#hm hm hm. like I said. many thoughts.

[pinkpuffballdude]

thinking very hard about how Berdly's dark world armor looks like Papyrus's outfit. and how the og Papyrus was gonna be a washed up gamer bro who thought he was better than you, showing in how he says he's Great and Cool and Epic but clearly doesn't belive it, while Berdly has a similar sense of inflated ego but without any of the charm. and how Deltarune acts as a narrative foil to Undertale, with all the characters that show up in both being just left of or perpendicular to themselves, and how Papyrus was a minor antagonist in the very beginning that ended up befriending the player and how Berdly also acted a minor antagonist/Henchman who befriends ("befriends") the player in chapter two, and how Berdly kinda feels like Papyrus but if he had zero charisma. many thoughts.

#undertale #deltarune #papyrus undertale #berdly deltarune #true story #the narrative parallels..... #also the fact that Berdly is universally hated while Papyrus is universally loved #(obvs exceptions exist but that's the trend) #and. when I break it down. I can't figure out Why. #they're BOTH full of themselves they BOTH have an inflated ego #Papyrus just seems... more self aware? #I don't think he lords it over you as much #ohhhhh and when he does misinterpret your words it's not to make you look stupid #every time Berdly misinterpreted someone it made him the center of the universe and the smartest best boy Ever #while Papyrus is just. a guy. #who can publically admit that he's taking lessons from someone better than him #also Papyrus self aggrandises in the same way I quote unquote change topic #'on a completely unrelated note [thing that is definitely related]' #it feels more like he's being sarcastic or trying to cover for himself than actually condescend #hm hm hm. like I said. many thoughts.

[fandomunsexyman]

SVSSS is a novel with a fandom.

[ID: A Scum Villain edit of the "missing the point" meme. A bullet arcs from velinxi art of child Shen Jiu kneeling while furiously glaring. The bullet says, "People are not entirely one thing or the other and holding them to these extremes ignores the complexities that come with their humanity." It arcs over the head of a person across from it, who ignores the bullet and exclaims: "Wow!! Shen Jiu's only crime was being mean and was wrongly hated!" End ID]

#i have so many thoughts about him but he is SO mischaracterized in a lot of fics #like just 'he would not fucking say that' on repeat #because shen jiu's entire thing is that he was CANONICALLY a terrible person #yes his backstory was sad but that doesn't make him Suddenly Good #shen qingqiu is an incredibly complex character but can y'all not pretend that his only flaw is being mean #like shen jiu failed original luo binghe in every way #as his caretaker as an adult in his life on EVERY level #'the tea had healing medicine in it!!' no it did not #shen jiu poured boiling hot tea on a child as a grown man because he was jealous. of said child. #like the entire POINT of his secret backstory was to showcase his complexity!! #and to see so much fandom stuff that's just Shen Yuan in the Opposite Direction is Hm #like he's fun to analyze but let's not pretend that he wasn't a terrible fucking person #while I'm ranting shen jiu would not casually talk about his trauma either #shen jiu's entire thing WAS appearances and even post character arc i think he'd struggle to open up to others #so like NOOOO he would not just tell someone something terrible that happened to him in his past #he'd rather die #okay rant over but this phenomenon is just SO frustrating to me #svsss #shen jiu #scum villian's self saving system #original shen qingqiu

[rotisseries]

inspired by elli's poll lol cause this seems fun actually but if you guys have bad answers I'll kill myself on your doorstep or smth

#“rori all of these are your faves how can there be a bad answer” well I still have an internal ranking on some of these #and if all of you pick an option that I think pales in comparison to the others. well. hm #I know what's gonna sweep though because two of these are niche as hell and 4 maybe 5 of these are things you people don't follow me for #fun fact I actually had to scrape my brain to make sure I couldn't come up with any more #I am unintentionally very picky on what is a favorite apparentlyyyy #I also just don't watch/read enough stuff these days so there's that #AND I NEED LONG TERM EXPOSURE TO KNOW THEY'RE STICKING AROUND #so like. I have some options but I don't KNOWWW if they're sticking yet #but this feels like such a small poll lmao #also no sapphics on here this is actually cause I hate women- #NO. JOKING. zelink is here. I almost put gideon and harrow but I'm in a perpetual state of not having finished tlt #and I couldn't put nebetta and darya I was drawing the line at 2 tbos ships. well. actually. changed my mind #not editing these tags actually you guys can see my thought process #WAIT AND SAYMARI. FUCK. I LITERALLY MADE A PLAYLIST FOR THEM I LOVE THEMMM #ok. is 4 tbos ships too many. hmm #I said 2 of these are niche now four of these are niche it's really the “which tbos pairing is your fave” poll #THIS POLL IS SO FUNNY IT'S SO SELF INDULGENT I HAVE TO TAKE OUT AT LEAST ONE TBOS SHIP #I should add one more general one... #cause I do actually want genuine and varied answers I gotta give y'all options so they don't all pool at the first two #I also almost put ellie and abby on here.. that would've been so funny four popular 1 rarepair 3 super niche ships #ellie and abby are soooo interesting to me though so of course the thought of them having something horrible going on together compels me #and they are one of my 3 favorited ao3 tags... they deserve a place... #ok well while I debate on that I'm putting akutagawa and atsushi on here I admittedly have only had like two months of exposure to them #but it is enough I can tell they are so crazy to me #the way my tags are just me overthinking everything on what is supposed to be a fun and silly poll... no one does it like me I'm afraid

