#i know ive been really whiney about it

[james-p-sullivan]

i managed to write about 1.4 k words yesterday and i am over the moon about this

#i know ive been really whiney about it #but seriously having my creative outlet ripped from my hands was really horrific when i needed it the most #but something clicked yesterday #and i was able to bang out a nice little intro #and i actually liked it???? #like i want to go back and add some more things and expand on something I briefly touched #but holy shit you guys i got it down on paper #i cant describe to you how difficult writing is when you don’t recognize letters #and im not someone who is able to use speech to text #I TRIED #i practically go mute any time a recording device is near me #i try to speak so hard but nothing comes out #ive always been like that #i just clam up #BUT ANYWAY #GUYS I WROTE SOMETHING #PLEASE PAT ME ON THE BACK :D #fan fic talk #sulley speaks

[kiestrokes]

Omg so I can't stop thinking about high sex with ateez like ive been so insatiably horny everything I've smoked or had an edible I just AHHH i just want dick so bad

Stoned Sex with ATEEZ | NSFW

Pairing: ATEEZ x Reader/You/Yn (vagina pov) Rating: NSFW. Mature (18+) Minors DNI. Genre: headcanon, imagine, smut. Warnings: cannabis use (obviously), in theory both parties are high, so it is mutual, everyone is consenting, established relationship vibes.

Sexually Explicit Content: mentions of subspace, morning sex, rough sex, deep sex, feral (idk at this point just proceed with caution if you're just a vanilla person), rough touches, kissing, biting, cockwarming, oral (f receiving), humping, thigh fucking, surprise orgasm, orgasms.

🗝️ Note: let me know if I missed anything for the warnings, I am not really here in the realm of proof reading. Sorry, this took me a while to get to my atiny anon, hope it's enough to hold you over until you make it to a dick appt!

Disclaimers: This is a work of fiction; I do not own any of the idols depicted here. 

Park Seonghwa Hwa appears unassuming, the two of you go through the usual nightly routine but once he's got you in the bed things shift. He's a needy cat, pawing across your body, you fit snug against his hips as he rocks softly into you from behind, moaning about how soft and plush your skin is when he's like this. He doesn't want to be inside you, just nestled between your thighs from behind as his slim fingers play your clit like an instrument, stroking moans out of your body with each pluck.

Kim Hongjoong High Joong gives me feral vibes...HJ is usually so reserved. But something about the THC sends his brain into overdrive. Hongjoong can't keep his mouth off of you. It's everywhere, until it's finally exactly where you need. Between your thighs. He's rocking his hips restlessly into the end of the mattress at each squirm and thrust of you pelvis against his chin.

Jeong Yunho He is probably the most aware while high, the only thing is his grip is a little stronger than normal. Yunho basically wants to embed himself in your body. For his hands to become one with your thighs. You wake up with lovely handprints in the morning reminding you of him.

Kang Yeosang I feel like stoned sex with Yeo is going to be soft, like how Hwa talks about him being cute drunk. He's whiney and very vocally appreciative of you and your body. It's slow and maybe a little intense, missionary with you rolling on top. Yeo loses it when you press him down into the bed. He dissolves a little into subspace when he's high.

Choi San guys (non-gendered) I am so sorry but THIS man, he falls asleep before anything can actually happen. He sleepily stokes your fire, but you're left finishing the job yourself. Sorry to my San biases, I wish I felt different about this one too. He's just a sleepy man. Definitely wakes you up in the morning for some slowww, drawn out sex. He's intense from how he gazes at you to the lingering pace at which he fucks you.

Song Mingi High Mings becomes big and pliable. He's also whiney and vocal like Yeosang, but a little less articulate. Mingi wants to spoon you, which quickly escalates into something else. His hands are all over you, drifting across your body. Crushing you into his lap as he tries to bury himself in you, deeper and deeper with each thrust. The two of you fall asleep with him still inside (rip you with that uti later).

Jung Wooyoung Feral like his hyung...this guy. He can’t get enough of anything. His skin feels like it’s on fire. He wants to be melted to you. Your lips, tongue, it’s drawn-out sex because he doesn’t want it to end. You're overstimulated in the best way possible; every nerve ending is firing.

Choi Jongho Is giggly. I can just FEEL it. Jongho is laughing but also giving you that intense gaze and each touch is purposeful. You're so keyed up from the laughter and foreplay that your giddiness spills over into a quick and extreme orgasm that takes you both by surprise. Jongho has never come so quickly, and you sure as hell never have.

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#ateez #atiny #ateez imagines #ateez smut #ateez scenarios #ateez headcanons #ateez x reader #ateez x you #ateez x y/n #hard hours #stoned thoughts #high sex #ateez hard hours #ateez hard thoughts #ateez hard asks #park seonghwa #kim hongjoong #jeong yunho #kang yeosang #choi san #song mingi #jung wooyoung #choi jongho #earth to mars #anonie

[savnofilter]

Makeup Sex HCs

-> dabi/t. todoroki, s. todoroki, e. kirishima & k. bakugo

Dabi | Shouto Todoroki | Eijiro Kirishima | Katsuki Bakugo x [GEN]Reader

CONTENT WARNING(S): sexual content, makeup sex. 🧍🏽‍♀️

COUNT: 1.1K words [1-3 mins each].

READ MORE: masterpost + [students | bakugo | adults masterlists]

A/N: ive been wanting to write this for a hot min and now i finally did sjdjsjdn anyways this will be my last nsfw work for students. pretty anti-climatic but 🤷🏽‍♀️ i will be releasing the rest of my sfw stuff for them somewhere else so stayed tuned for that. 👀 ANYWAYS I AM SAUR READY FOR THE DABI CONTENT IM GONNA BUST 🥰 THANK YOU ANON AND HAPPY YEAR YALL. 🤢🤟🏽🤟🏽🤟🏽

if its serious & Dabi knows hes fucked up, hes gonna force himself to talk about it.

don't think that he’ll be mature 100% but he will communicate with you.

is a little manipulative (don't come at me we know he ain't at therapy) and might divulge to get into your good graces once again.

makeup sex with Dabi entirely depends on how serious he finds the situation.

if it's something super serious (to him) then he will not go for sex and will not want to be touched physically like at all. comfort wise too.

but when it's something where all you two need to do is properly communicate, he's actually more empathetic. you could almost say the makeup sex between you when this happens is more… intimate.

if submissive!Dabi is something you like, here he is!

don't expect him to go full on tho, he’ll just relinquish a bit more of letting you take control as a form of apologizing.

