#high school lolita

[chattercap]

Review of High School Lolita!

I just finished High School Lolita by @chimeriquement, and I have many thoughts!!

While I don't think that this is a game for everyone, since it deals with some pretty sensitive subject matter, I thought that the story dealt with its themes with a great deal of care and nuance. I highly recommend it if you have the time (it's pretty short, less than an hour total). While this is certainly not a feel-good story, I would say that it ends well in both of its endings.

You can play it here!

In High School Lolita, you play as Chloe, a high schooler who falls into a relationship with the young, handsome teacher (Matthieu) that saved her when she was being bullied.

Note that there are spoilers (and discussions of sensitive subject matter) from this point onward!

While the relationship is seemingly innocuous at first, it quickly turns romantic. While Matthieu is conflicted about being in a romantic relationship with his student, they both escalate the relationship, with tragic results.

Unlike the original Lolita, which focuses solely on the perspective of the adult (who I will say is the abuser), this version focuses solely on the perspective of the child (the victim). This perspective was very compelling; all too often I think that these stories of abuse are told from the perspective of the abuser or an outside party. Chloe's struggles are consistent and relatable, especially for young teens, and you can clearly see how her insecurities led her into an unhealthy relationship. She likes to please and talk with adults because it makes her feel grown up. She is unhealthily obsessed with her romantic fixations (at her birthday party, she only made wishes about her future with Matthieu, for example). She continually blames herself. This pattern of behavior is clear from the very first scene, where she didn't seek help when she was bullied because she didn't want to bother her family. Throughout her relationship with Matthieu, she blames herself for his woes, and she tries her best to change herself to please him. She doesn't blame him or anyone else, even when she should.

Matthieu is an interesting character. I think that the game does a good job of painting him as neither an angel nor a demon, but as a deeply troubled individual. He's young, handsome, sociable, and intelligent. He doesn't fit into the stereotype of a typical abuser at all. The game even questions why he is so desperate for a relationship with an underage student. He constantly berates himself for engaging in this relationship with Chloe, but at the same time he is the one to initiate almost all of the major moves: the confession, the kisses, etc. He constantly brings up her age, but at the same time he recites excuses as to why he's in love with her despite her youth. He assigns reading material about men obsessed with younger women and owns a copy of Lolita, even though he declares that he hates it. He is a tormented person who clearly hates his own proclivities, but at the same time there is a sense of egotism about the way that he behaves. He constantly self-flagellates himself in Chloe's presence, as if searching for some kind of approval for his behavior. This culminates in his death in both endings. I won't analyze such a tragic event, but in both cases, I wondered: why did he only do it after Chloe's arrival, in a way that would clearly traumatize her for life?

While it wasn't for very long, I do have some experience working as an adult with elementary and high schoolers. It can be very difficult to establish boundaries with students, especially if you're a relatively young adult. Students will ask all sorts of inappropriate questions/make tons of inappropriate requests. It is not uncommon at all for students to give love notes to the young teachers that they liked. It is absolutely the responsibility of the adult to establish those boundaries. Chloe is very active in the events of High School Lolita, but despite her advances towards Matthieu, she is not responsible; she is a child, and it was ultimately Matthieu's responsibility to reject her. The GUI is rendered as crayon-style doodles, with plenty of hearts and roses strewn all over. This really reflects Chloe's childish, rose-colored view of romance. When things turn dark, the GUI changes to reflect that, which is very immersive. I also liked the little animations strewn throughout. The stylized black and white backgrounds contrasted well with the vibrant characters and further lent to the idea that this is truly a rose-colored facade over a grim reality.

I did appreciate that, in both endings, the ultimate outcome is similar. In both, Matthieu kills himself, and we see Chloe as an adult as she processes the events of the game. I was expecting at least one to feature the romantic "happily ever after," but I was glad that this wasn't the case, as it makes it explicitly clear that the romance was never the happy ending. In both endings, Chloe is free from her abuser. While the experience affected her, she in the process of healing. I think ending the story in this way leaves the player on a good note while making the intent of the story undeniable.

All in all, High School Lolita is a very interesting VN with excellent, consistent character writing that touches on some relevant and important topics in a nuanced way.

#visual novel #visual novel game #high school lolita #chattercap-reviews #indiegame #visual novel review #other-dev-games

[longreads]

We obsessed over stolen glances. The moments when T., sitting at his desk — brown hair and stubbly chin, his broad shoulders hunched over his laptop — would suddenly look up and catch my eye from across the room. How I would smile slightly, foot bouncing up and down beneath my desk.