[birdricks]

stooooooop ur bird facts are giving me crazy bo thoughts but specifically the dyeing feathers to be more gender affirming. immediately started thinking abt birddaughter already doing a form of this and that by extension birdperson's far duller plummage could even make him read as gnc among birdpeople....

UEAHHH DEFINITELY W BIRDDAUGHTER. also yessss i do think personallllyyyy theres a lot to b said abt how bp doesnt fit neatly into bird culture anyways like REGARDLESS of being trans … it depends on how you interpret the culture but tbh id definitely consider bp to be gnc in some form ….

#also much to be said abt his atypical family … hm #oohhhhh birdworld how i desire to know you more … #interesting also that technically all three times he parts ways w rick can be tied back to .. bird cultureee #first time pretty explicitly he misses home and specifically like. the music i think. i forget #second time. is moreso his own values clashing w ricks but like … where do those values come from. and thinkin abt his chat w morty #abt how abandoning his home (and rick) wld be a dick move #and then most recnetly he leaves to go after his family #hmmm. reaching but idgaf #i have aoooo many bird thoughts .. #TALKING ABT BIRDRICK A SEC this is why i go fucking crazyyyy over them like early on where they dont know the like gendered shit of each ot #others culture. like rick doesnt know that male birdppl r supposed to be like x and and bp doesnt know male humans r supposed to be liek y #and they dont gaf!!!!!!! #sigh …. wish i cld be in space free of human expectations ………. lol #ok idk if i sound stupid in the tags LOL i keep forgetting what ive written im. on mobile whatever #asks

[bravevolunteer]

fear street michael worst camp counselor of all time

#so sorry to anyone who has to deal with making him be responsible he does not give a single fuck <3 #why would he go do this thing that he did not want to do around so many people who don't like and/or spread rumors about him #when he could just sneak off and get high hm? HM?? #like i said awhile ago he CAN'T go do that task what if there's just So Many Bees There HDFGHDF #... it's just a Little Funny that he probably has to sober up when the Killings start 💀 #now if i could write instead of posting short thoughts that would be GREAT #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[wabblebees]

never never never in my life gonna be able to beat the weirdo theatre nerd allegations. its midnight and for the last few hours ive been (voluntarily of my own free will At No-One's Behest) doing some character research for the show we're working on (which at a certain level is Absolutely Necessary!! but at *this* level is Absolutely Not. lmfao)(and so... ik for a fact if i mention this in rehearsal tomorrow im gonna get a whole lotta blank stares ((or TERRIFIED looks from the freshmen wondering if they should be doing this much work lmao))

but anyway so about 10 minutes ago i found a fucking essay (just 9 pages out of this philological collection from the 60s) that just the idea behind the Very Simple title made me so excited i had to stand up at my desk to start reading it and fully forgot to sit back down until i realized i wanted to start TAKING NOTES..... WHICH I GENERALLY HATE DOING WHILE READING........ BUT IM TOO EXCITED AND DONT WANNA FORGET ANY OF IT.................. SO IM TAKING FUCKING NOTES

but anyway beyond tHAT the thing that actually made me pause to start typing this post though is the fact that just now, four pages in, this essay finally put something into place that ive been puzzling over in my head since i very first read the play which... made me happystim so hard i almost knocked myself out of my fucking chair. hdkdgsjfkfhdgskdgwrdjfk.