[+] only you have been able to see him in such a position… you better be thrilled.

gets more needy tho? the audacity… if you love brats there here he is.

tries to say stuff to throw you off, shit like if you're teasing him he'll say something along the lines of, “stop playing and come sit on my cock, doll.” or “look at you slobbering all over my dick, you greedy XYZ.”

a little whiney about it too, has no shame whatsoever, though.

if he's the one giving you head, it's very messy and sloppy like he's making out with your nether regions. his goal is to have you c(um)e undone and having you surrender your thoughts to him.

when you two actually get to fucking though, it's really rough and grabby at first. it's as if you two are trying to fight each other whilst also attempting to one up another in pleasure.

very much a lot of rough thrusting, pinning, bite marks, hickies and hand prints galore.

then it soothes out—once all the pent up energy is exerted you two transition into a more, and this is where I talked about earlier, intimate love making.

mumbling apologies, a teary eye if you manage to make eye contact with each other and soft mutterings of how good it feels.

it's like a rollercoaster ride of high and low emotions, the end result being the balance of both.

probably the same kind of style as Dabi.

honestly it wouldn't be surprising if the root of the makeup sex being unresolved things, as in the inner conflicts that you two don't even address.

quiet aggression waiting for its release between you two.

makeup sex would be more like a week or a few days after, where you two are probably having a normal session but then the pent up and forgetting energy comes up and gets released during the deed.

Todoroki grips you way more often and holds you close as if you might disappear in one second.

uses a lot of his hands and probably toys too to let out his pent out anger.

will have you bonded up so he can freely do what he needs to do with having to keep his attention divided by keeping you down and pleasuring you.

a ton of words of affirmation here, both you and him.

that's how it normally is, but he throws in some endearing terms a lot more this time around.

“that feel good, baby?” “who makes you feel good like this?”

his attention is solely focused on you and not so much his.

will probably edge you until the point where you both need to climax as he enjoys seeing you tear up and beg for him.

the makeup sex was probably about jealousy if we're being honest here.

Todoroki is just so emotionally constipated but he doesn't know how else express it.

is definitely working on it though.

probably the most emotional out of them lol.

Kirishima is the type to cry and be a mess, super emotional and empathetic.

isn't doing crazy positions or trying to rough you up, unintentional or not.

very much, “I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry” sort of attitude 😭

feel like when thinking of Kirishima, since he has this hidden, passive aggressive side that it'd transmute into rough handling but no I think he'd let all his barriers down for something like this.

would probably get rougher near the ending tho, like harder thrusts and more bite marks.

he wants to be in your good books again and is doing his best to be that again.

everything is sloppier too, just pure rawness tbh.

the makeup session may take place a few hours later or a day later, if it doesn't then that's how you know it's something serious that can't just be mended with a bit of physical bonding.

so in a way when you two make up like this, Kirishima feels grateful because of the unspoken common rules in your relationship.

he puts his all in to make sure that even with your disagreements he still loves you a lot. :’)

surprisingly so, i honestly believe makeup sex with this man would be soft.

it's passive aggressive at most, the only thing being harsh is the rough grip here and there or a little taunting whisper every so often.

lots of eye contact and just admiring you under him.

likes to be on top so he can shield you from everything else in the room and wants your attention all on him.

make up sex with him is smothering in the way that it's like he's trying to mold himself into you and only you.

doesn't care about what you guys fought about or disagreed earlier, he's more or so focused on the connection this will bring.

Bakugo is more quiet during this time, not really saying much but lets a few noises slip by every so often.

if he does talk, it's not very loud or aggressive, more of check ins like, “you okay?” “you like it when I XYZ?”

it's like Bakugo is treating you in a fragile manner, not wanting to shatter you or startle you. :’)

this is one of the times where his energy level isn't on 1000.

ALSO HAND HOLDING FOR SURE.

prefers to mostly do positions where he can see your face too, wants to make sure you're okay.

he's very mellow and the sort of energy is needed for the mending between you two.

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#bnha x reader #mha x reader #bnha dabi x reader #mha dabi x reader #bnha todoroki shouto x reader #mha todoroki shouto x reader #bnha kirishima eijiro x reader #mha kirishima eijiro x reader #bnha bakugo katsuki x reader #mha bakugo katsuki x reader #bnha headcanons #mha headcanons #not sfw #sav's sinning

[jellyi]

idk if when i write these concepts its too long for u to continue. if so, tell me so i can shorten it!! ive been told i have a bad habit of overwriting lol

nowww moving onto what popped up in my brain, just hear me out. . .

momo totally loves cum-filled straps.

at first, she thinks it must feel weird, because the cum isn't real. but one lazy night when you're talking about it in bed, wrapped in her arms, you mention how good it'd feel if she got to breed you. then everytime momo thought about it she just got all twitchy and wet :( she became sooo much more touchy in the next few days, always grabbing you by the hips, digging her nose in your neck, playfully biting at your cheek, doing anything she could to touch you.

she was embarrassed at how quick she went from hesitant to desperate and was waiting for u to be the one to bring it up again but u hadn't. (drove her crazy, really) and then she lets it slip one night when she's fucking u in the dorms, ur back against the door while her other members were gathered for movie night just a few walls away. muttering abt how maybe u won't be so touchy w nayeon and sana if momo stuffs u w her cum. breeds you till ur dumb because ur just a sweet, little thing that'll take all of it so happily, right? let her fill u up till ur dripping puddles?

after that incident, and many, many sessions w ur new bought toy, momo always uses that strap when ppl are just too touchy w you. god forbid they put their hand on your arm, or lean just a bit too close.

u love when momo fills u up, and she loves it just as much. sometimes, there's even moments when she gets all whiney - pouting in ur neck as she complains abt all the ppl after her love, how they're so annoying and that she just wants to make you hers forever. whimpering and begging, "can i? can i cum inside? please? just wanna make u mine, no one else's, please?" she's so possessive when she's jealous.

