Yeah, so tumblr is speaking to me again, apparently because life is quiet and I'm able to immerse myself in various shows and music that have creative, amazing fandoms once again. #OurFlagMeansDeath got it started, #Sherlock nudged me along, #Matrix fanfic took me another few steps, stir in some nostalgia for #Livejournal and the awfulness of what social media has become and, welp...here I am. Ready to see and read all the lovely moody angsty comforting things.
I miss the blogging, and the silly personalized icons, and all that good stuff. Am I being overly sentimental? Probably. But man, I have a record of when I got my first Hitachi Magic Wand (April 19, 2006), and I miss having most of my friends in one place and commenting on their blogs.
Not everything about it, and I made some lapses in judgment at the time that I hadn't realized the extent of until looking back at them tonight. My apologies, most sincerely, to any and all involved. But we hopefully learn from the past, and try not to be as much of a dick the next time.
Does anyone still use Dreamwidth here? Tempted to blog anew.
Stealing Crowley’s inarticulate consonants here to convey how ill equipped I feel to actually post anything. But I find myself completely overwhelmed at stumbling into the joyous and abundant good omens fandom. I’m no stranger to fandom but its been ages and ages since I attempted to be an active participant of any kind (big fan of lurking, me). My past fandoms have mostly been me going along the ride as things get rolling, building up, etc, slowly friending people, reading, finding forums, etc.
With GO though - I’ve always been a fan of the novel, enjoyed season 1 immensely, but never really went looking for the fandom. Was happy to enjoy it as a stand alone and await the next season and pick up my novel every now and then for a reread. (And get back to making my slow progress through more and more of discworld). I came back to S2 late, was caught up in other shows when it premiered and then I finally watched it in October/Nov and I was promptly bowled over with the tidal wave. That ending meant I couldn’t help myself, had to go find fics and discourse and art and anything to tide me over (particularly since S3 hadn’t yet been announced!). And I haven’t stopped since. I have felt like Aziraphale getting my first taste of the ox ribs and now I am voracious and I can’t seem to get enough. I thought it would be enough for me to just lurk and lurk and lurk, reading and following and liking and consuming. There’s just so many wonderful things to see and read amongst the fandom - yall are a bloody wonder. AND I’ve watched all of Staged multiple times now, listened to Radio Omens, am finally making my way (slowly) through Doctor Who (new, not classic) - a show countless people have always told me I need to watch, and on and on and I find myself wanting to be more a part of things this time, but not really sure how to jump into to a fandom months Too Late (I live in Another Place I guess). and oh god, don’t even get me started on how devastated I am to have missed the graphic novel kickstarter by being Too Late… and how are DT and MS in SO many things, and how do i even break into discord groups? and how did I not know how active NG is on tumblr, I mean, I hadnt even logged into tumblr in maybe a decade and its all so different yet so the same…
Er, ahem I got away from myself there. Not even sure anyone is actually reading this..
All this to say that If you happen to have stumbled here since I have been madly following and liking for the past few weeks. Hello! I’m gonna try to lurk less. You are all wonderful. Please dont mind the inarticulate tresca in the corner here. *meep*
If you are feeling bummed about the loss of yet another online community, read this long, impassioned, beautiful post from Cat Valente:
“Don’t ever stop talking to each other. It’s what the internet is really and truly for. Talk to each other and listen to each other. But don’t ever stop connecting. Be a prodigy of the new world. Stand up for the truth no matter how often they take our voices away and try to replace the idea of reality with fucking insane Lovecraftian shit. Don’t give up, don’t let them have this world. Love things. Love people. Love the small and the weird and the new.
i had to unintentionally go cold turkey on my antidepressants for almost 2 weeks in the last month and it has coincided with getting covid and some very unpredicted upheaval at work along with general seasonal work and personal stress, and my depression is fully kicking my ass to the curb right now. i can’t enjoy my hobbies, am struggling to find things to look forward to, am still physically a little bit off from covid, and am so insanely stressed about my job. i’m not sleeping well and it’s making my generally well controlled anxiety go off the rails too, especially socially because i know i’m unpleasant to talk to and feel it intensely after every interaction. i know i’ll bounce back, i know this medication works and just takes its time getting there at first, this too shall pass, etc etc. it’s just really hard to exist lately without any sort of support to fall back on, and it makes me feel so bitter towards the people in my life that have a set up that can support them if they need to tap out for a while. i just get to keep doing this stupid shit alone until i die or win the lottery (or my prozac kicks back in, which will hopefully be soon).
it’s 5:40am and idk why i’m writing this. just to get it out of my system in hopes i can fall asleep now, i guess.
