#i dont remember listening to them that much WHAT

[fictionfixations]

masquerade malleus vignette

(spoilers for glorious masquerade)

aww

i refuse to believe lilia is oblivious enough not to notice that they dont like his cooking

..although solomon (from obey me) doesnt notice either iirc, but i mean..

..sebek. in a vignette, you literally got his help in cleaning a stain from malleus' labcoat???

...i never thought id hear azul say those words.... what?????

i dont know how it didnt hit me until now but the only reason rollo's plan in glorious masquerade failed was because he was so insistent on having malleus there and taking away all his power and shit?? like. cause. none of us had enough magic to actually overpower the fire lotuses(? i cant remember what they were called), although yuu would be able to make it through with no magic how could we even fight rollo at the end??

and at the point it reaches malleus and he could do something about it, it'd be too late?? because i REALLY doubt he has enough to reach all of those flowers and with enough to completely fry them out. and i doubt the bell would reach it by then.

silver...

is azul even human?? im like pretty sure-ish he's not human. not even half human. just entirely sea creature with a human-like body to probably be treated more normally and not hunted for sport/food through evolution shit idfk (like. idk im pretty sure its a thing where pets look so much cuter to cause us to take them in and shit.)

anyway im just imagining sebek talking azul's ear off about how great malleus is because he finally has a buddy who understands and therefore would be willing to listen to him talk for hours straight about malleus's greatness. AND APPRECIATE IT. HAUIHDSUIhd and azuls just like ………………….. floyd and jade laughing at him from a distance azul sets sebek on them like 'i think those two should come to learn about malleus's brilliance, don't you think? after all, as my colleagues, it is such a shame that they don't share my admiration for malleus, and i am unsure how to put it into words, as malleus himself is so magnificent that even words fail to describe him properly. so sebek, my fellow appreciator, would you lend me your aid in helping them grow to appreciate his brilliance?' okay i ran out of words and started repeating them because ic ant be bothered to look up for synonyms, im not THAT into it okay

ahhh so it is a fleur city song i wasnt sure. ive read in fics that it was, but it was also those fics where songs either have power, or yuu knows a bunch of disney songs that are considered 'forbidden/forgotten songs' or something like that and i cant remember which it was

actually if they put in all that work beforehand i think i get why they were so insistent on waiting for rollo to either confess or not AFTER the social ball and after they left and everything LMFAO

they suddenly changed into their school uniforms (still in diasomnia)

i honestly wouldnt know if id trust lilia that much but sure (i hope it doesnt turn to perfectionism levels tho)

first time we encounter italicized text i think. huh.

lmfao

oh my god (no but why choose idia at that point?? is it cuz his voice meshes well with them??)

ayoo its playing the make a wish (i think thats what the song is called) instrumental in the bg ive heard it way too many times not to recognize it (and sung along. its so fucking cool)

damn

my hands are actually protesting now ah geez (i took a break)

I GOT SO DISTRACTED BY DEUCE (i was re-experiencing enjoying looking at everyones costumes again) I AM AN IDIOT (its lower in opacity to show you that you're on it in the editor)

ooh

i didnt notice the insert paragraph im sorry lMFAO but id forget if i didnt SS it then

ooh some malleus riddle bonding

AH ITS A YUU JUMPSCARE

that seriously startled me like suddenly i just hear footsteps and then BOOM OPTIONS

ayooo malleus and yuu dancing

(alsoo yuu and deuce dancing :D)

WOOO

okay. now.

i feel like. im doing really good progress tackling all the vignettes (currently in EN. after that's GloMas, & Book 6 and 7. ive been avoiding it because not all of the Backgrounds exist, and GloMas has options with completely different dialogue which I can't see them all. i have three different videos of GloMas gameplay but they dont show all options...). all thats remaining is azul's tsumsitter (i have a vid of his vignette. ..i just dont like doing the tsum ones because i never know how to describe the tsum moving) vil birthday bloom (i FOUND A VIDEO finally oh my god. i love doing birthday vignettes) malleus dorm uniform (I have a vid) sebek new year (i have a vid) grim labcoat (i have a vid)

and then the rabbit costume ones which all of them have vignettes iirc and i have videos for all of them (i actually just found them as i was writing this. thank you god. they have no views tho geez. wonder if that means vil birthday bloom exists in a video but just wont appear. this is future me. ...i have been blessed with vil birthday bloom.)

