#i need to read more vonnegut tbh

[technicolorxsn]

wish I could force some people to read mother night tbh

#like i dont know anyone *that* extreme obviously but i know some people who could use that moral lesson #like sure you dont hold those beliefs but youre still doing the active harm #you are who you portray or however he put it #'We are what we pretend to be so we must be careful what we pretend to be.' #i need to read more vonnegut tbh #i loved cats cradle and mother night but found slaughterhouse 5 kind of hard to read #but still good #especially the combination of care and apathy #mainly the dichotomy between the woman asking him to name the book 'the childrens crusade' vs 'so it goes' #he wanted to portray how deeply horrible it all was but... theres so much what can you do? so it goes #i will say theres more to unpack with slaughterhouse 5 and cats cradle though #i love mother night a lot but its very cut and dry for a vonnegut novel #and vonnegut said as much #anyway #i think with where i live some people could stand to read kt #im not sure kts a greater phenomenon #it.might be #but its definitely A Thing where i live #nd like.... there r so many people i know where like.. i know somewhere theyre decent and want to be decent but just want to fit in but... #have a moral backbone would you?

[prontaentrega]

@fluctuating-fixations It's mostly about some specific word choices that don't really change the plot or the whole direction of the story so it's not like, an entirely different book, but they alter the whole tone of it and makes it worse to me. The first thing i noticed I didn't like about it was when Valentín first mentions Marta and he says "my girl" i immediately went he would not fucking say that!!!!!

In the original Spanish the word he uses for Marta is "compañera" which translates to partner or comrade (F). It's not the most common word to talk about your girlfriend in spanish so it's a deliberate choice on his part. What was the need to change it? to make it sound more natural? to make him sound less political?

In that same page he goes on to talk about his guerrilla comrades and he actually uses the word compañeros for them. The masculine/neutral form of the word he uses for Marta

But the one that really annoyed me is this one

Because in this part the word he uses in Spanish is, again, compañera. And idk about you but i think it has a completely different meaning if you say "if she's my woman, it's because she's in the struggle too" or if you say "if she's my comrade/partner, it's because she's in the struggle too." And besides he would never call anyone "his woman" it's just completely contrary to his whole character... this and a bunch of other small stuff like it mischaracterizes Valentín as more of a macho figure than he really is. And this is an issue i have with literally every adaptation and translation of this book tbh everyone's always so fixed on making this college educated communist latino more violent and sexist and angry. I wonder why

This one's minor but it also bothers me, when talking about the panther woman movie there's a character that in Spanish is "the architect colleague" but in English she's "the assistant" ????? what reason was for that other than misogyny

Maybe this is a non-issue and I'm nitpicking but with the book's narrative being exclusively a dialogue between two people, word choice is fundamental because this is the only way we have of knowing these characters. And especially on a book where gender expression and gender roles are such a main theme this is not like, getting mad because they switched coffe for tea on a sentence. Which I'm also mad about btw. They completely ditch any mention of the characters drinking mate and switch it for tea. Once again I'm asking what was the point? to make it all less exotic? to make it easier to understand to English speakers? having to look up what a mate is or just guess it from context isn't gonna kill anybody, but the translation is so afraid of alienating its gringo audience that it discards cultural context and reduces its only two characters to shallower versions of themselves. And I'd say the cultural context is pretty relevant because this is a book about two political prisoners under a dictatorship that was written and published when Puig's own country was under a neoliberal dictatorship. It's not Vonnegut's cat's cradle with a made up dictator in a made up country, this was actually the situation in Argentina in 1976.

And obviously someone who only speaks english won't notice any of this. What makes me sad about this is that none of the problems i have with it have to do with impossible cultural clashes, it would be extremely simple to fix all of that. It's a tragedy that the only english translation of a latin american book about gender and propaganda was made in 1976. But still I'd rather someone read the book even with the bad translation than not read it at all

#chizitxt #ive been wanting to complain about this translation for so long thanks for giving me an excuse ✌️ #el beso de la mujer araña #id probably have more to complain about if i read more of it but i dumped it pretty early on

[winesharksea]

book recommendationssss

thank u @veeples and @narrativefoiltrope beloveds!!

idk who's done this already sooo @tuomniia @solarisrenbeth and @sysba :)))

the last book i read: the essex serpent!! fairly dense reading but extremely compelling and gorgeous; it's about superstition, science, religion, social progress, fear, love, and most importantly the terrifying spectre of a big snake monster <3

a book i recommend: northanger abbey by jane austen my beloved <3 it is so fun and silly and henry tilney is the man of all time while catherine is The vibe

a book that i couldn't put down: due to me being a wretched goblin this is most of the books i read because i Need to Know what happens, but most recently the sunshine court :((( the meow meows got to me... seriously though very devastating portrayal of tentative healing

a book i've read twice (or more): watership down by richard adams!!!!!! SUCH a good book, it is the odyssey with rabbits and it's so. BARK BARK BARK. it has such mythic energy and is such a fun read every time

a book on my TBR: mother night by kurt vonnegut!! i have really loved everything i've read by him, but haven't been able to find this book yet!! someday i will complete all of his works though

a book i've put down: rivers of london by ben aaronovitch... it's my own fault for reading a cop murder mystery novel... but this one is modern fantasy which i thought would make it better... reader it did not in fact make it better

a book on my wishlist: ... the wicked powers... by cassandra clare... nobody talk to me about this i just need it for reasons and it's not coming out until 2026 :(((((((

a favorite book from my childhood: THE TALE OF DESPEREAUX. KATE DICAMILLO I LOVE YOU. this is still one of my fave books ever tbh it's so gorgeous and dreamy, please read this book

a book you would give to a friend: highkey depends on the friend... maybe the golden compass by philip pullman because i can't imagine anybody not adoring that book so it would be a safe bet and also another person converted to the his dark materials agenda

a book of poetry or lyrics you own: 100 love sonnets by pablo neruda <3 poetry is super hit or miss for me but these are so gorgeous and beautiful, can't recommend enough

a nonfiction book you own: gods of the upper air by charles king! incredibly fascinating- it's about franz boas and his team of anthropologists who fought against the concept of race as it was defined and used to justify atrocities during the 20th century

what are you currently reading: sister outsider by audre lorde! i literally just started this so don't have much to say about it yet but so far it is incredibly incisive!

what are you planning on reading next: major pettigrew's last stand! tbh this has been in my TBR for a really long time at the recommendation of a friend but i don't actually know what it's about so i guess we shall see

[asmeninas]

your favorite books and why

I fell in love with Wuthering Heights first time I read it and it definitely rewired my brain. That book taught me what true love looks like probably why I’m single. The downside is the pain of suffering of existing on tumblr and tbh some parts of twitter when that’s one of your favorite books and no one ever references the “whatever souls are made of” line accurately and then on the other side you just have people saying “that is NOT romantic” no one is right about Wuthering Heights but me it’s a burden.

