yall wanna know how fucked up my anxiety is about some shit
i scroll past a post that's about a topic i don't like. whatever, it's fine. i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't care about. that's normal.
i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't like or care about but the person presenting it is a person of color? i IMMEDIATELY feel immensely guilty and need to "compensate" by "proving" it wasn't because of race by also skipping other random posts, JUST IN CASE someone thinks I'm racist because I didn't want to watch a video on a topic I didn't like or care about, that happened to be presented by a person of color.
this just in on: the police in my brain are loud and i'm scared of them
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This generation has conditioned peer pressure as far as getting a partner is concerned. I am perfectly happy at home, doing my own things, working and studying and enjoying my own company. Reading and writing and creating and watching. Then I go out and interact with other people and start feeling the lack of a significant other.
Its weird man.
And completely ridiculous.
*rolls her eyes*
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anyways now that i can’t work for the next at least week if anyone wants to v*nmo me that would be great :))) obviously no like. pressure there are a lot of ppl who need money much more than i do but this job is the thing making me able to pay 4 college lol I’m @/mckitmick on ye old v*nmo and if you have another app u use and want to send me some $ dm me for the user
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sometimes being neurodivergent is the absolute bane of my existence. there’s so many times where I don’t think before I speak to people and it’s HORRENDOUS, because I’m left afterwards wondering if I’ve said the socially acceptable thing or screwed everything up. We slay & survive in this household!
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I know this is supposed to be a stressful thing, but hearing everyone talk about dying from finals makes me a bit nostalgic and even jealous? I just miss university times so goddamn much.
It was really good to spend half of the day listening to the teachers talk about stuff I found interesting, and have to discipline myself to read/write to certain deadlines. (And to have much more free time..) Adult life with full time job just isn't the same. Every day is like another and new information isn't flowing as much but self-studying is less fun without a teacher and the whole class interested in the same topic. I even miss homeworks that I was putting more effort into than any sane person would! Much older and much more experienced people regularly praising my effort and depth of my thought was a crucial validation resource to think of it :')
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