#hope we get make more stuff tomorrow

[abc04]

stressed abt exam >.< need study tomorrow but don't wannaaaaaa

#i am so sleepy #going bed now #hope we get make more stuff tomorrow #even thouh have study #vash.txt

[everywhere-all-around-the-world]

#there are three categories of motivational songs #“I believe in you you can get through this I will give you a hug it will get better” #which is this #then there's “woo you got this! keep going!” which is like seventeen fighting #then there's “you are the most confident amazing person ever. go forth into the world” which is like gidle lion or skz easy or mamamoo hip #basically this is the motivational playlist I listen to while crying curled up on my bed making the decision to get up and keep moving #kpop #kpop polls #polls #itzy #nct #nct dream #ateez #atz #stray kids #skz #h1 key #day6 #tomorrow x together #txt #seventeen #svt #I have been the most inconsistent poll person ever recently I think i've given up on my old consistent scheduling #also nct dream loses on every poll I put up. I don't know why that happens I guess we just have strong competitors. #hope they get more votes this time because wow I felt sad at the lack of enthusiasm for broken melodies on a previous poll #I don't really stan them but damn I def like their stuff stream smoothie guys

[sgxena16]

I just binged NCIS: Hawai'i and I'm so bitter it got cancelled. This show is so good and deserves at least 8 seasons.

#of course cbs cancelled the first ncis show with a majority non-white cast. woman as the lead. and same sex couple #because they're cheap and decided sydney is worth more because it costs them less #and for origins which no one asked for. i already don't like the idea of that cause #a) they're bound to make something happen that doesn't line up with ncis so it'll be retconning stuff or just make stuff confusing #and b) you can't continue to expand the ncis universe with this show in the past about a character we already know about. #Hawai'i gives us characters whose stories are current and who can impact the present #and i know cbs will never let another network acquire Hawai'i like they did for all rise #they'll never let another network have an ncis show. They want full control over their franchise. #can this show get the swat treatment? no idea. But I hope people and the cast/crew keep fighting for this show. #cause it deserves so much better than ending on what may be a cliffhanger tomorrow and will definitely be unresolved stories for everyone #also the audacity for cbs to have vanessa and the cast out there talking about how much they love being part of the franchise #and how important the show is during that 1000th ep stuff #only to cancel it not long after is just a shit move #use them for promo then axe them #ncis hawaii #ncis hawai'i #cbs #sgx

[seariii]

I was stressed but now i'm more chill and really sleepy...

#overall my mood has been better but i am so incredibly terrified of the future... its like.... #like i feel as if someone has holding me at gun point and got told thst if i did any mistakes they would shoot #but then im not given clear instructions on what i need to do and i have to figure it out myself #i am really scared... even tho all of this gave me a new objective... i dont wanna be obsolete... #... so... that what we will work on... also... i wanna work towards my dreams... #I've been putting it off for so long i want to do it #people support me and actually enjoy my voice... i want to... #the things on my plate right now are things i can achieve... but i want more... i want things i actually want... #i want... #my house has a constant buzzing sound. i believe its because of the small power plant behind the lot. which makes it difficult for recording #since i have to get rid of that and that messes with the rest of the audio #its comforting to know it wasnt the mic tho... heh... #tomorrow lets try to take the first few steps... well more like lets try to continue with the set up #we have already a couple stuff but we still have a lot missing... #... today the girls said some stuff that impressed me... thats how im perceived?... is that what people think of me? #i kinda want to... fulfill those 'expectations'... they dont expect anything but its more of a me thing... ive been dreaming and hoping for #so long but i dont take the next step. i never do... and its because of the executive dysfunction... but... once i get the hang of it... #once i do... everything will be excellent... and we will take it easy #i am so tired already... i feel im gonan falla sleep #seari talks

[mymarifae]

idk how anyone can dislike the vbs daybreak frontline cover when it sounds like this

#we fell over from the weight of our hope.. we got lost and though we don't know where we are we just feel alive in fear or light.. #we're gonna keep on walking🥹 we'll keep going towards tomorrow without a doubt🥹🥹 #we're heading towards that light..the light of the rising sun...we don't understand happiness for now.. #but i'll live as myself to the best of my ability...!!!! #yeah it's millie-gets-emotional-over-daybreak-frontline o'clock. again. not sorry. #this song is just so special to me... and the vbs cover just makes it even more magical.. like wow..... #my comfort characters..? singing my comfort song? awesome i will go cry now #(also that mini akikoha duet🥰 gosh their voices blend so nicely i wish we got more alt vocals of just them) #wuagwjauhh orangestar's music is just so... i LOVE. the summery rock vibe that's in all his stuff #it's lovely #this is literalyl my favorite cover in all of prsk idc

