#i didnt chose this life

[mooninagust]

#i didnt chose this life #it chose me #jungkook #bts #thai drama #kdrama #my friend knows every plot to every show ive ever watched #without watching it #thats how annoying about it i am #an rambles

[carp3tpasta]

A savior with one purpose,

A means to an end

#hunter is starting to beat saint as my favorite slugcat #they are such a tragic character #that only wanted to live but despite that prioritized their mission even though they couldve done whatever they wanted #and with with the very short life they had chose to save another #someone they didnt even know #rain world #rain world fanart #hunter long legs #rainworld hunter #rw hunter #hunter #rainworld #rw slugcat #cw body horror #tw body horror #Ummm #don't mind where the lighting is coming from...I know it doesn't make sense cuz they're in a shelter but it looked cool...>:)

[pensbridgertons]

but our lord sees the truth in all things, and so he knows your truth as well. whatever your sins might be, have faith they will be forgiven.

if it's a sin that you chose me, then i will go to the devil himself and bless him for temptin' you to it.

1.16 TO RANSOM A MANS SOUL 

6.07 STICKS AND STONES

#outlanderedit #clairefraseredit #periodedit #perioddramaedit #perioddramasource #weloveperioddrama #userperioddrama #gifshistorical #periodedits #onlyperioddramas #** #outlander #claire fraser #i always forget abt this scene from 116 so i didnt even think abt this when i watched 607 #and idk if anyones done this before lmao #but i just watched it w my rewatch and im 😭😭😭 #its the way she is STILL carrying this guilt around DECADES later #STILL blaming herself for every bad thing that has happened just because she chose to stay in the life she wanted #and this guilt manifesting during the aftermath of each of their assults too 😭 #like theres more contributing to the 607 one than just that but its still a big part of it #and also something abt jamie being the one to absolve her the second time :')

[flamboyant-king]

Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.

I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.

I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.

So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?

#i was in there for a week and ill continue partial hospitalization for a few weeks #i hope i learn more and i hope i get specific help to my issues. because whay i learned there didnt directly pertain to me #but having structured daily life felt nice. but it wasnt all relaxing because there were still responisibilites on the outside world #tapping on the window or calling me on the phone. chose the best time for a meltdown. i have taxes and credit card bills to take care of #but if i stress about it now ill jsut be going back to the ER and thats no good. the hospital was so cold dude im glad im home with blankets #this is mr octopus again. im glad i broguh hom to work. i went straight to er from work and if i had no plushie with me #i probably would have stayed longer or be even more mentally unstable and distressed. its good to have comfort items #i dont think i want to know ehat if be like without some kind of companion or grounding item with me. i dont want to imagine me without em #its okay to have a little friend with you. i would be so distraught. everyone loved me there #the nurses the patients the residents yhe social workers the students #mr. octopus made them happy because of his big smile and mine too. the people there did not expect the mass amoutns of stress and depression #in this bubbly happy baby witb a happy pink octopus. one of the patients thought it was the meds the happy pills they gave me #no im jsut naturally like this. or artificially like this. i still dont know how to express or understand my feelings #if what im showing is real or not because i know ill be the happiest in the room wherever i go. maybe its a front or a mask #but when im like that kinda hard to know whats really underneath. they always ask me if im okay but i turn to myself #and its nondescript like ive put a blanket over how i really feel. its weird. the bubbly energy is blinding. #words #mr octopus #mental health #doodles

[zoros-debt]

not me doing some warm up sketches of an angry zoro and a crying nami, and just accidentally drawing an angsty scene

#my art #my stuff #i swear it was unintentional #i didnt choose the zonami life #the zonami life chose me #one piece #zonami #zona #zoro x nami #nami x zoro

[liverpool-enjoyer]

the wasted potential feelings are hitting SO ESPECIALLY hard tonight i need to go to sleep