(dont even get me started on how much she loves to pull back and watch the cum drip out, only to fuck it back inside of u deeper. staring like she's star-struck as she rocks back and forth in u slow, eyes on ur dripping cunt as she hits that gooey spot that makes u cry out and scratch her arms.)

<3

okay first. these are absolutely fine!! i love the length so much, you write more than i do on this blog sometimes 😭 but i love them so please send as many as you'd like

this is perfect though, i adore cum-filled straps so much and i love possessive dom!momo even more. she gets so fixated on how pretty you look with the viscous liquid dripping out of you and she wouldn't be able to stop herself dumping so many loads inside you. i find it so attractive when girls get so into it that they start begging to breed you and momo is definitely a begger. she’s in such a daze that she just starts rambling. “let me breed your sweet cunt baby. gotta make sure everyone knows who owns you” and maybe even something like “gonna fill you up so good, might fuck a baby into you.”

and yes, she does it over and over again. the loads are so big and thick but she doesn’t care, she’ll fuck them into you over and over again until the sheets are unbearably slick. something about the way you look with cum dripping from your cunt is so beautiful to her that she’s willing to spend hours filling you up

cishet men dni with this post

#momo smut #twice smut #asks

[katherines-imagines]

Katsuki Bakugo Head Cannons

A/N: I really love Katsuki, so I wanted to do him next. Let’s get started!

•So, we all know how Katsuki has a huge ego, right? Well, he’s had it since he was a kid, so if your gonna be lovers beige UA, your used to his ego •of course that doesn’t mean you’ll let it slide katsuki is probably into larger people, because he doesn’t really care what you look like (in a sweet way,) he only cares if you’ll be a challenge •your definitely gonna have to be able to hold a banter and be stubborn or else he’ll view you as week •one of my absolute favorite head cannons of all, is that you are Mitsuki’s favorite. •yes even over Katsuki •Your her OTP, and nothing would change that. •ever. •if you’ve been dating Katsuki, when the Bakusquad is made, your automatically in •i have a strong feeling that Mina is probably gonna be your bff •your also her OTP •I’ve seen head cannons on what Katsuki would call you, and I’ve cringe SO HARD. So by my honest opinion, I think he’d call you something like shit head. But if you’ve known him forever, and your relationship is that deep, I honestly think he would call you by your full name, out of respect

•katsuki would only ever date someone who can catch his attention •that Means not whiny, rude, complaining, or lazy (got me at whiney 🥲) •if he goes on the second date, he definitely plans on sticking around for a looong time

•he’s not one to do one night stands because he thinks it’s for cowards

•Katsuki, while hot headed, is so gonna be a gentleman •his mom raised him well, and while he may be Ill-tempered, he knows how to treat you right (not gonna be specific because anyone can use these imagines no matter gender) •that means if you go on a date, he’s pulling the chair out, holding the door, everything •katsuki is also a sucker for compliments affection is something he wants, but thinks asking for it will make him weak, so go cuddle with him and make him happy •ive seen so many head cannons on wether or not Katsuki can cook, and I say YES. •he was a temper, he has to let off steam somehow (other than training) •while his hair seems spiky, I bet it’s soft i mean, cmon, his mom is a fashion queen, of course she’s going to raise him to have soft hair •Katsuki, cause of his parents, has an amazing sense of style

•Katsuki doesn’t care about your weight (as long as your healthy)

•your skinny? Easier to hold in his arms. Your chubby? More to hug.

•he honestly doesn’t see why you have insecurities and thinks your silly for that

A/N:

So yeah, that’s my head cannons for Katsuki Bakugo. Again, these are what I think, so please don’t come at me. have an amazing day :)

#bakugou katsuki #bnha bakugo katsuki #katsuki bakugo imagine #katsuki bakugo mha #mha headcanons #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #my hero acedamia #bnha #katsuki bakugo my hero academia #katsuki x you #katsuki x y/n #bakugo x you #bakugo x y/n #bakugo x chubby reader

[melto]

Ive been following you for years and I love seeing your hc/long posts even when I dont super know what they are about I just think you have such a fun/smart way of thinking about things. I miss it you should start doing it again…So uh what are your favorite hcs about this ENGR crew?

ough this is such a sweet ask thank u i love u im glad u enjoy them wwhjkhsglrkjgfdl

hmm.....favorites for them....i have so many i think about them like 24/7. let me say this first: korn is a trans man to me and chang uses any pronouns (hot girl at a bar hitting on him really changed him i see it clearly). also mo is 5'6 and korn is just barely taller and never lets mo forget. just for some little things i feel very strong abt<3 but anywayss

pat mindlessly plays with his friend's hair mindlessly. like specifically braids it. he used to do it all the time for pa and he doesnt even notice at first that he's doing it until like one time he's ranting to korn and he tugs a little too hard and korn shouts but never tells pat to stop or anything. just does it all the time and they looovveee it and if they all have pat gifted braids in their hair at the same time they r so annoying about it. they just go around with matching hair and pat gets sooo embarrassed bc they wont shut up about how their bestie did it for them literally if you even glance in their direction they will tell you

