#i just keep thinking about the what ifs

[couldreallyeatawholecakerightnow]

Honestly so consumed by thoughts rn

#personal #rlly struggling tbh #aus government said my visa application is likely to be denied bc of my MS #which i ubderstand bc they have hniversal healthcare here #but also #it feels so fucked up they can tell me to gtfo when ivw handed them 7k and im on my knees begging to be able to stay here with my fiance #i just keep thinking about the what ifs #theres excitement about the possibility of living in WA state agajn #theres frustration #and like #what about all my shit #i gave away so much stuff i loved to move herr #and my cat!!!! #and if i get denied ill have to do it again #and then its flipped #and my fiance has to move away from all he knows and we have to give up our cat #ugh #im just so distracted today by this. #and probably for awhile

[qsmprambling]

Imagine Egg A1 still has one life left, and it somehow manages to escape the facility... It is being followed by mobs, by Federation employees, being hurt by the poison ivy and other environmental threats, but it keeps running, because what other choice is there? That parkour course was a trick after all, the last block was a fake, it was never meant to pass that test in the first place.

So it keeps running, but the Federation workers are getting closer. It won't be able to avoid them forever...

But then it bursts through some bushes and comes face to face with someone new - and it's Bad, out building or exploring or just wandering alone. A1 is immediately afraid, of course. It is a stranger, a very visually striking stranger, the complete opposite of the pure white and featureless employees of the Federation. But there are people close behind, and it knows what will happen to it if it is caught, so... It has no choice but to try. It has no way to communicate, no signs or books, so it simply rushes to hide behind him and hopes he understands, and that he is willing to help...

And Bad, for his part, well.. he's an extremely cautious and paranoid person, and this is just an incredibly confusing and unexpected situation to be in. An unknown egg appeared out of nowhere and is hiding behind him, he can see Federation employees in the distance that are clearly looking for something... He knows that the code has been disguising itself as eggs, and that the strange egg in front of him with no marks, no distinguishing features, an egg that he has never seen before, could easily be the code monster preparing to attack at any moment...

But there is absolutely no way Bad could ever look at an egg in distress and not try to help it, even knowing it could be a trap.

So he quickly digs a shallow hole and pushes the mysterious egg into it, covering it up just in time, and when the employees throw him a book asking if he had seen anything, he lies effortlessly, he complains about nonsense, he asks them where the Ekea is and is as annoying as he can be, until they leave.

And now they're alone... just Bad an this mystery egg in the middle of the woods, A1 too afraid to leave the hole even when Bad tries to coax it out. He gives it food and tries his best to comfort it, to tell it everything is okay and that the pursuers are gone. He gives it some signs and a book, trying to see if it will write anything to him or answer any of his questions, but he gets no reply. A1 is just too afraid to even attempt to answer, and Bad doesn't even know if it understands him. He tries what few words he does know of the other languages, and still no response.

What should he do? As much as the image of a tiny, terrified egg makes him want to do all he can for it he also needs to be safe. He can't bring it home, because if it is a code there is no way he is bringing it anywhere near Dapper. Should he call someone else for help, or would that draw too much attention? Would it even be safe for him or the egg to let anyone know right now? And was this egg dangerous, or harmless and in need of protection? He wouldn't abandon it regardless but...

What now?

#Egg A1 #badboyhalo #I am a Bad watcher it will always be qBad in my what ifs even if anyone could do it #Plus he is perfect for the job #I can't write fic but yes this is basically an A1 fic oops #ElQuackity you thought killing a featureless egg was a safe option but you're wrong we are all attached #I want A1 to be alive and to escape to be adored and protected #Also I bet if Bad got caught with a mystery egg I think he'd just go 'Huh? No this is my other child you just never saw them before :)' #Also for some reason my brain was calling A1 'Alice' but then I saw people using 'Ai' and that's adorable too~ #Though it also makes me think 'artificial intelligence' but hey maybe that is fitting for the fabricated eggs theory XD #'What now' I ask as if I am not already imagining Bad trying to protect A1 and also be safe in case it is a threat #not wanting to think it is but unable to know otherwise #but also being so BBH about it and just being in complete dad mode when they interact #he keeps it in it's own safe little secure home and does what he can to help it with minimal communication for several days #until A1 starts to open up little by little - incredibly slowly #Bad very gradually telling very select people about it #until eventually when the Federation finds out - everyone who knows is immediately hmm what no this is our child what do you mean? #and go ultra protective #because A1 deserves the world #fic within the tags yes #Bad ruined my sleep schedule and I can't sleep mindless rambles time

