#holy shit i need to lay down

[ashfdhfgdsfk]

having a full blown shaking hyperventilating black out panic attack get interrupted by a born bot ask with full pussy out on display in my inbox was not what i was expecting to calm me down but you know what thank you porn bot i hope you get lots of sex forever

#im sos serious i was full panic felt like thfrowing up but i saw the ask and instantly got shocked out of the panic #like im still not having the best moment rn but ig im grateful?? 😭 #txt #holy shit i need to lay down

[b4kuch1n]

toy doctor redux

plushy based on this guy

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #ask to tag #a wizard leon!! I think this is still the only one that's not directly called a wizard #gods. I put so much into this one. and for what #yeah design wise this is mostly tightening up the palette compared to the prev version and dividing the theming more evenly #between the toy half and the doctor half #this kicked my ass so hard lmao. and Im not even super happy with it as it is #I feel like I couldve organized the 'pushing daisy' idea more elegantly. following the og design's cue on this mightve been a mistake #but well. the lance has been thrown it lands how it lands #having a wizard leon design that's specifically restorative so to say is really nice... the ability to fix.... #okay. holy shit I need to lay down #just figured out the coffee candy Ive been snackin on may contain caffeine #so uh. I need to let off That pedal. mm #in time. I will find another candy. so long my love... #have a good night lad! sew a little heart inside it and send it on its way now

[084392]

future trio!!!

#pmd #pokemon mystery dungeon #celebi #grovyle #dusknoir #these are supposed to be post se5 in case that isnt clear! #i decided to kind of go for a middle ground with making grovyle kind of more rough looking??? ig... #lmao wasnt sure about the celebi design until i added black below the scarf and then was like holy shit nvm. this kicks so much ass. #anyways ive drawn 13 different characters today. i need to lay down. #pmd designs #my art

[civilight-eterna]

#vocaloid #hatsune miku #dmc5 #devil may cry 5 #DUDE DEUEDEUD DUDE DUDE DUDE?!?! DUDE.DUDE!!!! #HOLY FUCK HOLY FIUCLKBHI #FUCK!! #SHIT!!! #AAAAAAAAAAAAA #THE COVER #THE ART GOING HARD AS SHIT #ASDFVRHGIKREFJBGJFNF #music #i NEED TO LAY DOWN #Youtube

[fembutchboygirl]

From the creators of "is that what i sound like? (negative, slightly horrified)" comes the new and improved "is that what i sound like? (just heard herself sing one of her own songs in a recording for the first time, positive, i don't think i need therapy anymore,

#holy shit. the 10000 people who keep telling me i do sing well weren't lying to make me feel good. is it weird that im posting about this #actually fuck you this is my blog. HOLY SHIT IM A GOOD SINGER BUT FOR REAL. HOLY SHIT #my posts #i. oh my god i think i need to lay down even though im already laying down

[cellgatinbo]

i love taking care of old dogs, bc like sure we both have to get up at ungodly early hours to make sure they don’t piss all over the house, but as soon as they’ve done their business they’ll curl right back up into bed and i just go “damn ur so right” and immediately join them

#need to get out of bed and start day vs Holy Shit this dog just layed down and fell asleep on me i can never move again

[mewtwo24]

You know reading vol 5 of mdzs before all the rest (don't ask me why I'm a clown and there were Circumstances) has to be the craziest experience of my life. Because it took all of ten minutes of wwx talking to literally hit me so hard in the gut I had to sit down and listen to really loud music for a while to calm down.

