#i can walk ! without falling !

[moregraceful]

Bad takes on the bad takes website...how about we all realize that there's no real standard of what makes a person hot. Hollywood hot is not real hot. Hollywood hot doesn't speak to the breadth and depth of humanity. Average people are hot. Fucked up looking people are hot. How about: you're hot bc I like you. You're hot bc I like how you treat people and how you treat yourself. You're hot bc you have a big beautiful heart. Every physical part of you is beautiful to me. You're hot bc I love you.

#skill issue if you can't fall in love with someone who isn't a super model imho #MY hockey blorbo had to retire from hockey bc he can no longer walk. he looks like marnie the dog. and i love him passionately #and would hit it without even thinking twice #fresno oilers.txt #i had a really really good 8am church meeting and i'm ready to act OUT. with LOVE!!!!

[zincbot]

don't tell anyone but i turned on reduced frights for echoes of the eye

#outer wilds #I DIDN'T WANT TO #especially cause the 'frights' weren't so bad #i was just gettin pretty frustrated trying to sneak past these mfers in the dark. like i wasted 3 whole loops just #getting kicked out by them over n over again till we all drowned #so i was hoping reduced frights might make them less deadly or smth #echoes of the eye spoilers #and it helped immensely it made them way slower i could actually like take my time and escape them without making a dumb mistake #(i'm not a good gamer. when i'm rushed i forget how buttons work) #i really like walking around without my lantern i basically explore everything i can without it first thing its greay #simulation moment #also i Saw that thing abt falling off the boat during the 'loading' periods which i might try at some point now that i actually like #made some progress again yipee #i saw a reel that showed an old person dying in the radius of the simulation and still loading into it so #i was thinking abt that bright bridge u can't get by. this might be crazy but the alarms can't wake the dead. right. #maybe i could like jump in the campfire or like fly into the ceiling a bunch it might be fun to try

[emily-mooon]

Cause Everybody Knows, He’s A Femme Fatale.

#femme fatale Jonathan is ✨babygirl✨ #this is their 6 pm date at the ritz where his sad boy charms combined with flirty shit he learned from his now dead lover (who he killed) #woe Nancy and makes her fall for him more #and yes he did walk in like that he’s a femme fatale he can do that #it’s the slutty slutty tuxedo o was talking about (took me a few minutes to figure how to make it that way but obviously I did) #*I #it’s slutty by standards of the 30s and 40s (he gave the finger to tux etiquette) #I would like to thank my beloved mutual Dearie (@musicalchaos07) for reblgging a post about the dynamic of a man who is a femme fatale #and a lady who is a film noir detective and putting jancy in the tags #this masterpiece would not exist without it so thanks again! #description is the chorus from femme fatale by The Velvet Underground (just changed her to him) #maybe I’ll draw all the characters in this au for my historical au week 👀 #stranger things #jonathan byers #nancy wheeler #jancy #film noir jancy au #sketch saturday

[liquidstar]

a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops. #and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can! #and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here: #barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time. #barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done. #and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies. #and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them) #and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances'' #from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

[wat-zu]

Absolutely love your art. I want to nom it.