[autumnfangirler]

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#im not (physically) disabled nor have i played enough ifs to say but ive been getting into them more recently #and now im curious- are there any ifs where people are able to customize their characters disabilities/mobility aids? #im not talking about ones that are plot relevant (like losing a limb or getting a curse or things like that) #im talking about like. during character creation. like for example a character having constant pain in their shoulders or chronic migraines #and maybe specifying that they use canes/rollators/wheelchairs etc to get around #or maybe sunglasses/earbuds to deal with sensory overload #and if not then why? is it just because potential disabilities and how they affect a person are too vast to fit into character creation #or require too many instances to keep track of? i assume that depending on the severity then itll affect a lot of how they do things #ig thinking about that all the time would be a lot #or is it just a story thing? like most of the stories would be derailed by trying to keep track of it #idk like i said im not disabled #i wouldnt know lol #but im curious what others think of this? like. are there things im not taking into consideration about this #ramblings

[melverie]

Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh today I've been constantly experiencing the urge to un-private today-in-the-devildom & start writing for it again

#i'm gonna ramble in the tags but #i've been talking with starr (if you're reading this--hi starr!! <3) about the blog today and sharing some of the entries #and it just made me miss it so much #+ the conversation actually made me realize some other reasons why i didn't enjoy the blog in general anymore #like i genuinely love the blog and i genuinely loved writing for it & that conversation reminded me of that #but also there were so many reasons that ultimately pushed me to more or less abandon the blog & then later private it too #so i'm kind of at a loss here #tbh i think i'm mostly just scared to pick the blog up again only for it to end exactly like last time i picked it back up #i've actually always wanted for the blog to be a source of inspiration y'know? #like the things mentioned in the entries are kinda just small ideas right #i was hoping that people would read these & feel inspired to write or draw something of their own based on my entries #that was actually what made me start the blog in the first place. the hope that i could inspire others that way #aaahhhhhh.... maybe it's on me since i could have more openly communicated that idea...... #i did get to meet one wonderful person who wrote a few fics based on my entries tho!! (hi ali <3) #but yeah..there's that #also the way engagement just dropped significantly after a while #like i know i was gone for a good while & that a lot of people left the fandom and all that #but still getting maybe one reblog if i'm lucky really feels like a punch to the gut #ESPECIALLY considering that i was close to 900 followers on there #do you guys know that feeling when you proudly show someone you care about something you did only to get a disinterested answer? #yeah... #that's essentially how it feels like to me #and well as you might know the feeling of “why should i keep writing if apparently no one cares” eventually won... haha..... #but aaaahhhhh i'm still clinging onto the hope & what ifs here #that conversation with starr really just made me forget about everything that frustrated me about the blog & left me with this #longing feeling to start again lol #hey if you've made it this far into the tags let me just ask--would you care if i picked the blog back up? #would you also *show* that you care? #i'm actually quite curious (you could almost call me george lol) #anyway maybe we'll see each other on today-in-the-devildom again in the future.. who knows

[pyrriax]

hi tumblr im pyrr pyrriax and im in my trimonthly artist arc, lord help me and all the projects that are currently sitting in my drafts while i am lured in by the siren song of drawing

#haunted ecosystem #this is not helping with how much my hands hurt on a daily basis this is why i type and dont handwrite/draw very much. #im lured in regardless and i really need to find an artform that doesnt Hurt but for now. digital art <3 #like theres a difference between my dumb doodles (quick easy not much different from regular computer usage) and actual art #but im an artist at heart i spent sooooo long being an artist and thinking i was shit at writing. that is wrong! im actually kinda good #im rambling in tags today because i have been not social (my partner is in genshin hell and my beloved is. somewhere.) #okay but on another note i reread the first. couple chapters of wtds this morning? the pacing is a little weird and the tense is fucked #but its actually a lot better than i thought it was? you can tell i was fleshing everybody out in my head and i totally forgot about how #i described the watcher [who i am STILL redacting the name of until we get there] and just. ough. pandora being very logical #and then jumping to the latest chapter and fucking sobbing because i forgot about how it went and just. pandora and his. #whatever the fuck is wrong with him. #i have gotta start recommending people read that again. its surprisingly friendly without context because of how i approached it #that fic has taught me so many things its actually a little comical. it also made me relearn how to make and write ocs so thats fun #once i finish that main fic (and i WILL i am actually planning to sign up for a thing. im finishing it i swear.) i finally get to show off #more of the world and characters ive crafted. showing backstories and what-ifs and all these oneshots ive been keeping close to my chest #for like absolutely ages because i dont want any spoilers on my tumblr #and. im finishing that fic in pseudo-memoriam of somebody who deleted their accounts everywhere. still miss you dane! #ok this has completely gone off topic ily tumblr im going back to drawing and i might make a new pfp #it'll still be lavius but it'll be fray lavius since i think about him a lot and i like his color palette.

