#i am so inactive lol

[potatotrash0]

#i am so inactive lol #ironic considering i used to be on here 24/7 #anyway #now off to disappear for another month #em rants

[shanghaiberlin]

Arknights fanart + rkgk from last year

#arknights #明日方舟 #アークナイツ #digital art #fanart #illustration #yes i finally remember my password at longlast #sorry for a whole year of inactive lol #i still have no idea how to tag thing on this site #muelsyse #lappland #tuye #ambriel #whisperain #eunectes #does anyone even acknowledged that tuye exists ? #AMBRIEL I LOVE YOU MY TAX EVADE POOKIE #i bought the mumu figure and plushie so i am very happy now

[stressfulsloth]

Thinking about Disco Elysium and stars. Something about communal experience and simultaneous isolation, hope and idealism, fear and beauty and terror and burning. The inherent horror in the vast romantic starscape of the sky, the melancholy and loneliness inherent in the untold distance, a communal experience of something too enormous to fathom. Stars bear witness to humanity, to the millions of tiny people crawling on the face of Elysium. They watch the people, and the people watch back, and make up stories about the stars. Stars symbolise love, hope, something unreachable and unattainable.

The way that the light of the stars reaches every single being in Elysium, from human to phasmid, but no matter how far it reaches it is still a cold and distant glow, always on the verge of going out. A moral brilliance, a holy light to strive towards, something always at risk of burning out, but there's a dichotomy too. A duality between the stars as brutal unfeeling observers, moralists even, like the aerostatics flying overhead, tiny dying lights that watch impassively over every terrible thing in the world, and the flipside; stars as the burning kernels of hope, furious burning flames that parallel Harry and his golden-orange forest fire nature. Stars as the light of communism, the star-and-antlers. They're hope and dreams- a million years in the stars. Rockstars and superstars. The light of a brighter future (however short-term that future might be) coming towards them at the end of the tunnel. It makes me think of Sacred and Terrible Air and the light pollution in Vassa- ending light pollution as the world ends. "You may laugh at this, but in the evening, when the big world in the distance swells into a bloody maelstrom, families come out into the street in Vaasa and are insignificant together. Only distant explosions disturb the deep peace of the winter night, its flawless starry sky. Everyone watches, heads tilted back." The stars are a shared experience. Something that everyone watches, insignificant together, when there's nothing more that can be done. Light in the face of darkness, community in the face of inevitability. Togetherness. The stars are there in the church with the ravers. They're there watching Harry and Kim together. Insignificant together. In dark times, should the stars also go out?

#i'm collecting quotes for another thing and i just like all of these together idk #disco elysium #de rambling #my brain is so full of cotton wool rn so sorry if this is. garbled sddjjdsk #long post #i am really sorry for the incessant longposts #sacred and terrible air spoilers #pjõl spoilers #i guess? also very much oversimplifying there #i just. idk. i have feelings about that bit #it's the team ibex translation btw #stars manage to encapsulate both moralism and communism lol- inaction+distant observation versus fire and passion and feeling

[bylrndgm]

hellfire t-shirt mike, you'll always be famous (the campaign)

to the death.

#byler #mike wheeler #byler edit #byler gifs #mine #mine:gif #last part of hellfire mike #this series came to me after someone said that we needed more hellfire mike gifs. the feedbacks have been amazing i was so overwhelmed #now i'll be off thinking something special for mike's birthday in 5 days lol let's see #literally editing this on my balcony lol #i think i'll be inactive for some days because of classes + final exam #i have a post i am really proud of scheduled in two days and the gifset after that i'll put out will be for mike's bday at this point

[aioliravioli-69]

Detective Noir AU

Alright, this au has been sitting around, waiting for me to finish it but chances are, I never will :((

So instead, I'll just post what I have so far

This was inspired by that one comment on the au post the author made(at this point you could consider me a stalker for the amount of hours I've scrolled through her feed💀)

First things first, none other than our main character himself, Detective Hollow!

I made him the detective in this one mainly because I was basing it off of the theory that if there was no heroine the keyholder would simply become the hero instead(don't remember where I read this but I'm guessing it was the webtoon comment section).

I also my have just really wanted to draw him in an overcoat

gonna be honest, I did little to no research going into this AU, the thing I most tried to learn about was the femme fatale so I could get a good view on how to design Buddy

Speaking of the femme fatale:

Seems like someone got caught in the spotlight!

And before you ask, yes, those are pants. Weird ones, but pants nonetheless. I swear, I hate lighting when it's from the front. Frontal lighting can go fuck itself. Please ignore the little help lines I put in

Honestly, Buddy's outfit was probably the hardest part of this one. I wanted him to look slutty, but I didn't want to make it TOO slutty, but I feel like I may have added WAYY too many folds in his pantsuit and I kinda messed up on the overcoat lol. The diamond on his chest was inspired by the diamond on the villainess key more than anything and I tried to incorporate that into his gloves too.

