#i am still dying

[ichiigotsukii]

I was playing Splatoon the other day with @bottleofbabes, and @feraecor look! I found my doppelganger!

#Outofberries #feraecor #Cracked berries #I am still dying

[forgiveness-in-the-misery]

I will say the movie made me ship Murderface and Nathan legitimately. Like before it was a crack ship I didn’t know what to do with but now I’m like there is so fucking much potential.

#metalocalypse #metalocalypse spoilers #army of the doomstar spoilers #i am still dying

[earlfeytea]

I may not have done a big piece each month (looking at you August) but am pretty happy I managed something! 

Looking forward to trying to do more next year and push to do more exciting pieces.

#My art #cj's art #Earl Fey Tea #EarlFeyTea #art summery 2022 #i am still dying

[that-bloody-linguist]

#IT'S SMEAR FRAME TIME #smear frames #i am still dying #disney

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.'' #bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less. #and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help. #we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

[pigeon-princess]

A few locations in Barovia Valley that our party has seen so far

#dnd #dungeons and dragons #curse of strahd #cos #strahd #dnd art #Barovia #Barovia Valley #Vallaki #my art #ravenloft #Barovia Village #pigeon princess #dungeons and dragons art #hey I love drawing backgrounds now #I have SUCH vivid memories about each and everyone one of these locations #unknowingly watching Viktor commit horrible crimes in the burgomasters attic #Luci dying in argynvostholt.... benoit seeing his own head on display..... #Silas and viktor absolutely ripping into Luci post-dinner in the carriage #Berez..... I am still traumatised by you.... #babes in the woods #silas shaw #silas

[yenvengerberg]

how many of you have ever felt personally victimized by tumblr polls

#polls #I STILL HAVEN'T GOT IT I'M SO MAD #the one update i am dying for and i'm still waiting!!!! #dear diary it's been 83 years #channeling my rage into making memes pls send help #*edits #1k

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 139

So. Dan has somehow found a small child. A practically newly born ghostling who had literally fallen right on top of him. A ghostling who had practically formed right above him, far away from nurseries and instead above him of all ghosts? 

Him, the Sunkiller? The Worldeater? Jordan Vladimir FentonNightingale-Foley-Manson? Son of Space and War? Bringer of the End?? Seriously, what the hell! Ghostlings shouldn’t even be able to form within other ghost’s Lairs, and he knew for a fact this wasn’t his own ghostling seeing as he wasn’t interested in such things. 

So here Dan is, feeling more confused than he ever has with a newborn ghostling clinging to him and sobbing in his arms about wanting his dad. What even is his unlife right now.

#dcxdp #dpxdc #prompts #dad dan #Phantastic Four #or at least implied lol #The moment Dan learns joker is alive he’s going to do a murder #He’s killed entire worlds before what’s a single mortal #It’s not like his parents or sister will notice a singular mortal dying- and it’s revenge for the ghostling #Dan: I am not attached to this lil shit but if anyone hurts him I will make them wish their death was permanent #Dan when Jason disappears back to the world of the living: WHERE IS MY BOI #Jason when he revives: Where is my dad- wait what dad- wait I have Two dads??? #They get reunited when Jason gets thrown into the Pits #Big Fucking Pit creature emerges from the waters with hair like the flames of the dying suns and eyes as red as blood #the whole Red Hood thing definitely goes differently with Joker dead & Dan there #Dan still refuses to admit that the now-halfa is his kid but the others want to meet their grandson/nephew #I wonder if Bruce knows that Dan is the one who killed joker or if he might’ve been there

[galoogamelady]

Here's a preview of stuff. I am not sure when I'll get the results, probably in a few months? Which is fine, I have plenty of work to catch up on. But if you wanted those standees and whatnot, keep an eye on my socials!

#I didn't order a lot of anything #only 20 pieces at max #I wanted to make a lot more things but I am kinda dying still and I was on a deadline #and I got a 100 other things to work on #there will be a review video with process footage and everything #Buttons #Meg #Val #WIP #merch

[chubbychiquita]

#this one is good too #a few more and short clip just posted on of 👍 #still not sure what the plan is but i have finally stopped actively dying and can make non-eating videos #👌👍 i am happy! 25 years old! i can rent a car now #me

[goatsandgangsters]

Nikolai Lantsov Fashion: Royalty Edition

Nikolai still hovered in the doorway. He wore full military dress, a pale blue sash across his chest. The light from the parlor glinted off his medals and gilded the edges of his golden hair. He was playing the role of the polished prince tonight. But standing there, he just looked like a lonely boy who didn’t want to return to a party by himself.

