#i have not slept yet help

[krowfics]

random pro cop things in fics take me out. Patton saying that acab is wrong cause you can't say ALL cops and Remus being like yea I just said that to get a reaction you are right :3 and all the other sides just sitting there presumedly agreeing?? et tu Janus??? Venom fic where at multiple times Eddy doesn't want to kill cops or otherwise shows them sympathy, seriously I just read the line 'he didn't want to get rope the poor cop into this' sir you just ate 20 neo Nazis. eat another

#rage at quarter to 7 am good god #that sasi one i read ages ago i cant remember much but the sudden pro cop bs came out of no where it was so weird #ugh #thekrowistalking #cannibalism mention #i have not slept yet help #i was gonna text this rant to bestie but i did have enough shame to not send my sleep deprived complaints before the dun had risen

[b00k10ver]

The sapphic yearning is so strong rn bro. I just want a pretty girl to cuddle with yk?

#wlw yearning #wlw post #sapphic yearning #lesbian #tierd #it is 6 am and I haven’t slept yet so that’s not helping #y’all I am praying that I have enough courage to actually flirt with women when I start college next month #and that they like me tbh #I really should go to bed #:)

[a-tenno-called-prin]

Void Construct

#prinia qin #prinia can draw sometimes #i realised i hadn't made an actual image for her yet #idk if i'll keep it up #i haven't slept in 22 hours but it looks fine to me #if it really looks bad when i have a functioning brain then i'll take it down #but her face is made of silly putty so maybe it's ok #i told myself i was gonna make actual content and all i've done since then is draw my tenno #i have transcended the need for sleep #hhhhhhhnngh #i'm having fun with her tho #i've had 4BLOOD by Kira on loop for like #5 hours #i need help #drifter #warframe #warframe fanart #tenno #edit: nah its fine im allowed to be cringe if i want to

[naomiknight-17]

I thought I was very open to different cultures' ways of dealing with death and funerary rituals and that the book I'm reading, From Here to Eternity by Caitlin Doughty, would be enlightening but certainly not shocking

Certainly, I would not be appalled or gasp aloud by anything any culture practiced! I've heard it all - funerary cannibalism, sacrifices, mummification - what could possibly shock me?

Welp

I got as far as page 56 before I was absolutely repulsed by a culture's death ritual, and I am now working through my feelings on that and trying to further expand my cultural understanding. I admit it though, I am not so enlightened as I thought. I got the heebie jeebies

There's like 200 pages left of this book. Who knows what else I'll encounter

#spoilers ahead #it's an indonesian area called Toraja so. look up their death practices if you want to know more #but the part that shocked me was that it is normal to keep a corpse in the family's home for weeks months or even years #before having a funeral and cliff burial #or cave burial. idk i'm not done the chapter #but the shocking part was that children not only helped care for the corpse (that's fine) but also slept in the same bed with it #which is just!! beyond what i could have imagined!!!! #seems horrific to my western sensibilities #but to them it's normal. the corpse isn't 'dead' until the funeral. the person is considered present but unresponsive #so it shouldn't be weird to share a bed with a sleeping relative #sorry i'm just. working through this in the tags here #it's shocking yet fascinating!! #death #funerary practices #toraja #ask to tag #caitlin doughty #ask a mortician #from here to eternity #traveling the world to find the good death

[youremyonlyhope]

Weird intense sertraline dreams are super real side effect.

#zoloft #sertraline #i just took a nap from like 9pm-ish to 11pm #i had a dream with a whole bunch of youtubers in it and i have no clue why #i think i made up like half of them just from names i've heard while others were people i either still watch or just used to watch #and there were LEVELS to this dream that i didn't even fully realize until like 30 minutes after waking up #like one youtuber was being called by another name yet they still had drama with another who was there #and it took me remembering the dream to realize that that drama was somewhat real but the different name made me not notice at first #it was WEIRD. also at one point i was living in like a campus or something but there were different climates like every 20 feet #like snow but also multiple pools and a weird like rollercoaster but you walk/slide in it... this is vaguely still coming back to me #also a weird sauna i was in then someone helped me out of it #and LITERALLY as if i was playing the sims i felt my consciousness almost like press buttons to change the POV #and the 'camera' left my eyes and moved to the outside of the sauna so i watched the person carry my sleeping body out #and i'm just NOW remembering that part and being like... what... i mean i literally intentionally changed the camera controls of my dream #guys i am hennaing my hair i was supposed to rinse it out at like 10:30ish but slept through that so i've had it in for an extra hour #which is fine. i like the more intense color. but i've been slowly remembering bits and pieces of this dream #for the last 45 minutes and it's so weird i need to somewhat document it #because it was like 4 different plotlines and the youtuber one was only one of them and the campus thing was another #oh my god i just remembered clark baxtresser from starkid was in the campus part and he was singing and i was like chasing him #through the rollercoaster (or maybe just sliding behind him?) and singing along and i think i dreamt that part due to VHS Christmas Carol #that JUST came back to me. that was such a weird aspect. i think i thought it was weird even in the moment. #i haven't remembered most of the weird sertraline dreams so i'm glad i put down bits of this one

[sprinklethetangerine]

I think this is a pretty reasonable situation to cry in, right?