engr besties cuddling...they are so obviously just an overly touchy group they've always got an arm around shoulders or hand on the back, half sitting in laps and all the like. no concept of personal space in that friend group!!! they like to be close to each other!! and they get fake jealous if they get left out of the affection which is how 50% of the time they find themselves in a cuddle pile, the other half is intentional/just kinda happens bc they drift together. korn is 100% someone who likes to hold people he's always wrapped around one or multiple of them. mo likes to spread out and it works well bc he's the smallest. chang likes to nestle up. like curl into people's laps or lay his head there or on a shoulder. pat's pretty fine with any arrangement he just likes being able to touch everyone in some way like korn wrapped around him, mo's legs in his lap, and a hand stretched all the way over so he can touch chang's arm. he does start to like get all >:( if anyone tries to like spoon him after he and pran start dating bc it simply never feels as nice so it makes him irritated. korn and pat are kinda chronic overheaters, korn gets whiney about it but pat doesnt notice its just everyone else's problem. chang runs super cold and mo is just normal. he's fine and normal in this department. they dont usually use blankets though bc they will fucking die then. esp if they are squeezed tight. they are convinced they can all fit anywhere until it blows up in their faces. pat lovveess playing with his friends' hair and hands and they all love when he does. mo falls asleep super easy when he gets cozy. korn thinks its funny to just randomly shake them around sometimes or just full on start trying to get everyone to wrestle with him with only works like 40% of the time. chang, surprisingly, is the one who talks the most like sometimes its just a normal hangout session so they are all just having normal conversations but on the days where its like more sleepy/quiet chang just kinda fills up the space by like monologuing about something he found interesting recently or whatever. they also have like a very specific way of holding each other when one of them needs some Serious comfort. it varies per person, like after the (fake) break up, korn and chang would glue to pat's sides and mo would lay across their laps and hold one of pat's hands and they'd usually watch something or pat would feel safe enough to vent. but yeah they all have a special comfort cuddle setup...they love each other soooooo much that it's embarrassing. and oh my god? pran is not safe? they walk in and see him and pat cuddling and they just fucking leap onto that couch and snuggle in best they can everyone wants to be close to pran bc he's their special guy! and he gives very good rubs and sometimes gives their heads a little kiss (which they all do to each other but its different bc again! its pran!) and pran feels so nice and loved but he cannot last very long bc it gets so hot so fast and he does not enjoy being sweat on by multiple people for more than maybe 45 minutes. sometimes inkpa join. pa's a lot more used to it and has a higher tolerance but both would much rather just be cuddling each other. with them it is just like a prolonged group hug basically, korn once got a black eye trying to keep ink in longer and she hit him in the struggle. they love each other (:

pa gets sooo many brothers. like she has pat and pran but she also get korn mo and chang and they all love her soooo much (society if i finish my fic abt this>)

ive talked about it before (mostly in reference to korn and pat's relationship) but i think the engr crew has an interesting relationship with violence and anger. pran being the catalyst in the change in it since it allows pat to become further removed from those things which leads to the other 3 to do so as well. i have a lot to say.

chang breaks him arm and the next day mo shows up with his broken too so korn and pat are like dude what the fuck happened and mo is just like oh i didnt want chang to feel weird being the only one ): the only reason korn and pat dont do the same is bc pran stops them. korn mo and chang were having a really hard time when pat got shot bc they could not easily recreate it for themselves to share his pain

korn mo and chang love pran so fucking much not an ounce of this is just out bestie's bf in them pran is THEIR special guy!

silly little group of bisexuals<3

months after the (fake) breakup starts to die down pat’s out at a bar with his buddies and chang just is like “this was pran’s favorite appetizer here” and then both he and mo just start drunkenly bawling about how much they miss pran leaving pat and korn to comfort them

korn mo and chang take that fake break up SOO hard. korn at least knows its fake but he still doesnt get to see his guy as much as he wants now but mo and chang? Devastated. oh i have so much to say i have many visions that make me so ]: (society if i finished this fic lol>)

they have secret handshakes

they like to tease pat for how down bad he is and force him to share his bf. pat's out there acting like a chauffeur bc they make pran squeeze in the back with them. shouldnt have gotten such an epic bf if he didnt want to deal with the consequences

Simply they love each other so much and are so supportive and learn to navigate newfound vulnerability with each other which allows them to just continue to grow closer and into the people they actually want to be<3

#idk what im even saying. i love them a lot so i just said a bunch of shit lol #just a little peak into my mind. plagued by thoughts constantly always #isaac drama posting hours #long post / #asks #anonymous #bad buddy the series

[andizoidart]

the things i say here, im not saying out of sympathy, but as a statement. you're not being "whiney" when you talk about things in your life that are upsetting you. i'm sorry you feel this way. ive been through that before, and it really sucks. but i want you to know that your art really is worthy of recognision. your art always looks so pretty <3 you can draw so many species, humans, skeletons, monsters, cats ! and that drawing of euro and dyna? absolutley stunning !! you can add detail and it doesn't clutter? i give u applause <33 (fr that can be so hard sometimes) and i really enjoy your CCA!AU stuff :] one day you'll get the recognition you deserve, and even then, i'll be there supporting you <3

Thank you so so much,, you’re so sweet and I’m really truly glad that I came across you in the dash through mutuals because you’re always so nice and just such a good person genuinely

#andi answers #shut up andi

[sloanesdreams]