#sabedit #shadowandboneedit #shadow and bone #nikolai lantsov #grishaverse #shadowandbonecentral #shadowandbonesource #patrick gibson #nikolailantsovedit #my edits #nikolaifashion #he is a beautiful little dandy! #with all his fancy waistcoats and his cravats and his beautiful coats! #I'm glad they didn't like. ~rugged him up to suit our modern constructions of masculinity #but yes I am still dying about the pale blue number with the olive waistcoat #and how it's the same color palette as sturmhond only more muted/more buttoned up #~~symbolism

[bereaving]

OTP: Ava's smile + Beatrice

#Warrior Nun #warrior nun spoilers #warriornunedit #wnedit #wngifs #avatrice #avatriceedit #wlw #wlwedit #wlwsource #dailywomen #*mine #otp: in the next #MY DUDE #she is literally still pulling 🥰 even when she's DYING oh NO #what am i DOING TO MYSELF #1k #2k

[foreverandeveralone863]

LMAO WHAT IS THIS HELP????? VIC AND ANDREW REALLY SAID WE GONNA FEED JOHNSHI NATION THIS THANKSGIVING 😭😭😭😭😭

#mk1 #mortal kombat #johnny cage #kenshi takahashi #johnshi #johnny cage x kenshi takahashi #kenshi x johnny #andrew bowen #vic chao #I AM STILL DYING FROM LAUGHING TOO HARD #OH I LOVE THESE KINGS SO MUCH #kencage

[hellenhighwater]

How do you have the energy to have so many cool creative things on the go at once? What keeps you going?

Well, I've got the winning combo of ADHD and insomnia, so I'm usually hyperfocused on something into the wee hours.

But also....I want to? And I only kind of get a choice about it. I may sometimes neglect the dishes in the sink but it's a rare week that I'm not so taken by some idea that I won't be able to sleep until I've at least sketched it out, or priced out the materials, or done some research on it to move towards the point where I can start fabrication. And it's so rewarding. It's nice that most of what I'm making I do just for fun, so if I lose interest in something it's okay if it sits at the wayside for a while, and I only have to make the things I'm really excited about.

It's not ADHD without executive dysfunction, as I semi-regularly get tagged. It's more like my executives were supposed to be running a Fortune 500 company but instead they found the crayons and we are making the loveliest mural on the boardroom walls.

#yes i know that's not really what the term means #but still #i am not always getting the laundry done but i HAVE to paint #i am afflicted with has to make little guys disease #i dont mind that tag #but let me tell you: that dys sure is functioning.

[noxious-fennec]

A redraw of an old thing because exam season is the only time i get creative energy ig

#but no fr i just came home from 2 consecutive exams. like consecutive as in one after the other in 2 hours #next week is all finals and theyre all like 2 hours 1 in the morning and 1 in the afternoon like bro #whatevs tho medical update THE MEDS ARE WORKING alhamdulilallah i feel im getting way more energy :) #2 years on immunosuppressants and at least 3 months of corticosteroids which means no salt :( BUT we are getting thru it #im cooking again :') #ok enough my life is not what you're here for. idk if cbeeduo at the end of 2023 *is* but idc #i just rly missed them yk and the vibes and the place i was in plus i have fun drawing them so suck it #i hope my good cbee mutuals enjoy this love yall #my art #dsmp fanart #cranboo #ctubbo #cbeeduo #fashion notes for the cool peeps still reading is i am dying on the hill that cranboo was decked in a 70s aunt wardrobe argue with the wall #also tubbo cowboy cus. like. look at him. #will probably draw tommy next i rly miss him. nothing big as always im a doodle kinda guy at heart #anyway xoxo love yall still here <33 #fennec.art

[medicalunprofessional]

holy shit is that sasha. 🥺

#psychonauts #sasha nein #milla vodello #im going to evaporate #i cannot shake the image of sasha just cleaning in the dead of night #sasha and milla r so cute together #the brainrot hath consumed my very being! YIPES! #pls ignore oleander n soldier i think its funny that they are both fake war vets #nightmaretheater #whenever i try to describe him its always ‘wet cat’ #my head is so empty and i am not thinking straight #sorry guilty gear fans im still cooking 😢 #my phone is dying. Whooppsies!!!