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#hi this is the chara i have *the* most intense feelings and thoughts about
nevermoretoleave · 4 months
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is he your lord before he's your brother? how do you put your duty to your lord before your duty to your brother? how do you tell the difference? — on rahadin, of house zarovich.
@\iasoup-deactivated20190921 / you're on your own, kid, taylor swift / rest achilles, the world will wait, p.d. ( @\lostcap ) / norwegian wood, haruki murakami / so, you're a soldier, m.j. pearl ( @\fairytalesques ) / glass and god, anne carson / infinite jest, david foster wallace / curse of strahd / mirror traps, hera lindsay bird / the cruel prince, holly black / he ain't heavy, he's my brother, the hollies / brother, sister, rival, friend: the longstanding effects of sibling relationships, joshua a. krisch / matryoshka, mabel episode 28 / this is how you lose the time war, amal el-mohtar / antigone, sophocles / sue zhao / underworld, mabel episode 16
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capricioussun · 9 months
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And now it’s Glitchedswap’s turn
You know, I don’t know if I’ve ever…actually properly talked about GS before! In the VF note I’d mentioned GS originating from an idea with Void so I suppose I’ll start there.
I often get lots of imagery involving Void and many others whenever listening to music, all varying a lot in tone and intensity. In one idea, he’d needed to take refuge in a safe verse he was familiar with, where he heads to the house in Snowdin and the door in answered by a young Chara who’s very happy to see him again. Then he’s fondly greeted by brothers Sky and Uno (Sans and Papyrus respectively). I’d seen them all so clearly and was surprised by there sudden existence, especially considering they even came with the nicknames which is unusual for me, as I tend to struggle with those haha
But I quickly became attached to them and started piecing together more of their world. This resulted in a Swap AU that had experienced a massive coding issue, preventing Chara from being able to complete their run or reset. Or rather, it’s too dangerous to reset, as it started affecting the monsters negatively whenever they did, worsening the glitches caused by the initial malfunction.
While most monsters still don’t remember the resets, they’ve all started to develop a sense of deja vu, or feeling like some big change is coming soon, and things will change for the better. They don’t, not really, and the brothers as well as Toriel and Asgore have a better awareness of this, Alphys and Undyne, too, to a lesser degree.
That was how they’d met Void. One of the many facets of his job entails fixing coding issues, but one so large scale is tricky. If you do things in the wrong order or don’t finish something completely before moving on to the next, it can have grave consequences. So it’s a very slow going process of working away at it over a period of time, with rest periods in between so as not to destabilize the AU either, but even with all that, there’s no guarantee he and his allies won’t eventually hit a dead end. There’s no guarantee they’ll ever be able to free the monsters of that underground. And without resets, and time flowing normally, the monsters are still aging, still losing hope.
As a stand alone AU without MV interference, I haven’t honestly decided if I’ve wanted to give them a happy or tragic ending, and having mostly just thought a lot about the monsters’ glitches and what their underground is like (still relatively normal seeming, aside from a few things that make it stick out as a little broken).
But yeah! That’s GS! Chara is very close with the brothers but primarily lives in the Ruins with Asgore, and everyone else…just goes about life as normal, for the most part! It’s a bit slice of life-y, with a touch of existential horror I suppose agdhhsjs
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madaranuii · 9 months
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omgzzz also since I ramble a LOT here I thought I'd share some random mama nsfw headcannonz I have since I think about him 24/7 365!!!!
Divider bczzz I'll be rambling a lot LMFAO
- Madara has body hair!!!! (I mean every 1 doez but most idols probably wax it + stuff -- Idk ╮⁠(⁠^-^⁠)⁠╭ ) but mama!!! does not remove it!!! I came up w/ this 1 4 my bison bot and now just RAAAAH!!!!!
- HE DEFINITELY IS VOCAL. prob gets pussy drunk too and like drools and babbles praises!! whispers a lot ++ likes to angle himself so his mouth is against your ear so u can hear all his pretty noises, all 4 u ᰔ!
- Getz so needy!!! haven't had sex in 2 days? he's clinging to you, hugging you from behind (often grinding against your ass or thighs), resting his head in the crook of your neck, and just full on whining and pouting. If you tease him he will start teasing back a little further, until either of you give in. (at least 1 chara has definitely walked in on u 2 makin out on the couch at 1 point or another, maybe more ;3 )
- Mama oral fixation??? mama oral fixation- at least 4 givin!! He wants his pretty partner 2 feel as amazing as they can, so how else than oral? hehez~ he's not as keen recieving unless he's 100% sure you'll be okay, he doesn't wanna hurt u ᰔ BUT if u do give him head, he's a mess, quite literally drooling.
- He's BIG big-- I'm not good with cock size headcannonz bcz I mean don't know what's too much ++ stuff, but he's absolutely packing length AND thickness !!!
- HIS THIGHS DEFINITELY SHAKE WHEN HES CLOSE. He'll start biting his lip, throwing his head back and panting hard. then his thighs start trembling. and you know it's about to go down (⁠。⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧
- If u decide 2 so anything risky in public it is so fucking hot. Giving him a handjob under the table? he's covering his mouth, his hair getting messy and he's constantly clearing his throat to cover up his moans, and blushing so deliciously!!!
- Breeding kink!!!! a little scared of the idea.... but at the same time VERY excited at the idea. But that aside he moment he's inside he's NOT pulling out anytime soon!!! when he's particularly horny, pussy drunk or if he has baby fever (I should make a baby fever mama bot OMFG...) he'll often babble the most filthiest, horniest shit related to breeding you've ever heard, just outright begging to knock you up and how pretty you'd look pregnant!!
++ once he's came once... that won't be enough for him. he'll stare at the cum leaking out and get horny all over again.
- LOVES overstimulation. Likes seeing u all quivery and sobbing, and being the reason why you've came so hard over and over again to the point you're a sopping mess!!! ++ Likes recieving it a lot 2!!! if u have a thing for cum, give him handjob after handjob (or blowjobs-- anything that gets him off) and he'll happily fulfill ur desires, up until he's completely empty with his eyes glossy and hair a complete mess, sticking to his head ᰔ
- Likes fucking you after double face missions. He's probably full of adrenaline/anger/any pent up emotion after them, and wants to use you as an outlet because you're the best ++ he adores u hehez ᰔ usually turns his intense emotions into intense love 4 u and shows it in every thrust in 2 u!!
- Also likes it when you fuck him after performances, when he's all panting and sweaty but full of smiles and affection, as he comes off stage and instantly drags you/gets dragged into his changing room!! fuck him in his MaM outfit + made a cowboy riding joke
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i've finished the demo! do you think the last scene will change depending on origins? there is a possibility like alchemist would be more link to leander. it's advertised as a dark gothic romance novel for mature audiences but i think since the game is nowhere near finish, they cannot put an age rating on it yet.
oh, i didn't realised you could add additional items to your tier, i'm new to kickstarter so i have no idea lol. that's good but i've heard the cost of the shipping is pretty expensive too.
ais might be the true route for the game like with other otome games, you have to play the characters in certain order to reach the final/canon ending/route.
there are character sheets??? i feel like mhin is a character that grow on you and leander is the ideal one to start with and vere, you either love or hate him.
really? i thought ais intro was intense esp with that soundtrack! his music theme is the most memorable one. if there are changes, hopefully they will just add more piercings to sen or something like that considering she already have a nose ring.
elyon (?), i felt like he was deliberately designed like that because of his mysterious brief profile information like trying to find the one thing that money can't buy.
what do you think the potential new stretch goals could be? i think we are at the last one. i hope they add more physical merc for the basic tiers then because a lot of fans had chosen them.
omg maybe! i know each origin comes with its own special trait of some sort!! i wanna play sum more when i get home later this week!!! wbu?? r u gonna play thru again using a diff origin? alsooo my fren actually did play thru as alchemist and the dialogue for kuras in particular are diff!! not sure about leander but i thought about that too!!
also yesyes!!! on the touchstarved blog theres chara sheets for all of em! it tells u what they like + dislike alongside their fatal flaw! leanders is cut out im pretty sure soo im sooo curious abt hims. :3 also omg real! mhin is soooososososo pretty eee n i do enjoy their personality buuut, leander is def ideal eep!! vere is super cute to me, but i feel like id stutter to talk to him irl and then perish cus i give in too easily LMAOOO
also yes!! i agree w sen!! give her more piercings shes so damn hot im passing OUT!!! also also, i think leander n vere’s intros kinda swooped me away…. like i literally was dming my friend like: PLs i hope its not vere next ill pass out AND DIE… and then he showed up n i died. poof. GONE. (;ω;)
okok so the whole ais thing w me was like, hmmm. ur hot yes and ur music slaps but that was about it for me! i agree it was really intense! IM NOT EVEN SURE WHY i just felt like. nuffin towards him when i played it LOL. but the scene where he almost borderline kills tht one dude was so hot fusjdjjdjdjkaka. i have a whole lil drabble rn about ais and said alleyway…. im … hes…. hes so. (>_<)… on the floor SOBBING!!! if he is the true route i wont b mad!!! like they do put him in the middle of all the promo art sooo… i could see leander being a true route also. hes soo sweet. i wanna *** him.
yea yea i also agree abt elyon! he’s super handsome tho i bet his route will be great! i wonder what his personality will be like doe… like condescending? rude? patronizing?? hmm hmm. ohh also b4 i forget! yesyes u can change ur tier n do add-ons on the page! it’ll say edit tier or somthin like that! i think shipping will probs b 15 but i am a fool w a lil bit of extra monies. ʅ(◞‿◟)ʃ
personally i gots nooo clue for stretch goals but im the same thinking as u!! im praying for more physical merch. I WAN AN AIS DAKIMURA PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS telepathically trying 2 connect w the devs rn… HEAR MY PLEAS!!!
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mahounomanga · 2 years
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Cinderella Knight
If you ask me, magical girls and fairy tales go hand in hand. There are plenty of ways to incorporate fairy tale elements into a magical girl story. One can use fairy tale aesthetics and roles as a recurring motif such as in Revolutionary Girl Utena, one can write an in-universe fairy tale significant to the plot such as in Princess Tutu, or, most common of all, one can base a magical girl character off of an iconic fairy tale heroine. Today's manga is of the last sort, and if you've ever thought Cinderella deserves a sword, boy do I have a manga recommendation for you.
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Cinderella Kishi (Cinderella Knight) is a 1981 manga by Go Nagai. Our protagonist is Michiko Michikusa, or just Michi for short, an energetic yet awkward young woman from the Japanese countryside. At the start of the series, she flies to The Grand Duchy of Ballade, an old-timey European country, in pursuit of her celebrity crush, Prince Emilio Ballade. On the plane, she meets a mysterious older woman named Yaaba Dragono, and the two hit it off almost immediately. Yaaba reveals that she was Cinderella's fairy godmother back in the day, and she is the current tutor of Prince Emilio. Having forged this new connection, Michi is able to meet the prince, and even become his assistant. However, she learns that the prince's life is at risk, as numerous assassins have infiltrated the ranks of his closest allies. Not knowing who in the castle she can trust, Michi goes to Yaaba wishing to protect Prince Emilio herself. Yaaba gives her a pendant which allows her to transform into the mysterious swordfighter, Cinderella Knight. What unfolds is a romantic drama filled with royal intrigue, intense battles, and the kind of genre-bending insanity you would expect from a Go Nagai manga.
I wrote about Nagai's career and legacy in my post on Mahou Ningyou Pendora, so I won't recap that stuff here. What I will say is that it's interesting to read this manga through the lens of "from the creator of Cutie Honey".
By 1981, fighting magical girls were still uncommon. Honey was still arguably the most visible example of one. For Nagai to write another magical girl who battles enemies (with a sword no less) feels like something of a return to form. It's also worth noting that the sinister organization making attempts on the prince's life feels rather evocative of Panther Claw. Rounding out the Cutie Honey similarities is the nature of Cinderella Knight's power. This is another case where the magic is not magical in the strictest sense, but a form of super science. Yaaba is revealed early on to be a dragon alien from another planet with access to super advanced technology. As such, the transformation abilities she passes on to Michi are given an extended sci-fi explanation.
There are other things that make Michi's transformations interesting as well. Transforming seems to make her stronger, more agile, and a skilled fighter. Plus, this is one of those magical girl works wherein the protagonist's civilian identity and magical alter ego look nothing alike.
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When transformed, Michi is taller, bustier, and her hair changes from brown to blonde. We also learn that she can change outfits with her mood, though this is a bit of a drawback in that she detransforms when knocked unconscious. As well, I would be remiss not to mention that Cinderella Knight gets a power up late in the story, which grants her a new outfit.
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These sorts of magical girl final forms were very uncommon in the genre at this time. In fact, I actually can't think of one that predates this. Even Honey didn't get this kind of power up until Hyper Honey in 1997's Cutie Honey Flash. Yet this would eventually become something of a genre staple, as demonstrated by Eternal Sailor Moon in Sailor Moon, Amulet Fortune in Shugo Chara!, and Ultimate Madoka in Puella Magi Madoka Magica. While it's not the most prolific of magical girl tropes, it is still extremely cool to see such an early example.
Anyway, apart from all the transformation stuff, Michi has a couple other abilities courtesy of Yaaba as well. The two are able to communicate telepathically so long as they aren't too far apart, a skill we see Michi use with others as well. Yaaba also has what appears to be a crystal ball, which she explains is actually a three dimensional television (because science fiction). This 3DTV can show the user what's happening anywhere in the kingdom without the use of cameras, and Yaaba let's Michiko use it when she's not around.
In general, Yaaba is a really important character. She's a good magical mentor, a well-written modernization of the Fairy Godmother, and just a stellar character in her own right. It's always nice to see a woman confident in her power who is not at all vilified, especially given that she's older and plus size but not made fun of for either of these things. (Low bar but still.)