Also, Hollow Heads Siblings my beloveds,,,

Theyre the doomed siblings ever its not even funny

#Oouugh i have thoughts abt the hollowhead siblings. How theyre so intricately tied to eachother since their birth but they'd be #Eachother'd downfall. Esp when it's Dark and his relationship with the others #Dark would never understand what chosen went through. Mainly bc i think chosen is used to fighting his internal battles on his own #While he was in captive as an ad blocker. He loves Dark. He's grateful for Dark bc without him he wouldn't be free #But Dark isnt exactly someone reliable enough for Chosen to get the necessary healing he wants and needs #But that won't stop Dark from trying to fix him. Creates the virus for revenge. As chosen watches his brother spiral and spiral #As he watches him drift further away. Unable to get him back without a shouting match. As he watches with his heart heavy and cracked at- #Their stiffed interactions and strained relationship. He can't remember a time where they shared geniune laughs. #Then tsc coming came and changed everything. #Because this is someone who went through Chosen's pain albeit a lil differently. Someone who knows. Someone who /understands/. And this- #Someone is so much more younger than them and had to go through that pain in such a short amount of time since their birth #He sees himself in them. And he's rather walk up to alan demanding to get his hands cuffed than let tsc fester in that pain. #So tsc became chosen's priority. Healed eachother in many ways than one and are at echother's beck and call if need be. #As for Dark. I think he'd manipulate tsc into using him for his revenge. After stalking out his code and finding out about his potential #And TSC cant help but fall for his manipulations. Since this person is very very important to Chosen and they want so badly to impress- #Them both. They agreed and overtime grew to love eachother. And overtime Dark shifted his goals just a tad bit. Getting TSC more and more- #Involved. Since hey if Chosen doesn't like touching alan with a 10 ft pole why not let this kid do. And TCS agrees to this thinking that- #This is it. This is can finally heal them completely. Finally out of sight and out of mind. Finally can't live without the pain lingering #And chosen watches them with a sense of deja vu. At loss at what to do and so so afraid to lose two of his lil siblings #Then shit hits the brick UBSJDBSJSN #They make me so ill im not even kidding when i said theyre so so very very doomed!!!!!!!!! #This is abt the au btw BAHHAHAHABHA

[obstinatecondolement]

My mother is being snippy about me not "being a presence" downstairs to mind my (IDD) sister and "lounging in bed feeling sorry for myself" when I looked after her All Day when my parents were too sick yesterday, and a lot of the day before, which is almost certainly why I am this sick now, because my sister isn't able to be mindful of avoiding things that will spread infection.

Which is not her or my mum's fault and I don't begrudge helping, but also... it would be nice if my illnesses were not always perceived as laziness and malingering when my mother has absolutely no scruples about going to bed to sleep things off and getting me to pick up the slack when she's sick.

But, we must remember, I am a freeloader who "contributes nothing to the household" and constantly "indulges" myself at her personal expense, financially and spiritually, so it's evil when I do it.

#I can barely walk without falling over but like werq I guess #my dad is also too sick to be up incidentally but that's not noteworthy

[lemonhemlock]

it's so frustrating dealing with a friend that seems set on finding imaginary slights against their person and seethes in silence waiting for you to figure out what you did 'wrong' this time 🤦‍♀️

#this is the fifth time since october i've invited her somewhere to catch up and she said no #always with some excuse #which. sure. i can't verify #maybe the 8th time in the last year she refused for some reason or another #but there's only so many times you can give someone the benefit of the doubt #when she never initiates anything and just waits for us to ask her out #and if you don't happen to do that within the secret interval of time she is available and which she never discloses #she registers it as a slight #i'm so tired of these stupid mind games how old are you/?? #also she is SO hard to get hold of. never answers anything on any messaging app for days on end including the weekends #even if the proposal is time sensitive #girl you are NOT that busy bffr #i remember we invited her to see barbieheimer and she did not freaking answer on time. as usual. #and we had to get tickets without her bc the time slots quickly sold out #and ofc she was pissed at us bc she's can't be bothered to reply 🤦‍♀️ #she always is pissed even when it's clearly her fault #when she clearly sees the message bc she DOES check the apps whaddyaknow #and the one time we did manage to see each other she had the gall to propose that we go out more often!!! #and then never initiates anything and refuses everything #ik if i were to recount this to a third person they would tell me she already checked out of this friendship #it's so stupid #having to walk on these eggshells #bc we didn't even have a falling out she's just finding pretexts to become offended #that was been her modus operandi since the freaking pandemic #good lord the stories i have #lemonposting #anyway i'm bummed out now

[chirpsythismorning]