[weenhands]

i think lately ive been kinda craving being in a relationship again and i hate it

#the things i keep thinking about and wanting r really speaking to me in a way where #i dont want certain ppl i fantasize about or have what ifs #as much as i normally do #i mostly just want to be in love again with someone #to just exchange love #and i think this is due to how numb i feel inside lately😳😳😳😳 #bc i cant. feel anything anymore #but yeah. i just wanna be held and kissed and to hold hands and to dress up for dates and to call someone my boyfriend again #im ready for it and ive always been. i just want to also sort out Other stuff deep within

[gncrezan]

hey sorry if this is a dumb question but i wanted to start playing infamous, because i trust your opinion/taste so much because you're a rezan diehard, but with dashingdon is there a way to save your file onto your computer like you can with atoc? or do I just have to keep the tab open forever? like, once im all caught up to where the story is rn and the next installment comes out, do you just have to remember and replay all the same choices to get back to where you were? (i hope this makes sense)

HI !!! there is no way to download those save files :( for reference, i think there's a workaround for games published on steam (so wayhaven for example) but that doesn't . apply here. i am so sorry for not being to help w that

BUT those saves do remain even if you close the tab, close the browser, restart your device, etc, as long as you don't clear your cache! i usually play IF on my laptop so i can't say how easy it is to play on mobile, but i virtually don't ever lose saves on desktop! i haven't lost any so far and i've run through it a lot from the saves i have (i tend to save like.. at the beginning of chaps. sc below if it helps LOL) to get to things like drawing refs!! also a warning not to save on the stats page, since that corrupts the save, and to always do it on the game text itself!

it is a bitch to move from one device to the next though, and i know from experience because i got a new laptop and then realised i'd have to replay a bunch of games. which is technically a labour of love but still annoying, if for example you've got lots of playthroughs :( and it does mean you're limited to the amount of save slots available on each game, but that number differs from game-to-game 🤔

hope this helps!! if i didn't answer what you were looking for just send me another ask and i can see if i can help!!! i hope this also gets you to play infamous!!!!!!!!!🤩🤩🤩

#thanks by the way for your opening lines because that is going directly into the about #rezan diehard. thank you. its true. it made me laugh for 5 minutes straight #i wanted to hold off answering so i could keep this in my inbox #and. so sorry also. because it feels like im just pointing obvious things out :( idk if this actually answers anything #if anyone does know a way to get more saves it would also help me LOL. i think the most saves ive seen is like. 10-12?? #but that was coded in by the author themselves . tried to dig around on the forums too but i cant find anything #also found out saves is not a normal thing on cog and that some games dont typically like. have the option at all #thats crazy. id die #answered #anon #ALSO. JUST THOUGHT OF THIS. sometimes IFs will require u to play the whole tihng anyway bc of like #big coding changes. like added factors earlier in the game that you hv to choose again or it breaks #but i dont think thats what u were asking for. IM SO SORRY

[abunchleoftadishes]

Watching all the hunger games movies again because the prequel came out, and now I'm bawling my eyes out because of everything in the story. Fucking help 😭