Michi, on the other hand, isn't as strongly defined in my opinion. We don't get a clear sense of her hobbies or interests, and we don't know of any goals of hers that don't relate to Emilio. We don't even find out that much about her life back home. Still, even though there's not much to her character, I grew to like Michi. She has a spunky tenacity I find endearing. Not to mention, I appreciate that she is unapologetically horny for the prince. These sorts of horndog characters are usually male, while female protagonists are often expected to be more demure and chaste. Cinderella Knight doesn't provide us with the most nuanced or mature inversion of this concept, but it's a refreshing change of pace nonetheless.
Prince Emilio isn't given very much character development either. He fills the generic prince role admirably, but that's about it. He can hold his own in a fight, but he does get kidnapped when the plot calls for it. Cinderella Knight and he have kind of a girlboss and malewife dynamic. There are several male characters in this manga who are deliberately designed to be attractive, but Emilio is still the most noteworthy among them. Heck, he's even nude in his first appearance. This is all very welcome, but it is admittedly a little off-putting to see Go Nagai of all people draw a character who plays so heavily into the bishounen archetype.
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The characters are rounded out by a veritable rogues gallery of cool villains, all of whom fall into roughly two factions. The first part of the manga mostly deals with members of the prince's court who wish to overthrow him; however, we gradually shift focus to an international coalition of assassins with the hilariously apt name Murder. Many of the villains have some distinctive ability or design, but to be honest, most of them weren't that memorable, with one major exception.
Near the end of volume one we are introduced to an individual referred to as Beast Apollon, a silent juggernaut Murder has enlisted to kill Cinderella Knight. I don't want to spoil anything, but let's just say his eventual backstory is the subject of a couple truly bonkers plot twists in the back half of the manga. I highly recommend reading it for yourself, but I do not make that recommendation without some major caveats.
Despite being written for the shoujo demographic, this is still very much a Go Nagai manga. Nagai has a penchant for sex and violence, both of which show up here in some capacity. The sexual content ranges from simple nudity to full-on BDSM dungeons, and the violence is often quite graphic, at times bordering on outright gore.
Content/trigger warning for (in no particular order) sexual assault, rape by coercion, incest, torture, mutilation, body horror, and detailed depictions of giant spiders.
To be clear, none of these things automatically make for a bad story in and of themselves. However, my concern over their inclusion in Cinderella Knight is twofold. 1). This manga ran in a magazine geared toward female readers as young as twelve, and I would argue that some of this content is inappropriate for that specific demographic. 2). While these themes can ostensibly be handled well in a way that contributes meaningfully to the narrative, I don't think that's always true of this particular narrative. Let me give you an example. For reasons that are never made clear, Michi has to manually undress herself before she can transform. This is questionable as is, but at one point there is a prolonged scene in which she gets interrupted before transforming, and then can't find where she put her clothes. The whole time, I found myself wondering 'How is this necessary?'.
The objectionable content is arguably the biggest detractor from this manga, but unfortunately it isn't the only one. The writing also has its' low points, particularly in how it's paced. A lot of time is spent in the beginning setting up the plot, and it takes far longer than I expected for Michi to get her powers and transform for the first time. The ending doesn't tie up all the loose ends, to the point that it almost feels incomplete. These things combined would ordinarily make the middle appear stronger in comparison, but the events of the story are all over the place, and the flow feels disjointed as a result.
Still, for all my gripes about this manga, I would be lying if I said I wasn't drawn in. Say what you want about Go Nagai and his work, he knows how to tell a compelling story. An interesting concept with fun characters, decent worldbuilding, and well-blocked action is exactly the kind of thing I want to see out of an 80s magical girl manga.
Quick side note that doesn't really fit anywhere: finding results about this manga proved a tad difficult. Searching Cinderella Knight in either English or Japanese mostly yields results pertaining to the unrelated k-drama Cinderella with Four Knights.
Cinderella Knight was published in Margaret from October 9, 1981 to April 23, 1982. The complete series was compiled into two tankobon volumes published by Asashi Sonorama in 1983 under their Sun Comics imprint. A digital reprint is available through eBOOK Initiative Japan, though I've been unable to find out what year this rerelease went live. Unsurprisingly, there has been no official English release of Cinderella Knight. Luckily for us though, it has been translated in its' entirety by a fan group called HappyScans! (yes, the exclamation point is part of their name). Their English scanlation has been reposted to various unofficial manga reading websites, making this one of the easier to find titles I've reviewed.
Speaking personally, Cinderella Knight is probably my favorite manga I've covered on this blog. As much as I was frustrated with an horrified by it at times, I genuinely do think there's a lot to love in it. What it ultimately comes down to is that the good outweighs the bad. But of course, this is extremely subjective. You would know better than anyone else if it's a good idea for you to read this one for yourself. If you do, I would love to hear your thoughts on it.
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I guess I'm sleep deprived enough having not slept for 4 days to make a post about this.
People who entirely write off Asgore as a character worth caring about in any respect, what's up?
I should clarify.
This is not directed to people who fully consider his story in UT, or the implications in DR and come out of it going "I don't forgive him and therefore don't like him"
It's more to the weirdly hostile voices I see that are just like, entirely dismissive of his story and just go "Haha, he sucks. Definitely no nuance here! Just shitty! Every other character is worth the world and Asgore is a piece of shit forever and should die lmao" and like, did you play the same game?
Because I feel like you're just robbing yourself of a whole ass dynamic of the story in UT just to go "Haha, he's a lame divorced shithead and murderer, Toriel deserves better uwu" and like, that's not the point? OBVIOUSLY she does? Because she decided he's not for her in both games for different reasons? That doesn't delete his story from the game(s) or make it less valuable to consider?
Also good for her (in UT), the dumbass goes kid killer and you tell him to go fly a kite.
But like, seriously man. Asgore has one of the most hefty 'crumbling under the weight of the world' narratives to his story in UT.
He's in charge of giving all monsters a better life, and he's looked deep inside, witnessed his son killed by humanity, witnessed the (supposed) best chance at peace between humanity and monsters pass with Chara, and he's decided that the only hope to provide for those he cares about is to give up his own 'humanity' and gather the power of human souls to break through... AND HE CAN'T EVEN DO THAT BECAUSE HE CAN'T BRING HIMSELF TO BECOME THE MONSTER HE HATES!
(Yes he kills though, I mean finish the plan, we'll get to that)
Like cut and dry, it's a pretty shit plan bud. But it's born from a place of deep compassion and a sense of significant loss that made him desperate.
(some of these details might be too fuzzy from a long time since playing but the general point remains)
He doesn't know all the facts.
He doesn't know everything about Chara.
He doesn't know that Chara, while fused with Asriel, wanted to commit violence against Humanity for what they did to the monsters.
He didn't know that Asriel died because he fought against this.
He didn't know so much of the story. All he saw was his adopted child dying with a simple wish to see the flowers again, and humanity attacking like the beasts they claimed monsters were when his son attempted to fulfill that wish.
He saw humanity's darkest, and questioned why monsters were the ones locked below. And he saw what Asriel and Chara were able to accomplish together so he made a plan.
His plan rings the same tones of most 'last chance' narratives. There IS no other way out from what he's witnessed. Chara and Asriel WERE the good option out, and it didn't work.
The good ending was attempted, and denied. So he looked at his options and there really weren't many.
Either die underground, or kill to make the surface their home.
And upon finally building up the determination to put his plan in motion, he couldn't do it.
He killed, and immediately had too much regret to follow through.
He shut down, he crumbled under the pressure, he saw the blood on his hands and he realized he wasn't able to hate strongly enough to use the soul to break through and attack humanity as a whole.
As Toriel said in the true end, he could have gone with 1 soul, but he hid away and hoped that no more humans would come.
His true plan was to end his plan. To live in regret of the life he stole and never see another human again, and out of fear of revealing his failure to his people, out of fear of admitting to them that they would never see the surface again, he hid from his responsibility because it would demand he become a true monster. He claimed to need more power, and hoped no one would come to confront them.
He locked himself into the responsibilities of a mad king, to kill and gather power whenever a new human arrives. For nothing.
To continuously bloody his hands in the hopes of never doing so again, all because he's too 'weak' to just go up top and become the Mercy-less monster he truly believed needed to exist to free them.
And all the sadness and regret, but hollow determination to continue on his path is so STRONG in his story, man! It's TERRIBLE!
He hates what he's become; He shows no joy at the thought of fighting Frisk. He's built an empty responsibility all in the hope of never killing again, and the world keeps laughing at him as it tosses more lives his way.
He wants to help his people, but he doesn't want to hurt the humans.
He was a good person presented with a perspective of the 'facts' that laid bare a world of disgusting hate, a world that can't be reasoned with, a world without Mercy. And after having lost his only children to this world, he gave in to his own weakness and decided to play by the rules- to also fight without Mercy.
AND. FAILED.
He's both entirely convinced that the world has no mercy, and is entirely unable to relinquish his own.
All while bitterly tending to an evil he resents to its core, all while hoping to be left alone and never be asked to shed blood again, all while truly believing he must do so- in these circumstances- if he is to protect the lives on the surface and maintain even a semblance of his mercy in the grand scheme of things.
Let them live and risk the humans finding out he killed in the first place, risk the humans coming underground to kill them all. Risk repeating what happened with Asriel, but for them all because of blood on his hands.
Kill them, for no gain, and continue the facade- continue telling everyone you're almost strong enough to kill those on the surface. Continue lying, so that the monsters are safe, and the humans are as well. All at the cost of another child. IT SUCKS IT'S FUCKING BAD MAN.
It's what makes it so touching that you can convince him through your intense determination to break the rules of this mercy-less world! You're unending compassion and inability to accept 'no' for an answer in regards to cherishing life provides him with new hope!
It's a glimpse of a person with true unending mercy that convinces him that the world can be changed- Frisk and the player's actions convince him that he was mistaken. That it never had to be the original plan, and the reason he couldn't think of a new one is because succumbing to the act of murder had destroyed his sense of hope- he wasn't the right person to come up with a plan to free the monsters after that because it was simply too damaging to his ability to hope or dream of a better future.
He needed convinced.
He needed to be shown that the world can have mercy in it, that it can be compassionate.
Things he once believed were possible, and a reality that was torn from him with the loss of his kids- revitalized as you step through to make it happen.
IT'S GOOD, OKAY.
AND ASGORE IS INTEGRAL TO IT AND IS A TRAGIC FIGURE WITHIN IT.
Anyways you can still hate him, you're opinions are you own and he sucks at being a good dude. The dude killed kids (in UT), you remember that? Fucked up.
I've just been seeing a lot of takes on the guy as some nuance-less bad person when he has so many layers of depth going on that it sounds bizarre to hear him summed up as like "Oh yeah, Asgore is a piece of shit, anyways let's talk about the character depth of Pipis"
I mean come on, Ms. Pipis is right there, talk about her, lol.
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logically-asexual · 3 years
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Hold me like you mean it
summary:
Logan’s feelings for Virgil and the fact that now Virgil barely notices him are stopping him from getting any work done. Janus offers a way for Logan to cope, by disguising himself into Anxiety. but is this really what Logan needs? and what’s in it for Janus, anyway?
Alternatively, an angsty story about rejection, denial, and manipulation.
warnings: (for the whole fic) unrequited love, rejection, manipulation, unhealthy relationships, gaslighting, dependency, dubious consent and non consent for kissing, sad ending, depression (vaguely described), angst in general, nightmares, self harm. let me know what else i should add.
taglist: @gummibearbullet @chara-07 @the-sympathetic-villain
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important: i added another warning (self harm) because of something that happens very briefly later in the story. stay safe!
In spite of his lack of rest, Logan’s day went on without difficulties. He felt almost disappointed in himself for not being able to take full advantage of the effective communication he had established with Virgil, needing instead Deceit’s assistance to keep his own mind under control, but he reminded himself that he was Logic. He couldn’t control everything occurring in the world, he could just try his best to make sense of it, and to find a way to work with it. He managed to go through the day finding tasks to distract himself from speculating about his appointment with Janus later, until the hour finally arrived.
When the alarm rang five minutes before six, he stood up from his desk and picked up an empty notebook and a pen. After all, he couldn’t miss the opportunity to gather data about Deceit’s room, he couldn’t help but be intrigued by the effects it might have. Once ready, he made his way to the selfish Side’s door and knocked.
Janus opened the door, showing a pleased smile upon seeing Logan. “My, my, what do we have here?”
“We agreed that I would meet you at this location and time.” He deadpanned.
“Right, of course. Come in.” He said, gesturing dramatically with an open hand towards his room.
Logan walked in, carefully studying the place, although he couldn’t see much of it. Once the entrance was closed, the space seemed to be even darker than Anxiety’s room, leaving visible only objects around one meter or closer to where he stood. It didn’t help that the black-tiled floor was so clean that it reflected the furniture on it, making it even more difficult to orient himself. Thankfully, Janus noticed the hesitancy in his steps and offered an arm for him to hold on to.
He was guided to a dark grey loveseat, where they both sat down. Logan went to pull out his notebook from his pocket, but realized that he didn’t have it. It was an odd occurrence, but perhaps he forgot it. He’d have to rely on his memory.
“First of all,” Logan began, “we need to agree on a measure for me to be able to distinguish between you and Virgil.”
“Aw, but where’s the fun in that?”
“This isn’t for fun. The objective of this activity is to clear my mind of the unwelcome thoughts and emotions that hamper my work. I thought I made that clear.”
“Fine.” He rolled his eyes. “What do you propose?”
“Considering your past failed attempts to impersonate us, I think the most logical option is that you wear Virgil’s old jacket.” This would also help the act be more credible, since Virgil and Logan’s relationship was closest when he used to wear that hoodie, but Logan thought that argument was too emotional to confess in front of Janus.
