#i cant believe its done LMAO

[funkily]

my secret september gift for @vesta-vega !! i think im late SORRY .

i hope you like it !! i saw you liked codvengers so i drew the dungeon gang ^_^

#i cant believe its done LMAO #this took so incredibly long but im actually pretty happy with the results #if u want anything changed lmk i'll do my best :DD #empires smp #smallishbeans #pixlriffs #solidaritygaming #ldshadowlady #ok im not happy enough to tag it TOO much #funkart

[crescentmoonrider]

j. jakedirk kissy?

dorks

sorry for the wait !! it was 3am where i am when you sent this, so i was eepy, and then i had to take a day to recuperate

hairy Jake with the shitty teenage attempted beard.... glasses getting in the way, noses getting crushed.... ah, young love~

i missed them, thank you for getting me the opportunity to draw them again !

#yumi's art #homestuck #jake english #dirk strider #dirkjake #small valentines event #yumi got asked stuff #slowpokedragon #dorks #<- yes that is literally my dirkjake tag lmao #two homestuck asks for this event !!! #im so happy !!! its really nostalgic hehe #but also with this i am !!! done !!! #i definitely was Not expecting 9 whole asks #last time i did that i got 2 sdfsfdgfh #if i do this again ill have to change things #not sure how. but ill have to plan #damn i cant believe ive reached a point #where i cant just go 'this could be fun' #and just throw up a post #and not get almost buried in my own hubris #well its not hubris if you think too low probably #altho self-deprecation /is/ still selfish in the end #where was i going with this #oh yeah the event !! lots of fun #but also maybe too much work #for what little thought i gave the initial idea #so yeah. lots to chew on later #but for now i rest !!! take care yall <3

[yugioh-brainrot]

Aroace Atem....save me....aroace Atem

#i just have a lot of feelings about this #kaiba too #yugi idk def not ace but i refuse to believe anyone in ygo is str8 #but yugi x yami??? thats like... qpr #like they are literal soulmates they share a damn body they *know* each other #its just much more deep than *just* romance or *just* friendship #its on a level we cant comprehend #okay done rambling lmao #yugioh #atem #yami

[bangcakes]

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#first week of work done 💪💪💪 #i think im already getting used to it oohohooho #n now that ive solved my job problem... there is the issue of my guy problem JDJDJDJDJJD #well its not a problem but u know what i mean NDNDNDNNDNDNDN #i wanna see him...... probs gonna ask if he wants to hang out with me n our other friend soon... n then after that i'll probs ask to hang #out one on one. i think we're almost ready NDNDNDNDMSMS #god im just. im in so much disbelief #like i was sitting at my desk today on my work laptop n had to have discord open #n hes like. usually top 3 in my message history or whatever you call it. and i was like god how surreal is it #that i like. open discord n there he is like ..... thats Crazy #i cant believe how far weve come like. i can just message him whenever n xhrkdkxjdjdd its so WEIRD #this time last year i was literally trying so hard to get over him LMAO. like girl if only you KNEW he was gonna become one of ur #good friends.... god. hes so cute i wanna keep him forever NDJDZJZJZJZMZM #personal

[underhanded-lamb]

I really didn't expect to get to 11 Art Fight attacks done but here we are! @sushicatz Marmalade and Melatonin; literally some of the cutest designs I've ever seen.

#artfight 2023 #in artfight we thrive #dca oc #not my oc #lambs art #dca community #fnaf #art #goodness gracious I cant believe I got this done before the end of July aaaaa #they were way too cute #I can't draw one without the other #no matter the vibe #the au #the interaction/relationship between them #I just can't bring myself to only draw one! #also can I just say the design of melatonin's ribbons being untied and droopy #and marmalade's bows being springy and neatly tied? #daklgklfsdhgsfdg its the little things okay #also I was really tempted to draw them with Missy like 'same tail?!' but I ran outta time lmao

[guinevereslancelot]

i highly recommend going to the thrift store and getting a nice sweater for like six dollars btw