therapy 04/15/24

had a really insane therapy session today where I learned a lot of things about myself. I guess things ive known for a while, but i havent fully accepted/processed. it started with elli and how i haven't forgiven her for something that happened 6 years ago and how i ruminate and hold grudges. i do this because part of me doesn't believe myself. why dont i believe myself? why do i ruminate? because im trying to protect myself when so many things that i pretend aren't real happened in my childhood + my past. things that i find shameful. why do i find them shameful? because its easier to pretend that my life wasnt that bad. that i didnt feel unsafe as a child. that my parents were loving + protecting. not only that, ive been trained by authority figures that what i do remember is wrong. tina telling me that my dad is just like that and to get over it/normalize it, my mom telling me that she has it worse, the embarrassment of cps coming to my house, other ppl seeing my parents and thinking they were normal. its just easier to pretend that's true, and it makes me doubt my actual feelings. maybe it is true! maybe i'm being overdramatic and whiney- things aren't that bad! i have always lied and said my dad wasn't part of my story. but he is. all the trauma that i can't remember is part of my story. kennedy and why that all happened. i cant even broach the topic anymore. i cant even think about it. forget forget forget. so now, that's why i ruminate. that's why i have to convince myself that things people did are wrong in order to protect myself. and its hard because i was programmed to not do that. to deny and forget. as delphine said, i couldn't process that as a child– it was too painful. so now, my nervous system is in overdrive, i hyperanalyze people and am so so distrustful and unforgiving. because i cant deal with the source of those problems. i cant truly not judge and forget what happened. even though i can't remember it, my spirit does, my nervous system does, my poor tortured inner child does. it's so much easier to keep pretending and make up these fake traumas then face the real ones. it's easier to say i was raped in china than i was raped by numerous older men (and in some ways i still feel like i deserved it). I still havent brought up those stories with delphine. not even sure if i can do it yet. these are things that i havent admitted to anyone ever. i'm so embarrassed, humiliated by my vulnerabilities because i don't want to face them. i don't want this ugly part of me to ever come out. because i feel like if it were all true, i'd be unfixable and pathetic. that's why i fiercely protect myself now, maybe to a fault. i think that's why i know instantly whether or not i like people and why i'm so sensitive to their mistakes. because i feel a deep deep disgust that i have never really explored or let out. i recognize evil, i recognize darkness, i recognize bad. so maybe that's good now. but i wish i could have gone back in time and protected little me. she didn't deserve all the things that happened to her. and it's so unfair those things happened to her. but maybe i should move a little slower like delphine said. try to relax and calm my nerves when i've been through so much. it's reversible. i am strong. my life has texture to it. maybe all this shit has made me crazy, but all i can do is respect and honor myself now. put myself and my feelings first. actually listen to myself, honor my feelings, and slow down.

[zackslifeisstrange]

My Alters

Hello, so I have mentioned before that I have been diagnosed with DID(Dissociative Identity Disorder), meaning there are multiple personalities within me. So I will be introducing them below.

The Adults

Thom

34 years old, He/Him, I am not to good at explaining personalities but i would explain Thom as a chill guy, imagine some office worker tired waiting to catch the bus. Though he is the main reason i have insecurities, so if I am ever in a conversation and you know he is fronting, just leave the conversation, he’ll make you feel upset. Sorry Thom if you see this.

Terry

40 years old, She/hHer, Terry reminds me of a tiger, but a nice one. Shes understandable and likes to prove people wrong, She is obsessed with DIY crafts and art. Most often to front.

Snake

19 years old, He/Him, No he is not a snake, hes just a mean person and I hate him, he’s like Thom but worse, he says slurs. The others and I try our hardest to not let him front.

The Minors

Sully

6 years old, She/Her, Sully is whiney, the whole reason i get in crap with my dad, inluding other issues. She likes to steal things and lie alot. Most often to front.

Jenn

17 years old, She/Her, Big sister vibes, thats all i have to say. She is who stops me from doing nonsensical things. Most often to front.

NoName

1 years old, It/Its, honestly never made sense to what gender it is and it never specified a name and i never really bothered to give it one, when this alter comes out, ive been told it just acts really spacious, quiet, keeping to itsself with the ocasional breaking out crying about gibberish.

Zayne

6 years old like Sully, he rarely fronts or talks but when he does, hes really sweet and gentle, he reminds me of a puppy.

Non Humans

Bowser

Bowser is a husky puppy, He/Him, Exciting, hyper, barks alot but rarely fronts.

Storf

Storf is a grey cat, He/Him, I dont know much about him as he rarely fronts, but ive been told he is allways tired and also meows but with a monotone voice?

Red

Something, none of us know what this really is, we just call it it/its/this/that/thing, It allways talks with a high voice but rarely fronts.

Blue

Same as Red but it speaks with a deep voice? We arent sure if its just Red pranking us but it feels like another “person”. Also rarely fronts.

#DID #dissociative alters #alters

[goatlingsvent]

sorry my keyboardd is bad, but its me 2000s, ive been lurking around this blog for a little while now and i had no idea a lot of you had isssues with me and im very sorry for any inconvenience ive caused. this site has given me great anxiety and has worsened things for me, i wasnt sure how i was gonna respond to any of this considering my communication is not that great and im very poor with words.. all i can say is that im sorry, i just dont understand why people dont come to me personally andd instead rant on a blog about it

if i cause that much trouble to anyone im willing to leave everyone alone by leaving the community, i dont mean to be in your presence and that i annoy you. its best to tell me things straight up otherwise i dont really know how you actually feel about me.

to 🦖 anon, i was doing reddraws cause i was motivatedd, andd needed something to do since ive been suffering major burnout from both body fatigue and boredom, i have not been physically andd mentally well at all and needded to distract myself. i wasnt trying to be seen as whiney, if  anything i was excitedd to see the artist's takes on the redraws and wwas interestedd cause i drew something similar, i didnt mean to make this negative. if anything, im also practicing to become aa goatlings artist andd seeing for trial and error, so i gave it a shot. if any of you have a problem with me redrawing things please just... tell me and i wont ddo it ever again, since it already caused someone to get mad.

im sorry if all of this was wordded poorly, i really ddont know what to say nor how to respond to any of this

also... please respectt my pronouns, misgendering me is not cool, i go by xe/xem.

[corntort]

PSYCHONAUTS 2 IS SO GOOOOOOOOD

#ive never really been intrigued by a game so fucking immediately as i have been with this one #but this is the first game ive Ever gone into almost completely blind because i didnt wanna spoil the fun for me #usually im like anxious to get into a game without knowing about it but this one i was like NO we are DEFINITELY doing this with a fresh min #mind* #AND IT WAS WORTH IT so far im having SO MUCH FUN and im so so so excited to keep playing #raz is charming i love milla the rest of the main crew so much #even the whiney rich kid girl even she is interesting to me #and ive tried SO hard not to belt out laughing on some of the bits i gotta play this with the polycule as my witness #i had to stop myself earlier though after a boss so i would like. actually do something else with my afternoon sdjfhsdkf #rambles #its so good. three of u mfs are kinbait #if a game catches MY ATTENTION. ME? the guy who REALLY doesnt like playing many games #u know its good

[mister-lady]