#(vent tags feel free to skip) #i shouldve studied more n tried harder #i could have been so smart! #i should have played a sport in high school #it would have been so good for me n i woulda been able to say i did something #i should have gotten a job by now #im twenty years old never worked a day in my life and i rely on my parents for everything #now no job will take me cause i have nothing on my resume. #i also chose to go to college in the same hick town that i live in #i could have traveled!! but i didnt. #my youth is over forever and i have nothing to show for it #i spent my prime years playing video games and watching youtube videos #i spent them with my family who i am forever grateful for #and with all the love and support they gave me ive done absolutely nothing worthwhile #i had so much potential n ive wasted it #im just so painfully unremarkable

[blueskittlesart]

finding out you’re a taylor swift fan is like a knife to the chest I genuinely feel betrayed. et tu blue

sorry unfortunately i was a little blonde girl in 2008 and my dad plays acoustic guitar so i was doomed from the start and now i can sing every single song shes ever released from memory

#i didnt choose HER she chose ME when i was 6 years old and heard love story for the first time #i was talking to one of my like. grown 27 year old cousins like last year and she was like do you still like taylor swift bc apparently her #one core memory about me was being surprised that i knew the entirety of love story from memory at 6 years old. anyways #i literally have seen her in concert before too i saw the 1989 tour in dc when i was like 11 and i DIDNT TAKE ANY VIDEOS. #like i had the homophobic version of picture to burn on my very first ipod mini ok you dont just cut an artist out of your life after that #asks

[suntails]

Hiya!

I saw your SilRuggie post and I feel you on the "Silver and his many boyfriends" part.

Idk what it is about Silver but he's so... Shippable?

Like I ship SilVil, KalimSil and JadeSil which are kinda popular. But it's also stuff like RidSil and LeoSil (oh so much brainrot currently about LeoSil,) Which aren't as popular.

He's probably my most shipped character like... EVER.

(I may have gotten some ship names wrong)

IT’S THE CHEMISTRY IT’S THE WAY HE HAS CHEMISTRY WITH SO SOSOSO MUCH OF THE CAST!!! he’s so deeply just…good, and he cares so earnestly, and he has examples of interactions with almost fuckgng everyone at this point. like i can understand why someone would ship just abt any silver ship, i GET it, bc theres so much potential. i think i have like…3? that im neutral on? maybe?

also hearing u associate silvil with the kinda popular ones, im fuckign weak at the knees. that is incorrect but im pretending ur right bc it makes me oh so happy

#ask #nervouslywaitingforlife #its the way i like all of em. i love him he deserves love #silvil i have a manifesto abt #silkali i think they are best friends in LOVE with each other but specifically as friends. not that they love each other tho. theyre IN LOVE #does that make sense. IN LOVE as FRIENDS. IN LOVE. theyre married #jadesil gives me ‘theyll take rugged nature walks together’ and jade is so refreshed to have someone so sincere and sweet in his life #someone u can read like a book someone who will earnestly appreciate u. silver will love jades dedication and isnt put off by him like most #bc he sees ppl for the good in them. wipes a tear #silrid i feel so strongly abt. i firmly believe theyd be very sweet and good to each other. horse girls. riddle picked sil specifically for #his master chef partner. he chose him intentionally. silver acknowledges and appreciated riddles dedication and work ethic and talks highly #of him. in book6 ch6 iirc thats when riddle gets taken by styx and the way silver SHOUTS in worried fear. he LOVES him #i do think theyd get divorced but not in a funnt leovil way in a sad ‘things just arent working despite us loving each other’ way. adult yk? #leosil should take naps together. those are my thoughts. i want ruggie and sebek to find them passed tf out in the gardens on a reg basis #and this only scratches the surface of dear catríonas thoughts on sil ships. u didnt even mention silsebe and thats his most popular ship #i like him w ruggie too and jack and jamil and and and and AGGHHH dies #ADDING TO MY TAGS. FORGOT TO MENTION SILIDIA TOO. OH MY GOD THE FUCKING POTENTIAL AAAAAAGGHHHH take me off the stage i could ramble forever #me violently pointinh to my conspiracy board and detailing his chemistry with every single person in the cast

[wolves0nmars]

(spoilers for oxenfree ii ending, but this post itself is so vague u wouldnt know what it means)

and why?

