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friends, should I spend $90 to upgrade my Maisie Peters ticket???

#rambling #i just dropped so much to see taylor in la #and I just got jonas brothers tickets #i should not be spending more money #but.....

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My Brother's Best Friend Part 6

P1 P2 P3 P4 P5 P7 P8 P9 P10 P11 P12

pairing: y/n and Chris Sturniolo

Summary: you just moved into the sturniolo’s home after some family issues and you’re starting to become attracted to your best friend’s brother and you hated yourself for it. But how could you resist?

warnings: cursing, mentions of family issues,

sorry this took a minute, love yall

xoxo Autumn

Chris pov

"A-Any of it? You don't remember any of it?" She asked looking up at me in almost fear, like she was questioning her own memory. Fuck. I pursed my lips and shook my head slowly, like my brain was rejecting my own response.

She just looked up at me evident hurt plastered on her face, she turned away to hide her expression as she nodded. I just looked down at her opening my mouth to say something but nothing came out.

I saw tears start to pool in her eyes. It felt like a punch in the gut. I'd never seen her cry before. I don't even think Nick has seen her cry. I stepped forwards before she turned without saying anything, basically sprinting towards the front door.

Like she couldn't stand standing in front of me for another second. I looked down, feeling guilt run down my entire body so much it ached.

She told me about what happened with her parents. I know what I said to her, I remembered all of it. It just felt too soon. I don't know. I'm an awful person. She hides her feelings so well, we have that in common. I didn't know my words effected her as they easily slipped off my lips.

I placed my hand on my forehead, before biting my lip and picking my head up letting out a breath.

I couldn't do this again. It wasn't fair to myself. I couldn't do this again.

I didn't meant to hurt her. I just wanted to protect myself. I didn't know meant that me turning into a complete insensitive asshole. That's not who I am and that's all i've been showing her.

"Three days ago I was good enough to kiss, then three seconds later it was just a moment and you don't have any feelings for me, this morning I was a kid, and now I'm pretty?"

I winced at the memory moving through my head. I''ll admit that it was easier to be open with how I feel about her when I was a little drunk. I'm to scared to in person, sober. It was like 15 year old Chris speaking for me while looking at her on the roof, spilling out my thoughts as she looked up at me the way she was.

Then 19 year old Chris woke up and was scared to get hurt again. It wasn't fair to her I get that, but I just wish she knew. But she didn't and she was never going to.

God, I need to burn that notebook. Even drunk seeing her holding it made my heart drop in fear.

I swallowed looking back towards the door.

I knew this would happen. The second she showed up at my front door with a bag the size of her. I knew it. I just hated myself for letting it happen, but not as much as I hated myself seeing her start to cry over my words.

I felt a buzz in my pocket, before sliding out my phone.

From: Elmer

Bro where tf u at?? were about to start

I bit my lip looking back up to the door. Before typing up a reply.

From: Elmer

something came up, i'll catch you later

I sent it before taking a deep breath and turning and walking down the street. I had to make this right.

Y/n pov

Nick sighed running his hands through my hair, as I let out a deep breath. I closed my eyes not my now damp eyelashes brushing my skin. Nick let out a breath.

"Can you tell me what happened?" He asked softly from above me. I went running to Nick's room, due to the fear of Chris bursting through the door to chase after me, newsflash y/n he didn't, but I knew he wouldn't come into Nick's room.

I crying uncontrollably not able to make any words form, just helpless cries. I don't know the last time I cried the way I just did. It might have been a year. Or at least 8 months.

I was like the tip of the iceberg that was already falling over. Just that last final push of being punched in the face by someone I cared about screaming "I don't care and I never did" directly in my face after I let my walls come down.

I let out a breath my cries finally stopping. He just peered down over me. I looked up at him.

"I'm a mess Nick" I breathed. He smiled slightly down at me, making me slightly smiling, then dropping it. I looked down at my hands and peering at the door.

He never came after me. He meant it. He had no idea what happened last night and he didn't see me cry. I swallowed, feeling the familar feeling pass through me like a wave of relazation.

I have to move on, again. Someone hurt me and broke me again. I had let someone gain my trust and they smashed in front of my face, again. How could I be so stupid? So navié. I will never learn.

For the rest of my life I will let someone in and they will burn me. I've never know anything differently. What hurt the most in the dissapointment at myself, was that I told Chris what happened before my best friend.

Chris wasn't the one soothing my cries. Nick was. Chris wasn't the one wiping away my tears. Nick was. I had put my romantic feelings for someone over my friendship with Nick, and I hated myself for it. The worst part was that I was feeling the guilt of the situation Nick had no idea about. Worst of all, It was his fucking brother.

I sighed swallowing, looking up at him.

"I just-" I took a deep breath. "I'm tired of trusting people" I said honestly looking up at him. He nodded. "I get that" He said softly. I closed my eyes.

"I'm not trying to get you to tell me something you don't want to, but did something happen at your mom's?" He asked softly, making my heart clench. Chris didn't have to do anything and I openly told him everything when he didn't ask for it. Nick saying this to me only made me feel like a worse friend.

"My mom kicked me out of the house that's why I came to stay here Nick" I admitted looking up at him. His face didn't wavor and he just nodded looking down at me.

"I just-" I sighed feeling guilty for saying I was crying over my mother when I wasn't. I was crying because his brother punched me in the gut and spit in my face.

"Seeing her, it was just-" I shook my head. He nodded, moving his hand back over my hair. I bit my lip. I hated lying to him. I fucking hated it.

I heard the door start to creek open and my eyes shot to the door, before seeing Matt peeking his head in. I sighed of relief. Matt glanced from Nick to me. He studied my face and I looked away from him, guilt present on my face.

"Is everything okay in here?" He asked his eyes not leaving mine as i avoided is gaze. Nick looked up at him. "Yeah, everything's good" Nick answered for me as I stared at the ground.

Matt shifted on his feet before crossing his arms over his chest. "Y/n, why are you crying?" He asked. I blinked up at him as he stared straight at me. I felt his mind, so much it hurt.

"Matt" Nick said shaking his head. Matt looked from me to him. I sat up sighing. "My mom doesn't love me. Would you like me to alaborate Matthew?" I asked tilting my head at him.

His face dropped and he uncrossed his arms. "Oh uh, I'm sorry i'll just leave you guys be" He said shaking his head and then turning to leave. I sighed laying back down. I'm getting way too good at lying.

I looked over at Nick, who was shaking his head. I smiled over at him.

"Do me a favor" I breathed. He just glanced over at me. "Never let Holton treat you badly" I stated looking at him. His eyebrows furrowed at my statement. He leaned back.

"What does that have to do with anything?" He asked blinking at me. If you only knew. I shrugged. "I don't know. I just don't want anyone to ever hurt you" I said softly, looking down at my hands. He chuckled.

"We've only been on two dates, it's not that serious" He said quietly. I looked up at him smiling. I smiled at him before throwing myself onto him, hugging him. He groaned laughing, holding his arms up, hating physical effection.

"Please don't ever leave me" I whispered laying against him. He reached down patting my head slightly. "There isn't anything you could do to make me go away" He repeated from the other night again. I sighed the guilt slowly eating me alive.

The rest of the night, Nick and I stayed in bed laughing over endless movies and I started to feel better. I knew when I had to come in contact with Chris again, that feeling might change, but for now I was okay. I just needed to not show that he effected me as much as he did.

I don't like guys. I always had too much going on in my own life, guys were the absoutle last thing on my mind. So maybe thats why It happened so fast, because I wasn't used to the feelings of butterflies or wanting a text to come through, or the feeling I got in the pit of my stomach when he flirted with me.

I never ever have caught feelings for someone so quickly with them doing nothing. Showing the bare amount of interest and I was head over heels. Now it was gone. Or at least had to go away.

Starting now there would be no more persuing Christopher Sturniolo. No matter what.

"This bitch has zero common sense" I said lifitng my arm up to the TV. The fifth season of Love Island playing before us. When I didn't hear a response, i turned and looked at him. His eyes were closed with his hand propted behind his head, snoring softly.

I sighed realizing Nick was sound asleep. I leaned over picking up the remote before realizing it was past midnight by now. I clicked off the TV and slowly got up before walking out of the room.

I sighed as I closed the door slowly. This is where I was meant to be. Nick's best friend and not the girl who has feelings for his brother. Or at least trying to not having feelings for.

I closed my eyes before rubbing my eyes and walking over to my room.

No more anxiety because no more feelings for Chris. If anything this would make my life better, not having to worry about my feelings along with the rest of my issues.

I opened my door before turning off the lights and climbing into bed. I needed sleep. I craved sleep. As i closed my eyes I heard my door being swung open and the licks being flipped on.

I sat up and turned towards the door, seeing Chris standing there with a huge bag and then throwing it on the floor. I just stared at him.

"Chris what the fuck are you doing?" I asked glaring up at him. He let out a breath.

"Clothes" He pointed to the bag. I looked down at the bag and then up at him. "What?" I asked shaking my head. He looked down at the bag.

"You're clothes, I got them from your house and a couple books too. I also found some shampoo under your sink if you needed that, I didn't know if you were tired of using our 3-in-1" He said looking over at me. I just blinked at him before standing up and picking up the bag and looking through it.

I looked back up at him as he watched me. “What-What about my mom?” I asked stuttering as I looked at him. How did he go into my house and face my mother?

He shrugged. “Don’t worry about it” he said putting his hands into the pocket of his sweats. I let out a breath, setting down the bag. I glanced over to him.

“Thank you” I smiled. He pressed his lips together and nodded. I just looked at him. No. No. No. y/n.“I’m sorry” he said so quietly I almost didn’t hear him. I swallowed looking down at my hands.

“For what?” My voice hitched, knowing he had more than one thing to apologize for. He sighed stepping forward, making me look at him. He reached up to touch my face, but his hand froze as he put it back down to his sides. He sighed looking down.

“For more than you know” he said looking down at me. I blinked at him feeling the tension in the air, thick and hard. I swallowed aw he looked down at me.

He sighed before turning and starting to walk out. “You’re still the smartest person I’ve ever met” he said turning and looking at me, with a sad smile. My face dropped as the memories from last night came flooding into my brain.

“You're more than enough. You're like the smartest person I've ever met"

I opened my mouth to say something but nothing out. He bit his lip before turning and leaving me alone, again.

I closed my eyes shaking my head before turning and kicking the stupid bag of clothes. I shook my head and put my hands on his head.

I wanted to scream. I wanted to march my ass into his room and smack him so hard in the face. I wanted to tell him to stop messing with me. To stop doing this to me.

He’s stringing me along at a pace I can’t keep up with. I keep getting tripped underneath my feet and then he turned around and picks me back up.

I leaned down picking up a book out of the pile of clothes.

Magnolia parks university by Jessa Hastings

I sighed. My favorite book. I turned towards the door he just walked through. How would he know that? There’s no way he knew that. It was just a coincidence. Right?

-

The next few days were hazy I’m being honest. I attempted to avoid Chris by hiding in my room forcing Nick to bring me food every now and then.

He hasn’t questioned my lack of activity or the lack of being able to get out of bed. He just excepted the fact that I was going through what I was going through and let me be me.

I heard a small knock at my door and set down my phone seeing Nick looking at me with a smile. I raised my eyebrows as I watched him walk over to my bed and lay down beside me.

“You look happy” I said looking down at my smiling best friend. He sighed turning over on his back. “I think I’m gonna ask Holton to be my boyfriend” he said looking up at the ceiling. I sat up.

“Are you sure? I mean you guys have only been going out like a month” I said looking down at him with furrowed eyebrows. He glanced up at me and shrugged. “I don’t know I’ve been thinking about it. I like him and he likes me so why not try it out?” He sighed.

“Nick you are trying it out right now. You’re going on dates that how you see if you want to date someone. Making it official is like a huge step” I said shaking my head. He sat up looking at me.

“I know it’s a huge step y/n, why do you think I’m asking you about it?” He asked looking at me. “I just think it’s too soon, I mean Nick this would be your first boyfriend. Don’t you think you should give it a little more thought? I mean I haven’t even met the guy yet” I asked looking at him. Scared the death that he was gonna get hurt.

His face hardened.

“I told you I have given it thought. I came to you thinking you would support me on this” He glared at me. I sighed really not wanted to fight with him over this.

“Nick I want to support you on this I just don’t want to see you get hurt” I sighed. “That’s life y/n. When you like someone, you go for it and yeah I might get hurt, but I might not. I have to try. If I never went after what I was feeling I would be sitting in my room overthinking everything he’s said to me. I like him y/n. I cant just let that go” he breathed.

“Nick” I sighed. He held up his hands. “No” he shook his head. “Just because you’ve never been in a relationship doesn’t mean that you can stop me from being in one” he said harshly. I let out a breath.

“Nick that’s not fair. That’s not what I’m saying-“ I breathed. He stood up shaking his head. “You’re not in the business to be giving relationship advice when you don’t know the first thing about a relationship” he said above me. I swallowed feeling his words in my chest. Wow that fucking hurt.

“Nick” I sighed looking up at him. He just shook me off. “No I have plans with Holton, and you know what? I am going to ask him to be my boyfriend and he’s gonna say yes” he scoffed before turning and leaving the room.

