#he'd just want you near

[icewindandboringhorror]

boy who likes to look very innocent and pretend that he simply wants to smell something but then will try to bite it out of your hands as soon as you've let your guard down

#cats #which for the record of course I never let him chew on anything and take it away from him immediately and am always very careful if I bring #anything near his face. etc. etc. But it's just silly that he WILL sit there and smell it for a second like 'see? I only wanted to sniff! : #................................ HAHA! KIDDING!! BITE!!! >:33' #Which is why I never let him out near the plants. Because he will just sniff and sniff and smell and be Normal but then as soon as your tur #around he's trying to actually bite and eat a plant or something so. I just stopped letting him go sniff around because #he is always a liar who cannot be trusted #The same way that if I was eating George would just come sit next to me for like 5+ minutes like ':3 I just want to sit near you!' #but then he secretly was only trying to inch closer and closer to my food and once he was sat right next to the plate #as soon as I didn't seem to be paying attention he'd try to bite something off of it lol #anyway

[good-beanswrites]

Can I request "this didnt turn out like I intended" with shidou, es, and amane?

Aw yeah!! Thank you so much for the request -- I ended up giving the line to Es but honestly all three of them could have said it, it was perfect 👀 I pictured this before the T2 interrogations, with Es being fairly quiet about their guilt towards everything that happened. Though Shidou appears a bit less, I hope I could convey that he and Es share a lot of thoughts, interestingly.

Es would never get accustomed to the screaming. 

They’d heard a few anguished cries from the prisoner’s videos. They’d gotten a few agitated shouts when the first trial verdicts were announced. But nothing could have prepared them for the way the prison halls echoed now. Whether the prisoners poured out their sorrows, anguish, or agony at recent injuries, Es didn’t think they needed Milgram’s power to hear the true sounds of their heart. 

Es wished they’d just stop already. They knew it was selfish to hope for. They knew it stemmed from their own guilt. That didn’t make them wish for it any less.

The current bout of cries was coming from Shidou’s cell. Es had paused just before passing, trying to bury a wince as they listened to Fuuta struggle with treatment.

Amane approached from the other side. She glared at the cell, though Es knew it wasn’t the screaming that was bothering her.

She opened her mouth to speak, but they said in a hushed voice, “hey, I don’t need you giving Shidou any trouble. I know you disapprove, but I stand by this. I’m the one who told Shidou to check on Fuuta and Mahiru. I’m going to make sure they’re cared for.”

Amane studied them with her bright, unsettling gaze. “Why?” Her voice came out as strangely even as always. She was one of the few Es hadn’t heard any kind of shout from. “If something is destined to happen, who are you to change its course? Do you really believe you are the same as God, having that much control over the lives of others?”

“Not at all.” Es didn’t fight her. They weren’t here to change her heart, only read it. Still, they wondered if they could convince her to soften a bit without denouncing her beliefs. “The thing is, I’m not affecting their fate.”

“Then what do you call this?”

“Putting things back the way they should be.”

Es had tried to stand by their actions. They’d put on a tough face in front of the injured prisoners. They could not show weakness. As their warden, they couldn’t show any uncertainty, whatsoever. After all, the only thing worse than nearly getting killed was finding out you nearly got killed because of a child’s mistake. So they would keep this act up. They would assure everyone that this was still going according to plan. 

The way Amane looked at them, she already knew it wasn’t.

So, they figured it wouldn’t hurt to speak a little more openly now. Maybe it would even help explain Amane’s verdict. That certainly hadn’t gone as planned, either. “I wrongfully changed their lives when I let them get hurt. I saw that Kotoko had the capability for something like this, and I ignored it in the name of forgiveness. Now I need to fix the harm I’ve caused.”

“You haven’t caused any harm.”

Fuuta howled from inside.

Amane turned her gaze away. “That was still an outside force. You had no control over Kotoko’s actions. You and Shidou have control now.”

“I did have control over Kotoko, though. I knew my choices would have consequences. This is my fault.”

It felt good to say it out loud. Maybe not 'good.' It was a relief.

