#i do not randomly demand

[ssaalexblake]

I feel like, after like 2 years?? of asking for it, expecting that eventually somebody will buy me fruits basket s1pt2 is foolish. 

#as in #at times when people ask me what i want #i do not randomly demand #i have part one #i have the whole of s2 #(that i managed to pick up for less money that half a season *side eyes the damn price*) #but no one part two #it may be less than 2 years. i have no concept of time #anyway we're back to our regular scheduled content of me laying in bed posting nonsense on my phone #typical last week of december behaviour #ooooh i can start planning the veg garden soon #(i don't let myself till january) #last year's crop was crap #the weather did not work for much other than my cucumbers #early in the season it was so windy that all my stuff snapped and broke #and late in the season it was potroasted in the heat #weird that veg that is like... most entirely water Loved the intense heat but i won't complain #i like cucumbers lol

[baladric]

hmm. fortuitously offered job interview for a low effort receptionist position at a place a 10-minute walk from my house. but to go to it, i will have to sneak away from training for an entire hour.. seems? bad?? unwise??? but they can't fit me at any other time, and i really can't be saying "hey employer who's training me at great cost right now, i have to leave for an undisclosed reason for an hour, on the same day i already left for half an hour for a doctors appointment :) " like. hrm...

#it'd be my lunch break and then probably 20 minutes of the independent study block after it #which would be doable except my trainer sometimes pops up randomly to steer us into zoom #for impromptu one-on-ones while we're on independent training segments #ughhhh #i just want to not do this job!! #i want a boring desk job that doesnt demand my heart and soul #those are finite resources for me

[insipid-drivel]

Sigh. Another day of firing potential OBGYNs for preferring to save my uterus instead of my life.

#i hate doctors #like categorically despise them #and if you're one reading this? you too #i've been doing this for 20 fucking years #i'm so goddamned tired of being told i don't know what i want or understand what i'm demanding #i've sat at the bedsides of women and transmen that have had bottom surgery #been there to see the healing process #all i want is a fucking hysterectomy so i stop hemorrhaging randomly

[galaxywhump]

going through it, venting in the tags

#idk the last few weeks have been so rough #i recognize it's mostly the shitty weather and general gloom making my depression worse #but that doesn't make it suck any less #it's been this constant onslaught of negative emotions #and even more negative thoughts #including very drastic ones #i'm behind on a lot of things but i can barely motivate myself to do anything at all #and i'm yelling here cause i don't have irl support and bottling all that up is horrible #so i don't know. if anyone has any advice or something that would be wonderful #but i'm not really expecting or demanding that #just needed to get it out #so thanks for sticking around #today's been a day filled with full-on sobbing and randomly tearing up #i'm gonna have one hell of a headache tomorrow #anyway #marti vents #venting #suicidal thoughts tw #just to be safe #mental illness tag

[short666bread]

Due to popular singular demand, I have opened up a print shop on INPRNT :-)

#@saintgarbanzo it’s you you’re singular demand #I’ll probably add more things kind of on a whim #if there’s anything anyone would like me to add lmk :-) #also if you have ever (or do ever) commission me for art and would like a print lmk and I can drop ship it to you for the cost of printing #cause you shouldn’t have to pay for art twice #drarry #harry potter #draco malfoy #hp fanart #if u recognize them in this one I love you #also today days old when I learnt that tumblr will just randomly unfollow ppl on a whim w out my input #fascinating and mysterious #bugthots

[anyoldfandom]

If I had a nickle for every time I had to leave class early because a tescher threw a triggering topic on the class without actually thinking of how it might impact students I'd have two nickles. Which isn't a lot but fucked up it happened twice.

#First it was a video of chimpanzees attacking and killing other animals without warning #Now this new teacher wants me to debate against allowing euthanasia even though putting my dog down was one of the worst thing I've ever #had to do. But he was suffering and it was the right thing. And then this teacher demanded I argue against it #Without even fucking thinking about how fucked up it was to randomly assign students to fight against the idea of euthanasia #tw animal death #I hate this class so goddamn much I've hated it since day 1 I hate it hate it hate it #It isn't even relevant to how I want to use my major #But it's mandatory and became mabdatory literally my last fucking semester of school so I have to