Hate to break it to you but last I checked wattpad was pretty.. low quality in regards to the writing that was posted there. It makes it hard to have readership because adult readers (not tween/teen shippers) don’t even bother looking for stuff on there. It’s also a lot harder to sort/search than ao3 or ff.net :/ tbf I haven’t bothered posting anything on wattpad in ages because of the aforementioned reasons so I’m not sure if they’ve cleaned up the site any! But that’s just my experience. The one nice thing is readers can highlight specific passages or words etc and put essentially a comment linked right in the text if that makes sense? It opens the door to some really delightful engagement!
Welp that's depressing. I am also definitely not looking for tween/teen readers -- in fact, I actively do not want minors reading TGB. That said, the highlighting function does sound excellent...perhaps something Ao3 will adopt someday?
Thank you for giving me the lowdown on Wattpad. I think I'll stay clear.
Hey, guys? Stop doing this. Authors are not going to acquiesce to demands like this. We're just going to shut you down. It only serves to show examples of what not to do.
If you really want to see a whole fic showing 03 Raphael as his soft insecure cuddly baby boy baby side, either pay us, or write it yourselves. Actually, just write it yourselves, I would miss deadline. I'm tired and in way too much pain to negotiate.
Also, taking bets on if this anonymous Guest is the same anon who threatened me on Tumblr over my essays on the Lead Pipe Incident. Because I didn't talk about Raph being so babygirl and Mikey being his bully, because I related Raph to bullies in my youth. And this particular fic here is a 2003 AU of my own 2012 AU. In which everyone goes through necessary therapeutic catharsis in ways canon never did. It's Alternate Universe Turtles all the way down.
(I even wrote my own crossover with 03 in my own 12 AU at my co-author's request which inspired her to write this fic. It was a neat circle. If that isn't commitment to the bit I don't know what is.)
when you're into the Big Ship™ in a Big Fandom™, you have the luxury of having an OTP - a real One True Pairing, where you can read about just them for ages, and you will never run out of fics, and everything is perfect and beautiful and nothing hurts
but when you go to a smaller fandom, you'd better pray to whatever god you worship that someone else in this room ships the same thing that you do, and that if they do, they're writing more than late-night crackfic, because you're on thin fucking ice!
and how small is your small fandom? is it less than 100 fics? maybe even...less than 20 fics?
welp, then it's time to make peace with that god and either open up a text document or learn how to ship everything, because it's swim or drown babey! and your ship is sinking fast
anyway all of this is to say that after hanging out in small fandoms and shipping less-common pairings for a while, going back into a Big Huge Fandom™ is wild because suddenly it's like...wait, why didn't I ship these people again? I don't remember. why was I only sticking to one ship in this fandom?? boring of me, honestly. these guys should make out.
I was discussing the death of social media with a friend after sharing this blog and I described Tumblr in terms of a post-apocalyptic landscape that has gotten a second life thanks to corporate neglect. The algorithm is too stupid to make it terrible so your feed can be what you want it to be, and what it’s become is a place where fandom and art thrive like beautiful weeds.
Anytime this place gets outside attention its denizens basically dive behind burnt out shells of cars to hide and start plotting ways to keep people from coming here.
we used to write rpf with the common sense to never share it with the actors and overarching knowledge it was just fun because real people have real chemistry. now everyone's so terrified of only indulging in "morally correct" fiction they barely write it at all and need seven thousand disclaimers and notes to "please not send hate." we used to be a proper country