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afoolnottoloveu · 3 years

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moonlight ♡

Summary: Spencer wants to go to sleep, but Reader doesn’t wanna break tradition (WC: 1.6k) {Masterlist <3}

Pairing: Spencer Reid x (intended she/her but technically gender neutral)!Reader (could be read as platonic or romantic!!)

TW: none!

A/N: i was supposed to post this on the 29th.. we dont talk about it its okay its fine everythings all good, I ALMOST FORGOT thank you to gracie for beta reading this!! she’s the first one on the taglist at the end if you wanna check out her amazing work as well mwah, n e ways enjoy :0

Playlist Pairing: it’s not a singular song this time, listen to the inspo playlist here! 🌘

You rushed up the stairs, praying to some deity that you would catch him before he sent himself to bed or was too immersed in some book to answer the door. JJ had called you 7 hours ago, so it wasn’t surprising that you somehow didn’t notice the time passing, plus the fact you had to get gas for your little trip.

Rapping at the door insistently, you were delightfully startled when Spencer opened the door only a few moments later. He was still in his work slacks and button up but tie-less. A quick glance behind him and you could see he had been making himself tea, and the satchel by his feet couldn’t have been dropped more than 10 minutes ago.

“Peanut?”

You were too elated that you had caught him to respond, instead opting to attach yourself to his torso. “You’re back! Oh my gosh, I was so worried you wouldn’t make it back in time, but luckily JJ called me that you were getting back today, but that was over like 7 hours ago, and then I got worried I wouldn’t make it here before you went to bed--” you rambled, but Spencer quickly brought you back down to Earth by removing you from his torso.

“Y/N! What’re you doing here?”

“We’re going on a drive, duh!” you said, before grabbing his wrist and making it halfway out the door before being pulled back.

“Now? I just got home from two back-to-back cases, and it’s almost midnight.”

“Spence, we can’t break tradition now! Unless Mr. Eidetic Memory forgot what tomorrow is--” you interrupt yourself with a very exaggerated gasp, earning an eye roll from Spencer.

“Of course I know what tomorrow is but--” Knowing he would only go on and on to list reasons why he shouldn’t come with you, you used your last resort, the “puppy dog eyes.” All Spencer did was stare at you, both of you knowing fully well that he was capable of resisting, but he didn’t like to. After a whole minute of unnecessary intense staring at each other, Spencer let out a groan and turned around to walk away, which you thought meant that he was going to bed. Instead, you were pleasantly surprised when you heard him half-yell from across his apartment, “I’m just getting my keys!” You squealed excitedly, knowing what was ahead of you both that night.

Your car was small, a basic silver Toyota corolla you named Carrie. She smelled of gas and was decked out with teddy bear head pillows and keychains that you asked Spencer to buy, hanging from the rearview mirror, (but only from the cool states). You even kept a tan knitted blanket in Carrie, which Spencer was now wrapped in.

You couldn’t help but notice Spencer’s infatuation with the moon tonight, as he took a long sip from one of his two cups of hot cocoa you guys had picked up on the way.

“Is it a full moon?”

“No,” he said--not in a rude way, just quietly and quickly, like he didn’t want to take his focus away from the moon or it might disappear.

So, you let him be. He was most likely tired, and despite tomorrow, which most people would be restless for, he probably just wanted rest. You almost felt guilty, but your tradition was important to you, and you could only hope that it was important to him as well.

“Did you know the full moon is one of the most powerful symbols in astrology? It can represent one’s emotional instincts, habits and private aspects of one’s personality. It’s said that while the sun sign of someone represents their head, their moon sign represents their heart. Though, most astrologists say the moon is heavily compulsion-based. Similarly, someone’s sun sign depicts their actions, but their moon sign depicts their reactions,” he told you, still gazing, almost longingly at the moon.

“I didn’t take you for an astrology type of guy, Doctor.”

“I have knowledge in many areas, Y/N, I thought you knew this by now.” You snickered at the understatement. “If the moon smiled, she would resemble you. You leave the same impression of something beautiful, but annihilating,” he quoted.

“Plath--are you flirting with me, Doc?”

“Never, peanut.”

You rolled both your eyes and the windows of your car. Hopefully the blanket and cocoa was enough to warm him. All you wanted was to not blow out his eardrums as you turned up the music. Night Changes by One Direction was playing, and you reminisced on the fact that he originally had never heard of the band, causing your binge session, which consisted of watching their documentary and listening to all 5 of their albums straight. He told you he thought they were okay and he saw the appeal. What he didn’t tell you was that his favorite album was Midnight Memories, but if the way he was humming along to the song now was any evidence, you could’ve been a profiler.

You two listened to your playlist, made specially for the tradition, (Spencer insisted you always pick the music on these trips, since you weren’t very interested in classical piano) and besides the melodies, a comfortable silence encompassed the car for the most of the ride. As the road started to incline and your destination started getting near, you broke it.

“Can you believe-” you started, earning Spencer’s gaze from the sudden conversation, “Can you believe the audacity the calendar has, to change dates in the middle of the night, just like that, while we’re sleeping?” Spencer couldn’t help the chuckle that bubbled out from him. “Like tomorrow… You’re gonna wake up and, and you’re gonna be one year older.” When you said this, you couldn’t help but steal a look at him. He wasn’t making eye contact, just fidgeting with his fingers, but the small smile was there.

“Just like that,” you finished, as you pulled onto the edge of a hill.

When you showed up at his apartment the night you got your driver’s license, you found this spot. This was your guys’ cliff. The one you guys found on accident, when your car ran out of gas on your first night of the tradition. The same one you guys have had a handful of picnics at and late night rambles about both of your favorite things. Covered in the blanket of light that the moon so graciously provided, it was perfect, and it was both of yours.

Parked atop the hill, you turned off the car and turned to Spencer, who went back to admiring the stars. You were just about to tell him that you would be right back, but you decided he was a little busy, and so you quickly shuffled to grab the box he wasn’t aware was hiding in the trunk.

He finally noticed your disappearance when you came back with a lavender gift box in your lap and an excited smile on your face. “Oh Y/N, you know you didn’t--”

“Save it, Spence. Just open your gift,” you demanded, shoving it into his arms and the smile on your face only lingering. He rarely received real gifts, only for Christmas. You were essentially his only non work friend, and he told everyone at work that he never wanted nor needed anything.

He repeatedly blinked, yet carefully removed the lid. He first saw the small brown envelope which contained a gift card for the local coffee shop near his apartment. Underneath that and the matching lavender tissue paper, he found a tie of no other color than purple and two pairs of socks, one of colorful stripes and the other of baby tardises. (You knew nothing about Doctor Who, but he appreciated the references.) The whole time smiles adorned both your faces. The last item was a copy of The Alchemist. It was one of the main books you two had bonded over, and only a few weeks ago, someone had spilled coffee on their copy. Spencer was against buying another one, saying he could literally recite it in his head word for word if he ever wanted to again, but you stubbornly insisted that it didn’t have the same sentiment, (and of course you were right).

He took the book out the box and held it by the spine as he flitted through the pages, taking note of the annotations, your annotations. When done, he closed it and only opened the cover, finding your heartfelt message.

Dear old dear old Spence,

I know you’re probably gonna read this in .02 seconds, and probably right in front of me at that. Unless we broke tradition. But I trust that I convinced you. (It was the eyes, wasn’t it?) Regardless, I wanted to wish my very, very best friend a happy birthday. You alone are so strong for going through all that you’ve gone through, stuff that no one should have to even imagine. You are one of the strongest people I know. You need to know that I’m proud of you, Spencer. I’m beyond grateful for you, for having such a caring, resilient, and just incredible friend as you. I hope I don’t need to remind you that I will be here for you, through anything and everything. See you in 500 years :)

Love, with all my heart, Peanut

In only a handful of seconds, he shut the cover once again, and the happiness (and slight gleam) in his eyes became painstakingly evident. “This is your copy?” He asked, mostly rhetorically, because he knew it was. At this point, he was lightly sniffling between words. “Thank- thank you, peanut,”

“It’s no problem Doc,” you smiled and lightly punched him on the shoulder, “happy birthday, Spencer. I’m glad we didn’t break tradition.” And by the look on his face, well- you were no profiler, but you could safely assume that he was just as glad.