Wow I wanna go home rn,,

#hru #it has been...a long week for me #and its only been half the week as well.. #ugh im fully unprepared #i wanna go to my room and swaddle myself in a blanket and maybe take a really hot shower and forget about everything else #maybe loudly blast music in my ears or watch sanders sides or play stardew valley #im sorry ive been so whiney recentlt #if i knew two compkaints over a bad chicken plush i made would bend me over sideways and screw me i definitely wouldve prepared more #debating between complaining about everything ever or never complaining again #caus i know bottling up is bad but i feel like crud anytime people say and i say im doin bad several days in a row #i dont wanna mess up their mood becau im sad or somethi

[chisatowo]

I wish there was more Mahiru content

#rat rambles #rat vents #they are really important to me but I cant even bring myself to talk about them most of the time since I know most people just dont care #the fact that I explicitly dont ship them with people doesnt help #I feel like Im being kind of whiney rn but I dont have any other real comforts rn so Im going to complain a lil bit #I wish my mom would get me a therapist already #but even then Im just so bad at just letting myself express things #this is the first time Ive been able to fully cry in front of someone in a long time #but I dont know how to deal with grief. I wasnt ready for this #Im so sorry Im trying so hard not to break down too bad but its rly hard #I feel invisible rn and I dont like it

[youareunbearable]

god this is whiney but a while ago i got a comment on the SVSSS fic i wrote for christmas, that literally was just “The chinese dont celebrate christmas :/” and its STILL boggling my mind at the audacity 

 Like, I’ve tagged it as a christmas fic, I put in the authors notes at the beginning that this is a vent fic about how christmas for me wasnt the same this year cause of covid/how i missed spending time with my extended family, and I also mentioned IN FIC about why SQQ even cares about Christmas in the first place??? Like the whole plot is that christmas doesn’t exist in PIDW because it’s not a chinese holiday???? but Shen Yuan celebrated it with his family before he died cause his family always held a big business/family function christmas party for their american partners?????? and that now he’s in a xianxia harem novel, its his first christmas alone/where it doesn’t feel like a holiday cause its not one?????? but manages to have a nice day off with Binghe anyways?????? Like its literally the plot of the story that China Doesn’t Celebrate Christmas 

So WHY would someone FIRST click the christmas fic for a chinese media if they didn’t want to read about Chinese ppl kinda celebrating christmas, THEN like, bypass the disclaimer and all my personal comments about why I wrote this, AS WELL AS just missing the whole fucking plot of the fic and then having the AUDACITY to put me down for writing what I wrote

Then when I replied and basically told them that SQQ explains why hes missing christmas in fic, and that its a vent fic, and then basically re did my disclaimer where I wasn’t trying to be culturally insensitive and how i did research blah blah blah they replied back with “Oh I Must Have Missed That” LIKE DID U LOOK AT ANY OF THE WORDS I PUT DOWN ON THAT PAGE????????????? LIKE AT ALL???????? DID YOU EVEN READ THE FIC OR DID U SEE THE TAG “christmas” AND DECIDE TO GATEKEEP/”actually this is kinda racist” ME????????? IF I WANTED SQQ TO GO TO A FUCKING SWEAT LODGE OR PARTICIPATE IN A FULL MOON CEREMONY OR GO TO A POWWOW I WOULD BECAUSE GUESS WHAT!!!!!! I WROTE IT!!!!!!!!! ITS A   F A N F I C T I O N   OF A NOVEL THAT BASED ON THE CONCEPT OF SHITTY HAREM PORN!!!!!! FOR ALL WE KNOW CHRISTMAS COULD BE CANNON AND ITS A PLOT POINT BECAUSE LBH D!CKED MS CLAUSE TO SAVE CHRISTMAS!!!!!!! LBH COULD HAVE CUCKED SANTA IN CANON AND WELL NEVER KNOW BECASUE IT WAS NEVER MENTIONED BC SHEN YUAN OR SQH DIDNT CARE TO MENTION IT!!!!!

#ambers being a whiney bby again #im heated like the critical thinking is not there #if you dont have anything nice to say why say it???? #how dare someone critic my vent fic u beetch #im literally heated and kinda want to spite write a thing where shen yuan is half Anishinaabe now Just Cause I Can #SVSSS #im normally better at handling shitty comments like this but i need to vent about this one before it follows me everywhere and i over think #its been almost a month and ive kept my bitterness about this in my heart and im letting go #i didn't even really want to make a christmas fic in the first place cause i was worried about being culturally insensitive #so maybe thats why its upsetting me?????? who knows not me #every time ive written a fic that has to do with culture somehow ive gotten at least one comment tyring to gatekeep #like a bitch Cant Have Opinions About Things They Celebrate on the internet #write fics about native characters doing native things Ive done or studied and its like Actually Youre Wrong or This Is Racist #I thought christmas would have been safe cause its a big holiday and its even celebrated in china even if its obv not as important in canada #like its just a second valentines day???? but NOOOOOO im still racist #i wanna write fics about the chinese dramas and novels im reading but i might just stick with transformers #can't say im racist if its about fictional alien robots in space whos culture is based off of systems and cycles of oppression!!!

[moonrver]

I said I a sigular person liked my post I would write a smash or pass list of the current f1 grid and @veryspecificfantasies did like it but it took me two whole weeks to write it somehow

So here is smash or pass: f1 from someone who is both very inexperienced and slightly prudish in the real world but has extensive Opinions

lewis: so we all know he's the most attractive on the grid, like its not up for debate in my opinion BUT.... .idk there's just something very dom about him? And I'm really not into that, like its so uncomfortable to me. We would not be compatible. So for that reason alone I'm gonna respectfully say pass (also apparently he's into feet and I just. I can't even think about that)

george: i go to Oxford so I've met 1000 george russells in the past few years. He's either a raging mansplaining tory or he's just kind of wooden and... southern. And I just feel like he wouldn't be that good in bed? Pass.

max: pass

checo: if he was younger I'd probably say smash bc he seems like a real romantic but I just see him as such a dad so im saying pass

charles: idk how compatible we'd be but ugh that face, how could I not? Smash.