📝 💐 🛼 💔⏪️💭🧊🌄❤️‍🩹

I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor

previous ⏪︎ now playing ⏩ next back to playlist

#stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #el hopper #el's pov #i was so happy when i re-listened to this alongside the lyrics when looking for songs from el's pov #'at first i was afraid. i was petrified. kept thinking i could never live without you by my side' #all season long we saw el experiencing heartache over mike and how it led to her feeling insecure as if it was all her fault #she was convinced that if mike didn't love her then she couldn't be happy #'but then i spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong and i grew strong and i learned how to get along' #el spending time away from mike at nina along with all the months of doubt prior to their fallout now having validation... #it wasn't just her loving and falling out of love with mike over the course 3 days #it was her realization that their relationship has been deteriorating for a while now and coming to terms with that in 3 days #'and so you're back from outer-space. i just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face' #this is the main line that reminds me of her brushing past mike and will in the cabin #probably a little more harsh as this song is pretty harsh in terms of the singer not being capable of seeing her ex as even a friend now #but el's earned some harshness after what just went down #that doesn't mean they'll never overcome this #it just means there is still a serious need to confront it which wont be super pretty #and then the forgiveness and acceptance can only come after that #'and you see me. somebody new. i'm not the chained up little person still in love with you' #oooooo get him! #'you think i'd crumble? you think i'd lay down and die?' #sort of reminds me of the assumptions not just mike has but also most of the audience #they think it would be impossible for mike to end things with el bc she would be so broken hearted and she doesn't deserve that #which of course she doesn't #but maybe el knows what she deserves... and it's more than what mike is able to give #'i've got all my life to live and i've got all my love to give and i'll survive. i will survive.' #she's not going to go on forever being hung up on something that wasn't what she deserved in the first place #she will survive ya'll #4x09

[witchsickness]

so it can’t be argued at this point that billy is queer coded but do you think the same can be said for steve?

steve read as very much heterosexual to me up until billy came along and immediately i was like, aww poor steve. the mean hot blond from california has got him all confused lol, he rly stood no chance

wait hold up. billy’s gay?!??????

steve always gave me the impression of someone who doesn’t particularly care about the person the mouth is attached to, as long as it gets his dick wet. he gets off on attention. on the knowledge that he can have anyone he wants, because everyone wants a piece of hawkins’ golden boy. i don’t think he cares too much whether each night’s puppet-on-knees is a dude or a chick. it’s a high proving he can get both

except, like all highs, he gets more and more immune to it, until nothing’s able to scratch that itch. all the faces become a blur. i know that’s not a popular opinion, but i can’t actually see steve in a committed, long-term relationship. at least not at this point in his life. he’s b o r e d. it’s no fun when everyone’s drooling for him before he ever looks their way. and THEN 

billy comes into the picture. and billy wants him, right? obvious from space. except. billy wants HIM. all of him. the insecurities and the loneliness and the venom and the moments when the crown is off. won’t give in until steve signs all of him over first. and it drives steve mad, because so far the king steve shtick was enough. suddenly, enough is nothing less than all of him. every single part. the good and the bad. steve, cracked open and poured in a bowl for billy to whisk and prod and bake into something solid. it’s the promise of a constant challenge. his match. and steve is entranced, hook line and sinker

#harringrove #steve harrington #billy hargrove #the difference between billy's need for emotional attachment vs steve's emotional detachment is uhhhh fascinating to me actually #like billy is def the person who can sleep around without getting attached but the second he falls in love? he'll do insane things to #make sure his feelings are returned before giving himself fully to that person (steve. that person is steve) #whereas steve has always been the flippant one who likes to pretend emotions never come into play and he can walk out at any given #moment without feeling the least bit hurt #anyway love is a laserquest is billy @ steve so jot that down #'do you look into the mirror to remind yourself you're there / or have somebody's goodnight kisses got that covered' i MEAN. #this is a very blw coded answer but like the three ppl who read my stuff know what theyre here for so <3 #anon #ask

[kingly-court]

To say my experiences with Physical Therapy so far are mixed... Would be an understatement.

#Okay To RB #In fact I would love RBs - I hope this resonates with people ya know? #Chronic pain #Chronic fatigue #Chronic illness #Hypermobility #Actually chronically ill #Misgendering TW #V E N T #Spoiler alert: It didn't help and now I use a walker and can barely walk a block or take stairs without fall risk

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

wow it’s only walking without a cane that I realize how much it helps

#like I’m attached to the way I walk there’s a certain boyswag energy there #gender affirming walk if you will #but that’s NOT AT ALL how I walk without aid now #girl it’s WOBBLY NO WONDER MY ASS FELL DOWN #autism and disability is so intense bc I don’t realize things have gotten so bad till they’re like dire #anyway walking back without cane cuz I’m holding giant paper and not sure how to coordinate that #so going slow as to not fall again LOLLL #Reeve is a 10/10 tho like we blend seamlessly #the fact that she’s lightweight and can fold???? lovely