#malleus draconia #twisted wonderland #twst wonderland #twst vignettes #twst events #twst spoilers #glorious masquerade #twst #thoughts

[idolomantises]

there's something so comforting about artists you admire talking about their own struggles and insecurities

#txt #was watching supereyepatchwolf's video on chainsaw man again and listening to fujimoto express regret about things he didnt learn #and how he's clearly envious of his peers is so... comforting? #i think about my own strengths and flaws and often times i get so frustrated with my shortcomings #im not good at drawing feet; my backgrounds are purposefully simplistic and lack a lot of detail; sometimes my designs have a tendency to #overlap or feel very 'safe' in terms of what i really want to do #its why; despite my love for clowning on media and animated works. i never want to feel like its from a place of malice #the joy of art is always seeing those little mistakes and nuances. its also noticing the achievements other creators have made that you #still lack #even for a certain hell-based show i love to poke fun at for its many. many issues. its undeniable how incredibly passionate the work is. #and i do respect anyone who is willing to get their flawed media out there (myself included) #i see stuff about people calling me their inspo or how flattered they are when i compliment their work and its like. gee. i hold myself at #such a high bar and even still im always surprise when people tell me how much my work moved and changed them #i really love writing just little fun things that i just dont really see anyone else touching and its kind of fun how despite my own #personal grievances with my own flaws and mistakes #people really do find things that they love within them. #anyways I know this is getting long but I’ve just been getting sentimental abt the creation of art #sometimes people make fun of me for love of drawing women and lesbians and bugs and so on #and while I will never let me deter me from my process. sometimes it does get to me #but then I remember that I love doing this and could ever see myself holding back #and knowing despite how other people feel. I have so many followers who resonate with my weird ass shit #that it’s all worth it. ya know?

[crows-of-buckets]

One thing I do really miss about being in the dsmp fandom is the sheer amount of fan content there was like DAMN. I had like 20+ ongoing fics I was reading and each of them updated constantly so I always had fics to read. Even now I'm in a relatively popular fandom (genshin) I don't have nearly the amount of content (nothing against fic authors I love y'all and very much appreciate your work take as long as you need babes) but idk. The dsmp fandom just churned out content so fucking fast and consistently every other fandom feels oddly empty sometimes. Idk I just kinda miss it it was nice to have some fic update to read every night ://

#dsmp #i dont really miss being in the dsmp fandom #apart from this #like. idk my relationship with my dsmp phase is weird #because it caused a lot of growth in my art but MAN i was not having a good time in it #i also miss how much focus there was on platonic relationships<//3 #you truly dont get it like that in most other fandoms i am fighting tooth and nail for platonic fics #it was really odd getting back into shipping after only doing dsmp related content for what #uhh i don't remember how long my dsmp phase was #i think it started during the dream prison arc and i left after techno stopped streaming (may he rest in peace( #i also left the fandom because the ccs were. yeah i dont like most of them anymore #except wilbur i still enioy his videos occasionally #and i listen to lovejoy still #so slay!!!

[oatbugs]

any postgrad tips?

i am an undergrad w no qualifiactions x ♡

#i do postgrad research so i can conjecture some tips from what ive experienced and seen: #make connections as much as you can go to conferences whenever possible #listen to ur supervisors and try ur hardest to stay on good terms w them it makes life a lot harder otherwise #befriend other postgrads ! ik its hard but it can be a lonely time and its good to share the chaos sometimes #i think most postgrads start to feel irreparably behind at some point but remember that everyone is sort of in #the same boat. while working on ur own projects/reaearch do not neglect reading around ur discipline even if not 100% related to ur research #its ok to change your mind abt what you want to. there is no paper that you will write that #ruins or resolves your career. dont forget to do things that allow you to fall in love #w your discipline of choice over and over again #get in contact w the top ppl in what ur doing never ever think they will be too busy for you #regret is worse than failure #etc etc

[713-4th-ward-g]

.