“And if I may venture to speak for Shidou…” That man was a mystery, but Es had put a few pieces together, at least. “It seems… he also took some lives off of their intended course. This is his way of fixing that. Right now, this is all we can do to make up for our decisions of the past. Isn’t that acceptable?”

She went to answer, but some shuffling from the cell cut her off. Shidou emerged, his expression changing ever so slightly upon finding the two just outside. Fuuta scowled on his way out, but said nothing. 

As the pair stood face to face, Amane’s eyes lit with fiery fury. Shidou met her with a harsh coldness.

“I wasn’t expecting you two,” he said simply. He was one of the others Es had yet to hear with a raised voice. Their two quietest prisoners, locked in such an intense struggle. That had certainly been an unexpected turn. “Is everything alright?”

“Yes,” Es lied. “We just stopped to talk for a moment.”

“Oh? What about?” Shidou folded his hands together. His gloves were covered in blood, they noticed. 

“Just that… this…” they waved a gloved hand in a general gesture, “didn’t work out as I intended.”

Shidou offered them a smile. It was one without any warmth, but that didn’t make it any less genuine.

“Mmm. It never does.”

#milgram #es #amane momose #shidou kirisaki #im very curious about the specifics of amanes beliefs and i genuinely wonder if she would see this framing of the events #i know es is pretty honest with fuuta in his vd about how this isnt what they wanted -so i set this before all that #as much as they bicker with amane about ages i think theyd subconsciously be drawn to the only other person near their age #and be ready to trust her with their secret doubts #especially after Magic -- es would think amane will understand what it means to make a mistake and want to fix it #they seemed to take her beliefs seriously in the vd (pushing back against them but still not trying to up and convert her in a day) #shidou is caught in a weird place because he both wants to atone for the lives he took by saving new ones #and also if asked he'd argue that you dont need to be atoning in order to intervene and offer help #thank you so much for the request! #id originally written a drabble about es stopping an argument between shidou and amane but they really are the quietest/most collected ones #plus physical fights are currently prohibited so i couldnt include action if i wanted #so it was just a super boring conversation asdfasd #doing it like this let me get a bit deeper into Es' guilt/perspective so i was really glad with the switch 👍 i hope you enjoyed! #drabbles

[sigskk]

happy holidays :)

[ID: A reddish monochrome drawing of Sigma and Chuuya from Bungou Stray Dogs. They are standing side-by-side and looking into the camera.

Sigma is on the left and is noticeably taller than Chuuya. He's wearing a reindeer headband and is dressed in a light turtleneck sweater and a thick overcoat.

Chuuya is on the right and is wearing his hat with a holly leaf and berry decoration on it. He's dressed in his standard button-up and trench coat.

The background is a muted, dark red with lighter snowflakes drifting down. End ID.]

#[ my art ] #so chuusig brained you must understand #i tried to make their height different accurate but :') getting them both comfortably in the frame #it's a few cm proportionally more than this #anyways oh my god #sigma's first winter after joining the ADA and getting dragged around by his boyfriend(s) #chuuya driving him around on his motorcycle to see the lights #are malls popular places to go sight seeing? the malls near me don't decorate a lot :( but i know it gets wild in the big cities #not that this is relevant but chuuya helping putting on his headband after he takes off his helmet #and sigma still isn't familiar w yokohama despite having lived above it for years and in it for a few months #so it's just chuuya leading him around by the hand #'oh do you want to get something here? [food court]' 'alright. but i don't really know what i'd like...' #'... that's fine. try this. I think you'd like it.' #(spoiler: he probably does) #how much do you think chuuya's income is #... i mean he'd want to spoil sigma regardless but like. #'hey. no looking at the price tag. if you like it we're getting it.' #i'm so ill about them #bsd #bungo stray dogs #sigma #chuuya #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #sigma bsd #chuuya fanart #sigma fanart #bsd fanart #sigchuu #chuusig

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya once jokingly referred to Bennett as 'Bennett Guildson' in lightly scolding him over endangering himself, and Bennett most Definitely considered making that his actual name on his official Adventurer's Guild paperwork, send post-