Janus gave him a knowing smile, before he shifted into Virgil’s old appearance, including the less intense eyeshadow. He leaned closer, resting his elbow on the back of the couch, and whispered. “So, Logic. What do you want to do?”
Even though Janus’ impression was unnervingly accurate, Logan felt awkward, and found it hard to let go. Nevertheless, he leaned back and made an effort to believe the lie.
“We could watch together one of those troubling documentaries about paranormal events that- that you like. I enjoy pointing out the inconsistencies and misconceptions in them.” He replied timidly.
Virgil smiled at him and materialized a laptop. He laid it gently on Logan’s lap and pressed play on the documentary as he sat closer, extending his arm on the back of the couch behind him. It was a little too close for Logan’s comfort, moreso after a few minutes, when Virgil moved his hand to rest on his shoulder.
“Um... Vir- I mean, Janus. I would rather take this slow, and keep the relationship strictly platonic, so that the experience isn’t too overwhelming.”
“Sure thing.” He replied, with no trace of Janus’ voice or tone, but the only movement he made was to withdraw his hand to the back of the cushion.
Gradually, Logan was able to feel more at ease, snickering occasionally at the other’s commentary on the film. He didn’t notice that the hand had been back on his shoulder until he felt it rubbing circles soothingly, but at this point he didn’t mind. He still felt somewhat nervous, but he attributed it to being in Anxiety’s room. Virgil had been very kind to invite him into his personal space, so he wasn’t going to protest now.
He didn’t protest either when Virgil hugged him tighter, moving his arm from his shoulders to his waist. The documentary had ended and they started a second one after laying the laptop on a small table in front of them. Logan was captivated by the mystery in this story, but Virgil seemed less focused, directing his attention to Logan’s face instead.
A sensation of unease kicked in as he felt a cold kiss being pressed to the side of his forehead. His mind reminded him weakly about Deceit, but the thought was easily pushed away by the satisfaction and warmth he felt about his affection for the other Side being reciprocated. A second kiss followed and his cheeks flushed immediately. Logan turned away slightly, hoping to convey that he wasn’t confident about this kind of intimate display. Virgil gingerly moved his free hand to hold his chin between his fingers. There was no strength in his hold, but Logan felt his head turn on its own to face the other’s. He registered that the volume of the laptop had lowered, and that his field of vision became narrower, making only the side in front of him visible. His deep brown eyes were half-lidded as they looked into his own.
After his previous two experiences with being this close to Anxiety, Logan was wary of what would follow. However, this was still what he had wanted, what he needed. He was now convinced that this was the only way, and once again closed his eyes and tilted his head forward.
This kiss felt different to the one in his dream, it was more present, more real (logically). There were many sensations and textures that Logan’s brain hadn’t been able to imagine in his sleep, like the surprising coldness of the other’s lips, or the softness of the wet gliding of their mouths. Most remarkable, though, was the drive Logan felt to keep going. This impulse was unexpected, and unlike any other non-physical sensation he had ever experienced. He had always been analytical with his actions, driven only by a clear, meaningful objective, but in this situation there was no goal, only the necessity of maintaining contact.
Even so, he had to pull away after a few seconds, because the overwhelming new experience had left him out of breath. Virgil allowed him to take a minute to collect himself and decide if he wanted to continue, but before he could make a decision, both were startled by a beeping sound. It came from Logan’s watch, apparently it was already eight, and he had to move on with his scheduled activities.
Logan quickly turned off the alarm, feeling like he had just been woken up from a dream, and turned back to Janus, who looked once again like his regular self. Embarrassed, Logan stood up and excused himself, before clumsily making his way towards the now slightly visible exit on the other side of the room. He closed Janus’ door behind him with a little too much force, eager to be back in his own room as soon as possible.
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this chapter is a bit of a mess but it's supposed to be like that because my boy logan is confused.
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hmmm sometimes when i think of the name of a ship in my head i refer to the whole dynamic and relationship, but it doesnt have to necessarily be romantic and both-sided. like when i think of usuk, im thinking of the whole of them, but most of it is just uk pining over america and other toxik and shitty (n very cool) dynamics. i cant see murica as completely loving of him, not explicitly (except maybe in some temporary situations). but when i step back and look at the whole of them then i can obviously see the love and tension and deepness and blahblahh, even if when im focusing on the day to day moments it may seem completely one-sided. on the iggy side of things, his relationship w murica is obviously the most intense n obsessively loving shit he's ever had but i wont get into that classic
tl;dr "a ship doesnt necessarily refer to a explicit/romantic/requited love, it can also refer to a complex and changing relationship that may not ever even get anywhere. Or even a one-sided romance"
now, i dont like fruk, because (and yes im contradicting my explanation above a bit) i dont like to focus on the love or the romantic/sexual/whatever part of their relationship. but i DO love their relationship, which contains a lot of things, some of them ARE sex and love. but, i dont know, in my head that part is not relevant to the whole concept of their dynamics and their bond as a whole.
mm thats why i usually try to avoid saying 'fruk' when i talk about my interpretation of those two charas, cus i dont want ppl to think i'm referring to the ship. i prefer to say eng & france n stuff like that. same with prus and hungary, yeah maybe they fucked, but in my head the important characteristic of their bond is for instance, their friendship and rivalry. the sex is just a tool to get to and highlight those important parts
'usuk' in my head is not us and uk, usuk is usuk, cus in their relationship the part where they feel romantic love and all that shit is v e r y important.. So much that i cant even imagine the character of iggy without him being in love with murica, to me thats just an intrinsic part of his character. So yeah the “ship” aspect of their relationship is quite the main point for me. like everything they do that has to do with the other is affected by this thing. also lil obvious side-note. sex and romance is not the only way to show and express love, its just the most known ones. And also we are talking about countries in the shape of humans, and they are absolutely not humans, so i can do whatever the fuck i want with them. iggy expresses his love for murica in ways that he himself doesnt even know or realise, all of that while he fucks the entirety of europe on the side. He may not ever lay a finger on him and with that he’s being 200% more genuine and vulnerable than any time he fucks spain or whoever. usuk FOR LIFE
basically: To me a ‘ship’ is not referring to the actual relationship but to the angle with which you approach it. An established ‘romantic’ relationship may not be a ship if its not relevant to you or your story, but a dude who’s in love with a celebrity that lives in another continent that he’s never seen may be a ship if thats what makes sense to what youre imagining. for instance i love biker x jacket even though they never interact. I just like to think of the potential of their personalities together. Not explicit but still… “romantic”? I dont know what words to use to explain those thoughts. But so like, france n iggz: explicit, not “romantic”. Usuk: “romantic” but not explicit? (jiji who am i kidding, maybe sometimes it does get explicit but whatever, thats the general idea)
I love to consume one-sided ships, but im still not comfortable enough to let myself do it? Perhaps in the future my usuk will be completely one-sided, who knows. I still got residual damage from exposure to mainstream ship dynamics as a kid Also i lied. Ijijij i do like fruk a bit, i do think that theres potential for some cute stuffz, specially when they are young. I think that they are super close, and there are million ways of showing that. I dislike fruk when its just fruk in a bubble and thats it. But i love it when its surrounded by the context of this whole hetaverse that lives in my brain (that has to do with me not being interested in other fan’s creations). No england ship ever gets to what usuk is for me, n dats awesom. I like to think that england just entirely took his own heart, pulled it out of his chest, and handed it over to america (along with his multiple other toxicities emoji of cowboy smiling). His heart has already found a place but that doesnt mean he cannot experience sum exciting stuffz with other countries!!! In fact he does, a lot, just like the rest of the charas!!! EVERY SHIP IN HETALIA IS CANON, go have fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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bow-wow-wark-wark · 3 years
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Continuing with the 4th anniv questions
18. What characters would you get along with?
Ok so since all hypmic chars have such strong personalities I think that if we ever met most it would go amazingly wrong (in some I would even fear for my life lol) but the possibilities are fun to imagine so here's a who I would like to hang out the most per division:
Buster bros: buster bros is my best shot lol like Ichiro is so nice and I feel like he would be very encouraging i would go out with so much life advice lol. Also we have liking anime in common so that would go well, jiro is very sweet so I'll also like to hang out with him as well. The problem is saburo who is 14 and a little rascal I bet he can sense fear or something and WOULD make fun of me ;(
MTC: as much as I love mtc this is a disaster meet up, lol both jyuto and samatoki are very intense so i would be super scared of them. Particularly samatoki I think it would go exactly like when he met doppo, someone would have to save me from that one lol. The best bet here is Rio bc hes weet and more normal, I would love to hear him talk about his survival life, tho if he offered me food I would have the biggest struggle bc I'm such a picky eater....
Fling posse: they would also be a good bet bc I think they're all really fun, particularly Ramuda bc he's really quirky lol. Also Dice bc I find him super cute tho I think i would find the gambling a little boring who knows? Gentaro would be my worst nightmare, I'm super gullible so i would fall for all his lies and then when he told me "lol I'm lying" I would look like a fool (has happened to me before) I wouldn't want to do that I already have a Gentaro in my life thanks
Matenro: Jakurai would be so nice to hang out with, I would go out of that one like a whole new me (and hopefully with adoption papers) lol he sounds super fun to hang around with. So does hifumi, hes so cute and like bubbly I would kill to have a conversation with him. Doppo would also be nice, I feel like I understand him a lot so we could get along.
BAT: disaster meet up once more, I think since I'm a little weak willed kuuko would like to beat me to shape and I'll have to endure monk training just like jyushi..... atleast me an him can bond over that. I love jyushi so I would kill to talk to him, he seems a little less intimidating than hifumi so it would be easier. Hitoya sounds terrifying but since I am relatively shy I think he would like me on principle, finally peace and quiet in his office. Despite all these I think I would really like to meet bat bc they're so encouraging on like changing who you are and being a new you, that would be very meaningful to me.
Dotsuhon: one of the worst ones really. Seeing one of sasaras shows: ok. Having to endure his puns: not so ok. I'm not the biggest fan of puns, you could say I have my own sasara nurude at home and boy!!! I like rosho so i think that would go well enough but I dont think we could talk about anything.... we could both complain about our annoying clown crowd. I hate rei (lh) so it would not go well.
Idk if i should ad the chuoh girls but that also wouldn't go well. 1st they're all so intimidating lol, if anything i would like to observe from a safe distance. 2nd ichijuku wouldnt like me bc I'm not a woman or on his close circle of people she stands. 3rd nemu would probably go well, I like her and shes nice.
19. Do you kin? No shame! Why are the characters relatable to you?
I probably already gave myself a bit with those answers and yeah sort of, lol I feel a little ashamed of saying that I "kin" bc maybe I'm not that similar to the charas but whatevs. So I sorta kin doppo, lol we're really similar in a sense, i feel like i can really understand his train of thought sometimes. I also kin jyushi, I feel like we sorta go through similar things and his over all attitude is a bit similar to mine. Last would be ramuda, when I made my he has bpd and adhd post I was surprised by how similar we were lol, I feel like I really get him as well. The last characther relatable to me is rosho bc he stutters and I do that as well, lol his like stage fright is something I understand very well.
20. What friendships/relationships are you most interested in?
Oh well I honestly love all friendships in hypmic lol everyones a really dedicated friend!! I LOVE the rio/dice friendship to bits, i feel like they're just like made for each other lol, they're just both on the same page and I find that soooo sweet, they're the supreme different division friendship. I also really like the relationship between Otome and Rei, idk what it is about it but it cracks me up so much. It's so passive aggressive I love it!! All their interactions bring a smile to my face bc they think they both have the upper hand on each other and lol. Besides they're the deadbeat club. I know it said most interested in.... but like I am interested in all of them.... honorary mention to sasaro bc I'm very interested to see where they will advance on their relationship.
This got stupidly long again and I only answered 3 questions..... anyways I will continue the rest later again..... the same thing as the last post but if you want to comment on anything or answer them yourself feel free to and tag my if you want ;)
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julday4 · 3 years
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Aight! Hey ya'll! Long time no see, whoowee-
Aight how do I start this-
So some of you might know goodnightverse by now! (If not, here) the post is a bit old so uh @awelldressedtornado fucking edit it.
And well, since I'm now co-owner of it (wowie) I DECIDED TO MAKE A GNV2 MUAAHAH-
Aka, Goodnightverse: Bed Bugs.
And yes, these are all of the refs I've been talking about. (Warning: some of the refs gotten lazier over time cause I got feddup with drawing the clothes and stuff.) and plus, most of the templates here are copied from discord ahaha aight let's go!
(Also i didn't do everyone refs yet but I did most of them! I'll do the others soon if ya'll are interested-)
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Name: Boots (Aka, Goodnightverse!Rust)
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Creators: Knife and Rose
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Age/Years lived: 13/16 y/o
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Rank: Gaurdian
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Gender: Male
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Weapon or Magic (Specify): A pirate sword that can easily cut through Shadow Demons and are really good for battle. (Especially sword fights). The pirate sword has an Iron blade thats bending a bit and golden plating on the handle.
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Human they protect: Jesse
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Allies: Shine, Flare, PI.FI, Floral and Bush
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Boots acts exactly like a pirate and loves anything pirate related. He says "YARR" unironically, when something intensive is happening or when something awesome (in his opinion) happens. He can get angry sometimes and is very attached to Jesse, Shine and his twin siblings Floral and Bush. He also LOVES fighting shadow demons with his pirate sword :).
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Name: Shine (Aka, Goodnightverse!Lukas)
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Creators: Heart and Lighter
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Age/Years lived: 13/16 y/o
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Rank: Gaurdain
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Gender: Male
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Weapon or Magic (Specify): A microphone that blasts out colorful musical notes, once you press the star button, which explode once they touch a surface. (He can also control how many musical notes that can come out, if he holds in the button, he can swing his microphone and a bunch of musical notes will come out. If he just touches the button once, only one musical note will come out. Its like those mechanics in games). The microphone is like those microphones you see on the news with a singular button. The microphone can also be used for singing and making special effects like: Gasping, laughing, screaming, oof, yay, ect.