#now my aunt is in remission... #a lot is happening and i feel the loneliest I've felt since high school #I've only been getting worse since my family denied what i went through and sat there and told me i wasn't probably remembering it correctly #i know what it was like growing up even if it comes back to me in spurts.. #but they really have started to make me doubt myself and its the worse cause they never apologized for the neglect and abuse #and they all took their side and acted like i was mistaken and said “ i never saw it happened do it didn't happen #and now i dont even talk to the only two friends i had cause i dont feel the same #if i don't text them first they never ever message me first or even check on me #and im always the one being there for them and listening to them and im just tired lf it all #i dont want a future anymore and im slowly losing my grip ive held on do tight even at my loneliest and now i feel like im losing #i was never anyone's best friend and everyone of the people ive called friends were always closer to someone else #ive only always had myself but im losing hope for the future and i just feel so extremely empty again #i just want to end this feeling and the weed isnt working anymore and working out doesnt work... i need God ive been so far away from him.. #Im just slowly losing it more and more im tired of being the friend everyone goes to for advice and laughs or enjoyment #im tired of it so much #the only time i feel joy is the bliss i feel when i sleep and even that joy is never truly felt cause i constantly fight my sleep #i only sleep when my body forced it self to cause i can't naturally just go to sleep st s set time anymore.. #im so tired of being people's escape or advice person I'm probably only saying this for the overwhelming feeling #of being a colossal failure and disappointment even so i still try snd try and fail some more #why don't i quit I just dont know why its just something in me that has some glimmer of self hope ive only tried to kms once and failed #maybe ima bit glad i failed but apart of me laughs cause i even failed at kms and find it ironic cause i fail at so many things #im so incapable of salvaging some semblance of normality or consistency #Mr.inconsistent that i am and have been but i refuse to let myself end that way i have to fight for something even in this haze of mine.. #i just want to be better why cant i get better and stay good.. maybe it hurts more than i let on finally speaking of what happened #and for them to deny it may have really affected me a lot snd i am just now seeing it manifest it self now ... #i just gotta live with it and just TRY to do better every single day snd in every single situation snd action i take...

[lizard-dumbass]

i need to listen to all the my chemical romance albums

#lizard-dumbass talks about stuff #text post #ive heard like around 10 of their songs and a few of them are on my playlist #but like idk i feel like im somehow missing out by not knowing that much about mcr and not having heard more of their songs #WAIT i have actually listened to every single song on the 'this is mcr' spotify playlist but i dont remember what most of them sound like #anyway i will be getting around to listening through all the albums individually and probably doing some research abt them as a band #as someone who is just entering the punk scene i feel like i should be more knowledgable about mcr. idk why #mcr #my chemical romance

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Listen. Probably my favorite thing about The Terror is that because the story is one planned out season, the arcs and parallel scenes are set up so cleanly and nicely that it echos.

#listen. i safely traveled the 1st leg of my vacation journey and now im gonna rant abt the terror a sec bc god #i just want to line up all the parallel scenes bc theyre so good in my brain. i love it so much. even my dumbass can see what theyre doing #i dont have a good media analysis brain. i was in and English class full of other stem kids in college who got shouted at for mineing books #like we were looking for data and not going for the meaning lol. but ive watched thr show so many times. so many times and yet reading the #scripts is even better bc it makes it even more clear what theyre doing in each scene. i love it #im just gonna list scenes i remember that echo back. obv the more than god loves them via james as a parallel and an arc for francis. silna #y do u want to die. James god wants u to live. hicky bitching abt the dog thrn the crew bitching abt the dog. james assuring john abt his #being given command. francis reassuring james abt being given command. irving god sees u here more than anywhere. goodsir is god here? any #god? goodsir talking abt the radience when ppl die. goodsir hearing the angles as he dies. theres more but those r at the top of my head #i just wanna line them all up and stare at them. god. do i try to learn video editing for that? with what fucking time? but then i could #force my observations on other ppl in a way thats satisfying lol. maybe. id also want all the lines that echo constantly in my head edited #together. also. reading thr scripts they r obviously writing the apathy of god into the story. the sundog is a portentous celestial eye lol #im gonna have to write out my thoughts on god in the terror. whether or not i make a video. but the thumbnail would b Crozier staring at #the sundogs. i just have zero video editing skills and also zero time when im working lol. ugh but this idea is like a maligned tumor in #my head. and i must satisfy its demands. also just watch the terror. i beg of u. its so so good. also if u dont live in a city hellscape or #the god forsaken desert. go run around in the grass. it feels so so nice. i had to run around the house a few times when i got home lol #unrelated #the terror

[torriblog]

OMG TORRI HI!

