#but I don’t know

[secretmellowblog]

So much internet analysis of media feels like……. if people were trying to criticize Chick-Fil-A, but refused to talk about anything other than the quality of the sandwiches. All that mattered was whether the product was good. So people just debated endlessly over whether the products were Good or not, and no one discussed how Chick-Fil-A donated to conservative homophobic hate groups.

“Is this Disney product Good and does it have good gay representation?” Does Disney still donate to homophobic republican politicans!!!??? Do they still actively censor any queer content during production, cancelling gay projects and actively forcing their writers to cut gay content, to the point where every sad scrap that makes it onscreen is a miracle? Can you meaningfully make any statements about “gay rep at Disney” without bringing in that larger context?

It’s not a perfect analogy— because art shouldn’t be a product, and a movie is theoretically trying to Say something in a way that a sandwich is not. But Idk I feel like the reason we fixate so much on media analysis is because it is Fun. It is fun to talk about lord of the rings and the owl house and Steven universe. It is not fun to talk about the horror and exploitation that is baked into the “entertainment industry;” it’s not fun to research and analyze the systems that created the horrifically expensive movies you love.

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately because amazon is releasing the most expensive tv series ever made, a spin-off series based on lord of the rings. I have no interest in watching it despite my lifelong love of lotr but the thing is—

I have no doubt the series will be good! It will be fine. Lots of money has been thrown into it, and I have enough friends in the entertainment industry to know that on every massive corporate product there are hundreds of writers and artists sincerely trying their best to create good meaningful art. The Amazon series will be Fine. It will be good.

But my question is: Does it being good actually matter? Does it matter if a chick-Fil-a sandwich is good? Does it matter if this vile evil horrible media monopoly run by a villainous CEO that works its employees to death creates a good product?

I feel like I’m going crazy when most of the criticism of Amazon’s lotr is conservatives and people who act like conservatives ranting on about how “I can’t believe they gave Blorbo GenericElf a personality! That’s so out of character—he didn’t have a personality in the book! Tolkien, our lord and savior who we must worship as an authority, would be infuriated (because we still are bound to submit to this dead guy’s opinion apparently!) Everything would be better if everything stayed exactly as it was in the past, in the Sacred Original Canon. Any attempt to transform Tolkien’s work is morally reprehensible and a sign of the fall of the civilization.”

Sometimes I just want to shake those people and say “PEOPLE ARE DYING! people are dying in Amazon warehouses, and you’re treating your petty fandom opinion about blorbo genericelf’s personality as if it has this laughably enormous moral weight.”

I know that’s unkind, and that people can care about more than one thing; but I don’t know. I used to have this really naive idea that adaptations were a conversation with the original work, and every reinterpretation was a beautiful addition of meaning. I still believe that on some level. I think every author should be free to reinterpret stories however they want, should be able to argue with the original author and set their work on fire if they need to. there’s a lot about Tolkien’s work specifically that deserves to be disrespected, like his vicious racism and sexism. I LOVE transformative work—especially transformative work that meaningfully argues with the original author.

But like….you really can’t talk about these big media franchises without talking about the systems that created them.

Yes, people can sometimes create great beautiful sincere emotional art within these exploitative systems! I love the original lotr films and books. The new Amazon series is so expensive that it will be perfectly Fine.

But creating good art doesn’t change the fact that these giant media monopolies do so much real, constant, tangible harm. Warner Brothers caused massive harm to New Zealand while making the lotr/hobbit films, essentially strong arming the country’s government into changing their film industry laws to benefit massive foreign corporations. And Amazon is a vicious violent exploitative mega monopoly that is literally overworking its underpaid employees until it kills them.

It’s hard because I believe that good art can be very meaningful to people, and that media analysis can be important and valuable.

Its just that— not to swing a bat at a hornet’s nest— sometimes I wish people would stop hyperbolizing about how [petty fandom opinion] will cause lasting harm to the world, while not engaging with the things about the media property that are causing immediate tangible physical objective harm.