[vero-niche]

weekend's ending. take a cookie besties 🤲❤️ (i prommy its better than it looks, its orange-ginger-cinnamon flavoured)

#they melted together bc i didnt know they were gonna get that liquidy #also. first time baking cookies fully on my own after a loooong time #like. i always help mum of course but im more of a cooker than a baker #anyway theres gonna be a lil morning gathering at work tomorrow where we bring in our own stuff thus me making an atrempt #also i realized how... unequipped i am for baking lmao #anyway i hope yall like it 💞

[arionawrites]

1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

#aritalks #i did cry a little bit when i first woke up because i dont really know what to do about work and also i hate not having a car i can use #not only because of the work aspect but also getting my license when i was 18 gave me a freedom i didn’t have before #and i don’t like having to rely on other people just to like go to the fucking store or something yk #but then my best friend/roommate messaged me happy birthday and i was like fuck it! today is going to be a good day! #the stressful uncertainties can wait until tomorrow #also one of my best friends who hasn’t said happy birthday to me the past two years #(not intentionally im p sure they were just busy on my birthdays the past two years #and then had that moment of ‘oh shit i didnt send a message fuck i think its too late now’ which i totally get bc anxiety things yk) #was one of the first people to message me happy birthday!! #i’m also hoping to still be able to go see my mom and then stay the night at my dads tonight #so i can see both my parents and also my baby siblings for my birthday #my dads working today but after he texted happy birthday i sent him a text asking if he thinks we could still make it work #my mom is asleep still i think (she called me at midnight and left a voicemail singing happy birthday!! but her sleep schedule has been all #over the place recently so i’m waiting until 11:30 to call her which is in like 30 mins) #but she said something yesterday about driving out to me to give me a hug and also bring me my diabetes stuff that got delivered #(her house is my mailing address because i know it’s not going to change bc it’s my great grandparents house that she’s partially inhereting #when my great grandpa dies but since i have moved out of my dads my address has changed twice and i didnt have a mailbox at my last place so #just for the sake of consistency and not having to worry about important shit getting sent to the wrong address i’ve had her house as my #mailing address since i moved out of my dads at 19) #so i think i’m gonna ask her if she can just pick me up instead so i can go to her house w her and hang out with her #and hopefully my dad will be able to at least stop by with my siblings so i can see them too #i’d like to stay the night with them but if we can’t make it happen then i can also stay the night w my mom and hopefully tomorrow figure #out the car situation. might have to rent a car for a week if i can afford it? best case scenario is my moms car can be fixed but i still #dont know whats wrong with it ik there are two potential problems and one is fixable the other is not #the fixable one would cost like $150-$400 to fix depending on if we get a used part or a new one #if its $150-$200 ish i can probably afford to pay for the whole thing or at least most of it #but if its more than that hopefully my dad or one of my family members can help #and i can just pay them back in like $50 increments with my next few paychecks #just realized i said i wouldnt worry abt the car thing today and also i think im at tag limit to i’ll stop now lmao xoxo gossip girl ❤️

[thelivingsin]

try not to do any activity on discord other than staying invisible and focus on your own mental health in 3, 2, 1, go! (has started since morning)

seriously though.

i miss those two, i wish i was able to say hi in the server but mentally and emotionally i'm not doing well. sorry guys :(

#guys pls remember i love you all. i love these THREE (other one isn't on discord sad) #i'm not used to being unavailable to literally anyone i know so like. hi i hope you understand why i'm more active on tumblr/fb than dc rn #especially with the stuff i said yesterday???? i'm really SORRY YOU HAD TO CARRY MY EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE AND SHIT #i know i said we have to separate personal stuff from work because it makes me uncomfortable myself but here we are oh shit oh fuck #i guess i am baby 😓😓😓 #i don't wanna be babied anymore 😓 i dont feel like im even growing #please help #tldr something happened at school today. that's why i'm here venting #fr something made me so uncomfortable it dropped my mood. i'm so sorry. i hope i get better tomorrow :(((( #missing entry #the institute

[arolesbianism]

So I may or may not have spent a good chunk of my day trying to learn how to look into onis code and while I may not have yet succeeded I will likely keep fucking around with shit tomorrow and if I manage to succeed it'll spell great doom for my sanity as oni becomes the interest I've officially poured the most effort into analyzing