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loser-writings · 4 years

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Kazuichi Souda Headcanons

{@sally-wonders} (┛◉Д◉)┛彡┻━┻ I JUST SAW THE DANGANRONPA STUFF AND I AM SCREAMING! dlsfhlfhksg I dont even know where to start, so, at first I was wondering if you have any headcanons for my man Kazuichi, I love him so much! I always wondered how he would be into an actually relationship, because the inflatuation he had with Sonia was a thing, but also serving to compensate in his low self steam, even if he was an ultimate, he also has the historic of abuse and bully by their piers and all with the sharp teeth and pink hair to try and look cool and all that as well, also he would have to deal with all that happened in dispair island (what wouldnt i give to know how they dealt with that man :'3), especially acepting the fact that Sônia does not like him. Because of the whole dream girl with blonde hair and he kinda projects this idea of her instead of herself. Jqrjjgwrj sorry I babble a lot hehe

I hope you enjoy this long list of a variety of headcanons. These may not hit all of the points you were asking, but I hope this is satisfactory!

・・・・✪General Headcanons✪ ・・・・

Kazuichi is a very anxious person so he is constantly fiddling with something. Little electronics, his wrench or tools he has on hands, or his fingers. If he can’t mess with something, his anxiety goes through the roof.

He can read in English! He taught himself how to read English so he could read American comic books before they’re officially translated. He also can understand English since he watched so many English action movies. He can speak it, but it can be broken and his accent is very strong.

He can actually sew. Since he learned by watching his mom, he can fix and alter clothing. He can also sew and throw together blankets and stuffed animals. He actually owns a small sewing machine. It isn’t expensive or amazing by any means, but it can get the job done.

He spends a large chunk of his money on keeping up with his hair and keeping his contacts in check. His hair grows extremely fast so his roots show, and he has a horrible habit of sleeping in his contacts since he can’t stand his glasses.

When you catch him off guard, he just lies about what he is doing. He doesn’t mean to, but it is just a natural reaction since his dad would get mad at him no matter what his answer was. Because of this, you have to give him a moment to calm down and go through the 3 different answers he has before he can actually say what’s going on. This also happens if he is on his computer or his phone. He naturally hides the screen, even if he is just looking at car parts or how to fix a certain thing.

He can be a bit perverted and oblivious to somebody's flaws if he finds himself becoming attracted to them. Despite this, he is honestly quite the sweetheart and would have a heart attack if somebody were to return his feelings.

He has pretty bad trust issues and this can cause tension between him and others. This also causes him to believe things that aren’t always true based off of his distrust alone.

He doesn’t actually like his appearance, even after he changed it. He originally changed it to keep away bullies and get the attention of women, but when he looks in the mirror, he doesn’t exactly like it. He didn’t mind his black hair or his normal eye color, he just hated his glasses.

Will flinch if someone raises their hand at him because of his fathers past abuse. He can’t help but flinch, and this is horrible with men who are taller than him. Safe to say that Gundhams mannerisms and weird poses aren't appreciated.

・・・・✪Relationship Headcanons✪ ・・・・

As stated before if someone were to return his feelings, he would be so lost on what to do. He never had anybody treat him with much kindness and the fact that someone he admires likes him back is just mind boggling to him.

I headcanon him personally to be Bisexual. He may have a physical lea for women, but he does find himself genuinely attracted to men as well (@Hajime) I think the big thing that decides if he likes you or not is if he thinks he can trust you.

Due to the past abuse and issues regarding friends and classmates, he would need constant reassurance. He will have sudden doubts and will become extremely anxious at the idea of you leaving him for a variety of reasons. He will ask if you want him to change his appearance or something about his personality, and it never fails that he is shocked if you say you love how he is.

He can sometimes get lost in his childlike fantasies. He will change his personality at times and make himself believe things that aren’t true. The best thing to do when this happens is to just give him a quick kiss on the cheek and remind him that you are you, and not some fantasy. He will apologize and snap out of it (For the most part)

He isn’t the best at initiating things. He would do better with someone who is more willing to make the first move. Be the one to grab his hand to hold it, Open your arms so he can snuggle against your chest, Cup his cheeks to pull him into a sweet kiss, Open the door for him and press your hand against his lower back in public areas so he feels more calm. He really would appreciate it.

Some of his favorite dates are the ones that result in tons of affection. Building blanket forts before having an action movie marathon is his favorite thing. It always results in the two of you tangled impossibly close to each other. If he is the one being held, having you play with the messily chopped locks instantly has him weak. He will rest against your chest while watching the movies, looking up to steal kisses and nip at your exposed skin in an attempt to steal your attention away from the screen. If he is the one holding you, your hair will be played with and expect him to caress your body a lot. If he gets distracted from the movie, he will let his eyes and hands wonder. It’s not in a perverse way, but more curious.

He actually studies how your body moves and how you feel. He is the kind of guy who is very interested in seeing how your “Parts” move and how things work. It’s not perverted (Usually) but instead it’s very sweet in an unusual way. He will find out unusual things he loves about you by watching how you move. Like how you stretch to reach things on a tall shelf, or how your body curls up into itself when your cold. Just how you move and your body language is something that always has Kazuichi staring.

If he can’t be with you physically, expect many phone calls and video calls. He calls you every time he misses your voice or feels himself starting to get anxious. The most common phone calls become the ones that happen before bed. Kazuichi gets extremely anxious when he is alone or at his house with his dad. Because of this, it becomes a routine where he calls you before bed and falls asleep on the phone with you. If you love to sing, sing and play instruments on the phone to soothe him. If you like to read, read to him until you hear his soft snores on the other line. If you like to ramble, ramble to him as he hums along til he is asleep.

Also don’t hang up. Seriously, he will hang up in the morning. If he has a nightmare, or something happens, he finds comfort knowing that you are right there when he needs you most.

He doesn’t mind chasing after you, but please let him have something so he knows that all of the chasing is worth it. This is the man you go to if you want somebody to control. He just wants your love and attention, even if you are just using him. If he falls for you during the killing game, he won’t hesitate to kill for you.

・・・・✪NSFW Headcanons✪ ・・・・

Aged 18+ and Kink discussion below this post

Souda loves to leave hickeys and love bites. He thinks they’re so sexy and attractive, and will leave them all over you if you let him. He also ADORES having you mark all over him and will whine if you tease him by pulling away before a mark can be made. If you really want to make him feel loved, make heart shaped hickeys all over him. He will cry because he feels so loved.

He is a switch with a more submissive lean, but he does have his more dominant moments. If he is being submissive, expect him to whine and cry about things a lot. He can be a total brat, but its so worth it when you get to hear him moan and beg for more. He may not scream, but he is quite loud.. If he is being dominant, he growls and groans a lot. He doesn’t mean to, he just gets so caught up in the moment that he doesn’t even notice the noises he makes.

He has ended up with you in his lap in his car a few times. He just can’t help it. The most memorable time was at the drive in theater. You both were in the back and it just ended up with your hands being bound by a seat belt as he sat between your legs until he couldn’t handle waiting anymore.

He CLEARLY is into body worship. He loves watching how you react as his hands sit and press themselves against your body. He will compliment absolutely everything about you, kissing your skin as much as possible, and let his hands and eyes do all of the work.

He is so into oral, both giving and receiving. He can sit between your legs pleasing you until you are shaking and can’t handle anymore. Just how you taste is so intoxicating with him, and he always is trying to get more. If you are sucking him off, he will pant and moan and whine the whole time. His hand is tangled in your hair or the sheets until he can’t take it any more and cums. If you swallow, he will be so turned on, but he also loves cumming on you

Kazuichi will hump and grind against anything. Your ass, your thighs, a pillow, clothing, the bed, anything. He has a high sex drive, so he has to take care of it often. Even when he is sleeping, he will grind against you if he is having a dirty dream. Hopefully you don’t mind, because he is actually quite embarrassed when this happens.

He has a fantasy of you waking him up with oral. He has quite a few dirty dreams, so the idea of you helping him out while he wakes up is a dream for him.

Praise kink. Seriously. Praise this man. He will CRY if you constantly praise him during sex. He was completely unaware of how much it would effect him during sex.