I sighed leaning my head against my knees. Wow I felt like shit. Nick and I rarely fight and fighting with him right now was the last thing I wanted to do. It was the absolute last thing I needed to be dealing with right now.

I turned over feeling tears come back to my eyes. Now a famailr feeling that I hated. I was so helpless and I hated it. I hated feeling helpless, but that's all that I felt through my body.

I felt like I constantly needed comfort. I have never felt that way in my entire life. I swallowed closing my eyes at the thoughts. I hated myself for what I was about to do, but i didn't know another option.

I picked up my phone.

to: chris sturniolo

are you up?

I sighed closing my eyes already feeling the guilt wash over me again. I blinked down at the phone after a few minutes, seeing no response. God, I shouldn't have sent it. That was such a mistake. I wanted to delete it. No, I wanted to delete myself. Find Nick and apologize.

My phone buzzed. I sat up looking down at it.

from: chris sturniolo

yes why what's up?

I swallowed. I could say never mind. I could just not respond. But we both know that I'm not strong enough to do that.

to: chris sturniolo

can you come in here please?

I bit my lip as I saw the three dots pop up.

from: chris sturniolo

y/n. why

I shook my head, feeling the tears pool again threatend to spill over for what felt like the millienth time today. I was desperate.

to: chris sturniolo

chris please i'm begging.

He typed.

from: chris sturniolo

you don't have to beg, i'm coming

I closed my eyes, leaning back against the headboard as I waited for Chris. A few seconds later he peeked his head in and walked in. His face immediatly softened when he saw my face.

"Hey, what's going on?" He asked quietly as he walked into the door, slowly closing the door behind him. I sighed looking at my lap shaking my head. He walked over to me sitting on the bed next to me.

"Hey, look at me" He whispered. I looked up at him as he scanned my face with his eyes, trying to understand why I was upset. I swallowed and closed my eyes.

"Do you think I'm a bad friend?" I asked quietly blinking my eyes open. He furrowed his eyebrows looking at me. "What?" He asked quietly back. I sighed leaning my head back.

"Do you think I'm a bad friend?" I asked again. Chris stayed silent next to me. I turned my head towards him as he looked at me. "I know that we're not-" I stopped shaking my head.

"But to Nick-" I sighed feeling my eyes swell again. "Hey" He whispered pulling me into him. I let out a shaky breath as he wrapped his arms around me. I breathed in his scent, feeling his embrace.

"I don't think you're a bad friend y/n" He sighed from above me. I glanced up at him. "Don't cry" He whispered wiping under my eyes. I wiped my nose and sighed.

"Nick told me he wanted to ask Holton to be his boyfriend" I explained. I closed my eyes. "And I told him I was worried it was too soon and I didn't want to see him get hurt and he got so mad and-and-" I choked. Chris rubbed my arm with his hands that were around me.

"Hey, hey, hey" He said softly. I looked up at him. "You're not a bad friend. A bad friend would agree with everything he ever said, and you don't. That makes you an amazing friend" He breathed looking down at me. I bit my lip, trying to believe him.

"You're in a senestive place right now y/n, you're not a bad friend. You're just in your head. You know Nick, he's probably just scared and deflecting it onto you. It's not your fault. You just have to let him come to you" He said smiling down at me.

I nodded sitting up, him releasing his arms. I let out a heard breath before wiping the tears from my eyes away. I glanced over at him and he was looking at me.

"I'm sorry, I'm just scared. I can't lose Nick, he's the last person I have left" I sighed shaking my head. Chris paused before nodding slowly. I layed back against the pillows beneath us.

"I feel like i've driven away every person In my life" I shook my head, looking up. "I can't do the same to him" I whispered, glancing at Chris for looking down at me.

"You're parents don't count. Y/n you don't deserve to think that it was your fault they left" He breathed. I just blinked up at him, before furrowing my eyebrows.

"Why did you lie?" I said barley above a whisper. He blinked down at me for a second before sighing and leaning down, laying next to me, crossing his arms over his chest. I just looked at him, as he stared up at the ceiling above us.

"I don't know" He whispered. I just watched him. "I can't tell you" He said looking over at me. I shook my head. "Why not?" I asked feeling like I deserved to know why he hurt me when he didn't have to.

"Because then I'd have to kill you" He said scrunching his nose and then cracking a smile. I rolled my eyes smiling, pushing his shoulder making him chuckle softly. "I hate you" I sighed rolling over and laying on my side looking at him.

He rolled over matching my position as he looked back at me.

"I shouldn't have lied, I'm sorry. It was shitty, I didn't mean to make you cry" He whispered looking at me. I cringed closing my eyes now knowing he saw me start to cry. Embarrassment flooded my body. I blinked my eyes open and he was still looking at me.

"It wasn't you" I lied. "Yes it was" He said back. I bit my lip. "Do you think we could ever be friends?" I asked softly. He blinked at me, as if he were thinking my question over.

"No" He stated. I just looked at him. "I don't think I could ever be just your friend" He whispered. I closed my eyes feeling his response through my entire body. Why was I like this? Why did I do this to myself? Why did I constantly put myself in the same position.

"Y/n"

I opened my eyes, while he just looked at me. "Yeah?" I whispered after a few seconds of silence. He glanced over my face, swallowing. I wasn't going to move, I was waiting for him to. He sighed closing his eyes breifly before leaning over and putting his hand on my cheek pulling my lips to his.

I sighed from relief when our lips finally touched like a breath of fresh air into my lungs. His lips moved over mine slowly as he moved his mouth in accordance to mine. Our lips moved together in an unrushed manner.

I moved my leg over to straddle him, but he pushed my leg down and disconnected his lips from mine, sighing.

“Y/n” he said turning and looking back up at the ceiling. I just stared down at him, not believing he just stopped me. I scoffed shaking my head grabbing his attention. He glanced over at me.

I sat up shaking my head. “Y/n, I’m sorry I shouldn’t have-“ he started to speak another excuse of why he fucked up and why he kissed me and why he shouldn’t have, but I wasn’t going to heard it anymore.

“Stop” I held my hand up silencing him. He stopped talking. I peered down at him. “Kiss me or get out” I breathed harshly. His face turned confused as he looked up at me.

“You’ve been doing this to me for a month now Chris and I’m fucking tired of it. You’re spinning me around in circles chasing after something and then you hang it in front of me before just yanking it away” I explained shaking my head. He just listened.

“I’m getting seasick over here” I sighed looking over at him. He bit his lip. “So you don’t have to sit here and apologize for this or that or whatever the fuck you think you need to apologize for, because I’m not really sure you even believe you anymore” I said closing my eyes.

“So I’m not going to sit here and ask you if you like me or if you don’t. I’ve have a hard enough week as it is, so-“ I finsihed looking over at him. He stared up at me.

“Either kiss me. Or get out” I said again not breaking eye contact. He blinked at me for a few seconds before hanging his head. I closed my eyes looking down. Great.

I shook my head as I started to throw the blankets off of me to get up, but I felt him grab my arm, pulling me back over to him, before pinning me below him and hovering over top of me. I stared up at him in shock as he peered down at me with dark eyes.

So dark I couldn’t even see the blue anymore.

“Don’t talk to me like that ever again” he said before grabbing my arms and pinning them above my head and attaching his lips to mine roughly. Leaving me completely helpless under him, not that I was even before he kissed me anyway.

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Toy Story

Requested by @dkdueo 

Evan Buckley x girl reader

The readers a firefighter at station 118 an best friends with everyone especially really close with Eddie and Christopher an Buck goes to leave to meet up with Taylor on a date an before he leaves he overhears Eddie “oh come on you just need to tell Buck how you feel,you would be better together then him and Taylor I didn’t tell him but there’s just something about that relationship that’s just off,also I have a extra shirt downtown would you mind spending the night with Christopher?“

The reader just responding “oh just shut up,he’s in love with her and they are happy what kinda person would that make me ruining that,an you know I would always watch Christopher that was stupid I love him maybe even just as much as you to the point you ain’t getting him back” joking around picking up Chris smiling running to the car while Christopher is laughing 

A/N: If you like my work please comment like and reblog it means a lot to see interactions on my work ! 

Y/N”S POV 

Being a firefighter had a lot of perks. Not only did you get to save lives but you also got to gain a family along the way. You originally weren’t from LA so you always felt a little alone. But then all that changed when you joined the 118. 

Everyone welcomed you with open arms. You were the last one to join the group so you were a little intimated.

 But they made you feel like you belonged from the moment you walked through the doors. 

You became really close with Eddie and his son Chris. You spent all your time off with them and would always take Chris out to do fun things. You guys really bonded and you felt like you meant something to someone. 

Buck was always there too and it was hard not to get feelings for the blonde. He was a second dad to Chris.

 You would sometimes catch yourself daydreaming about having your own family with him. 

The two of you also had a lot in common. You loved the same music, the same tv shows. He always made you laugh even when he wasn’t meaning to. 

You could relate also to the family situation that he had. Being away from home and having a complicated relationship with your parents. 

It’s also the reason why you left home to. To be able to start a new life for yourself. 

You thought about asking him out so many times but it just never seemed like the right moment. Either the bells went off or Chris would come in. You took this as a sign that it just wasn’t supposed to happen between the two of you. 

If you needed another sign that maybe it wasn’t supposed to be when he started dating Taylor

. You never really liked her and not just because Buck was head over heels in love with her. She always gave you the worst vibes. She always seemed like she had some kind of hidden agenda. 

Eddie agreed with you but you thought he was just agreeing with you because he was your friend. 

He kept trying to convince you that the two of you belonged together but you didn’t believe it. 

You guys were wrapping up your shift. It was long and all you wanted to do was go home and kick back and eat pizza. Chris had coming up running to you breaking you out of your thoughts. 

“Y/N hey I missed you” Chris said grabbing you in a big hug. 

“Hey bud I missed you to what are you doing here” You asked 

“Carla dropped me off she had somewhere to go so she dropped me off to have dad take me home are you coming over tonight” Chris asked. 

“Yeah Y/N come on over Chris really misses you ” Eddie said 

“I don’t guys i’m tired maybe i should just go home besides I took all my clothes home to wash already so I don’t even have anything” You said smiling up at them. 

“Listen we all know why your being a little sad it’s pretty obvious” Eddie said looking over at Buck and Taylor who were laughing with each other. 

“It’s not about them besides I’m happy for them. They both seem really happy together” You said glancing over at them. 

““oh come on you just need to tell Buck how you feel,you would be better together then him and Taylor I didn’t tell him but there’s just something about that relationship that’s just off,also I have a extra shirt downtown would you mind spending the night with Christopher?“ Eddie said. 

He slapped me in the arm hard and I looked up and pouted at him 

““oh just shut up,he’s in love with her and they are happy what kinda person would that make me ruining that,an you know I would always watch Christopher that was stupid I love him maybe even just as much as you to the point you ain’t getting him back” Y/N said 

The two of you ran off to your car after leaving Eddie behind in the dust. Maybe you did need this. Eddie was right that you were just upset over Buck. But you weren’t going to admit that to him. 

Buck’s POV

Taylor texted me she was coming over to the firehouse. I mean was I happy to see her of course but also I didn’t want her coming around here.

 I mean I just didn’t want Y/N to see her. Not that Y/N was mean or anything I know I’m rambling but the whole thing is really complicated. 

I was maybe In love with Y/N which I know is wrong to say because I’m in a relationship and were just friends.

 But i never thought she would see me the same way. I always also though she had something going on with Eddie. 

The two of them always seemed close. She was going over his house all the time. I mean I couldn’t compete with all that. 

When I meant Taylor it was just fun and casual. Then things started to become more serious between the two of us. I really did like her but it just wasn’t the same kind of love I had for Y/N. 

I could always tell that no one else in the firehouse really liked her. I mean part of it hurt because it was the person I was dating but then on the other hand. I knew why they had those kinds of feelings for her. 

Taylor did always take advantage of situations sometimes when she saw a good story. It was a constant reason why we were always fighting. 

Eddie and Y/n were sitting by the fire truck laughing and talking to each other and I wanted to go and join but I didn’t think it was a good idea. I just decided to wait off to the sides. I didn’t want to interrupt whatever was going over there anyways. 

I pulled out my phone and started going through social media hoping to just kill some time. 

“Hey you what are you doing” Taylor asked coming up and tapping me on my elbow. 

“Nothing just waiting on you are you ready to go” I asked putting my phone in my pocket. 

We started walking towards my car and I passed Eddie and Y/N Talking to each other.

 “oh come on you just need to tell Buck how you feel,you would be better together then him and Taylor I didn’t tell him but there’s just something about that relationship that’s just off,also I have a extra shirt downtown would you mind spending the night with Christopher?“ Eddie said 

“oh just shut up,he’s in love with her and they are happy what kinda person would that make me ruining that,an you know I would always watch Christopher that was stupid I love him maybe even just as much as you to the point you ain’t getting him back” Y/N said. 

When i heard her say that it felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest it was beating so fast.

 I cracked a smile also thinking that Y/N was also in love with me. That her and Eddie weren’t together like I thought. 

I wanted to go and confront her before she took off but that didn’t seem like the best move. 

Also I didn’t want to say anything just incase she changed her mind. But I also felt like I needed to go and say something. 