#idk if this is coherent but yee #;-;;;; #anyway thank you for reading! i know I haven’t been active here lately #i just wanted to throw this out there before anyone asked me about rings of power #I’ve just become so disillusioned by the entertainment industry and the active tangible harm these giant franchises cause #that I just . don’t #XD #like it’s probably good! it’s probably a good fine show #and lots of marvel movies are good! #and I found meaning in the original lotr trilogy #but I don’t know #i kinda just. am disgusted with the way these mega franchises work #and the way the entertainment industry works #it’s the ‘art school student with entertainment industry friends’ life lol #but yee #anyway I’ve been inactive here but I’m back to be sad about stuff again XD

[angesaurus]

This is what my secret santa gave me today.

#so I would think maybe it’s a prank #but it came with a few little things #none of which I asked for or were on my survey except for something vanilla scented #and pumpkin scented and I am pretty sure I specified no pumpkin on my survey #I feel like a bitch lol #but I don’t know #I will not be participating next year for sure #I put soooooo much time and effort into my person too

[vampireonastick]

I’m calling it right now that Fyodor is fine. Here’s a quick couple reasons why we aren’t done with his character yet:

1. We still don’t know his ability

If it didn’t matter enough to be known it wouldn’t have been teased so much.

2. We don’t have his backstory

This is especially relevant since he mentioned and ‘unknown’ “him” (probably Natsume) in this latest episode

3. Fyodor and Sigma made contact before Fyodor died

Fyodor won the fight against Sigma. Fyodor chose to let Sigma use his ability on him. Fyodor wouldn’t have done this if it wasn’t beneficial to him.

4. The teaser at the end of episode 11

I’ve seen people theorize that the floating person attacking Atsushi and Akutagawa is Fukuchi, and I agree with them. But the biggest thing I found sus was how similar this version of Fukuchi resembles the messed up version of Hawthorne that carried out a lot of Fyodor’s plans. So idk, maybe Fyodor is still pulling strings from the sidelines?

#I could go so much more in depth with this but this will do for now #I might make another post about ways I think Fyodor might survive this- as well as some predictions on what his ability may be #but I don’t know #for now I’d say it’s safe to say Fyodor’s gonna be just fine #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bsd season 5 spoilers

[fili-the-jester]

An underrated dynamic in my opinion is Red Son and Sun Wukong

#fili jesting #lmk sun wukong #lmk red son #lmk hong hai'er #they’ve have never interacted before in the show if I remember right #but I don’t know #I just think this duo is neat #what’s their dynamic name? #I think people call it sriracha duo? #I’m tempted to point out similarities or interesting things that could play into their dynamic

[dearreader]

i’m not going to judge ariana’s glinda based on the one line she said (especially since cynthia’s response was sarcastic so i’m guessing theres scene direction that we aren’t seeing from the clip) but… i’m still unsure she was the right glinda based on her acting abilities. singing im not worried, but i’m genuinely worried if she can handle glindas character

#i know it’s her dream role #but i don’t know #kelly babels #wicked

[gentlemanbutch]

help a guy with eds out, my SI joint is fucked (I don’t know if it subluxed or what, but everything hurts)…I’ve been stretching and using a theracane on everything that hurts. Do those back brace/belt things actually help? My entire lower body feels completely out of whack.

#also reminder that I don’t have access to health care so please don’t tell me to just go see a doctor or pt #I would love to but I literally don’t have those things #this happened back in May and eventually just got better when I had COVID I think because I just rested for nearly two weeks #but I don’t know #eds #ehlers danlos syndrome

[cryingonlyhereforhim]

Other office lady is so suspicious…

#my votes going to her being the mole #jack is also so sus #but i don’t know #I don’t think jack would be one tho #gmmtv giving me trust issues #guncher #gunlaem #thaibl #forcebook #gmmtv bl #enchanté the series #akktheo #force jiratchapong #a boss and a babe #thai boys love #book kasidet #thai bl

[parasocialdnp]

do you guys think d&p cut eachother’s hair now or do they actually have the energy to deal with strangers cutting their hair for them and potentially messing it up (answer in the tags i’m curious)