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fridgeful-o-help · 3 years

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thank you if you can answer my questions, hopefully all 5 parts went through, and sorry that it ended up being kind of long and rambly. i really appreciate the way you answer people and thought you'd be able to provide some good insight which is why i wanted to hear your opinions if that's okay. thanks so much again, i really do appreciate any advice, and i hope you're doing well and having a good day or night. take care for now!

HI NONNIE! I GOT ALL YOUR ASKS AND ILL DO MY BEST TO AWNSER EVERYTHING I CAN. I DO TRY MY BEST TO BE HELPFUL, AND IM GLAD YOU THINK IM GOOD AT IT.

I HOPE THIS HELPS BUT IM VERY LONG-WINDED TODAY APPERENTLY

NOW, TO BEGIN. TYPICALLY WHEN ARGUING FOR NEOPRONOUNS AGAINST THE ARGUMENT YOU HAVE BEEN PRESENTED YOU HAVE TO GO FOR MORE... WHAT THE DIFFERENCE IS BETWEEN ASKING PEOPLE TO CALL YOU A SLUR OR WITH "BLMSELF" IS THAT THOSE THINGS CAUSE ACTUAL HARM TO OTHER PEOPLE. THERES ALSO THAT THERE ISNT ANYTHING WRONG WITH PIZZASELF, IT JUST SORT OF? SOUNDS SILLY? ITS NOT HURTING ANYONE, AND THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH BEING A LITTLE SILLY IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL HAPPY AND COMFORTABLE. A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO HATE NOUNSELF ARE GOING OFF THE BASE REACTION THAT ITS SILLY/DUMB SO ID KEEP THAT IN MIND. (FYI IF YOU GO BY PIZZASELF YOURE AWESOME. YOU DONT DESERVE ANY FLACK YOU GET FOR DOING SO AND KEEP BEING YOU BECAUSE YOURE COOL! 8}) BUT YES I AGREE, MOST IF NOT ALL PEOPLE WITH THAT ARGUMENT DO NOT USE NEOPRONOUNS THEMSELVES.

PLEASE REMEMBER THOUGH THAT IF IT WAS UNINETIONAL WHEN YOU INVALIDATE SOMEONE IT WAS AN ACCIDENT AND MISTAKE, AND YOU WILL MOST LIKELY BE FORGIVEN. WE ALL DO AT SOME POINT OR ANOTHER AND I PROMISE IT DOES NOT MAKE YOU A BAD PERSON.

COMING FROM THAT, THERE IS A VERY SIZABLE CHUNK OF NOUNSELF USERS WHO ARE LEGITAMATE AT LEAST THE LEAST, FROM MY PERSONAL OBSERVATION. A PATTERN I THINK IVE NOTICED IN (A PORTION OF) THE PEOPLE WHO I KNOW 100% ARE SINCERE IS USUALLY PEOPLE WILL SELECT NOUN PRONOUNS BASED ON HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT THEMSELVES? FOR THEM ITS DONE AS PART OF GENDER PERFORMANCE TO INVOKE A CERTAIN FEELING, LIKE SOMEONE WHO FEELS VERY CUTESY MIGHT GO FOR BUN/BUNS FOR EXAMPLE. ITS NOT ALWAYS THAT WAY THOUGH.

SORRY I GOT OFF TRACK. ANYWAYS, NOUNSELF TROLLS ARE SOMEWHAT DIFFICULT TO SPOT DUE TO IT BEING WELL. HARD TO MAKE A "PARODY" OF, REALLY. WITH NON-NOUNSELF ID JUST CHECK PRONOUNCIATIONS AND SUCH BEFORE PROCEEDING. FOR THE MOST PART THOUGH I WOULD TRY TO HANDLE YOUR FEARS AS BEST AS POSSIBLE? INSTANCES OF TROLLING LIKE THAT BLOW UP BECAUSE THEY ARE SCARY AND GENERATE CLICKS, THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT THEYRE COMMON NOR UNIVERSAL. IF IT CONTINUES TO BOTHER YOU ID SUGGEST DOING SOMETHING I LEARNED IN THERAPY CALLED A BELIEF EXPERIMENT (DOING A SMALLER, ACHIVABLE ACTION TO ATTEMPT TO PROVE OR DISPROVE WORRIED/ANXIOUS THOUGHTS. ID USUALLY DO THIS WITH A SUPPORTIVE FRIEND TO HAVE YOUR BACK OR SOMETHING OF THAT SORT)

GENERALLY IF YOU THINK YOUR FRIENDS WOULD FIND IT ODD BUT WOULD STILL BE RELITIVELY ACCEPTING ID TREAT IT LIKE A NORMAL COMING OUT OF THE CLOSET WITH A FEW EXTRA STEPS. ID USUALLY SUGGEST TELLING YOUR FRIENDS PERSONALLY BEFORE UPDATING YOUR SOCIALS, BUT THATS UP TO YOU. ID ALSO GO WITH ANY TRANS FRIENDS YOU HAVE FIRST IF THATS AN OPTION, BECAUSE USUALLY ITS EASIER TO EXPLAIN HOW YOU FEEL MORE COMFORTABLE WITH NEOS IN THAT SITUATION. IT MIGHT SUCK BUT ID SUGGEST THAT WHEN/IF THEY ARE MILDLY INSENSITIVE JUST EXPLAIN THAT IT BOTHERED YOU AND WHY, HOPEFULLY THEYLL GET IT.

TYPICALLY MY RESPONSE TO SOMEONE BEING RUDE TO ME IS NOT... IDEAL SO I DONT KNOW HOW TO ADVISE YOU ON THAT, BUT GENERALLY YOU DONT HAVE TO DEFEND THE FACT YOU EXIST IF YOURE NOT UP FOR IT. USE THE BLOCK BUTTON AS LIBERALLY AS YOU LIKE, ITS A DEFENCE IN ITS OWN RIGHT.

THATS ALL, I THINK. YOUR MESSAGES COPY-PASTED WILL BE UNDER THE CUT, FORGIVE ME IF I MISSED SOMETHING, I DO HAVE A DISORDER THAT MAKES IT SLIGHTLY DIFFICULT FOR ME TO READ. FEEL FREE TO SUBMIT ANY FURTHER QUESTIONS, COMMENTS ETC AND DO TELL ME IF I DID MISS SOMETHING YOU STILL NEED HELP WITH .

MESSAGES AS FOLLOWS, WITH SEPERATIONS REMOVED:

so i've been using neopronouns for less than a week and every day since i started, i've been getting negative reactions. the negativity comes from strangers, so it doesn't hurt me as personally as if friends were doing this (i actually haven't said anything to my friends about my neopronouns yet). anyhow, when people try to argue with me, i tell them that i don't see why they can't be respectful and call someone whatever makes them feel happy and comfortable. one reaction i got was "just because something makes someone happy doesn't make it valid" and compared it to letting someone drink poison if drinking poison is what makes them happy. then i get a lot of people who bring up stuff like "but what if the pronouns that make me feel valid contain a slur? / what if i use pizzaself? / what if i only go by BLMself pronouns? you'd be invalidating me!!!" and they try to use my own words against me since i've previously said "even if you don't understand it you should call people by what makes them feel valid." i know these people don't even use neopronouns to begin with but tbh it still does start to make me feel guilty? i'm nd and i can't always pick up social cues or sarcasm so i would feel horrible if i did unwillingly invalidate someone. but i'm also kind of paranoid because so much trolling has been going around recently like one video where someone tricked another person into using neopronouns that sounded like a slur when said out loud, recorded it, and put it online. i don't always know who is being sincere and who wants to trick people, particularly with nounself pronouns, like the pizzaself thing. finally, i wanted to go back to the topic of not telling my friends about my neopronouns yet. i feel like if i just start to put my neopronouns on profiles that my friends can view, it'll seem odd to them that i never said anything before, but i also don't know how to bring up in a personal conversation "i found out about some neopronouns i like and i've started using them" without it being awkward. i don't think my friends would make fun of me but i do think they'd find neopronouns 'weird' in general and maybe act kind of insensitive without meaning to, like not getting it. how would you react to the rude ppl? i know i could ignore them but i feel like they take that as them 'winning' or me running out of ways to defend my point of view. and how would you have your friends find out about about you wanting to use neopronouns?