#hc; kaeya #hc; bennett #//Forver love the idea of Kae saying smth to clown; and the person going Wait a sec; you COOKED here- #//And Kae just flounders and/or laughs his ass off bc WHY are you listening to me of all people; I wasn't SERIOUS 😅- #//Dude can handle people being Done with his clowning or rejecting it; but taking it Seriously and it ACTUALLY working well??? #//Dude would be both stunned but also flattered #//This case however; he was very much caught off guard #//This is a Very Impressionable Kiddo after all! #//However between the two of them; the name did stick. Kae will call him that in the typical Full Named By Mom fashion #//And Benny will introduce himself like that at the start of training or when they play up dramatics #//Benny DOES want to make it official; but Kae did gently talk him out of it. For the moment #//Bc Kae thought Bennet might regret taking it on later; so he ought to let him think on if he might want one of his dads' names instead #//But won't press any further if Benny truly does have his heart set on it. Low key is down to give Benny his own last name if he wants #//And would be so happy if he'd want to take it; bc the kid; like Klee and Noelle; is sb he's fond of like family #//Benny actually likes Guildson tho; bc it includes them ALL. He might even make it official on/near an upcoming father's day #//Keeps forgetting to tho. or losing the paperwork when he does get it

[nyhti]

Awww, that’s so cute <33 Bruce teaching him martial arts.

Action Comics #318

#clark kent #i wonder if bruce taught him judo specifically for when clark would have to go back to lexor again #and honestly this story #if it had been bruce in clark's place this story would've been over in 2 panels #because he would've had the common sense to DISGUISE HIMSELF WHEN LANDING ON A PLANET THAT CONSIDERS HIM A CRIMINAL #like none of this would've even happened had it been bruce #but it was funny to watch clark be kinda dumb have to rely on straight up just luck to not end up dead #i really like the idea of clark kinda sucking without his powers #i think it's a good flaw to give him #i like to think villains rather get busted by superman than batman #because superman will have to handle them so fucking gently #like he'll hold them like newborn kittens because if he gets even just a little rought he'll accidentaly kill them #and batman will just beat the shit out of them #like before lex has ever fought batman #he'd laught at joker like 'lmao you got beat by just some human? just some guy? no superpowers?' #and then he gets punched by batman one time #and never wants to step foot into gotham ever again #like 'no thanks i'd rather keep trying to kill this alien with near god like powers than go anywhere near that one emo furry'

[pinkfey]

wip wednesday :D

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have a depressing oddly interpreted take on the taint affecting alistair and rowena 😘

The taint came for his hands first.

A side effect of days spent clutching a sword and shield no doubt. His veins went fast, running black and blue overnight. He didn't like looking at them, but Rowena traced them over every night. Hardened bones were next. Protruding metacarpals and thinned knuckles and a noticeable creak in the mornings. Then the pain began. The ache. Days where his joints stiffened to stone, where a grasp clenched too tight refused to come undone, where splaying fingers to their fullest extent proved too much.

Rowena often caught him staring at his hands in the corner of her eye. Busy hands, curious hands, hands made to fidget and gesture and move above all else, now immobile. His worry token went untouched for months, as did many of the things he loved to hold. Flowers in the garden. The mabari's paws. Rowena.

There was a time when Alistair couldn't keep his hands off of her. Affection of the physical kind was a bright and shiny concept and it took time for him to adjust. Rowena could touch him anywhere, after all. It came easy to her, the affection, the initiation. His cheek, his chin, his collarbone--anywhere would do. Eventually, he came to reciprocate. Tentatively at first, as if asking for permission, but confidence came with the security of her affection. Touch became a comfort. A hand around her waist, on her jaw, in her hair. Anywhere would do.

It couldn't have been more different now. He shied away when she reached for his arm to hold, twitched when she kissed his neck in the mornings. Evening baths became sparser until they no longer existed at all, and this Rowena could hardly bear--facing this truth that the old rituals had died, so she clung to the last of them.

No amount of massage relieved the pain, but Rowena would be damned if she didn't try. Nightly, he let her take his hands in her own.