As Meninas is one of the novels by my favorite Brazilian writer, Lygia Fagundes Telles, and it’s kind of YA if the category existed at the time but it hits me very deeply with its discussion of politics in the middle of the dictatorship and the nutsy crazy of the main girls is called Ana Clara and everyone refers to her as Ana Turva I won’t explain the pun to non-lusophones but whatever my username or anything on any social media of mine uses the word “turva” that’s what I’m referring to. Also Fagundes Telles was simply a fantastic writer.

Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro, the movie did not did the book justice I think it stripped away so much of what made it so great but they are details so it seems no one really cares because Garfield is there anyway, but it’s the book or nothing for me. This book ruined my life and this is what I look for in literature.

A Hundred Years of Solitude, I absolutely hate Love in Times of Cholera but aside from that García Márquez knows his stuff, it’s a glorious work of art and the way it perfectly lands both its opening and closing lines... rarely ever seen... so what if you have to keep track of a bunch of people who have the same name.

The Blind Assassin. If I’m being honest Margaret Atwood is most often an “eh” than an A+ to me but this booooooook. I simply love it so much. It is another one of those that destroys me if this list will tell you anything is I exclusively love sad books but this hits so much with every bit of the “mystery” of it coming out exactly the right way and people need to stop whining about first person narration being bad let the sad woman narrate in the first person if she wants to. Idgaf about Handmaid’s Tale this is her masterpiece to me.

Slaughterhouse Five is brilliant prose and themes and started (or popularized) my favorite trend the CHARACTER UNSTUCK IN TIME ty for giving us Lost’s The Constant ty for everything Vonnegut.

To the Lighthouse is such a basic response for someone who’s supposed to actually Know Virginia Woolf but it’s both a great example of what she meant to attempt with her writing and still readable in a way books like The Waves... aren’t as much... It’s just perfect character construction we have Mrs. Ramsay we have Lily Briscoe we have “if it’s fine tomorrow”. Mrs. Dalloway actually has my favorite non-essay Woolf quote but TtL is a literary project at its peak, to me.

Didn’t know whether to say The End of the Affair or Brighton Rock by Graham Greene but I’m going with Brighton Rock for its take on relationship between good and evil and the closeness of the concepts I feel like so many works of media that are fandom-worshipped try to do this take and I always consistently hate it sorry Bryan Fuller I know what you were trying to do but I got it when I read this.

The professionally published abandoned wip known as ASOIAF, my apologies.

Play It as It Lays, Joan Didion, I’m strictly sticking to novels here because it’s the boundary I made for myself but this is a close tie with The Year of Magical Thinking. I just love this more because the prose, the prose, the prose, also the messed up woman.

Maurice. I’m a sellout I love colonizers but Forster did so much...

This is very English language centered I realize and I AM ashamed of it but also in my defense once I decided to for whatever reason (I have mine!!!!) to exclude short stories and poems that created a great obstacle for the literature of my own country to show up here because my favorites are short stories and poems. I do realize I need to expand my horizons! This is also not all of the books I’d call “favorite” but the ones I thought of here. Also I have a lot of more contemporary books I’ve given five stars to but I prefer to let things have their time and marinate before I go listing them as favorites.

[camiercoles]

im doing the mid year book freakout tag

nobody tagged me but fuck it we roll

best book you've read so far in 2023?

its either A Feast For Crows by George R.R. Martin (duh) or Sula by Toni Morrisson. AFFC was just phenomenal, its one of those books i lost myself into and when i had to resurface i felt actual sadness because it was over, and i cant wait to reread it. Sula, however, is just perfect, i laughed and i cried, i felt so connected to the story and the writing just everyone go read Sula. its one of the best books to have ever been written.

i also reread My Brilliant Friend by Elena Ferrante and that is also the best book of all time.

best sequel you've read so far in 2023?

um AFFC!! or A Storm of Swords by George R.R. Martin. either one if those are phenomenal sequels. tbh i haven't read any other series this year so its either asoiaf or nothing, and storm and feast are my favourites.

new release you haven't read but want to?

nothing?? idk i havent read a new book in forever. maybe Yellowface by R.F Kuang or the new percy jackson book but i have no idea.

most anticipated release for the second half of the year?

unless its a surprise TWOW drop which isn't happening i have absolutely no clue.

biggest disappointment?

i'm sorry to all the fantasy fans out there, but i just finished Mistborn by Brandon Sanderson and i dont care for it. i really thought i would be more interested in the story but it was so meh for me i couldn't bring myself to care about anything or any characters. i did like the magic system.

i also reread The Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follet, which is a book i ADORED when i was like 14, ans im sad to say it folks but it was foul.

biggest surprise?

again ik this book is old but Slaughterhouse Five by Kurt Vonnegut FLOORED ME. i still think about that book constantly its so phenomenally written and ive owned it for years and never got to it because i thought it would be boring but it was completely excellent.

favourite new author (debut or new to you)?

Susan Sontag, David Foster Wallace and Toni Morrison. first time i read any of them was this year and what a waste of time to not have read them sooner.

newest fictional crush?

its jaime. ig he's from last year but yeah its jaime.

newest favourite character?

uhhhh jaime. jaime lannister. i am not better than this.

a book that made you cry?

My Brilliant Friend by Elena Ferrante. It's a reread but jesus christ that ending always gets to me, especially knowing what comes after.

a book that made you happy?

i cant seem to escape ASOS and AFFC, but genuinely my reading experience of asoiaf was unparalleled.

most beautiful book you've bought this year?

i went to the Libreria Lello (aka the world's most beautiful bookstore) and i got the most BEAUTIFL edition of Las intermitencias de la muerte by José Saramago.

what book(s) do you need to read before the end of the year?

i want to read Richard III by Shakespeare, A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens, En diciembre llegaban las brisas by Marvel Moreno and Beloved by Toni Morrisson. hopefully i'll get through them all

anyways do this if you want you are officially tagged bye

sorry i dont read new books if you have any recs im mega down

#mid year book freak out tag #mine #literature #lol

[goodfully]

mm alright finally finished reading cats cradle. i honestly wasnt very attentive while reading it.. it was hard to stay engaged with it, but i liked it tho! there were many parts i found funny and absurd, and there were lines that made me need to pause and put the book down a second. i havent watched oppenheimer, but i imagine itd be fitting to watch it now after reading this maybe hahaha

ive not really said that much of my thoughts on religion here before i think, but cats cradle did have a lot of commentary on it that i want to talk about. to me... i feel like i both do and do not believe in god(s), but regardless of whether i personally believe they exist (i dont think i actually want to know the answer tbh), i think that having belief in god(s) is important, maybe even necessary, to humanity. anyway, i know that bokononism is making jabs at religion (somehow bokononism represents many world religions, while also being their very opposite?), but its definitely an interesting religion.. openly based on (harmless) lies in order to live well. i keep thinking about this line: "the heartbreaking necessity of lying about reality, and the heartbreaking impossibility of lying about it."

