#i miss my mommy

[hanilecter]

me when the 9 seconds long succession teaser doesn't have even a glimpse of gerri in it

#succession #i miss my mommy #gerri kellman #succession hbo

[tcfkag]

2024 and the Return of the To-Done List

So, after a year during which (a) our daughter ran full-speed (literally) into the trying two's, (b) I had multi-focal pneumonia that resulted in a week or two in the hospital (including a brief sojourn in the ICU), (c) I had bizarre, seemingly inexplicable seizures for the first time ever [which meant I couldn't drive for six months...right after we moved to a semi-"rural" town...for the northeast that is], (d) had an acute kidney injury, (e) had several bouts of unexplained pitting edema in my legs, (f) started a new job that I actually really like, even if there is a steep learning curve, and (g) lost my Mom after a long battle with mild to moderate dementia/Alzheimer's that then dropped off a cliff into end-stage dementia in less than six months (depending on how you count it), and (h) just generally felt like I was never managing my physical or mental health as well as I could or should be, I'm going to try to make some changes. These aren't resolutions because I truly think that New Year's resolutions just set you up to fail. Instead, I'd call them goals. Or, at least, hope that I want to support with action as much as I can. While still giving myself grace knowing that I can and probably will mess up along the way. But, the first step is that I'm going to try to bring back a kind of journaling-like activity (since I suck at journaling) that my old therapist recommended when I was feeling like this before. Each day I make a list, generally on Tumblr for at least a tiny modicum of peer pressure, and I just make a list of everything I've done that day. No matter how big or how small. As she put it "make it your base assumption that each day, you will do absolutely nothing, so you get credit for everything, even things as simple as showering. I frequently restart these lists when my depression and anxiety have gotten bad enough that I know I'm not taking care of myself, mentally and physically, so a big part of my goals are (a) to move more [in whatever form that takes], (b) eating healthier, and (c) to take care of several medical/dental appointments that I've been putting off for way too long. The beauty of the list is that, a lot of the time, I ended up doing stuff BECAUSE of the list. So that I won't be staring at an empty page as I try to make my list each year.

Things I'm proud of today...so far:

when we took Peanut to the trampoline park to burn off some of her "no daycare today suckers" energy and this time, I bought a jump pass for myself. I only made it ~30 minutes but it was a great work-out. 10/10 would recommend.

I took the dogs for the "long" trail walk out to the back of our property,

I did a core and flexibility routine this morning,

I decided to take one for the team and point out to my Uncle that the nostalgia he feels about Aunt Jemimah as a syrup mascot isn't as important as the company making money off the likeness of a woman who died 100 years ago who was used as a stand in for the generic idea of what an enslaved (or recently freed) Black woman did or should do, and (finally)

this one is a few days late, but not only did we drive 12+ hours to visit my in-laws for Christmas, but we also stopped in NJ in both directions to pick up Monotasker's Aunt who is 80-years-old, hard of hearing, and in the early stages of dementia or Alzheimer's and I didn't even lose my shit at a single person...even the ones who deserved it.

Happy New Years everyone!

"May the best of your todays be the worst of your tomorrows." (Jason Mraz) And even if the worst of your todays are the best of your tomorrows, I hope you can still find your way out and through by the light of the moon to guide you.

#TCFKAG #Things I'm Proud Of Today #depression #spoonies #To-Done List #chronic illness #chronic pain #just generally an exhausted 40-year-old mother to a quite lovely but at times trying two year old #who - i might add - might have sprained her ankle at the trampoline park #oh dear #i miss my mommy #2024 #Hopefully not a second verse that's same as the first

[sasster]

BIGGEST SIGH

#i miss my mom #send tweet #that's all #i spent the anniversary of her passing being stressed about other things #so now i feel like i neglected her #and its not helping that theres still 700 other things wrong with me #i need to be put down or something hdosjslam #9 years is a really long time #i miss my mommy