#i got THREE sweaters and a flannel shirt for under twenty dollars the other day #and they're all very cute and comfy #this is what life is all about #i hate buying new clothes bc even when its a good deal im like yeah but i could get something just as good at the thrift store for way less #it makes me feel guilty lmao #bc my mom always got us all our clothes at the thrift store and now i still do that #it makes me enjoy it more to know it's cute but it wasn't expensive lol #thrift stores have done so much for us as a society #anyway nothing will lift ur week like getting a very cute sweater for like six dollars i think #this has been a shitpost #every time i see new clothes prices i cant believe it

[the-kipsabian]

done with the second worst part of cleaning, i have vacuumed

#i still need to clean some tabletops and wash the floors #but then im DONE #getting a bit too late to my liking tbh but lmao im dysfunctional. at least its getting done #oh yeah and then i gotta put the rest of the laundry away. pretty sure thats everything then #would have loved to take out more trash but they didnt empty the bins today so i cant fit more cardboard in there #you wouldnt believe the amount of boxes i have in this house.... and yet only one fits a human head! #which reminds i should probably put that one away for the checkup i dont. think i wanna answer any questions #the giant kip banner on my wall might already prompt some questions and im not ready for that. like they shouldnt come in to judge my place #its purely to check the quality of the apartment and if anything needs fixing etc #but excuse me i have anxiety and like a two meter tall kip banner on my otherwise empty wall LOL #anyways. gonna wash floors. clean counter tops. put away laundry. make really late dinner. and then see if im gonna write or just pass out #yay productive day i guess. tho i am sweaty and tired lol #sorry ramble tags i need to pour my break into something lol #night is an absolute mess on main

[wabblebees]

im like if the most useless boytoy twink was also an incredibly handy butch lesbian

#this post is about me collapsing as soon as i got home from work #where i used a garden hoe i sharpened myself to hack down+tear out a truly impressive thistle 3× my size while 3 of my coworkers watched #swung it overhead like an axe until the centre stalk (almost the size of my wrist) was felled. then hoed around it until the roots came free #& i could grab it with my hands where there werent any thorns. turned around and all 3 of em were lookin at me like 😳😳 lmao #but now im sitting in my bathtub bc i cant stand long enough to shower anymore hdksgsk #knew this morning it was a bad pain day but pushed thru it anyway bc!! there was work to do!! but now im gonna be totally useless for 24hrs #cest la vie i suppose #after the thistle was properly disposed of just kept tilling+weeding+fixin tomato cages in the fields. came home & felt sooo dykey+hot lmfao #was like ''fuck yeah man idk what was up with me this morning im feelin fine now! great even!'' #then took my knee braces off to get into the shower & almost busted my ass on the tile when both of em gave out🤦 #my shoulders are now reminding me that i Dont Have the muscle mass to use a bigass hoe like anything but a hoe w/out Paying For It later #its a good thing i have the day off tomorrow bc im going to turn into a slug as soon as im done steaming meself like a little dumpling #definitely thinkin about using my pathetic-wet-cat-charm to get someone to bring me food tonight tho... hmm #anyway. wheres that post #''im not a butch but i believe their beliefs'' #its my exectution thats lacking lmao. but in any case #mwah. mwah mwah mwah #<-for all the butches out there. ily tysm youre wonderful #and to all the useless boytoy twinks out there: o7 <3 #godspeed fellow hopeless fags. ily too. keep doin what yr doin lmao #bee speaks

[tandytoaster]

This is my little space pirate guy Alph <333

#cant believe it took me 5 years to make a space pirate oc LMAO #noop nooping #my art #alph #i almost feel bad bc hes like a mix of mainline n prime pirate and those dont rlly exist but also who tf is making space pirate ocs. no one. #i think i came up with him in april ?? right after becca finished the prime trilogy for me and a week later after she had moved onto other #interests i latched myself back onto metroid #becca can interest hop and i need to let things marinate in my mind #its inconvenient bc we're in the middle of something and shes like hey what do u think. and im like i have no thoughts but im enjoying it #and then 2 weeks later and she's onto something completely different im like hey :) #alph is my new radiation guy bc derrick is done theres no redeeming him whatsoever it simply cannot and should not be done #also worth noting about a month after i created him i realized i basically reinvented smithers. which is incredibly on brand for me #my ocs

[shesahershey]

"Licking the wound clean was my favorite part!"