#i mean phil’s made videos of him cutting dan’s hair #and him cutting his own hair #with all those supplies you’d think they’d cut eachother’s hair #but i don’t know #dan and phil #mei rambles #like what is the point of owning all of those if ure not using it after covid

[quibbs126]

You know I think it’d be cool if we could get Legendaries based on the types of magic we know exist in Kingdom

The Legendaries we already have cover Nature Magic, so that one isn’t needed. And Dark Enchantress Cookie could easily cover Black Magic if she were to be released in Kingdom, which I don’t think is that big a stretch, though maybe having another Black Magic Legendary outside of her could be interesting too. Then there’s Moonlight, who I guess covers Crescent/Dark Moon Magic? Because she’s got her whole moon theme. But at the same time, I don’t know if it fits her? That brand of magic is always talked about in how it’s dangerous and can potentially lead to horrible consequences, but Moonlight never gave me that vibe with her magic. I don’t know, maybe she can cover it, maybe not

But anyways, so that leaves White Magic and Dessert Magic for sure, and potentially Black Magic and Crescent Moon Magic. You can still work with the former two and make them interesting I think. And also would mean maybe another healer aside from Pure Vanilla

I thought I was going to have more to say, but I don’t think I do. I couldn’t really think of potential ideas or anything. But I just think it!d be fun to get that in Kingdom

#I mean granted we might have too many Legendaries without that if we assume the old group is coming to CRK #which they likely are #but I don’t know #it’d be neat? #and a Legendary worthy concept I think #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #character idea #random stuff

[finntheehumaneater]

Six Sentence Sunday Monday

I was asleep when @hbyrde36 tagged me for this, so I’m doing it a day late (Ty for tagging me, btw!!! I love writing stuff like this, even if I always end up doing them a day later…haha…)

ANYWAYS—this is from Part Four of my fic Radio Star (be watered that if you click in the link, parts of it contain brief mentions of self-harm, and implied traumatic events that I’m slowly revealing throughout the story):

“What’s—who are you?” Steve managed to choke out around another strangled sob. He tried to put his hands to his face, but realized that the person was holding them.

“Eddie. Remember me? From Windsor’s?” Where the fuck was that? Steve nodded just to give the guys words some kind of reaction.

“Your hands are cold,” He whispered, and when Eddie made to pull away, he held on a bit tighter. He felt selfish for taking up this person’s time like this—for making him worry—but he couldn’t find it in himself to care at this point.

⭐️NO PRESSURE TAGS⭐️: @itsthestrangestthings @estrellami-1 @paperbackribs (and anyone else who sees this and wants to do this? Consider yourself tagged! But be sure to tag me in the post you make so I can read your lovely writing <3)

#Pretty sure that’s more than six sentences #But I don’t know #i just picked the last little blurb #Also I have nothing done for this part yet 😭 #I’m so sorry I’m making you guys wait but I have been feeling so tired all the time even though I’m getting sleep and I’m just suffering rn #BUT IT WILL BE OUT SOON I PROMISE #tag games #radio star by finn #ALSO #I NEVER GAVE THE COFFEE SHOP A NAME BUT IT HAS A NAME NOW

[spyderschaos]

I’ve decided on a name for my spidersona

She’s called Amber Alvarez‼️ now I gotta think of a name for her spider name

#I had thought of just keeping golden-silk spider #but I don’t know #I think maybe just golden-spider #and I take out silk #y must names #I rlly don’t know #if anyone has any ideas they are very very welcome #o and I chose amber cuz like two ppl suggested it and tbh I think it fits #just like imagine it said in Spanish ig #and I chose Alvarez cuz double a 🗣️ #spyder’s chaos #spidersona #spiderverse #golden-spider #or #golden silk spider

[skyward-floored]

succumb to the temptation and watch fullmetal alchemist—join us join us join us JOIN US-

Hhhhhhhh I don’t knowwwww

#I don’t really know if I want to commit to a tv show rn #but #I’m tempted #but I don’t know #answers from the floor #lassie my beloved