It was a relief each time to see that despite the Taint, Alistair's hands were still his own, broad and square-fingered and devastatingly gentle. Calloused on the underside and scarred by his earliest days with a blade, too young and eager to know any better. And those nights by the firelight, nights where she took his palm in her hands and massaged the ache away, she could see that Alistair's hands were still freckled, just barely. The sun could still shine on him and leave honeyed kisses against his skin and this was one thing the taint could never take. No darkspawn could take the sun.

The night she realized this, she wept silently. She'd stopped him before he could speak, pressed his freckled hand to her cheek before he could pull away, and whispered, "Bathe with me."

Months later, the taint came for her.

For Rowena, it was her vision and it was swift. [reduntant fix this queen lol]

#in my universe the taint wastes away the physical thing you rely on the most #eventually everything is corrupted but it's always your most used ability first #so chronic pain takes alistair's hands and near blindness comes for rowena #spoiler alert unless in da4 they somehow resolve the cure for the calling rowena dies first <3 teehee #SO anyways alistair becomes a lil distant not because he's like. being cold with her. but because like #the insecurity of touch returned. the hesitation. asking if this is okay because of the unspoken recognition that the end is on its way #and he really doesn't know how to deal with that. never knew how to prepare for that #when he cups her face and sees the darkened veins on his wrists and all he can think of is how they can't have this for much longer #that's just!! a lot to handle!! and he needs the reassurance but doesn't know how to communicate it because he lost the ability to ask #aka touch #the bathing part is especially difficult bc ofc evidence of the taint's corruption had spread beyond his hands atp #and he'd have to bare his whole body in front of her and that's like. so vulnerable. when ur dealing w all that #this is probably rlly obvious but sjhdjhfhdjfhjd #i like having aging being a significantly important thing in alistair and rowena’s relationship #the tragedy of it all #how gaining weight and wrinkles is so bittersweet #because on one hand they’re growing old together and god can u believe they made it here #but on the other it’s the telltale sign the calling is nearing and it’s just like #okay how much time do we have left. how much time do we have left. how much time do we have left. #how can we enjoy what we have when we want so much more. gray hair and children and arthritis. we’re so weary and we’re so young. #tag game #writing* #x: a soft epilogue #ch: rowena cousland

[irregularbillcipher]

going over old fic notes and outlines and character talks with friends and it's always really funny when i get to the stuff i was developing early-mid 2019 where bill just literally kept kryptos around to rag on, and he genuinely just. did not like the man. like was just completely annoyed with his general existence. boy have things changed

#for anyone curious: i came to the conclusion that no amount of 'this guy sucks but he's fun to bully' would get bill to keep someone around #for like literal eons. bill gets bored of his toys too quickly. he'd break 'em. plus the fact that bill decided he was worth saving to begi #with. there was at first an element of 'i owe the guy' because [FIC SPOILERS] and a grudging 'if i had a gun to my head i'd say he was my #best friend i GUESS but do not tell him that' but no real genuine friendship or anything more #before realizing that with the specific story i was going to tell it just made the most sense to have these assholes still be like. #bad people for sure but to actually care about each other. it also just felt too easy to write bill off as someone whose cruelty is just #a lack of certain emotions. like that doesn't automatically make a bad person and a bad person doesn't automatically lack emotion #(there's a character that'll be introduced sometime soon who is aroace and doesn't make friends easily and she's lovely because...) #(idk man. i'm aroace and why shouldn't she be. a lack of affection doesn't make you bad and the ability to feel it doens't make you good) #so bill can and does love people-- even if actual vulnerability is near impossible to get from him-- and kryptos is included in that #it's just that he still sucks really bad and hurts and even kills people that he loves because again. bad person who has no idea how to #navigate relationships healthily because of his own baggage and the environment he grew up in #(also in canon he usually does not want to navigate relationships healthily because. again. he sucks!) #so the only lasting relationship he's ever had where he isn't trying to hurt someone is still just... messy as hell #(and to be fair kryptos is also a p. bad person by adulthood it's just that they're pretty young at this point in the fic) #(so there's less avenues to show that) #kryptos being desperate for any scrap of attention and bill providing the only attention he's ever gotten was always the vibe #but it really was much more of a 'bully and bulling victim who he lets hang around him because said victim' #'is like the only one willing to talk to him' dynamic which is... very much not the case anymore #as said in the tags of my fic. these awful shapes care about each other as best they can care about anyone #anyway sorry idk how much anyone really cares about these tag essays but theyre helpful for me to get my thought process like... down #and track how different the story used to be

[arollofmirrors]

The most tragic part of my Weird Al obsession is that even if I knew someone who wouldn't judge me for talking about him, I'd never be able to just rant on and on without stopping to explain what I'm talking about.