anyway... maybe ive just completely missed the point that vonnegut was trying to make. admittedly, ive not read much from him and i dont know anything about him either. is he a nihilist? ive only briefly googled that up, and i see ppl saying he is? and that this book is anti-religion? i kinda want to talk to someone who knows more about this than i do bc i feel like i got the complete opposite message. i could be stupid hahaha

im not saying that bokononism is perfect or that im anti-science, theres definitely a lot of issues with religion and i dont think all science is dead and loveless. but what i got out of the book... honestly i think its life sustaining and life affirming to believe in something, to believe in the divine and have something to live by. that the pursuit of objective, scientific truth will lead to nihilism and destruction. my interpretation of this book is for us to overcome nihilism, that we really will go crazy if we rather insist that there is no cat and no cradle in the Xs of string, even if we know that truthfully there is no cat and no cradle. anyway, altho i didnt enjoy reading it that much, i love thoughts on science and religion!!! (..as someone not even studying anything related to the stem field and has never been religious hahaha) so i am glad i did read it hahaha

#finished reading #cats cradle

[straycatboogie]

2023/07/06 English

BGM: Cornelius - 無常の世界

TBH recently I have not used Twitter so frequently. But don't worry about this. Nothing had happened to me as troubles. I just have nothing to share in public nowadays, and stopped for a while. One of the reasons I use that kind of social media is that I want to enjoy chitchatting (we Japanese call this kind of conversation as "kuudan", which can be translated as "empty talk"). Just like wounded animals lick each other... But I can see that I can enjoy that chitchat on Discord etc, and also I can find that my REAL relationship/connection has been becoming richer enough. So now I don't feel that Twitter's atmosphere is so friendly (Indeed, my friends are so aggressive for me to enable that controversial mood). If I say something foolish, they will punish me... so I can't even say my taste of music easily. I need not to speak something frankly. But I also can't stay still with thinking like Haruki Murakami who says "Let's quit social media, and read Dickens!". TBH I registered Threads... but I can't see what I should post there so have done nothing. Should I post how my reading of Sartre "Nausea" is going on?

Today was a day off for me. This morning I had an online meeting of English conversation. We enjoyed chatting in English. We made various examples by using the phrase "catch up with". I made "I can't understand recent music so wanna catch up with young people". And I learned from other people's talking that they try to improve their English by various ways. For example, they use an app Tandem, etc. Their attitudes are really positive, and keep on doing efforts to move forward steadily "to catch up with other members". I have to follow them. I shouldn't be stop learning. Practice makes perfect... I say this "uncool" but "important" quote to myself again. I can't speak English fluently at once. Believing the possibility/potentiality in me, and enjoying every growth I can have made... I need to take time to move on forward step by step.

This afternoon I went to the library and borrowed Ryuichi Sakamoto's new book "How many more times will you watch the full moon rise?". Reading it with the Goldmund's music after taking a nap, I found that I should treat him as a tough, strong, and also tender person. I need to follow him because he has a really great vitality (This might sound like Nietzsche, but I find that he has a certain "will to live"). Indeed, he showed in this book how he had been shocked by the news of the cancer he had gotten. But this book also tells that he was basically a man with a creative mind/will. He kept on positive attitude and moved so actively. Living the life he had been given, and also enjoying fully to the end... I thought I need to follow this person as a pioneer of mine. And also I thought about a memoir about me I had thought I should write (but I had been busy recently so couldn't write anything actually). I remember... when I was a college student, other people wrote "Kedamono (this is a Japanese word which says "beast")" on my body with permanent marker (I guess). Yes, a silly graffiti... I want to write this as an episode. I need to write steadily!

This evening I had thought that I would have an online meeting on Thursdays. But after having dinner, I slept unconsciously so couldn't enjoy it. C'est la vie. I tried to read Sartre's "Nausea" or Kurt Vonnegut's short stories but couldn't enjoyed them too. I spent my time lazily. Suddenly, I wanted to enjoy Cornelius's new album "夢中夢" so tried it. TBH I have never tried that album because I had felt that his albums are not friendly to the amateurs like me (but I like his "Fantasma"). His albums have been too cool for me to enjoy as easy listening.. But I find that "夢中夢" has really profound sound so lets me quiet. I remember this (this is just my opinion). Once when I watched/read the comments for him about the school bullying he had committed, I thought that "Indeed, bullying should be prohibited but this kind of atmosphere which enables him being blamed so terribly like this must be bad for me, at least". Yes, this can sound too roughly but it seems Cornelius started making his albums again like this after that bashing. His attitude is also positive. The people I had met in this morning's meeting, Ryuichi Sakamoto, and Cornelius. They are all positive, therefore I want to follow them!

#diary #english #journal #personal diary #tumblr diary #online diary

[foolishfalls]

ask 6, 27, 28, 46 (no need to answer questions if you don't want to)

6. Do you prefer drawing or writing? 

Absolutely insanely hard question for me lol. Drawing was what I picked up first (been doing it somewhat consistently since I was about 3-4, until i stopped a few years ago) but I've been writing poetry since about middle school and since then have had a love for writing in general, even writing essays for school. I love them both for very different reasons. I see all of my creative hobbies as things that work together and feed into each other constantly. I think I prefer writing now as an actual task/thing to do because I feel more confident in it than I do my drawing skill since I'm so out of practice... But I miss drawing all the time and every time I sit down to do it I realize why and how much I still enjoy it. Like drawing will get me so happy I'll just start stimming openly on the spot which is hard for me to do, but writing has made that happen for me to. I take such joy in creative hobbies in general tbh. I guess I can't answer this, really LOL

27. What’s your favorite book? Or just one you’ve read a few times?

My stock answer for this is always Cat's Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut because he was one of my first favorite authors and it's the only novel I've ever manage to sit and read twice, lol. (I'm insanely bad at finishing books for someone who loves reading and writing so much, but I tend to prefer short fiction anyway)

28. How are you, really? 

All things considered, I'm doing better in the last few days than I have in weeks, I think. Or even maybe months. Maybe in the last year. I'm feeling decent today and recently but also it's hard as fuck out here. Things are always in flux at all times. The comedy is the sadness and the sadness is the terror and the terror is the wonder, you knowwww. and the terror and wonder are all the same.

46. What do you need when you’re sad?  

I tend to sit in my sadness and cry a lot when I feel it very heavily. I feel like I need to actively sit with it and be a part of it in order to ever move on from it. But I also can have a tendency to wallow in it too much so I have to be mindful of when it's time to distract myself or move on. I also like making playlists of sad songs because it's cathartic for me. I tend to revisit songs I used to find comfort in historically when I've been sad in the past

these were great questions thank you so much!!!

[onesoftinfestedsummer]

Hi!!! 👁👅👁

You dont have ti answer evrrything i picked the ones that seemed the most interesting to me

5,6,8,11,12,18,20

I'll answer everything because I like to talk about myself!! Thank u so much!!! <3

5. Do you have a favourite film soundtrack?

I believe it would be Wolfwalkers (or the entire Irish Folklore Trilogy tbh but I've watched Wolfwalkers the most recently so I remember it the most vividly), and an honorary mention to X-Men: First Class as well.