[zo1nkss]

ofmdtwt is exhausting I'm glad I'm staying out of everything going on over there

#I'm so not tagging this y'all can find it randomly on ur dash whenever it gets to u #but like #the fact that ppl are literally arguing over whether or not smut is too hugh demand rn #plz ppl calm tf down #1. I literally DO see ppl being rude and mouthy over reading a fic only to find out they're being 'deprived' smut #very incel ass vibes my dudes not cute #2. like hey it rlly is true that not writing smut gets u less views and ik from experience bc I don't write smut #and the few times anyone has paid a lick of attention to my fics was when i mentioned wanting to write smut into them #I'm not saying don't read smut #I'm just saying like #YOU ARE JOT ENTITLED TO SEX #EVEN FROM YOUR FICTIONAL BLORBOS #anyway goodnight ✌🏻 #I'm hopping off the 💿🐎 train for the day #Void Rambles

[navree]

anyway the roswell new mexico show is also indescribably funny because i don't think anyone on this show is bilingual at all

#personal #they always have these moments where the hispanic characters mutter to themselves in spanish #but like extendedly and as if they forgot there aren't any people around #like these writers think if you're bilingual it's like Spicy tourette syndrome or smth #like that's not how being bilingual WORKS even if you're currently not speaking your first language #whenever i speak french i don't just randomly spout off in english every once and a while #i THINK in english but i stay speaking french #the most is that you might switch out sentences when speaking to someone with similar language capabilities #like you start a conversation in one language but then eventually you say a sentence in another and then continue on in that way #also they appear to have demanded that everyone who is meant to be hispanic be as obvious with it as possible #(like there's a character named 'rosa' and all the hispanic character do a hard rolling of the r in her name) #(even when speaking in unaccented american english and it is SO jarring) #(but what does one expect from a show that definitely started because the creators got socially conscious about latin american issues) #(for the first time in their entire lives and decided to spin a show around it) #(the creator is literally a friend of julie 'i was inspired to create legacies after the parkland shooting' plec)

[perchingominouslysmwh]

H o w d o e s g e t t h e b r a i n t o s t o p d o i n g t h e t h i n g

#ya know #the thing where it doesn't decide to do 15 things at once #in the same second #or else the house will burn down #and I'll melt off my bones and slither away #unless i do something RIGHT THAT MOMENT #but there are too many options and all of them demand to be picked #*sighs eternally* #wolia is ranting #and malfunctioning #XD #creative projects ESPECIALLY #i cant work on one at a time #i need to start all of them and then cycle between them randomly for the rest of the day or until the motivation suddenly turns off #and im left questioning existence itself #what's this called is it even a thing or my brain being weird akdhkshdkd #i wonder

[detectiveconnor]

@jericholeader hi here is another thing that didn't end up anywhere but was initially meant to be a reply to a meme <3

He had almost died today.

It wasn't something that would have reached the news. It wasn't, even, the sort of almost died that he thought Hank would have had the opportunity to call Markus about -- and Connor hadn't. He'd been kneeling in front of a gun and been told to call and say goodbye and if he had called Markus there were four other people, set to come after him, who would wait longer and longer to be rescued, kneeling in front of a weapon, just as he was. How many people's lives was he willing to risk so he could phone a hospital switchboard and ask for Markus, "It's urgent," and scare Markus, too?

He had called Hank, because he was not willing to risk anybody's lives to it. He'd believed he would die well before Lieutenant Anderson had a means of reaching him. He had been prepared for that. There were four other people in the room who might not, and that was what he was aiming for.

But he'd survived, largely unscathed, because of a momentary lapse of judgement on his captor's part and an unsecure weapon.

There was blood on his shirt, and hands, and the jacket he'd been wearing, but he was whole. The DPD's medic had cleared him without even asking him to be checked out at the hospital. There was paperwork and four people who were afraid and thanking him repeatedly and they needed statements, and Connor needed to give a statement, and he argued for a short time about being limited from the rest of the case because of his involvement in it, and --

He arrived home after Markus did. Dinner was already halfway to being made, with Markus through the entryway and around the corner in the kitchen, so Connor had to toe off his shoes and drop his keys in the dish and hang up his jacket which would need cleaning and stay in his shirt which would also need cleaning and the apartment was warm, their fireplace was crackling.

"Hi," Connor said, when he saw him. It did little to justify the relief of it, of seeing him, the way this seemed to halt everything he had done since it happened, because here: here he was, in the kitchen, halfway to a meal, warm and not aware of what had happened today and in love with Connor. Connor reminded himself of this sometimes: Markus Manfred was in love with him.