It just felt like my head was spinning and I didn’t know what to say or think. That I didn’t want to screw up and besides it seemed like an invasion of their privacy listening in on their conversation. 

I snapped out of my thoughts before I ended up thinking to hard about this and bursting a blood vessel or something.

 Me and Taylor got into my truck and then i took off into the direction of my apartment. 

“Your being quiet” Taylor said. 

“Yeah sorry just a long day at work” I said 

“I get that I’m here if you wanna talk about it” Taylor said 

“Thanks” I said letting the conversation fall. 

LA Traffic was awful so we reached my apartment about 45 minutes later. We both got out and made our way upstairs. 

When we got in I just dropped my stuff down and went and flopped on the couch. 

Taylor came and sat next to me and looked up and smiled. 

“So what’s the plans for tonight because I don’t feel like just sitting in the apartment I wanna go and do something” She said.

“I know I get that and honestly I’m really tired and would rather just do some take out and watch some movies” I told her. 

“That’s what we did the last time we hung out” Taylor said pouting. 

“I know and I’m sorry but work was a lot and I’m just tired” I said sitting up to look at her. 

“Look is there something else going on” Taylor said 

“No what makes you thinks that It’s just we had a lot of calls and I’m not in the mood to go out and get drunk or party” I said being honest with her. 

“Fine but I’m going out I’ll text you okay” Taylor said 

“Yeah okay” I said not in the mood to fight. 

This whole thing even before the conversation I heard earlier this whole relationship just felt like it was running on it’s last leg. 

I got a buzz on my phone and groaned but then picked it up to see who it was. 

It was from Y/N and I smiled and picked it up my mood shifting to see it was her. 

It was a pic and I opened it up to see her and chris smiling into the camera. She sent another text saying. 

“Eddie’s out on a date and Chris wants to see his uncle buck want to come over for Pizza and Movies” She asked 

I quickly texted her back

“Hell Yeah I’m on my way” I sent her back. 

“We can’t wait to see you !” Y/N said back

I grabbed my stuff and ran out there. Eddie’s house wasn’t that far. I was smiling ear to ear heading over to them. 

When I got there I ran out the Jeep and went up to his front door knocking on it. Chris was the one who answered it. He looked up and smiled at me. 

“Uncle Buck is here” He shouted. 

Y/N walked to the door in Eddie’s T-Shirt and sweatpants. She smiled real big when she saw me. 

“Thanks for coming you got here quick” She said 

“Yeah I was in the area and came right over” I said 

“Come on Pizza is on the way were picking out a movie” Chris said. 

“Awesome because I am starving” I said. 

We walked in and made our way to the couch. I kicked off my shoe and took of my jacket and headed over to the couch. 

“So what’s on the list” I asked 

“Were stuck between Toy story and a marvel movie” Y/N said. 

“Well me personally Toy story is a classic we can’t beat that” I said 

Chris laughed and i looked at him confused 

“That’s what Y/N said” Chris said. 

“Because it is a classic a true timeless original” Y/N said. 

“And 2 out 3 wins so I’ll just go ahead and put it on” Y/n said.

She took the remote and put it on. Chris groaned a little but we both just laughed him off. A little bit into the movie the pizza came. 

“Pizza’s here Yay” Chris yelled 

“I got it” Y/N said getting up

“I’m glad you came and it was Y/N”s idea to invite you over she was thinking about you” Chris said laughing 

“Well I’m glad because I didn’t want to be alone tonight” I said smiling.

I could feel the heat rising in my cheeks from the mention that Y/N wanted to see me. 

A few minutes later she came back and put down pizza’s and sodas and a bunch of other stuff to. 

“Were having a feast tonight” Y/N said 

“ I can see that look at all this” I said 

“It’s friday night we need to party” She said. 

I laughed and we all dug into the food. It was really good. She had gotten pizza ,wings ,fries and mozzarella sticks. We all ate good until we thought we were going to burst. We finished the movie too. 

Chris fell asleep not to long after eating so it was just me and Y/N finishing the movie. It was really nice just to sit back and enjoy each other presence. 

When the movie ended she looked over at me and smiled. 

“Hey will you help me take him to his bed” She said 

“Of course” I said getting up and picking up Chris and carrying him to his room. Y/N followed behind me and I laid Chris down on his bed and tucked him in.

“Good night buddy” I said to him

“Good night love see you in the morning sweet dreams” She said to him.

We turned out the lights and quietly headed out. 

We made our way back into the living room and I helped her clean up the dinner mess.

“Thanks for coming by It really means a lot I hope I didn’t mess anything up for you” Y/N said 

“Oh absolutely not I wasn’t doing anything I’m glad you invited me over” I said 

I decided to speak up and shoot my shot. It seemed like a good time now and I didn’t want to not say anything and just loose the chance. 

“ I heard your uh conversation earlier with Eddie” I said 

“Oh I’m sorry I didn’t want to mess anything up with you guys im sorry” Y/N said her face turning bright red. 

“No it’s okay I’m not bringing this up because I’m mad in anyway i’m saying it because I want you to know I love you I have for a while now and I didn’t think i stood a chance” I said playing with my hands nervously. 

Y?N walked over and grabbed my hands and looked up at me and smiled

“You always stood a chance with me. I love you to I have been in love with you for a while but you were with Taylor and I didn’t think i had a chance you know” She said.

“Maybe we both should have just talked to each other” I said laughing

“When did you grow up” Y/N said smiling. 

“Well as a I get older I do get a little wiser” I said 

“Oh yeah well in your case that might not be true at all” She said poking me 

“Ouch that kinda hurt my feelings” I said pouting 

“Oh just shut up and kiss me already” Y/N said. 

“Yes Mam’am” I said 

I leaned down and kissed her and she kissed me back.It was short and sweet. But it really meant a lot. 

We broke the kiss and we just looked into each others eyes and smiled before pulling away. 

“What about taylor” Y/N asked 

“That relationship is over I’ll talk to her in the morning I promise” I said 

“Good because I wanna start this off right the last thing we need is that bad karma out there in the world” She said 

“ I agree” I told her leaning down and kissing her again. 

Suddenly the door opened up and I heard someone loudly clearing their throat. 

“I’m gone out one night and I come home to this in my own home” Eddie said a little loud

“First off all stop being dramatic it could be a lot worse second off shh man Chris is sleeping” Y/N said

“Yeah yeah what ever I’m going to bed good night little love birds” Eddie said stumbling into his room. 

“That man is clearly drunk but also i’m glad he had fun” she said laughing

“He’s gonna regret that in the morning” I said laughing. 

“You want to watch Toy Story 2 and eat more cold pizza” Y/N said. 

“I would love that let me go grab the spare blankets and pillows” I said 

“I am going to get us some drinks” Y/n said 

I went off and grabbed some stuff from the closet and Eddie was passed out on the bed in his clothes. I just laughed and took a pic of him. 

I went back to the living room and Y/n was setting up the movie for us. I sat down and passed out the blanket and pillows.

We got comfortable and we started on the second movie. She leaned her head on me. I smiled down at her. 

I was so glad I came over and glad I opened up. We ended up both falling asleep after that movie. I was glad I decided to come over here tonight and be with my family.

#evan buckley #evan buckley fic #evan buckley imagine #evan buck buckley #evan buck x reader #911 x reader #911 imagine #911 one shot #911 fic #911 on fox #911 fanfic #Eddie Diaz #taylor kelly #evan buckley one shot #buck x reader #buck imagine #buck one shot

[annathesillyfriend]

Hey there! I hope summer is treating you well 🌞I am currently crying over the fact that I didnt get to see Lizzo at a festival 30 km away from me last week and that I won't see Harry tomorrow in Warsaw, so I decided to distract myself with making this list 😅 I hope that next time I'll be able to tell you that I menaged to get Taylor tickets, so please keep your fingers crossed for me 🥰

To all the writers - I love you and I appreciate you so much!

To all the readers - please, share the fics you read and love. The reblog really makes the change! It’s the least we can do to show our gratitude.

Also, please, mind the writers’ warnings!

🌊JAKE 'HANGMAN' SERESIN🌊

it's what you make it and and honey, i'll make it all okay by @seresinhangmanjake

↳ two-shot, part of oh, baby universe which is an amazing dad!jake series and you should totally give it a try

you're safe now and bite me by @seresinsweetie

↳ two-shot, 18+, enemies to friends to lovers, i want a weighted blanket for my birthday this year and by weighted blanket i mean jake seresin on top of me, please and thank you

crossing all the lines by @//seresinsweetie

↳ one-shot, 18+, not it's time for a rooster x hangman x reader threesome and it's as hot as it sounds 🥵

hungman by @ddejavvu

↳ one-shot, 18+, roommate!camboy!jake, do i have to say more? whenever i see Daisy's url on my dash, i drop everything i'm doing and go read, such a talented writer!

a love you don't find everyday by @//beccaanne814

↳ series, this story has kept me on my toes and then surprised me in the best way possible, amazing fic 💕

head on your chest, heart in your hands by @jupitercomet

↳ one-shot, soft!jake has a special place in my heart

same 'ol situation by @topguncortez

↳ one-shot, 18+, roommate!jake and it's so good!!

🌊BRADLEY 'ROOSTER' BRADSHAW🌊

how could i forget by @roosterforme

↳ one-shot, I put this particular fic here because it was the first one I read in June but I recommend going through Emily's whole masterlist. I could go on and on about how talented she is 👏I start every single one of my days by reading one of her works. Like literally every day. Thank you for making my morning more bearable 💕

give me your hand and here is my heart by @sometimesanalice

↳ two-shot, 18+, this is a part of a bigger universe that I love with my whole being. please, do yourself a favour and go read it all!

hey, salior by @//sometimesanalice

↳ one-shot, 18+, i am YELLING

warm blood by @notroosterbradshaw

↳ one-shot, another phenomenal fic from another phenomenal author 👏👏 keep slaying!

home and viva la vegas by @honeysimagines

↳ two-shot, i read this like four times in the last month, my love for those fics is out of control

i'll guide you by @bradshawsbitch

↳ one-shot, 18+, i get dizzy and warm all over just by thinkign about this fic 👀

you left your name on my lips by @blurredcolour

↳ one-shot, beautiful fic!

love and loss by @bradshawsbaby

↳ one-shot, what a stunning piece. we all need this kind of support in our lives

if i knew it all then, would i do it again? by @ofstoriesandstardust

↳ one-shot, part of the same mistakes-verse which is a god tier series. this one left me speechless

i was supposed to sweat you out by @theharddeck

↳ one-shot, 18+, friends with benefits, simply delicious 👏👏

i think i love you by @thewulf

↳ one-shot, best friends to lovers, i loved this so very much

where do we go? by @thatlovinfeelin

↳ series, 18+, amazing fic, beautiful story!

salt air, and the rust on your door by @daniellarussoo

↳ one-shot, just a sweet little husband!bradly fic 😌

to love and be loved by @callsigncherub

↳ one-shot, i seriously debated jumping into the sea after reading this one

all consuming by @inklore

↳ one-shot, 18+, Lauren's back at it again with a bloody banger

🌊JAVY 'COYOTE' MACHADO🌊

a little bit of fun and it's not rotten work (not if it's you) by @sushiwriterhere

↳ two-shot, 18+, javy x reader x jake fics, this is just great, i love everything about those stories

the double negative effect by @beyondthesefourwalls

↳ one-shot, there are not enough javy fics out there so i cherish every single one i find, especially ones as good as this one!

training accident by @//foreverrandomwritings

↳ one-shot, another great javy story!