6. What does your dream home look like?

Okay so I'm not great at the whole, uh, creating my home space, so I probably wouldn't know how to make my home more homey, but I enjoy small and cosy living spaces (growing up in a 19th century tenement which had ceilings at the height of 4,2 meters gave me a fear of large spaces. Humans aren't meant to live like this, Jesus Christ). When I was staying on my university's research vessel for a few days I fell in love with its cabins - it had bunk beds except every bed had a curtain so you could close yourself off from the rest of the world in this coffin-like space, and there was a tiny lamp inside so you could read a book in there or something, and honestly I would like a teeny tiny space like this in my home.

8. What are your top three films/books?

I'm going to talk about books because as you know I'm not a big cinematography kind of person. I have no idea as to in which order I would put these books on the podium, but the top three would be: "The Left Hand of Darkness" by Ursula K. Le Guin, "The Plague" by Albert Camus, and "Slaughterhouse Five" by Kurt Vonnegut.

11. What character archetype or trope is your favourite?

Ooh okay so I do like the trope of like. A redemption arc presenting itself in front of the character, and the character going "lol nope ✌️" and actively deciding to refuse the chance for self-improvement. Especially if this decision is really well motivated. (looking at you, brick-verse Inspector Javert)

As for character archetypes, this is very basic, but I've always enjoyed the 19th century tragic romantic archetype. I'm a bit better now, but in middle school my emo phase manifested primarily in me reading ungodly amounts of romanticism-era literature and going "he's just like me fr <3".

12. Do you prefer baking or cooking?

Well, I don't really enjoy either of those, but I prefer cooking if only because I need to cook for myself regularly to like, not die, and I pretty much never bake for myself.

18. Chai tea or hot chocolate?

Chai tea ☕ because to me hot chocolate is nice for the first few sips but then it gets much too sweet much too quickly.

20. If you were to cultivate a fruit orchard, what would you grow?

Plums and apples :>

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

HEY DEAN/JO: who’s messier, who PDA’s more (and who’s embarrassed by it), who’s funnier drunk, who’s on their phone more, who’s music taste is more embarrassing, who reads more, who’s always fixing things around the house, who cooks and who cleans up?

THIS IS THE BEST AAA OK

Who's messier?

That would have to be Jo. Dean is very tidy. He doesn't know until she moves in with him and he's like

(Not literally, if he called her a bitch he would be dead. But you get the point.)

But really he's the one that's like "Is it really so hard to put your clothes in the hamper? It's right there."

Who PDA's more?

Dean, 100%

Kissing her, of course

Touching her. Not like groping her in public lmao but one of his hands might wander to her waist, her back pocket, or the inside of her leg when they're sitting in a booth together

Whispering in her ear

Who's more embarrassed by it?

Jo for sure. She smiles with a slight blush and pushes him away when he kisses her or touches her in public

But she turns RED when he whispers in her ear (which has more to do with what he says than the fact that they're in public, BUT IT DOESN'T HELP)

Who's funnier drunk?

THAT'S SUCH A GOOD QUESTION

After typing these out... I've decided my answer is I don't know but here's both anyway

When Jo is drunk, everything is funny. She's just having a good time. She's just silly and fun. Dancing. So much dancing. Dean doesn't even need to drink to have fun at that point, it's just a joy to watch her

When Dean is drunk (the fun kind of drunk, anyway, not the "I hate myself" drunk) he's like. The Party Drunk. He's LOUD and he plays (and starts) drinking games and he's impulsive and a liability tbh he'll be like "WHO WANTS TO SEE ME JUMP OFF THE ROOF INTO THE POOL" (Jo follows him closely though just so he doesn't kill himself lmao)

If they're both drunk? Somebody needs to keep an eye on them or they're going to end up with a tattoo or in the emergency room

Who's on their phone more?

Well, when it comes to phones, Dean is... a little bit of an old man. He knows how to use everything, but he doesn't use social media at all, so Jo is definitely on her phone more. She has an instagram and it's pictures she takes on their road trips and pictures of them and pictures she takes of him when he's not looking (they're pretty though. Sometimes they're funny. Sam follows her and likes all her posts, but he doesn't tell Dean, especially about the funny ones.)

Who's music taste is more embarrassing?

Depends on who you ask. Dean would say Jo's is more embarrassing because she likes top 40 (a lot of classic top 40 though, but modern stuff too)

Jo would call him a hypocrite cause he has Taylor Swift on his playlist and it's basically like

Who reads more?

OOOH

Jo reads more but Dean reads too!! My boy is not stupid he reads!!! He's read Vonnegut and Aesop damnit!!

Anyway yeah. She brings books on road trips because they can be reeeally long sometimes.

Sometimes 🥺🥺 they read in bed together 🥺🥺

Who's always fixing things around the house?

Dean!!! He loves fixing things!!!

Who cooks and who cleans up?

Dean LOVES to cook so he does mostly!!

Jo washes the dishes and Dean dries 🥺🥺🥺

#i did it... i loved these so much but it took me awhile LMAO #thank you for these bless you #these are my fave probably #the last couple were really short because it's almost 6 and I'm losing steam lmao #dean x jo #chestervelle #long post #answered #drunk headcanons #PDA headcanons #chestervelle headcanons

[joecial-distancing]

2019 in review in review:

A few years ago I started tracking yearly goals, books read, movies watched etc in a year, along with overview blurbs, in private posts. End of 2019/beginning of 2020 I was really frazzled/burned out about a lot of stuff and just never finished up making the thing. 8 months later, got the urge to read back what I’d got done, then figured I’d maybe go ahead and see about finishing. 

Media tracking below the break. thoughts/blurbs written in 2020 italicized, 2019 not.

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Didn’t do so hot on explicit personal goals, but had a lot of stuff go ok around them this year.

School’s been fine/better than fine.

Job’s probably the biggest failing. Still with same job, haven’t made the firm moves to jump off, dragging my feet too much on exploring stuff w/ Columbia/NASA GISS.

Did not get better with covid, lol

Dating life still non-existent, but I’ve registered on apps, gotten more comfortable with selfies, improved general social life dramatically, been flirted with, updated my wardrobe, and generally started to get comfortable accepting that I’m a hot person.

Somehow got extremely better during covid.

Books

Grant (finished)

We stan a taurus legend

Guy was good at exactly one job, and was fortunate enough to have been in the right place/right time to get to do it.

Mort (discworld)

Definitely best discworld I’ve gotten to so far.

Don Quixote p. II

Really entertaining in a way that part 1 wasn’t; I was shocked how much the meta element landed for me.

Consider the Lobster (DFW collection)

had zero context on who DFW is/was when I read, and still don’t exactly tbh. Wanted to wait for a pause in The Discourse before diving into more of him, but dunno if I’m ever going to get that.