#I'm watching it with mom and i almost made her cry too sjdjskdjsk #when she started singing the hanging tree song and district 5 went to blow up the dam i just broke hhhhkkhhkkk #like why do i even remotely like this #it's all just pain #and regrets #at least when it comes to Lucy Grey and Coriolanus and Sejanus aaaaaamKzkj(mmm?! #I'm buying the prequel book too #i need to read about the insanity that is Coriolanus Snow #I fucking love his character and everything #like how Suzanne wrote him is just amazing #I keep thinking of the what ifs #like what if he didn't follow in the foot steps of his father and didn't go fucking insane and agajsosnsks #also Tom Blyth is super good as Coriolanus #i don't care what others think of his or the movie or whatever #i fucking loved it #it was amazing to see the... rawness of it #before hunger games became the performance #also great to see Coriolanus be a bit less insane and cold to everyone and everything around him #the hunger games #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #thg #tbosas #i have a headache from the crying and the shit storm that is the fucking story #i actually watched the Mockingjay part 4 for my birthday when it came out #fitting that i watched tbosas for my birthday too #actually the only movies I've watched for my birthday

[michiganmerchant]

#i'm losing a war against the mceichel worms in my brains and its like #their dynamic to ME is that one mary oliver quote thats like ''let the soft animal of your body love what it loves'' #except what connor loves is an angry little raccoon he picked up by accident from the trash can (jack) #i think. what is so compelling to me about them in ways that other connor ships do not move me in #well first anytime we're doing lovers to enemies i'm on board but mostly its the whole. not being friends #look one romantic aspect we do not talk enough about is the idea that you wouldnt be friends with your partner if you werent in a #relationship which like. doesnt make sense right? arent all good relationships built on a foundation of platonic affection? #but you would be surprised! at how many people fall into this kind of dynamic! because at the end of the day being partners is a CHOICE #oh my god it was always a choice #anyways i love projecting real life relationship dynamics on fictional men #and i just think. ifs the acknowledgement that they wouldnt particularly work well outside of a romantic aspect that Gets Me So Badly #we're either lovers or strangers #<- THEE mceichel thesis to me #and its just stupid cute and stupid human to find urself falling in love with someone you wouldnt expect #i want that for the both of them. they both need je nay say kwas to keep their incredibly regimented lives normal and fun. #ANYWys. #thinking. perhaps even thoughting. thunking.

[i-miss-lotor]

I'm still hurt by how much Max listened to Running Up That Hill because she probably imagined so many times what would happen if she died instead of Billy and even wished for it

#at least in my mind she did #bc sure billy and max weren’t exactly friends #but i bet she keeps thinking about what ifs and what would have beens #like what if they were friends #what if billy was a little kinder #what if his dad didn’t fuck him up #what if max could have helped #what if she actually did try and help #see what i mean? #and the guilt man the guilt sure is killing her #canonically oof #what if they understood each other a bit more #and i think about billy's last word being #im so sad man #also like #they did like each other i think #just a little bit #idk maybe things in california were better or maybe it's the time billy was possessed and took back control a bit #maybe its just them being them #but i like to think that max is devastated bc of this too and not just the guilt of it #i mean ofc she wishes for better times but #anyway #stranger things #max mayfield #billy hargrove #max and billy #i also like to think about steve and max bonding but thats for another time #maybe #and also i know or at least i heard that the song is about understanding each other and ofc max listened to it bc of that too

[twentyfourfloors]

currently on the initiating side of a breakup and i kind of feel like a monster but i know that this is right for both of us.

#i can't stop thinking about the first person i ever fell in love with. and it's #such an awful feeling to be the reason for someone else's devastation but when all i can do is think about my ex i know that she deserves #so much better than what i can give her. i wish her well but we just aren't right for each other. not when i dont think i ever got over them #i have thought about them every single day since the last time we spoke almost two years ago now. they are quite literally always in my #dreams lol. so much so that i even thought about reaching out to them a few weeks ago but saw they were in a relationship now and #it wouldn't be fair of me to reach out. i check their blog all of the time to keep some part of them in my life which is. pathetic! lol #but i have never really felt the same way about anyone else and i feel like if i met them now instead of 4 years ago we maybe could have #made it. i will literally always think of the what ifs with them. right person wrong time #will never stop regretting my part in the toxicity. i wish we met each other in a different time in both of our lives where we had a fair #shot yk. the what if's will never end #i saw like last week that they had posted something about how they think of the first person they ever fell in love with too and i think #or hope rather. that that's me. but they also seem really happy in their relationship so i don't even know how that would be received if i #did reach out. but i couldn't knowingly do that while they were in a relationship #ever since then my life has kinda been turned upside down tbh.

[just-let-me-see-accounts]

One thing they will not tell you about writing is how fun it is to project on your characters.