🌊ROBERT 'BOB' FLOYD🌊

supernova by @laracrofted

↳ one-shot, 18+, bob x reader x pheonix threesome, a dream come true 😫

the worst date by @lovingperfectionsblog

↳ one-shot, love this one 💕

the wingman by @//roosterforme

↳ one-shot, 18+, okay we all aready know how much i adore Emily's work but i just had to put this one here cause bob needs all the love he can get!!

shut up and dance with me by @beccaanne814

↳ one-shot, man, the things i'd so for him to dance with me

sick day by @writingdumpster

↳ one-shot, bob's a little bit stuborn here but we're gonna let it slip just this once

girl in a coffee shop by @ohgodnotagainn

↳ one-shot, coffee shop!au, bob as a barista!!!! yes yes yes that all i need in life

🌊MICKEY ' FANBOY' GARCIA🌊

opposites attract by @foreverrandomwritings

↳ one-shot, husband!mickey and he's just so 🥺🥺

🌊STEVE HARRINGTON🌊

all the time by @bookshelf-dust

↳ one-shot, friends to lovers and fake dating -> ✨cheff's kiss✨

cardigan by @supernovafics

↳ one-shot, professor!steve x professor!reader, angst with happy ending, great work 👏

car kisses by @iridescentprose

↳ one-shot, there is just something so kissable about steve driving a car. i would, too, risk my life to pour some love on that man

this fic by @spicysix

↳ one-shot, being stuck in an elevator may not be an ideal situation but it's whole other thing when steve harrington is there with you

steve-o by @bettysupremacy

↳ one-shot, i just adore this steve

midnight love by @loveshotzz

↳ one-shot, 18+, fuck boy!steve but we fall for him anyway

this fic by @lovebugism

↳ one-shot, 18+, SO DAMN BLOODY GOOD i can't even

this fic by @forever-rogue

↳ one-shot, broke my heart and put it right back together

bad for ussiness by @upsidedownwithsteve

↳ series, 18+, enemies to lovers is the superior trope and this fic is the perfect example, my favourite steve fic honestly

a good dream by @solarluvs

↳ one-shot, 18+, the fact that this will never happen to me in real life is just criminal

keep trying by @lilacletter

↳ one-shot, 18+, an obligatory baby making fic™, they just hit different

cool about it by @mysticmunson

↳ one-shot, if you feel like getting your heart broken, that's a fic for you :')

this love by @forevermoreharrington

↳ one-shot, 18+, a masterpiece really

🌊EDDIE MUNSON🌊

brain like a sieve by @munsster

↳ one-shot, AHHHHHHHHHH is all i have to say on this 😅

sunscreen and chlorine and blue raspberry syrup by @eiightysixbaby

↳ two-shot, 18+, lifeguard!eddie, perfect summer read, just like ice cream on a hot day 🙌

something like this by @taintedcigs

↳ one-shot, a good old truth or dare fic, just what we all love

love me tender by @oneforthemunny

↳ one-shot, 18+, janitor!eddie x teacher!reader, what a stunning piece of work that is 🥺

hot rod by @shamevillain

↳ one-shot, 18+, you will need a shower after reading this 🥵

🌊RHETT ABBOTT🌊

right where i want you by @//sushiwriterhere

↳ one-shot, 18+, sort of enemies to lovers, i am so normal about this 🙂

hell on heels (part 2) by @strawhbrrries

↳ two-shot, 18+, that bloody cowboy will send us all straight to hell

wildflower, widefire by @sebsxphia

↳ series, 18+, the perfect balance between sweet and sexy 😌😌

the ferris wheel by @lewmagoo

↳ one-shot, i just wanna share funnel cake with rhett abbott, is that too much to ask???

invisible string by @wkndwlff

↳ one-shot, 18+, BEAUTIFUL 😭😭

#anna's fic recs #fic recs #june 2023 fic recs #top gun fic recs #jake seresin x reader #bradley bradshaw x reaer #stranger things fic recs #steve harrington x reader #eddie munson x reader

[neverevan]

Fuck It Friday 🧇

Heyooo. I am still riding the canon bi Buck high and can't wait to see the mess that is the madney wedding lmao — and to watch Tommy be the hero of the day and his reward to be a dance with Buck at the hospital, in their tethered clothes. (hey, I can dream, alright?)

Anyway, I decided to give you a bit more of the jealous eddie fic, which, listen... I am turning it inside and outside in my head, trying to figure out how to go forward with it, but so far all I could come up with is; rewrite most of it. welp, c'est la vie.

This comes directly after this snippet.

The gun went off and Buck just stood there, frozen with Eddie’s blood splattered all over his face, until he got pushed to the ground.

It felt like a million years before his brain finally caught up with the events around him, kicking his instincts into gear and making him crawl under the truck and get to Eddie.

After that it was a blur of desperation and undivided focus.

Stay alive please stay alive don’t leave me don’t leave me don’t leave me god I can’t live without you please don’t leave me—

After Eddie’s gurney left his sight, everything went silent, as if someone had hit the mute button on Buck’s life. His mind was empty, his eyes unfocused, his body numb. He was completely out of it.

That’s when Taylor arrived and took him home, so he could clean himself up before seeing Christopher.

And fuck, he had to be strong, he knew that, but it was too hard and heavy, he couldn’t hold out for long. Bobby’s text was the last drop to break the dam, the relief of being out of the woods, the hope of not losing Eddie made his chest impossibly tight and there was no more holding back.

Of course, Christopher took it in stride like always. God, he loved that kid so much, he was the strongest, the sweetest and smartest kid he’s ever known — his own person, yet a perfect extension of his dad — and Buck has loved him like his own from the start. That was probably the first sign of many that he missed.

And then it hit him. When he first went to see Eddie after he woke up, running down the corridors to his room; Buck’s heart was beating out of his chest, but it still skipped an entire beat when Eddie smiled at him as he walked into the room.

Oh.

It came over him in waves, like he was watching the tsunami close in on him again, his emotions like water, pushed his body from side to side, constricted his lungs and made him feel like death was just around the corner.

The funny thing was… he knew it right there and then. He had no idea about how he felt before any of it and yet he knew; Eddie was it.

It was too much and too soon, overwhelming in a way he couldn’t qualify as good or bad, but suddenly breathing was hard around Eddie.

So when Taylor made a move, Buck clinged to it desperately, hoping against hope that it would be enough to shake the realisation. He knew better of course, but it seemed like the perfect hiding place at the time.

tags under the cut 💛

✨I have been tagged by and am tagging the ever so lovely

@sunshinediaz @spagheddiediaz @goforkinard

@exhuastedpigeon @nmcggg @bidisasterbuckdiaz

@daffi-990 @diazsdimples @honestlydarkprincess

@watchyourbuck @actualalligator @bucksbignaturals mwuahhh 💛

#I'm so sad that I kinda lost the thread with this one #I started it just around the same time as the mudslide fic so like back in september #and even though I know what happens I don't really know how to bridge it from where I left off and where we're going #I have faith in getting there during the break though #🙏 #buddie #911 #911 abc #wip #the jealous eddie fic

[hermanunworthy]

DO OR DICE LA WAS WONDERFUL!!!! me and @biirbi held a meetup together before the show and even though we werent able to get nearly everyone from the server, i still had a BLAST!! literally the best day ever just getting to hang out w other dndads fans all day

SOME HIGHLIGHTS FROM BEFORE THE SHOW (ill talk about the actual show itself in a separate post):

- zoe making me a little hermie doll + hermie themed kandi cuff! theyre so cute i was playing w them the whole time

- getting to meet one of my tumblr mutuals for the first time! @kaiynite

- one of our scarys @amnestyliketaz (and multiple others at the show) making and giving out tons of dndads themed bracelets!

- just getting to hang out at the mall w a bunch of dndads fans. i wish we couldve stayed longer, everyone was so nice and fun to be around!

- us all fitting into one elevator and the taylor of our group going "everyone in the up/down room?"

- me accidentally dropping my mini hermie and someone going "no dont leave hermie behind! u cant forget about him!"

- getting to hang and meet even MORE fans while waiting outside the theatre (and seeing even more really cool cosplayers my goodness)

- lauren (the kitty cosplayer in our meetup group) dming a fun little one shot! i didnt play but i did get to sit and watch. if only they got to finish it before we had to line up, it was so funny

- giving my tumblr to some cosplayers and one of them recognizing my art?? i was so honored

- being able to drop off a gift for the cast!

- all the compliments i got on my hermie cosplay! even though it was much different from how ive cosplayed him before lol

#im just so so happy everything went well #this felt like such a COMMUNITY every single person i met was so positive and great to be around #i cant believe i got to be around that many dndads fans it was a dream come true. this podcast means sm to me #dndads #dndads live #do or dice tour #do or dice la #hermie the unworthy #hermie unworthy #hermie the unworthy cosplay #hermie unworthy cosplay #my cosplays #siren says

[morallyinept]

HAPPY SUNDAY EVERYONE! 🖤

How has your week been, lovelies?

My week started off with a touch of a cold, but thankfully hasn't developed into the flu or anything. One of the things I really can't stand most, is that feeling of being all bunged up in your face - bleurgh. Just no thank you ✋🏻

Otherwise, it's been all systems go as usual on the Jett plane. ✈️ Busy with work, busy with friends and busy with writing! 🥵

So Jack, let's crack that whip n' get into this week's whip round, sugar. Yeehaw!

Catch up on last week here, sugar.

☆ Things I've posted this week

Five Days - Chapter 3 - We're starting to get into the meat of this Joel Miller story a bit now and I'm so thankful for all of you that read, re-blog and leave comments on this. I am so glad you're all enjoying it!

Polynesian Kiss - One Shot - My first time writing for Max Phillips which was super fun! 🩸

Ring Toss - One Shot - Donuts & Frankie? Always a tasty treat. Inspired by the awesome & lovely @secretelephanttattoo and her Doughnut Debauchery Marcus Pike Fic. 🍩

Clickbait - Joel Miller GIFLET. I went over 500 words on this one, and I'm not sorry.

Cuts Like Glass - Dave York GIFLET. I'm considering expanding on this one... got a few ideas brewing in the ol' noggin for Dave. 😏

Ezra Ask - My lovely @sweetenerobert was putting ideas into my head first thing on Monday morning, and this quick drabble was the result. 🥵

Lazy Sunday Frankie Vibes HCs - This pic of Pedro from the La Vanguardia shoot, got me thinking some hot Frankie thots... 🔥

I also had some spicy Frankie thots on this awesome post by @rebel-held too. 🖤 Frankie Friday messed me up this week! 🫠

This week's Self-Care with Dieter & Jett focused on Sexual Expression & Repression. And we had World Mental Health Day on Tuesday. 🌍🧠❤️

Phew! It's been a busy week! 🥵

☆ Things I'm currently working on

• Editing the final draft of my Halloween fic to drop on Oct 31st. I'm excited for this one!

• Working on some more GIFLETS as always.

• A fair few one shot drafts that I've always got brewing. Have finished editing a Marcus Pike one shot that I'll probably post next week.

☆ Things I've read this week

My Favourite Fic Recs List hasn't been updated yet this week yet as I've been busy with other things, however all these stories below, and more, will added next week. 👇🏻

A few fics that stood out in particular that I read this week were:

Mystery Strain - @rebel-held I really enjoyed this alternative take on a sex pollen troupe from Rebel's Kinktober prompts, and may now also have a thing for Dieter's big, soft belly after reading this. 🤭

For You I Would Ruin Myself - @thelightsandtheroses Sticking with Dieter, this was a great emotionally charged story, and I love how Dieter was written in this. As much as I love reading smut (who doesn't?), I also really love stories where you are pulled into the inner workings of a character's emotions and thoughts, and sex isn't the main plot point, and this story really impressed me by doing that. Deffo recommend. 👍🏻

Behind Closed Doors - @sweetenerobert Where do I even start?! This was just utterly delicious and debauched. I had so much vivid imagery in my head reading this that a cold shower was needed afterwards, let me tell you. This was such a super hot read and I am so here for it! 🥵

Private & Confidential - @sin-djarin Becca has created the start of something truly wonderful here, I just know it. My Agent Pike senses are tingling to see where this story goes. You should totally check it out too. 🖤

50 - @linzels-blog This was a fic I really enjoyed this week, and I highly recommend it if you're looking for non-age gap fics specifically. It was utterly wonderful and features our favourite pilot, Frankie. 😍

In Another Life - @chronically-ghosted This beautiful Frankie story moved me. The way Taylor writes moves me. I am still thinking about this story and will read it over again. I urge you too also. You're really missing out on something utterly spectacular if you don't. 🖤

I Might Kill My Ex - @beskarandblasters This was such a fun, twisted little tale inspired by the song by Sza, about Joel, and I loved every second of this. It was super hot, and I really liked all the twisty turns this took me through. Deffo a must read. ☝🏻

☆ What have I been watching/listening to this week?

🎃 As it's spooky season, I watched a couple of horror films this week.

I rewatched Evil Dead Rise. I am a lover of the original films with Bruce 'The Chin' Campbell, but the remakes are quite good, particularly this one, I thought. I'm partial to a good horror film and it's been a while since I watched one that made me cringe and recoil at the gore. (The cheese grater scene, if you know, you know! 😬🫣)

Also rewatched both Scream and 30 Days Of Night this week too. Classics, IMO. 👍🏻

I'm looking forward to watching Talk To Me when that comes out on streaming too. The trailer looked fab.

Earworms of the week:

I just love Ronnie Radke's version of this Papa Roach original! I imagine it playing to the backdrop of an epic sex scene in a movie or something...

☆ What have I been up to this week?

Aside from the usual humdrum of work, I went on another short hike yesterday. Always good to get out and stretch the ol' legs.

A very good friend of mine cooked me a wonderful meal this week too when I visited them for a catch up. If you feed me, you can guarantee I will absolutely be your friend forever. 😀

As always, thanks to all those who have DM'd and sent Asks. It's so much fun getting to know you all! 🖤

Well, that was pretty much this week all whipped up in a nutshell! I hope you've all had a great week and are enjoying yourself this weekend too.🤘🏻

Stay kind & stay creamy 🖤

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#jett's weekly whip round #agent whiskey #agent whiskey jack daniels #whiskey jack daniels #agent whiskey kingsman #pedro pascal #pedro pascal characters #jett's pedro boys #jett's writing #jett's giflets #ezra prospect #dieter bravo #joel miller #fic recs #jett's fics recs #jett has spoken #Spotify

[foxes-that-run]

Daylight

Harry said Daylight is about infatuation with troubled things. He sings about a long distance relationship where his muse, to me Taylor, keeps him at a distance, he wants to be with them and wants more than his muse gives him. In a theme for his work at that time Harry sings of cocaine, travelling the world and romantic encounters but he really just wants his muse to love him back. Yet knowing they keep him at a distance Harry can't help wanting to be with them.