Crime and Punishment (revisited)

Weirdly didn’t get much more out of this than I did the first time I’d read it

Better Than Sex (HST Gonzo papers)

Xerox/widespread fax accessibility opening citizen access to mass media in a manner really reminiscent of what social media would go on to do at a much larger scale. Has a much more deliberate narrative arc than the other gonzo papers collections, also has that excellent HST richard nixon eulogy

The Brothers Karamazov

SPQR

Slouching Towards Bethlehem (Didion collection)

Pet Sematary

Not my favorite King, but not bad

Sourcery (discworld)

still funny/charming, but Mort really made clear/reminded me how much the hapless sadsack Rincewind mold of protagonist wears on me after a while.

The Devil's Teeth

My Year of Rest and Relaxation

Liked it a lot more once I realized it was doing a Fear and Loathing thing.

Homage to Catalonia

This should be the Orwell that gets taught in schools. Make it a followup to All Quiet on the Western Front or something, jeez.

Lyndon Johnson I

Having now finished all of them, this one’s probably the least-interesting but sets up a bunch of important context that the others still then feel the need to retread.

The Razor's Edge

Recommended to me as a “white guy discovers eastern mysticism” book, but also is more interesting in its treatment of that than I’d expected (helps it was written in the 40s). 

Cat's Cradle

There’s a part in this where Vonnegut’s making fun of people who try to bond with strangers over being Hoosiers, and my dumbass immediate thought was “ooh, Vonnegut’s a hoosier? Me too!”

Lyndon Johnson II

Robert Caro felt compelled to apologize for spending so much words lionizing Coke Stevens, segregationist opponent to Johnson’s senate run. His goal was pretty clearly to show lbj’s lack of campaign charisma by contrast, definitely definitely overcommitted in his own narrativising.

Libra

I want to go back to this after reading some more De Lillo.

Gravity's Rainbow

This book absolutely kicked my ass

Overstuffed and referential in a specific way that really keeps me hooked in instead of put off. When I learn about some piece of cultural context that I retroactively recognize as being referenced in this, I want to go back and reread the entire thing.

From Caligari to Hitler

Kind of fails both as film criticism and cultural analysis, but absolutely made me want to run for the hills when considering current relationship between mainstream movies and demands of pop culture.

I took a class on Weimar cinema in undergrad that I now realize was probably biting pretty heavily from this and never once referenced it.

Movies

Venom

Movie itself is not as fun as the Tom Hardy hype coverage. PG13 was the absolute worst space to aim for, PG- or R- versions of this could have been a blast.

Harryhauser Argonauts

Was tripping when I put this on, and it was all kinds of fun.

2001: a Space Oddyssey

First time seeing this, all-time classic for a reason!

A Good American (the NSA doc)

Dr. Strangelove

Mel Brooks History of the World p. I

Not my favorite Brooks, best joke was at the beginning.

In Bruges

Had been a while since I saw a proper dark comedy.

Spiderverse

Fukkin awesome!

Visually great, and extremely better than usual superhero stuff for being aimed at PG instead of PG-13.

You Only Live Twice

Highlander (Revisited)

I watched The Old Guard on netflix recently and it mostly just made me wish I was watching Highlander instead, because at least Highlander knows exactly how goofy it is

Moonraker

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

Much like The Shining, I though this would have been 100% spoiled for me by cultural osmosis, but turns out it wasn’t, and even the scenes I had seen *totally landed* in-context still.

Kung Fu Hustle

Ichi the Killer

Really gross, really fun

Matrix Reloaded (watched thru highway scene) (Revisited)

The highway scene was not nearly as cool as I remembered it being.

John Wick 3*

Probably dumbest plot of all of them, best choreography. I like how every single fight had its own distinct flavor. “Knife museum fight” “horse fight” “halle berry dogs fight” 

Akira

A classic

Pet Sematary * (ugh, bad)

Why can’t john lithgow be in good movies anymore

The Revenant

MCU Spiderman

Fuck this was awful.

MCU Spiderman 2*

Really weird, complete Rorschach Test of a movie: it’d be totally valid to read into this that global warming is Fake News, for instance.

Lmao this was completely awful

Rites

Dredd (non-stallone)

oh hey Lena Headey’s in this

For All Mankind!

Watched in honor of moon landing anniversary

Lion King *

Watched it way too stoned, was like dark side of the moon + wizard of oz except instead it’s a lion king script reading + nature footage edited for lip syncing.

Once Upon a Time in Hollywood *

Many scenes of very long setups for really stupid shaggy dog jokes, which sometimes worked and sometimes didn’t. I do kinda want to rewatch now knowing more about manson, which I knew pretty much nothing about beforehand

Blowout

A good john lithgow movie

also I think I like travolta in things.

Lord of War

A Good cage movie

I like when Eamon Walker shows up in stuff.

Taxi Driver

A classic

Snowpiercer

Watched in a bar with only one speaker working, which is the correct way to watch. Weirder and funnier than I thought it was going to be, which still doesn’t make it good, but,

dbz big green dub

Exorcist III

Brad Dourif just tearing it apart

Deep Red (argento)

Suspiria (1977)

Watched the remake in 2020, which was ok, but nothing tops the Goblin score.

Elf Bowling

Thanks, Gnome

Parasite *

Interesting to me that this one seems poised to hang around people’s good esteem for a while

TV

FMA: B

Rick & Morty

Saw some episodes, generally pretty funny, some misanthropy that’s probably appealing to a certain type of teen al a something like House, but ultimately I don’t totally Get the intensity of discourse about it.

Leterkenny

Mob Psycho 100

One Punch Man

Deadwood

Watchmen

Only watched like half of it. Was playing around with a lot of hefty imagery/thematics, but didn’t really seem ready to rise above playing (tho also I feel like it’s weird on some level to *expect* them to rise above that in the first place)

Music

New Avantasia

HEALTH/ show

lol remember concerts

King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard/ show

Just learned about King Gizz in 2019 and got completely obsessed with them. I don’t tend to expand my music selection very readily, and a lot of what I currently *do* know is old/inactive stuff, so it was/is incredibly exciting to have an active group with good momentum just immediately win me over like that.

Mistimed the edibles and ended up with a really good finale and a really long subway ride home.

New Yeasayer

Sad they split up

Steve Wilson Tull remixes

Aqualung’s a good album and the sound mixing’s kinda bad, so I liked this project.

Stonefield

Opened for Gizzard. Really good as studying music

Video Games

Civ VI: Gathering Storm

Hades

Turns out Supergiant’s design proclivities all work *extremely well* on a roguelike

Baba is You

Untitled Goose Game

Cute, if maybe a bit overhyped

finally fucking finished Pillars of Eternity

Had fun with it, but too long, and really dour for how long it is.

Pillars II

Kinda drifted off it eventually, but I do genuinely like that the flavor of the fantasy is colonial era rather than medieval.

There’s a Balancing Bastard Factions element where it’s like the writers are just being smartasses after a while. Having to go extremely out of their way to make siding with colonizers seem like a competitive option.