#rat rambles #oni posting #for now I must sleep but hopefully tomorrow Ill figure out how to decompile files #the real question is going to be if Ill be able to do this on my shitty ass laptop or if Ill need to figure smth else out #I just want to be able to view stuff so ideally it won't make my laptop chug too bad but rly Im more worried abt space #I might have to try to do some cleanup and delete some shit maybe Ill go scan through the shit that came pre installed #and hey maybe if I can get this to work I can go mega hacker mode and tweak some stuff for funsies #probably wont since I don't wanna break my game and I dont trust myself but yknow #itd probably help if I actually retained any information from the Two programing classes I took when I was younger but alas #one of them was even specifically a video game programming class and lemme tell you I remember absolutely nothing #also from what little I was able to view without fancy applications I have no new info but I can finally fully put jean in the we 100% know #their last name zone cause while we definitely already 100% did Technically we only got jea- for first name confirmation #but theyre referred to as jean in a note in a bio bot story traits file ty whoever added the notes there #god I hope theres other notes in the files I want to read those so bad #btw this was all spurred by that one nails log that disappeared cause I have found a file that looks like it but I cant fully view it #and I desperately need to view it I need to view it #also if I can look in the code then in theory itll make copying down all the lore logs easier #also the datamining thread of the forums hasnt been particularly active so who knows maybe I can become a proper dataminer #(<- will not do that probably unless it turns out to be easier than I thought) #but admittedly I am interested in hunting for potential future update content even if I probably won't hunt too hard for it #again Im mostly just hunting for lore #hey maybe if Im lucky Ill find some genuinely new and usable information in that department #maybe the secrets of b363 and dr. holland lie in the files ooooo (they probably dont) #man it'd be nice if I had a proper pc itd make my life so much easier and my desk feel less enpty lol #in a world where I get to play videogames at a higher framerate than 10fps #I mean we do have some older computers laying around the house although theyre probably also crusty pieces of shit #idk maybe I can see if I can salvage one itd be nice to have a proper computer to fuck about with #Im sure my mom wouldn't mind as long as its one that hasnt been touched in years #which tbf I dont know how many options thatd leave me but we at least have one computer that could theoretically be usable #albiet its definitely packed with viruses from me and my siblings being dumb kids

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[volfoss]

if i can make it under 250 pages itll be a miracle i think...

#twist rambles #pretty confident i wont hit 300 at least? so thats good lol. but i have 4 main story missions left and then im done :) so thats good. #more length will probably happen from like... doing 5 billion image descriptions for the monsters of which there are 50 but i stay brave ok #as long as its not 300 ok... im so brave.... but its so weird to nearly be done :) ive done a ton of work today on it while watching stuff #which helps my productivity so much... watched get out today while i worked and could barely get work done bc i was SO entranced by the fil #but... we are making progress hoping to get maybe 2 more quests done today? and then maybe finishing the entire game tomorrow. we'll see... #at least 1-2 today. either way im SO close. #♟️

[gottagobuycheese]

genuinely truly wholeheartedly cannot fathom people who go running before work. what do you mean you don’t get out of bed 10-15 minutes before you need to be fully dressed, breakfasted, equipped, and out the door? why would you voluntarily wake up SEVERAL hours early and go get sweaty in the dark and cold and then have a shower in the MORNING only to go to work all day?? incomprehensible.

#context: my housemate and I went for a run/walk this evening and we remarked on how nice it was and how we should do it more often #but realistically the only way we'd be able to do it during the weekdays is before work #which like. lmao. #I'm sorry but your insomnia and my insomnia do not line up enough for this #the only person who comes to mind that I actually know does this is my high school ap chem teacher #but she also got her phd at 25 so she doesn't count #I do like running in the mornings the few times I've done it! #but the only way we'd be able to get it done before work here is well before sunrise #which I am intrinsically opposed to #and also if I have work right after I can't just come back home and go back to sleep or slouch on the couch for 3 hours straight #I was going to say something but there was this HUGE gust of wind and rain and other noises lashing my window and I forgot what it was #anyways in summary I still don't want to go to work tomorrow #and I'm rrrreeeaaaaallllyyyy hoping that the ‘don't want to be here’ energy of Friday carries over to today #phenomenal job on Friday 6 out of 8 of my co-worker's people didn't show up #I yearn for that sort of attendance #please. please give me nothing to do. let me catch up on my other stuff. you do not need to come in for this. this can be an email. #(to be fair I would also hate it if it were an email sdkjfhskfjh) #(...yeah actually maybe don't make it an email) #(but please please PLEASE no more backstories tragic or otherwise) #(please let it just be simple and straightforward enough to finish all my notes as they come) #(I still have to do Friday's because I slept like all of Saturday and half of today) #ah shoot and I still need to study... #you know what. I'm gonna have to say it: I miss December #Cheese's personal molasses #Cheese evaporates about...job?? #okay I should go to sleep now and stop fantasizing about a tree missing everything but landing exactly across our driveway #rendering it impossible for us to go to work #OKAY STOP WHINING #IF WE MAKE IT THROUGH TOMORROW I'LL LET YOU DO SOMETHING ART RELATED A N D EAT SOME COOKIE DOUGH HOW'S THAT