The lyric video has Sunflowers with their heads are dropped :( this happens when they don’t have water, a reference to Taylor Swifts Clean (When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst) and Sunflower Vol 6.

Music video

The music video for Daylight is fantastic and full of Haylor easter eggs in these:

@womanexile has detail in part 1 and part 2,

@this-daydream-is-dangerous-13 post about the timeline for making the video and the James Corden $300 video showing it was made May 22 before it’s July 23 release. The Olivia tattoo is seen in it. and

This post about seven and the video

Title and Track list

Daylight is also the name of the last song on Taylor Swift's album Lover. It was originally the title track, and Taylor hinted at it in the Red Liner notes while she was still dating Harry. Taylor’s Daylight is about true love, the last sung verse of Taylors Daylight is [love] "it's golden like daylight". Harry then opened Fine Line with Golden. Daylight is track 5 of Harry's House.

What Harry has said

Howard Stern (8:10) Harry said:

"Daylight was quite an early song on the album, it's one of my favourites and it was kind of a stream of consciousness writing that happened kind of late. It was one of those songs that very much captures a moment of what was happening in the studio. We were kind of all talking about going to bed and then we started this song and it felt like if we go to bed and do it tomorrow it's not going to be the same as it would be if we finished it now. So you found a way to stay up. I think sometimes there are things that can feel like we have to find a way to finish this now. We did an all nighter, finished it and went out the beach to watch the sun come up and it was a nice moment of this album." Stern 'this is about some woman that didn't pay attention to you. He reads the line with cocaine before asking. There is a frustration in this song' Harry confirms it is about one woman. And responds "I think it is kind of like an infatuation with chasing troubled things"

Stern continues, 'You know Taylor Swift has a song called Daylight, maybe she's the girl in the thing?' To which Harry says "here we go, mm hm." and looks away. Stern, seeing the answer, offers, 'or am I reading too much into it.' which Harry agrees with, Stern comments on his smile Harry adds "You know I'd love to tell you that your spot on, but I can't" smiles and exchanges a knowing look with Mitch. Call me as convinced as Stern, what Harry said was he couldn't confirm that, especially after Stern read the cocaine line.

To Zane Lowe Harry (41 mins) told a similar story about staying up to complete it and told the surfing/song writing metaphor. Zane approached it along with As it Was and Grapejuice as a suite he sees as expressing pain and vice dependency. Harry moved on to talk about As It Was.

Timeline

Harry was in LA promoting Fine Line when the COVID travel ban was introduced 17 March 2020. Harry told Zane Lowe (24 Mins) he stayed home for 6 weeks then booked and went to Shangri-la studio to record. LNT, Daylight, Keep Driving and Sushi were in this group, to Stern and Lowe he said Daylight was one of the first. That places these songs between 28 April 2020 and 18 July 2020 (when Harry was back in the UK) Daylight at the earlier end of that time. The leaked too much sauce was recorded and Taylor wrote Folklore in that period also. See 2020 timeline.

Live Performances

Daylight was the 4th song on the Love on Tour Setlist, once Harry's House was released. Harry replaced it with Stockholm Syndrome for 18 shows from 18 May 2023, appearing in a handful of shows in June and July. The only shows with both were Wembley and the last show.

The tour visuals have a blue bird flying between LA and London. Harry also had a cloud background. Showing LA rather than NY is interesting when the song mentions NY.

What is the Bluebird Reference about

Bluebirds appeared in the opening to Love on Tour and may refer to:

Charles Bukowski's has a poem Bluebird, Harry is read Bukowski books and poems on stage. In the poem, the bird is a metaphor for Bukowski's emotions, articulated that he weeps in private. He keeps it hidden with whiskey to protect his image that sells books of misogynistic poetry, he opposes weeping with strength and cleverness. If Harry is referencing this, this is it is consistent with the reference to Harry's own work:

In "If I could Fly" Harry shared his vulnerability with his muse for their eyes only and hoped they would not run from him. In this same HH recording period, Harry has a series of songs that describe a rockstar lifestyle, referring to choking and cocaine, (Daylight, Keep Driving and (leaked) Too Much Sauce and (leaked) Make My Day) but that Harry actually just wishes his muse reciprocated his feelings and wanted to settle down and be happy.

When she was 14 Taylor Swift's was given her first record deal and performed at a writers night at the Bluebird Cafe in Nashville. She talks about it in this video when she returned to the cafe, there are photos of her 2004 performance with Scott Borchetta in the audience. The cafe has a chair with a plaque she included in the Taymoji set. Harry would have known this, however the Grammy museum also covered when she played there in 2018. Taylor also had a bluebird in the WANGBT video and on 17 June 2023 uploaded a single image to youtube with bluebirds promoting Eras in Mexico. This was a few weeks before Harry’s daylight MV was released.

This link lists songs about bluebirds. I think Paul McCartney's "Bluebird" and Joe Ely's "If you were a Bluebird" are both plausible.

In Summary I think the bluebird is a metaphor for Harry's inner feelings that he is someone who loves and wants to be loved back. He sees his rockstar trappings are a salve, not a life goal.

Lyrics

I'm on the roof, you're in your airplane seat I was nose-bleeding, looking for life out there Reading your horoscope, you were just doing cocaine In my kitchen, you never listen, I hope you're missing me by now

The opening verse expresses the frustration Stern referred to. Harry's muse and he are apart now, and he is missing them, almost indigently hoping they miss him too, yet he cares, he’s reading their horoscope. This sounds to me like a disagreement or unsatisfying parting and Harry wants to be with them.

I hear the first lines as a double meaning:

Harry is high (on the roof, nose-bleeding) but his muse is higher (in the sky).

his muse has also now flown away in their own airplane seat and left him waiting - they are separated by distance.

'Nose bleeding, looking for life' reminds me of Kiwi "Holland Tunnel for a nose, it's always backed up" and Satellite's name and "You got a new life". "Out there" and the tour visuals showing LA rather also remind me of Satellite's 'L.A. Mood'.

In the music video here Harry climbs down from a ladder to the sky, which reminds me of Story of My Life's "But, baby, runnin' after you is like chasin' the clouds". Clouds appear in several of their videos, including Lavender Haze, where, on the Eras tour, Taylor climbs up a ladder to one:

If I was a bluebird, I would fly to you You'd be the spoon Dip you in honey so I could be sticking to you

To me, this lyric is most reminiscent of Harry's One Direction song, If I Could Fly and it has the similar meaning, Harry is separated from his muse and wishes he could fly home to them. While If I could fly is about sharing vulnerability and hoping they don't run from him, in Daylight his muse keeping him at a distance.

I love dip you in honey so I could be sticking to you, it's adorable and bittersweet and very Harry. Bittersweet because Harry wants to be with his muse, who at the start of the song was not listening to him and he was hoping was missing him. He wants to spend all his time with them and he doesn’t feel that is reciprocated.

In this part of the video, the muse in Red (Taylor's colour) takes shots at him (songs, antics in media) he is resigned that it may kill him, his muse gives a flirting smile when it doesn't. Harry then walks past muses in pink with a bored look. A Grapejuice reference "I'm so over whites and pinks" Harry only has eyes for his 'old and Red' muse, even though they enjoy taking shots at him.

Daylight, you got me cursing the daylight (ooh) Daylight, you got me cursing the daylight (ooh) Daylight, you got me calling at all times (ooh) Ain't gonna sleep 'til the daylight (ooh)

This lyric reminds me of Harry talking about staying up to finish the song, but also he's staying up late night talking and wanting to be with his muse all the time. Calling at all times could be a muse on a different timezone, or maybe one he can't keep from.

In the video Harry is trying to get to his muse, clowns (read: us) are in the way. He cries and we are on his side, because we are! Harry is commenting on fans getting in the way of his love. Sorry Harry. He is too loud for his muse dressed as Miss Americana (& the Heartbreak Prince) who leaves. This scene reminds me of Story of my life "holding on too tight"

Out of New York, I'm on the comedown speed We're on bicycles, saying, "There's life out there" You got the antidote, I'll take one to go, go, please Get the picture, cut out my middle You ain't got time for me right now

This verse is similar to the first, Harry is a parting from his muse, he feels incomplete when they are apart, but his muse is keeping him at a distance. The verse has similarities to several of Harry's songs:

Out of NY, comedown speed, I hear as Harry leaving NY and coming down, or feeling sad to be away from his muse.

Harry does refer to Bikes in Matilda, however to me, where Harry rides a penny farthing here in the video emphasises that this is a winding wheel reference. The spinning and 'life out there' also remind me of Satellite again. In the first verse Harry was looking for life out there and he has now found it.

Antidote is also in Golden "I can feel you take control (I can feel you take control) / Of who I am, and all I've ever known Lovin' you's the antidote", and Ever Since New York "Choose your words 'cause there's no antidote" a Medicine is also similar to an antidote. Also in End of the Day "Twenty minutes later, wound up in the hospital / The priest thinks it's the devil, my mum thinks it's the flu / But, girl, it's only you" Here Harry takes one to go because he's parting from his muse.

Finally, the last 2 lines are also reminiscent of Satellite "(Spinning out, waiting for ya) / I'm in an L.A. Mood / I don't wanna talk to you/ She said, "Give me a day or two"

#harry styles #haylor #harry’s house #charles bukowski

[deathofpeaceofmiiind]

high infidelity | twenty three

How’d we end up on the floor anyway? You say, your roommates cheap ass screw top rose, that’s how. We pulled up to Noah’s house and my eyes widened at the sight of it, it was beautiful. I didn’t want to creep him out and ask him if he moved but this definitely wasn’t the house he had during his twitch days. It was a bungalow hidden between a few palm trees and various plants, it had a perfect Californian vibe to it. He led me inside and my breath was taken away again, it had floor to ceiling windows that had a perfect view of the LA skyline, and open concept where his kitchen, living room and dining room blended together. I looked outside and saw he had a small in ground pool as well with an egg chair beside it, I always wanted one of those.

“Well, what do you think?” “Noah this is…wow.” I was speechless. Noah passed me a glass of wine as I admired his home like it was the Sistine chapel. “I wouldn’t give this up for Vancouver.” “Ah, it’s just a house.” He said taking a sip of his wine, “By the way, this is Jesse’s wine, don’t say anything to him.” I nodded as I brought the glass to my lips, realizing it was a sweet rose. My eyes wondered around more, I saw his vinyl collection and I immediately went over to it. I shook my head in amazement, he really knew how to keep me guessing. He had Taylor Swift’s entire discography, along with her re-records, all organized by release date. I really adored his taste in music since he didn’t stick to one genre, there was a mixture of everything in his collection.

“Big Taylor Swift fan?” I joked as I grabbed Midnights and put it in his record player. Lavender haze filled the room as I walked over back over to him. “She’s been such a huge inspiration for me. Evermore got me through so much during the pandemic.” His voice trailed off, as if there was something that happened to him during that time. I didn’t want to dig, I knew if he wanted to say something he would. “Good choice, by the way. This is my favourite opening track for an album, ever.”

“It’s so good.” I agreed as I took another sip of my wine. My eyes followed Noah as he pulled out his iPad and started typing away on it. I watched him intently, his fingers moving so swiftly, his eyes full of concentration…he did everything with such intensity, it turned me on with no effort. “I ordered from my favourite restaurant, it should be here in half an hour. I figured since it was so late we could just spend time here and I’ll take you out tomorrow.” “That sounds great.” I replied. Noah walked around the kitchen island towards me, he offered me his hand and guided me to the couch. Everything felt so romantic, he had his lighting set to a soft glow, had candles burning and put his faux fireplace on. I was curious as to what his intentions were.

“Can I ask you something?” I said now that I had a little bit of liquid courage in my system. “Why are you so hesitant to have sex with me?”

Noah sighed and put his wine glass down. “El, it’s not like I don’t want to, trust me I do. Sex has become something I take seriously now. During the pandemic when my depression hit an all time low, I was drinking so much and I used to have these girls I’d call, they’d drop everything and come over so I could fuck them to forget my problems. I had no attachment to them whatsoever and I would kick them out the second I got what I wanted. All of it left me so empty and I stopped having sex all together for a long time. Then I met you and I knew I wanted to be with you in that way, my anxiety made me feel like my old habits would come back.” He paused and I could see tears flickering in his eyes. “I just love you so much sometimes it scares me, I want to do everything right with you.”

“I love you too Noah and I know you well enough to know you wouldn’t treat me like that. I’m sorry that you went through such a dark time. I’m also sorry that I was selfish and thought maybe it was something I did.”

“You’ve done nothing wrong at all. You’ve been so patient and kind with me, I don’t deserve you.” Noah replied with a sad tone, some days this mans emotions went deeper than I expected but if anything it made me love him more. He wasn’t ashamed to show them.

I cupped his face in my hand, catching the tear that escaped him. “I think you got it wrong, I don’t deserve you.”

He softly smiled at me as he poured me another glass of wine. The more the night went on the more bottles of wine we emptied. We ended up on the floor of his living room after dinner, listening to records, laughing about nothing and enjoying each other’s company. 