#Lmao YOU get my anxiety #YOU get my derealisation and how it's tangled with my parental issues #YOU get my— #Wait hold on #You... only have my longing “what ifs” but real and happy childhood memories or “childhood memories but make them happy”..? #Erm... okay... #I struggle a bit with that one because it's like “Huh?” #“You want me to write about lir parents and memories without it being melancholic??” #Like you two are going to STAY silly–goofy SO HELP ME #But I get a spike of anxiety every time lir parents are mentioned and it's like #Oh wait no they're cool I know this I literally wrote them as chill guys #I was planning on having a story focused on a character's paranoia about potentially encountering their dad out in the wild #Based on how the possibility of living near my dad was momentarily (read: buildup over months) a lot more pressing/likely #But the moment's passed. Not much of a possibility we'll be moving there soon now. #It's just background radiation again (since he *does* know where we live and could conceivably fly here. Especially the longer we don't #Visit him over there) #So I don't think I could do it justice #Maybe another time if the possibility becomes more pressing again #It would've been the same subject matter as that Let's Get Burgers 3–parter where Knife keeps running into their abusive ex #For a bit I wanted to make a gross story. Y'know. Story that makes you feel gross. And it would've heavily featured my intrusive thoughts. #I don't really give characters that. I gave Micah a little moment as a treat about being killed by a wild monster/animal and Harlow had som #Anxiety thoughts. But I didn't really have my intrusive thoughts and I think it's a big part of my anxiety so I wanted to portray that. #I don't really want to do that much anymore though. Maybe later if it strikes me. #It's just...! I see a lot of characters. And I do relate to a lot of them (Hello Lake. Knife during the three parter and my interpretation #Of Wally Darling). But I feel like there are big chunks of my experiences that I just don't see. So I'm gonna do some of it myself! Even if #I'm not able to convey it exactly how I experience it! Also #Writing is a good way to get the feelings out/out there to be shared.

[aethelwyneleigh27]

Ex-husband!Simon "Ghost" Riley Drabble

Hi lovelies! Lia here again, I've been quite busy with school so I hope you guys can be a little patient with content since I've been stuck on a slump and there's a lot of things I'm currently busy with at the moment because of school despite posting so much last week. Here's the weekly content and I hope you all enjoy :)

Also how do you all feel if I write works inspired by old gacha songs? And yes I used to be a gacha girly, it was some wild phase AHAHAHA

My CoD Masterlist

Taglist: @wishesforyou @puff0o0 @simping4konig @simp4konig @blingblong55 @azereus @rustic-guitar-notes @shadofireshinobi @thesnowurzikdjinn @09maruchan @anonymuslydumb @skeletalgoats @icarustypicalfall @ghosts-cyphera @cutenote @connorsui @capuccino192 @miss-gms-and-the-rotten-womb @celestialhole @the-second-sage @starryylies @everlastingmoonlightsworld @keiva1000

Brainrot, Ex-husband!Simon "Ghost" Riley who decided he wanted to get a divorce with you because things weren't working out between the both of you, so you had to share custody of your daughter.

You managed to get yourself together, having no time to grieve that part of you that he took with him because you had a little one depending on you. You loved that girl for all she was, however she brings you and Simon together.

Not that you resent her for it, god no, it wasn't her fault you and your husband couldn't see eye to eye.. that he refused to retire after everything, maybe it was just your paranoia getting to you. You couldn't stand the fear anymore, the fear of one day he's not the one you'll see when you open the front door but Price.

You forgot how difficult it was doing this on your own until now, you could barely get up, your head was actually killing you. You pushed through, making your daughter breakfast.

You felt like you were about to throw up, ears started to ring and everything else felt numb. The next thing you know was your eyes rolling back and everything going black, the last thing you heard was your toddler panicking, calling you over and over on the verge of crying.

All while you were unconscious, your little one runs to your room to look for your phone to call her dad.

"Listen I know we—" Simon said expecting you on the phone before getting cut off by his daughter..

"Dada! Momma's dead, dada. Momma's not breathing!" In a panic, she cried it out like a mantra. Simon was in a panic, he got up from where he was and was speeding towards what used to be your shared home.

The next thing you know, you were hearing the beeps of a heart monitor. All your senses were working, all except sight.. you didn't have enough energy to open them, in the coldness of your whole body from the well ventilated room, you felt warmth on your hand.

It was all too familiar, calloused but so gentle and warm. Simon.. it was Simon. All while processing this situation, all that's going through Simon's head are the what ifs.

