple different flags, and all except one of them were changed out to be the smiley face logo!! it reminded me of when they planted their flag in the lftos music video and i got emotional looking at it 😭 like. they did it!! and it’s so obvious they’re excited to be doing all this!! ur gonna have an absolute blast at your show for Sure!

(the openers were fucking amazing too, i totally didn’t process that tai was playing until literally right before they came onstage. and then they covered snakes on a plane and were like “iykyk” and i very nearly died lmao)

(alsooooo congrats on finishing ur first year of college!! happy stardust summer! mwah 💕)

- 🧋 anon

SOOO sorry to be answering this a couple days later tumblr never showed me i got it!!!!! ANYWAYS

ohhhhh my god it sounds like it was such a fantastic like. incredibly special concert, i'm so happy for u!!! the setlist and the set itself literally blew my mind as i was watching a livestream of the show like????? my god they really pulled out ALLL the stops while also keeping the classics on there, really a setlist to please Everyone i think?? also w the set like. all the animatronic stuff and different backgrounds and everything. patrick was Not kidding when he said this show was visually different than anything they'd ever done before i am. SOOOO impressed. actually both by that and the stardust project, i remember something similar happened for mania tour and it was really pretty (kept my cutouts and still have them!!!) so im VERY glad it's happening this time for fake out <333 they deserve to see all of our love in every way possible <333

SO interesting that that's what he was playing on that tiktok omg he was practicing for so longggggg.... insane that ur show got a special lil piano mashup and then last night he did what a time to be alive.... so curious to see if its wattba forever now or if that's gonna be different each night Too!!!

and YEAHHH baby annihilation being on the setlist is making me soooo ;__; every time i think abt it im sooooo proud of pete for like. being confident enough to do That in front of thousands of people. also made me so happy to see patrick skipping around stage in his slay lil outfit like all four of them were SOOO happy u could tell i just. god i love them, they DID it they had their lil flag planted and played such a good show. last nights show was no doubt so good and special too from every video i've seen i just. i Know this tour is gonna be the tour of a lifetime, im SOOO excited for my show and also so glad urs was such a wonderful time and experience like u got so many special lil things!!! ginasfs and snakes on a plane etc!!!!!!!!! loved hearing all of this <33333

#augh this made me somehow even more excited for my show!!! #also thank u!!!! happy stardust summer to U as well <3 mwah #asks #🧋anon

[anantaru]

hello lovely its ur favourite (DUH) 🤠 i am extremely apologetic for current circumstances, however, the proposal will come underway in the foreseeable future (i am a woman of my word 😤) because i am DYING OVER MY EXAMS MAN HOW ARE U TELLING ME I HAVE 22 EXAMS IN THE NEXT MONTH nahhhhhhhhh at least i get a 2 month break after that best believe ill just be staring at kaeyas face in game for at least 24 hours of that time and ur kaeya smuts FUCK HOW AM I LEGIT GETTING HORNY OVER THEM? skills = unmatched fr fr what a blessing u are to my life they were SO. GOOOOOOOD. i feel like ur writings are the only thing thats gonna get me out of this exam period bc i cried six times yesterday and i just cried 5 minutes ago life is so great man but genuinely dont stress urself out either darling ur posts are so consistent and ill say it again YOU ARE SO HARDWORKING but dont burn urself out ur not obligated to be writing here but you do and we appreciate it A LOT also UR TASTE IS SO IMMACULATE LIKE WHAT?? no bc THE MINUTE I SAW JING YUAN I WAS LIKE smash. SMASH. he's so scrumptious i would let this man TAKE ME. after kaeya does first lmfao but SMASHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH why arent men like this reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll ffs man anyways mi amor im going to leave to revise for tomorrows exam, one down 21 to go and im being so fr when i say 21 now btw like yus this is the situation im in bubye ly U ARE AN ICON A ROCKSTAR A LEGEND U ARE THE MOMENT anyways bae adios <3 also i saw ur reply to someone talking abt jing yuans breeding kink and thats AGREEEEEEED WITH LIKE HIGHKEY AGREEED and kaeya its the men with the breeding kinks man fucking hot also im sorry i write so much its cos im a waffler irl but i hope it entertains youuuuuuuuuuu ur a cutie btw i forgot to mention even if its just ur immaculate personality we see ur 1000000% a cutie i just know it inside and out ALSO OMFG I NEED TO SHOW U SCREENSHOTS OF WHAT ALHAITHAM WAS DOING ON CHARACTER AI I WAS IN TEARS i was just saying bby gyal bc he's a bby gyal and then he started calling me it and i was like ew no stop it i shall reveal the screenshots at some point in time maybe when i have a revision break or smth anyways bubye for REAL THIS TIME 🤣🤣