#advice #mod karkat #discussion of anti-neopronouns #cw anti neopronouns #<-- for bl.#I DO USE NEOPRONOUNS MYSELF BUT IF I SAID SOMETHING WRONG OR OFFENSIVE HERE PLEASE CORRECT ME I KNOW IM NOT PERFECT HFJGJH. (SAYING THIS-#BECAUSE IT FEELS A LITTLE OFF BUT I CANNOT PINPOINT WHERE)

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clumsyclifford · 3 years

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u know what. i will give u all the lore u want. i’m 18, will be 19 decently soon so we are close to the same age. also the other band was r5. i have sent u asks about them and tde in the past. i followed you for atl content and got whiplash when u started posting about the first band i ever loved. i was like 10 when their first album dropped i have been around for entirely too long. i had a wattpad account and wrote r5 fanfic from the tender age of like 11-13. i discovered 5sos i don’t even remember how but i think the funniest part about it is that i never really got into their music?? i got into them as people by watching like interviews and compilations. and i mean at this point that was a While ago. SPEAKING OF FANFIC i did that like ao3 year in review thing like a month ago??? and you were my top author of the year so far. i read a lot of fic on ao3. your fics are very lovely and some of my favs. moving on. will not lie my music taste is kinda embarrassing and has barely changed since i was like 14 lmfao. been listening to a lot of waterparks lately. have been since their album dropped in may. i essentially go through phases of listening to solely one artist. or one playlist i made. most recently my taste has consisted of a lot of all time low, waterparks, paramore + hayley’s solo music (it really had to grow on me BUT now that it has it is very good), also been on a nostalgic r5 kick as well. hot take it has been quite difficult for me to get into tde’s music and i don’t really know why. some songs i absolutely adore (omg plz don’t come around is my fav by them. also scared of heights, feel you now, welcome to the end of your life are top songs too) but others i’m just. i have never liked preacher man and it’s the first song they released after they rebranded in like 2017. i love to see them finally free to do what they love music-wise but some of it is just. hard to listen to. i’m supposed to see them live in november (like 4 days before my birthday, kinda cool) and it’s the second time the show has been rescheduled so hopefully it happens. i’ve seen them live before but not since they rebranded. they’re dropping an album in october that i will have like a month to learn so it better be a fucking banger. now i’m just rambling about tde because i love ross and rocky with my entire being. rydel is annoying these days tho. also she named her baby fucking SUPER what kind of name is that why would you do that to a child. anyways. you ever need useless random r5 lore, i’m the person to ask. it’s the effect of being around to like a band for like 8 years. in conclusion my music taste? terrible. a cluster fuck. i will listen to luke’s solo album next time i’m focusing on a task because i like listening to new music when i’m concentrating on something. there’s some other bella lore for the day. - other bella

OH ALSO yeah idk. i’m currently on mobile. when i looked at your blog on mobile the first time last night it was blue. but now it’s pink. i have yet to see it on desktop but when i do i am sure it will be equally as pretty. - other bella again

hell YES some other bella lore. let's dig in

oooooh how soon? whens your birthday? 👀👀👀

ahhh yes i do remember the r5 asks !!!! that was a fun little era of clumsyclifford content huh. dont worry i wrote 1d fic on wattpad from ages 11-13 as well sooo same hat. that is super funny tho actually that you never bothered to listen to their music u really were staying loyal to r5 good for you

ao3 year in review???????????? say more?????? what is this?????????? thats very flattering regardless omg im going to ask you what your favorites are because im a leo just kidding its because i crave validation and im curious what ones you read/have read. also thank you for reading my fics lol

oh yeah theres a new parx album!! i dont listen actively to them but i really like all the parx music i know. im scared to get really into them because im genuinely afraid to fall in love with awsten knight. like im not joking thats the reason. i have to listen to more of their music tho cos i really enjoy what i know so...if you have recs...👀 i'm listening

mm thats a good lineup of music to listen to!! paramore is another band i never got super into, i meant to and then i listened to all of riot and then i learned that hayley williams is like pretty christian and that a few paramore songs are more christian than i anticipated and now i'm like. on the fence about it all. but i wanna listen to after laughter i just havent gotten around to it yet. and i did like riot. i like paramore. i like dead horse by hayley, i didnt like the other single she released, and i didnt listen to her solo music because i didnt like the first single so im not sure if i would actually like it? i am accepting vibe checks in that category though i dont really know what kinda music it is. actually now that im thinking about it doesnt she have two albums now???? i feel like the answer is yes. anyway. moving on

that is very fair the thing abt the tde stuff is that it's all so interesting and so different from every other tde song like they really just do something unique in each song which i think is awesome but also makes it hard to like every song bc it's not like one universal vibe you kinda have to decide for each song if you're enjoying it or not. i do LOVEEEE tde though, im very jealous that you're seeing them perform. although i dont know why im not, just looked it up and theyre gonna be in new york on november 24th which is a sunday so i miiiight.....be able to go.......maybe...........their website says the 25th which is a monday so maybe i was under the impression the show was on a monday?? but the ticket site says sunday. 👀 we will just...have to see......what we see.............

ANYWAY

RIGHT im so excited for their album i was mistakenly thinking it was coming out the same night as luke's but it was just the new single which i really liked on a first listen but have to listen to again cos ive only heard it the one time. but i hope it fucks. they announced that the album is called girlfriend which personally i think is really fun so i have high hopes

SHE NAMED HER CHILD FUCKIN WHAT NOW???????????????

wait eight years thats a long time but also thats roughly how long ive been around 1d wtf........insane. madness. and in fairness probably roughly how long ive been around 5sos but i took a hiatus from both of those bands during high school so im not sure how much i can count all of those years. ive been around all time low for six years though, that's pretty good. anywayyyy i hope you like luke's album but no pressure man listen whenever you feel like it. LOVE YOU

#whew #we got through it #we did it boys #guys my friend is picking me up at TEN in the morning tomorrow #we're going out on a day road trip #going to her aunt's farm to meet some goats #etc #it's gonna be really fun we're just gonna listen to taylor swift and atl i'm really looking forward to it #but also tho.....i will have to be up and ready to go at TENNNNNNN #thats a horrible time #i mean like #better than camp time but still ugh #early #she said 9:20-9:30 and i was like omg thats. so early #ask #anonymous #cubs anon

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beeth3bean · 3 years

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(excuse my bad spelling/grammar)

Ok, so

I dont expect this to garner much attention (if any at all), but i just wanna put my thoughts out there, yknow, because what i just found out is pretty cool, so its nice to just shout into a void about it.

So, for most of my life (which isnt that long yet), i have been able to hear things or see things that many others i know have not. Or sense bad vibes from someone/something, like a bad room/person etc. But since I get anxious about lots of stuff (im actually in the process of getting diagnosed with anxiety), I just brushed it off as paranoia and eventually all that happened less frequently.

Well recently i got more into witchcraft/paganism, and would work with tarot cards and crystals, etc. But whenever i did, the night after, all the weird buzzing/white noise would get louder and i would sense bad energy in my room.. HOLD ON NOW, this is where the story gets interesting...

So one day about a week ago, my mum goes to a clairvoyant (psycic) and gets a reading. She goes with the intention of connecting with some of our late loved ones, and checking if she should go through with a major surgery (the surgery obviously wasnt life or death, it was optional but would optimise her way of life) BUT SHE CAME BACK WITH SO MUCH MORE INFO...

So she went there and i dont remeber all the specifics of what she told me happened, but the phsycic did mention that my mum was a druid/healer, had celtic roots, and that i was most likely a clarevoyant/healer and that they would mentor me and guide me through being a baby witch and hopefully make smarter choices with my practices.

But they advised me not to do anymore tarot readings or just witchcraft at all until i see them, but yule is coming up (i'm in the southern hemisphere) and i dont want to miss the festivities... oh well i know its wiser to play it safe. Congrats if you made it through my horrendous spelling and rambling to the very end btw. Dont know if anyone will even read this, but oh well.... quoting from shrek: 'better out then in'!