Also... I need to share the reason I started reading it. Which is 100% the fault of this song alone;

(I wanted to link the video with lyrics but tumblr doesn't allow video links in asks)

hiiiii! :D

any reason is a fair reason imo, reading the iliad is just Fun, i hope you're enjoying it! & god that song is a fucking banger?? thank you for bringing this absolute masterpiece to my attention, i've never heard it before now!

i found a lyrics video bc auditory processing issues are the bane of my existence, i think it's super fuckin cool to be able to pick up on the things the song is referencing in the storyline & what happens in the iliad and after it, & being able to identify who's perspective some of the verses must be from and how sometimes they're multiple people to draw parallels to them,,,, mwah what an incredible song (•̀ᴗ•́ )و

#i dont usually answer asks on this blog idk what i tag them as on here lmao #but hi hi hi!!! it's been a while :D #genuinely i hope you're enjoying reading/listening to the iliad i remember reading it for the first time & loving it so much

[house-in-the-backyard-trees]

mental breakdown in the tags incoming scroll past for your own well being

#so like im just WORRIED #cause like what if ive fully just convinced myself i think he's attractive but I actually dont think he is and I'm just jerking him around #and actinf like i think hes cute cause hes the first guy im not even joking basically ever since the ripe old age of 9 except for cameron #idgaf about his privacy he can fuck off but anyway he is like the first guy other than tiny little awkward 9 year olds to show me any form #of attention. and what if im craving it so bad im just convincing myself that i like him? like am i doing that? cause never in my life have #i gotten like those fucking butterflies or whatever around guys cause ive never been around them much so ive always felt so awkward around #them and just ignored them. like i even have a hard time talking to my male coworkers and looking them in the eye. and i just make up these #scenarios where every single male coworker that ever showed me any form of attention is actually secretly going to fall in love with me and #its like FUCK is that just all I'm doing? pretending? on both ends? but then i have to tell myself that my anxiety is more often than not #full of shit. but like ive craved attention all my life and what if im juat latching on to the first guy that gives that to me? i don't #wanna be that asshole. im just scared. how does everyone just date people? i thought for a while i may be ace in some way #but im also just wondering if i repressed myself that fucking much from literally age 6 that it did that much damage to me? cause ive always #been weird about myself and my body and things like that and i vividly remember wearing a tank top at age 6 in school and being freaked out #the whole day that i would get dress coded. i need to unpack this in therapy hardcore. cause i was also sa-ed when i was younger but i can't #exactly remember how old i was. #but i just think ive always repressed myself and pushed all of that down to the point that i dont know what it feels like? cause i watch #movies and read books and listen to music qnd im like hmm thats never happened to me something must be Wrong With Me. #thanks for coming to my ted talk #im so fucking nauseous #is that butterflies lmao #🎸

[caruliaa]

concerned mother voice: what happened to little miss perfect you guys used to love little miss perfect