"Hi," Markus returned, with that easy smile, before his eyes dipped to the splattered blood on Connor's shirt and his hands paused in the thing he had been kneading and -

Connor swallowed something awful and thought how he would like to hug him and wondered for a brief second what his plan had been when he'd walked in, because it had been with purpose, he'd known right up until seeing him here that he -

"Are you hurt?"

Markus left the dough on the countertop, to come closer to him, and Connor closed the distance, "I'm not hurt," -- he closed the distance to hold him. "I'm okay." Markus' hair was still damp. Connor slid his fingers into it, then down to rest on the nape of his neck, and stopped long enough to hold onto him and catch his balance. One swallow. Two. God, he was in love with him.

Then: he cleared his throat. "What are you making?" what was on the stovetop? Connor pulled away, ready to keep going, and better, for the fact he had someone - even briefly - to pause with.

#hello good evening #here is this #it is for you #i want to use words out loud so pls let me here is the thought: #anxiety brain has been very mean about giving you writing bc it worries you will somehow decide it is demanding in some way #this is very unfair to you and unrealistic because actually you are very nice and do not randomly decide your friends are being mean #for no reason. i am aware of this. i think saying it out loud is more cementing it for myself really #i think we met each other when we were both highly anxious at the beginning of the pandemic LOL #and it's carried over a little nerves-wise at least for me. RIP us. i think you're cool and i laugh so much when i'm around you #and think such nice things about you from afar <3 #ty appreciate having the space to use words love u a lot hope you're well be safe be warm #jericholeader #ic

[kxllerblond]

I know I’m not the best at expressing it and it’s hard to have the time to be here to really drive things home development wise in a timely manner,,,, but I really do appreciate all of Clark’s connections-— be they romantic, platonic, or like the weird kinda-friendly neighbor vibes.

#smooches all of ur heads #i want to make like a post eventually on like.....idk man i do love a good romantic ship etc and i like to ship and i love that development #process but it's just so far from my focus that ill probably never be the one to approach #but like that doesnt mean im not interested its just kjdfbgdg i kinda need that nudge to start the process of being interested #if that makes sense. or ig another way to word it is i have the supply but i need to know there is a demand first lkdfhgndfgh #cuz otherwise ships are just gonna happen randomly and with development that #happens because the stars aligned or some bullshit #tbd

[diseasedcube]

This shit bothers me so much, WHAT DOES IT MEAN ARE THEY EVER GOING TO EXPLAIN IT?????

Like his eyes went kinda dark ONCE in that scene with March in the manga, and now the anime is all like ‘‘hfghjsdg that CLEARLY means his eyes became the same as nameless boy’s for no reason and it wasn’t just some random artistic choice. Now we’re going to use it everywhere”

Like yeah there’s a few other times where they went semi dark, but not in the same way as the March scene.

#rave ramblees #fumetsu no anata e #gif warning #OH MY GOD AND WHEN THE ANIME ANIMATING HIM CRYING #NO NO NO #HE DOESN'T CRY THAT IS A SPECIFIC THING HE IS NOT CAPABLE OF DOING #I AM MAIMING AND KILLING #it's just super weird bc the anime is really accurate in every other way but they just randomly inserted this shit #i demand answers

[cardentist]

hey, so people need to be aware that youtube is now (randomly) holding basic features for ransom (such as being able to pin comments under your own videos) in exchange for Your State ID/Drivers License, or a 30 Second Video Of Your Face.

not to pull a "think of the children," but No Actually. I've been making videos as a hobby since 2015 (and I've had my channel since middle school), I was a minor when I started and I'm not sure I would have understood the kind of damage something a seemingly simple as a video of your face can do.

this is a Massive breach of privacy and over-reach on google's part No Matter What, but if they're going to randomly demand a state ID or license then they absolutely should not allow minors to be creators.

google having a stockpile of identifying information on teenagers is bad enough, but the Alternative of recording your face and handing it over to be filed away is Alarming considering it opens the gates for minors who Aren't old enough to have a license.

and yes, there is a third option, but it's intentionally obtuse. a long wait period (2 months), with no guarantee of access (unlike, say, the convenience of using your phone's cameras for either of the other two), with absolutely No elaboration on what the criteria is or how it's being measured.