#art #my art #digital art #ahdot #ahdot danny #ahdot dan #ahdot anna #ahdot grape #i cant believe i passed out and forgot to post this 😭 #also this took a year lmao #started it last year but never had the time or motivation to finish it #but its done!!! :D #hershs art #original character #oc

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how I was legitimately the most hated and bullied kid in my entire class, and probably entire school. I knew this as a fact. there was nothing I could do about it. not just by the kids either, but the teachers/staff as well. all because I was autistic and unable to speak and they didn't want to treat me decently. and I ask why. (rhetorically of course, because I know all the excuses given as answers)

being an autistic kid and knowing damn well this is true, that you're the most hated person in the entire building with not a single person on your side, knowing you're the main target for everyone's aggression every day, is....truly something. you know. like carrying the weight of everyone's hatred and negativity on your back alone, being their punching bag, internalizing their hatred for then. from ages 4 to 18. nonstop. never getting better. never knowing why. not being able to stop it. never getting any help. on your own and alone. blamed for it all.

yet i'm simply told to "get over it/stop caring" and get blamed for it fucking me up and having a lasting effect. lmao ok. let me just forget more than half my life existed at this point and magically get better! thanks!

#those assholes are lucky I didn't have the heartless soul to take revenge on them or something. #instead it just became internalized trauma 🙃 #lee rambles #autistic #autism #actually autistic #school trauma #what would they have done if i lost my shit and lashed out at them???? #the most i was ever able to do was take a plastic knife and stab an apple at lunch while glaring at a table of the kids #that scared them enough to leave me alone for a few days. then theh forgot and back at it again #why is it always the victim's fault and the bullies win? even years after the fact. why cant my brain “get over it” like people tell me :/ #and yes i was able to get a therapist. no it hasnt helped yet. i do all the coping stuff she suggests already #basically distractions and whatnot. no it hasnt cured me. #she always tells me i have good coping mechanisms. im doing a good job. i deal with things reallt well. ok why am i still a mess 🙃 #its almost as if theres no cure and only pretending #what am i rambling about. this sounds like an emotional rant but i genuinely feel nothingness atm. just reminiscing how fucked up it all was #why were things like that allowed to be put onto one single child and why did they never get any help or justice and are blamed #s i g h s #also ive always felt like no one believed me when i said i was the most hated and bullied kid at school. it is 100% true lmao unfortunately

[bangcakes]

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#the more it sinks in... the more surreal it feels. like HDJDJDJDJDJDJ #the Way i doubted whether he wanted to keep in touch with me when literally..... said he would... how he always answers me... #messages me when he has news kr something to say..... hangs out with people he doesnt like just to have like.. moments with me.... #i really cant handle it OYXKYDKYTKDDO #its so fuckin weird. like even if we end up just friends... the experience has been so wild..... #like lmao this time last year we had had like. 1 conversation JDJDJDJXJZJZ #literally sat a seat away from each other an entire semester and dint talk til the last day. oh its so funny #god i cant believe we're friends.... #i havent talked to him since i saw him last week at that dinner.. i cant really think of anything to say BDDNDDNNDND #been focusing on job applications #i handed a second one in yesterday and started a third today. hoping to have it done tomorrow but... its not due until feb so... i have som #time to perfect it :)))) #i really hate this stuff. like god it takes so much out of me..... #i'll probs update him on how many ive applied to idk. trying not to overthink HDJDJDJDJDJJ #im not really the type to message unnecessarily and neither is he so hhhhhh lmao #itll be fine.... #personal #have i mentioned hes my favourite :p

[orcelito]

oh god discacc is now the 5th longest akeshu fic on ao3

oh god

#speculation nation #discacc shit #WHY HAVE I DONE THIS TO MYSELF #I CAN NEVER SHUT UP AND SO I AM APPROACHING 500K WORDS OF A SINGLE PROJECT #place number 4 is complete and not that far ahead of me so i'll definitely be claiming that number 4 spot at some point lol #spot 3 is marigolds. which is over 100k words ahead of me so who knows if i'll ever catch up lmao #number 2 i could potentially catch up to its current count but from the projected chapter count it's got a WAYS to go #discacc is probably gonna be over 600k words. possibly over 700k words #a MILLION words tho??? Probably Not. #so yea im never taking that number 1 spot bc that belongs to a CRAZY long fic and im not gonna do that to myself lmfao #i'd be content with keeping 4th place. until the next insane motherfucker (like me) comes up and usurps me #god i cant believe how long this shit has gotten #like i said it at the start that the plan was to have a fucking beast of a fic. and i sure have been delivering huh lol #looks at my own 467k word fic and contemplates my own mental health. obviously not good lol #that one meme of 'could a mentally ill person make THIS?' yes yes they could. they have. It's Here #anyways im gonna try to pass out now. love y'all