#ughhhhh #you know what becausd i hate myself (not really dw) this isnt gonna be a vaguepost #if youre reading the tags buckle the fuck up #so last week and the week before were spring break for me #and the week before was jjst full of studying and exam stress to the point where i couldnt attend my archery lessons #cause all i was doing at that time was either studying or feeling like shit for not studying #but when spring break hit actually THE VERY SECOND it arrived I had to go to another city about two hours away to visjt family #and guess what? I STAYED THERE FOR ALMOST THE WHOLE ENTIRE SPRING FUCKING BREAK #so i couldnt even do most of the shit i wanted to #and even there i couldnt enjoy my time #why? because ALL I DID was study. my cousin tutors me and I was failing these 3 specific subjects #so she was helping me withtgem and she wouldnt leave me be #and when my (undiagnosed) adhd made me shit at focusing and my mind keot wantering and i kept looking away because i was understimulated #i got shouted at which was not very fun #whats worse is she did it in front of people. literally in public. #then we come back home THANKFULLY and she comes with us. because of course. #and now all my time all of it except for one or two hours of the day is just studying #the only free time i have is when she sleeps #and school. literally never in my life have i been happy to go to school and yet id rather be there than here. #but what choice do i really have #its either this or fail the exams #it gets worse. on thursday i was really tired from school. i came back and PASSED OUT #and by passed out I mean PASSED OUT #idk if it was cause it was hot outside or school just drained my energy but i could barely exist at that point #then my cousin finds me on the couch sweaty and basically dying #what does she do? she wakes me up like “alright time to study” #so yesterday i did charity work and it involved carrying a lot of heavy boxes and stuff so i naturally came back drained and tired and she #STILL WANTED ME TO STUDY so the second we got back I just slept and i was practically comatose so she coukdnt even wake me up #i slept for 11 hours and woke up to MORE STUDYING HURRAY and then at 5 i went to archery class and we got back at 8 and she WONT STOP #i just want to go home. im so tired. physically and mentally and emotionally. i just wanna go fucking home.

[whentherewerebicycles]

ok thank you @marnz and @rexbasileus I think for now I’m going to just go with the floor futon I already have (which I think is a similar thickness to the trifold mattress but is a nice queen size) and then maybe try adding a mattress topper to it for a layer of extra comfort? I can test run it when my parents are in town next weekend and then decide if I want to invest in something else

#the futons we slept on in Japan were very comfy #and this way I don’t have to buy anything new yet #my siblings also offered to go in on an expensive baby present and I don’t really have anything expensive left on the list so #if I want to do the cot or something like that maybe I can ask them to help with that

[overalledfrog]

Hit the road, Jack

#big city greens #bigcitygreens #tilly green #bigcitygreensfanart #fanart #shed eat a lollipop and pretend the stick is a cigarette like how she sort of did in coffee quest #i havent slept yet help #i have so much motivation oh my god

[july-19th-club]

cant get over the situation i was in this morning where i was chitchatting with a pair of regular patrons (the husband used to be on the board so like. we have to play nice with them always now) and mentioned having had some wicked insomnia last night . and the two of them repeatedly said "oh, you're too young for that stuff" like. carl. joan. do you think insomnia is exclusively decided by age?