#psychic #samhain #yule #babywitch #witches of tumblr #clairvoyant #druid #ramble #idk

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warmau · 5 years

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{Special} College!AU Jungwoo

major: library sciences + information

minor: entomology (much to ten’s horror)

sports: was invited to the soccer team by yuta, but he’d rather play it for fun not for competition. likes to go to yoga - tries to get a grumpy taeil to go with him

clubs: showed up to chinese culture club so he could see sicheng - who kicked him out after three minutes, him and yuta both go to earth coalition meetings because they like nature, and sometimes jungwoo will pop by the conspiracy club to hear people ramble about aliens (he thinks they’re cool)

jungwoo tends to confuse students who arent his close friends because,,,,,,

he’s really really kind and affectionate - but he also seems like he’s always stuck in some kind of daydream too

like he’ll be in class, and he’ll be able to answer questions and take tests

but his voice is so cushiony soft and fluttery that it seems almost like he’s answering in some soft pink haze

or maybe that’s just his aura

it’s so ?????

but his friends know that ,,,, that’s just how jungwoo is

he’s incredibly open and relaxed - never anxious about anything but also,,,,,never really cautious either

so it’s natural for him to walk into things - or say whatever it is that crosses his mind

like the amount of times he’s just randomly said “i love you” outloud to taeil? doyoung? jaehyun?

like on public transit or in front of literal professors

everyone getting into a frenzy because wait - wait you love yuta??? and yuta waving his hands around like nO nO he means it like friends like it’s just what he says

there have been many rumors about jungwoo and like,,,,every member of nct on campus

but also it’s not just nct - jungwoo is just naturally touchy - naturally inclined to show his appreciation with little nudges and batting eyelashes

and he was born to flirt really

not in a,,,,,,,, pick you up kind of way or a sleazy ‘let me slide into the dms’ kind of way

just,,,,,,,a kind of enchanting way

that makes people feel all warm and cared for ,,,,, his handsome face and soft voice makes you feel like you’ve just been hugged by the worlds softest teddy bear

his major is library sciences because ,,, everyone agrees ,,, it matches him pretty well

archiving, reading, and helping others all are things jungwoo enjoys doing

because it’s not dramatic at all - it’s systematic and having a routine soothes jungwoo

plus his tall, slim figure in a grandpa sweater and some cute big framed glasses librarian-chic circa the 80s,,,,,,,,he’d be so cute c’mon

is that friend who gets books down from the top shelf and hands them to haechan with a smile

and haechan is clutching the book like “give me your legs. let me be 5′11.”

jungwoo: what

haechan: nothing. long legs. dont look at me.

because he’s also a nature fan - everything from mountain hikes to visiting public gardens

he’s not afraid of bugs

at all

taeyong has on several occasions texted him to come get a spider out of his dorm

and everytime, you know jungwoo does the thing where he puts the paper under the spider and then a cup over it and releases it back outside

saying something like “live free, small one” while taeyong wide eyed beside him is like “don’t. come. back. bitch.” tgkdjflsk

so at first he just took some classes from the entomology minor for fun - until he sorta accidentally completed all the credits for it anyway

so that’s why he just added it on at the end of the sem like look guys i got a minor :)

ten: cool for what?!

jungwoo: bug studies :)

ten, one eye twitching: t-t-t-heres bu-bugs on c-campus

jungwoo got invited to a couple of sports teams - he’s pretty strong and pretty fit, but the whole aggressive competition of it puts jungwoo off

he’d rather just do something for fun, and really dislikes being forced to train or anything like that

took up yoga after reading one of sicheng’s textbooks and now he goes to student run classes - always trying to bring taeil along

because quote unquote - taeil’s tiny body is riddled with stress and maybe, possibly demonic energy

you bet he’s also the type to do an hour of yoga or go on a long walk and come back and eat like. everything from the cafeteria

and then steal some of johnny’s hidden snacks

and then on top of that ask lucas to buy him a milkshake

he’s a bottomless pit when it comes to his stomach,,,,it’s a scientific mystery

he’s got an ability to befriend anyone, although sometimes his need to cling on can be a bit much,,,,

poor jaehyun’s hand fell asleep when they all went to watch a movie and jungwoo just basically leaned all his weight onto him and jaehyun is too nice to say anything

but he’s also got a little bit of a problem,,,,,,,

he’s oblivious

completely and utterly oblivious

which is why it’s a headache and much more to have a crush on jungwoo

which you have had since hmmm let’s see oh right

FRESHMAN ORIENTATION

when you’d arrived late, panicked, with no one to sit with let alone anywhere to sit

since the auditorium was overflowing

till a tall boy with a gentle smile and matching voice took your wrist and asked

“would you like this seat?”

ever since then you’d dreamed of that moment - of the boy who’d sensed your absolute dread and embarrassment

and who let you sit down, while he stood in the aisle - hands in his pockets - barely listening to the whole welcome celebration

you had practically embedded jungwoo’s face into your mind

because he was in ever aspect - your type

your dreamy, prince with a heart made a gold

the only problem was,,,,,,,,,you were more than ready to confess but any attempt you made

was thwarted

not by rivals or even jungwoos friends - who all were cheering you on

(all of nct claimed you were basically as transparent as a window with your feelings - hearts swirling your head whenever jungwoo as much as blinked)

it was always jungwoo who just,,,,,could not grasp the situation for the life of him

like that time you had been invited out to the seasonal fair and jaehyun and yuta pulled you aside on the way there

whispering eagerly that they’d hatched a plan to get you and jungwoo alone during one of the firework celebrations

you’d felt your heart race - almost burst from your chest

but you were thankful that his friends seemed just as excited for you

and when jaehyun had “casually” told everyone - but you and jungwoo - to follow him over to the food stands

you had hesitated, but turned to tell jungwoo there was something you needed to say

he’d looked down, eyes a soft autumn brown

“we’re all alone”

“y-yeah,,,,,,i think this might be my chance to tell you that i like-”

the gigantic bursting noise from the first firework had made it hard for your already shaking and tiny voice to have been heard

jungwoo, distracted by it, had just marveled up at the colors in the night sky

and pointed them out

“you should tell me after the fireworks, i couldnt hear you well”

“ok,,”

but that didn’t happen,,,,not when right after the ceremony ended - jungwoo had spotted taeil in the crowd and pulled you along toward him

yuta and jaehyun, when meeting up later, could tell by the dejected look on your face that nothing went as planned

and you just shrugged it off - there would be more times,,,,,,hopefully

and there were

they just always ended up badly

like when you’d tried to give jungwoo valentines chocolates with a hand written love letter but the box - having been in your bag the whole day - had melted all over the letter

making it unreadable and sticky

or when taeyong had offered you to be jungwoo’s tutor for this elective he had to take

and you showed up diligently everyday to the library for a week - till jungwoo announced one day through text that he’d been switched into a much easier class

you had even once written “i like you so much” on his cast when he’d had to wear it after an accident in the library

and jungwoo had read it - in front of you - smiled up and said

“what a nice thing to say to a friend”

at some point you’d just,,,,,,,come to terms with the fact that either jungwoo really couldnt take a hint or that he was trying the nicest ways to reject you

which hurt,,,,,but you tried to cheer yourself up with the sentiment that at least you got to be his friend

and through liking him you’d gotten to make even more friends with the great guys of nct

but everytime you were alone - studying your textbook or working on a project

and you’d find yourself thinking back to orientation

jungwoo’s touch on your skin, his voice echoing in your ears, the natural feeling of consideration and sweetness that shone off of him like diamonds

it made you grip your pen a little to hard, because the memory - instead of filling you to the brim with bliss like it used

now just,,,,,,,left you feeling like something sharp had wedged its way into your chest

whats worse was,,,,,because you’d always been one to wear your emotions on your sleeve

everyone knew you were hurting

even though you put in all the effort to hide it

taeyong had come to calling your smiles forced and even sicheng, who liked to keep his nose out of other peoples emotional businesses, had patted your back whenever jungwoo was around

whispering that you just had to keep strong

yuta and jaehyun, who’d you grown close to, and who also knew jungwoo well

were the most sympathetic

“i just,,,,i dont think he’s rejecting you”

yuta would insist and you’d just slump foreward

“then what? he really doesnt know? i could shout it from the liberal arts building rooftop and he’d still think i was joking,,,”

jaehyun sighs

“i cant tell, but i dont think you should give up. not until jungwoo either gives you a straight answer or ,,,,,,,, he just starts dating someone else”

at this, yuta perks up, his already mischievous features curling up into a grin

“hey - that’ right! jungwoo hasnt ever expressed interest in anyone else!”