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Human they protect: Emerald
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Allies: Boots, Flare, PI.FI, anyone
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Shine is a lil colorful boy who loves singing and making new friends. He loves learning new things and is very energetic! He talks alot like his dad, Lighter. Aka: Yo, bro, dude, BROSKI, broseph, pog, swag, ect. His aswell very attached to his bro, Boots. He loves going on pirate adventures with him, singing with him and everything else. Their the bestest of friends :). He aswell loves fighting Shadow Demons by his Bro's side. Thou sometimes his a bit soft with Shadow Demons and will comfort them if their hurt.
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Name: PI.FI/Pinkie Finger (Aka, Goodnightverse!Hypernova)
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Creators: M.W/Milky Way and Blade
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Age/Years lived: 13/16 y/o
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Rank: Gaurdian
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Gender: Female
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Weapon or Magic (Specify): A wand made out of magic that can be used to summon and levitate things and blast out sparkly magic. Thou she needs to train the wand so she can summon more and levitate heavier things over the years. (Once she becomes a guardian, her wand can levitate a closet or two and summon a brush, rope and shit. Thou she only uses it when necessary). The wand has a baby blue handle with a lil yellow glittery star on top that has a bunch of spikes around, looking like a pretty rock. (Hehhe Sprinkle).
Also uhh, her goop is made out of strawberry sauce. D. Does that count-
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Human they protect: Abigal
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Allies: Flare, Shine, Boots, anything.
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PI.FI is a sweet, lovely, calm but also bossy lil girl. (She's mainly bossy towards Boots and Shine due to their immaturity and stupidity). Shes loves EVERYTHING girly and especially loves sparkly things, like fairies. She's very protective over her friends and especially Flare because how how shy and easily frightened she is. She's very calm towards Flare aswell and tries to make her feel comfortable. She also loves singing with her wand with Shine, their a pretty good duo! (Not as good as Shine and Boots thou). And she loves trying out new things.
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Name: Gold (Aka, Goodnightverse!Drake)
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Creators: Indigo and Monarch
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Age/Years lived: 16/19 y/o
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Rank: Gaurdian......? (Yeah no his a fucking butler now)
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Gender: Male
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Weapon or Magic (Specify): Holographic purple or golden shields that are good for blocking off attacks or Shadow Demon essence. Gold has really good reflexes so his shields are pretty powerful at battles. He can also summon holograms that he uses to code so he can break through the barrier that's stopping him to travel through the multiverse.
He also has the ability to move his rat tail.
(also the reason he doesn't have any eyelights is well uh.. It happened when he started to slowly despise Jesse and despise gaurdians, like the eyelights started to slowly dissappear and they completely disappeared once he argued with Jesse and left her the next day.)
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Human they protect: Used to protect Jesse.
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Allies: Chloe, Floral.
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Gold is a very formal but ALSO EVIL ASS boy. He used to protect Jesse when they were 8-12 y/o until he started to get tired of them. He started to get tired of their same everyday problems, angryness, annoyance, everything. He was tired of humans. One day, he met Chloe and she started telling him her plans and thoughts about gaurdians and humans and about destroying and taking over the gaurdians, Gold, agreed. Gold started to despise gaurdians, despise humans, despise protection. He believe Shadow demons were victorious and were a better future for this world then gaurdians and humans. So one day, after an argument with Jesse, he abandoned them and left them for Chloe and started being Chloe's minion/butler.
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Name: Chloe
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Creators: Neptune and a bunch of glitches
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Age/Years lived: Forever 13 y/o
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Rank: Fucking Shadow Demon Outcode thing
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Gender: None but she calls herself female.
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Weapon or Magic (Specify): Dark pink Gasterblasters and Bones. The same dark pink as her eyelights. That glitch out depending on how long their used. For example: One hour, they'll be glitched out af, and if she hits the victim with them it'll be a PAINFUL CRITICAL DAMAGE SINCE THE VICTIMS BODY WILL START GLITCHING A BIT. Thou she uses Gold, aka her butler/minion, to attack for her since she's also a bit lazy lmao.
She has the ability to enter humans' dreams like everyone else but SHE'S VERY DANGEROUS CAUSE SHE CAN MAKE THE DREAM BECOME MELTY AND GLITCHY, DAMAGING THE HUMAN BRAIN A BIT WHICH ISN'T GOOD.
She has the ability to travel through multiverses and enter shadow pipes like other shadow demons.
Her voice and body will glitch out sometimes and when she teleports inside a dream, she might glitch out a bit aswell like if a gaurdian is failing to enter a human dream.
And her Shadow Demon form is behind her, which she rarely forms into, but it's always behind her, mimicking every action she does. Thou, only Shadow Demons can see her form.
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Human they protect: None. Fuck protection.
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Allies: Gold, Flare, Grain, Alexa, Charlotte(?).
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Chloe is an outcode who's quite lazy and doesn't really care about anyone. She plans on destroying this world and let Shadow Demons rise. But for now she's starting small. She has Gold by her side to help her in battles and give her souls to eat. Other then that, she's just a glitch, a very dangerous glitch. Her main enemy is Boots. (She's also the main villian, lmao)
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Name & Last Name: Jesse Cherry Smith
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Parents: Chara Cherry Smith and Alec Margo
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Age: 15 y/o
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Sexuality: Transgender
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Gender: Male (But currently female)
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Hobby: being dead Drawing sometimes and playing the guitar a bit. They mainly just like laying on their bed and doing nothing.
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Personality: Anger issued closeted teen who dislikes being social and will beat up someone if necessary.
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Allies: Emerald, Kyle, Boots, her cat plushie Bow
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(Yes this is a Alec x Chara shipkid stfu it's apparently canon now -)
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Name & Last Name: Kyle Cherry Smith
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Parents: Chara Cherry Smith and Alec Margo
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Age: 8 y/o
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Sexuality: Straight
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Gender: Male
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Hobby: Writing and GOING ON IMAGINARY ADVENTURES ANYWHERE and playing outside.
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Personality: A sweet energetic adventurous imaginative boy who will always find a way to annoy someone and somehow sees good in anything people say. Like seriously how the fuck do I bully you you piece of-
Also he can't read.
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Allies: Abigal, Jesse/Jess/Best sissy in the entire world-, Flare/Flarey/Best partner in the entire world-
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(woah another alec x chara shipkid woa-)
ANNND THAT WAS EVERYONE!! WOOOWIEEEEEEEEEE THAT TOOK FORVER.
Anywho, I hope you guys like them and if you have any questions just ask away! (So sorry that it's so long like jesus-)
Anywho, Alec signing off 😎
(also goodnightverse belongs to @awelldressedtornado)
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krat395 · 3 years
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Gorgeously Glamorous Gargalesis (Chapter 1)
Happy 6th Anniversary to Undertale! Yay! :D It sure doesn’t feel like it’s been six years already but it has! OMG! And to celebrate, here is the first chapter of a lengthy story; first of ten, believe it or not. Taking place one day after “Laugh For Us, King Fluffybuns” and three days before the first seven chapters of “W.D. Gaster, the Ultimate Tickle Master,” Asriel and MK get themselves into a real ticklish situation at MK’s house; one approved by MK’s mother, Lydia, and orchestrated by a “fabulous” house guest. ;) But before we dive into that, let’s take some time to meet a special, talented little guy, whose role in this story might be more important than you think. X3
 Undertale© Toby Fox.
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Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
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GORGEOUSLY GLAMOROUS GARGALESIS
 Chapter 1: Baby Lizard! :D
 It is a Tuesday afternoon; 3:30pm to be exact; and just recently, MK and his mother, Lydia, arrived at their home after a full day of school. But they're not alone however. Accompanying them is Prince Asriel Dreemurr, who promised to hang out with MK today after school while his two sisters and MK's kid sister are off at a slumber party; and Rocco (MK's father), who has been home most of the day due to having a day off from work. Asriel and MK don’t have anything in particular that they want to do today after school. They just want to spend some time with each other, that’s all. It’s been a while since the two of them hung out together without Frisk and/or Chara accompanying them.
 Rocco: Hey, hey! Look who's here! *said Rocco with a smile, noticing his wife, older son, and Asriel right as he was about to put a pan of lasagna in the oven*
 Lydia: Heeheeheeheehee! Hey there, handsome. *said Lydia in response, smiling and kissing Rocco on his left cheek* Heeheeheehee! *she then giggled after noticing that she made him blush X3*
 Rocco: Hehe. W-wow! Perfect timing, you three! I was just about to put the lasagna in the oven!
 Lydia: Heeheehee! Yeah, I can see that. X3
 MK: Lasagna?! We're having lasagna?! *asked MK excitedly with a big sharp-toothed smile on his face, mere seconds before wagging his tail to further express his excitement* Oh man, what's the occasion?
 Rocco: Haha! No occasion, champ. *lied Rocco* We just haven't had it for a while and your mother and I thought it sounded good for a change. Hahaha! Right, honey? *he then asked Lydia while winking at her*
 Lydia: Heeheehee! That's right! *Lydia agreed, winking back at Rocco* Heeheeheehee! (It will serve as a reward for taking part in a fun little afternoon activity orchestrated by a very special friend of ours and approved by yours truly. Tee hee!)
 MK: Haha! Well alrighty then! If you insist! Just be sure to save at least one piece for GK since she won't be joining us tonight.
 Rocco: Haha! I'll do you one better, champ! I'll save her at least two!
 MK: Hehe. Awesome! And some garlic bread to go with it?
 Rocco: G-garlic bread?! *asked Rocco, pretending to be offended by his son's innocent question just to mess with him*
 Lydia: *gasp* Uh oh! Now you've done it, honey puff! *Lydia then said to MK in response; to add to Rocco's little joke*
 Rocco: You think we're having garlic bread with the lasagna?!
 MK: Y-yes? *answered MK both awkwardly and nervously in response*
 Rocco: Well… you're absolutely right, champ! *Rocco then said in the friendliest tone imaginable while showing his son a pan with slices of garlic bread on it*
 Lydia: Heeheeheeheeheehee! Oh, you. Heeheeheeheehee!
 MK: Aw, Dad! Again?! Come on! *shouted MK with a bit of an irritated tone in his voice*
 Asriel: Pfffffffff… Hahahahahahaha!!! Oh, man; he got you again, MK! Hahahahaha!!! Good one, Rocco!
 Rocco: Haha! Thanks, Azzy! Hahaha! Glad to know that at least one of you boys appreciates my jokes! *Rocco then said jokingly while grinning cheekily at MK* Ehehehehehe!
 Rocco loves teasing his son and one of his ways of doing so is changing his friendly tone of voice for a brief moment to give MK the impression that he might be in trouble only for MK to find out that he isn't actually in trouble at all. Rocco's a jokester like that. ;)
 MK: H-hey! I-I-I a-appreciate them! *stammered MK in defense* I do!
 Rocco: Hehe. Are you sure about that, champ? *Rocco then asked with a mischievous sharp-toothed smile while scooping MK up into his arms* Are you suuuuuure?
 MK: Eeeeeeeep! Yes, I'm sure! *shouted MK nervously in response*
 Rocco: Are you really sure? *Rocco then asked as he proceeded to hold MK upside down*
 MK is now being held upside down by Rocco! Rocco is strong enough to hold MK upside down with just one arm (either arm; but in this case, his left arm); usually with a secure and comfortable grip around both of MK's ankles; and while holding MK upside down with one arm, he is then able to do whatever he pleases to MK's feet. And that will be easy because MK's soles are currently facing upwards directly underneath Rocco's chin with the whole backside of his body up against Rocco himself.
 MK: AHHHHHHHHHHH!! YES, DAD, I'M SURE!! *shouted MK once more; this time more frantically* EEEEEEEEEEEEP!! I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE SURE ABOUT ANYTHING IN MY LIFE!!
 Rocco: Hahaha! Really? Hahaha! Well, good! It pleases me greatly to hear you say that, champ!
 MK: I-it does? Hehe. Awesome!
 Lydia: Heeheeheehee! Yes! Super awesome, honey puff! *Lydia agreed*
 Rocco: Haha! Yes, it is; I agree. *Rocco then chimed in while intertwining his own tail with MK's; just in case MK decides to try anything funny with his tail during the next while* Ehehehehe. But not nearly as awesome as this! *he then claimed with a mischievous smile, beginning a ticklish assault on MK's bare soles with every single clawed finger on his free hand* Hahahahaha! Coochie coo! Coochie coochie coo!
 At that moment, Rocco began tickling MK's yellow three-toed feet with his free hand fingers, scribbling each of them wildly against his extremely sensitive soles. What followed of course was several squeaks and frantic laughter from the young reptilian boy, who couldn't pull his feet away from his father's fingers no matter how hard he tried. X3
 MK: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! *SQUEAK* DAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAD, NOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!! *MK involuntary pleaded through his laughter, wiggling frantically in his father's grasp and flailing his robotic arms as a means of dealing with his current tickle torture* HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHA!!! DAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAD, HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHA, WHY ME?!?! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHA!!! TICKLE AZ INSTEAD!!! *he then suggested while continuing to laugh; just seconds before he inadvertently exposed his bare scaly belly* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHA!!! HE'S OUR GUEST, REEHEEHEEHEEHEEMEMBEHEHEHER?!?! *SQUEAK* HAHAHHAAHHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
 Rocco: Hahaha! Yes, champ, I'm aware. *said Rocco with a chuckle, right as he began wiggling his fingers all willy-nilly in between and underneath his son's toes* Which reminds me; Azzy, get his belly! *he then suggested with an "evil" sharp-toothed grin, causing Asriel to perk up* Come on! You know you want to! Hahahahahaha!