so yeah. never beating the nerd allegations. lmao

#''IT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE TO TIE THE PLAY DOWN TO ANY PARTICULAR CONTEMPORARY SITUATION'' ITS A THOUGHT EXPERIMENT ITS A THOUGHT EXPERIMENT #OF COURSE IT IS. IM JUST OBLIVIOUS. BUT. GWRRGDJDGRFDJKFRWRDGWRGDJSHKFRK IM GONNA EAT MY FUCKEN SCRIPT #ahem. hm. pardon. #its just my brain is full of lightning atm you see. because i am unwell about poetry and theatre and philosophy and this is. OUUGHHH #its like the universe decided that since this week was so weird and uncomfortable i deserved little a treat #and gave me smth to growling shake around in my head for the next several days like a fucking mental chew toy #we've been talking a lot in rehearsal about why this play why now why this version which is always important and great to do #but some of the things people have said made me internally go ''mmmmm. no. no i dont think thats correct but i cant decide why exactly'' #& its bc theyre taking it as its supposed to be literal but !! these characters arent necessarily supposed to each be recognizable people !! #theyre here to QUESTION A THEORY #''THE GODS ARE NOT ON ANTIGONE'S SIDE. IS ANTIGONE (EXCEPT ACCIDENTALLY) ON THE GODS' SIDE?'' #IM GONNA EXPLODE #anyway um . #thanks for coming to my ted talk lmao #ive literally been pacing as i type this bc im so . OURGHH. THEMES THEMES THEMES THEMES THEMES. GRRWAAUGHH. #kreon tag #<-*slaps the roof of him* oh i am gonna fit so many character choices into this bad boy #.......... #i um . may be avoiding my homework #oops. #bee speaks

[deltaruminations]

if i can be momentarily ship-for-brains a little bit i do think the implication of asriel and dess having had A Thing is very interesting when considered from the Eloping From The Narrative/Dess ‘n’ Dings Mobius Double Reacharound* perspective. because like yeah what’s more Rejecting The Narrative than the story’s intended hero rejecting her made-to-be love interest and waltzing around the Fantasy Holes with the story’s intended villain instead, directly defying the Will of their absent clockmaker God

like. thinking about the relationships around Dess, both the Holiday and Dreemurr parents were literally Made For Each Other — we know that at least Asgore and Toriel are the same Type of monster (this isn’t yet confirmed for the Holidays, but i think it’s more likely than not. also i will be shocked if the Mayor’s name isn’t Clarice. come on.), which fits common Fictional Family tropes — but even before her disappearance there may have been cracks forming. we don’t know enough about rudy and c’s relationship yet to say much about it, but we do know they didn’t start off on the best foot, though rudy plays off their meeting as a funny anecdote.** asgore and toriel were high school sweethearts who, if we follow that trope, may have never considered seeing anyone else before getting hitched, and we know (from our perspective later in the timeline) that the marriage failed. rudy and asgore have long-standing and extremely obvious chemistry but apparently never seriously entertained the idea that they’d make a good couple.

and then their first born kids seem to be in a perfect position to be Love Interests — they’re next door neighbors, childhood friends, she even wears his jacket. a perfectly wholesome Story Couple. of course asriel is the perfect love interest, the sweet, popular golden boy, her parents’ best friends’ child and someone the bulk of the audience already loves. i could see both in- and out-of-universe actors being very approving of it, even pressuring for it.

and i could see Dess, already rebellious, picking her own name and watching scary movies and wielding bats against bullies, looking at that whole situation and mistrusting it and thinking, Maybe I Should Explore My Options. maybe asriel is, if she’s being honest, a little boring. and, well, who’s that strange, spooky boy who just showed up in town one day? the one who keeps giving her Halloween pencils*** and seems to know just a little too much about quantum optics? the quiet outsider no one seems to like or trust very much? maybe he needs a friend. so they start to hang out. they stumble onto Dark Worlds together, and that becomes their little secret — not just because the Dark Worlds themselves are so exciting, mysterious, and dangerous, but because they can sense that the relationship is increasingly transgressive. her parents can’t know. asriel definitely can’t. these two kids’ relationship becomes so entangled in the escape of a collaborative fiction in which they can safely and authentically be themselves, together, that they end up dragging the whole universe with them into a struggle over creative disagreements (do we let it end with the Roaring or not?) that is really, at its core, about an unspoken mutual fear of losing each other. as above so below etc.