carlos: literally ges like a mills and boon romance novel love interest. He is the definition of STEAMY. The luscious hair, the intense eyes, the lips, the abs. He would treat me right, I would have the night of my life. Smashhhh

daniel: of course I'm gonna smash. This man gave me an entire sexual awakening, I want to bite his nose. Can't tell if he'd be a freak of very intense and loving but either way it would be fun, he wouldn't stop talking, and you'd cuddle afterwards :)

lando: girlies he just doesn't do it for me. And he's so whiney and awkward and combined with my prudishness we'd either never make it that far or would have the most unpleasurable 3 minute sex known to man.

pierre: he's a freak he's a slut he's a hoe his abs make me go insane I would smash maybe once for the night of my life. He would not make me breakfast and would not text me.

yuki: this applies to lando too but im kind of short man phobic? I know that's a bad thing to say but its true, I'm a curvy gal and I feel insecure when im with men smaller than me so it just wouldn't work with yuki. but he is the driver I would most like to hang out with, he seems so fun and we could go shopping and eat good food :)

esteban: hear me out. There has always been something about este ive been into. He's got the height going for him but I also think he's an underrated hottie (and also looks just like the guy I was getting with from work....). And he's the driver I could see myself most realistically dating cos he's the right level of sweetheart. I dont know if he'd necessary be...Good? In bed at first? But he would be very...loving And try v hard :))) smash and date

fernando: short man phobic and also he's a but scary so pass but maybe as a younger man...

valterri: OK so idk if I'd be immediately into him but I feel like we'd get drunk together in an old pub or a snowy cabin or something and have a great time and really make each other laugh and id find myself increasingly drawn to him and then I just feel like he would give his ALL in bed, like he would work SO HARD and be SO INTENSE and it would be really hot and then he would make me a coffee and a nice snack and maybe we'd cuddle.

guanyu: I know so little about him other than his impeccable prada fits so im saying pass but this is subject to review

seb: rn his hair and bear put me off but like ferrari era...or even last year? There's just something about him? He' would......seduce me? So maybe smash idk???

lance: OK so with his older hair? With the swoopy fringe? Such a smash, i found him so hot and he has beautiful eyes but I hate his current hair sm id have to pass

alex: exact same as este, he has the height and he seems like the sweetest bf

nicky: pass, I'm just not into him

kevin: im on the fence...idk..hes a good looking guy so maybe smash? But I don't care too much either way

mick: this boyyy yes absolutely smash but not smash make love and stare into each others eyes and get married and grow old together :) :) :)

#forgive me for this #f1 #Daniel ricciardo #lewis hamilton

[jangofctts]

omg I just read so much of your writing and I’m 🥺🥰🥲🥵 the absolute royalty shit that we see here today. i’ve recently discovered I am very into ~thigh riding~ so do u have any thots on how our boys (especially our clone babes) feel about it? much obliged

IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS ALL DAY KEJHKJRH SO HERE YOU GO OMG

boba: yEs--boba absolutely adORES when you crawl into his lap and straddle his thigh. he’ll either pat his lap and invite you up or it’s one of those times when he’s intentionally ignoring you and you have force your way onto his lap so he has to pay attention. imo the first time you ride his thigh you weren't intending to, you wanted to fuck him but with boba, if you want something from him he’s gonna do it his way or twist it into something to tease you. so he’ll say something like “if you’re so desperate, ride my thigh” or maybe “ride my thigh and then we’ll see if you deserve my cock.” he’ll sit back and enjoy the show with a smug grin, one hand gripping your hip. he’s not controlling your pace, it’s mostly just there as an anchor bc you’re gonna be doing all the work. you’re lucky if you get to ride his bare thigh, but most of the time he’s got pants on so they always end up soaked after you cum and boba always teases you for it, “ruined another pair of pants, little one” but really he isn't even one to talk, he’ll be rock hard and leaking through his pants too. he’ll also nine times out of ten put his fingers or thumb into your mouth to suck on while he flexes and pushes the hard muscle of his thigh up to your cunt. he likes that satisfaction of knowing that even his thigh can make you shudder and whine his name--a bit of a power trip esp if he’s sitting on the throne. he’ll fuck you nice and hard afterwards if you’re a good little princess for him          

din: din wants you to ride the beskar thigh plating. he doesn't realize it’s a thing he finds arousing until you sit over his thigh and he sees the heat from your thighs fog up the metal while your arousal smears over the shiny beskar. literally it’s like something just CRACKS in him and he goes feral for it. a dark thrill that comes from seeing your cunt drip over his precious armor, something so sacrilegious that shouldn't be arousing but it’s the hottest thing he’s ever seen. sure, it’s a bit cold at first but the more you get into it the quicker it heats up--it’s slippery too, not a lot of friction unless you drag your clit over the seams of the armor, but with din’s hands holding onto your hips and dragging you over his thigh, it’s not long before you cum. din is gonna be encouraging you the whole time, just a constant flow of praise and little moans of his own. he might bury a hand in your hair or slip off his glove and touch your clit when your hips roll up into his hand. he’d loose his mind if you lended a hand and palmed him through his pants. he doesn't even care if he ruins his trousers, he’s just so...fixated on the hypnotic motions of your hips rolling over his thigh, your wetness dripping off the plating and onto the floor. he might focus on your mouth, parted with gasping moans or how they roll the syllable of his name. he likes to watch you come undone like this, shuddering and whiney as you cum and eventually roll off his thigh. he probably busts a nut right then and there if you start to roll your tongue over the beskar, happily cleaning up the mess you made. but....sometimes...lick it off himself just to get a taste of you       

paz: big boy blue ALSO likes when you ride his beskar, but he likes it better when the armor is off and he gets to feel your wetness for himself. he has big ol’ beefy thighs and likes when you straddle one and start to ride him like that. imo he likes it when youre pressed up right near his cock so when you roll forward your own thigh brushes against his cock. it’s also just easier for him to grab your hips, set a pace and watch you squirm and whine. ngl he’s more interested in fucking you, so he’ll get cheeky and start jerking his thigh or holding you in place while he circles his thumb over your clit. p much will sabotage your wild ride and convince you to slide onto his cock instead. though,....if you were to tie him up, tease him bye riding his thigh, he might like that :)  