#j remembered the existence of tht song #did the toh fandom j move on or did i j loose touch w all the toh fans i knew that were obsesed w it. that is thee question. #it was so popular tho like i remeber being kinda annoyed tht it was seen as offical property of the toh fandom #bc i always associated it w glinda who it does rly fit to be fair i think #also i remember *saying* it was a julia song but i dont beleive tht. it was just my way of going 'hey guys remember cs' to my friends #who had moved onto toh #i actually think that like. thts so evil actually bc like. literally just bc of the 'what? its totally platonic!' line #like no dont do that to carulia leave them alone. good carulia characterization that doesnt peg them as 'oblivious' get behind me. #i want to keep posting abt tht btw i was to open ppls eyes to how characterizing carulia like that is bad #amd like just removes the good dynamic they canonically have which is so much more interesting omfg !!!! #tbh sometimes i feel like ppl ships that way so that another character can point out all the moments they were 'soo obviously in love' #so its like playing a highlight reel of their most in love moments which is ig fair that thts smth you wanna do #but why not do smth like theyre reminiscing on their relationship tht wont have u dismiss their dynamic. yk? #sorry obvs tht cahracterization isnt always inacurate but for carulia it sure as hell is. #anyway. chess if ur reading this go listen to little miss perfect actually and tell me if it fits ur werewolf cheerleader character bc idk #but maybe it will !!! is she hiding being a lesbian or just being a werewolf. #flappy rambles

[astranauticus]

so is anyone gonna talk about liu yuning releasing like fuckin. 6 songs in the span of like 1.5 months or are we just gonna handle this calmly and normally

#i mean ive been getting the weibo notifications for like all of them but i havent really been using weibo much since school started #but about 4 of those just hit spotify and its just starting to sink in for me #what in the. what #liu yuning #六爻 and 微世界 are my personal reccs but i know there was another one i listened to on youtube that was good but hasnt hit spotify yet #but i dont remember what it was called #also idk why im always so. amused by lyn singing osts for shows with actors i recognise in them but uh #zhang ruoyun is one of the main actors in. whatever show 微世界 is the ost for? quite cool

[grimmjowjaegerjaquez]

Remembering the brief period in my life when i was obsessed with ashido, the only filler character with rights bc kubo originally planned to include him in the manga but had to cut him for time

#bleachposting #maybe its time to think about him again since i think about arrancar and hueco mundo so much #maybe its time to make him interact with the rest of them super begrudgingly #hey soul society we found one of your guys living in our basement. yeah he couldnt figure out how to leave. yeah for like 100 years. #do you want him back or. #listen i think hed be kind of upset to see how many parallels he has with the arrancar #wrt being stuck in survival mode for so long and trying to figure out how to be a person again #like can you see it. can you smell what im saying. #and also more frustrations he tries to ignore regarding his zanpakuto still not telling him its name #and it wont until he kind of. accepts some things about himself. #also maybe he should have cool fights with them and gain a mutual respect. listen. im right. #i remember wanting to make an rp blog for him #and it did exist briefly but i was so nervous about it #i dont think i ever advertised it on my other blogs. does it still exist?? did tumblr ever nuke it?? i cant remember the name #anyway during my brief obsession with him i projected on him super hard and made him trans. why? because. i could. #will i keep him that way? probably. just in a different way. #he hasnt had to deal with normie societal expectations in a long ass time. gender is whatever to him. thog dont caare. #he may have been holding onto the duties of a shinigami as a last straining tether to his sanity but like. that shit is going to snap. #its just a matter of when. and only THEN will he be able to move forward i think. instead of just being stuck the way he is. #like yeah he is literally stuck since shinigami cant make gargantas. but he is also metaphorically stuck. see it writes itself. #APPARENTLY HES IN ONE OF THE LIGHT NOVELS AND TRAINS A BABY CIEN?? THATS SO CUTE WTF

[frogbi]

The only one reason i'd want to have a blog where a ton of people interact with would be so i'd have lots of people to discuss music with

#i dont think that sentence is english but i'm too tored to fogure out the mistake rn anyways #i just love learning about new artists and talking about albums and songs and artists with people #i dont know much about music but i love love hearings about songs or albums that mean a lot to people or what they listen to and trying them #i think it's so fun #having said that i'll probably delete this blog and remake again if i get more than 200 followers so #and i barely remember to look at replies/answer them and look at my inbox so it'll never happen djsksksk