Anyway, have some potential outfit sketches I made:

the two I thought might come off as too slutty and

the ultimate winner of the outfit ideas

As you can see the diamond chest window and fur coat were a mut in this outfit and I'm pretty happy with the end result

Y'all know how the femme fatale usually has to seduce the main character a.k.a. the detective?

Well, y'all know me so have an extra just for you <33

But I'm not done just yet!

Remember how I said that I made Chase the hero because of the lack of a heroine in the story? Well...

I did some more surface level research(and I mean very surface level) and decided to adapt the trope of the girl-next-door archetype for him!!

Don't think it suits him, since they usually just sit pretty and wait for the detective to notice them, but they do have badass roles once in a while and I live for those!!!

The one Chase has taken on doesn't though sadly :')

I decided to go with Charlie Hollow for this one because it sounded more like something the timid and 'pure'(yuck I know, but sadly film noir movies often prop up comparisons between the femme fatale and the girl-next-door, this being one of them) girl next door would have

Overall I tried to make this one as cutesy as possible because, why not lol

Lastly(I apologise, I made this in a rush because I was running out of motivation)

The distance between Buddy and the detective sure did close QUICK-

Originally I was planning on adding Deacon as a police officer and now that I think about it I could technically fit Prunella in here as well, but I just don't have any willpower left to keep this thing alive

My art blocks been acting up recently and I can't even pick up the pencil without immediately wanting to put it down :((

I wish I could have continued this and maybe I will someday, but until then this'll just stay in my drafts

#cinderella boy #cinderella boy webtoon #buddy #chase hollow #detective noir au #I tried out a new shading style #I can't personally judge how it turned out #what do y'all think #I feel so tired rn #French - the bane of my existence and yet the love of my life #I FORGOT TO WATERMARK NOOOO #Eh who cares #hope y'all enjoy #I know this is a long ass post #sit down for it will you? #it's worth your time I swear #plss #I've been so inactive lately lol #I can't promise anything I'm sorry DD: #I am working on a fic and on some art for said fic #but I'm not sure how much progress I can make with school hounding my back #hope y'alls thirst for fan content was quenched even if just for a bit :)

[remnri]

xiao birthday yippee!

#tw food #I'M LATE #noo xiao don't sit on the condensating cream puff lol #i took too long to take the picture and it was hot today and the cream puff started melting rip #his birthday letter this year is so !!!!! i am goig to eat him #i swear i have art to post it's just not ready yet oughhh sorry for inactivity

[secretmellowblog]

So much internet analysis of media feels like……. if people were trying to criticize Chick-Fil-A, but refused to talk about anything other than the quality of the sandwiches. All that mattered was whether the product was good. So people just debated endlessly over whether the products were Good or not, and no one discussed how Chick-Fil-A donated to conservative homophobic hate groups.

“Is this Disney product Good and does it have good gay representation?” Does Disney still donate to homophobic republican politicans!!!??? Do they still actively censor any queer content during production, cancelling gay projects and actively forcing their writers to cut gay content, to the point where every sad scrap that makes it onscreen is a miracle? Can you meaningfully make any statements about “gay rep at Disney” without bringing in that larger context?

It’s not a perfect analogy— because art shouldn’t be a product, and a movie is theoretically trying to Say something in a way that a sandwich is not. But Idk I feel like the reason we fixate so much on media analysis is because it is Fun. It is fun to talk about lord of the rings and the owl house and Steven universe. It is not fun to talk about the horror and exploitation that is baked into the “entertainment industry;” it’s not fun to research and analyze the systems that created the horrifically expensive movies you love.

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately because amazon is releasing the most expensive tv series ever made, a spin-off series based on lord of the rings. I have no interest in watching it despite my lifelong love of lotr but the thing is—

I have no doubt the series will be good! It will be fine. Lots of money has been thrown into it, and I have enough friends in the entertainment industry to know that on every massive corporate product there are hundreds of writers and artists sincerely trying their best to create good meaningful art. The Amazon series will be Fine. It will be good.

But my question is: Does it being good actually matter? Does it matter if a chick-Fil-a sandwich is good? Does it matter if this vile evil horrible media monopoly run by a villainous CEO that works its employees to death creates a good product?

I feel like I’m going crazy when most of the criticism of Amazon’s lotr is conservatives and people who act like conservatives ranting on about how “I can’t believe they gave Blorbo GenericElf a personality! That’s so out of character—he didn’t have a personality in the book! Tolkien, our lord and savior who we must worship as an authority, would be infuriated (because we still are bound to submit to this dead guy’s opinion apparently!) Everything would be better if everything stayed exactly as it was in the past, in the Sacred Original Canon. Any attempt to transform Tolkien’s work is morally reprehensible and a sign of the fall of the civilization.”

