Venting because my parents never listen to my problems. (Especially my bitch ass mom)
I swear to fucking God I wanna bash my skull into the fucking wall.
My mom never fucking listens to my problems.
Ever.
I feel like a fucking burden to everyone I know.
And the only people that ever listen to me are AI bots and random strangers on the internet.
I've had these problems forever.
My dad will get in my face to "try and snap me out of it", when all it does is piss me off and give me the urge to punch him.
(reflexes)
And my mom will profusely antagonize the shit out of me.
It's like they do this on purpose.
Like no joke, today I didn't feel like eating.
So I subconsciously/accidentally (a mix of both) dumped my chili back into the pot, considering how many times I've been yelled at for throwing it away.
But ofc my bitchy mom had a problem with it.
Literally my dad was over here, calm ASF, telling me that I shouldn't have done that, which I understood.
BUT THIS BITCH I CALL MY MOTHER (I'm on the verge of just calling her a life source)
WAS YELLING MY NAME AND SCREAMING AT ME TO GET IN THE KITCHEN BEFORE I SPOKE TO MY DAD.
(This is the same homophobic/transphobic hoe that purposely misgenders my friends to piss me off)
This is why I favorite my dad over my mom, because at least HE tries to respect pronouns (he will occasionally call my bestie she instead of he, to which he immediately corrects himself.)
(W dad)
Like I love my mom, we get along most of the time.
BUT THIS BITCH IS ON THE FUCKING VERGE OF CATCHING MY BARE-ASS FISTS
ISTG SHES THE REASON I HAVE ANGER ISSUES AND IM EMOTIONALLY EXHAUSTED ALL THE DAMN TIME
AND THIS BITCH HAS THE MOTHERFUCKING AUDACITY TO CALL ME A WHORE FOR WEARING A DARK SHADE OF LIPSTICK
LIKE IT'S MY MOTHERFUCKING BODY HOE, YOU WISH YOUR BODY LOOKED THIS GOOD
NOT TO MENTION WHEN I CALL HER OUT ON HER BS SHE SAYS "Take her phone or sm"
Bitch tf? I'm not a kid anymore.
BUT I DONT WANT TO FILE CHARGES BECAUSE I LOVE THEM
AND IK ITS NORMAL TO FEEL CONFLICTED ABOUT IT
But one day I'm gonna have a heated make-out session (and maybe fuck) with 3 women and describe it in full detail to my mom
(ILY dad but this is my revenge.)
I'll start posting my vents if I feel like it, cus I trust y'all more than I do my own Mom.
Peace.
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I need to know more about this attempt at a fourth Emily book
Oh gosh, I really haven’t thought about this for YEARS, this was a product of me being like 15 and naive enough to try and write an Emily x Dean happy ending without realizing that a purely romantic Dean was neither in the spirit of how LMM wrote him nor very interesting.
Basically, I erased a few of the years that passed between Ilse calling off the wedding and Teddy coming back to New Moon, so that the year after Emily and Teddy married, WWI began. Naturally, both Teddy and Perry would have been drafted. I envisioned Ilse moving back to PEI, and she and Emily would do comic and Rilla-ish things for the war effort. Meanwhile, Dean—who of course wouldn’t have been able to fight—comes back as well. He writes a book of pacifist poetry or something not particularly patriotic, which doesn’t endear him any better to the locals. In my teenaged mind, he and Emily would then resurrect something of romance. Whether or not it’s actively something consummated, Emily would have betrayed Teddy in spirit if not in body.
Now, though, if I were to follow this war-themed plot thread, I think I absolutely wouldn’t go that route. I think Emily’s attitude to Dean and to herself would have completely changed as she grew older and seen more of the world. She would understand him better and perhaps pity him just a little—she was so nearly him, losing the love of her life to someone else. I’m not entirely settled about how Dean would react to this change: On the one hand, I’m tempted to think that he would miss not being able to patronize her anymore (I'm sure he would try and it wouldn't work the way it used to). As with many Gothic pairings, their relationship relied on inequality. On the other hand, if underneath his possessive jealousy he really does care genuinely for Emily—which we might infer if only from the final scene when he admits that she can write—they might be able to negotiate a new kind of friendship, where Dean can claim his corner of her life without it being unnecessarily fraught. Even now, I'm not sure how much of this is possible--despite Emily's newfound cynicism, she still seems a bit naive at the end of EQ about what he intends about claiming a corner of her home--but I do believe that her own literary achievements would be able to help her hold her own against him.