Kayla and I swore up and down that M. and T. could read our minds, knew how infatuated we were, knew we were different, were artists.

We were being so obvious. Speaking with our eyes, our bodies. If they hadn’t said anything, hadn’t turned us down by now, it meant they definitely liked us back. They knew we were different — some invisible pulsation moving from their hearts to ours, begging us to recognize their deafening love, their painful lust, their desire to know us deeper than we knew ourselves. We relished that silence. But I’m not sure how harmless it was.

Jessica L. Pavia tackles the dangers of silence, puberty, and the desire for attention in our latest story, “The Teacher Crush.” 

#longreads #longform #nonfiction #puberty #high school #lolita #lana del rey #crush #molly maxwell

[crrows]

Emiru, 2002

#jsk and ribbon are heart e #blouse is etc #socks iw #emily temple cute does the most incredible high neck blouses #i have one from 2000 and its less a collar more a frilly turtleneck #its the best #egl #lolita fashion #old school lolita

[summerinthesunrise]

heyy i’m back i didn’t acc kms xx<3

#lolita 1962 #summer #summer aesthetic #dilf lovers #coquette #dolores haze #lizzy grant #lolita #lolita 1997 #lana del rey aka lizzy grant #girl blogging #girl interrupted #girl blogger #girl smoking #high school girl #the virgin suicides #lux libson #valerie and her week of wonders #female hysteria

[lichdolly]

Metamorphose Temps de Fille - Velveteen High Waist Skirt in off-white, black&white, red, and blue (2007)

#metamorphose temps de fille #metamorphose #egl community #egl fashion #egl #gothic lolita #elegant gothic lolita #alt fashion #kawaii fashion #old school lolita #lolita fashion #jfashion #velveteen high waist skirt (07) #my post tag #velveteen dreams

[okiidokii]

The oddest thing that has resulted from G1 vs G3 discourse (apart from the harassment of real life designers) is the fact that in an attempt to defend G3 design choices, they has been a large campaign to act as if G1 monster high was never in the slightest bit alternative or gothic

like yes at times g1 fans tend of over-compensate the gothicness of the original dolls (especially when you look at the later doll releases of Monster High) but like

that's pretty alt

#Monster High #Monster High G1 #monster high dolls #like Back To School Draculaura is straight up wearing a lolita dress #the closest G3 has gotten to this was Day Out and Coffee Break Frankie #my post

[the-corvus-luna]

Internet Archive links are embedded in the titles.

Enjoy.

<3

Wish LIVE [December 11 1996 at 南青山MANDALA]

[GIF is a placeholder image as I cannot locate an advertisement for this event.]

Set List

星月夜 (Starry Night)

雪のひとひら (Snowflake)

舞踏会の手帳 (Ballroom Notebook)

彼と彼女の聖夜 (His and Her Holy Night)

ピアニィ・ピンク (Peony Pink)

冬物語 (Winter Story)

Wish

エンジェルエッグの作り方 (How to Make an Angel Egg)

Chu Chu

雨のソナタ ～La Pluie～(Rain Sonata ~La Pluie~)

マダム・ノワール ~ 恋せよ乙女 (Madame Noir ~ Fall in love, Maiden)

嵐が丘 (Wuthering Heights)

夢のあとに ~ après un réve (After an Dream)

Wish (Finale)

われに五月を ~ May for Me [May 1 1998 at 下北沢CLUB Que]

Set List

SANCTUS (Instrumental)

ヴェネツィアン・ラプソディ (Venetian Rhapsody)

嵐が丘 (Wuthering Heights)

Chu Chu

Rose Moon

雨のソナタ ～LaPluie～(Rain Sonata ~La Pluie~)

天使に寄す (Approaching the Angel)

Anniversary of Angel

月夜のピエレット (Pierrette on a Moonlit Night)

Madame Noir

Halation

エンジェルエッグの作り方 (How to Make an Angel Egg)

Wish

聖月夜 (Moonlight Night)

夢のあとで (After the Dream)

共月亭で逢いましょう (Let's meet at Kyogetsutei)

ピアニイ・ピンク [終] (Peony Pink [Finale])

L’epoque des ZAZOUS [May 25 2000 at GUILTY Live in Ebisu]

It looks like the Ali Project Fan Club first meeting was at "L’epoque des ZAZOUS" at STAR PINE’S CAFE, 2000.2.24.

According to the 5.25.2000 pamphlet, the STAR PINE'S CAFE show should have been 8.5.2000 unless it was delayed, confirming this performance to be L’epoque des ZAZOUS.