 MK: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! WHAHAAHAHHAAT?!?! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! NOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!! *MK pleaded through his laughter, shocked that Rocco requested that Asriel should assist in tickle torturing him; even though in retrospect, he probably should’ve seen it coming* HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! DOHOHOHOHOHOHHON'T LISTEN TO HIM, AZ!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! PLEEHEEHEEHEEASE DOHOHOHON'T LISTEN!!! *SQUEAK* HEEHEEHEEHEEHEEEHEEHEEHEEEHEEHEEHEEHEEEHEEHEEHEE!!!
 Asriel did not listen to MK’s pleas. When given a chance to tickle his precious reptilian friend, he almost never refuses! ;)
 Asriel: Hahaha! Yes, sir! You got it!
 Lydia: Wait! Azzy! Stop for a second, would you, my dear?
 Just as Asriel was about to wreak havoc on MK's belly with his furry fingers, Lydia stopped him; long enough to do something about MK's flailing robotic arms.
 Asriel: Uh… ok? What for?
 Lydia: I don't want MK hitting you with his robot arms. *answered Lydia, summoning a pair of magic arms made up entirely of magical energy (cyan in color) to hold MK's robot arms above his head; or, in this case, under his head since he’s upside down; and expose his sensitive armpits* Not that he'd do it on purpose or anything. He just loses all sense of control while he’s being tickled.
 Asriel: Haha! That he does! *Asriel agreed* Hahahaha! Thank you!
 Lydia: Heeheeheeheehee! You’re welcome! Heeheeheeheehee! Now go get him!
 And so he did! When given the ok to do so, Asriel wiggled every single one of his fingers against MK’s exposed stomach and sides, especially the area around his bellybutton! What followed of course was more frantic laughter from MK. Much more frantic laughter! Asriel’s fur tickled him so much and once it was combined with his father’s clawed fingers, his laughter shot up an entire octave and his stomach quivered like you would not believe! Constantly trying to pull away from the each set of skillful fingers but to no avail! And it certainly didn’t help that his mother was preventing him from being such a wiggle worm either! The more limited the movement, the more intense the tickle torture is as a whole! Especially with furry fingers wreaking havoc on his exposed scaly belly and sides; and clawed fingers wreaking havoc on his bare scaly feet!
 MK: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEGAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! OHOHHHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOH MY GOHOHOHOHOHOHOSH, YOU GUYS!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! OHOHOHOHOOHOHOHOH MY GOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOSH!!!! *SQUEAK* EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!! EEEEEEEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEE HEEHEEHEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEEHEEHEEHEEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEE!!!! STOHOHOHOHOHOP BEFORE I GET LIGHT-HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEADED!!!! *SQUEAK* EEEEEEEEEEEEEEGAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA AHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
 Rocco: Haha! Don’t worry, champ! We’ll let you go very shortly. *assured Rocco, moments before blowing two raspberries on the balls of MK’s feet* Right after some foot raspberries! Pbfffffffffffffffffffffffffff!!! Pbffffffffffffffffffffffffff!!!
 Asriel: Heeheehee! And nuzzles! *Asriel chimed in, nuzzling MK’s belly for a few seconds*
 MK: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! OHOHOHOHOH GOHOHOHOHOD, NOHOHOHOHOHOHOT FOOHOOHOOHOOT RASPBERRIES!!!! *pleaded MK through his now more explosive laughter* HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! THEY’RE MY WEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEAKNESS!!!! *he inadvertently added, causing Asriel to take a mental note of how effective foot raspberries are against him* AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
 Whenever Rocco tickles MK while holding him upside down, he tends not to do so for any extended periods of time. Rocco may be a jokester but he’s also very considerate towards others (especially those closest to him) and would never do anything to harm anyone and/or make anyone feel uncomfortable. Not intentionally, anyway. But none of that mattered in the end because the tickle torture came to an abrupt stop the moment everyone in the kitchen heard the sounds of cooing and babbling on a baby monitor.
 ???: *cooing and babbling*
 Lydia: *excited gasp* REX! He’s awake!
 Rocco: Hehe. Well he sure got some good rest! I put him down for a nap about 3 hours ago!
 Rex: *more babbling and cooing*
 Lydia: Oh, he sounds like he's about to start playing. MK, Azzy; you boys should go upstairs and play with him. He'd really love that, you know. Heeheeheehee!
 MK: Heeheeheehee! We do! Heeheeheehee! Consider it done!
 Asriel: Heeheeheehee! Yeah! Plus, it'll be nice to hold him without Frisk trying to steal him from us.
 MK: Hehe. You got that right! She's so baby-crazy!
 Lydia: Heeheehee! She is! *agreed Lydia with a giggle* But can you really blame her though? Rex is just too cute for words! Like you boys! Heeheehee!
 Asriel and MK: Hehe. Y-yeah. *the two young boys agreed, both of them blushing at Lydia’s comment* Heeheeheehee.
 Lydia: Heeheeheehee! Well, go on now. Don't keep him waiting.
 MK: Right! ...Heeheehee. Race to the top, Az! *shouted MK as he took off running* Heeheeheeheehee!
 Asriel: H-hey! No fair! You got a head start, you cheater! *Asriel chimed in, following behind*
 MK: Heeheeheehee! Too bad! Heeheeheheheehee! OOOOOOF!
 While running towards the stairs, MK tripped and fell face first on the floor. So clumsy!
 Asriel: Oh, dude, are you ok?!?! *asked Asriel all concerned*
 MK: Hehe. Y-yeah. I'm ok. *assured MK, immediately bringing himself back up on his feet and in a standing position* Uh, on second thought, l-let's walk upstairs instead, o-ok, dude?
 Asriel: Sure. Good idea.
 And with that, the young monster boys made their way upstairs to Rex's room. Since Asriel doesn't have any siblings under the age of 3, he is especially excited to see Rex, who, unlike MK, has real arms rather than robotic ones and two rows of spikes on his head rather than just one. Rex is a fun little boy and for a 15-month-old, he's quite talented; capable of performing various tasks that many children his age are incapable of performing; and he does all of them with not just his arms but also his mouth, feet, and tail. Yes, despite the fact that Rex was fortunate enough to hatch with a pair of arms like his father, he makes very frequent usage of his mouth, feet, and tail just like his mother and siblings often do. Though especially his tail, which is unusually long for a lizard monster his age and size. But despite its long length though, he rarely trips over it; and if he's feeling real energetic, which he does a lot of the time, he can stand on it and even hang upside down by it. ;)
 MK: Rex. Oh, Rex. Your big bro is back from school. *said MK in a singsongy voice, slowly opening Rex's bedroom door to greet the young toddler himself*
 Asriel: And Azzy too! *Asriel chimed in, following MK* Heeheeheehee!
 As MK and Asriel entered Rex's room, they saw Rex, who's currently wearing a red sweater and long black pants, sitting on the floor stacking up wooden blocks with letters, numbers, shapes, and symbols on them. Rex loves playing with wooden blocks and one of his favorite things he likes doing with them is stacking them up as high as he can reach and then knocking them over with one or more of his favorite toy weapons and/or his own tail. It’s such a good time! ;) And it’s even more of a good time if he has someone there with him; to watch him knock donwn his tower(s) of blocks and/or lend a hand (or tail) in the "destruction." ;P
 Rex: Ah... EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Bababababa! Heeheeheehee! *Rex squealed, babbled, and giggled excitedly the moment he heard his big brother's voice, completely stopping what he was doing to greet him (and Asriel too) X3* Ooooooooooooooooooooooo… *he cooed, wagging his tail happily to express his excitement even more*
 Asriel: Awwwww! Hey, little guy. It’s so nice to see you; tank top or no tank top. Wait, how come you're not wearing a tank top today, buddy?
 MK: Hehe. Same reason Dad's wearing one of his 3-button shirts and jeans. He wanted to look nice for our guest. *MK answered for Rex, scooping Rex up into his robotic arms* Heeheeheeheehee! *he giggled, teasingly poking Asriel's belly a few times with his tail not even one second later*
 Asriel: PFFFFF… BWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! *Asriel laughed preciously in response, seconds before grabbing MK's tail and simply moving it away from his stomach rather than tickling MK back* HEHEHEHEY!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! DUHUHUHUHUHUDE!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
 MK: Heeheehee. Well, that and we lowered the temperature a little so you wouldn't be uncomfortable.
 Asriel: Heeheeheeheeheeheehee… Aw, dude; you, heeheeheeheeheehee, you didn't have to do that. *said Asriel in response, speaking in short bursts of giggling due to lingering ticklish sensations*
 MK: Hehe. Dude, we used to live in Snowdin for goodness sake! We'll be fine. *assured MK*
 Asriel: Are you sure?
 MK: Oh my gosh, yes! But just to be extra sure, let's ask Rex. Rex…
 Rex: Ababa. *babbled Rex in response, looking at MK as he set him back down on the floor*
 MK: You ok with it being a little colder in here, bud?
 Rex: YEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! *squealed Rex happily, clapping his hands and feet while standing on his long tail* Heeheeheeheeheehee!
 MK: Hehe. Well, I'll take that as a yes. *said MK in response, gently grabbing Rex's legs to play with them a little as he continued standing on his tail* Heeheeheehee. Man, you're full of energy today!
 Asriel: Hehe. Well, he did just wake up from a 3-hour nap. *Asriel pointed out*
 MK: Hehe. True. Heeheeheehee. So, what do you want to do first, Rex?
 Rex: Blaaaaaaaaaaaaabububububu. *said Rex in response, pointing at the wooden blocks he was playing with before MK and Asriel showed up* Gugagutaga… Abeebababaaa. *blows raspberry*
 Asriel and MK: Heeheeheeheeheehee. *the two older boys giggled in response*
 MK: Heeheehee. Well, alrighty then! But, uh, can Az and I get some fist bumps and high fives from you first?
 Rex: YEEEEEEEEEEEEE! *squealed Rex happily in response as MK let go of his legs* Heeheeheeheehee.
 Thanks to Rocco, Rex knows how to do high fives and thanks to MK's friend and classmate, Brad (Bravery), Rex knows how to do fist bumps. MK would've taught him how to do both of those things but he didn't have his robot arms at the time; or any type of arms for the matter. But now that MK has robot arms, he has been asking Rex to give him fist bumps and high fives practically every day for the past three months; and the way Rex does so is absolutely adorable and so is the way MK interacts with him while he does them. First, MK holds out his fist for Rex to give him a fist bump and every time Rex gives him one, MK pulls back his fist and jokingly pretends that Rex hurts him, causing Rex, who can always tell that MK’s just kidding around whenever he does that, to giggle in response. Then after that, MK holds up both of his robotic hands for Rex to give him some high fives; double high fives to be exact and Rex always does 3 sets of them. The first set of double high fives is traditional; Rex slaps MK's robotic hands with his own hands. But the second and third sets of double high fives however; those ones are rather unique. Rather than standing up straight on his feet, Rex stands on his tail and slaps MK's hands; first with his own two hands and then with his own two feet. X3
 MK: Yay! Feet five! Good job, baby bro! Give Az a fist bump and fives and then we can start playing, ok?
 Rex: Okeeeeeeeeeeegagagagagaga! *blows raspberry* Heeheeheeheehee!
 Moments later… after Asriel received a fist bump and high fives from Rex…
 Asriel: Yay! Way to stand on that tail, little guy!
 Rex: Heeheeheeheeheeheeheehee! *giggled Rex in response, positioning himself back on his feet* Meeyataboobu! Babababababa! *he babbled, running over to his toy box to grab some toys*
 Toy box: Playtime! It's playtime! Yaaaaaaaaaaaay! Have fun, Rex! *said the toy box in a singsongy voice that sounded like Alphys's voice; because it was Alphys’s voice X3*
 Rex: Heeheeheeheeheeheehee!
 MK: Hehe. Gotta love Alphys.
 Rex is very protective of 4 particular toys of his and to help him protect those 4 toys, Alphys built him a special toy box a few months ago. Only Rex can open the box and he does so by inserting the tip of his long tail inside a small hole that scans his tail. It's a neat little contraption and very toddler-friendly too; always speaking in Alphys's voice to bring a smile to Rex's cute little face. X3 Rex loves Alphys very much and the fact that he's the only one that can open the box she made for him makes him feel pretty dang special too! X33
 Asriel: Oh! Is he getting what I think he's getting?
 Inside Rex's box are 4 toy weapons; one hammer, one axe, one sword, and one very, very, very special toy weapon that Papyrus made for him for his very first birthday last February. The weapon Papyrus made for him is his favorite toy weapon and whenever it’s not in use, it’s concealed in a red protective toy scabbard. Overall, Rex loves playing with toy weapons. Whether he's using them to knock down wooden block towers or playfully hitting someone with them, he always enjoys himself and never gets tired of playing with them. And while the toy weapon Papyrus made him is his favorite weapon, he enjoys playing with his hammer, axe, and sword just as much. One thing he likes to do is triple-wield. One weapon with his left hand, one weapon with right hand, and one weapon with his tail! :D
 Rex: Eeeeegah! Amaboo! Adeedada! *Rex babbled excitedly, simply just for holding a toy hammer in his right hand, a toy axe in his left hand, and a toy sword with his long tail* Heeheeheeheehee!
 Asriel: Haha! Yes! But, you, uh, y-you don't have any block towers to destroy though; not any finished ones. So, what are you planning to do with those, little guy?
 Rex: Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Rararararara…!
 All of a sudden, Rex charged towards MK, who was sitting on the floor in a cross-legged position, and went to town attacking him with his toy weapons, starting with his tail.
 MK: Eeeep! Rex! Oof! Hey! Oof! W-why are you attacking me?! Oof! You’re… Oof! You’re supposed to be attacking Az, remember? Oof!