[gravitysoda]

really hope the last gwitch episode is good...theres. so much to cover. in one episode. so i just hope they can do an okay job at this point LOL. also if sulemio kiss and/or get married fr i will forgive all other transgressions

#honestly!! i hope we get another cour #but it seems very unlikely at this point #i just wish s2 had been paced a tad better #but as long as they dont fumble terribly tomorrow it should be fine #overall its been a very solid series #and the best anime original ive watched in AGES #sad to not have suletta sundays anymore argghh #im still also kind of mad about giant laser LMFAO #like why are we introducing another Thing to do if the series is genuinely ending tomorrow #if theres another cour i can tolerate it #but otherwise its just coming out of nowhere #and jamming more stuff into the very end of the series #i know its like. a THING to have a giant space laser in gundam but that doesnt make it good writing LOL #idgaf about it either like i just wanted to see the culmination of prospera and eri and sulettas arc

[feralnumberfive]

I would usually say this as a joke but I quite honestly cannot mentally handle new TUA stuff tomorrow

#I have been on a mental and emotional roller coaster for the past few days and this is just going to mess up my emotions even more #not to be sad on main but I'm going to be sad on main rn and say that I am pretty sad and just can't handle the sudden new happy influx #idk if that makes sense but I'm just too sad to look forward to it but even so I know I'll be right here with everyone else waiting so I'll #definitely still post and everything but I just feel numb to it #I was even supposed to go to a gay pilot event today but I'm just too emotionally and socially drained #anyways let's hope we get some good stuff tomorrow! #tua #the umbrella academy #umbrella academy #tua s3

[outlying-hyppocrate]

aaa i'm so happy. i don't know why. i mean. i do but. it's stupid really

#random thoughts #okay so. the reason why is because i made conversation with a friend of mine. they are not in any of my classes #they've always acted like a father figure towards me? more of a parent than either of mine. found family trope irl i guess #and. they are so nice!!! they complimented my outfit today and just. i was just so excited! i could hardly concentrate during math class #it's so nice to talk to someone who cares about me. most of the people i know have been calling me cringe. i am but. it makes me sad ): #i'm trying not to let it get to me but. oh well #anygays. there's an event tomorrow where we can dress up and stuff. i want to go as enmu but i don't want them to make fun of me #but. then people could compliment me! there's always a chance. i just know that people will think i'm fuckin. cringe. which yes. i get it #but fuck cringe culture! it was probably just made as an insult to neurodivergency anyway #hm. but. i can't decide anymore. sometimes when i don't know what to do it stresses me out so. i hope i don't get too nervous #fun times. #(:

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#im just gonna b a whiney bby for a sec bc im tired and i spent too long out in the sun :-P #we left at like 7.30 for sampling and got back around 4 so like it was a long day. it wasnt too awful tho #only kinda awful. but thats not what i wanna complain abt. i wanna complain bc we have this project looming #bc our machines r coming back. so i have to make sure i can connect the stupid cameras thru code stuff and make sure the chambers r built #and i dont wanna do any of this bc i kno this project is gonna cause me physical and Phycological pain #like all the projects we're collecting for. last time i had to work with the samples i got a little too close to a like full of breakdown #so my brain and body dont wanna do it. and this specific project has potential to b even worse that what i usually do so fml #sigh... i just dont wanna be here doing what im doing anymore. ive stopped having fun. my boss is like wow u r gonna be the person ppl #think of on X topic once u get all this published and its like. god i dont fucking care. #when i think of the data all i can think of is how awful it was collecting it. everytime it cuts a bigger and bigger wound in me #like i think its done long term damage to my psychy. i burned out too hard too many times. #so i dont wanna do it. i dont wanna push these projects forward. and i dont wanna collect more data from 2 other sites bc i kno the more i #collect the worse its gonna be. ugh. whatever. im sure itll b fine. bc im less invested in what im doing so maybe this time ill have a #healthier way of dealing with it idk. im just sick of it. and that's really sad. #ugh. whatever. i have a big meeting with a guy tomorrow and idk what device im gonna use to zoom with him #bc my computer screen is fucked and the camera makes me look like im at the bottom of a well... #i need a new computer... agh. whatever ive gotta reread some of his papers #i hope he likes me. he's at a way too prestigious school so im like. way too intimidated. but like im sure he just wants passion #ans ive got passion. Hopefully ive also got the stuff for knicking a full ride scholarship as well #yea right... but idk ill fucking go for it bc why not #hhhh i just wanna b in a future what i have the perfect phd program and its all sorted out #unrelated