[st4r-cr0ssed-l0v3r]

Day 7 of my trip and everyone is loosing their shit, mentally and physically

Some girl lost her passport her ass is not going home🙏

#but seriously im ready to go home #i miss my mommy #and my girlfriend #i miss my girlfriend #a lot #fyp #fypage #fyppage #fypシ #romeo rambles #fypfypfypfypfypfypdypfypfypfypfypfypfyfpfyfpfyp #romeo yaps #fypシ゚viral #fypツ

[reidslovely]

no one warned me that barbie was going to destroy my mommy issues and change how i think of every part of my life.

#because ow?? #i miss my mommy #i’m nearing 23 years old and still put my value of self in the hands of others without realizing

[ilikequarters]

need a new mommy??? i can be better than yours!

no no no no no no no! i love my mommy

#mari is p’s babie :3 #i love my mommy #i need my mommy #i miss my mommy

[illbuyyouarose]

Craving some parallel play

#nobody warned me college was gonna be this lonely #parallel play #i miss my mommy #and I’m #on my period #illbuyyouarose

[an-american-in-norway]

Whenever my mom sends me packages she writes little notes on everything and they will forever be my favorite part. Why is this tea open? There's a post it note inside about how she tried it but worried it was staining her teeth so she's sending it to me instead. I keep every letter she sends. Usually it's just an update on how her day is going and what she did, mundane stuff. It's everything I miss by being so far from her and seeing her familiar handwriting that I've admired since I was a kid and reading that she went to Target makes me feel just that much closer to her.

#I miss my mommy #my words

[c0wboylik3m3]

Dorm- 01/06/24

I moved into my dorm today and it is 10pm and i'm sitting on my couch in my childhood home playing mario kart with my family cause I couldn't stop crying cause I had so much anxiety (I also had a tummy ache, also from anxiety). luckily I live 35 minutes from my dorm and my first class is on monday. I will, unfortunately, have to go tomorrow so I have a bit of a tummy ache about that but I don't have to leave my dorm cause my class is online. I think that this last day at home as helped a lot and I'm less anxious, there's also the fact that I will be home in 3-4 days (wednesday or thursday) since all but 2 of my classes are online- the wonder life of a baking & pastry arts student, all but my lab days are online. there was also the fact that I got my room changed last minute cause I wasn't with my original rommies that was sent via email like 2 weeks ago! they gave us the others emails so we can start connecting and they changed it! I don't do well with change (and moving houses was already SUCH a big change) that it completely threw me off. its a good thing that their just down the hall from me.

I was (and still slightly am) so embarrassed about coming home after move in day cause no one was going home and I am 19, I should be able to stay on my own. I think I have separation anxiety from my parents, Even as a child I was terrified to stay on my own. I was like 10 and I had a sleepover at my grandma's house and I had to go home at like midnight because I was just crying and homesick so much. and when I did Girl Guides I also had to be picked up cause I just wouldn't stop crying. Maybe I should see a therapist, this can't be healthy.

anywho, I hate being an adult. this shit is scary

#college life #college student #anxitey #i was literally sobbing in the middle of the grocery store #I decorated my dorm is so cute and I love it but I am terrorfied #i miss my mommy #and my cats #I should see a therapist

[tcfkag]

I officially have a problem....

A clip-on earring problem! I can't stop buying them, especially since I've found a brand that has these really great clips that look so much like "real" pierced earrings and they have some really fantastic statement earrings. I have to figure out where I can buy the clips on their own because I just inherited my Mom's *extensive* jewelry collection (I come by my jewelry magpie tendencies AND my taste in jewelry honestly). But, I picked out a few earrings tonight that I know will go well with a few of Mom's necklaces that I especially love so I can start wearing them together now.