“You’re the greatest thing to ever happen to me you know that?” Noah drunkenly whispered as he crept up to me. I could taste his breath on me, it was sweet and strong. I watched him as his eyes focused on my lips, licking his own in the process. My heart was beating so fast and my eyes started to lose focus, I felt like maybe this was it. His lips crashed into me and I held onto the collar of his shirt as the kiss deepened. He pulled me onto his lap as he rested his back on the couch. He ripped my shirt off me and trailed kisses all over my shoulder, my collarbone and bit gently on the top of my breasts. I felt Noah growing harder under me as he took my bra off and let it cascade down my arms, completely exposing me. 

“So, so fucking beautiful.” He exhaled as he caressed my breasts, tracing circles around my nipples. I was in complete bliss, every single one of his touches sent fireworks off in my mind.

Noah held the back of my neck as he gently laid me down on the carpet, he disappeared for a moment but suddenly he was towering over me. My breath hitched when I felt something cold pooling on my stomach between Noah’s lips. He had an ice cube in his mouth and was trailing it all over my body, making me squirm. When it finally melted, he undid my pants and slid them down my legs, along with my underwear. Noah’s tongue hit my clit, it was frozen solid as he flicked it back and forth. I knew I was done for as my toes curled into the carpet. 

“You respond so well to my touch, you have no idea how fucking hard that makes me.” He looked up at me, grinning like a devil between my hips. He spat onto his fingers before sliding them in me, making me arch my back. His hand pressed on my lower abdomen as he hooked his fingers inside me, throwing me over the edge. “Come for me, I know you want to.”

“Noah - “ I couldn’t hold it, I screamed out in ecstasy as my body shuddered from my orgasm. He left me panting and seeing stars for a brief moment, but he didn’t give me much time to recover. He just looked at me like he was about to show me no mercy.

“I can’t wait anymore baby…I need to fuck you now.”

“I’m all yours.” I breathed out. I helped him get undressed as he closed his eyes before making a home between my thighs. He leaned over and gently kissed me, twitching as I stroked his throbbing cock. He deeply sighed with relief as soon as he was fully in me, his eyes glazed with pleasure as I wrapped around him. He started off slowly but picked up the pace rapidly, gripping into my hips to get deeper in me. Our bodies glistened with sweat, our sighs were so heavy and my body was shivering as my orgasm flooded me countless times.

“Jesus fucking Christ, you feel so good baby.” he moaned into my ear as he clasped my wrists over my head. “I don’t think I can hold on anymore.”

“Then don’t.” I whispered, his face was mere inches from mine as his hair brushed my face. He gently nodded and started to thrust into me harder, making me gasp each time. Our eyes stayed locked before he couldn’t focus anymore. Noah crashed his forehead into my shoulder as he spilled into me, letting out the most ungodly moan in my ear. My god that was worth the wait. 

#noah sebastian #fanfic #bad omens

[silenceandpatiencepining]

hello, long time no see. so u think taylor dedicated all 6 of her la shows to karlie and kept looking up at her not for romantic reasons, rather bc she's planning to come out and needs acceptance from karlie?

it felt very “wait for the signal and I’ll meet you after dark” if that makes sense

like, karlie has been dropping these little koincidences and otherwise flagging things that felt taylor-coded, and the LA shows felt like taylor’s response. like maybe she wasn’t ready before for them to be back to being as close of friends, but now she is. so she puts her signals out for karlie, and then karlie showed up. she always shows up. and she showed up to a place where fans wouldn’t be welcoming, and taylor saw that. that means something, having her there, especially on a night with such a big announcement, about an album and era that karlie is so much a part of. some level of acceptance is needed because of how connected they are, but I think it makes a statement, and I think it could help move things in the direction of her coming out or at the very least, them being seen together after all these years and the kind of speculation that draws.

I don’t think they’re together now. and the way taylor kept looking up at karlie’s section felt so tender. lyrics that were written about what was once romantic. but to me, LA wasn’t like a romantic gesture, it was an acknowledgment of past romance and the fact that they have so much history and that they both carry a piece of each other in their hearts. and that whatever taylor does, karlie is going to support it. like reminiscing on an old love and still having love for them. she’s not the muse of seven but like a variation of “and though I can’t recall your face, I still got love for you”

Idk, I’m sure my feelings about things will change but just what I’m thinking about now

#kaylor #gaylor #taylor and karlie #karlie kloss

[ladydorian05]

WIP ask game: I need to hear about Green is just not your color Eddie - (Buck x Josh with jealous Eddie during s5) pls!!!!

You were the first one to ask about it, followed by @pirrusstuff so here we go: (honestly, this is more dialogue than anything)

Buck waits until Josh has his seat belt on before taking off into LA’s night traffic. “Seriously, Buck. I really appreciate you taking me home.” “No problem.” Buck shrugs his shoulders. “Besides, it saves me from Maddie asking more questions about the Taylor thing.” “I swear, dating gets harder and harder to do these days.” Buck can tell, just from his tone of voice, that Josh rolled his eyes with that last comment. “Tell me about it. So far, all my Tinder matches have been interested in having one night stands and nothing more. I just gave up on dating apps.” Buck shakes his head. “Urgh, don’t even mention dating apps to me please. I swore off them after that last time with the asshole that took us hostage.” “Oh, god. Shit, I’m so sorry for bringing that up, Josh.” “It’s okay. He’s in jail and I’m free.” Josh sighs. “I’m grateful that we have such a great therapist. But tell me, How bold have you Tinder dates been?” “Where to start. There was this one girl that the first thing she asked when she got to the restaurant was if it was going to be at my place or hers, not even a ‘Hi, nice to meet you in person’.” “Gotta admire that she went straight to the point.” “No kidding. Oh, there was this one guy that as soon as he got to the meeting place he wanted to get down to business in an alley.” Buck grimaces, he still remembers how upset the guy got when Buck refused to just drop on his knees and suck him off. “I think that was the worst of them all.” “I’m sorry. Hold on… a guy?” “Yeah, the dude just grabbed my hand and tried to pull me into this disgusting alley.” “Hold on. I don’t want to mislabel or anything, Buck are you… queer?” “Oh, yeah, I’m bisexual. I thought you knew, Maddie never mentioned it?” “How would I know? And no, she never mentioned it.” “But, back when she first invited you for poker night, you said something about her setting us up, I thought you knew.” “I didn’t!” They stay silent for a bit, Buck letting Josh process the news. “Well, let me just say, thank you for telling me.” “It’s not a big deal for me. I don’t really hide it, but I also don’t go around telling people. It’s just part of who I am." “No, yeah, of course I get it.” He can see Josh smiling at him when he takes a quick glance at him. “I’m so dragging you to Pride next year.” Buck laughs at that. “You know what? I’m in, in all my years living here, I’ve never been to the parade.” “Yes! That’s the spirit.” They spent the rest of the drive talking about  Pride and other nonsensical topics. Buck really likes talking with Josh, he’s a bit older than him, but almost everyone else in his life is. He would really like to get to know Josh more outside of the times Maddie invites him to hang out. “Well, this is me. Again, thank you so much for the ride.” Josh says, taking his seat belt off. “Josh, wait a minute.” Buck stops him just as he was opening the door. “What’s the matter?” “So, umm, now I know that you were kind of joking back then on poker night, but uh, what do you say we give it a go?”

I'm going to share a little secret with you... I just wrote all that, took me about an hour xD

That's what I love about these games, they make me write so that I can share stuff.

#fic: green is just not your color Eddie #jealous eddie #buddie #evan buckley x josh russo #evan buckley #josh russo #Ladydorian answers

[princesssarisa]

Since I did this for Carmen and Don Giovanni's deaths, I might as well do it for Violetta.

Not that there's very much variety: in all performances, she suddenly feels restored to health and strength, rises up, and sings a final exclamation of joy, only to drop dead. But the slight variations directors and sopranos have found can be interesting.

I can see why some prefer to keep it simple: either follow the libretto and just have her briefly stand up, then fall back on the sofa, or not even have her stand up at all, but just rise onto her knees. She is dying of a debilitating disease that realistically should leave her barely able to move by the end.

But this last euphoric moment isn't realistic to begin with. The whole concept of spes phthisica, that TB causes feelings of euphoria even as it kills, might be just a romantic myth to begin with, but even if it's real, I'm sure it rarely, if ever causes an apparent complete return of health and strength in the last few seconds of life. With this in mind, why shouldn't some productions make it more dramatic? Opera directors always love a good stagger to center stage and dramatic slump to the floor. Or why not go crazier still: e.g. by having her stand up on her bed, or Richard Eyre's choice to have her run madly in a circle around the room?

The stagings where she dies in Alfredo's arms are good for the romantics among us, for giving her the ultimate final happiness, and for suiting pop cultural expectations the Camille story (e.g. memories of the 1936 MGM film's famous ending, with Greta Garbo in Robert Taylor's arms, or of the end of Moulin Rouge! for that matter).

Yet that one staging I found on YouTube where Giorgio Germont is the one to hold her at the end was very interesting too. After all, everyone agrees that Act II's lengthy Violetta/Germont scene is the heart of the opera, and while Alfredo is arguably just the same romantic, hot-blooded young fool from beginning to end, his father undergoes real growth and change thanks to Violetta.

Then there's the cruel twist from the Zeffirelli film and productions inspired by it, where at the very end it turns out that Violetta just hallucinated Alfredo and Germont's return and she dies alone. On the one hand, it is heartbreaking, and it's truer to the original novel, where Marguerite dies before she can reunite with Armand. But on the other hand, maybe it's too cruel. At any rate, it wasn't Verdi or Piave's intent, it denies Giorgio Germont his redemption by turning it into Violetta's fantasy, and it only works if the other characters' final exclamations of horror and grief are cut.

The last option, from another video I found on YouTube, is also an interesting choice: where she doesn't drop dead, but is still standing in a euphoric pose at the end, bathed in light, while the rest of the stage goes dark. It's as if we're seeing her spirit instead of her body, ending on a note of transfiguration instead of grief. But maybe that's too sentimental and religious for this mostly-realistic tragedy of social commentary.

I'd love to see other people's thoughts.

@simone-boccanegra, @supercantaloupe, @notyouraveragejulie, @ariel-seagull-wings, @leporellian

#opera #poll #la traviata #giuseppe verdi #violetta valery #staging #tw: death #tw: illness

[spade-riddles]

Re: Super Bowl

The halftime show is put together by Jay-Z & Rocnation. Look at the past performers since 2021:

The Weekend (2021), Dr. Dre, Eminem, Kendrick Lamar, Mary J. Blige, Snoop Dogg (2022), Rihanna (2023), Usher (2024). While Taylor has been friends with Beyoncé and Jay Z at least since 2009 and when they went to her birthday party, looking at the past performers above…wouldn’t that be odd?

No one knew (or expected) Beyoncé would be coming to her LA premiere; but we literally get a play by play of everything with Travis. Every article is steered towards creating an image for him (“he was very protective, he was such a gentleman, he kept checking on her and giving her space to talk to everyone, male and female at the SNL after party”)—hmmm. Sure sounds like they’re trying to refute those narcissist claims from Maya, huh? “Because if he was a narcissist, Taylor Swift wouldn’t give him the time of day!” But a narcissist does seem to think because he’s a big football player, she doesn’t need armed security.

Her attendance at the Jets game was announced FOUR DAYS IN ADVANCE. The only time we know when Taylor will be somewhere in advance might be an awards show (which is usually 50/50) or a concert because those dates have been released already.

So I don’t think it’s so much an NFL thing, but a CAA thing because their client just so happens to work for the NFL. People within the league and who are associated with the league/sports world are capitalizing:

Jason’s documentary being most viewed or something on Prime.

Travis and his Jersey sales spike even though he’s a two time Super Bowl winner. His tequila soda brand that she just so happened to be drinking at the game last Thursday. His commercials airing throughout the games.

Travis’ friends who were with them on this “intimate” date.

Erin Andrews (a sportscaster and podcaster who likes to say she set them up) sent her the jacket she was wearing at Thursday’s game and said it sold out.

In all honesty, I’d rather see her headline Coachella. 🤷‍♀️

Good post. I agree with it, except the part about the NFL. They are knee deep in this, too. They are not just a side show. They created that cheesy dating commercial about Taylor and dropped it during the first game she went to, as an example of their preparation. The announcers were told to talk about her being there. The cameras were told to show her. The NFL has been trying to increase their fan base of women - bring on Taylor Swift.

[alexstorm]

Something I’ve noticed that nobody ever talks about in the fandom is how much Alex slighted Taylor hell he slighted Arielle too. I thought it was refreshing to see Taylor admit to feeling this way after the breakup because it was completely valid and true. Fans blame her all the time for not seeing the signs exactly like they blame Arielle. But we didn’t see everything. I imagine Alex behind close doors is most likely all consuming and they just simply given in. He is all talk and likely told them exactly what they wanted to hear. They essentially believed the lie because if we are being frank musicians already have a bad rep and he isn’t really a guy that values his girlfriends. They are really are accessories to him. They represent a period in his life and he relies a lot in the initial high of the relationship for inspiration. It’s kinda depressing to see him also not give credit where credit is due. If his lovers do provide inspiration to what extent is it? Partial conversations, one liners, or what? People also talk a lot about Taylor placing too many expectations on Alex to justify his behavior but Arielle literally never did and he still dumped her out of no where. My question to all of you is that really a healthy place to be? Is that really enviable? To have some song sorta dedicated to you but with the later subtext is about how he dumped you and for a time broke your heart?