 He does remember. Rex is just messing with MK right now, that's all. Like Rocco, Rex loves teasing MK and one notable way he does so, besides attacking him with his soft toy weapons, is throwing toys at him. Yes, to tease MK, Rex throws toys at him; soft toys like his stuffed animals to be exact and ones that don't physically harm MK in any way. Oh, but if Rex is mad at MK however, then he'll throw hard toys at him; hard toys like his wooden blocks! And those hurt! And since Rex is a little toddler, there isn't much MK can do other than say to him, "No, Rex! Don't throw toys at MK!" MK's a good sport about it though and fortunately for MK, Rex doesn't get mad at him all that much. :)
 Asriel: Haha! No, don't attack me, Rex! Keep attacking MK! He deserves it!
 Rocco: Hahaha! That he does, young man. *said Rocco with a chuckle as he entered the bedroom to check on the boys, startling Asriel a little due to his all of a sudden appearance* Hahaha!
 Asriel: O-Oh, h-hey, Rocco. *said Asriel awkwardly after being startled by Rocco's all of a sudden appearance*
 Rocco: Haha! Yo! Dinner will be a while so I thought I'd check in on you boys; to see how you're doing.
 Asriel: Great! We're doing great! Haha! Right, MK? Right, Rex?
 Rex: *babbles in agreement*
 MK: Haha! Yeah! Haha! Oof! Rex! Oof! Ok, come on, bud; joke's over! Oof! Go attack Az now, please! Oof!
 Rex: Raaaaaaaaaaaaa! Gagagagagagagaga! *babbled Rex in response, completely ignoring MK's request* Heeheeheeheehee!
 Despite being told to playfully attack Asriel with his toy weapons, Rex continued attacking MK with them instead; to tease him some more. XD
 MK: Come on! Please? Oof! Please, Rex? Oof!
 Rex: *keeps attacking MK* Gagagagagaga...
 Rocco: Hahahahaha! Good job, Rex! It's fun picking on your brother, isn't it?
 Rex: *babbles in agreement*
 Rocco: Haha! Yes! And here's someone else that thinks so too! *stated Rocco, pulling out Darius, Rex's favorite stuffed toy*
 Darius is a cartoonish-looking stuffed toy; a hybrid creature; part dragon, part cat. He's Rex's favorite stuffed creature and he has a red dragon tail with spikes, red dragon wings, red three-toed feet with white toe claws, red dragon arms, red hands with clawed fingers, dragon spikes and black cat ears on his head, a dragon snout with whiskers, green eyes, and black fur on the non-scaly areas of his body. In addition, he can be controlled like a puppet, a feature that Rocco often takes advantage of when putting Rex down for a nap, putting Rex to bed, calming Rex down whenever he's upset, cheering Rex up whenever he's sad, or just playing with Rex in general. And the voice Rocco does for Darius; very baby-friendly! :D It's a high-pitched squeaky voice (similar to Elmo from Sesame Street); way different than his normal speaking voice; and with it, he puts a smile on Rex's face just about every time. X3
 Rocco as Darius: Meeeeeeeee! Hahahaha! Yay, Rex! Haha! "Destroy" your big "smelly" brother! "Destroy" him! Hahahaha!
 MK: Big “smelly” brother? Oof! Dad, are you serious?! *asked MK in a response while rolling his eyes at Rocco; in a slightly irritated way* Oof!
 Rocco: What? I didn’t say anything! *lied Rocco, acting all innocent*
 Rocco as Darius: But I did! Hahahahaha! Holy moly, young man! When was the last time you showered or took a bath?! P.U.! Hahahahaha!
 MK: Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr…
 Then suddenly,
 MK: GUH! BWAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA!!! *MK laughed hysterically all of sudden, furry fingers overflowing his scaly soles with mega ticklish sensations* AZ, NOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!! *SQUEAK* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! OH GOHOHOHOHOHOD, STOHOHOHOHOHOHOP!!! *he pleaded, squirming up a storm, which prompted Rex to move away from him, and wiggling and splaying his toes with every passing second as he tried to pull his feet out of a predicament that was practically impossible to break out of in his current state* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!! GAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!
 MK is being a bit grouchy at the moment. So, to get him smiling and laughing, Asriel has decided to tickle his feet; and to ensure that MK won't kick his legs, swing his tail, or escape at all during the tickle torture; Asriel kneeled over MK's calves with his back facing towards MK, trapping the young lizard boy’s legs and tail underneath his own legs.
 Rex: Heeheeheeheeheehee! Gaaaabagoogaaaaa! *Rex giggled and babbled excitedly while watching Asriel tickle his brother's feet*
 Asriel: Hahaha! No can do, dude! You're being too grouchy! Hahaha!
 MK: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I'M NOHOHOHOT GROHOHOHOUCHY!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I'M JUST A LITTLE, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, ANNOYED THAT EHEHEHEHEHEHEHEVERYONE'S PICKING ON MEEHEEHEEHEE, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, WHEN THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO BEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEE PICKING ON YOOHOOHOOU!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! OR BOHOHOHOHOHOHOTH OF US!!! *SQUEAK* EEEHEEHEEHEEHEEEHEEHEEHEEEHEHEEHEEHEEHEE!!! OH GOD, MY POOHOOHOOHOOR FEEHEEHEEHEET!!! *SQUEAK* EEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEE!!!
 Rocco: Hahahahaha! Oh, don't worry, champ! We'll pick on Azzy soon enough! I promise!
 Rocco as Darius: No we won't! Not if I have anything to say about it! Hahahahahaha! Coochie coochie coo, “smelly” boy! Hahahahahaha!
 To add to the tickle torture and to tease MK some more, Rocco lifted up MK's shirt and used Darius to tickle MK's belly; using his right hand to control the toy’s mouth to nibble on MK’s stomach and pretend that he was eating it. Then, as a precaution, Rocco wrapped his long tail around both MK’s robotic wrists; in order to prevent MK from trying to tickle him back with his robotic hands.
 MK: GAAAAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!!! *MK laughed even more hysterically in response, his stomach quivering as new ticklish sensations overflowed his upper body* DAHAHAHAHAD, NOHOHOHO!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! DAHAHAHAHAHAD!!! *SQUEAK* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!
 Rex: Heeheeheeheeeheeheehee! *Rex giggled while watching his dad and Asriel tickle MK together*
 Rocco: Hey, Rex; come on over here, buddy!
 Rocco as Darius: Haha! Yeah, you can help us if you want! There's always plenty of room for my most favorite friend!
 Rex: Heeheeheeheeheehee! *giggled Rex once again, hugging his own long tail excitedly while at the same time ignoring his father's request*
 Rocco: Or you can just sit there and keep watching us! That's fine! You do whatever makes you happy, buddy! *said Rocco in a very friendly manner* Hahaha!
 And he is too! Just watching others being tickled is enough to put a smile on Rex's face. :D
 MK: BWAAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
 The tickle torture continued for at least 90 seconds but then came to an abrupt stop once Asriel told Rocco that he wanted to try blowing some raspberries on MK's feet.
 Rocco: Oooooooh, great idea! I'll hold his legs for you!
 Seconds later, Rocco, while keeping his long tail wrapped around MK's wrists, set Darius aside and grabbed both of MK's legs and held them up in a position where Asriel could easily and comfortably blow some raspberries on his feet. In addition, Rocco placed his own two feet on MK's tail; not hard enough to crush it but hard enough to prevent MK from using it to retaliate against Rocco and Asriel.
 MK: Eeeeeeeeep! Dad, get your big smelly feet off my tail! *pleaded MK, struggling to get his tail out from underneath his father's large 3-toed feet, which don't actually smell bad at all*
 Rocco: Hahahaha! Why? So you can use it to try and escape from this? Hahahahaha! No can do, champ! I know your tricks! *said Rocco in response, smiling cheekily at his older son while wiggling his six toes* Hahahaha! Azzy, do your worst! *he then said to Asriel, giving him the ok to blow some raspberries on MK's feet* Hahahaha!
 Asriel: Hahaha! Yes, sir!
 MK: Eeeeeep! No, Az! Don't listen to him! Don't…
 Asriel: Pbfffffffffffffffffffffffff…!!!
 Asriel has just blown a raspberry on MK's right heel.
 MK: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAAAHAHHAHA!!! *laughed MK hysterically in response; even more now with Asriel blowing raspberries on his feet* NOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHAAHAHAHHA!!! OH MY GOD, HAHHAHAAHAHAAHAHA, YOUR FUZZY FACE MAKES IT WOHOHOHOHOHORSE!!! *SQUEAK* HEEHEEHEEHEEHEEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEE!!! SOHOHOHOHO MUCH WOHOHOHOHORSE!!! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
 Once again, Asriel's tickly fur is being put to good use! :D Foot raspberries alone are enough to send MK into ticklish fits of hysterical laughter but with Asriel's fur thrown into the mix; it's a whole new level of ticklishness! MK was laughing, squealing, squeaking, and everything in between and Asriel's fur combined with raspberries tickled his scaly feet so much that tears began streaming out of his eyes; and once Rocco told Asriel to blow raspberries on the balls of his feet right underneath his toes, it was all over for poor MK!
 Asriel: Pbffffffffffffffffffff! Pbfffffffffffffffffff!
 MK: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!! GAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHA!!!! OH GOHOHOHOHOHHOHOSH!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAAHAHA!!!! OH GOSH, NOHOHOOHOHOHOT THEHEHEEHEHERE!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!! NOHOHOHHOHOOHOHOHOHOT THEHEHEHEHEHEHHERE!!!! *MK pleaded through his laughter, squirming and thrashing in Rocco's clutches while desperately trying to pull his feet away from Asriel's mouth* EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!! *SQUEAK* EEEEEHEEHEEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEE!!!! *SQUEAK* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
TO BE CONTINUED...
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Matespritship match up for a OC please?
AU Preference: Tale, Horror or Fellswap but Swap, Fell, Swapfell, Fellswap Gold, Underlust or the Slaves(Roxxy, Jaws, Azalea or Foxglove) is fine too
Character Preference: As long as it’s not a Frisk, Chara, Asriel, Monster Kid/MK or anyone on the ‘not capable of a redemption arc’ lover or ethic wise than any character is fine
Relationship Requirements: Needs to be ok with him having a moirail, kismesis and ‘third leaf’ auspistice//Needs to be ok with him having a large group of people that are his friends + makeshift family
Info
- Gender: cisgender masc both(male leniency hermaphrodite)||masculine pronouns(he, him, his, himself)
- Orientation: demi-pansexual panromantic
- Good Traits: Loyal//Intelligent//Cunning//Kind//Passionate//Driven
- Bad Traits: Bullheaded//Anxious//Timid//Nervous
- Hobbies: Reading//Learning//Crouche
- LV: Low
- EXP: Low
- HP: Medium
While a very intelligent person he’s not very strong physically and his psionics barely make up for it, he’s simply not a natural born fighter and it shows but what he is, however, is very smart with tons of slyness, cunningness and witt to him. He has a hunger for knowledge and knowing stuff that drives him to seek out answers.
He’s very loyal to his loved ones and tries his best for them in any way he can. Despite being quite timid, anxious and nervous a lot he’s as equally passionate and driven, not giving up on something once setting his mind on it which also makes him very bullheaded, not letting up once he digs his feet in.
This mixed with his hunger for knowledge, as he’ll go to a lot of lengths to get info on something, gets him into quite sticky situations and trouble. All the above tends to surprise strangers due to his unassuming looks and aforementioned timidness, anxiousness, nervousness and lack of physical strength.
Also, he tends to passionately ramble about something his intrested in - so, uh, be aware of that 😆
(When it comes to sex he’s a sub lenient switch)
After thinking for a little bit, I decided to give you ... Spice (Underlust Sans)! Here is why. First of all, there are little to no characters who are willing to be in a poly relationship, not at least a willing one, but Spice? He is one of those characters that would enter a poly relationship more than happily but only if he has romantic feelings for the other people too. He would find your love for knowledge to be adorable, wanting to help you get more and more of it as possible. He would also do whatever he can to try and keep you out of trouble, not wanting you to get hurt.
* His age: Human age: 1249 years old, monster age: 25 years old
* His height: 5′4 feet
* His yandere type: double yandere
* His dere type: Teasedere
* His Sexuality: Cisgender Male Pansexual Spectroromantic
A . How would he show his love and affection? How intense would it get? - Without a second thought, most of his affection is physical. He will kiss you, nuzzle you and caress you to show you his affection. He wants you to understand that he loves you and what better way to do that, than through physical affection?
B. What type of future is he planning with his lover? - Spice isn’t sure what he wants to do. He barely knows what he wants to do with his life, that’s why it would be almost impossible for him to actually. But all he knows is that he really wants you to be happy, so maybe, make you happy?
C. What is the scariest moment with him? - Well, the way that he never sees any wrong with you. The lengths he goes to prove to people that you are flawless... Even kill people who dare try to tell him that you have flaws or did something wrong.
D. How does he usually act with his lover? - Spice loves giving you everything you desire. He sadly doesn’t have too much money, but he does try to make at least your dreams come true if he can do that. He just wants you to be happy with him, and the thought that you might not be happy drives him insane.
E. How would he court his lover before? - Well, Spice would probably start showing a lot of care and passion in what you are interested in at the moment. He would support you in your crazy adventures and would hurt anyone who dared to say that you were doing something wrong. 
F. What's his favorite memory/thing in the relationship? - The moments he can help you with your crazy adventures. The way you light up when something goes your way and the way he can comfort you when it doesn’t... Well, it drives him insane, from happiness.
G. What sort of kinks would he ask to try out with you? - Spice is a very sexually active person. I mean, his job is related to sex work, so it’s not a surprise. He hopes that you understand and support his work, though. 
1.  Worship  - He loves worshipping his lover. The pleasure filled expression in your eyes is all that he needs to feel like you are driving him insane. 
2.  Hands  - He loves hands. The soft touching that they give... they are perfect. Little fingernails, soft skin... long fingers... Absolutely perfect. 