#I miss my Mommy #But I'm finding that when I'm wearing a piece of her jewelry #I think about the story of how she got it #Or times I remember her wearing it #Or I remember giving it to her as a present - especially around her birthday which was right after the Gem and Mineral Club's annual show #And I appreciate being able to bring those positive memories to the forefront #Just by wearing a necklace #Especially because I'm really dreading Christmas #Both because its our first Christmas without her #But also because I'm spending it with my in-laws - which means I'll just be spending the entire holiday chasing after a toddler #I know my in-laws will understand though #If I'm not exactly in the most festive spirit

[tassybts]

Appreciation post for 18 year old tasneem who recorded her mother's voice reciting and now 23 year old tasneem can listen to it and know she'll never forget how her mother's voice sounds.

#i miss my mommy #im ugly crying #i can't sleep

[cupophrogs]

Please tell me Drew has given CatNap the finger, or some other sort of insult. (That might've almost ended in death.) Shame the last thing he sees won't be Drew's fabulous Minecraft Creeper (Aw man.) boxers. Ú-Ù

Absolutely.

“I think I took a few years off my life, I laughed so hard! Ah… stuff’s funny as hell, I’ll tell you what.”

#Drew is a sucker for unorthodox insults and threats #he totally called Miss Delight a ‘broom-headed banana-bitch’ while running from her #Mommy was ‘Arcade Sticky Hand headass’ #(he definitely hasn’t threatened to shove concrete down someone’s throat when he was stressed totally not) #(it was Ollie LMAOAOAOA) #‘Ollie I stg if you don’t quick backseating I will shove this phone so far up my ass that you’ll hear my food digesting’ #Drew does not trust that kid ONE. BIT. #gotta be the prototype ong #THAT MOTHER FUCKER IS NOT REAL #ask the three d’s #the three d’s #drew poppy playtime #catnap poppy playtime #catnap #poppy playtime #poppy playtime chapter 3 #poppy playtime fanart #phrart #art #ask phrog

[zelda-without-a-licence-plate]

I've been stressed lately so here have some angsty sidon sketches. I can't believe there isn't more Sidon's dead mom angst out there it's like nintendo just waved a magic wand and said "sidon and mipha do not have a mom she is never seen or mentioned she is not relevant she never existed dorephan simply willed them both into existence with the power of his mind and no one will ever wonder where their mom is or what happened to her you will never wonder" and then it just... worked LMFAO

#mod car #drew sidon way too small in the last one oh well idc #art #my art #botw link #prince sidon #sidlink #i guess #sidon is like is anyone else going to project their mommy issues and lack of feminine comfort in their life onto link #no? okay i'll just go ahead and do that then #and links like bro..... get it together please #Link: yeah i miss your mom too #SDFSDFGSDFGF #sorry lol #loz breath of the wild

[asmorule34]

diavolo staring down mammon after he overheard him saying “i’m glad the queen’s old ass is dead” (thinking mammon was referring to his mom) :

#diavolo w 29 variations of the incurable explosive nuclear diarrhea curse behind his back : 👁👁 #obey me #i feel like i should clarify that this is abt former queen lizzykins. #obey me shall we date #obey me! #obey me mammon #obey me diavolo #obey me lucifer #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me barbatos #obey me solomon #obey me luke #obey me simeon #did my precious followers miss me? well fear no longer my kittens. daddy’s home #yes i spam tagged #WAAAAA WAAAAAAA WAAAAA cry to ur mommy about it why dont u #unless ur diavolo 💀💀💀

[ilikequarters]

it is definitely SO bad when she asks for space.. i’m such a stupid idiot i can’t do anything right.

#i miss my mommy #i’m so stupid #m stupid and selfish i should die #stupid venting and being selfish n all! #i should stop ruining everything #i should just die.

[illbuyyouarose]

“I will keep doing all I can do. I will keep wishing because wishes come true.”- Barbra Millicent Roberts

#dude college is so hard #I miss my mommy #Barbie #Barbie: A perfect Christmas #illbuyyouarose