“doesn’t he just,,,,,show love to everyone? i think it’d be hard to tell who he doesnt like ,,,,,”

you mutter, feeling the dark cloud of one-sided feelings cast heavy over your shoulders

“i mean,,,he’s nice and affectionate - but in a puppy kind of way. like he’ll give attention to those around him, but it’s never you know - it’s never romantic.”

you want to tell yuta and jaehyun that it’s fine. you need to sulk and then you’ll really pick yourself up and it’ll be fine

but neither of them look like they’re going to have it - and to be honest neither of them look like they believe you’ll get over it

because your love for jungwoo comes from the most pure place

and a love like that is hard to come by

maybe they just pity me or maybe they just want jungwoo to get a significant other to focus on

you think, huffing out a sigh

“hey i think there’s one way we can find out if jungwoo’s interested!”

your eyes dart up to meet yuta’s

jaehyun clasps his hands and gives his friend a look as well

“every semester the college campus votes for superlatives right? and one of them is cutest couple! the prize is like a two hundred dollar shopping coupon too - we should ask jungwoo if he’ll enter with you!”

you shoot up and shake your head - putting your hands out

“yuta we can’t just ask jungwoo to pretend to be my boyfriend!”

“yeah yuta,,,,,,that might not be the best way to find out jungwoo’s true fee-”

but yuta is dead set, he takes his phone out and hums as he scrolls through his contacts

clicking on one his fingers fly across his phone keyboard

and in a matter of seconds there’s a notification

you and jaehyun lean over to see

‘huh i didn’t know jungwoo was dating - but sure, ill put them in as a couple. im going to need their picture though, for the voting.’

‘no worries!! one of our buddies is a film major who will take some and ill send them your way!’

‘ok, so jungwoo and-’

your eyes widen when you see your name

and yuta closes his phone before you can sink back down into your seat

and jaehyun looks worriedly between you two

“no all we have to do is tell jungwoo! ill do that - jaehyun, go get johnny. we need our photographer!”

you feel something between adrenaline and anxiety when jungwoo walks through the door and into johnnys room

yuta jumps up before you can even greet jungwoo

and throws a hand around his friend

“listen - we all really want that coupon and you make the cutest couple so - let’s do our best to win, yeah?!”

jungwoo doesnt really acknowledge him

he more or less fixes his gaze on you

and it makes you feel hot under the collar of your shirt

“are you ok with this? if it makes you uncomfortable, we shouldnt do it.”

he says, calm and gentle

you want to say; are you kidding? couple posing with you? this is my dream,,,,,,,,

but at the same time it feels so weird ,,,, doing this,,,,, for fake

“johnny get your camera, let’s get the two lovebirds ready~”

yuta drags jungwoo off before you can answer

and johnny turns to you with his nikon

“i think you’d be better of just asking jungwoo out than going through all this trouble.”

“ive tried asking him out,,,,it always backfires,,,”

you mumble and johnny shrugs

“well you know i love drama and i can smell it on this situation, c’mon lets go take photos with your boyfriend”

your heart pounds inside your chest at the word

jungwoo? my boyfriend? if only that were true

yuta picks some secluded part of the campus for the photos

there are nicely lined trees in the back and jungwoo looks over at you when you sort of hunch over

“i know they want the coupon, but i would rather you tell me if this is too much-”

he voices his concern again and you shake your head

“no no, im fine. are you?”

he blinks a bit before letting his handsome face glow with a smile

“sure, if you are ok - so am i.”

yuta positions himself beside johnny, proclaiming that he knows what will make you and jungwoo look like a realiistic couple

when jungwoo looks down to fix his shoes, yuta winks your way and mouths

‘this will totally work’

but you,,,,,,,,dont feel so sure

the first poses are pretty innocent and sweet

holdings hands while looking up at the sky, a shot of you and jungwoo sharing a laugh, a pose where jungwoo is reaching out to touch your cheek

but then yuta gets,,,devilish

“back hug them!”

“why don’t you pretend like you’re leaning in for a kiss and then put your hand out to block it!”

“oh oh lets have you sit in jungwoo’s lap!”

the last one almost sets you (quite literally) on fire

“yuta that’s too mu-”

but jungwoo is sitting down on a bench nearby, motioning that you can join him

you stare down and jungwoo gives another comforting smile

but then he says

“it’s just for the picture, don’t worry”

and suddenly this whole charade, this whole dream moment for you just shatters

this is all fake. he feels nothing toward me.

“i cant”

you cast your eyes down and johnny sets his camera down

yuta looks like he’s desperately trying to think of something to say to ease the sudden tension

but it’s too late

“youre right, even for a fake photo this is too muc-”

“no,,,i cant do this.”

you look at yuta, but he’s blurry

everything is blurry from the tears that start welling up in your eyes

“i,,im just going to go. im sorry.”

and with that you’re running away, absolutely mortified that you even went through with this whole ploy

you dont look back

you dont see jungwoo get up, look at yuta and johnny and ask if he should chase after you

you dont see the sudden horror on his face - because the idea of hurting you,,,,,,,,,is something jungwoo would never do

you dont see any of it

you’re stuck in your own thoughts

you’d just wanted jungwoo to know how you felt

you didn’t want to force him into a weird situation like that, you didn’t want to hear the words

“it’s just for the picture”

because for you it wasnt that - you liked him so much that every touch of his fingers against your skin

ever smile

every word he spoke

it made you feel like the world around you was bursting with hearts and love

making you weak at the knees, making you absolutely lovestruck

but you think,,,,,if there’s one thing you got out of it

of seeing how easily jungwoo could do all those poses, how he thought so little of you as an interest

that he could even let you sit on his lap with no qualm at all,,,,,,,

you really didn’t mean as much to him as he meant to you

he just saw you as a friend

and your fear of him, all these times, quietly rejecting you - it was true

you could thank yuta for at least helping you see that

you get a couple of texts and missed calls afterwords

all of them are worried and from yuta, jaehyun, and even johnny

who awkwardly asks the group if they still want to submit what photos they do have

but none are from jungwoo

go figure, he’s probably so annoyed at me now. making him do this stupid photo-shoot, enter this stupid contest, and then having me runaway like some big baby

you’re so embarrassed that you turn your phone off and tell yourself that from now on

you’re going to do your best to forget kim jungwoo

no matter what it takes

of course,,,,,life never works the way you want it to

and so, as if by some cruel joke, the remainder of the semester you end up bumping into jungwoo everywhere

at the library - where you made sure to go on his off day, but it turned out he’d switched shifts recently

in the cafeteria - where for some reason it was jungwoo of all people sitting in your favorite seat by the window

at the bubble tea place around the corner which was usually to packed to even get into

somehow, jungwoo had squeezed in past those students and ended up shoulder to shoulder with you

each time trying to greet you with the usual serene, angelic smile of his

while you made up some bizarre excuse to get away

it was like your life had flipped upside down

instead of jumping on chances to be close to him, you were avoiding him like the plague

until finally - you couldnt do it anymore

“talk. to. jungwoo.”

yuta says, dropping his backpack down on the table in front of you and leaning over to narrow his eyes

you try to keep your own gaze on your textbook

but yuta is faster and stronger then you, so when he snatches it from under your nose

you have no choice but to comply

“why? i dont want to keep making a fool of myself. plus im,,,im really getting over him!”

yuta huffs some hair from his face

“i doubt that. i just said his name and your whole body looked like it was going through a shockwave”

you try to grit your teeth, think of some kind of comeback

but yuta is right - your heart’s deadset on jungwoo

no matter how many other boys youve tried to introduce to it

how youve lied in bed on instagram looking at all the campus cuties and none of them ever even matched up to jungwoo in your opinion

“yuta - it’s my destiny to love him and get rejected by him. i cant fix it”

“yes you can. just talk to him.”