rex: oH rexY BOY--listen, rex has heard ALL about thigh riding, or rather what the clones like to call it, “paint job”. he doesn't understand the big deal, thinks that it’d be a complete hassle to clean and what not. in my oPiNiOn he’ll be sitting with you in an empty break room or on a couch, you both have feelings for each other but nothing's been said yet. somehow the topic of paint jobs come up and he tells you what he thinks and how it “couldn't possibly feel good, blah blah blah”. you just roll your eyes and you ask if he’s even tried it. he definitely blushes and mumbles out a no and with a leap of faith you ask him if he wants you to ride his thigh. baby boy rex gets very shy and embarrassed about it but he’s not gonna say no. so you’ll flash him a little grin and peel off your pants and your over shirt, make rex relax against the back of the couch/chair and sit over his plastoid covered thigh. even though when you start to grind on his thigh you still have your underwear on, rex with pick a corner of the room to just stare at. it’s not because he doesn't like you, he’s just incredibly shy and afraid he’ll cum in his pants if he looks at you. you gotta cup his jaw and force him to look at you. when that happens his eye will immediately drop to between your legs and just moan at the sight. he gets it now. seeing your arousal that’s already leaking through the thin fabric and staining the blue and white plastoid--he has to grip the fucking sidearm to anchor himself. his armor is one of the only things that he owns and is proud of, so seeing you riding his thigh, moaning and whimpering his name he goes wild for that shit. unfortunately he does end up cumming in his pants but eh fuck it. it was worth it   

cody: he likes when you ride his thigh in semi public places like the 79′s, debrief room, gunships, you name it. imma explain the 79′s scenario bc im a whore but anyway, cody likes to bring you on dates there, one because the drinks are free for him, two it’s dark and so unless someone is really looking at the two of you, it’s pretty secluded. he always chooses a back corner table and after a couple drinks you start to get handsy--nuzzling his neck and wiggling your fingers between the gaps separating his thigh and codpiece. it alWAYS starts like that. cody will chuckle, push his nose into your neck and nibble a line up to your ear, then bite down onto the cartilage. in that dark, rumbly voice he might sigh “such a depraved little creature. we’re in public”. but you can feel his smile and how is pulse quickens under your fingertips. cody will sigh and shake his head as he pulls you onto his lap, bUT--he’s gonna have you with your back to his chest plate, your dress/skirt/pants rolled up or down just barely in the view of anyone who glances over or looks a little closer. it’d be no secret what you both were up to but cody likes that. dude doesn't have any shame and so he’ll wrap an arm over your hip, push you panties to the side and slide his fingers through your folds. once they're coated in your arousal he might pop them into his mouth or yours, clean them off then flex his thigh onto your pussy. when he asks you to grind on his thigh you readily agree. while you ride his thigh he’ll nibble at your throat and suck bruises onto your skin, either watching your wet pussy slide over the plastoid armor or on the look out in case one of his brothers comes near. one time, just as you started to cum, a couple fresh shiny’s got an entire eyeful of you arching and burying your nose into cody’s neck as he rolled his fingers over your clit. safe to say they were a bit spooked--but of course, cody thought it was the funniest thing and couldn't stop laughing even if you were close to tears with embarrassment. now....he doesn't invite anyone to watch, but he wouldn't say no to a few prying eyes          

wolffe: I feel like with wolffe, it’s gonna be right after a mission--one of you might've almost died or gotten real hurt so he’s not thinking about fucking you properly--he just want his mouth on yours, hands buried in your hair as he pins you against the wall. I dont think he initially meant for you to ride his thigh, but when he wedges it between your legs and you moan into his mouth the second he increases the pressure, he freezes. he’ll do it again and when it receives the same reaction from you he smirks and tugs on your hair and might say smthn like “you like that? if you wanted to ride my thigh you could've asked sooner”. he’s either focused on your face or on your pussy, just soaking up all your little reactions or twitches when you roll your cunt over the plastoid. he'll have both hands on your hips, helping you grin up on him, while you either cup his face or grip his arm. either way youre in for a wild fucking ride--wolffe tbh wants to see his armor dripping by the time he’s done with you. sO do nOT be surprised if he just, doesn't let you stop, pushes you to keep going until he’s satisfied. imo I think he’ll make you lick it up after, or just in general would really Like It if you run your tongue over any part of his armor. he likes to be Appreciated :)

wrecker (im sorry I just nEEDed to include him kejkejh): honestly since baby boy wrecker is uh, so big, thigh riding is some of the first things you try with him. you’ll both be butt ass naked bc it’s just easier to explore like this, and while wrecker is eager he knows he has to think about his strength in order not to overwhelm or hurt you unintentionally. he’s a bit of a goof ball so when you straddle his thigh and bring his thicC fingers to your cunt he’ll smile and say some shit like “wow, you’re wet” or like “is it always this wet/soft?” he doesn't mean for it to be teasing, it's more like he’s just stating a fact bc he’s curious about you. you just nod and say it’s all for you, baby/only for you. the second you put your cunt over his thigh he’ll curse and clamp his hands around your hips or ribcage, and just to make the experience all that better for him, you’ll jerk him off while you ride him. wrecker is very vocal/loud and so you’ll know exactly what you’re doing that he likes--he’ll probably tell you how pretty you look, or how good you smell etc., that bOY IS SO FULL OF LOVE and just wants to tell you! it doesn't take long for him to spill into your hand, he shakes and no doubt wakes up half the barrack/ship but who the fuck cares. you just smile and continue to ride his thigh, chasing your own thigh. once he recovers a bit, you can grab his fingers and show him how you like to be touched. he’s a surprisingly quick learner with this and so it doesn't take long for you to cum. afterwards he’ll run his fingers over his thigh, collect the mess you left and taste you and maybe say “you should ride my face. can we do that?”     

#yeeHAW this was #whEW #jkkjehr #boba fett x reader #din djarin #paz vizsla x reader #commander wolffe x reader #wrecker tcw #wrecker x reader #boba fett #paz vizsla #captain rex x reader #captain rex #commander wolffe #commander cody #the bad batch #my writing