Like, I know way too much random trivia about this guy's career. And because he's on the more niche side of things that means that I'll probably never find a person who knows anywhere near as much as me.

It pains me to know I can never just say "Yeah, Regular Al is super cursed, am I right?" without then explaining to them what Hanson and MTV Unplugged was and how Al connects to both.

#weird al #this is my First World Problem #also can we all agree MTV Unplugged/Regular/Normal/Norm Al is cursed or am I in the minority here? #I've seen so many people talk like “Wow he looks kinda handsome with that haircut. #He'd look so much better if he just got rid of those stupid glasses and changed his ugly hair.“ #like no #you monster #you absolute fiend #go to the time-out corner where you belong and think long and hard about what you said #I don't want you near me or my nonexistent children

[aria0fgold]

Honestly my headcanoning for The Cursing of Chateau Castle lore continues cooking in my brain like I got more for it but it's all in the microwave for now. Like I got a whole ass storyline for Pierre and Lady Irene. With how hardcore hc-ing I am bout these characters, it makes it seem like they're my OCs but no they're like-- my half-children I think? isat is the other parent of course. I got nothing else to go off of in regards to the chateau trio but the small crumbs and a dream.

#aria rants #like bout pierre's home life being The Worst ever. and like the internal monologue he'd have after sacrificing their castle #imagine going through all that ordeal. joining the supposed ''heroes' party'' and then betraying The Hero aka josephandre #all for your own family to recognize you as being worthy of being a part of the family. so that you can be recognized as a noble #but in the end it wasnt enough. he wasnt happy. in the end pierre was happiest with josephandre and the others so he #went around. turned their back on the ppl he has spent majority of their life proving their own worth to go back and save #the first genuine friend he ever had in ages and the cost of that being the very castle they wanted to be a part of #so in the end. he never got to actually be called ''lord'' he didnt have a place in the family. he lost the castle #but thats fine anyway cuz he found a home with josephandre and the others BUT THEN!!! he apparently got into a near-death #experience like how horrible is that??? to have your title stripped away from you from birth and then abandon the #one chance and opportunity to have that title for the sake of saving your friend and realizing that it'd be better to just be #with them instead but before that moment can even sink in well enough-- YOU'RE NOW ON THE EDGE OF DEATH! #yea pierre is turning out to be my fave character from like-- that mentions of them betraying the party and then #sacrificing their own castle to save josephandre and then the fate of them possibly dying near the end of the series #like that guy went THROUGH IT. not as much as josephandre but he really did just went through it and im like-- out here #using my brain power to the maximum in filling in the blanks cuz i got attached to 3 characters with only a name and #some information. i got some more in regards to lady irene and josephandre too btw like-- this is for you mirabelle #im spreading the cursing of chateau castle propaganda as best as i can with the crumbs im given

[hydrachea]

Here's a fun fact that might interest you: Nahida calls Wanderer a shugenja, which is a practitioner of the uniquely Japanese Buddhist tradition Shugendo. Now some Shugendo monks have historically self-mummified themselves to reach Buddhahood, so that when worshippers pray to them the mummified monks can grant their wishes. The process of self-mummification involves eating pine needles, nuts, seeds and bark over a decade so that the body can eventually preserve, which is why it's called mokujiki ("eating tree/wood").

Oh we're giving morning wood a whole new meaning with this one.

#... i'm sorry this is a very interesting fact however i am a terrible person with a brain to match #ask #answer #rainycloudmountain #i know it's symbolism/a reference to scara being literally carved out of wood #but i'll still delight in the mental image of nahida bringing him a platter of tree bark for his meals #there you go sweetie #i bet he'd ask for poisonous trees and nuts as much as he can #little buddy wants to become the first mummy that kills you just from being near it #genshin #also echoes his character description #that says he 'dresses like a mountain ascetic' (but does not act the part) #this horrid little pest can fit so much religious imagery in him

[aro-aizawa]

me, first watching wtdsik: i will not become a mega fan of kalego i will not. i refuse. yes he shows hints of caring for his students occasionally but--

episode s2 ep 12 kalego' home visit: hi

me: FUCK.