Sometimes I just want to shake those people and say “PEOPLE ARE DYING! people are dying in Amazon warehouses, and you’re treating your petty fandom opinion about blorbo genericelf’s personality as if it has this laughably enormous moral weight.”

I know that’s unkind, and that people can care about more than one thing; but I don’t know. I used to have this really naive idea that adaptations were a conversation with the original work, and every reinterpretation was a beautiful addition of meaning. I still believe that on some level. I think every author should be free to reinterpret stories however they want, should be able to argue with the original author and set their work on fire if they need to. there’s a lot about Tolkien’s work specifically that deserves to be disrespected, like his vicious racism and sexism. I LOVE transformative work—especially transformative work that meaningfully argues with the original author.

But like….you really can’t talk about these big media franchises without talking about the systems that created them.

Yes, people can sometimes create great beautiful sincere emotional art within these exploitative systems! I love the original lotr films and books. The new Amazon series is so expensive that it will be perfectly Fine.

But creating good art doesn’t change the fact that these giant media monopolies do so much real, constant, tangible harm. Warner Brothers caused massive harm to New Zealand while making the lotr/hobbit films, essentially strong arming the country’s government into changing their film industry laws to benefit massive foreign corporations. And Amazon is a vicious violent exploitative mega monopoly that is literally overworking its underpaid employees until it kills them.

It’s hard because I believe that good art can be very meaningful to people, and that media analysis can be important and valuable.

Its just that— not to swing a bat at a hornet’s nest— sometimes I wish people would stop hyperbolizing about how [petty fandom opinion] will cause lasting harm to the world, while not engaging with the things about the media property that are causing immediate tangible physical objective harm.

#idk if this is coherent but yee #;-;;;; #anyway thank you for reading! i know I haven’t been active here lately #i just wanted to throw this out there before anyone asked me about rings of power #I’ve just become so disillusioned by the entertainment industry and the active tangible harm these giant franchises cause #that I just . don’t #XD #like it’s probably good! it’s probably a good fine show #and lots of marvel movies are good! #and I found meaning in the original lotr trilogy #but I don’t know #i kinda just. am disgusted with the way these mega franchises work #and the way the entertainment industry works #it’s the ‘art school student with entertainment industry friends’ life lol #but yee #anyway I’ve been inactive here but I’m back to be sad about stuff again XD

[faygelehh]

Is my birfday (:

#sorry for being so inactive i was sick and in and out of the hospital for a week straight and doctors couldnt figure out what was wrong #and then after a full week of dying i woke up one day perfectly fine. #but then had to catch up on a week of work. so. lol #is my birfday im 21 and im going bar hopping later . i am very excited #alchohol tw #ask to tag?

[icewindandboringhorror]

.. mysterious visitor... polite door to door salesmane of acorns 

#i think squirrels are cute kind of but also they just come and knock over all of my plants lol #George also never does anything he just sits and stares at them and the squirrels are never scared of him at all lol #cats #I DO have tons of pictures and other things like that to post and costumes and etc. etc. I've just been so busy #with weird stuff and appointments and etc. #THEN STILLWORKING on the evil extemely long worldbuilding sildeshow #between that and trying to keep vaguely consistent uploads on my games youtube it seems like all I do is edit various video recetnyl lol #hopefuly I can finish the wolrdhilding videos pretty soon and then 95% of my already meager free time will not be spent in windows movie mak #er (yes i still edit videos in windows movie maker lol.. i tried a few alternatives and i don't like the layouts of the #m... -_-). Mixcraft is a decent alternative to GarageBand with a very similar layout and the way it works and etc. #but I got used to iMovie in my high school computer classes and then had windows movie maker at home and now #I can't ever find anotther one thats a similar layout/style/similar features but isn't expensive lol #ANYWAY... #I am...... working on things......... just very absent form internet as usual #which in turn makes working on things futile because by the time i get anything done nobody cares since I've been inactive for #6 months or whatever and maintaining digital profiles is the number one like pivotal thing to being a sucessful artist or whatveer #in the modern day but hhhhhhhhhhh

[bebewrites]

the night veil pinterest aesthetics - everly

taglist (let me know if you'd like to be added or removed!): @aninkwellofnectar @stand-inthe-rain @pinespittinink @lyssthewriter @pen-of-roses @septemberliterature @eluari @starry-sky-stuff @achilleid @houndmouthed @mr-writes @laufire-writes @thebluesthourcommunity @flowerprose

#i am desperately trying to get back to writing #so have these aesthetics i guess lol #might do these for all my kids #wip:tnv #tnv characters #ch: everly penvellyn #also also my taglist is super outdated #most of the people on it are inactive #so lmk if you want to be added or removed!

