#i hate being autistic

[ocontodezalgatoth]

Oh no, Vincent is my new hyperfixation and confort character 😭😭

#i hate being autistic #dead plate vince #dead plate vincent #vincent dead plate #dead plate fanart #dead plate rody #dead plate #vince charbonneau #vincent charbonneau #dead plate game #traditional art #traditional drawing #artists on tumblr #art #rody x vincent

[vent-acc-tbh]

It wasn't depression it was burnout, I'm autistic. And I fucking hate it I don't wanna be like this I wanna be like all my friends I hate it it's so horrible I don't like this

#its getting worse #deppressed #i feel like shit #what the fuck #self h@rm #self h@te #actually autistic #autism #autistic community #i hate being autistic #autistic things #autistic child #autistic #kms

[lassieposting]

Some people with autism get funky little superpowers like Photographic Memory or Child Prodigy

And some of us just get the ability to feel utterly alone even in a crowded room

#brainwrong content #i hate being autistic

[asickandtirednobody]

"Im not a doctor but" - my (maybe) new dentist.

I told him I had fibro and auto immune disease.

He didn't believe me when I told him I have an autoimmune disease. I told him it was because of my fibro and I have digestion issues.

That mother fucker kept saying my doctor didn't know what he was talking about.

He said a lot for "not being a doctor"...

He was poking at my mouth, trying to see if he could see anything.

He didn't believe I even had the issue, until I pulled up the ultrasound report.

This dentist told me, "What fibro is," and he was not correct, his knowledge was super outdated.

So after messing with the issue area, it didn't hurt to me at the time, but started to burn really badly after 30 seconds. My pain was delayed. I said "my jaw is burning, it hurts a lot",

"Oh that's just your fibro."

Bro. I know my body, I know my fibro. That wasn't because of my fibro. It was a delayed pain response because of probably I took two extra strength tylenols before I went in, and my fibro causes me many times to have a delayed pain response.

I really don't want to go back to him. He was a dick.

If you have to start something with "I'm not a doctor but..." DONT SAY ANYTHING, YOU CLEARLY ARE NOT QUALIFIED.

So I won't tell my family doctor that has been there for me for 8 years and knows me that a dentist that saw me once questioned every diagnosis.

Was it all because I am autistic and I tried to be verbal. I have a bad (like really bad) stutter and unreliable speech (I can lose the ability to speak, it isn't clear, limited speech (language), etc.) I would have been able to communicate better with ASL...

Lol... Oy...

#chronic illness #illness #rare illness #fibromyalgia #chronic pain #chronically ill #fibro problems #autism #autoimmune disease #im not a doctor but #if youre not a doctor you shouldnt be speaking as one #stfu #invisible illness #my diagnosis matters #my diagnosis is real #why does everyone fight me? #i hate being autistic #people always abuse me when no one else is around #being semi verbal

[ellsss]

im really sad tbh. im trying to be happy but im just really really sad rn. my christmas was awful. had a meltdown because my sister was completely aggressive in a conversation but apparently she talks to everyone like that so that makes it okay, my parents again, showed their ableism and i tried to chat to people to make me feel better and they dismissed me or were really busy(fair enough) so.. yeah.

im really angry and fed up with no one caring about me or even trying to cater to me. it's always me that has to change and be better and be less sensitive and accommodate others but when is it my turn?

im always the draining aggressive mean domineering one when im not even trying to be. its always what people do and they always misread and misinterpret my actions and body language and tone and im sick of always having to monitor myself 24/7. i can never just relax and live in the moment because im always thinking about how i am or how others are going to read me.

i hate my family, i feel like my friends always find me too hard to deal with and im always doing something wrong. im tired and its not fair. i hate being autistic.