I think you should keep reading here. Then you’ll see we’ve already been through all that. We’ve already acknowledged that none of Alex’s relationships are really healthy. Saying he used his girlfriends for inspiration and then dumped them is one way of seeing it but they also were all gagging to be in a relationship with a musician exactly because they were hoping to be immortalised in a song. They also all ignored normal relationship flags and that’s not a thing you can entirely blame on Alex no matter if he’s “all consuming”. Arielle knew she was a rebound for Alex. He started a relationship with her right after breaking up with the love of his life without any break to mourn that relationship. What did she expect? AM was his mourning process.

Same with Taylor who indeed believed all the words he was telling her but didn’t see any actions. They had a very intense infatuation phase and when that went away the drop after was even bigger than with Arielle yet she didn’t talk to him about it. 2017 was a rough year for them which you could tell even before he left for La Frette. Taylor tried to just sit it out instead of being a mature adult with emotional intelligence and talk to him. If after 2017 she really still thought he’s gonna marry her and she’s gonna have his babies she was stupid.

So yeah, I do partly blame the girlfriends for being so dumb to be distracted by all the glitter and whistles not to see what really is going on in their relationship. But of course Alex is the one who does all that to hide something deeper. He shouldn’t be in a relationship until he’s really ready for it.

#Alex Turner #The Turner Girlfriends Club

[itsnickgalitzine]

Title;;  until you go With;;  nicholas galitzine & taylor zakhar perez ( @therestayzakhar ) Where;;  taylor's california home, on a plane & new york -- december 8th 2024 Summary;;   some old ass thread we just remembered to share about the private couple unable to stop touching each other and seeing sabrina carpenter's show at madison square garden Warnings;;  too much smut and spelling errors Song Inspiration;;  just find a dirty song

Taylor Zakhar Perez: To say he was grateful for Sabrina convincing Nicholas to come to the show as almost an understatement. Taylor was excited to get another day with the man he secretly loved, before he was due back in London. Surely he was homesick, missing England so much but also he was so happy here, the new couple managing to hit their two weeks without issue giving both relief surely after what they went through to make this all happen. Taylor packed himself a bag for a couple days, just in case, as his lowkey boyfriend was packing everything he brought to America with him. Stealing a couple of the taller one's hoodies, surely. Walking up to his boyfriend, a smile on his face before gently turning him around and kissing him. "Ready to catch the flight out to New York, baby?"

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: turning around, after dropping the rest of his clothes in his suitcase, turning to face his boyfriend, arms coming to rest around his neck, kissing him back before pulling him close to him. "mmm, i am. i'm going to fuck you so hard on that plane," he said grabbing hard at taylor's shirt, pulling him down a bit to the brit's height before kissing him deeply and passionately, his tongue slipping inside the other's mouth and a low needy moan getting lost in the suddenly heated makeout session. nicholas pushes his body up against taylor's hard, a little thrust of his grion into his boyfriend's letting another moan loose before quickly pulling away, turning back to his luggage. finishing packing, he closed his bags, grabbing them and giving the slight taller man a smirk, "let's go, sweetheart. we'll be late." with that he went with his stuff out of the bedroom, straight out the front door where he felt a slight chill of winter in LA's air over just heat. it tickled his pale skin in a way that was pleasant before he moved towards the vehicle they'd be taking to the airport. one of their team surely, and it left nicholas almost uncaring, as he got his bags in the back of the car and soon climbed into the backseat, making room for taylor to sit next to him.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: The sudden assault of passionate and filth, left Taylor both confused and wanting more, surely his boyfriend's plan as they'd soon be on a plane and could have a quickie in the bathroom. Doing his best to fix himself after Nicholas left before grabbing his own bags, heading out of the bedroom, and straight out the front door, stopping to turn around and lock his home before following his partner out towards the car waiting for him. Walking over to throw his couple backs in the back before shutting it and getting into the backseat with Nicholas before looking to him with a slight smile. "I'm so thanking Sabrina for this time together because I thought I'd be saying goodbye, but I'm embracing this last day as best as I can." Taylor knew he'd miss Nicholas while he was back in London, but he'd never hold him back and wasn't sure he wanted to go back there with him quite yet. Soon, surely. He wanted to wait til after the holidays at least which they spoke and he'd have his lovely British boyfriend back for.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: sitting patiently behind the rental's wheel before looking at the passenger side as taylor climbed inside. moving to get out of the driver side and slipping into the back, gently pulling at taylor's shirt to get him to join. before they went anywhere, he was going to have him in the backseat of the car. enjoying what they could during their last moments together. they did have an event tomorrow they'd go to, but after he was leaving so today they'd have to get in as much love making as humanly possible. "if you don't come here, you'll be listening to the sounds of me touching myself, darling," nicholas promised with a smirk across his lips before gently moving a hand down to the front of his own pants, rubbing his hardness and panting some as he did so before moaning out taylor's name to help convince him to move.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: When his boyfriend moved back, honestly, Taylor was confused by it. Why would he moved back after he got in and was about to buckle up. Feeling the pull on his shirt, he looked back to see Nicholas looking as hot as ever. The words he heard caused his mouth to drop open for a moment and just before he moved seeing the British actor's hand on himself, it was almost like it called to Taylor to come and take care of him. Slipping into the back and getting ontop of his boyfriend, so grateful they had tinted windows before gently pushing him down, pulling both their shirts up just enough to allow this bare chests to touch. He moved a hand down along Nicholas's body until he felt the front of his pants, rubbing him through his pants as he started assaulting his neck with kisses, nibbles and sucking on the skin. He'd never not mark up his boyfriend when he could.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: watching as his boyfriend climbed ontop of him, a grin crossing his lips as taylor's legs on on either side of him, bending down on before he felt everything all at once. their shirts up and bare chests touching, his own hands holding onto the other's back, feeling a firm hand rubbing the front of his pants and the assault on his neck. it all send nicholas into an almost pleasure overdrive for it all to happen so fast, right away. he allows his own head to touch the backseat of the car, hazel green eyes closing, shivering and moaning as he was pleasured by the amazing man he got to call his boyfriend. "mmm, taylor," the brit managed to say, pushing himself into taylor's hand more, bucking his hips some causing nicholas to moan a bit louder. his dull fingernails drag down along the tanned actor's back, not too hard.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: Rubbing harder at the front of his boyfriend's pants, a smirk crossing his lips before he pulled him into a deep kiss. Allowing tongues to touch, teeth to bit lower lips and their bare chests to stay together, no matter what. This was this last moments together and all Taylor knew was he was going to make the best of it all. He was going to have his boyfriend in the back of this car, maybe on the plane and surely sneak things at the concert. He needed this as much as Nicholas did, he craved it. They'd be apart til the 21st after this and while it only a couple weeks, it would surely feel longer. Missing each other and wanting nothing more than to be around each other again. New feelings consuming them.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: moaning louder in the kiss, craving so much more, needing to be touched desparately, rolling his hips into taylor's hand with such need and desire. breaking the kiss just to groan. "please.. i need to feel you more," he almost begged, gently moving close to moan right into his boyfriend's ear to help convince him to touch him or fuck him already. he needed this so badly before they left to catch their plane to new york. now driving was the last he could even think to do. one of his hands moving down to grip at the front of taylor's pants, shoving his hand inside and touching his growing erection through his underwear. "please.. need.." he moaned again right into the other's ear.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: Hearing Nicholas's moan right in his ear made fueled Taylor's desires so much more than anything else. He was mad for this now, only enjoying the hand on him for a moment before pulling off their shoes, pants and underwear just so he could push a finger into his boyfriend, thrusting his index finger in and out of him, slowly at first before gently picking up speed. Before adding a second finger, slowly thrusting in and out again. Using his long fingers to part and scissor inside of the British actor before gently adding a third. Once again going slow with the new addition before picking up speed and pushing his fingers deep inside, to get to his sweet spot despite mostly using his fingers to stretch him. "Do we have condoms and lube?" he asked in a low seductive voice, still fucking Nicholas with his fingers.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: not even caring when taylor took over, removing his hand, all nicholas could think of was how much he wanted, craved, needed his boyfriend to just touch him already at least and then once that moment came it was more than he expected and he moaned as felt that first finger enter in, nice slow and steady. once taylor started moving his long digit in and out of nicholas' hole, he was left needily moaning, ever so gently moving his hips along with that damn skilled finger. the addition of each finger, had him moan louder, adjust and then gently roll his hips, allowing himself to be fucked with taylor's long digits. stretching him and really making him so turned on and crave to feel his dick inside instead. "fuck, taylor" he moaned loudly, feeling his prostate touched, causing a shiver to run through his body as well, not expecting it but going wild for it. it was hard to move, but the brit barely managed, reaching into the pockets of his leather jacket, pulling out a few condoms and some lube and handing them to taylor as he panted.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: The whole time his boyfriend got things out of his jacket, Taylor continued to fuck him with his fingers, loving the sounds of his moan, before gently pulling his fingers out, lubing them up and pushing them right back into Nicholas's hole, fucking him again with them, harder and faster. "Once we have more room - I'll fuck your hole with my tongue," he spoke in a low seductive voice, leaning in close to his partner's ear as he said this before allowing his tongue to play with the British actor's earring some after. A smirk crossed his lips as he pulled away, looking at that beautiful god like face, twisted in pleasure. "Tell me how badly you want me, baby. Tell me how much you want my dick inside of you." Sometimes during sex, Taylor got like this because he knew it was a bit of a kink for Nick and he couldn't deny more ways to drive his boyfriend wild.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: feeling taylor take his fingers out, nicholas opened his eyes and whimpered some, but letting out a shaky moan upon feeling those fingers back inside, cover in lube, slipping in so much easier. given their both at least six feet, being in the backseat of a car for this wasn't easy, but they fit as best they could. most of nicholas' back was on the car door, his legs parted, one on the seat, the other on the ground as if he was supposed to be sitting up right, and his arms rested on the seat supporting his weird position. surely they'd feel a bit sore after all of this, but for now, they were focused on just the pleasure itself. "oh god," the brit moaned out loudly, head gently hitting the car door, gently moving his hips along with taylor's thrusts, feeling him touch that sweet spot deep inside ever now and then gaining another moan in result. "so badly," he struggled to answer. "i need to feel you inside me," he almost yelled feeling his prostate caressed as he spoke. "please, take me."

Taylor Zakhar Perez: Smirking some, he gently pushed his fingers in a few more times, getting to his boyfriend's sweet spot to hear the sounds he made, curling his fingers around inside before pulling them out, pulling his own pants and underwear down just enough to get the lube and condom on before pushing into the smaller British actor. Taylor groaned after he got all the way inside, enjoying it for a moment before he pulled out and thrusted back in hard, wanting to focus on getting the man he loved to make those sweet sounds for him. "Fuck, Nick baby," he moaned out as he kept thrusting into him in a hard rough manner, gaining a bit of speed but mostly focusing on how hard he came in.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: moaning as he felt fingers touch his prostate a couple more time til finally, finally, it was replaced with taylor's member slipping inside in with ease due to the stretch, plus the condom and lube. their very first time together was quite the adventure without all of the prior prep. it all mattered. his legs wrapped around taylor's waist, hips gently moving along with each thrust, leaning him moan, and his back already starting to arch with how hard each thrust was. "don't fuck stop," nicholas moaned, "you feel so good." he was lost in his pleasures already. easily he wouldn't last long, as when taylor came in hard, he really just managed to hit that sweet spot every time and nicholas was left just wanting nothing more than to moan and get so close so fast.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: Nicholas's words as they were tangled together always helped fuel Taylor, pushing into the man he still loved on his own, pushing him into the backseat with each hard rough thrust. Hearing each moan and beautiful word during their sexual antics was something that Taylor started to really love whenever they got to this point which currently was pretty often as they still got used to being together as a couple. Also feeling like when they were apart they had to make up for it. One hand rested on the backseat, the other moved to grab his boyfriend's erection, starting to stroke it in tune with his thrusts. "I'm close, baby, come with me." He moaned as he thrusted in a couple more times before reaching his orgasm, releasing himself inside the condom in his boyfriend, and not pulling out until after his orgasm faded and he quickly put himself back together and climbed to the passenger seat. "Come on, we got a flight to catch," he said as he buckled himself in.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: each thrust send him over the edge, all he could process was himself and taylor in this moment, feeling each deep thrust, hitting that spot inside, touching his prostate and causing to moan with such desire, feeling himself get closer and closer. feeling a strong hand on his dick stroking it along with each hard thrust was everything nicholas needed, hearing taylor was close, he just nodded, moaning along with him, feeling like a dam was close to breaking before a couple more thrusts and it was all over. giving a loud moan, back arching and eyes closed tight as his orgasm consumed him and he came between them, taking a moment after he recovered after what felt like a whole minute to clean himself off before properly dressing again and moving back towards the driver's side. buckling up and starting the car, driving straight for the airport, allowing songs they both enjoyed enough to sing to to play within the car as they drove to the airport. as soon as they arrived, the british actor grabbed his bags and rushed to catch their plane to new york, getting to his seat before eagerly waiting for when he could get up with taylor, slip into the bathroom and go for round two. it'd be two weeks before they were together again, nicholas was going to enjoy every moment they had left together.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: After the drive to the airport, Taylor grabbed his bags and followed Nicholas to catch their plane to New York. Once settled into his seat beside him, he looked around at the other passengers for a moment, glad they didn't stand out, plus they did dress to be a bit hidden so they could enjoy time together out in the public without special treatment all the time. Gently reaching a hand out to grab his boyfriend's without much thinking, hoping it was okay because he really wanted to while he could since they were a bit hidden currently with how they were dressed to get less attention from anyone around them.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: feeling a hand take his, nicholas looked over at taylor, smiling softly as he squeezed his hand. "you're amazing," he said in a low voice to him. easily distracted by just low small talk with his boyfriend til they were finally able to get up. clearing his throat he stood up and made his way over to the bathroom, slipping inside, leaning against the wall as he waited for the other to come join him. the past couple days, just being alone with taylor was like it's own high for him, leaving him lost in nothing but taylor's feelings for him, his own for the other and wanting nothing more than to kiss and allow their nude bodies to tangle together. soon he'd be back in london, away from his boyfriend and really missing all of this. it was new to be left needy like this, being lost in his feelings and knowing that taylor loved him so much. it left nicholas grinning some as he waited, thinking of how amazing and perfect his boyfriend truly was.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: Smiling at Nicholas words, enjoying small talk until his boyfriend got up and walked away, Taylor watched him leave before letting out a sigh as he looked at his watch. Giving a couple minutes before getting up and slipping back into the bathroom to join Nick in the bathroom. "God, who allowed you to always look so perfect? I still can't believe we're together," he said before gently moving forward to pull his true love into a deep passionate kiss. He'd always share how he felt in each kiss, but also right now, they were just having a quickie in the bathroom on the plane, as their main focus was still getting to see their friends for a concert and hangout after. So he was going to get his hands all over Nicholas while he had the chance before he was back in London and Taylor would be left missing him again.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: he didn't hesitate to kiss back, running his fingers through taylor's hair, pulling on his shirt so their bodies touched and allowing himself to rub up against the other some. "we need to make this quick," he uttered in a low voice between kisses before gently pushing their groins together, moaning into the kiss with a desire to just have taylor already. there was no better person he could think of to do this with right now and he couldn't currently get enough of his boyfriend either way so he was going to enjoy him as much as he could. not breaking the kiss, allowing his tongue to slip inside the other's as he unzipped his hoodie, and unbuttoned his button down -- rocking an all black look today, as he grabbed taylor's hand to touch his chest, needing to feel those big hands all over him right now. moaning again into open mouths before briefly breaking the kiss to get his boyfriend's hoodie open, shirt over his head and be able to feel his bare chest as well. "i need you so badly," he said close to his partner's lips before kissing him again, not shying away from slipping his tongue back into the other's mouth and pushing their groins together again, gaining another needy moan from the brit.