Who needs therapy when mxtx is alive and writing, I guess????? 🤡

Can't wait to get to the actual tragic parts I just know I'm gonna be that "help" frog phone meme

#mdzs #i was really out here thinking svsss would be my fave bc of lbh #and then i finally get around to reading mdzs and it blows my expectations out of the fucking water holy actual shit #and i just had this feeling the first time i read parts of it like 'oh. this series is going to kill me. im not coming back from this.' #and here i am booboo the fool getting my clown ass make-up on #idk how to explain it like i just fucking LOVE mxtx's takes on arrogance #that wwx is constantly being perceived as a show off and an incorrigible flirt and a know it all #how wwx cant always help the ways he acts out the desperation that has embedded itself into his very bones #how wwx only ever wanted to do the right thing and that having been so much of his downfall #how his worth and talent would always be eclipsed by virtue of his circumstances #how he's above needing recognition at his core but at the same time longs for an ounce of good will and positive recognition -> #how human he is despite his brilliance. how he never gets it no matter how hard he tries to be worthy. #like to me wwx is emblematic of what it means to be poor/an immigrant in high places #always villified always alien always wrong always unwelcome #no matter how clever or capable or kind youll always be an eyesore because you don't 'act right'. not 'one of them.' you never will be. #i just...the way he just wanted it all to be over by the end. the way he didnt even want to come back to life. that he was sick of it all. #im rattling the bars of my cage i love him I LOVE HIM i love him #i understand you lan wangji (and i love lwj too) #and even lan wangji too like. the way so many of their issues in the beginning stems from that self-same problem #how lwj couldn't live with his out of control feelings how he too couldn't quite lay down his pride #how lwj was also trapped by the expectations of his clan in his own way how so much of their separation was a form of penance #that the calamity of wwx's loss forced him to reconsider everything he thought he knew about himself and his life #how he was left with nothing but regret. how when wwx returns--lwj refuses to leave anything to chance this time #he refuses to let wwx be alone anymore--refuses to let him hurt himself for the sake of others refuses to just let it all happen #even if it means overstepping a boundary or propriety it doesn't matter--as long as wwx stays with him. pride be damned #god i just can't i just can't do it im biting im ripping things apart GOD #will also say the jokes about lwj being like. 'strict moral compass or BUST.' and then wwx literally committing like 17 felonies in the bg #while lwj is like 'crimes? what crimes. nothing to see here.' NEVER stops being funny. like i was pissing myself laughing #i know its a known trope but by god are they hilarious about it #also. lan qiren how many times do your nephews have to go catatonic for you to stop with the catholic guilt and repression

[thethingything]

so for whatever reason if there are multiple people co-fronting and we're experiencing physical symptoms that fuck us up particularly badly, one person will typically feel way worse while the other ends up helping take care of them and that ends up being how we get any actual self care done.

the person that's effected seems to be picked at random but up until a few months ago it was usually 🍬 since he gets worn out quicker from fronting all the time, but now 🦋 keeps getting frontstuck so much it's closer to being 50/50 in terms of who ends up feeling worse.

the system as a whole has issues with accepting help from other people, and both of them get very stubborn and end up being like "but you shouldn't have to look after me" and try to refuse help when they're the one feeling shit but lately I keep occasionally hearing them go "wait you said you like helping me so I should let you do that" and the other being like "thank you for letting me take care of you".

I just think it's very sweet that the way we're apparently getting better at accepting help is through these two repeatedly going "no I like helping you please let me help you" and the other going "I would do anything for my boyfriend and that apparently means I have to let him take care of me sometimes"

#personal #thoughts #Lucy post #happy posting #I'm pretty sure the reason they're both frontstuck pretty much constantly is that stuff like this happens #they also both feel better when they spend time with each other #I regularly watch both of them go ''oh my god I can't believe he's actually my boyfriend. holy shit this is incredible'' #they're also both way better at paying attention to each others needs than their own needs #but if one of them wants to do something the other will usually be like ''yes absolutely I'd do anything for you please do what you want'' #and this has been used many many times to get one of them to actually lay down and rest or do self care or whatever #when they're reluctant to do that stuff otherwise for whatever reason #I love the way they interact with each other and how much they end up helping each other

[witchwhaat]

so i have finished aib 2.......