the possibilities in that for tying together other story threads… there are a lot. i dunno. ex: if this is D&D’s little secret, who’s the other person in “YOU TWO”? well, what if kris followed them on one of their excursions? what if they knew about the Dark Worlds, and even the burgeoning relationship, but struck a deal — they get to join in the adventure as long as they don’t tell. maybe the “deals” and “agreements” between kris and will-be extraplanar entities run deep. convenient, isn’t it, that kris as player-vessel can’t talk as far as a Player is concerned, and can’t speak freely to other characters? they can’t spill secrets or tell of any truths or promises they may know exist in anyone’s hearts. if that wasn’t gaster’s doing, then what if it was dess’s? is this all just high-octane copium to justify liking a very fringe crack ship? probably. man. i don’t even fucking know. just. do you see my Vision. do you understand. also they’d just be funny together i think

*truly don’t know what an appropriate and succinct name would be for this theory/headcanon but i’m assuming you guys know what i’m talking about given that i won’t shut up about it

**it is, to be fair, pretty funny

***i know i know the Halloween pencil story from Get In The Car, Losers substantiates nothing. just. [takes an uncomfortably long, loud huff of copium] let me have this one vaguely evidence-adjacent thing. blease,

#99% of the time i couldn’t care less about shipping but like. there’s wild story potential here for me #headcanon zone #do i dare tag this as deltarune analysis. feels. hm. transgressive lol. funny how that works #obviously more could also be said about the current batch of kids and their relationship to Narrative Approved Ships etc. #i do have many thoughts about that. ​maybe another day. #long post #happy friday???? lmao

[leatherbookmark]

hopping around different blogs is fun.

a post on blog 1: i find it a little weird that -- don't get me wrong, the barbie movie looks great with all the doll-like details, i bet the actors had great fun and i'd like to see it myself, but -- people are getting excited about marketing of this movie. they're acting as though mattel's 3985* deals with 837* different companies are something new, exciting and creative instead of... 3985 deals with 837 companies spanning many different areas! this movie is a commercial for a doll! isn't this kinda weird?

*numbers made up

a post on blog 2: i don't think any sane adult doesn't realize that this is a toy commercial! it's rather obvious.

a post on blog 3: boo hoo 'the barbie movie is capitalist propaganda' i don't give a SHIT marx won't fuck you. did you do this for transformers too? do you think only stupid girls who like pink need the reminder?

like, oooooh! things are happening!

#shrimp thoughts #earlier today i got into a bit of an essay reading spree (as much as my brain allowed me lol) #and it got me thinking about like... associating oneself with products/aesthetics/companies as a way of self-creation #this is me. i love [fashion brand] you won't catch me without my k*nken and here is my room in which you can see posters of [movies] #it's very... human to get excited about things and feel it more the more others get excited because. community building #at the same time i've noticed it myself that it's so much easier to label yourself a [thing] girl than to like... Look Into Yourself #who am i? what defines me? these questions are difficult because how do i know that? with what means do i obtain this knowledge? #should i create myself as i want or should i observe myself with the eyes of others instead? ...let me just say i like plants and overalls #and i feel like when someone says something you perceive as a critique of the identity slash community you associate yourself with #it's... hurtful? but at the same time. hm. i don't know actually #like chances are these posts are talking about completely different things and not vaguing each other or even similar posts #maybe posts that blog 3 vagues really were obnoxiously condescending! who knows! that being said DESPITE being a small-brained #shrimp who would honestly love to win soooo many moneys and just do whatever i want all day instead of being an Independant and Competent #Expert In My Field (this sounds scary and stressing). i still would like to avoid falling into the 'just let me ENJOY things and don't try #to make me hate femininity because it's not working! pink and shopping can be empowering' hole. #idk!! i listen to k/pop and am part magpie. i can't quite pose myself as like anti-capitalist intellectual #but i do want to achieve at least a small brain! someday!! and boy do i hope my brain energy days don't end before the books arrive;; #2am thoughts. wonder if my mother goes to sleep earlier than at 4am today because its getting annoying

[agallimaufryofoddments]

Do I attempt to salvage the thought I had about Fermet printing Fermetes 2+ hours ago into a post at 10:23 PM or do I salvage the 1883 words of a .md file I apparently wrote before the two hours of helping someone assemble monitor stand + cable management session began into some droll post for tomorrow?