#like i know elderly folks can GET insomnia when they havent had it before #but that is a circumstance that can actually happen to anybody #i slept like a fucking rock my whole life until i got covid and now i have insomnia issues #the ssri helped a LITTLE bit but i still have bad nights and i go to bed anxious all the time that one is incoming #yet i really cant predict when they'll happen #my mother's been insomniac since she was seven like. cmon #oh i fucking hate it when ppl point to some arbitrary ailment you have and say you're too young for it #like all that says to me is that the person saying it was lucky enough not to have anything really go wrong for them #health-wise . UNTIL they got old #so now they think only old people get health problems #no thats just your luck speaking actually most of us are falling apart daily

[asummersday]

when will my writing motivation return from the war 😭

#please i just wanna post the next chapter #or at the very least start a oneshot or do literally anything #ive been more tired than usual and i dont like that #im ALWAYS so so tired #sometimes YEAH its because im up til 3 or even 4 #but ive also slept 9 hours. 12 hours. and yet ill STILL feel so tired #im too tired to do the things i want to do #and then i feel like ive just wasted my whole day :((( #how many times these past few weeks have i said im gonna get this chapter done huh? and it is NOT done #i love creating and writing but it takes so much energy sometimes :((( and i just dont have it :((( #i feel bad/down -> writing would help me feel better -> too tired/unmotivated to write -> doesnt write -> keeps feeling bad #rinse and repeat lmao #sometimes being nice to urself and waiting for the motivation doesnt work #sometimes u gotta sit at ur desk with a massive mug of coffee and say ''i will WRITE if its the last thing i fucking do'' #screw quality its time to write WORDS #anyway. im making myself coffee rn. i will get through this dammit #summer post

[rockingthegraveyard]

Save me Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time

Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time

Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time save me

#ignore me #im having the time of my life 🎶 #ive had a rough fucking week #i greatly overestimated my ability to handle working #if i was smart i wouldnt have been looking so hard for a job #when ive been at rock fucking bottom mentally #i really admire people who can work #like your perseverance is unmatch #especially with retail #on day one i was pushed to the fucking edge #day two i was left alone multiple times #like #pls #this is literally.y furst time on a register #i #do not know what im doing yet!!!!! #so anyways #literally nothing has helped me stop thinking #ive barely slept this week and im so desperate to relax for one minute #so im putting all my hopes a d prayers into my comfort game #pppppp dear lord kill me instantly bc i have to many responsibilities to unalive myself

[possum-tooth]

ready for work over 1.5 hrs before i need to be there. anxiety sure is annoying

#i shouldve taken a nap but im Stupid :) and will be tired for my shift 😭😭 #slept like shit last night and have to be there an extra hour bc its friday 😭😭 girl help i cant do this #hopefully we're not slammed. tho last time i said that we Were so maybe i should just shut up LOL #anyway. wish me luck. last day of bartending this week and im getting better!! just not great yet lol #talk tag

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[navramanan]

I feel so horrible

#last evening i spilled tea it was obv an accident but i should have been more careful it was through a too careless action #some spilled on the book i got from the library. i thought that was the worst part #a bit spilled on my laptop. very little. while i was busy with the book my mom wiped my laptop #my brother immediately turned it off & told me to keep it upside down overnight #so i put it upside down. for hours. at least 4. before that i picked it up to look i could still see the water #but my laptop reacted to me picking it up & showed the battery percentage on the screen like it does #i didnt do anything else and put it back upside down. so again later i picked it up to check #it look dry. this time it didnt react to my ''touch'' to me picking it up #i didnt think anything. i wanted to do something on my laptop and tried powering it on. idk if that was a mistake or not #but it didnt react. the night is over it's almost noon it's still not turning on. it's been in rice the whole night #but honestly i dont even know if that actually helps. i know it's a popular method but idk #my brother works in IT he knows computers he said he'd unscrew & remove the storage disk to be safe #and to call someone they know who repairs computers. neither of these things happened yet bc we dont have the right screw #my brother i believe asked the neighbor #i'm not really hopeful. i've slept 4 hours last night bc i was so worried i couldnt sleep #went to sleep at 3 woke up at 7 couldnt sleep again #i said i'm not hopeful but one thing about me i never think bad things like this could happen to me so there's always this #''it's not real this isnt happening'' in me. i wish it wasnt bc if it turns out to be real it devastates me #i feel i get swayed so easily by things going wrong. it just immobilizes me #it happened when my luggage got lost. i was completely scatter brained fully gone when it happened #i was staying at my aunt's place. she poked fun at me for how much it affected me. said i have euros i could raplace my clothes #i spent four days this way. i was there to see a friend. i felt i was robbed from truly having a good time. it was our first time meeting #i cried every single day. called the airport lost & found every single day. this one thing occupied my whole being #i got my luggage back but what i'm getting at is for one i actually got it back so it wasnt a real bad thing that happened. it got fixed #and two it just had me in its clutches this one incident. so now my laptop wont turn on i cant think of anything else #cant do anything else. and although it looks real and i DONT want to be hopeful so i can let go and not be devastated when i find out #it's irreparable. idk where i'm getting at with this. except idk i really really really want it to work again #nesi rants

[mahoushaymie]

Found out that my grandpa died yesterday and I've been flopping between being okay (possibly in denial) and crying and I am having a crisis 🙃

His birthday is literally a month from now. He was going to be 77 and it kills me that he'll never see 80 and my grandma never got to see 70. Life sucks, man.