OOOMG LOVE ABQBQJQWJJWQH IM LAUGHING SO MUCH YOU‘RE SUCH A BLESSING I ADORE YOU 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💕💕💕💕😭😭😭 please this is so sweet the way this literally made my entire night you‘re so so cute and i agree so much!!!!! kaeya is a breeding kink champion don‘t even 👹👹👹👹👹👹💕 breeding is on his mind 24/7 he needs it just as much as he requires air AAAAAAA and please the character ai, i love hearing stories about ai conversations they‘re hilarious, if you have some good ones go share i‘m all ears 👼🏼💕

#˚✩彡 🤠 — anon' #꒰୨ 𖤐 ୧꒱ answered'

[subskz]

i want to discuss a... very dark and depraved thought... (not really, just a really big dacryphilia kink of mine) but skz who are crybabies in bed *heart eyes*

i just know han, felix, and hyune are. i mean, we've already discussed that hyunsung would be very reactive, of course they'd be criers too. their cute faces covered in tears, sobbing and whining the whole time. *swoons* felix, however? he's just soooo sensitive. every single touch him gasp. a little graze against his nipples would make him tear up, the touch going straight to his cock, making him all hard for you <3

hyung line would probably be easy criers too but it's more of when you really take them there and get them all frustrated. chan's more of a service sub so he cries when he can't get you off how he wanted. he just wants to be good for you so why can't he hold off his orgasm? make you cum first? he cries into your chest, overhwelmed by his unexpected orgasm. poor thing. you always praise him anyway. he's a good boy that always tries his best. changbin cries when you edge then overstim him. he gets real pouty when he doesn't get bites of food from the members or when they deny his affection right? what more when you deny his orgasm? he'd probably start tearing up by the second time you do it because he knows you're actually not going to let him until he does what you want. and when he finally does? you don't stop. and it makes more tears fall from his eyes as he's overwhelmed with the pleasure he was denied of. now, your favorite, minho. this spoiled kitty is always expecting you to give him what he wants. i mean, why wouldn't you? you love that boy too much. so he definitely hates it when you make him work for his orgasm. he hates riding. he always wants to just lay down and take it from you. but when you make him ride your strap/dick or grind on your thigh, he huffs and whines. you don't break though, being firm about letting him do all the work. it's only when his legs start to ache and he's brought to the edge without cumming for the fifth time that he looks at you, sniffling, his red cheeks are littered with tears that you finally have some mercy on him.

NOW... seungmin and iyen. i have a hard time really deciphering them but here's my thoughts. for seungmin, we all saw how he cried during the ments at the concert. he's a singer, it's easy for him to be sentimental. (the man listens to day6... it's obvious!) so i see him being the type to tear up when you make love to him. he gasps and moans out melodiously when you kiss up all over him, slow strokes, feeling up every moment. he just thinks you looks so beautiful and he's yours. you want him, want to make him feel good. he can't help the tears welling up in his eyes, especially when you look at him like he hung the stars. now, iyeni.. ok maybe i'm a bit of a freak but c-corruption kink?! jeongin has these wide, expressive eyes, and they stare at you so curiously when you touch him like he's never been touched before. you love the way they follow your movements, up and down his cock, as little whimpers leave his mouth. when he cums, it's explosive. i mean, it's his first time recieving it from someone else, let alone someone like you. his fingers grip your wrists tight, hips bucking wildly, a shout leaving his lips. and then he cries. he doesn't know why and he's honestly very embarassed but it felt so fucking good. he's never cum that hard before. he doesn't wanna look at you, too humiliated. but when you carress his face, turning it to look at you, he sees your kind smile. you coo at him, it must've been a lot, hm? don't worry, i'll give you more. just let me show you.

crybaby skz…and from you no less…i’m abt to short circuit the number of times i’ve reread this is unhealthy 😭 i can’t decide which description is my favorite lino crying from frustration bc he can’t get himself off without ur help quite literally caters to me like nothing else but also…binnie n jeongin’s hit extra hard ��‍💫

yes hyunjin lix n hannie our crybaby line <3 whether it’s from pleasure or pain or just being overwhelmed with emotion those three would be tearing up in no time hehe i also loveee the thought of that for seungmo! i admittedly see him as pretty vanilla so him starting to cry just out of pure tenderness when he thinks abt how much he loves u and how loved he feels is so sweet ㅠㅠ and yeni…singlehandedly making my corruption kink go 📈📈 oh my god poor baby just bursting into tears bc all these sensations are so new to him and he doesn’t know if he’s doing the right things to please you…so so cute i will never recover from this 💔

#ask #🤍 anon #at the point where i have to prepare myself for psychological dmg every time u send an ask 😭 (in the best way) #💌 skz #long post