#Baccano! Light Novel Spoilers #personal #it's probably the latter #I finally sat back down after the two hours and attempted to write said pithy post #but my already sleep-deprived brain is not having it. #*droll not pithy #*blatantly terribly written not droll #It's not even a particularly interesting or deep thought but the primordial instinct within me telling me my B! knowledge is hopelessly #wrong and that I should factcheck some of this is holding it back #(but seriously though. Fermet hive mind supervising SAMPLE branches across Europe and NA ... #(...these not quite carbon copy Fermets but /very/alike Fermets just. supervising the multi-continent perpetuation of #~child torture cult~ #(hm. yes. how will these SAMPLE seeds sprout in America. I know. I shall water them personally but allow them to blossom idiosyncracies) #(I'm not saying that's what Fermet did. I'm just asking you to imagine hive!Fermet in Fermet-progeny homunculi cultivating their culty crops #simultaneously across two continents minimum - three actually (Asia via Japan) - for however many years (???decs???) it's been since #Fermet cottoned on to whatever constituted proto hivemind alchemy #Wow it's easier to write and post things to Tumblr in the sweet sweet informal casual atmosphere of tags #and not the formal 'wuh woh your content may be treated seriously' posts themselves.This doesn't count as a post... #(Really definitely not saying that. Nothing I say in these tags counts! Take this flourish on top of the cartoon evil and be put out.) #Looks like those 1883 words also referenced Huey hive mind

[carrieway]

in other news i bickered with ethan over whether or not im chronically ill . i think i lost .

#like YAH i have a lot of stomach issues that cause intense pain that leaves me unable to do anything more often than not and i make #bi-annual trips to the ER because of it and most of the time i have an undercurrent of pain that leaves me uncomfortable and unable to #really relax #and Sure i cant eat a majority of food without getting ill and doctors just look at me and ask if i want birth control #bc i pcos and that's all they focus on even though pcos is the least painful thing i have rn #But. #But ! #it's not that bad n others like deal with legit things you know #idk. i have so many internalized issues NDDNDNND #bc i have pcos* i am Not pcos as a whole #IDK. its hard to admit to anything. i can barely legitimately admit im severely mentally ill #even though it is so very obvious NDNDNDN #i had ''disabled'' in my bio for a hot minute once a year or two ago n it quickly disappeared bc i just thought like. well everyone's gna #think im a liar ! #n it's more of like....hm hm. less of a liar more of people think im selling myself short which is a bananas of an ableist statement #but these are things people have said to me ! like buddy i am not selling myself short i am telling you i will have a meltdown at a moments #notice over literally nothing #like. it's being realistic and honest but ive been made to feel otherwise and i hate lying so i get tense around this #bc of what ive been lead to believe #idk where this is going im just rambling my apologies NDDNND #i have so much to unlearn. i know it doesnt affect others how i think bc i make sure it never extends outward but...how i treat myself does #i think #treating myself poorly for things my friends or even ethan deals with can reflect onto them i think. so i do need to better that area #it is hard ! it is hard. but not impossible ! #maybe i just need to write all my issues out on a piece of paper and pretend they're on someone else #so i can better see it all #blabs

[astrxealis]

milgram is so complex it eats up my brain

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚ #i have made many tldrs but ANYWAYS #he just i think needs to outright admit his responsibility in it then BOOM innocent fr #i think innocent might help him w that honestly. being voted guilty first time around and you can see hes being more yeah w #admitting that hes wrong. imo all this time he knew he was wrong (he's always shown regret. i think) even if it may not be obvious #<- still has to listen to drama audios but from the many info i've picked up i think that tracks! correct me if i'm wrong though #'are both sides losers?' and there's more instances where he's questioning his 'innocence' more #tbh it's possible he only fears the consequences. (ty lune also for sharing another idea <3) so that's the thing as well........ #super complex. love milgram fr! imo fuuta is one of the most interesting. ngl all of them are really interesting #i REALLY need to check out the drama audios #hopefully it affirms what i believe though #iirc the va said that if you only see the mv you'd think he's guilty. glad that doesn't seem to be what is going on #but also idk if i'm 'glad' about that as well. hmm... fuuta is my favorite fr even if i love haruka and mikoto lots too #it's so complex aghhh milgram ily #i personally don't think he just fears the consequences but it's also actually likely. i don't want my bias to get in the way #'strong sense of justice' right? but would that be out of a want to actually help... or not #<- he and kotoko are similar in that regard i feel. but i do find it unfair that kotoko was innocent bcs she purposely #yk. went out and dirtied her hands. and ofc fuuta is yeah too and i don't know the full of it but he at least shows SOME #regret. even if it may not be out of the good of his heart. then again iirc his character description says hes a coward w a good heart.. hm

[aeide-thea]

saw yet another conversation abt Epithets in Writing and it got me thinking—we all know badfic authors have historically been hugely fond of hair color and age as descriptors, but even setting aside the fact that in the majority of circs this is terrible writing (for reasons others have already explained), does anyone actually mentally label even strangers that way? like, if i encounter someone whose name i don't know, and have reason to engage with them at all instead of just ignoring them, i probably notice things like, idk, gender presentation, skin color, body type, maybe hair length if it's unusual... but if you run into someone who has brown hair, isn't that just bog-standard? in what world does that constitute a distinctive, memorable feature??