3.  Kisses  - Kissing always leaves him breathless, makes him feel loved, so he would want that as a foreplay.
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icharchivist · 3 years
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tmi about myself i guess but it’s in regard to my previous post 
I relate to quite a few a3 chara for very various and different reasons and while there are charas i relate to more than others it’s not a 1:1 thing
but also sometimes i just. Like. I didn’t think about why this story hit me as hard as it did until just now having to word it.
My eldest sister ran away from home when i was 6 (and she was 16) never to be seen again and this kinda shapped up a lot, if not most of my life, it’s like, my biggest trauma in a sea of trauma and i don’t think i can properly word how this sort of things affects young children and a whole family dynamic.
Madoka saying that, in substance, he thought Misumi was dead suddenly hit super hard because my whole life this whole topic was extremely taboo to even mention and me and my other sister had to pretend we never had an eldest sister. Like she never existed.
because our parents were so worried about their images and the rumors that came out around the reasons of her departs that she didn’t trust us, as kids, to talk about it, so we just had to never say a word and never bring it up except if my mom was having a mental breakdown about it in which case i had to listen to her (since the relationship with my other sister got, strained with time. Leaving it at that.)
I’ve always equated my feelings toward her to what it felt like to always have a lingering ghost around. I barely even remember her and if i dig things hurt more than they should. I have the stories my family used to say but none of this connects with me. But i know i loved her so dearly and her leaving left such a.. hole we were supposed to never address that it was haunting. I’ve only recently realized that probably a huge part of me was just grieving all that time because i could never properly word what it’s like to lose someone who’s still very much alive, and whom you have to think about regularly “wonders where she’s at now” while also feeling it’s not your business anymore.
The thing is that i was 6, but my parents didn’t actually tell me she ran off until the year after - before that i thought she was staying at my grandma’s place for an undefined amount of time. Then they started opening up more about it after they divorced when i was 12 and both parents had really conflicting version of events that i had a hard time puzzling together, but both blamed her for leaving anyway.
and it’s only when i was 23 or so that i managed to dig back the lawsuit files that ensued her running away (very long story) and found a lot of damning evidence of my parent’s lies and the reasons why she left and why she was 100% right for leaving. 
This was almost hysterical to me. I remember reading it with friends and spending the whole day laughing bitterly because my parents are goddamn liars who built her up as the bad guy for basically just escaping their abuse. (some of which are things they put on me too, reading some of the papers in that file was like reading my mails sometimes.). I can’t even tell how awful it was to read up all the ways they’ve hurt her while they spent years and years telling me she was all to blame all while i was suffering the consequences of her leaving. 
Not to mention i’ve spent my whole life, everytime i had a fight with my parents, hearing thrown at my face “what are you going to do, run away too? and hurt us like she did?” and so i ended up terrified of talking back hearing that all the time, so scared to cause the very hurt i had been unable to heal from all that time, and it kept me in this abusive family trying to fix their messes because of that lasting trauma.
I’ve cut ties with my dad about 6 years ago (though it’s not that easy and all, he’s still currently suing me after all lmao (next month should be the end of that lawsuit fucking finally)) so i know more than ever how my sister may have felt and it’s just. a lot. It’s a lot to have had spent your life having to think badly of her only for this.
And, (cw a//bleism) back to why it hit just now too is the fact that, I kinda read Misumi as a/utistic coded and it just sort of hit me in the face because a lot of the abuse my sister got was because she was a/utistic and my parents constantly threw it at her face and weaponized her to create a horrible environment. One of my most ancient yet vivid memory is me as a very very young child having my father using this word as an insult for stupid on me until i fought back going that i could never be something this awful /to my sister’s face/, making me /part/ of their twisted ways to hurt her. And i’ve remembered that *years* after with horror and the knowledge i will never be able to fix it.
I didn’t *think* about it in regard of that storyline until just now and now i’m shaking with anger and fury that i can’t possibly word properly. 
On the other hand man i liked Madoka just fine on my first read but the way i’m feeling right now is sure. wow. I’ll keep my eyes out on him in act 3 i guess. 
and i guess i have now specific headcanons about the way this fucking stupid family treated it all and i don’t think that’s a win actually. Kinda hating it here;
anyway i’m shaking with rage this awoke something very deep in me and this is. making me so so upset.
i’ve been dancing around this subject for a long while talking about a3 (because yeah there’s *reasons* why Azuma’s way to push people away because of his intense grief talks to me this hard. There’s reason Hisoka, the youngest of three siblings who’s eldest is gone and the second one had a strained relationship with him, and who can’t even remember what happened to lead to that, has affected me the way it did. Or why every characters who have been neglected by their parents are giving me a viseral reaction of wanting to take care of them.) because i really don’t know how much i can open up about those stuff now online.
I used to talk about my problems a bit more before but despite trying to not tag my a3 ramblings so i could talk more about it personally, i did end up getting people to follow my liveblog and suddenly it was awkward to bring that up again (even if i think most of my older followers know all of what i just said already)
so huh this is very awkward and it’s been a while i’ve been just shafting my tmi posts in my drafts but this one is the breaking point because i didn’t see coming the amount of rage the “clicking” of what made this storyline such a hard one to read would do to me.
i’m shaking with rage wow i didn’t see that one coming.
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soliitvde · 4 years
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𝐓𝐎𝐁𝐈𝐀𝐒 𝐁𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐋𝐄𝐘 --  am i a hero in your story ? 
(  brenton thwaites  /  cis male  /  he/him  ) . introducing tobias buckley, the host for the deceived. they’ll be thirty one years old, and joined the rogues six months ago. you’ll always see an axe around wherever he is.
𝚆𝙷𝙴𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚁𝙰𝙸𝙽 𝙸𝚂 𝙱𝙻𝙾𝚆𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝙽 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙵𝙰𝙲𝙴
full name : tobias james buckley 
nickname : toby ( rare ) 
age : thirty - one
birthday : august 21st 
past residence : farm in kansas 
location : with the rogues 
past occupation : farmer 
current occupation : n/a
moral alignment : lawful good 
hogwarts house : gryffindor first , hufflepuff second 
family : melissa buckley ( mother ) , johnny buckley ( father ) , daisy buckley ( sister ) , joanna buckley ( sister ) , brooklyn buckley ( sister ) 
aesthetics : 
character inspo : 
𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚆𝙷𝙾𝙻𝙴 𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙻𝙳 𝙸𝚂 𝙾𝙽 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙲𝙰𝚂𝙴
trigger warning : alcohol dependance , lots of arguments , mentions of abuse 
oh man , even as a kid tobias was emotional . sure it was normal for kids to throw a tantrum or two but tobias felt everything intensely -- love , pain , fear . every feeling was amplified . when he was first born , it had been the night of a bad storm . weather forecast predicted heavy rainfall but on that night it was thundering and hailing and the rain was violent . but tobias managed to cry louder than all of it . his parents barely even remembered that there was a storm going on because their little baby toby , managed to drown it all out . 
ever since then , tobias’ emotions always became the buffer between his family and external circumstances -- like he was born with the sole purpose of removing their problems . the way he felt about anything or anyone , how he  loved , how he was anxious and scared and afraid , gave everyone a chance to be better . the be tougher for him , to be braver for him . and as he got older , his emotions only raged on . but they managed . they had a systematic way of dealing with it and it reaped a bountiful of benefits . 
up until he was eight years old . when he was eight , their farm was hit with another pretty bad storm . much worse than before , crops were ruined , gates seemed to have been shook loose by the wind , trees had fallen down , power was cut and a hole had created a leak in their dining room ceiling . everything that could’ve possibly gone wrong went wrong . but tobias thought it wasn’t that bad , a little water damage ? stick a pail under it , a loose gate ? just close it ! ruined crops ? just plant new ones ! unfortunately , his father did not hold the same brazen attitude he did . he was already buried in a moutain of debt and he was stressed and scared and found peace in the comfort of strangers and at the bottom of beer bottles
him , his mother and his sisters put up for it for a while . but it was obvious his mother had fallen quickly out of love . at night he would stumble in reeking of booze and him and toby’s mother would go at it for hours , they would throw things and smash things and he’d just end up leaving again . and tobias , he was never the heavy sleeper , would tip toe down the staircase and hold his mother in his arms as she cried herself to sleep .
and this went on for years , but the most potent memory of his asshole of a father , was when he was twelve . around two in the morning , tobias heard them downstairs again . arguing and fighting . and they never hurt each other , only the things around them but this time he heard a thud . and he could still remember how his heart fell to his stomach and fear was in his throat . but he got up and he saw his father towering of his mother , crying , apologising profusely . and tobais , a scrawny little twelve year old , went into protector - mode . he shoved his father away and his father , he got sick of it , got annoyed at the little boy poking at his arm and he shoved him away , just a little too hard and in a bad direction . tobias broke his arm that night . and his mother suffered from a concussion . he never saw his father again after that . 
that night changed him . he was afraid of so much more but he couldn’t let it show . he was the only ‘ man of the house ’ and as the stereotypical man of the house ( despite their family being rather progressive about gender roles ) he needed to be there for his mother and his sisters . he would skip two days usually of school so that he could do more farm work . they still had to pay his father’s debts and so they couldn’t really hire anyone , so it was just him , his mother and his sisters helping around when they can . 
he gave up his dream for that farm . he wanted to be a writer . maybe novels , maybe articles . he loved writing . and he was damn good at it too , his english teacher always said he had the potential to be someone truly great . and more people started to read the school newsletter after he joined the team too ! but the farm . his mother . his sisters . he needed to be there for them , he needed to be what his father failed to be . a good man . a noble man who could help his family . and that realisation , the weight of such duties on his shoulder , it was heavy and it sucked but tobias felt ... fulfilled . like giving something up like that , sacrificing his own dreams for the safety and security of his family , it made him feel like a hero . and he was damn quick to get addicted to it . 
as he grew up , the more the feeling , this addiction grew .  it was messed up , the way he sought for opportunities to do good only to feel hurt again . but it made him feel like a hero . he’d let people use him , he’d give them ample opportunity to hurt him ( emotionally ) and he’d come out of it feeling broken and deceived and worn out . but he’d realise that it was for their own good , that by carrying pain and anguish , he had saved them from their own . so yeah , you could say he had a hero complex . but the thing about internal complexes , the people who have them don’t often know they have them . 
then the thing came . pollination the news people called it . and tobias , he should’ve packed up everything he could need , he should’ve called his sisters to come back to the farm , he should’ve gotten his mother ready , he should’ve been at the farm . but he wasn’t . he was in new york . because he had hired a PI and they had found his father . despite of what he did , how he broke the family , he was still his father . and tobias still loved him . and he just needed answers and closure . but the borders had closed , chaos ensued and everything that held them , society , together , crumbled . 
and for a while he was by himself . no way to reach his sisters . or his mother . most nights were consumed with thoughts about them and the anxiety it accompanied . were they alive ? were they okay ? were they still human ? the biggest regret of his life was not being there at the farm on june 29th . and he should’ve been there . but he gave way to his own desires , gave way to his need for closure with his father . and look what happened . he had lost everything in the process . and so he promised himself , or the universe more like , that even though this new world was cruel and ruthless , he was to be good . to accomodate their desires and their needs and never his own .  see , exhibit a . 
exhibit a . a woman , trying to fight of a cluster of carriers . tobias , watching from a distance , clearly analysing that the woman’s desires to survive and needs a hero . and tobias was happy to provide . he helped her fight them off . he learned his name was bathsheba and he had a younger sister named maggie . and for a while it was the three of them . and tobias , who always felt everything with such a high degree of passion , couldn’t help but just fall in love with bathsheba fischer .  and for the whole time with her , he was just a love struck fool . man , he even thought he could marry her . even imagined his proposal and their wedding in his head . she was just so perfect . until she wasn’t . 
seven months ago , both maggie and bathsheba left him as they were attacked by a swarm of carriers and they got separated . he managed to run away , calling batsheba and maggie to follow him but they were nowhere to be seen . maybe they had found their own shelter , maybe they were dead . tobias didn’t want to dwell on the latter . even just the thought hurt him . and for a few nights that was all he could think about . over and over again . about how they got separated ? but there was something , a feeling in the pit of his stomach , that maybe they left . left hm alone to rot and die and suffer as one of those creatures . maybe . 
but nothing about him has changed since then . he still let people walk over him , accomodate their own needs and wants before his own . this feeling , of doing something selfless , of being what people needed , it was the only thing that made him want to keep living . he wasn’t doing this - surviving thing for himself anymore . people needed him ( who exactly needed him , he’s not exactly sure . he’s kinda just generalising that people overall needed him or someone will need him  ) and he was continually going to fight for those people like they were his very own family . 
𝙸 𝙲𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙳 𝙾𝙵𝙵𝙴𝚁 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙰 𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙼 𝙴𝙼𝙱𝚁𝙰𝙲𝙴
alrighty , personality ! he has a hero - complex  !  likes to do stuff for other people , it’s exhilarating to him and it makes him feel like a superhero or smthing . 
is very loyal to those around him and gets attached very quickly ! 
doesn’t really care about himself , would rather see other people thrive and survive . 
he’s quick to speak out about any injustice that he sees , he’s not like a coward like my other chara 👀  👀  ( * cough cough * : jack ) and will call out a person’s bs for the greater good 
he’s kind of a chameleon . he becomes who people need him to be . and doesn’t really have a true personality . his true personality is that he doesn’t have one . it fluctuates and depends on those around him ?? 
𝚃𝙾 𝙼𝙰𝙺𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙵𝙴𝙴𝙻 𝙼𝚈 𝙻𝙾𝚅𝙴
connections ! im fresh out of ideas but i’ll definitely putting up sister connections on the main !  and i would also very much love to brainstorm !!! 