#many thoughts need to lay down #whatthefuckwhatthefuck #i'm... confused. a bit. but also. huh. okay. #i definitely need to read the manga bc holy shit #okay the second season was GOOD it had it's mOmeNts but the 1st one had as well and here they didn't bother me as much when they happened #by mOmeNts i mostly mean weird pacing #anyway it did not dissapoint #i liked it very much #aib my beloved arisu my beloved chishiya my beloved kuina my love usagi my beloved #aaaaaaaaaaa #agna watches aib #alice in borderland #AND WHAT DOES THE JOKER CARD MEAN HUH #does the mamga continue after that moment? i didn't read but from what i know it doesn't after what happened in last episode?? #*manga #take a shot everytime i make a typo god

[deadlylittlemiho]

Really annoyed at all the homophobes review-bombing this show and making it harder for those of us with genuine criticisms -_-

#tlou #the last of us hbo #long long time #I'm disappointed because the themes and characters of the whole series are different #not because there are queer characters in a series that always had queer characters 😑😑😑 #like holy shit were they even paying attention???? #episode 3 was genuinely a beautiful episode #it just didn't feel like it belonged to the Last Of Us series that I've come to love #so much more hopeful and forgiving and so much less about the depravity humanity can fall to when they lose hope #bill was a hard dude that pushed his love away and practically got him killed #and when he learns about it through a letter he crumples the shit up and moves on with his life rather than dying with him #i just would've liked if they had ONE big fight that split them up and led to his lover's death #THEN with regret he lays down his life next to him #but the showrunners clearly have a different vision in mind for theme and that's okay!!! #I'm just gonna try to enjoy it on its own merit because honestly if this were a new IP I would call that episode 10/10 #but as an adaptation only a 7.5/10 #it's still good even if it's different 😤😤😤 #so i need these bitch baby little homophobic fanboys to stfu and replay the game so the rest of us can continue having an okay time #the last of us

[starbuck]

i drove two hours to the beach this morning and then around all day and i’m fucking WIPED, but also really proud of myself because this was a huge step for me AND i’ve been wanting to go back to that beach for years (haven’t gotten to go since prepandemic) so !!!!!!!!!!!

#gonna take a shower now and then like. lay down or something holy SHIT i cannot recall the last time i was this tired #i got up at 3:15am for this 🤪🤪 #because of course it was a birding trip primarily haha #i also need to do laundry lmaooooooo - i have NO pajamas

[the-kipsabian]

its so fucking dramatic to say, im very well aware, but i know i wouldnt be the same person without him

honest to god at this point i dont think i would be a person anymore without him so like

to say i love him is a fucking understatement

#i need to lay down i am burdened with complex feelings etc etc you know the drill #just. good god #i need to seriously cry at him in august holy shit #night is an absolute mess on main

[magnoliamyrrh]

.

#okay so like #that was technically a nightmsre but like holy shit it was so cool #??? great movie plot and all i suppose and very dramatic presentation lmaoo shoutout to my subconscious #good one #i dont remember all of it but we were like in a castle or something and there seemed to b some sort of spirit (?) #which already got to one person #and idk twords the end it was like me there other two young women and a witch(?). i guess we brouyht her to deal #with the issue idk? so. she goes on abt how this and that needs to b done and how essentially we have to do some ritual to be bound #to some goddess for the sake of protection or something. so i was like. okay #(protection from whatever tf was in the castle) #so i lay down on this table partially naked my two friends (?) and myself quite anxious and the witch starts to paint in black paint (?) #char (?) mostly geometric symbols and runes over my entire body (which were cool as hell) and chanting things and whatever while #my friends are like. getting more anxious but im starting to kinda fall asleep under whatever spell #and i manage to ask the witch before its over - so the deal is. a part of myself in exhange for protection - yes? asking for confirmation #again #and she replies something along the lines - she only asks for your service (or smthing like that) and i was like. that i can do. but #i didnt pick up on the slight edge in the tone lmao. so. the spell gets completed. i pass out or die or i feel my soul sink down and leave #my body and im like okay cool. waiting to be returned into my body now that the ritual is technically over. for a second i get scared but #then. i seem to open my eyes. i seem to move my hands and get up and stand up off the table. except i realize very quickly that. im not in #my body. the witch and ppl are gone and. im essentially just a ghost not attached to the actual body which i still laying there. and then. #i realize there are. so many. and i mean so many. versions of myself in this ghost form in a state of absolute fucking insanity throughout #the castle. like Losing it badd like screaming nonstop banging against shit sitting around hysterically muttering etc etc just. the entire #hall that im in is just fucking full of them. and i realize. those are the other versions of me which have woken up just like i did rn #and realized the body had been stolen and were trapped like this. and theyd all been losing their minds for god knows how long. and now. #im just version 473839 of myself which has tried to wake up in a desperate attempt but still found myself unbound to body and trappee #so. i feel like im abt to lose it in 5 seconds flat as bad as the other ghost versions of me are. bc this shit is horrifying. like more #horrifying than just waking up alone would have been. and then idk?? fucking?? dramtic movie shots around the castle bc my brain was on #some directing shit. and like it pans out but then focuses at some point on this painting on the wall. which i realize is a painting of one #of the dudes in the castle which seemed to have been possessed or affected by whatever we brought the witch to fix. but. taking a closer #look (w the overlapping screams of my several selves in the background). i see that. the dude in the painting seems alive. hes Stuck in the