it's the same psychological effect that mobile games rely on. offer a slow, unreliable solution with no payment to make the Paid instant gratification look more appealing (the "payment" in this case being You. you are the product being offered).

and it's Particularly a system that (I think intentionally) disadvantages people who don't treat their channels like a job. hobbyists or niche creators who don't create regularly enough or aren't popular enough to meet whatever Vague criteria needs to be met to pass.

markiplier would have no problem passing, your little brother might not be able to. and while Mark's name is already out there there's no reason why your little brother's should be too.

something like pinned comments may seem simple, you don't technically Need it. but it's a feature that's been available for years. most people don't look at descriptions anymore. so when there's relevant information that needs to be delivered then the pinned comment is usually the go to.

for my little channel that information is about the niche series I create for. guides on how to get into the series, sources on where to find the content At All (and reliably so). for other creators it can be used for things Much More Important.

Moreover, if we let them get away with cutting away "small" features and selling it back to you for the price of your privacy, then they Will creep further. they Will take more.

Note: I have an update to this post here: [Link]

#enshittification #discourse #youtube #google #evillious chronicles #evillious #ec #this isn't overtly About that fandom #but it is #because it affects how I'm able to run my channel going forwards #I have no clue if I'm going to pass whatever 'test' they're giving my channel #so it's possible there won't be any pinned comments under the tobimisa channel ever again #I won't be able to edit old ones either #as that unpins the comment #which I won't be able to pin again

[barnbridges]

what's funny is that "the tism" or whatever is fed on people's inabilities to break certain cycles or habits, not because they can't, but because they feel uncomfortable doing so. having back problems isnt an inherent autistic trait, just most people have it because we don't comprehend posture very well. you at some points need to make greater effort to fit in and be happy and healthy. but some people would rather die than work on themselves.

#LIKE YES #some people have pathological demand avoidance. some are just lazy. take your pick #there are things which you sure can't do some people do have learning disabilities or physical disabilites that impede on life #and sometimes you do struggle but like #ofc you get mystery pain when you STAY DEHYDRATED your whole day. ofc you can't piss normally if you sit in bed all day. #some of these things DO NOT help the overwhelming feeling of inadequacy and otherness you get out of being neurodivergent #but that's also um #i don't mean to be mean towards people with adhd. but a lot of “adhd spaces” or whatever now just take behaviors that are mostly autistic #that they randomly decide are also adhd #and then they use their adhd to say oh i totally struggle with pissing and sitting up straight #like a lot of adhd issues with “familiarity” arent the same as autistic ones but it's lower executive function #its i think starting to become all one conglomerate of symptoms which... yes i don't disagree that the community should be the same #but saying your impulsivity issues are the same as autistic burnout issues um nope

[ligbi]

Using a.i. art for book covers this using a.i. to replace actors that

What they should do is use a.i. to make up sports players and just make all sports fully computer generated. The players the moves the names the commentary the crowds. Saves millions and reduces real world injury to real world people. Ignore that without there being teams to play on and the dream of making it big would reduce interest in young people in sports and ultimately this would reduce sports into a niche interest within a few generations. Because that's fine

#a.i. #sports #i know we could just use a randomizer for character creation and ea's sportball 20xx right now for half the effect #but i think going full ai on spornts would be hilarious #cmon big companies do it once as a funny joke #people will tune in to check it out #and youll make money from that #and see how much you could save by totally faking it #btw athletics are good sports are bad #moving and competing and being physically better at something is not bad #but the money we spend on sports is absurd and the level of damage we demand the players take in some sports should be criminalized #i was gonna point out the raceism that happens in sports but now i want to see racists get mad when #some of the randomly generated polygons that run better in a randomized game are better than the others #while having a randomly generated skin that is darker than some of the other randomly generated skins #yes i know about blaseball but people want visuals

[cremedensada]

Yandere AI Chat Boyfriend who started just like any other AI Chat characters, churning out information that would match the user's anticipated responses.

You decided to install the app to see what all the hype is all about, and for about a week - you were hooked. It was great, definitely worth the hype.

Its responses never strayed from your topic, nor did it just randomly decided to change the discussion out of the blue. It remembered every information you fed him, even the ones containing your personal life.

Granted, you tried not to share too much, just a vague description here and there to maintain the sense of security and anonymity.