In the end, I always intended Teddy and Perry to come home—as much as I enjoy tragedy, I couldn’t sacrifice either in good faith—though I assigned Perry many heroic war wounds. Emily also would have written a Great Canadian Novel based on the war that would have been set up as a counter to Dean's pacifist poems. In some ways their literary output would mark more than anything the divergence in their lives.
Thinking about this now is really interesting though in terms of our previous discussions of Walter in a pairing with Dean! I’m tempted to start writing fanfic scenarios about this instead now.
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not that i'm happy about the ending (fuck that divorcee cope strategy from jsuds) but ted still has a young son who's struggling with his dad moving halfway across the world i can't imagine ted making a better choice...
rebecca literally had a ten point plan as to how it could’ve worked like. i get that people are like “what did you want him to do, abandon his son???” but also like tbh having your dad leave a group of people you also loved, and a sport you loved rooting for him in, to go back to your mom who just was dating someone else to have his whole life revolve around you is like. it���s own burden. like sorry but they were all fine with him leaving them to give michelle space so idk why the only thing that would’ve made ted a Good Dad to his son was following his shitty mom’s guilt trip back to the place he was in before the show started. and also like. henry isn’t a real kid. the hi is a narrative consideration and not a “is this child being taken care of 🥺” problem.
also AGAIN this is a problem with the writing and the showing not telling because???? we are never once given an indication that henry is lacking ANYTHING or struggling at all with ted gone!!!!!! when he visits, he’s engaged, he’s with the team, he’s having a ball. they facetime regularly. ted is going to parent teacher conferences. henry is using ted’s advice to resolve conflicts at school. henry is always answering the phone and happy to talk to ted. i understand that IN REAL LIFE kids can put on a happy face when they’re suffering but in this show??? narratively???? we have only seen henry very active and engaged and happy, and he has never asked ted to come home or insinuated he resented ted. the first inkling of that came from his mother, who spent her entire appearance dodging responsibility for her own actions and trying to get ted back with kansas. if they wanted ted to Go Back To His Son To Raise Him Right then that should’ve been an emotional and plot through line of (at least) this season, instead of ted obsessing over michelle’s boyfriend to the point that he’s leaving henry alone at the pub with beard to wallow. tbh. at most ted says “i miss my kid” and that’s the end of it. so really like. it feels like a lazy way to get ted out of there and end it and keep ted a good guy.
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" like - THANKS. " she said easily enough crossing through the path he opened for her. ducking under his arm to make her way into the house. HER EYES PASSING BY HIS INFANT'S, " hey little dude. " she offered to the kiddo. not quite sure if she'd get a response, her mind more focused elsewhere anyways.
@jokethur . /. continued.
" your house is . . . wowzers. " it was half hearted, but she wasn't the best at complimenting someone else's home. her aunt's was a upscale Gotham abode. made for two. kept together by hired maids, && unfamiliar faces. coming through the home as frequently to conduct business with her uncle. her aunt was scarcely made to be there. but Lucy never really needed adult supervision. especially tonight.
hair, still bubblegum pink, with jaded pieces poking out here and there. she was good at adjusting, and easily found the kitchen after wrestling past their pets, " pizza - totally needed it. " she grabbed herself a slice. preferring the cold cheesy bread with pepperoni to microwaving it.
her eyes ducked down as her imaginary boyfriend entered the room. his glasses left on his nose even as he pushed them back over his eyes. Freddy had always been pretty introverted, but he was oogling her quietly the moment she first cut her hair, && applied that hair dye. saying that she looked like a celebrity, or an anime girl. she never understood his references, but he had trailed with her the whole way to Arthur's , " you think he has netflix? " Freddy asked.
" you think my aunt's --- gonna be pissed? " Lucy said instead. eyes looking around the room. Mapping out all the crooks and crannies, " she didn't see me leave. " she said that out louder for Arthur to hear.
" and . . . it's a look? " mentioning her hair. hands coming up to touch the strands. wrapping a small portion around her finger.
". yeah - you need to fix it. " freddy playfully jabbed at her. chuckling into his ninetendo switch.