[charlieswanismydad]

i did it. please keep her in memory 😭😭

#also my new pfp is made from a sticker on picsart #and it said free to edit #but i don’t know #it’s scary #if this is stolen PLEASE TELL ME #I DONT WANT TO COMMIT THEFT #I WILL CHANGE MY PFP IF ITS STOLEN #HAPPILY

[lyricreed]

There’s a snake in my gut. It’s made of paper and ink and feelings and bundles of nerves. It hisses and writhes and speaks to me in a language only I understand, and it’s always speaking. It screams so loud and only I can hear it.

It presses its scales against the flesh of my stomach, straining against my bones so hard it aches. It bites at my ribcage, sinking its fangs into bone as if it has any venom to shoot in; but the venom comes from me, not it.

The snake in my gut doesn’t want to be there any more than I want it to.

Sometimes, most of the time, it slithers up through my body. It presses on through my intestines, competing for my attention. It hisses and bites as it squeezes through my lungs, making it impossible to breathe as it passes through. It brushes past my beating heart and hisses. It shoves past the frog in my throat, finally stealing away my ability to speak like a normal person. It pokes its head out of my mouth, as if following my tongue’s trail into the world.

When I feel the pressure of its skull pushing through, trying to escape, hissing out into the world as if calling for help—because if I won’t tell anyone it’s here, then it will do it for me—I bite down. It hisses and cries. My teeth grind into its papery skin, threatening to pop through its flesh. It has such thin skin. Just when my molars almost break through it, it retreats.

Nobody but me could understand it, anyway. It slips back through my body and coils in my abdomen.

The worst part of having a snake in your gut is that it isn’t always in your gut. It slimes its way through you, and when it finally realizes nobody outside can help it, that only you truly know it, it wraps its slick body around your brain. It squeezes so hard it hurts, sending aches of pain throughout your entire being and demanding you pay it mind.

“Why won’t you listen?” it screams as it holds my mind hostage, tears slipping through it’s unlidded eyes. “You’ll die. You’ll die.”

“I KNOW.” I screamed back, reaching inside my throat and tearing the wretched serpent out in a fit of rage and fear. “I KNOW.”

I make eye contact with the snake, my hands tight enough around its thick, bloody body to break it. I blink the tears away. It doesn’t. It opens its mouth, stained with my blood, and cries. It sounds like a child.

It sounds like me.

I cry with the snake, my grip loosening, screaming with blood in my mouth and tears leaking from my heart.

“You’ll die.” it hisses weakly, shrinking away from the light of the world and nudging the open wound in my chest, yearning for the darkness of the cave inside of me.

“I know, I know, I know,” I whisper, sobbing, sobbing. “I know and I’m scared.”

The snake squirms back in through the gaping canyon in my chest, blood trickling out, settling back in my stomach. It tries to rest. It fails and I place a shaking hand on my skin to calm it. To calm myself.

But I will try to live.

#creative writing #writing #original poem #is this a poem? #I don’t know #But I needed to write this anyway #There’s a snake in my gut #literature #I guess #I might make this a comic #I want to draw this out #but i don’t know #maybe

[hyper-fixated-delusions]

I love flirting. Like I genuinely love to flirt lol it’s so fun!! (and I only do it harmlessly. I don’t mess with people’s feelings!) But I cannot for the life of me tell when someone is flirting with me!! Like you literally need to spell it out!! I am a dumbass. Truly. Head empty, no thoughts!! If you like me, you need to tell me!! I will not know otherwise!!

#I think (THINK) a girl was flirting with me on Tuesday #but I don’t know #like I’m dumb!! #also she might not have been but someone said she was #so I don’t know #I’m just crazy and delusional #just ranting here lmao

[queerbuckleys]

what if i just ….disappeared.

#i won’t cause i’m incapable off leaving this site for five minutes #but I don’t know #aj vents #i’m tired of fighting to be seen and understood #tired of things that used to bring me joy feeling like a requirement #just. tired.