#shut up danni's talking #danni liveblogs #danni liveblogs wtdsik #i knew from the second i saw he'd be their homeroom teacher that it'd end up like this #i adore these characters sm guy you don't understand #i have been v lucky what whatever spoilers never sunk in before i blacklisted the tag #so all of this is COMPLETELY new to me i have no prior experience w this fandom my brain is fkn thriving on the new enrichment #i have to keep stopping myself periodically so i don't go through it all so fast i barely comprehend it #bc then it's a blink and you'll miss it minor hyperfixation that i'll forget in less than a week #its happened before w shows/animes w short seasons/content and sometimes longer ones #those i blitz through and catch up but my enthusiasm burns up before i get to the next installment so i fall behind then forget it rip #back to my original point: kalego and aizawa are so fkn similar i want to chew glass #i can't decide whether they're incarnations of each other or they'd be besties who sit in silence together #and never speak a word to the other bc they have a deep respect and understanding of each other speech is unnecessary #OR if they're somehow brothers or cousins #if it was anywhere near april fools i'd probs just edit my icon to be kelego instead of aizawa #and see how long it'd take for someone to notice lol

[kakusu-shipping]

This scene from Virtue's Las Reward with GTM-CM-G-OLM but instead of Luna, Sigma, and Alice being the dumbest dummies when it comes to technology it's just me going ham info dumping robot nonsense while I'm massaging his poor stiff joints and he's flirting with me the entire time

#Virtue's Last Reward #Am I F/Oing the Cockney Robot who died after 30 minutes of screen time? Who's to say #I'm actually so obsessed with him I need everyone to know I have his full ID memorized already #Not that it's really all that hard #Ayo Alice shut UP about his ID being 'too long' if that's what he wants to be called THAT'S WHAT WE CALL HIM #I'LL BITE YOU #I've rewatched Lucah's episode that's JUST his scene at LEAST four times #Which isn't a lot but other things are happening and I am trying to keep up with the series #positive Lucah's computer crashed just for me so that episode would be just GTM-CM-G-OLM's scene #Thankyou Lucah's computer for forcing her episode short #So I could be a simp #He'd call me like. His little White Bird #And it'd be sooooo cute #I wish his voice was a little more metalic with a filter like K's #But I guess the point of Gaulems is to be near indistinguishable from humans #So him having a filter would kind of ruin that effect #I wonder what he's look like with ABT... #I like him better without it though <3 #Does Lucahjin still use tumblr what are the chances she sees this post??? djsjgfdjhgj Minimal I'd say #No one tell her I crashed her computer for Simp Reasons

[everliving-everblaze]

one of the reasons Fitz is my favorite character, besides everything about him, is that he's the character that shows the most growth in the series. Tam (learning to trust others again) and Biana (learning to accept her scars) I think are both significant, but the amount of growth Fitz in particular has shown since the first book is radical and definitely the most center stage. His perspective on the world itself has done almost a complete 180, and there are at least two significant occasions where he apologizes and learns from his actions. Like, he's just SO interesting to look at as a character because situations where his character is tested are frequent, and the way he acts in each of them shows a clear character arc. I'm obsessed with him.