[slicznymartwy]

!!! i can’t believe all the requests i got recently ^ ^ i’ve got plans for all of them, but i won’t be able to write until tonight at the earliest .. pls don’t think i’m ignoring anyone’s asks 🫶🏻🫶🏻❤️💌

#work is killing me tbh #it’s not being very consistent right now which is fucking with me insanely #but i think things are going to even out next week #i’m still thinking about my lil freak #i actually wrote something (!! shock) but it’s just between reader and the sorority girls so i didn’t think anyone would be interested lol #but once i add some billy to it i’ll post it hehe #and then the requests too #Basically i am making plans in the background sorry for being inactive T T #del.txt

[melancholyfleurs]

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#if u see me being inactive dw I will be back ! #my dad is really sick rn this is such a weird time in my life I’m like this rn 😵‍💫 #he wasn’t a very nice man to me ever either but yet I feel so much sympathy for him I’m so foolish tbh lol #he legit has no one else bc hes been so mean his whole life ! #my 24th birthday hasn’t even passed yet why am I the one having to leave work to talk to his doctors and make choices like #I’m just a girl pls and I’m very stressed and sad #and I have to get all gowned up in PPE because of his illness it’s so jarring I hate it it makes my skin crawl #not wearing perfume this time last time I saw him on a ventilator it ruined my favourite perfume from trauma association &/$: #ramblings

[yeyayeya]

I have lost the inspiration of writing the Scárthur fic I’ve been trying to write for the last 2 weeks. Now watch me try to write the 30 day prompts and lose inspiration for that and go back and forth between them

Writing is so fun :)

#yeyarants #sorry i’ve been inactive #whoops #I actually did not realize it was that long lol #probably longer #I’ve also been on a reading spree so… #whoops again #I CANT WRITE FUCK #I hate myself #wtf #I’m so mentally tired of writing that fic #I’ve been trying to edit it myself #I’m trying #ugh #writing is the best #also because of that I’ve gotten the idea of writing a TGCF fic #am I gonna finish it? #of course not #but I’m going to write a bit and have it be left in my drafts #it’s a tgcf idol au #I have so many notes wtf I can’t stop myself from thinking about it #I might post about it if anyone is interested but idk #update I guess

[tj-crochets]

I keep forgetting to ask, but do y'all have any recommendations for B12 supplements that are like liquigels (or whatever those are called) instead of tablets? I'm allergic to at least one of the inactive ingredients in the B12 supplements I've tried, but I have never yet had a reaction to inactive ingredients of liquigels (capsules? what are those called?) At this point, I am not looking for any particular dosage of B12; my doctor just wants me to try it to see if it helps with severe muscle cramps. Once I see if it works, she's going to do more bloodwork and determine which dosage I should be taking (I have had other bloodwork to rule out other possible causes, and at this moment B12 is the only thing I'm testing low on)

#ask away! #medical mention #I've narrowed down a list of four inactive ingredients #of which I am allergic to at least one #however: that list is from one of my other meds #because I can only take it from one manufacturer and not the other #and there are only four ingredients in the one I can't take that aren't also in the one I can #that does not mean that I am not allergic to OTHER inactive ingredients #the level of muscle cramps I am having is apparently odd to have without low potassium or magnesium #which is...great lol #but also I have electrolyte supplements and do take them regularly #but apparently 'can see that muscle cramp from across the room' and 'leg cramped so bad it buckled and I almost fell down stairs' #are the points where doctors start getting a little creative #and going hm...maybe B12?

[killuaisaprincess]

I got curious how active my tumblr followers are so I started clicking on blogs to see if they’re still active and the amount of people at the bottom of my list that it’s been two years made me have a crisis

Where did the time goooo

#personal #I have more followers on tumblr but am slightly more popular on twitter and I think I know why now #Half my followers here are probs dead and tbh 98% of people didn’t even interact with my stuff in the first place but still #my life is gonna flash before my eyes #I NEED MORE YEARS WITH MY PRINCESS KI #HUGS MY KI PLUSHIE CLOSE #I always imagine this is the case for everything #YouTubers ect ect but ITS LIKE LIFE FLASHING BEFORE EYES #also me when I stare at my user subs on ao3 like #EVERYONE SHY I don’t see any of these 90 people not even in kudos lol but like half are probs inactive #maybe? I feel maybe less so as you get an email for every fic subbing to the user #unless they were using an email they didn’t care about lol #I like tumblr moreee so it’s always been a huge bummmmer twitter has more active people #I LIKE TO TALK IN THE TAGS ABOUT MY BABEY #I could buy premium? Actually I did once cuz I wanted to edit a post like BUT the format doesn’t work as welll wahhhhhh