#i mean clearly these things are just Bad Conventions and not anything the authors have actually thought through #bc if they actually thought 'hm what characteristics do i‚ a normal human person‚ notice and remember about other people' #they would not imo come up with these #like how many hollywood actors are white men with brown hair. how does 'he has brown hair' elucidate anything ever. #anyway this is a boring post just like. yet another thing where norms override actual thought and engagement with reality! #(*possibly* though something to be said here abt the sort of fic that has like. a blond-brunet binary) #(and how it works as a distinction because no one in that sort of fic is real) #(so if anyone but the central pairing gets mentioned they're just greyfaces‚ and even the central pairing are essentially ken dolls) #(so like. on the one hand it's not thought-through but on the other hand it's arguably true to the very unreal world of these fics...)

[croakings]

i understand why it doesn't, but i do wish tumblr gave you the option to see things from people/content you've blocked under certain conditions, like the ability to reveal/delete/otherwise manage blocked messages in the inbox, or to not have posts sent by designated users show as unavailable in messages regardless of content

#* #staff take notes #i have two things in my inbox i simply cannot see #and many posts people send to me show up as unavailable because i am god's biggest #and most indiscriminate hater and i have so mamy random people/words/tags blocked. #i'm not even sure that's why stuff doesn't show up but i feel like it's probably that. #SECRET CONTENT FOR ME SPECIFICALLY.............. show me the hidden information. i'm so curious. #anyway ig this is also a psa that if you've said something to me recently and i haven't responded apparently it got caught by. #Some sort of filter. i thought i just had the Ome Thing In Your Inbox glitch but now it is 2. hm

[spirngakawening]

Sometimes when reblogging I think "it's been a while since I've posted anything Spring Awakening-related, people might be surprised to see it on my blog" then I remember what my blog name is

#part of it is like. i hope ppl don't get the wrong idea 'cause yeah i love this musical but i also hate it #like i am highly critical of it i just keep those discussions to the dead discord server #but yeah if anyone was gonna like. block me for liking it they'd just have to look at my username asdfghjkl #for anyone with no context this prolly sounds bad like why would someone block me for liking a musical #idk man ppl have strong opinions sometimes.it could happen #ik i myself am a lil weary of the fandom 💀 #if you're a casual spring awakening enjoyer that's fine. power to ya. but. agh. this fecking musical #it's my blog name bc it kickstarted my second & ongoing musical phase. like my starter musicals were heathers & bmc but this one Got Me #it was prolly my most intense fixation since.. since hetalia 💀 WHICH WAS MY FIRST EVER FANDOM #i was out here learning songs in ASL because of this musical WE DON'T EVEN USE ASL HERE (although i did go on to take Auslan classes) #i.. this musical had an impact on my life and that's all i can really say. boy oh boy... #spring awakening #braindumping in the tumblr tags #don't go watch this musical. but maybe do go read the play it's based on idk #i have many thoughts and feelings about this #shoutout to everyone who's said they felt like they were having a stroke reading my username #probably not the most sensitive way to describe it but i do perfectly understand what you mean #kinda the intended effect. jumbling the letters like that #rly it's just swapping two letters in each word. but it's effective #hm i just got a poll idea

[kitsquared]

If i want it to be in pokemon au i'd do what they did in the pokemon special manga and combine chuuya and mewtwo's dna like they did with blake. Or the blood connection Red and Deoxys2 had

#or. have chuuya steal a type:null #like gladion did :) #im on the fence of giving atsushi a regular pokemon and he attracts a lot of mythicals #or i give him at least one legendary #in the main route #Hm #(Kit)^2 #Since it's au talk ill tag it as is #Bsd pokemon au #BUT #in regards to atsushi #i can give him a growlithe too. cuz lion tiger motif #and arcanine are technically known as the “legendary pokemon” #so #its just funny people are reporting a loose shiny arcanine ?? but its atsushi and shiny arcanines have more yellow gold tint? #and then atsushi also happens to have growlithe? it's too obvious to me #? uff #^^ it went to atsushi because i momentarily thought what if i gave him a type:null? And i said so many things in the tags already to edit #but uhhh idkk!!!! #Long tags

[kentopedia]