"Fucking hell, help her.. My wife, she's been unconscious for thirty minutes. She's breathing but it's faint and she's burning" Simon almost yelled in a full panic, he was doing his best not to snap at the hospital staff but how couldn't he? Hadn't even realized that he called you something you weren't anymore, the title he took with him.

Your little one holding her dad's hand in the waiting room, she was observant, an emotionally intelligent little girl who holds her dad's hand. Simon keeps reminding himself to calm down, how much his bumblebee must be terrified, far more than he was so he takes her in his arms.

Sooner or later they were allowed to enter, doctor said you were stabilized and only collapsed from a horrid fever and so much fatigue. Thinking of losing you, just like that with no warning would be the second time Simon would lose you.

Now watching you unconscious, IV tube connected to you because of course you haven't been eating well either. It made him rethink everything, was it a mistake to give you those papers? Was it worth it losing the one person in his life who he would give his life for with no hesitation?

All he could do for now was sit next to you, no matter how long it takes for you to wake up because he doesn't have the strength to leave, maybe in a day or two but not now..

Part 2 anyone?

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[theskeletoninthegarden]

I cracked the code for day dreaming before bed. I imagine my WIPs in modern day, drama free, coffee shop or whatever AUs, and I'm good

#If I think of something cool them I'm not allowed to think about it in detail #Otherwise I lose the desire to write it at all and/or forget details #the further I go into the plot #But I use day dreaming and/or brain storming about my stories to sleep right? #So if I think of a scenario I never actually want to write about but which still entertains me then I'm good #The Unrequited Dead? AU with no zombies and thus no apocalypse and no odd isekai situation #I can think about these characters being happy #Go through all of the what-ifs and what-nots #without feeling obligated to record any of it #Though sometimes I get too entertained and it keeps me up #I'm just weird okay? #Sometimes I miss the days when I could just think of a plot and be okay with letting it drift away forever #But then I never did quite so much writing #Anyways #in The Unrequited Dead and it's 2nd part #The lead talks to their partner about what it would have been like #meeting outside of their honestly rather unfortunate circumstance #And I take that and run with it #tossing in parallels to the “canon” story for a laugh #Ex: Robin still knows about zombies somehow but literally no one else has heard of the concept #which still blows my mind

[scarlet-traveler]

How to get rid of imposter syndrome with my writing, asking for a friend

#traveler speaks #it’s me I’m the friend #just trying to make progress on zines and other projects #and my head is getting caught up in the what ifs and comparing my work to others #I’m thinking I may have jumped the gun on doing zines when I haven’t even been writing for mha for a year but I’ll still keep going #because they’re fun! and the themes are cool! and maybe I’ll learn something new about writing by the time I’m done #but all of this comparing my head is doing is making it feel like a drag #vent

[wp100]

who would've thought that the person who introduced me to the programme ive been at for the past 5 months (that's "ended" now bc i got a job, but hey im a success story now) is now my friend. she was a total stranger when i walked into the seminar. i legit hesitated for 2 weeks about the whole thing too. i do not regret joining it one bit. i also do not regret hesitating, it's nice to have a think about something before you try it (unless it has a time limit, this didn't)

it changed my life.

if there's an opportunity right in front of you, just go for it. if it doesn't work out, you can drop out. literally this is a life lesson. do NOT be afraid to get out of your comfort zone and try new things. it'll work out in the end. i promise. life's too short to wallow in your misery.

the hardest thing to do is to Start. once you overcome that step, everything will eventually fall into place.

#i dont think of the 'what ifs' #nor do i like to think too hard about like... 'it's funny how this all worked out' bc it makes me emotional #but it IS funny how it all works out in the end huh #i got my restricted license bc of this #i probably would still be going for lessons right now had i not joined #not to mention i was looked after... learned new skills. met new people #met a family of people really #i need to keep in touch bc these people are keepers and i love them and #they are all i have down here apart from my family i live with #also i used to be so miserable until i met these amazing people... and went to this place everyday #it seriously helped with picking me up from a slump and my mental health is so much better #moving down here is the best thing to happen to us #bc it's not just about me. it's about my family too #i want my family to be part of these ppls lives too #theyre not just *my* friends. theyre family friends #hell ive spent more time with these people than some actual family members. Wild how it's like that sometimes #personal