“what is talking going to do-”

yuta looks at you so intently that you nearly topple out of your chair

“believe me ,,,,,, this time i promise it’s going to change things for you.”

so you agree

not because yuta kind of maybe intimidated you a little back there,,,

but because if anything you feel guilty knowing now that jungwoo does want to talk to you

you’d just assumed you disappearing from his life wouldnt matter,,,,,,

who were you to him anyway? right?

but there you are, standing outside of his dorm

palms sweaty,,,,,your heart beat so loud you think the RA is going to come over and tell you to keep it down

and it takes you ten whole minutes to even knock on the door

jungwoo opens it, his hair looks a little wet as if he’s just taken a shower

and he’s got simple joggers and a long sleeve shirt on

he looks so natural and relaxed,,,,,yet still so perfectly handsome,,,,,

“yu-yuta said you wanted to talk to me”

you get to it, thinking that you just want to hear whatever it is jungwoo has to say quickly

so you can curl up under your sheets and bawl your eyes out about it later

“i did, i know we saw each other a couple of times but you were always busy so -”

he shrugs easily and takes a set on his bed

you kind of shift your weight, standing in the middle of the room

feeling like the small walls of the dorm are going to close in on you at any second

“s-so whats up?”

you feign cheeriness to try and get past the butterflies gnawing at your stomach

“i want to apologize,,,,im sorry about the whole photo-shoot thing. but more than that, im sorry that i was so ,,,”

jungwoo seems to struggle to find the word, he scrunches up his nose

and you internally tell cupid to not shoot another arrow at your heart - you knew he was cute

but being this close and seeing him be this cute all ,,,,, domestic and what not,,,,too much

“im sorry that i was so dumb”

the choice of ‘dumb’ makes you a bit confused

“wh-what do you mean?”

he gets up and suddenly you’re aware again that ontop of being ultra cute,,,,jungwoo is pretty tall

and when he steps closer to you, he looks into your eyes and gosh the whole world is up in those pretty browns ,,,

“i just thought you were being nice, i just thought you were happy to be around all of us i didnt know you felt,,,,,that way about me”

the blood in your veins goes cold

“w-who told you?”

“it came out as an accident,,,you really cant let jaehyun around too much soju,,”

more than anything you’re surprised it wasnt nakamoto yuta - but beside that

you take in a deep breath

brace yourself. this is the real rejection

but instead of any “sorry i dont feel the same way”’s you get jungwoo’s soft hand against your cheek

you shut your eyes - don’t be too nice about it kim jungwoo, just tell me straight that you -

“i like you too”

there isnt anyway to describe the emotion that comes over you like a wave

it’s a mix of a million different things

it feels cold and hot, makes you want to cry and laugh

but instead all you do is slip down to the floor, a concerned jungwoo following you down

“a-are you ok?”

he presses his hand to your forehead, but you just try to shake your head

“im just,,,really shocked”

“that i like you back?! why?”

there isn’t really an answer for that, when you think about it, you just assumed jungwoo was going to be untouchable forever

“b-because no matter how many times i tried to tell you,,,,,,it felt like i was being pushed away -”

“because im a fool”

you shoot your eyes up to meet his

“no, you’re not! i just - i just never got it right you know, i never got the moment-”

jungwoo lets his hand come up into your hair and suddenly he’s tugging you close

so that you can rest your head against his chest

“when i think about it,,,,,,i probably just told myself not to believe it. not to fall for all your kindness, because i thought that you treated us all like that. me, yuta, jaehyun - i didnt want to think i was special to you”

you bring a hand up to hold the front of jungwoo’s shirt

“but you are special, kim jungwoo ive loved you since first sight”

he chuckles and the rumble in his chest is comforting

“since first sight? i think,,,,,,i think you charmed me too”

you’re too shy to kiss jungwoo in the moment,,,,maybe it’s because you think you’ve used up your luck

getting to hear the boy of your dreams say he likes you back

but you do let the fluttering feeling carry you on cloud nine for a long time

so much so that when you return to your dorm - even your roommate thinks you’re sick or even worse - going insane

jungwoo waits outside of your class to take you on your first date

which is to his favorite bookstore in the city

you knew he was studying to work in the library, but you never knew just how much jungwoo liked books

and just how good he looked among them

like he was just browsing for books and the manager offered him a part time job as a model for the store,,,,

to which jungwoo laughed, squeezing your hand a little and saying

“i dont think im quite the best at photo-shoots”

speaking of which,,,,,johnny does submit a photo he took,,,,,and you and jungwoo do win

but that 200 coupon? yuta “lost it”

jungwoo doesnt fret it too much, holds you back from launching yourself at yuta’s bookbag where you’re sure it is

and whispers against your ear that it’s ok,,,,he’ll take you out to eat and it’ll be his treat

and he’ll get yuta back for the both of you

(and he does. sweet, daydreaming jungwoo has a scheming side. and it comes out when he swaps yuta’s shaving cream with sardine scented hand cream)

jungwoo is a very interesting person,,,,aside from being able to just heal others with his warm presence

he’s also quite into the odd

any date you go on - jungwoo is sure to make it special

coffee runs? he asks you to play a game with him while you wait for your drinks by picking out strangers and giving them weird background stories

study date? jungwoo always gets you some kind of unique kind of stationary,,,,totally the type to just gift you a notebook with snoopy on it and be like “doesnt it look like your boyfriend?”

movie date? jungwoo has you pick a number he’s thinking of and whatever movie is that number on the showlist board is the one you’ll see

(cut to you clinging to jungwoo for dear life when you guys pick a horrible b-list horror movie)

(jungwoo kisses the top of your head, unphased by it afterwords and says if you’re still scared you can sleep over at his dorm and he’ll protect you from the monsters)

(,,,,,,afterall jungwoo is a natural flirt cough cough,,,,,,)

as he is an affectionate person, light touches and soft intimacies are a MUST with him

at first he tests his boundaries with you,,,,but soon enough it’s obvious that jungwoo could just brush his hands over yours

and it’d make you go completely dizzy with happiness

always has his hand on the small of your back

- it’s just a habit he has

when you’re talking with the group, he’ll put it there

when you’re sitting and falling asleep over your books, he’ll put it there and apply a little pressure with his thumb to get your attention back up

he also really enjoys running his lips over any part of you that he sees,,,,

the thing is he does this so absentmindedly

that he’ll do it in front of others

and get you in a flustered flurry

because you’ll just be talking to mark about an upcoming test and feel jungwoo’s lips at the base of your neck

your face turning firetruck red

while mark ducks his head into his hands and runs off, apologizing for “ruining the moment”

jungwoo: ? is he ok

you, head in your hands: u h idk but,,,i,,,im not

he loves when you wear anything that’s slightly too big because it’ll slip off your shoulder or show the back of your neck

and jungwoo is like : must kiss

you decide to try yoga with him since he keeps saying how much it helps him

but turns out jungwoo is very flexible

and you’re ,,, not there yet

so you tumble over yourself and maybe cant do some of the stretches

but jungwoo thinks you look so damn cute trying your hardest for him

totally the type to invite you over to binge watch a series you both like,,,,,but somehow you both end up on youtube watching a series on aliens,,,,

likes outdoors dates - likes just walking places with you, hand in hand

admiring the changing of the seasons, stealing kisses when the light is red and you cant cross the street just yet

but as much as jungwoo is like “let’s go hiking!”

and you’re like ,,,,,,,, “hahaha how about you hike and ill wait at the base of the mountain in the snack shop”

but if he really asks you, with his fluttering soft voice and those eyes that look up through pretty lashes

like you’ll do it

you’ll be sweating and hating it - but for jungwoo you’re pretty sure you’d do anything

and it’s crazy to know that he’d do anything for you too

because people always assume it’s hard to date someone who seems so,,,,,,unattached and like,,,,,in his own world

but the reality is, jungwoo is very observant when it comes to you

he knows what you like, he knows when to keep you safe and how to protect you

and most of all, he knows how to tell what you’re feeling

you though after all those oblivious attempts to confess to him, it’d be hard to have him read how you’re doing

but if one thing is wrong - jungwoo senses it

and does his best to cheer you up

totally the boyfriend who takes your phone and changes his name to something cute and childish

bought you guys matching snoopy keychains

tried to act aloof about it - but you know he really likes it when you clip it onto your bag

jungwoo,,,,,,admits that he might not be the best romantic - even though this is a lie - everything about him screams romantic

especially when he has you come over

and instead of studying or quizzing him like you both planned

he traces his fingertips up and down your arm, lays down side by side with you and mumbles that he thinks every part of you is perfect

and if you’d let him

he’d like to get to know more of you

and how are you supposed to say no to mr. long fingers, sexy voice, and overall fit body jungwoo?!?!?