月のように夢のように薔薇のように

Like the Moon, Like a Dream, Like Darkness

闇のように毒のように 天使のように

Like a Rose, Like Poison, Like an Angel

美しいとは、貴方、こう云うことよ。

To be beautiful is, you see, like this.

Set list

1. ダリの宝石店 (Dali's Jewelry Store)

2. ヴェネツィアン・ラプソディー (Venetian Rhapsody)

3. サロメティック・ルナティック (Salometic Lunatic)

4. 星降る夜の天文学　～BEDSIDE　ASTRONOMY～ (Starry Night Astronomy)

5. エンジェルエッグの作り方 (How to Make an Angel Egg)

6. 乙女の祈り (Maiden's Prayer)

7. コッペリアの棺 (Coppelia's Coffin)

8. Sacrifice

9. LOST CHILD

10. Sahra (instrumental) [Note: From Mikiya Katakura's album, Lento]

11. 病める薔薇 (Sick Rose)

12. 金いろのひつじ (チェロ：四家卯大) (Golden Sheep feat. Shika Udai )

13. 月光浴 (チェロ：四家卯大) (Moonlight Bath feat. Shika Udai )

14. 月光夜 (Moonlight Night)

15. オフェリア遺文 (Ofelia's Last Will)

Ant Project 198824 [Also known as 蟻プロジェクト 198824]

Promotional Video Source

Translated text:

This is a PV-like version of the same video as the live video 198824 (198824 was released in 2000). (The opening illustration is by Kamui Fujiwara, a manga artist who was a friend of mine at the time. The illustration at the end is by Arika.

蟻プロジェクト 198824 was recorded February 4. 1988. According to this wikipedia it was released on VHS on March 3, 2000. If you look at the L’epoque des ZAZOUS paperwork, you can see the VHS even being advertised for mail order purchase.

[Promotional Video] [PART 1] [PART 2] [PART 3] [PART 4] [PART 5] [PART 6]

Set List

桜の花は狂い咲き（プロモーションビデオ） (Cherry Blossoms in Madness (promotional video))

フラネールの幻想 ～ BGM (Illusion of Flaneur - BGM)

青蛾月 (Blue Moth Moon)

少女忌恋歌 (Love Song for a Young Girl)

森の祭典 (Festival in the Forest)

パラソルのある風景 (Landscape with Parasols)

アンジェ・ノワールの祭戯 (Rite of Ange Noir)

マリーゴールド・ガーデン (Marigold Garden)

紅い睡蓮の午後 (Afternoon of Red Water Lilies)

桜の花は狂い咲き (Cherry Blossoms in Madness)

鬼百合の呪文 (The Spell of the Devil Lily)

鏡面界im Juny (Mirror World im Juny)