Pokemon shield

Cuphead

pisses me off, which was a nice outlet when I was stranded by flight cancellations during thanksgiving

Celeste

Also very difficult, but really easy to stay patient with, which is nice.

Disco Elysium

None of the discourse made me want to play this, but people talking about the mechanical stuff it did got me extremely interested. Mostly Delivered IMO.

Breath of the Wild

You can approach the nodes of the main quest in the order you choose, and the second one I chose made ninjas start fucking spawning everywhere when I’m just trying to explore, and there’s no way to make it stop. May go back to it one day.

Podcasts

Relentless Picnic Patreon feed

The treats really helped me start distinguishing individual personalities, compared to the regular eps.

Picnic Discord!

<3

FatT Counterweight

Fun, but also I think Mechs are not my shit.

FatT Spring in Hieron/ end of that particular world

8 months since I’ve last tuned into FatT. ah well.

Law School

He’s in everythiiiing!

You Must Remember This: Manson family

*There’s* the context

Misc.

Kindle train guy

Times Square sleeping guy + kids taking selfies w/ him

toddler singing along after Psycho killer (a, ya, ya ya, ya)

drunk and dragged to a drag show

Central park football family

Soft Steel Drum Subway Busker

Weird old lady going to grand central for oysters

2018 in review (cards):

MySelf (CC)

Self: Tower

Blocked: 10 Cups

Ethereal/subconscious: 8 Swords

Material: 3 Swords

Past: Justice

Future: Page Wands

Attitude: Sun

External: King Swords

Hopes/Fears: 5 Coins

Trajectory: High Priestess

Also Self:

Hierophant

7 Cups

7 Coins

Blind Spot:

(self & others): 5 cups    ||    (others not self): High Priestess

(self not others): Moon   ||    (nobody): 3 Cups

[manndo]

Care to share some Rafael Barba headcanons? Do you ever dream of some crossover stuff?

okay, so first off, i want to apologize about not responding to this ask sooner! i wanted to take time to think about the ask before responding, and then i got busy with real life and forgot! so, my apologizes!! i did not mean to take this long. :(

soooo, i don’t have a ton of hcs about barba, tbh?? idk why, but here are few that i have that i’ve thought about (fyi, some of these focus on just barba, and some of them are with barba and a significant other).

— hasn’t dated much; yelina broke his heart a long time ago, and quite frankly, barba didn’t really recover from the betrayal (i’ve always believed that they did date and yelina cheated on him, most likely with alex, and didn’t just break up with him). since then, he really has just been a workaholic and focuses on that. doesn’t mean he hasn’t tried to have relationships, but they usually fade and fizzle out pretty quickly.

— obviously, he’s a workaholic, i think that is pretty much an established thing. he tends to work long hours, sometimes working till like one or two in the morning without even realizing he is doing it. when he gets a significant other who sticks around, they quickly realize why he works so hard – it isn’t because he wants to get farther in his job, but because he really does care, and he wants to help the victims get the justice they deserve, and put the bastards behind bars where they belong. but they also understand that he needs to slow down a bit; he’s getting older, he needs to start to take care of himself a little more, take some time to himself and for their relationship. it is a struggle at first, but slowly but surely, they get to a point where rafael isn’t always working

— doesn’t own any pets, but he does like the idea of a cat because they are very independent creatures. sure, he likes dogs, but they require more attention, which barba doesn’t have time for. though, he does not like the shedding that is involved with either animal because it is such a pain to get off his suits and ties.

—  if a significant other can break past the barriers he’s put up, they would find out he would be a big ass softy. like, he loves to stay in cuddle when he has time to. he prefers to be the big spoon, for sure. he is also big on touches; small brushes here and there, or maybe if they are on the couch and he’s working and his significant other is maybe reading or whatever, he’ll keep his free hand on their ankle or foot, or calf or over their hand that is resting on the couch. wherever he can touch, he’ll touch; he loves the skin to skin contact, it is kind of grounding for him. and though he prefers to stay in with some take out and a film (he prefers drama, maybe a few action films – and he does like rom coms, but he’d never admit that so he’ll always groan when his partner wants to watch one, but will secretly love it), or maybe a few episodes of some tv show, he still likes to go out, and treat his significant other to fancy dinners or expensive nights out every once in a while.

— a massive bookworm. mostly classics (he did quote vonnegut in that one episode), but he does sometimes dabble in newer fiction here and there. cause he is a workaholic, he doesn’t get to read as much as he wants, but he tries to find time here and there when he can. he probably prefers to reread some of his favorites, and those copies are def worn, and have dogeared pages, but it is clear that they are loved. also, if he has a free day or some downtime, he likes to go to an old bookstore and browse. he likes the smell of books, old and loved or brand spanking new.

— alert!! nsfw (kind of) ahead!! he’s probably a dom in the bedroom. i don’t se him as a ridiculously, overbearing dom, so to speak, but he’d definitely have some kinks and tendencies that would be considered dominate. barba definitely likes and prefers to have control. obviously, because of working in sex crimes, he is always super open and honest with his partners in the bedroom, and makes sure they’re okay with what he is doing before doing it. always wants to make sure he’s not doing anything that they are uncomfortable with or do not want. also, once he’s in a relationship for a significant amount of time, and begins to really trust the person, he would probably start to slowly relinquish control a bit, letting his partner maybe take the reins every once in a while, so to speak.

— as for crossovers, i never really thought of any?? like i don’t think i could cross it over with anything i like since everything is so different?? lol. but now i’m like imagining a young, college-aged barba in like the 80s in hawkins, indiana dealing with the upside down?? i mean, it is an interesting concept, but idk, i don’t think any of my fandoms really cross over so to speak. lol i mean, i guess you can make anything cross over with like harry potter, so maybe a barba in the wizarding world. perhaps he’d be like a professor or something?? i mean i also think about him becoming a professor of law after what went down in his last episode, so yea. idk. i’m always interested in professor!barba, in any capacity, if you know what i mean. 😏

so yea! that’s a few hcs (and crossovers) i have for barba. sorry if they got a bit out of hand?? i’m not good at short answers/responses to anything?? lol. hope this is what you were looking for!! again, sorry for the late response!! but also, thank you for the question!! ���️❤️

#anonymous #rafael barba #rafael barba x reader #rafael barba headcanons #rafael barba imagine #melissa speaks #asks #my writing #sort of?

[notsimplysusurrus]

Reading List for Antis

You all really need to understand that published fiction isn’t somehow more wholesome or unproblematique™️ than fan-written fiction. I offer this list both to widen your horizons and to help you understand that a) these books have all been published and b) society hasn’t suddenly decided that paedophilia, incest, rape, etc. are anywhere near okay in real life. Moreover, all of these books are either classics and/or bestsellers, meaning that they’re super mainstream and a lot of people have read them. So here it is:

The Perks of Being a Wallflower - Stephen Chbosky

The movie version of this is also soooo good and one of my favourites.

Tw: abuse, csa, homophobia-induced violence, suicide, mentions of sex and drug/alcohol use

Beloved - Toni Morrison 

This book is dense asf. An interesting read, but it’s...quite a lot.