#oxenfree #oxenfree ii #oxenfree 2 #oxenfree ii: lost signals #i chose riley :( #because i think if she is “the only one with enough responsibility to make the decision” #then she is the only one who can take the responsibility of staying behind #also because of process of elimination #not jacob because like. hello. #hes a sweetie #he has a dog #and i didnt want to do it to olivia because she is a child #and she deserves to live the rest of her life #and idk i just dont feel like enabling an orphaned child to commit suicide for my own benefit #at least not today

[hysterical-cats]

no offense but i think anyone who comes away from Cats thinking grizabella didn't deserve to be the jellicle choice just. wasnt paying attention

#cats the musical #grizabella is injured and old and dying and she has no one that cares about her #she deserves to be reborn into a happy life!!! #gus is old yes but he is surrounded by loved ones and lives a happy life!!! #thats the point of his character!!! to show the difference between how he is treated vs griz #'wah wah they just chose grizabella because they didnt want to deal with her anymore' literally shut up please #yeah i just finished watching cats again and im feeling it okay???

[todayisafridaynight]

chewing these until i explode and die

#snap chats #sorry i cant describe things normally im sleepy but anyway #NO they made a tweet showing off all the funeral merch and theres some shit here i didnt see last time #the mine one's a part of. a postcard book ?? i think ?? #this the only one that ate from that ... to me anyway.... #i just really like how they chose a similar shot of him esp with how drastic the lighting differs and the camera angles #not even MENTIONING how the top scene is. from the orphanage bulldozing LMAOOOO #its art to me in ways i refuse to elaborate on ...... ok but the AOKI ONE THO LEMME GET INTO IT #what the fuck is an acrylic block i dont know but anyway .... theyre foul for the shots they chose <- screaming kicking my feet #it makes me want to make a proper gif set of aoki using those shots now .... and a mine set with Those Shots ... #im just sayin they def had a tumblr girlie on the team ... it just reminds me of gif sets on here ... im stealing their ideas idc #aoki's scene with his head held high at presumably the highest point of his life #to contrast how dreary masato's shot is. Shot Lol Get It on the worst night of his life with his dead drooped kmsing right now #AND WHEN THEY BOTH POINT THEIR GUNS AT THE CAMERA... SCREAMS ... #like the other merch didnt Give like these did ok ... is it my bias No Im Totally Objective.. i want these as gif sets .... #i was gonna put nishitani's here too since they ALMOST did something cool too #they had the top of his being when hes sittin in the grand with his arms spread out #and i THOUGHT the bottom one would be when he's Getting Lit Up and his arms were spread but no .. #its that scene but ... they didnt show off that part ... just him looking back at majima ... #love how they chose the most bbg still of aoki dying for the egg merch meanwhile mine's is just. Rage #they cant go with the same wet cat shot of him tho i get it ... they used it twice for merch fjerLKVAKVJE #anyways im typing way too much about these i gotta go BYE

[malk-with-tea]

Greenstem + a familiar face

Progress gif under the cut!

#art #oc art #landscape #analog #i never posted my analog paintings here!!! so oops #i fucking LOVE painting III at my college #i got to choose what i wanted to do for the semester #so i just chose to do locations for some oc lore!! #anyways #this is greenstem- clematis' home #its a flower forest with giant flowers acting as trees #i hope thats obvious enough in the painting #but basically clematis has been guarding this place for nearly her entire life #and theres also a sorta neverland quality to the location and clem herself bc she didnt really grow up during like #80% of the time she spent living there #but ye shes hanging there in the background #lil fella #descarn

[vero-niche]

a fellow english major, really happy to see someone who's proud of their degree <3

you know that "no love, no matter how brief, is wasted" line? i think the same applies for knowledge too - no matter how useless it may seem, knowledge acquired is never in vain.