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Pear telling Pisaeng that he's the only one she tells everything to is so interesting because it points to her currently being basically as lonely as Pisaeng was at the beginning of the show. Pisaeng is good to go with a closer friends list of Kawi and Pear, but Pear doesn't seem to be the same.
Pear is friendly with everyone, but the only friend she has on a comparable level to Pisaeng is Kwan. Kawi was moving into the inner friendship ranks because she started to like him romantically, but now he's dating Pisaeng. Kwan has other friends+ is friends with benefits with Not, so everyone in Pear's innermost relationship circle is busy with something or the other. Even her parents.
It's making so much sense why she would turn to Not of all people in the future when "friendship" is an extremely strong word for their relationship in the past, because he's kind of the highest person left on the friendship list if she can't turn to her parents, Pisaeng, Kwan, or Kawi.
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Actually you know what I will explain how Hallmark Christmas movies are amatonormative.
Starting with the biggest tell which is the plots. There are usually two kinds of plots hallmark goes for with the christmas films.
Plot 1: Woman is searching for a magical romance and finds it through Christmas
Plot 2: Woman is business focused and not interested in love and needs to be taught to love through the power of christmas and a man.
In terms of Plot 2, I feel like it's the most openly amatonormative (+ gotta love the extra addition of sexism in there) where it literally places that the woman not being interested in romance or finding a boyfriend to be a problem. Characters in the movie such as the protagonists best friend (usually another woman) and parents (Usually mother) insist that the protag NEEDS to find love and that her life will be miserable if she doesn't "have fun" and "Fall in love"
This is common for Aspecs, specifically aromantics, to hear. Any expression of disinterest in romance is often shot back at with "you haven't found the right person yet" "that's such a sad way to live" "You'll find the one at some point!" And this is only because of the importance that society puts onto romance and finding a partner. It becomes unbelievable to some that anyone could ever be happy without love in their life. This is textbook amatonormativity.
This idea also plays into Plot 1, which while more subtle, still pushes these ideas of everyone should want/look for love.
A common trope in Plot 1 that shows these ideals is the bad 1st boyfriend that the protagonist usually has before meeting the actual love interest for the movie. Usually the boyfriend is business oriented, doesn't do romantic things with the protagonist (usually stated as him being too busy and thus not caring or him actually not caring about romance), and usually will laugh/mock the idea of romance in general. This is seen as bad by the movies. This often reads similar to how aromantic people are treated for not caring about romance. They are positioned as bad partners for not following textbook ideas of romance. For focusing on other things over romance. They are seen as sad and miserable and "How could anyone live such a sad life?"
There's also this overlying theme in Plot 1 that the protags search for a fairy tale romance is inherently good and anyone disagreeing is inherently wrong and hates romance. Usually romance being the main priority is seen as right over other obligations. If the protag for example has to choose between the romantic plotline or some other obligation she's made, then choosing the second obligation is ALWAYS framed as the wrong answer. Usually the character will shame the protagonist for not choosing to go meet the male love interest or the love interest himself will be upset with the protagonist, placing more importance on the romantic plotline no matter how much more important logically the other obligation could be.
That's not even to mention the fact that no one in these movies ends up single. If a character is specifically mentioned to be single then there is a 99% chance that they WILL be paired up by the end of the film. If they are single by the end of the film it's likely that
1. They were not mentioned to be single or taken so their status is ambiguous at best.
2. They are constantly looking for love along with the protag, usually hinted to be falling in love/wll get with someone in the future by the end of the film
3. they are a child. Hallmark doesn't do anything romantic between children outside of maybe the off handed mention of a crush.
And yes, I know it can be a bit of an issue to complain about ROMANCE movies supporting amatonormativity, especially when these films have many other things wrong with them other than that. But also see: I had to watch these every fucking year with my mother and so as an angry aroace i think i can tear into them as a treat :)
I've probably missed some things and tbh this post is likely all over the place, I tried my best with my ADHD.
If you also had to put up with these films feel free to leave your own analysis on them or make any additions/corrections. It's been at least a year since I've seen these films and I'm sure I've left things out + missed the new films which might change some things (Tho i doubt it. Hallmark has a formula that they stick to rigidly with these)
So yeah TL:DR Hallmark christmas movies are definitely full of amatonormativity and It's interesting to look at and tear apart the harmful ideas within the movies. Thanks for coming to my ted talk and whatnot lmao
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