#writing has been helping me a little bit #like if i write then i don't have to think about it #so if i post a lot just know that i'm not okay and this is my way of coping #i haven't slept yet #but i'm scared of what my dreams could be #i used to have nightmares about losing my grandpa and now i'm living it

[loregoddess]

Ok I'm curious, could you elaborate on art school education when you have the time?

Mainly because my friend went to art high school and feels she wasted all the years there while I've been self-teaching myself for a few months by just messing around, so I was wondering just how different the two approaches are :0

Oh, I have lots and lots of thoughts on art education. I do feel that I need to preface this with the whole "my experience is not universal", bc all my feelings about art and art education stem from my own experiences of being self-taught and then getting actual formal college degrees in art.

The shortest version of my long rant, under the cut, is that there isn't a superior way to learn art. With art education, you run the risk of getting bad teachers who don't teach the subject well, and you can also run into teachers who aren't open-minded about approaches to art that differ too much from their own--the flipside, of course, is that there are sometimes amazing teachers who can challenge you to try new things you'd never had thought of on your own, or who have already made a lot of mistakes that they can tell you about so you don't have to make them yourself. With being self-taught, you have to figure out everything on your own, and sifting through online tutorials or reading books can be difficult to find "actually useful and well-explained" advice, but you do also get the freedom of doing literally whatever you want and really focusing what you learn based on what you're actually interested in. Each has it's pros and cons, but neither is technically better or worse, per se, although education of any sort comes down a lot to each person's situation in life, as not everyone has access to education or even the tools for making art.

For the long, long expansion of my thoughts and some of my personal experiences with art education specifically...

In short, I'm technically entirely self-taught, despite holding two different art degrees. Aside from some feedback I got from my 8th grade art teacher (who had agreed to look at my hobby art in her own spare time outside of class), I basically taught myself to draw entirely on my own, using various "how to draw" books, online tutorials, and just a lot of general experimentation and continued drawing on my own. Which meant I made a lot of mistakes, or didn't try out certain things, or got frustrated bc I couldn't figure out how to do something, but overall I had a lot of fun. The actual art classes I took in middle and high school? Well, I took a life drawing class in high school that taught me how to draw from life, a skill I never would have acquired on my own bc the process for learning that skill requires a lot of patience, and personally, I find life drawing to be extremely boring. My high school art teacher was also allowing blatant copyright infringements to occur in her class, which was something I learned years later when taking a media law class in college to learn about copyright law specifically, so I guess I learned what to not do as a teacher if I manage to become one, but I didn't learn a whole lot of actual art skills or even really improve my art in any significant way. I never actually learned anything like the elements of art and how to use them, or color theory, or any of that, in class or even on my own, but because I was constantly looking at lots of art online, and making art on my own and experimenting with new things, I ended up learning all of the "essentials of art" intuitively, sort of like how children learn the grammar of whichever language(s) they grow up speaking without learning the actual formal grammar of the language. Which I think a lot of artists actually do as they continue to make art, even if they don't realize it.

Anyhow, moving on. I personally really enjoyed my undergrad illustration degree. Now, to be fair, if someone was willing to pay me to attend college for the rest of my life as my actual career, that is what I would do bc I love learning, and I love the challenge presented by college courses. But do I feel like I learned anything new about art in those classes? Yes and no. I took a lot of art history classes bc I had never had any art history before college, and found I loved the topic a lot. The life drawing classes I was required to take felt like a waste of time bc I already had that skill from the one high school class, and I spent most of those classes fighting the teachers about why we should have less nude models (bc nudes are super easy to draw from life, but clothing is very, very difficult, and I wanted to learn how to draw clothing as a challenge bc I was bored in those classes). I spent one class teaching the entire class how to use Photoshop bc the teacher's method was absolute BS and I could do everything faster and easier than what we were being taught bc I had been using the program for years (the teacher even joked about how I had hijacked the class, to which I'm still not sure was meant to be friendly or malicious). The "Anatomy for the Artist" class I took was one of the most useful classes I've ever taken, and really helped me with drawing not only humans, but anything with a skeleton and muscles, since the teacher's approach made it so I learned the skill of using actual real-life anatomy as a means of creating art from the knowledge of anatomy (and I lucked out for this class bc I had an adjunct who was there to cover the actual teacher who was on sabbatical, and from what I heard from classmates I would have learned nothing from the usual teacher's approach to the class; I hope the teacher I did have found a good stable job bc she was amazing). Most of the actual core illustration classes helped me improve my art a great deal, but not bc they taught me anything--more so, it was that I had to create a lot of art for them, and find creative solutions to the challenges the projects would present (there were lots of "illustrate this abstract concept without using x, y, or z imagery" or "create an illustration within these specific parameters" which really required me to think about how to plan and go about completing the final project). Somehow, the actual "foundations classes" that I took--where I was supposed to learn things like design theory, the elements and principles of art, color theory, etc.--well, let's just say the teacher was on his way to retirement, and didn't teach any of that really well, so I still ended up going through my undergrad more or less on intuition and the art skills I had cultivated on my own. Mostly, college art classes were useful in helping me to improve my art, not because I learned new things (although I did learn some new things), but rather because I needed to make lots and lots of art in a relatively short time, and making art constantly is the fastest way to improve.