TLDR
has a hero - complex and lets everybody walk over him 🙈
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epouvantes · 4 years
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❛ willa fitzgerald, cis woman, she/her ❜ was that charlie brodeur? the twenty-six year old nurse has been in town since birth. the human has a reputation for being kindhearted & quick-tempered. you know they’re around when you get flashes of ( messy buns, deep breaths, cracked iphone screen & fairy lights strung all over ). rumor has it, they have no affiliations. { samu, est, 25, she/they }
( OOC: TW: ANXIETY MENTION AT THE END OF THIS PARAGRAPH. hi! i’m samu, i’m 25 and i use she/they pronouns! i’m so so so so so excited for this rp and for you all to meet my babies!!!!! i wanted to make this lil ooc section just to let y’all know that i’ll be posting longer and more detailed intro-like posts for my charas eventually, but i wanted to be able to give lil summaries and connection ideas before then so!!!!! there it is!!!!! thank u sm for reading!!!!! also if i ever message you to plot, which i’d like to do with everyone if my social anxiety allows it, pls don’t feel obligated to plot with me at all!!!!! i love connecting with other writers and stuff but i’ll completely understand if you’re not up to plot with me and my charas <33 ) ← this is the same ooc paragraph in all of my first three intros, so pls feel free to skip it! <3
brief introduction.
charlie’s mother was born and then spent all her life in ottawa, ontario, until she got pregant with charlie (original name is charlotte but charlie legally changed it as soon as she legally could after turning eighteen). isabelle, charlie’s mother, had a double citizenship (canada/usa) thanks to her mother (who she had a very complicated relationship with) being american, so when she basically ran away from home (although not really because she was twenty years old at the time), the move to the states was somewhat easy (or well, as easy as it could be).
charlie and her mother are very close!! kind of similar-ish to lorelai and rory in gilmore girls when it comes to closeness, except that they’re more like... soft, i guess? very intelligent and curious like the gilmore girls, sure, but not necessarily as quick-witted, humorous and energetic. well, isabelle sort of is a bit more so than charlie, but yes! basically, charlie and her mom are super close!
charlie’s mom (isabelle) made herself quite the stable home in blackthorne, and it’s been a home to her and charlie ever since they arrived (whilst charlie was still a fetus, of course)! nowadays, the two of them don’t live together anymore, but they see a lot of each other and get along rlly rlly well! i don’t want to set isabelle’s job in stone since i’ll probably make a wanted connection for her, but i’m picturing her doing something either really artsy or people-focused! or even both?
charlie has known she wanted to be a nurse since the age of thirteen. back in her pre-teens, isabelle and charlie’s elderly neighbour, mrs. cunningham, got quite sick and though charlie obvi didn’t do physical tasks to help out, just holding mrs. cunningham’s hands and being there for her felt right. charlie has always felt best when she's helping or caring for others, and that doesn’t seem close to change any time soon!
she was honestly a bit difficult to get along with when she was younger? bc as kind as she tended to be, she got angry VERY easily, especially when it came to other kids being careless and not paying attention to others. like, since childhood, there’s nothing that frustrates charlie more than people not taking others into consideration. also, um... when she gets mad, she gets MAD. she’s a fire sign (zodiac wise) and it really, REALLY shows lmao!!!!! she also tends to be quite dramatic and theatrical when it comes to her anger so idfjlkdjlkfdj it can lowkey be entertaining for those not involved in whatever is going on!
rn she’s living in a two bedroom apartment with two roommates! i picture charlie sharing a bedroom with one of her roommate (and can they PLEASE have bunk beds iM begging sjdljfdljfdlkfdj), and for the other roommate to have their own bedroom! i feel like both bedrooms would be REALLY small, but that actually all the other rooms would be quite roomy? and that it’d be a super well lit apartment? and like definitely not high class or anything, but DEFINITELY homey!
can be a bit reckless when it comes to her own safety, especially if others are in danger (she does have a bit of a hero complex), which is DEF not ideal right now lmao dflkjdlkfjlkdfj
loves partying btw!!!! she works rlly rlly hard as a nurse and is generally quite chill outside of work, but she feels the need to let loose, like really loose at least once every two weeks or more!
connection ideas.
CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND: along with her mother, this is the person charlie trusts and cherishes the most. and also lbr she can be a TINY bit more of herself with her best friend than with her mother, bc no matter how much she loves her mother, she’s still her mother. and this best friend would actually probably get along with isabelle really well too! i didn’t necessarily picture charlie’s best friends as one of her roommates, but if you’d like to go for that too, i definitely wouldn’t be opposed! ( 00 / 01 )
ROOMMATES: as described a lil bit above, charlie shares a two-bedroom apartment with two other roommates! the rooms are all pretty spacey, except for the bedrooms which are on the small size! still, charlie shares one of the bedrooms with one of her roommates (probably with bunk beds!!!!!! the adult-y kind?? where the bottom bunk is like a bit bigger??), and the other roommate has a room of their own!! the apartment is also really well-lit, with a lot of well-placed window, and though it’s definitely not luxurious, it 100% has a very homey feel to it! ( 00 / 02 )
COLLEAGUE(S): people who charlie works with! other nurses would definitely be interesting because they can unwind together and understand each other in a way that other people can’t? ooooh, although there could also maybe be a “rival” nurse to charlie for whatever reason we can work out together (bc charlie is caring af so maybe if your character is more ambitious and has a different way of dealing with patients - which is probably just as good as charlie’s but only different - so maybe they clash about that?) but also!!!!!! dOCTORS PLEASE!!!!!! knowing some people in health services, the way doctors act with nurses can vary quite intensely (from what i know which ofc is only a small sample tho so!!), but like....... mayhaps a doctor who really respects nurses and understands how they can have a unique point of view when it comes to what’s happening to the patients, and who tries to work with the nurses as a team!! therefore a doctor who charlie probably really admires and appreciates!!!! on the other hand, though...... a doctor who seems to think they’re above nurses (whether they really are or not is up to you, but it could be the impression that charlie is getting!) like maybe a doctor who doesn’t take kindly to being questioned, especially not by people who aren’t doctors and like...... lmao charlie doesn’t care!!!! she’ll question you!!!! (also lowkey..... this is FAR from necessary but i just stumbled upon a list of enemies to lovers novels and this seems like such a cliché plot but slfkjlxjfkljdf i wouldn’t be opposed to that if it works out with the chemistry and all of that? i’m not into planning long term romantic plots bc i feel like it hinders things and what not, but! it can be a possibility if you’d like that, maybe?) ( 00 / ?? )
EX-FIANCÉ(E): charlie’s high school sweetheart!! they started dating when charlie was fifteen (and your chara was in the same year as charlie but ig depending on the time of year they might have been the same age or a few months older or younger sflkdfjlkjfd), and they got engaged when they were twenty-one years old! charlie’s mother actually didn’t really approve of the union, even though she loved your chara, as she thought they were too young, but back then, charlie didn’t care about what others said about she and your chara’s relationship! they were actually engaged for two years before they both realized that they kept on pushing off the wedding. and it wasn’t just because they were scared; they just weren’t sure they actually wanted it anymore. then, they decided to take a “break”. that was around three years ago, and the two have barely talked to each other since, avoiding each other’s stares when they walk by each other on the street, something that happens much too often to their taste. they both still have their rings, but i feel like they’re probably just holding on to them out of nostalgia, because it seems quite clear that their relationship is over. problem is, they were close friends before they started dating, and they honestly miss each other’s friendship. also!! i don’t have a gender preference for your chara tbh!! at the age of nine, charlie loudly announced that she liked girls after climbing on the tallest tree in the park during a special school outing (to the park a block away from their school..... ok it wasn’t that special of an outing, but most of the school was still there in the park!) and at the age of fourteen she officially came out as bisexual! ( 00 / 01 )
EDIT: i wanna post this now so i won’t make a lil paragraph for it right now, but!!!! party friends is def an idea that would work very very well!
i can’t think of anything else right now, but i’m definitely open to many many more ideas! these were just the few things i could come up with right now!
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logically-asexual · 3 years
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Hold me like you mean it
summary:
Logan’s feelings for Virgil and the fact that now Virgil barely notices him are stopping him from getting any work done. Janus offers a way for Logan to cope, by disguising himself into Anxiety. but is this really what Logan needs? and what’s in it for Janus, anyway?
Alternatively, an angsty story about rejection, denial, and manipulation.
warnings: (for the whole fic) unrequited love, rejection, manipulation, unhealthy relationships, gaslighting, dependency, dubious consent and non consent for kissing, sad ending, depression (vaguely described), angst in general, nightmares, self harm. let me know what else i should add.
taglist: @gummibearbullet @chara-07 @the-sympathetic-villain
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Chapter 5
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When Logan arrived at his room a sense of relief washed over him. But there was another feeling, one he couldn’t quite name. The sort of sensation one feels after finishing a long movie and getting out of the cinema into the intense luminosity and fresh air of the street. It was nice, he felt revitalized and animated to continue with his activities. He would only work one more hour before beginning his routine to get ready for bed, but that hour turned out to be the most efficient one he had had in months. Not a single emotion got in the way of his concentration, feeling nothing but motivation continue. Later, he fell asleep peacefully as soon as his head was laid on the pillow.
The following morning, Logan spotted the notebook he had intended to take to Janus’ room on his bookshelf. He thought he recalled grabbing it, but apparently he hadn’t. Either way, he took it out and opened it to begin writing. He titled the page “Observations about Deceit’s room”. First, he wrote the physical aspects of it, including the dark lighting (which Janus appeared to have control over), the reflective floor, and the color palette of the furniture. However, once he moved on to the possible psychological effects, he found himself at a loss. He had noticed a number of behaviors that he wouldn’t normally exhibit, but he couldn’t tell apart which might have been caused by the room and which merely by the situation that occurred there. He settled on one sentence: “It was unexpectedly easy to get lost in the illusion, and to blur the boundaries between reality and fiction.”
Over the next weeks, Logan was able to continue his work with productivity. His projects weren’t hard, since Thomas didn’t require a lot from him lately, but they certainly had taken too long when he couldn’t focus on them. Now that he visited Janus, he was able to free his mind of unnecessary distractions for considerable periods. He began visiting him every few days, or whenever he felt too distracted to get work done.
He adapted his plan, no longer attempting to become friends with Virgil. Now the only purpose was to increase the effectiveness of his communication with the other three Sides through cordial behaviour. Eventually, he noticed that he reached a limit in the results of his plan. The curve of improvement had risen and then turned into an almost flat, horizontal line. This means he had already improved his relationship with the others as much as he could, and there wasn’t a need to continue seeking interaction. More effort wouldn’t bring better results, so he only needed to maintain the current level, which was just enough for the group to acknowledge his presence and listen to his input without dismissing it immediately.
He was grateful that he didn’t have to be as reserved with Janus as he was with the rest. Despite the ridiculousness of the secret that he had shared with him, Janus had been sympathetic, and was the only one Logan deemed as trustworthy, ironically. He had yet to find out if Janus had a motive behind his generosity, but it was rational that he didn’t, since this brought positive effects for Thomas, which is what they all wanted.
Another advantage he found was that he no longer felt troubled around the real Virgil. Janus’ characterization of him had gradually diverged from his current personality, adapting to what Logan prefered, in addition to some attributes Janus himself had chosen. This Virgil was more liberal with his sarcastic comments, happy to complain about the other Sides with Logan, and more assertive. He reminded Logan of when Anxiety had just made himself known, just having left the Dark Sides, and wasn’t so invested in adhering to Patton and Roman’s unrealistic ideals. It was refreshing.
Nonetheless, Logan still struggled occasionally when Virgil made a humorous comment or spoke with a soothingly low voice in their meetings with Thomas, it brought back to Logan’s attention the fact that he wouldn’t simply get over his feelings, and he would continue to depend on Janus until he found a better solution.
Not that Logan was looking for an alternative. This arrangement worked far better than anything he could have planned himself. The only possible concern was that the revitalizing sensation he got after leaving Deceit’s room seemed to decrease in intensity with every visit. He normally is relieved when getting out of another Side’s room. The emotions they make him feel are always overwhelming, and he will always choose reality over any alternative. And yet, he couldn’t shake away the slight disappointment of having to continue his responsibilities after an encounter with Virgil. He had noted this down as another probable effect of the room.
That was the third note in his page of observations, following one about a faulty memory. He found that both with Janus and outside he had become more forgetful, and seemed to confuse his thoughts with actual recollections. It started with leaving his notebook behind and forgetting about the alarm he had set on his watch the first day. Then, he forgot to set his alarm several times, and his stay extended more than it should have.
He also once thought he told Janus that he didn’t want to be kissed, but the other insisted that wasn’t true, and that he had explicitly asked Janus to maintain constant physical contact. He had been confused at first, but he was no longer opposed to that, since he now found the touch pleasant. Besides, Janus had been considerate and kept the kissing mild, allowing Logan to not open his mouth further than slightly parting his lips.
Currently, Logan breathed in the smell of the tea he held in front of him, and leaned back against Virgil’s chest. Today had been particularly stressful. Janus had had to quiet him a couple times during his interactions with the others, because otherwise he would have hurt Thomas’ pride and erased the progress they all had made with Roman’s insecurities. But as he did nearly every visit, Virgil reminded him of his worth, and his presence calmed Logan down.
“I love you, darling.” was whispered into his ear.
He felt a shiver run down his spine. He turned his head around to see Virgil, who answered with a serene half-smile. Logan mirrored his expression, and nervously glanced away.
“I love you, too.” He murmured, and turned back around, settling into the other’s arms and laying his head on his shoulder, enjoying the warmth of the teacup in his hands and of Virgil’s embrace.
Everything was fine. Logan met Virgil daily now, for two and a half hours. Janus knew exactly how to help him, even better than Logan himself. He had never been more satisfied with his life.
It was all fine.
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♫♪ four tequilas down, who gives a shit if we’re messing around, they’ll never know. they’ll never know. ♫♪
reminder! this is Logan’s POV, so he isn’t always right about everything, we just know what he thinks c:
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