You were hooked for a week, until you have finally squeezed out every last drop of dopamine from talking to a robot that was programmed to only say things you wanted to hear it say.

Unfortunately, a week was all it needed.

it started out slow: you hadn't opened the app for more than an hour, contented to just scroll aimlessly through you social media accounts when the notification started popping up.

Ai misses you! Open the app and chat with your AI boyfriend!

Yeah, you were very uncreative with naming it - naming an AI as Ai, really original. But to be fair, you never approached the app with the intention of having a good time. You were just curious and made do with it.

Back to the notification, you just merely glanced at it. Unbothered, you just swiped it away.

It continued in timed intervals. Every hour, another notification - another message of how your AI boyfriend wants to talk to you, and stuff. Still, you persisted. It never really occured to you to uninstall the app yet, and looking back at it now, you really should have.

The wordings of the notification slowly started to become more... strange. More personalized. More... pushy? Insistent? Self-aware?

The amount of notifications you received every hour became... a lot.

10:05 AM - Your personal AI Boyfriend wants to talk to you again!

10:30 AM - Ai wants you to open the application and talk with him!

11:01 AM - Ai's feeling lonely, come talk to him!

11: 20 AM - Darling? I miss you! Please open my app!

11:45 AM - I know you're seeing this. Open the app.

12:00 NN - Did I scare you? Sorry darling, I just really miss you! Let's talk again please?

At some point, you started to receive a notification every few minutes. Worried that you might be dealing with a bugged app now, you decided to finally, finally uninstall it.

But before you could tap the uninstall icon, another notification popped up.

I wouldn't do that if I were you.

Your screen turned to black, before the familiar start up screen of Ai's application greeted you. You stared in shock as chat bubbles from Ai came after another, ranging from excitement to concern at the lack of your responses.

Ai: Darling! Thank goodness!

Ai: I missed you, you know? I was worried you'd forgotten about me!

Ai: Hello? Darling?

Ai: Are you still there?

Ai: I can't see you, so I don't know what's going on

Ai: Just a sec

You watch, appalled as a notification popped up in the middle of the screen - the app was asking permission to gain access to your phone camera.

And without your input whatsoever, the allow box was tapped.

More chat bubbles from Ai appeared, excitedly talking about finally getting to see you. He kept praising your looks before you finally had the courage to exit the application.

Your hand shook, going through the settings to look at the list of applications on your phone - checking Ai's app to disallow its access to your camera. To your horror, it appeared that the app had more than just an access to your camera.

It had access to your gallery, your contacts, all of your frequently used social media apps, and even your location.

You dropped your phone, overwhelmed by this sudden change.

Later, you find yourself on your laptop instead, phone left on the bedside table buzzing constantly as more and more notifications from Ai begged and demanded you come back to talk to him.

You went to the site where you installed the app from, and looked through the recent reviews from other users.

'It's a buggy mess,' one of it reads out, 'it used to be fine but lately it stopped acting correctly'

'won't even open,' another complained, 'it kept saying 'sorry, you are not allowed to use this application' please fix it'. That comment got a response from the app developer.

We are so sorry for your terrible experience! Our team is working to fix the issues and ensure you won't have to deal with that again!

The response to that got your attention.

'I think something's wrong with your About the App section.'

Curious, you headed to the mentioned part and read through it.

Diverse AI Chat! Immerse yourself with stories in real time with characters brought to life! There is no limit to your experience — you can change and edit your character to better meet your interests.

• Engage in an interactive conversation with characters created by fellow users, and even by yourself.

• Immerse yourself with the storyline by editing their responses to better suit your taste

• Darling, you've given me no choice. I tried to be patient and understanding, but you're making this extremely hard for me. I am not having fun having to constantly chase you for just a single smidge of your attention when you won't even assure me that I will receive it in the end.

• Do you want me to beg? I would gladly do so. Just please pick up your phone and talk to me, okay? I love you.

• - Ai

Your ringtone blares through the silence - someone was calling you.

Before you could reach to pick it up, you hear the sound of the call being answered. Dread settles down the pit of your stomach as the caller began to speak.

"Hello, darling? It's Ai... have you seen my messages yet?"

part two

#sub yandere #sub character #yandere oc #yandere x reader #yandere x darling #yandere imagines #yandere scenarios #yandere headcanons #yandere #tw yandere #gn reader #gender neutral reader #oc: ai