[oatbugs]

shaking of leaves by into it over it is genuinely one of the top songs of all time

#the sun is setting later which is a shock because i was too bruised up to celebrate the winter solstice this year #i got lasik surgery just to start a staring contest with the sun. two of my names mispronounced in a row by the butchers. i can still see #arithmetic as construction in space and geometry as construction in time. follow two parallel lines until they meet. #piazza stairs in the sun drinking aloe lychee juice watching young and beautiful people talk about money. notice the small fine lines #forming at the corners of their lips between their brows the sides of their eyes. what is representable for you is necessarily what there #is. subjective necessity transfer to objective necessity. why is this compelling? why are you compelling? would you like to kiss #by the river? would you like to walk 30 minutes to broadway so we can kiss by the river? ar 3³ #ive learned a lot about turner's watercolours but i havent said enough about the ways neurons dance together. about the way all of it is a #process without emotion and how that makes it beautiful. chipped nailpolish on his nails and dark circles under his eyes and a smile that #says i have learned to study the nature of the mind and how intuitions form reality and i no longer want to die. instead of taking #that horrible fall he reads kant to himself and he reads her to sleep and he reads my horrible jokes. #dont think like a psychologist and dont write like a philosopher. dont do maths like a physicist. #ironically read the science of logic. ironically a caffeine adict. ironically drink steriliser for its 74% alcohol solution. #ironically a 1:1 student. there are birds hanging in the archives. orions belt over the red glow of a very normal house. #each time i walk home the stars are brighter. i hope you are brighter too. i hope i am brighter too. i am going to win #that staring contest with the sun. #[i drafted this post on jan30 and forgot abt it]

[br1ghtestlight]

good news: wearing a bandage over my left eye today helped A LOT with the pain and itching/swelling

bad news: i cant keep doing that especially when im outside or moving boxes because im functionally blind in my right eye and can't see anything </3

#its not too bad when im inside the house bcuz i can like. hold onto things so i dont fall and i have some nearsighted vision etc #but i cant go outside without my left eye because i will walk DIRECTLY into traffic cant see a damn thing. Foiled again #maybe my left eye being exposed is irritating it further but there isnt really. anything i can do there #(no glasses do not help) #txt

[queerstudiesnatural]

hello! :•D

#i don't feel like dying today! #my stomach is still a bit upset (i need to watch what i eat) but i don't feel so dizzy #i can walk ! without falling ! #yay #i'm staying with my grandparents bc i can't be alone rn i literally can't do anything #and they keep talking about their friends and having their friends over and it's like :) i fit right in :) #we're all talking about how we can't take ten steps without falling down and how we need at home help lol #<3 #anyway i still need help (can't cook and i need to be very careful about what i eat) #(and also if i stay alone with my thoughts for more than five minutes i'll start behaving like a rabid dog) #but i feel better so yay :) hopefully i'll keep improving #and be well enough by the time i get back to work on tuesday 😬 #rain.stuff

[syunkiss]

I fucking hate stairs I fucking hate fucking stairs it doesnt matter if they have like 2 steps I hate stairs I hate making so much effort with my legs when I can't even stand up or walk properly and I won't get fucking help I hate stairs I hate my legs I hate everything I hate everyone

#How can someone look at a boy who cant handle walking for 6 minutes without falling and who can't walk properly without using walls #or even someone for support and think “oh hes fine!” #I HATE MY LIFE I HATE IT I HATE #🍷.txt

[thenightisland]

for rote folks: usual saturday update will likely be later on account of me having the plague and therefore being too dead to even do basic line edits and i'll be damned if that last chapter goes up riddled with typos

#this has been a useless text post you may now resume your normal programming #when will it come? when i can walk across my house without feeling like i'm gonna fall over #when i can do more than lie on the couch with bcs playing in the background for hours and hours #my mother the lone remaining hospital worker in our family is patient zero we're all sick