Taylor Zakhar Perez឵: Not hesitating too much, Taylor pinned Nicholas against the wall, kissing back in the same manner given. Allowing his boyfriend to get their clothing open so their chests were exposed and he moved to getting them out of their pants enough to engage in their sexual act once again. Breaking the kiss, Taylor pushing Nick against the skin, bending him over it before finding a condom in his hoodie pocket and getting the lube from Nicholas's, putting them on his member before angling himself with his partner's hole and pushing right into it, making sure he was balls deep and found that sweet spot inside of his boyfriend before he started thrusting into him, slowly at first before picking up the speed some.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: once he was pushed into the skin, nicholas grabbed on tightly, waiting til he felt something at his entrance before feeling all of taylor push right into him and the moment his sweet spot was touched, he put some of his hoodie in his mouth and let out a muffled moan. they wanted to both be quick, but also keep it down. one of his hands moved from the skin to the wall, as he felt taylor start to thrust into him. moaning again, still muffled by his hoodie. last time they were like this was on set, between takes, taking a break to just get off quick, also in a bathroom, muffling their sounds and just focusing on getting the pleasured they desired as fast as they could and be ready for the next scene.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: Picking up his speed, and thrusting in faster and rougher before moving a hand forward to grab his boyfriend's erection and start stroking it along with his thrusts. Just remembering they were being sneaking, remembering sneaking just like this on set, it all helped get Taylor close and closer to the edge faster. Also using part of his clothing to muffle his own moans as he thrusted into his boyfriend. Briefly allowing the clothing to fall from his mouth, panting into his Nicholas's ear. "I'm already so close, baby," he said in a loud voice, letting a low moan follow before putting part of his clothing back in his mouth as he continued to thrust hard into slightly smaller, younger man.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: each hard rough thrust, continuously hitting that spot inside, nicholas already started feeling close, especially as taylor started stroking him along with those thrusts. definitely the fastest he's ever gotten off in a while, but they did agree to be quick, not wanting to hog the bathroom. moaning loudly, grateful it was muffled and he almost came right then and there when taylor spoke and moaned in his ear in that low husk seductive tone of his. he knew exactly how that got to nicholas. "harder, taylor.. please.. need," he spoke as proper as he could with something in his mouth. all that crossed his mind was doing this on a private plane, just them, a pilot and any of their team, focusing on other things over caring both of them are fucking to their hearts content inside the plane's bathroom, not needing to muffle or care how loud they were being. this was last minute though, so they had to cover up, muffle and try not to be found out.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: Upon being told, Taylor did just that, pushing into Nicholas harder, allowing his free hand to move forward and graze along his boyfriend's bare chest for a moment before briefly using both his hands to removed the British actor's jacket, hoodie and shirt all in one go, setting them on the closed toilet behind them before pulling his partner up some, allowing his now bare back to touch Taylor's bare chest. Groaning at the feeling of the heat of their bodies touching, as Taylor moved his hand back to stroke Nick's erection, gently placing kissing along the sides and back of his neck in a more gentle manner, despite how hard he was pushing into him.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: letting out a louder muffled moan into his hoodie when taylor pushed in hard, groaning some as he felt a hand all over his bare chest, not even fighting as his torso was exposed, especially when he was rewarded feeling the heat of their bodies touch. nicholas groaned at the feeling alone, enjoying the feeling of the kisses taylor placed on his neck. always managing to find a way to be so sweet and loving, pulling at the brit's heart strings and making him melt, leaving his heart racing and a smile on his face. it was why he always wanted him around and missed when they were apart briefly. it was the worst time of his life but it was good to help him figure out his feelings and get to date someone so truly amazing, who always made him feel special even if they were just sitting together doing nothing but enjoying each other's company. plus at the end of the day, nicholas didn't want anyone else to be with him sexually like taylor. he'd always be the only man to dominate him and make him crave it. no other man could ever compare even if they broke up tomorrow. moaning as he was stroked again, feeling himself starting to get close. "give it to me, taylor," the brit uttered through his pleasures.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: Keeping Nicholas's back close to his bare chest, Taylor thrusted into him harder, kissing and sucking on one side of his neck, leaving marks before doing the same on the other side. As he thrusted in harder, he stroked Nick a bit faster, wanting him to feel each tug on his erection along with each time his prostate got touched. Normally, he'd always love Nicholas to come first, hearing his loud moan, sometimes saying his name and feeling how he closed some around him - but this time Taylor felt so close, he could barely help from just breaking. "I'm gonna come, baby," he said right in his ear, before moaning some into it, then baring his face into his boyfriend's neck as his orgasm took over and he came after a couple more rough thrusts into his partner.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: really wishing he could just loudly moan out his pleasures, nicholas held onto the sink, other hand still against the wall and only letting out muffled moans, not sounding as loud as he normally was. just the feeling of being stroked and feeling that sweet spot inside touched with each thrust, he was going to be coming any second. hearing what taylor said in his ear, the little moan and the feeling as he came inside him, left nicholas following shortly after, allowing his orgasm to consume him, gripping tightly onto the sink before he'd almost fall forward after his orgasm tampered off. pulling away from taylor with a smirk on his lips before pulling him into a kiss just after getting his pants back up, almost wishing they could go again, but he was kinda spent from everything so far. pulling away from the kiss to get the rest of his clothes back on, giving his boyfriend a smile before walking out of the bathroom back to his seat by the window.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: After getting cleaned up, Taylor went to join Nicholas back in their seats on the plane, just focusing on small talk, occasional hand holding and mostly just enjoying the flight to New York the best they could. Passing by time was a bit much, but it wasn't too hard. Before they knew it they were landing and didn't hesitate to get their bags and got off the plane just planning to go straight from there to the hotel they rented for a couple days during their short stay. Probably mostly for Taylor since Nick mentioned leaving after the show, and enjoying a small hang out with their friends first as well. Once they got to the hotel, they went to their room, put their stuff in and made their way to go meet up with Joey and Jacob to see Sabrina's show that night.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: a bit of catching up with their friends, watching the show and soon being backstage, chatting some before nicholas grew a smirk and while their friends were distracted he pulled taylor into sabrina's dressing room, locking the door. there was no way he was passing this up. not the ideal place but his mind was lost to back in the car before getting to the airport and he needed to feel taylor's tongue on such a sensitive spot. "i need you so fucking bad right now," he whispered in a low seductive british accented voice before going to kiss his boyfriend, deeply and passionately. one hand resting on the back of his head, the other on his back, pulling their bodies close together.

Taylor Zakhar Perez: [ lazy fade to black ] Taylor cleaned up and made sure Nicholas looked as before they entered before they exited the dressing room to catch up with their friends again before whispering to his boyfriend. "So when are you leaving again?" Maybe if he could have one more moment with him in the hotel, he'd truly ravish Nick, so he wouldn't forget how it all felt on his way back to London. Also, Taylor was still wanting to spend every moment with Nicholas he could before he had to go back home.

𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕤 𝕘𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕚𝕟𝕖: smiling at their friends til he heard taylor's whisper and mentioned back a party he wanted to attend tomorrow for a friend's kid, so they could enjoy the night together. it was clear they'd probably end up naked and tangled up together again. "after though, i'm going back to london. i am kinda missing home.. as much as i'll also miss you and our time together.. but i'll be back the 21st, just in time for the holidays with you, darling," he said with a warm smile across his lips, giving taylor a quick kiss.

#discord para; until you go ft. taylor zakhar perez #[ maybe we rushed the ending got a new years one to finish now ]

[neverevan]

Re: Buck's loft decor - they kind of established that his designer /artist girlfriend (Ali) designed the place or at least had a heavy hand in picking things out.

Yeah I can give credit for most of the furniture to Ali, but that's about it. But thank you for this ask, because it made me go down the rabbit hole, so here are the details of Buck's loft in regards to what Ali had influence on and everything that changed since.

So this is the scene immediately before she broke up with Buck and just around the time Buck moved in. Seemingly the pictures by the door aren't there yet, nor are the baskets and the pictures on the shelf by his bed (see later pics), it's very much the bare minimum, right? Furniture, kitchen appliances, TV, some rugs and blankets.

The next time we see the loft is in season 3 when Eddie comes to help Buck pull himself together. If you look at the shelf you have some baskets and pictures there that are pretty distinctive and were not there when Ali dropped him off. Obviously people will have stuff on their shelves in their homes, that's not my point here. But look at the basket and the little box beside it... Whatever's inside, it sure as hell looks decorative to me.

Then moving onto the covid era. There are pictures by the door, but also a new dining table. (The one that was presumably picked by Ali was round.) The rug in the kitchen seems new too.

As far as I could tell this is the first time we see this plant, but I admit I might be wrong about that, because we don't exactly see this corner when Ali breaks up with Buck.

Then going forward with the other small stuff from later seasons (before and after Taylor moved in).

Look at the plant and the baskets on the dining table (you can see them on most pics actually). Clearly decorative.

And then there's the fruit bowl. Again, not trying to generalise one bit, but how many cishet guys do you know who live alone and have a fruit bowl? (Same guy "who's idea about healthy food is a side salad" apparently.)

I also honestly doubt that the gloves and the apron are coming from Ali either, but I'm willing to write them up to Maddie or Taylor (except these are colours we see Buck wear regularly when off duty).

This one is just for my amusement, because look at all those spices! (Actually I will point back to this in a minute.)

And finally this picture to talk about the cleanliness.

That is a hell of a light coloured kitchen furniture. Do you know how hard it is to keep something like that clean? (Unfortunately I do, from experience.) Especially when you're a guy who regularly cooks and bakes and not just easy meals, but like very elaborate recipes, admittedly even trying them out 3 times before even serving it to anyone.

But this is my main point: This is not a real flat. This is not a real kitchen. This is a set.

The set designers' job is to create a set that corresponds to the story and the characters interacting in it (while you also have someone on set who pays attention to continuity with objects and stuff, but sometimes you still end up with Starbucks cups on a medieval set, whoops), their job also includes adding tear, wear, dirt and grime accordingly to the usage of certain places and objects.

Of course, it's more than possible that they never really thought about it from this angle, they just wanted the set to look warmer when filming scenes in it and having it clean for continuity purposes.

All that being said, within the show this is Buck's place and someone's home tells you a lot about the person. So, regardless of it being intentional in most cases, this loft and the items in it aren't exactly what you'd normally find in a bachelor's pad. (Nor do I think someone could afford a place like that alone in LA, but that's an entirely different topic.)

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