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ HOME COOKED MEAL — nanami kento

you bring itadori home for dinner & he gets to see a different side to kento

contents. aka you dig up some teenage photos of nanami, fem!reader, husband nanami, fluff, yuuji being your adopted son, i haven't watched the new ep (& i won't) but there is enough nanami angst so i am here to fix that — 1.7k

when you got ready to leave the school, your jacket on and bag tugged over your shoulder, you passed yuuji itadori in the halls, his expression suspiciously similar to a kicked puppy. 

yuuji perked up a bit as you walked by, offering you a small smile and a wave. and though you considered heading on home for the night, eager to see your husband, you slowed, hesitant to leave the poor kid all alone. 

“everything okay, yuuji?” you asked, frowning as he rested his elbows on his knees, studying a stain on the floor of the school. 

“hm?” the teenager glanced up, eyes bright and wide. his sweet smile was back on his face, so innocent and kind. for someone who had been through so much already, he was more caring than many people that you’d met in your life. “oh, everything’s fine. everyone’s just out on missions, so i feel a little…” he pulled up one shoulder in a shrug. “useless.” 

you knew it must have been hard for him, being a student that wasn’t quite like the others, having to train a little differently, adapt differently. but yuuji took it in stride, and he handled it better than any normal person would. 

with a nod, you secured your bag around your other shoulder, shifting your feet. “it’s just going to be you here tonight, then?” 

he hummed, sticking his hands in his pockets as he leaned back against the wall. “i think so. some of the others might be around, but they’re resting up.” 

“oh.” though you were certain yuuji had no qualms about spending an evening on his own, the thought of it made you feel like you were leaving a kitten out in the rain. almost pitiful. 

yuuji waved before you could say another word, smiling, his eyes crinkling at the corners. “have a good night! i’ll see you tomorrow.” 

the car ride was spent listening to yuuji tell you story after story, the boy opening up to you in a way that he hadn’t quite related to any of the other sorcerers, even gojo.

you smiled to yourself, enjoying his stories as you wondered how to tell kento that you were bringing your student home for dinner. 

there was still a bridge to cross between them, and though you knew they both liked the other more than they let on, kento hadn’t quite connected to the boy like he wanted to.

you hoped that by inviting him over, yuuji would see that kento, truly, wasn’t as intense as he let on. he was sweet, caring, and he did have a sense of humor… even if gojo didn’t really believe that. 

you led yuuji into the house, and stopped him when you heard the sound of kento in the kitchen. his mission had ended earlier than yours, and he’d offered to cook tonight; there would be more than enough food for the three of you. 

“i’ll be right back,” you said, tapping yuuji on the shoulder. “let me go tell kento you’re here.” 

you’d considered letting your husband know before you arrived, but you hadn’t wanted him to protest. kento would try to make a fuss of having a guest over, even if it was only yuuji, and he certainly didn’t care about formalities. 

your heart skipped when you reached kento, his back turned, finishing up the meal that was steaming on the stove. even just standing in the threshold of the kitchen, you were overwhelmed with all of your love for him. 

but it didn’t take much… it never had. you’d always been sickeningly in love with nanami kento. 

your footsteps were soft as you snuck up behind him. “kento,” you said, just above a whisper, snaking your arms around his waist. you kissed the muscles between his shoulder blades, listening to the steady thrum of blood pumping through his body. 

“hi, sweetheart.” he’d heard you approach, and he turned, eyes softening when he glanced at you over his shoulder. “everything okay at the school?”

you nodded, squeezing him tighter. even though you’d seen him just a few hours prior, it felt like a long time—time apart when you were battling curses always dragged as you worried for each other’s safety. “did your mission go okay?” you asked. 

he took your hands from around his waist, bringing them to his lips softly. “everything went fine. dinner’s almost ready so—” then, he noticed your guilty expression, one that you were clearly horrible at hiding. “is something wrong?” 

you smiled innocently. “no! i just… brought a guest.” 

kento’s eyebrows raised, his smiling falling quickly. “well, you could’ve told me before.” he sighed, shaking his head as he turned around to face you. 

“sorry, i thought i’d surprise you.” 

kento’s lips drew into a thinner line. “honey, please tell me gojo satoru is not in my house right now. he’s not welcome here anymore, because the last time he almost destroyed our fucki—” kento glanced up, his words falling away as he glanced over your shoulder. “itadori. hello. i didn’t realize you were there.” 

you turned, releasing kento as yuuji gawked back at you. he’d caught in such a loving embrace with kento. yuuji’s normally stoic teacher was in the middle of swearing, blonde hair tumbling over his forehead. kento had replaced his suit with casual wear, and his contacts had been taken out. in place of them were wire-rimmed glasses. 