That all said, I still never really got the point of things that I kept seeing or hearing as common art advice. For example: "Use references." Okay? What does that mean? What does that look like? How do I do that? I was never taught that once, and it was only partway through college that I figured out that people meant "look at a photo of a real person to figure out a pose or something" and not "learn about the subject you're trying to draw so you have an understanding of that subject that allows you to draw it from your imagination how you want". And honestly the former advice is useful but...only useful to a point, so I'm kinda glad I never learned it bc it would have stunted my development and presented a roadblock. In either case, I was never taught how to use a ref or what "use a ref" meant in my formal art education, and by the time I figured it out on my own, my repertoire of art skills made the advice moot.

So what's all the long and short of this? Is art education a sham and useless? Well, not entirely, but maybe sort of. It really comes down to which teachers are teaching the subject, and how they do it. I only had a handful of art teachers who were really able to get me to think about art differently and push me to learn more and improve. But I also had a friend in my undergrad class who had never drawn in his life and he found most of the classes super useful bc he wasn't coming in being self-taught and already drawing. We were at different places in our art journeys, and so we got different things out of the college classes.

I do feel overall that the focus of my college classes was more productive than the lack of focus from my high school classes. Would I tell everyone who wants to get better at art to go to art school? Hell no. I got a degree in art because I love it, and because I had hoped to work as a video game concept artist (for which one does need at least a BFA to get hired by most companies). Of course, by the end of my degree I had figured out the video game industry in America was absolutely not a place I wanted to be working for my own health, but my frustrations with how my art education had been structured, paired with the fact that I spent a few classes actually teaching my classmates things, made me think I might make an okay art teacher. But even my wanting to be an art teacher still comes from a place of deep love for art. For those who just want to take up art as a hobby, self-taught is fine, and sometimes it will be better than getting stuck with a bad teacher who'll crush the enjoyment of art. Yes, I think a well-structured art course could help someone learn art and become confident in their art, which is part of the reason I want to try teaching it (esp. bc it took me years to learn some things that a good teacher would have just like, covered in a core class), but like...self-taught or school-taught, there isn't a superior way to learn art. They're both just very different approaches.

#I think I got a bit off-topic from your question at the end there so uh...sorry if this doesn't really help answer your question #I maybe should have slept on this before answering but also I'm like #really really passionate about art and Will Not Shut Up About Literally Anything Art-Related #a few of my coworkers have been subjected to hour-long rants about art bc they asked me one (1) thing #anyhow I think art education CAN be good it's just...like any education it really relies on good teachers and a good curriculum #and yet being self-taught I know it's entirely possible to learn all the basics needed for making art on your own so #like #yeah #I dunno #anyhow #I love art a whole lot and I do not regret going to college and getting two different types of art degrees #no matter how useless certain members of my family think they are #(to be fair graduating in the middle of a pandemic was not in my future plans) #anyhow if you want to just mess around making art and having fun that is honestly one of the best ways to learn art #actually just messing around and having fun is the best way to learn most things #so...yeah! #unsuspecting-person #I still don't have an ask tag

[nagitoedit]

i'm having a huge allergy attack or something . it's been an hour maybe and i am genuinely struggling to breathe right now 😭

#something crazy is that . i has allergy tests done. i am not allergic to anything. and yet i have allergic responses #to what though ? and this was triggered by taking a a shower. arent showers supposed to help #showers do this to me often too this isn't a one of thing showers are a known trigger for it. not always but sometimes #i gotta start taking zyrtec regularly again because i'm dying #and last night i barely slept because i forgot medication #just felt like complaining. anyways. let's see if i suffocate in my sleep or not

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