#ellsss' rambles #it'll be over and i'll still be asking when #i'll live in the moment but i'm never happy here #i'll always feel and be alone #Spotify #dodie is me internally at this point #dodie #i hate being autistic #ableism

[faggotslime]

having a burnout meltdown at work haha

#vent #i hate being autistic #im not built for this its so frustrating #i just want to be able to be 'normal' and regulate and just function but i cant #its not even a matter of willpower it feels like my body and my braon are giving up on me #ive been in a haze all fucking day and im dissociating so bad #i cant mask and i cant emote properly #i cant regulate myself enough to feel better because i dont have enough time to #i feel so pathetic even though i know im not #it doesnt matter in this type of society #im fortunate enough to have my license and 3 jobs but at the cost of my mental sanity #i start feeling better and by the end of the week i want to kill myself again #im aeverely dysregulated i feel like im gonna throw up i just want to fuck off in the woods #i dont wanna do this anymore #i want to be a bird and just get numed by an owl or falcon #i want to be part of the natural food chain and not forced to pander to capitalism to make scraps for the rest of my life #i never asked to be born i fucking hate it here

[elliottexists]

hey no one talks about how isolating being socially awkward is because its constantly portrayed as being haha funny silly side character in everything and not i struggle to make friends with anyone because people think im weird as i dont know how to act so i just avoid joining social situations to avoid being made fun of and so i end up having no friends

#i love my life haha #i hate being autistic #socially awkward #social anxiety #autistic

[sea-of-machines]

god I hate still living with parents because I made plans about what I want to do today, and woke up early so I could do it in the morning instead of in the afternoon. My car is the only car available rn because dad is at work so if I go somewhere, I am going to take it meaning that mom can't leave the house. Okay. The problem is that mom wants to go to a certain shop where I want to go too, but we have to wait so we can go there on the afternoon so we can pick my brother up from school. I want to go now because I woke up for it but mom is insisting that we go later and it's totally ruining my plan. I wouldn't had any problems driving again to get my brother from school because I have money for gas and I don't mind, but mom won't accept it. I feel like my whole world is collapsing.

#i hate being autistic #i hate it when i plan my whole day ahead and my plans get ruined by some reason which isn't coming from me #hdssasggsssrghhds #text #personal #random

[asexualenjolras]

I wish I had friends in the HPCC/next gen fandom - I hate being too fjfjf about messaging people to say hi 💀

Being a Scorpius Malfoy autistic is fun and all until you remember you don't 👏 have 👏 an 👏 Albus 👏 and don't know how to speak to people.

#hppc #cursed child #scorpius malfoy #harry potter next generation #harry potter next gen #albus severus potter #i hate being autistic #sometimes #but actually i dont #because i like being me #but i do want friends that like hpcc #so i can go to the theatre with them #okay im off to have a cry

[kaydwessie]

I’m doing bad mentally lol I’ve burnt myself out trying to actually earn money for once and now I feel useless and a friend is yelling at me for [checks notes] going back to shitty thought patterns while being overwhelmed

I need to advocate for myself and just go home but I’m tired of being unreliable and I won’t let myself tap out with a few days left…

…I have no idea how I’m gonna get anything done though…

#vent #kaydwessie.txt #I hate being autistic

[dannyneeds2go]

Thank you to all of the rem blogs on here for making me not go kookoo over the fact I have only two (2) people I can talk about wanting to beat up Mike mills with.

#rem #mike mills #i hate being autistic #boy kisser

[258punkweight]

it's so weird when you don't get a response to your dm, bc like...

did she forget to respond? if that's the case, she might appreciate me dming her again and reminding her.

or, maybe she's busy, or she just doesn't feel like talking rn, and if i don't stfu, she might think i'm annoying!

there's also the worst case scenario, where i unknowingly did something wrong (O_O;)

now i get why people isolate themselves...

#i hate being autistic

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Wanna know my autistic nightmare? Finally speaking your mind about ableism towards autistic people in a fandom after ignoring it for so long and everyone dogpiling on you and making fun of you and your entire Twitter tl being indirects towards you and saying your takes are bad and mocking you until you’re turned into a joke

#ryan.txt #I can’t stop crying #just had a panic attack over this #I hate being autistic #why couldn’t I just have shut the fuck up #why did I have to speak up #it’s just like my trauma #I would speak up to my abusers finally and would get abused further #I can’t stop shaking this s a nightmare #autism #actually autistic

[averysmentalinstability]

I hate having a fkn meltdown bc my morning routine didn’t work out as it should and everything’s just wrong

#actually mentally ill #im ​not okay #mentally tired #mentally exhausted #autism #actually autistic #autistic experiences #autistic #meltdown #vent #personal vent #vent post #tw vent #i hate being autistic

[gorillaxyz]

im just gonna sit in this toilet stall until were allowed to leave

#txt #i hate being autistic

[ellsss]

i really hate my meltdowns

#autism #i hate being autistic