[plztumb1rhelpmegetoveranxiety]

I was having a bit of a time and you popped into my notes and it made me feel better :)

Idk, I just wanted to spread a bit of positively, everything sucks rn :(

ANON I AM THROWING SO MUCH (/P) LOVE AT YOU RIGHT NOW!!!!! EVERYTHING FUCKING SUCKS THAT'S TRUE, AND I COME HERE TO CHEER UP TOO, SO PLEASE KNOW THIS POSITIVITY WORKED AND MADE ME FEEL BETTER 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

#ILYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY /P 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 #PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF YOU ARE SO IMPORTANT AND SO WONDERFUL!!!!!!! #ALSO IF YOU'RE A MINOR LIKE ME AND PROBABLY CAN'T DO MUCH BC OF IT PLEASE DO NOT PUT THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD ON YOUR SHOULDERS!!!!! #IDK IF YOU ACTUALLY HAVE THAT ISSUE AND I DOUBT IT BUT I'M COVERING ALL MY BASES HERE AND BY THE TIME YOU'RE DONE READING THESE TAGS #I WANNA MAKE SURE YOU FEEL A BIT COMFORTED SO I'M TRYING MY BEST #I RECOMMEND MAYBE TAKING A GOOD BOOK AND READING IN THE SUN FOR A FEW HOURS #I'VE RECENTLY BEEN JUST DOING THINGS LIKE PLAYING PKMN CAFE OR READING OR PLAYING WITH PETS OUTSIDE AND IT'S BEEN VERY BENEFICIAL FOR ME!!! #:D!!!!!!!!! #IK ''TOUCH GRASS'' IS OFTEN AN INSULT ON HERE BUT EVERYONE NEEDS TO TOUCH GRASS IT FUCKIN RULES!!!!!! #RECENTLY I'VE SPENT MULTIPLE 5-20MIN INTERVALS A DAY LAYING FACE DOWN IN THE SUN ON WOODCHIPS AL NAPSTABLOOK STYLE #LIKE I'M OUT HERE LAYING IN THE SUN LIKE ''HOLY SHIT THIS FUCKING RULES??? DO PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT THIS???? DO THEY KNOW THIS IS SO GOOD????'' #💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 #ANYWAYS ILY TY FOR THIS ASK :3!!!!!! /p #anon #asks

[fembutchboygirl]

From the creators of "is that what i sound like? (negative, slightly horrified)" comes the new and improved "is that what i sound like? (just heard herself sing one of her own songs in a recording for the first time, positive, i don't think i need therapy anymore,

#holy shit. the 10000 people who keep telling me i do sing well weren't lying to make me feel good. is it weird that im posting about this #actually fuck you this is my blog. HOLY SHIT IM A GOOD SINGER BUT FOR REAL. HOLY SHIT #my posts #i. oh my god i think i need to lay down even though im already laying down

[prommytheus]

guess who just fought cohozuna for the first time!!!!!

th-this guy

#cohozuna #that was fucking TERRIFYING #i need to lay down after that holy SHIT #salmon run next wave #salmon run