#honestly like. idk what your age is but when i was attending uni i kept getting told that i shouldve gone for IT. because the future #- and the money - is there. #now look at the IT companies. the whole thing is crumbling #not to mention the arrogance. that IT degree didnt make you immune to the same old scam tactics did it. how are your nfts doing btw #honestly i never really expected it myself that a humanities degree would prove useful in a daily life type of way #like. sure i knew it wasnt useless but still. its entirely different to experience it in real time yknow #and the whole new wave ''it isnt that deep'' trend is honestly pretty dangerous bc there usually IS something deeper. #a narrative an agenda a propaganda etc.... or simply just capitalist greed #so its needed to read between the lines and see what the point/intention really is #- and thats what literary and other art analysis is making you do! it makes you stop and think #this is all not even mentioning all the political historical and cultural stuff we learned about all the anglo-saxon countries #which all prove to be pretty useful in light of recent events...... #so yeah. anyway. dont listen to all those who say its useless (and theres a lot of those even among the ones who chose this major too) #its clearly not. but even if it were it wouldnt matter ehat they think #(i do wish tho that i couldve attended it already on the right meds bc i feel like i forgot A Lot bc of my mental state at the time #but oh well. what can you do) #thank you for the ask it was really nice of you 💞💞💞 #ask #anon

[rinovarka]

been having Skyfire brain rot for the last few days due to That One Comic Variant Cover and rewatching Fire in the Sky on repeat 72/21

Skyfire a dense mf because surely the Decepticons were NOT even hiding their intents about Earth and its people. Bruh said “hmmm the guy calling himself Supreme Leader and saying how they are going to conquer the universe is a nice guy” . Surely Starscream and Skyfire had SOME talking time at least?? 

Skyfire @ Spike and Sparkplug like nooo “Why are you frightened :( ?”  * is literally a giant robot whose first words were YOU MUST BE DESTROYED was just shooting towards them like a minute ago and decided the best thing to do is pick them up many feet off the ground and towards his face*

But also. Ough. Starscream’s voice performance in the episode...Im a SkyStar truther there HAS to be so much more going on there

#transformers #maccadam #skyfire #starscream #sky is just a lil slow hes kind he means well but he just woke up. give him a break. but also. bro....you cant be this dumb and survive LKFJ #hes so cute. hes book smart but life stupid #hes so funny like he just strolled passed enemy fire like nothing bc he wanted to talk to da humans. doesnt care as it doesnt affect him LOL #also i know the autobots only came back in another episoe to use him as a space taxi but tbh i can understand why they didnt save him. #they didnt have the resources to save a big mf that day and if they cracked the ice sosomeone else might drown too #but #LKSFJLKFJLKF #starscream angst real can you imagine. being close to victory but ur old friend who you wanted to rule with. chose to side with nobodies

[i-am-dulaman]

Yeah yeah, Dúlamán the song, we've all heard it. But why did you choose it as your new blog name? Planning to abduct any daughters?

What are you a cop? Come back with a warrant

#no but the real reason is that ive liked that song for a long looong time #i think about 12 years #and i thought the word dulaman was a nice word and unique so i used it for my online aliases #whenever i made a new account for a game or whatever i would use it #and now its sorta just become my online name #also #when i first chose it as a name i didnt even know what the word meant #but it is so fitting that it means seaweed #since my ultimate goal in life is to run a giant kelp farm

[dmitriyuriev]

A scene from one of my favorite fanfics (link here it's only available in Japanese)

This is during the scene where Limbo is in the process of repairing Danzou, and barely restraining his violent urges towards her. The fic is an excellent exploration of their relationship, and how unsettling and cruel their fixation on Danzou is.

「綻ぶ蝕甚」というＦＧＯ小説のシーンを描きました。リン段好きのみんなさん、ぜひ、読んでみてください！

#fgo #fate grand order #Ashiya Douman #Caster of Limbo #Katou Danzou #リン段 #the intersection of people on tumblr who like LimDan and who can read JP well enough to read this is probably very small but #regardless of if you can read it or not enjoy all the same! They have the most interesting relationship in the game to me #Limbo is so weird about her but its not out of love but not hate either? #just an intense desire to toy with her life #and i love that sort of thing #They treat her like more like a favorite toy than a real person #the fic really captures it well as well as Danzou's own developing will and sense of self #also i love that it does not hold back in showing limbo's cruelty- a major scene in it is them cutting up a living girl for parts for danzo #ANYWAY I LOVE LIMDAN AND THIS FIC MAKES ME GO WILD I WANT TO DRAW MORE FROM IT #it didnt specify which leg he attached first so i just chose one here lol #tumblr compressed this bad whyy