Internet Archive Links coming soon, just doing file organizing. :)

~~~~~~~

I've been merging the mp3's into one very large concert mp3 that plays the songs back to back, no dead air, this would be paired with a track list with additional information.

I've also been trying to find other information about the 3 events, maybe even pictures from it but it seems futile as all my resources have lead to dead ends.

To be honest, this is the best find for an ALI PROJECT/CLAMP fan, it's right in the window of their collaborations of Clamp School Detectives and Wish, which we have not had that much information over the years... and this has been an "on and off " search since I saw the Wish Opening animation in 1998.

Now... if we would only get the advertisement for "Wish Live".

#Ali project #live music #music #recording #1980s #1990s #2000s #gothic #lolita fashion #visual kei #clamp #wish #clamp school detectives #retro anime #anime music #st luminous mission high school

[gofixxx2]

#2003 #teenage #digital camera #pink #inspo #cool stuff #love #high school #cute #random #beauty #old #angel #vintage #pretty #lolita #coquette #abrocrombie #sparkle

[wh0sbun]

I got the melanie Martinez sweetheart platforms!!(≧ᗜ≦)

#kawaii #sweet lolita #melanie martinez #high school sweethearts #cutecore

[userrottendotcom]

Shiina Rika

#Shiina Rika #kawloon high-school #lolita #goth lolita #椎名 リカ #rpg #dungeon crawler #visual novel

[yotd2009]

one thing i'm trying to keep in mind while designing the cast of the resurrectionists is that they're all constantly changing clothes + ideally there will be ppl cosplaying these characters someday and i'd much rather see morana cosplays done in old btssb pieces that technically aren't things she wears than morana cosplays in cheap mass-produced versions of her canon outfits from aliexpress so i'm trying to make them all recognizable by a defining feature or two + fashion (sub)style alone

#like morana wears old school egl. tends towards skirts that hit her mid calf. prefers ruffles over lace. always has on rocking horse shoes. #usually is in some sort of deep red. wears a lot of vivienne westwood pieces. wears a lot of bows. and has a very specific shade of pink #hair w hime-esque bangs and braided twintails. so like. if youve got the hair and 1-2 of those things you're all set for your morana cospla #(also rectangular headdresses. she loves rectangular headdresses) #shi is also one of the good examples. shironuri w bright red lipstick and LONG false eyelashes for makeup. long red and black hair in a #high sidepony (which is at least partially crimped). she wears angura kei w a tendency towards basing her fits around kimono and not school #uniforms (bc she is. a grown ass adult. from the 1600s). she always has something on her head near the base of that ponytail. #her outfits often incorporate flowers or butterflies. she usually has some sort of timepiece on her. she likes printed socks/tights. her #shoes always have some sort of platform. and her main colors are red white and black. #dysmas doesn't wear any color save for white and black. any metal on them is silver. their hair is black and textured and covers one eye. #they always have a crucifix displayed on them prominently somewhere. they wear shironuri w dark makeup around their eyes and st peter's #cross drawn under their visible eye + black lipstick. their outfits are mainly black w white collars. they like moi meme moitie pieces. #they almost always have a crucifix at their hip. for shoes they tend towards a heeled boot. they almost always have on some sort of veil fo #headwear. think of them like a raspberry mazohyst choker come to life. #mara's going to be my last example bc i need to make the rest of them stronger. black twintails w bangs parted in the middle and pink #highlights. either guro lolita or menhera depending on which version of her you're looking at but we're going to focus on regular mara not #distant-future-amnesiac-reaper-mara . so guro lolita. she always has an eyepatch. she has long legs so she uses that age old talllita trick #of letting one's bloomers peak out to cover more leg. she tends towards blouse+skirt+apron coords instead of wearing a jsk or op. #white bright red and bright pink are her colors. usually wears gloves or wrist cuffs. likes printed tights/socks. likes border prints. #romeo.txt

[treecakes]

what kind of. subtypes. exist within lolita fashion. what kind does clara like….?

#I KNOW NOTHING abt lolita fashion. truly. though it seems right up my alley #i have never seriously looked into it #though in middle/high school i had a friend who always dressed in lolita fashion #i wonder what she’s up to…. i dont have any of her info

[enlitensked]

Ugh me and my roommate waited like 1h to get our room and I literally fell asleep on the floor 🫣

There were no one working here so nobody showed us how to get the keys out, so there was like 50 students, tired students sitting in the entrance 😰

But atleast when we got our room there was a cute mirror so I took some cute pics🤭

#kawaii aesthetic #soft grunge #grunge #japanese style #lolita #hairclip #girl interrupted #2014 grunge #art school #artwork #monster high #knee socks #thigh hi socks #cutecore #girly aesthetic #girly girl #girly stuff #just girly things #just girly thoughts #girly tumblr #just girly posts #waiting #hotel lobby #wl

[lichdolly]

Metamorphose Temps de Fille - Velveteen Crown High Waist JSK with Cape in blue and red (2006)

#metamorphose temps de fille #old school lolita #classic lolita #sweet lolita #kawaii fashion #alt fashion #egl fashion #lolita fashion #egl community #velveteen #metamorphose #velveteen crown high waist jsk and cape #my post tag #velveteen dreams

[soapdishglitter]

started watching the brooke shields documentary on hulu n it's so good so far!!! i've been thinking so much about my younger self n i really ache for how long she spent agonizing over her body that no one should have been looking at in that way -- or really any way -- in the first place. anyway!

#diary #brook shields #lolita #coquette #they have the author of the lolita effect on here #which is very cool bc i read that book in high school #my heart really breaks for this poor girl #like it's just disgusting what happened to her #and what people keep doing to every girl #ugh!!!! UGH!!!!!!! #anyway i am repulsed by the whole world #i wanna text his wife! #i wanna send his girlfriend a letter! #his mother!!!!!!

[m00nfragment]

is it too late for back to school?

#aestethic #angelcore #doelet #doelette #cute #soft girl #kawaii #lana del ray aka lizzy grant #lana del rey #lizzy grant #pastel #cherry coke #coquette #lolita 1997 #pastel pink #lolita #flowers #school #school skirt #thigh highs #school girl outfit