[cinnabeat]

i have a habit of reading extremely long form media like manga and webnovels so like ngl im surprised and impressed that fairy tail ended at 545 chapters AND in 11 years

#either what i read is released monthly and so has less chapters but has been going on for going on 2 decades #or it releases weekly at hundreds of chapters and still not done #like honest to god i thought fairy tail was gonna go on forever #you will not believe how surprised i was when it ended #im 90% sure i cried #i just checked it ended july 2017??? bullshit #what the fuck #that was a huge part of my formative yesrs (middle school) and it ended in 2017???? #idk what to do with this information #3017 seems like two years ago but no its been uh #i cant do ath in my head hold on #SEVEN YEARS???? NO FUCKING WAY #not the series spanning symbolic number too LMAO #what the fuck man #i think abt fairy tail often but i dont recommend it #everytime one of the anime ops come up on shuffle im like oh yeah fairy tail i miss that i should rewatch :) #before im graced with clarity and go wait no dont do that #michi tag

[splatfest]

18, 20, 23 (Music asks) <3

from the year that you were born (2002):

+ headfirst for halos - my chemical romance + the fix is in - ok go

that has many meanings to you:

+ cable through your heart - bryan scary

that you think everyone should listen to:

+ sad boys - dazey and the scouts + saturdays for the boys (saturdays for the boys) - 1 trait danger

#i have 2 meanings for most songs bc i terminally misinterpret the artists intent. so ill use the q to explain some fun alt meanings i have #1. clean eyes i take as internal representation of ocd esp intrusive thoughts #'i fear what i dont believe' because the thoughts are against ur values but ur brain convinces you its because you secretly believe them #'you cant change me can you save me' and the references to being cared for are asking for reassurance #also describes not being able to put 'the pieces' back together. ie contamination ocd bc it makes u feel like youre forever dirty #or the notion that if you resist a compulsion the damage is already done + you can only prevent the next thing from happening #'it even has 'i check the lock on the door 3 times' its incredible thats not the intended meaning LMAO #2. i thought cable thru ur heart was about resuscitating someone with an aed T_T i clearly didnt listen to the lyrics and just made stuff u #i cant think of any others but my art captions almost always rely on a slightly different analysis of song lyrics if u wanna check those ou #i struggled a bit w the last one bc i feel that way abt everything i rec LOL #chose ones with an interesting first listening experience #fun fact that 1td song got me into car seat headrest (eventually. genuinely thanks pasta) which is my top artist of all time now #this took so long i had 5:30pm classes lolsies #ask game #catgirltitties #asks

[ericlovessharks]

liking and depending on people is so stupid and hard and ive decided im never doing either again

#never venting or talking about feelings again 💪 #repressing is easier and less vulnerable #even if it hurts sometimes it's better than being vulnerable with anyone again #just gonna say everything rn #im tired of some of our shitty irl friends and i miss one that we dont talk to much anymore bc no classes and whatever and #im stressing about my bf because we havent seen his system online in a while but we havent talked to them in a month because we feel #unwanted but thats us just being dramatic i guess but now it's like; are we close enough to ask you if you're ok or will you find us #annoying and cut us off and then i never get to see my bf again who i might just break up with because #1) he deserves better #2) if i leave him first i cant be scared of him leaving me #/j #i wont tho #i would start sobbing if i tried to lmao #but anyway our parents dont like me specifically and even if they dont know about osdd whatever they can see our attitude change #so its really great to feel unwanted by my friends and parents rn!! #i miss percy i miss serenity i miss romeo #i also dont believe any of them or anyone likes me and they only tolerate and pity me #i cant even get out of bed to get a book im just stupid and crying here #im done #ep #vent