Tw: violence, mentions of sex, mentions of rape, slavery, abuse, bestiality

Slaughterhouse-Five - Kurt Vonnegut 

Depressing as shit. Like, so damn depressing. But also very anti-war, which is a plus in my book.

Tw: descriptions and depictions of abuse, violence, war, the experience of a prisoner of war, mentions of sex

Flowers In the Attic - V. C. Andrews *

Have not read the book, but I have seen several film adaptations and liked them quite a lot.

Tw: incest--like major theme of the book incest, abuse, child abuse, depictions of sex and possible rape

Nineteen Eighty-Four - George Orwell 

I read this book for the first time when I was thirteen years old. Thirteen! I don’t think I was old enough then to appreciate it as a work of literature, but it’s not super uplifting, to say the least.

Tw: sex, violence, abuse, torture, mentions of or hints to suggest nonconsensual sexual activity 

The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood 

Love this book and the tv adaptation. Very politically relevant.

Tw: rape, violence, abuse, slavery, mentions and descriptions of both consensual sex and rape 

American Psycho - Bret Easton Ellis *

I have not read this book, and I honestly do not want to. I can say, however, that I’ve read passages of it which...I will never recover from. Incredibly disturbing.

Tw: extremely graphic depictions of violence, sexual violence, torture, rape, and abuse

Brave New World - Aldous Huxley

Tbh one of my favourite books.

Tw: violence, drug use, mentions and descriptions of sex and very open sexual practices, suicide, underage sex

Lord of the Flies - William Golding 

Got to be honest, I’ve never liked this book. It’s just...absurd to assume that ANY group of people put in this situation would act the way these rich, entitled, white boys did.

Tw: violence, abuse, child death

The Catcher in the Rye - J.D. Salinger 

I didn’t really like this book when I read it, either. Read it pretty young, so perhaps I just didn’t appreciate it enough, but it very much seems to me like a rich, young man complaining about problems he, himself, has caused.

Tw: lots of profanity, sex, drug and alcohol use

Fareinheit 451 - Ray Bradbury 

READ THIS. It is literally all about why censorship is bad and where it could take us in the future. SO good. Love it lots. 

Tw: violence, mentions of sexual violence, suicide

Ender’s Game - Orson Scott Card

Love, love, love! A great read. Highly recommended. As for tws, it’s important to remember that the characters in this book are literal, actual children. All of them, like under-13 children. Important to keep in mind when you’re skimming through my list of tws. Regardless, it’s such a good book.

Tw: graphic depictions of violence and child abuse, bullying, sexual innuendos and lots of mentions of child nudity, profanity 

Z for Zachariah - Robert C. O’Brien

Read this book when I was about thirteen, and I liked it a lot. Very interesting plotline and world-building. 

Tw: violence, attempted rape of a minor and generally creepy behaviour towards the aforementioned minor that may be classifiable as grooming

This is all that comes to my mind just this moment, but I may make subsequent lists in the future (like with movies because that’d be fun!) 

Please take notice of how none of these come with irl trigger warnings. If you were to pick this up in your nearest book store, you’d have no idea. Fanwork authors are DOING YOU A FAVOUR by adding warnings to their works. Never forget that.

I have read the vast majority of the books on this list (and marked those which I have not read with asterisks). None of them have incited me to any behaviour even remotely similar to that which I mentioned in the trigger warnings. Published fiction is just as “problematic” as fanfiction, but censorship is still a net bad for society. 

Don’t like it? Don’t read it. 

#mod Fiver #original #reading list #pro writer freedom #long post

[eatingfireflies]

Fanfic ask game: A for Cat's Cradle, F, P, W and Z?

Yay thanks for the ask! :D For some reason I can’t make cuts so #long post #text heavy and I hope people’s filters pick those out

A: How did you come up with the title to Cat’s Cradle?

Firstly, there are two very good works with that title that I know of: Vonnegut’s novel and pengychan’s fic (which has a really good and probably my fave portrayal of Kubota). I wasn’t necessarily thinking of them when I wrote this fic, but there’s something about the game (it’s called ayatori in Japanese) that I guess resonates with us?

In my fic, Junpei likened Kubota’s emotions to the Gordian knot. The title of the chapters is part of the extended metaphor (as in ‘The knot unravels’ and ‘The tangled web’ for chapters 2 and 3). There’s a lot of strings there and I just went with that when I had to choose a title for the whole thing.

There’s also how when you try to make shapes while playing ayatori and have it all fail, you can get your hand ‘caught’  by the strings. Which is kind of like what happened to Junpei.

Lmao I don’t like talking about/explaining my fics because I feel people would be all ‘I didn’t see that at all and now my interpretation is ruined’ or ‘you’re so pretentious lol’ but here we are! :’D

F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

Oh wow this got really long? So I’m gonna put this under a cut! Well looks like cuts don’t work for me now. Wtf is happening. 

This if from New Year’s Eve Bell, a fic I wrote for 365: A Soukoku Zine.

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‘A promise is a promise.’ Dazai cheated, as Chuuya said. He doesn’t like taking chances, not when it matters, and has rigged the machine in the arcade before making a bet with Chuuya. ‘You said you'll be my dog.’

‘Never said that.’ Chuuya snorts, but even in the dim moonlight Dazai can see his face has turned pink. ‘You don't even like dogs.’

‘Fair.’ Dazai looks away from Chuuya, fixing his eyes on the temple bell as if it will start ringing if he stares hard enough. ‘Will you come with me?’

Chuuya breathes in sharply; any other time Dazai would have turned to look at him. But now Dazai finds he can't and has to satisfy himself with imagining the expression on Chuuya's face, surprise mingled with suspicion as he narrows his eyes at Dazai.

‘I'm not your dog.’

Dazai forces a soft laugh. ‘I know. That's why I'm asking.’

‘You'd really go so far just to fuck with the Mafia?’

In Mori's dreams Dazai will come back and become the Mafia's Boss. That’s not going to happen and the Mafia already has a perfectly capable second-in-command who can step into Mori's shoes once the old man pops his clogs.

It would be a shame if that second-in-command absconds with Dazai.

‘That's an added bonus, yes,’ says Dazai.

‘Oh?’ says Chuuya. ‘What's in it for me, then?’

‘Front row seat to my death bed.’ Dazai shrugs. ‘You'd want to make sure, wouldn't you? If I've really died. You can't just trust rumours.’

Dazai finally turns to look at Chuuya. For a moment they look at each other, until Chuuya breaks eye contact and laughs.

-

There are so many good Dazai/Chuuya fics in that zine and I’m probably the one person who went with a more gen interpretation (I didn’t tag the fic as Dazai/Chuuya so much as Dazai & Chuuya because I didn’t think it was shippy enough), but I love that convo because it allows the two of them just enough space to admit they are willing to keep each other company in their old age without admitting to their real feelings. I think it fits them.

When my roommate was all ‘that sounds like them’ I was very happy.