#I talk about this a lot in the sophitz powerpoint (which I'm still working on!) but the character arc is entirely based upon sophie #and that makes his character so compelling too!! that he meets sophie and like.... #there are tons of bumps in the road but he CHANGES because of having met her #like I could go on and on (and plan to when I do that stream) but just. their relationship is the most compelling thing about the-- #series to me and probably always will be. #in particular if you want to know more about what I'm talking about #the point in flashback near the end of the book where he's going to kill alvar and sophie talks him down from it makes me go craazy #especially because if he'd killed him then before his memory came back.... then the neverseen's plan would have been foiled. #FITZ WAS RIGHT. FITZ WAS RIGHT. FITZ WAS RIGHT. FITZ WAS RIGHT ABOUT ALVAR AND NO ONE BELIEVED HIM #EVEN SOPHIE DIDN'T BELIEVE HIM #I'm so normal I'm so normal about this #kotlc thoughts with catherine #kotlc #fitz vacker #stan fitz vacker or perish

[thethingything]

I keep feeling like someone's co-fronting or very close to front but just kind of lurking instead of doing anything, but it's not anyone I know and when I try to ask who's there, the most I get in terms of a response is a slightly stronger sense of someone being there but nothing intelligible

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #who are you mystery alter? are you another me? are you a fragment that hasn't finished forming yet? #it feels just like when someone's co-fronting but like there's only the vaguest hint of something where there should be another alter #I think this would have freaked me out in the past but I feel weirdly calm #like I want to know what's going on but it's less of a ''oh no what's our brain doing now...'' #and more just kind of being intrigued and curious about what's happening #we had another alter recently who took nearly a week to fully form and we knew he was there but he sort of hid away until he'd formed fully #so I kind of wonder if this is similar but they're hanging out near the front instead of hiding...

[fionnaskyborn]

current mood:

#it's about people who have gone through events that are uncannily similar but have dealt it both the events and the aftermath in #drastically different ways. one of them was surrounded by people who didn't look and sometimes didn't act the part but ultimately meant #only well and the other only had one person who cared about him near him and not even that person was in a good enough place to give him #that sort of empowerment‚ the strength to try and fight against impossible odds and an inescapable situation #and i've seen takes (don't remember where) that state that rai is ultimately so much stronger than v because he managed to free himself #from the shackles of his assigned fate whereas v 'failed' to do so but like... i believe that v is equally as strong for just... existing. #and maybe the world would've been better off if he had died as soon as he learned the truth but he lived because he wanted to see a better #world and believed that him being stripped of his identity was a small price to pay for a better world but what makes him even stronger in #my eyes is the fact that he KEPT LIVING even when he realized that there was no way to make things better from his position as much as he #wanted to and when he saw that everything was going to hell and that he was doomed to just... stay there and be trapped and be forced to #work for ideas that directly oppose his own #and DESPITE ALL OF IT‚ HE KEPT HIMSELF ALIVE (until nato called and said ''hey bibo if you don't respond to the allegations we will nuke #your house'' (referring to V's OH) and bibo just. did not answer. and threw v under the bus and let him die like he was nothing #like i need you to understand this man has the mental resolve of joy herself but you aren't ready for that talk #look point is i think that if they were to ever meet rai would initially not like v at all and couldn't exactly pinpoint why he doesn't #like him - he's polite‚ relatively kind‚ a bit sassy at times‚ and really quiet‚ which in a way mirrors his own mannerisms - so he has no #clue as to why he /doesn't like him at all/ (and of course rai being rai would be polite in turn but he'd never be earnestly amiable) #UNTIL one of them tries to start a conversation about more mundane topics like music or movies and as they exchange opinions rai realizes #that he really doesn't have to bother with the whole thing about resolve and determination to pursue your own goals and differences in #ideologies and that he can just talk to this guy as if he were one of his friends from nyc from back when life was relatively normal #(aka before big shell and when the memories of his past were artificially surpressed HMM PARALLELS YES) #in conclusion v is less anti-raiden and more the second coming of joy and also the two of them would (eventually) be friends and talk about #film and music. rai would absolutely DIG some of the 80's stuff v listens to. thank you for joining me on yet another episode of 'insanity #with fionna' #zeta gear tag #i wrote a lot here and i've made some good points so in the tag it goes

[brown-little-robin]

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#Strange Redemption spoilers #You know when a fact about an OC just. drops into your brain fully formed? #Yeah so Five loves the sea #but he won't admit it except in a moment of weakness #because he needs to be strong enough for this suicide mission he's on #and that means not getting attached to anything including the sea. #he'll admit that he ADMIRES the sea #for its tenacity #but that he loves it? but that in a different life he'd have wanted to live near it? to collect seashells and make ships in bottles? NEVER.