like im not kidding, the moment he touches you - it’s like you’re in paradise

because he handles you with care and most importantly, with adoration

but there are some marks in the morning and yuta jumps on them like hot fire

to which jungwoo just does the ^_^ and is like dont make me leak some of those photos i have nakamoto ^_^

one day, as you’re watching jungwoo play a friendly match of soccer

taeil sits beside you

“can i say something”

he asks and you nod

“i know we all said you were being totally obvious with your feelings about jungwoo,,,,,,but nowadays i think he’s the one who has heart eyes for you”

jungwoo tells you a bit about his minor and you’re like ,,,, bugs ,,,, really

and he’s like it’s not that weird - they’re pretty interesting

and you’re a little iffy about it

but one of your dates is to a butterfly observatory

in which you watch as jungwoo let’s a butterfly settle on his finger

and you think that even insects can sense the inherit sweetness of jungwoo’s character

you’re a little scared when one lands on your nose, but jungwoo takes a photo

and to this day it’s his home screen on his phone

you tell jungwoo about how you tried to give him chocolates once but they melted all over you

and he feels so bad he buys you one of those gigantic bars with a two pound bag of chocolates

and you’re like jungwoo!!!! it’s fine!!!

and he’s like im sorry for being oblivious and horrible

and i promise im going to keep my eyes on you forever from now on!!!

yuta: corny

jaehyun: you’re just jealous because they got together and you’re still single

you and jungwoo looking at yuta like o?

yuta: HA AS IF,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,jaehyungofindmeadaterightnow

you and jungwoo win cutest couple that semester, and the semester after that

because let’s be real - being with him, taking photos of you two nose to nose - eyes full of love that you can only experience at that age - how could you not win

kim jungwoo? not only the cutest, but the bestest boyfriend around!!

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A trip back to my religious roots

Sorry for the lateness of this post. Very unlike me, I like to be on time. Ive had time to write but I kept forgetting or being too tired to regale y'all with my tales from yonder part of the world. So Poland is the destination of the day. We left three days ago now as we're in Budapest in Hungary and heading to Serbia this evening on another tastey night bus, yay. The two stops of our Poland trip were Wroclaw and Krakow. Both beautiful cities. Both very cheap. Ideal eh? Wraclaw was the slightly smaller and less touristy of the two. A good place to start the trip. We got there early afternoon, the weather was pretty bleak and the city (from the bus ride in looked... Ok I suppose... Read "ok" as pretty butterz really). We got off and walked for the hostel. Still little to be enthused about. Having checked in and finished off the pasta it was time for the inner tour guide inside me to come to fruition. I was in my element. A map in hand, lots of information and history and a keen student, perfect. First stop, the synagog. A nice building with some poignant displays about the Jewish descrimination throughout Poland. A heavy start to the tour. We ploughed on however, to the real meat of the tour. The town centre. A cacophony of colours, buildings, history and gnomes. Yeah there's 400 stone gnomes dotted around the city, lol. The buildings were beautiful, all different colours, all different styles, all mad cool. Even the McDonalds, the money changers and the pharmacies were in ginormous gorgeous buildings. A chocolate box town you could say. The map we were given outlined an old town walk we could so with each stop having a handy section explaining the relevance of the separate places. It was sick. And informative. My inner history teacher was loving it. After more wanderings and more architecture and A LOT of churches the tour neared its conclusion. Wed even seen an ossoleum I believe it was called (still dont really know what it was, but nevertheless the architecture was outstanding). The final stop was a wee market selling an odd variety of items. Flowers, ok. Sweets, ok. Pastries, ok. Urns. Sorry? Yes urns. Like four stalls selling urns. Hmmmm. Bit morbid. Anyhow the next day we got some proper polish food there (not in an urn) dirt cheap. That reminds me. Poland is very cheap. Shock. I think i have known this for years since I knew what Poland was. Everyone has told me how cheap it is. All of my knowledge told me how cheap it is, yet still. I was shocked evrrytime I realised just how cheap stuff was. A six pack of beer 40c. Like what?!?! Its cheaper, by a lot, to buy beer than water. Fine, you've convinced me I'll drink a beer. Big doughnuts 70c. Hostel super cheap. Bus super cheap. Food super cheap. Basically Poland was extremely good for the Wallet, better than Budapest for sure. Hopefully Serbia goes back to nice cheap prices again. Pray for cheapness. Our other day of fun in wraclaw was spent exploring the cathedral island just north of the old town. Disclaimer its not actually an island. As per the name though there was lots of churches. Yay more churches. All amazing, all massive and beautiful, all churches. Its mad how a country can be so poor throughout it's history and still put so muchomey into something so unnecessary and wrong (in my opinion) as churches. How many can you possibly need in one town, in one little bit of town. I dunno. Whatever, anyway it made a good looking day of sightseeing for us. Like I said, lots of big and lush buildings. On to Krakow. A more popular touristy city. Still similar however to wraclaw. Colourful buildings. Lots of churches. And a castle oo, very cool. It was the site that we witnessed england losing to Belgium for the second time. Great. The site of a momentous moment in table football history. Let me set the scene. Pult sees the table and exclaims her prowess at the game in no uncertain sense of confidence. Matthews's ears prick. Table football. He is even worse at containing his confidence. "I am so sick at that" is the exact response. This takes pukt by surprise. She looks anxious, has she bitten off more than she can chew..? We will see. They wait patiently by the table waiting for two amateurs to finish. A feeble warm up. Akin to having Selena Gomez being the warm up act for rolling stones. Incomparable and decidedly underwhelming when you imagine the quality of the next act, match. They finished. Tension was high. Few words were exchanged and we approached the battleground. Eyes were made and the match begun. An immense affair. Long rallies, goal line saves, pressurised defence and some silky, penetrative attacks. It was amazing. Nothing like this table had ever witnessed previously. This best of three match up was to be an epic. Matthews edged the first one in a ridiculously tight first round. But regardless of the closeness Matthews took this one 9-0. Next. It was the same affair again. So close, such good rallies but you could see in pults Eyes, her body language and her words. She was raging. Her game became more rash and Matthews's defence. It remained impenetrable. Another close fought match. Another 9-0 win. The final match. The decider. A huge moment. There was a crowd of three watching the tensest of all matchups. Matthews had given pult some pointers (always keep the left hand on the goalie). It worked. 1-0 Matthews. 1-1. 2-1 matthews. 2-2. 3-2 matthews. 3-3. What a game. So close. End to end. Pults defence was much improved. As was her clinicality in front of goal. But then. Matthews turns up. 9-3 final score. A whitewash of gargantuan proportions. Something that will not be easily forgotten by any involved. I'd like to thank my father for all his help in my practicing. Cheers dad. It certainly came home. Pult didn't slesk speak to matthews for 20 minutes, it seemed their trip was destined for an early finish. But they rallied and ate a lovely baguette thing. Anyway back to ramblings about Krakow. Next up was a wander thru the Jewish quarter. An edgy, hipster, cool area. Lots of bars, shops and ice cream stalls. A nice wander I'd say with more buff buildings and cool artwork. To finish our time off in Krakow we heading to Schindler's factory. It was very full and busy. Shock. It was nice and very informative but not very well designed. Too much information and not enough relevance slash it wasn't laid out in an easily consumable mannor. We enjoyed it but it didn't live up to the hype sadly and didn't tell us kich about Schindler specifically. More about the Jewish problem in Poland as a whole. Neverthe less still interesting. So you'll be hearing from me soon maybe tonight if I get my game right and I'm not too lazy. Until then. Goodbye. G.

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