P: Are you what George R. R. Martin would call an “architect” or a “gardener”? (How much do you plan in advance, versus letting the story unfold as you go?)

It depends on what people mean when they say planning. I’m the type of person who doesn’t like sitting down to write until I know how I start and how I end--something which surprised one of my writing professors because he’s the gardener type and doesn’t necessarily know where the story is going. But me, I like knowing point A and point B. Writing is usually just me trying to get there. That’s what I did for Kissing Santa: I knew what I needed and how it would end, I just had to reach that point. I didn’t plan on how to get there, though.

For fics like Dry-cleaning services, I had bullet points of themes I wanted to address and that’s probably one of the most ‘planned’ fics I’ve ever written. It’s still not planned, though.

My collab with @greaseonmymouth​​​  Hope & Legacy, was also planned. Which makes sense because there were two of us writing the thing and we needed to know where to go and if it could be done within our time limit.

W: Do you like more general prompts, or more specific ones?

Either works for me! The thing is, no matter how specific the prompt I still might not follow the thing so :”D I’m very bad with interpreting prompts tbh.

Z: Major character death–do you ever write/read it? Is there a character whose death you can’t tolerate?

I might not write major character death unless I have to. You know how when people ask if you really need to write the word ‘fuck’ in your work? That’s me with major character death. (I don’t care if the whole story is peppered with fucks.) It has to have a purpose other than to shock or wring out some easy tears from the reader. L’s death in Death Note is one of the inevitable deaths that I think is handled well. Kaworu’s death(s) in NGE is also good. The deaths in Harry Potter are not that great (especially I think compared to how the deaths were handled in say, Lloyd Alexander’s Prydain series).

In fic it depends on how the writer handles the subject. I’m not opposed to it, but like I said before, it needs to mean something for me.

A permanently dead Kurashiki Akane will probably make me not read the fic.

#d talks #meme thing #long post #thanks for the ask!!! #chessanator #tfw you need to edit via html and hope for the best #okay so coding is being weird for me #so i'm going to try and make this post as avoidable and/or readable as possible #at least visually #text heavy

[rdmptnn]

TAG 8 PEOPLE YOU’D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER!

( repost, don’t reblog. )

tagged by: @devilglow ( a darlingg ! thank you ~ )  tagging: @boymartyred , @llvgd , @vaillance , @lunecharm , @anguisa , @solcharm , @championmourned , @toujoursfleure , @reignpure , @ofrhapsodes , @mournedhim + whoever else ~

ONE ( NAME / ALIAS ): storm / ari. 

TWO ( BIRTHDAY ): july 6

THREE ( ZODIAC SIGN ): cancer

FOUR ( HEIGHT ): 5′1

FIVE ( HOBBIES ): gym, binge tv shows, politics, rp, hmmmm i need more hobbies. since i’m no longer a student, more hobbies needed. maybe basket weaving ? ha! yeah right.

SIX ( FAVOURITE COLOUR(S) ): neutrals. pink. turquoise. 

SEVEN ( FAVOURITE BOOKS ): i’m more of a short story type. reading college texts books took the thrill from reading books tbh, i’ve got commitment issues with that. i’ll take recommendations tho for summer reading! any how, kurt vonnegut, shirley jackson, toni morrison, kate chopin, etc. the art of the short story by dana gioia has been my best friend. 52 different writers and their literary techniques and suggestions in writing, i DIE. yes. that’s my kind of jam. 

EIGHT ( LAST SONG LISTENED TO: ): solo de mi - bad bunny. 

NINE ( LAST FILM WATCHED ): into the spiderverse ! ( this was actually the last one i saw too cath !!! lol ) 

TEN ( INSPIRATION FOR MUSE ): aesthetics, poems, researching him, pinterest, music, etc. 

ELEVEN ( DREAM JOB ): school counselor, i do it already. yay !

TWELVE ( MEANING BEHIND YOUR URL ): i stand by the notion that our boy had no choice, wasn’t given much of a choice. it was either, kill dumble.dore or you and your fam die. it wasn’t like he could ask ha.rry or anyone else on the opposing side for support, they wouldn’t have believed him. so, no choice. 

#∫◊`; storm rumbles / ooc. #i talk too much and i love my spanish music so. *shrugs* #casually uses a tifa icon bc why not.

[selfdcstructed-archive]

♧ Any part of their canon portrayal you dislike?

mun’s interpretation

we don’t have that much space or that many words. ( but let me say, i still love the show, and i will never put any writers down for their characterization choices. however, after so long writing a character you begin to claim them as your own and find your discrepancies and make choices to change things. this will vary from person to person and i do not ever��claim that my interpretation is the best or only way - thx. ) 

anyway. i have a few that i tend to stray away from in my interpretation. let’s hit some main ones.

1) in the earlier seasons, probably season one and two - heavier in one than two - dean does consider himself daddy’s little soldier basically. does what he can to be some type of copy of his father in order to fulfill what his father had planned out for him. in those seasons it was so much about what john wanted that dean couldn’t see himself past that. this i do agree on, but i think after that they’re still replying on it a lot and using it against dean, but i think he starts coming into his own fairly early. learning that he’s more than just this soldier that john trained to keep his brother safe ( though, we all know that last part will literally never change ). and as we move into the later seasons, dean is 100% his own man. yes he drives his father’s car, and yes he still listens to his father’s music, but he’s found out that he just enjoys those things on his own as well. that it’s not just about emulating his father any longer. and i do think once he realized that it changed the way he viewed himself as well.

2) we don’t get to see the longer lasting effects that being in hell and torturing had on dean. it’s such a short-lived thing honestly, and i feel like it’s just something that would be affecting him til this day. even on top of everything else he’s been through i do think that hell would hold the most power over him. i do think he would still have nightmares, flashbacks, panic attacks, etc over it. and i do write my dean that way because i think it’s such an important part of who he is that it needs to be touched on and worked into the story more.

3) demon dean. we just. no. i don’t care much for canon version at all. i started writing my demon verse not too long after i began writing dean. and it’s always just been dean pulling at the darkest parts of him, pulling on those emotions he held while he was in hell. the way he got so good at torturing that he began to enjoy it. and i use those to put into my demon. and yeah, canon had a glimpse of that, but he was more fan service and fun and dumb than anything. i just like the pure darkness being put forth by becoming a demon. plus, the arc was too short. michael is more leaning toward how i portray my demon tbh. canon demon is fun, i just like taking it to more of a dark place.

4) the dumbing down of dean. the show likes to pull these things out of dean’s ass sometimes like the fact that he knows vonnegut and specific vonnegut books so it’s obvious that he reads. but then they try to make us think that dean is just dumb and can’t use a vending machine or something stupid like that ( not something that happened i don’t think, but a simple task as a point ). dean can literally rebuild his entire car. the whole thing. he is not stupid and he shouldn’t be used as a side laugh and put up like he can’t do a simple task for the sake of a laugh.

#i have like one more #but this is already long #tbh i have a lot more but #shhhhhhhhh #long post #entraum