[pagesofkenna]

also i kind of... disagree with the notion that Eurovision is a silly queer campfest. i think that's how it was hyped online for years before i finally got to watch it, and then when i did i remember being pretty disappointed that the campy silly stuff was only... 10% of the show? i thought it was a bad year. turns out that's every year, because Eurovision is actually a music contest that a lot of people take pretty seriously

like, the guys crooning sappy love ballads aren't doing Eurovision wrong - that's who that country voted to represent them, which means enough people in that country loved that sappy love ballad that they wanted everyone else to hear it too. same for the girl power songs and the 'i'm sexy and i know it' songs and the traditional/folk remix songs. their goal isnt 'send the stupidest most campy performer to Eurovision' it's 'send the person we think is the best'

and when I follow the buildup to show week, and actually give myself time to judge each song and performer on their own, i find that yeah some of these are really damn good?? even when they're not silly or openly queer or whatever? the memes are fun but most of the performers aren't there for the memes, they're there to perform and represent their countries

(subwoolfer and citi zeni definitely are there for the memes tho)

#i just... idk why this bugs me #i just remember being really disappointed the first couple years i followed eurovision #and in 2018 having some performers and songs i REALLY loved that scored really low #and then after the finale no one talks about the show anymore? its like everyone packs up and goes home #but i'd JUST heard all the songs i wanted to talk about them!! #and then a couple weeks later i realized one of the performers i'd really liked..... his song actually wasnt that good?? #if i'd heard it before the show and had time to let it simmer i would have realized #so the next year i decided to listen to the album ahead of time. didnt even watch rehearsals or anything just the album #and i loved the finale SO MUCH BETTER! #because i KNEW the songs i KNEW what was good but some of the meh songs had AMAZING stage performances #like its STILL a bug surprise seeing the show actually get pulled off and seeing how professional recordings translate to live shows #i just have been enjoying eurovision way more since then the idea of going back to just watching the finale... #it feels like just watching the last episode of a murder mystery. like i dont JUST care about who wins i wanna see how they get there #esc #esc22

[thebraxiatelcollection]

Thinking about Tecteun makes me mad.

#anti chibnall #dw negativity #i just saw her pop up on my dash again and ah yes i remember why i dislike you so much #you appear in s12 and dont even say a word #creating timelord jesus #then you appear in flux only to get killed off for shock value #and even after all that #what was the actual point of the timeless child #i still dont get it #and i dont want to #the thing with chibnall #he has great concepts #but the execution of them is poor #he doesn't think about them properly enough #or when he has an idea like the timeless child #he builds it up and then decides to do nothing with it #and literally throws it down again #listen #i love timelords being slimy villains thats what draws me to them #but dont do this to me and ruin nearly 60 years worth of lore #and did chibs really think it was a good idea to kill a child over and over again to create regeneration #even if the process of regeneration was already explained by rassilon

[kylie9]

i feel like more people need to realize we are all share the same sky and none of us are truly ever alone

#sorry im just htinking about how happy i am how better i am how i take showers now and have friends how I'm nice to my dad and I'm able to #hug him but still talk to my mother i have food and water and blankets i have friends and i am loved changes are scary and I'm still scared #but i remember how happy i am how younger me or even me from a week or month ago or years ago would be proud and still root for me to live #one day ill have a house of my own a life of my own memories to share and love but new ones to experience and in all of them i was never #alone i always had someone to love me and live for i always had a purpose I've had one since i was born which was to be my sisters friend a #and be someone to lean on and i still uphold that i try to support everyone i can since i know how hard it is to not be at the worst times #i hug and tell everyone i love them 24/7 i tell everyone they are amazing since i never know when ill look back on this all and regret not #saying it everytime i hug my dad and he says calm down kylie i always say you'll miss this in 10 years as a joke but i think about it so mu #so much i dont know if ill know any of you in 10 years but I'm happy to be talking to you now I'm happy to know that there's people out the #there who are kind and have fun thoughts who makea fun silly art and chat with me and care about me and try to help me and ill never see yo #why do i have a voice in my head and think about t you all the time when i don't even know you? its crazy but i love it so much you all ha #have watched me grow and change watch me get older and my hair grow longer watch me be happy and i think about that how i might be in your #brain or memories at one point how i have a impact just like how everyone has an impact on me what I'm saying is that no one is ever truly #alone everyone is filled with love and memories to share everyone has a different view on the world and no one truly has the same and i thi #think thats just so special and i get to see it! i get to talk to people everyday and listen and learn and its so special