“nanamin!” yuuji gasped. “you look so different.” 

“yes, well, i apologize for my apperance.” kento sighed, looking at you from the corner of his eye. “i wasn’t aware we were having guests.” 

“one guest. its just yuuji,” you said, poking him in the middle of the chest as his professional tone returned, so easily taking over. “i don’t think he cares what you’re wearing.” 

“no, i don’t!” yuuji backtracked, eyes wide as he shuffled forward. “no, you look cool, you don’t look so…” 

kento raised his eyebrows, amused, even if yuuji couldn’t detect the humor in his expression. “so what?” 

the boy’s cheeks turned pink, embarrassed as he rubbed the back of his neck. “um—”

“you don’t look like you’ve got a stick up your ass.” you said, voicing yuuji’s obvious thoughts as you kissed kento on the cheek with a short laugh. of course, it was only to embarrass him further in front of his student. 

kento feigned a scowl, but didn’t push you away, his gaze firmly planted on yuuji. “that’s because i try to keep my relationships at work strictly professional.” 

“really?” yuuji grinned, stuffing his hands back in his pockets, his posture relaxing as he grew more comfortable in your home. “not very professional to marry someone you work with, is it?” 

you laughed loudly, already caring so deeply for the boy that you’d known for such a short period of time. 

“that was certainly an accident,” kento muttered, but his fingers lingered on your spine, tracing each of the bones. “i’ll have you know we were not working together when we got together.” 

“really?” yuuji’s curiosity spiked. “how long have you been together, then?” 

you thought back to when you were teenagers, when kento had a haircut that he had since regretted, and smiled mischievously. reaching into your pocket, you pulled out your phone and scrolled through old photos, back from when you were just kids, the images grainy and of much lower quality than the ones from your recent vacation. 

“hey, don’t show him those!” kento protested. he reached for your phone, but you scrambled under his arm, stretching your hand out to give yuuji the device. “itadori, don’t—” kento’s voice held a hint of panic, his cheeks hot with embarrassment as he grabbed you around the waist, trying to stop you from giving yuuji the phone. 

but it was already in yuuji’s hands, and you laughed loudly, knowing that while you looked a little more awkward than you did now, your appearance had changed near as drastically as kento’s. 

yuuji squinted his eyes at a sixteen year old nanami, blond hair long enough to reach his eyes, dressed in an all black ensemble, an earbud in one ear. kento was hardly smiling, but you beamed next to him in the photo, dressed more childishly than you were now, but just as pretty. the image from when you still fumbled around each other, unsure how to admit that you were both in love. 

a roar of laughter left yuuji as kento’s expression fell, and he released you, snapping the phone out of itadori’s palm. “that’s you, nanamin? no way. how did you…” yuuji glanced between you, squinting his eyes. “well, i guess looking at you now it makes sense.” 

“i know,” you agreed, covering your smiles with your palms. “we looked a little silly together back then. i saw the potential in him, but satoru certainly loved to make fun of us, didn’t he, ken?” 

“i have absolutely no desire to relive those days.” 

yuuji laughed. “you were just like fushiguro, i bet!” 

“scarily similar,” you agreed, as kento rolled his eyes beside you, putting your phone in his pocket to keep you from scavenging any older photos to share with the kid. “and he still loves to listen to—”

“don’t finish that sentence or i’ll save this dinner all for myself.” 

yuuji eyes flew up to his hairline, but you just snorted, knowing that kento’s threats were about as scary as a puppy.

“he’s still sensitive about it,” you whispered to yuuji. “gojo and his friends made fun of him all the time.” 

“oh really. just me?” kento retorted under his breath.

“you must have been pretty popular, then!” yuuji grinned. “if you were friends with gojo. he said all the girls in school loved him!”

kento made an irritated sound, stirring the spoon roughly against the pot. “well, satoru is the last person you should listen to. he has an ego bigger than the sun. and my wife is leading you astray. she was not similar to satoru, she was painfully shy, and it took weeks for either of us to talk to each other.” kento took the pan off the stove, peering over his shoulder at you. “and she is very lucky i love her too much to dig up any embarrassing stories of her.” 

“well, stories about me aren’t that interesting anyway.” you laughed, pointedly turning your back to kento. “yuuji, the good news is, i’ve got some more photos in kento in the old photo books. let’s go see them!” 

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