#hashtag autism posting

[vi-visected]

my therapist: how are you feeling in the wake of your (autism spectrum disorder) diagnosis?

me: well it makes sense doesn’t it? i was the one who requested testing. like on some level i kind of figured.

my therapist: yes, i’m personally glad we pursued it because it helps me better understand parts of your behavior and how to accommodate you. but how do you feel about it? you said before that you were in heavy denial about the possibility when you were younger.

me: well yeah, i had a preconceived idea of what autism was that i know now wasn’t true. but at the time it was distressing and i didn’t want to think about it too hard.

my therapist: how was it different then? what was your idea of autism then?

me: it was, you know, severe developmental delay. i never thought i had developed abnormally at all, so to try and match up the severity i associated with autism and the way i viewed myself, i just couldn’t.

my therapist: but you did.

me: sorry?

my therapist: you did develop abnormally. both socially and academically.

me: socially yes, but i had no problems with academics. i always especially excelled at reading comprehension, more so than anyone else in my grade. i started lagging in high school but i think that was a lot of burnout and depression and ptsd, probably. i was incredibly smart. hell, i spoke in full sentences earlier than most of my peers.

my therapist: violette, that’s still abnormal development.

me: …huh?

my therapist: developing abnormally fast is still developing abnormally.

me:

me: oh.

#nothing in our sessions has ever hit me as hard as that #it was almost a year ago now and i still think about it #i’ve never had one of those ‘moments of clarity’ in therapy outside of this #but god damn did i have to sit with it for a bit #developing abnormally fast is still developing abnormally #jesus Christ ellen #actually autistic #actually asd #hashtag autism posting #autism #autistic adult #autistic feels

[dearinglovebot]

autistic!claire just hits so right when you also take into account the context of (gender based) ableism. only recently have people realized girls as a group went ignored. only recently has research started into learning how autism manifests in groups other than cisgender men. most girls who weren’t diagnosed as very young children will never be considered autistic because of medical bias from that time.

girls are more likely to suppress and hide autistic traits. they’re more likely to try and adapt rather than seek adequate support needs. when traits inevitably occur, they’ll be dismissed as social awkward and weird which is something to fix about oneself. it creates the “ignore it until it’s impossible” phenomenon which leads to an inevitable complete psychological burnout.

claire’s JW personality is truly just masking who she is from the world. she’s awkward. she has no friends. nobody really likes her. she’s completely goal focused to an off-putting degree. she’s emotionally self-contained until she can’t be anymore. she’s putting on her best attempt at a show for everyone else because it’s what she’s been taught to do her entire life. she crashes and she burns HARD.

she can still preform, as seen in the lockwood manor sequence, but she doesn’t care to after that. it’s like a reclamation of lost self which she is ultimately rewarded for by making her first close connections as an adult. and he letting go of a burning desire to rescue every dinosaur to absolve herself is a little like a metaphor for completely deconstructing masking behavior. at this point, she has completely rejected the need to shy away from being perceived as off-putting because she’s found peace in herself.

#autistic claire dearing #jurassic world #hashtag autism posting #I’d go more into the intersectionalities #but y’all didn’t come here for mister gender studies #you have to send me asks to hear about that

[alluraaaa]

decided to expand on the tags of my other post and talk about how shiro should have gotten a healing arc instead of the clone plot. here’s how i would’ve done it (under the cut because it got Long):

at the end of season two shiro uses his and zarkon's mutual connection to the black lion to kick absolute ass. however, shiro ends up stuck in the astral plane

he doesn’t know that though. he’s just in a starlit void with no prosthetic arm and is like “0_0 where am i”

“fancy types call it the astral plane,” a guy says. shiro turns to look at this guy and it really is just some guy. like he's just in jeans and shit, looks like he's about to go grab coffee before running errands

and shiro's like “????? what??? where’s zarkon?”

the guy explains that the astral plane is the halfway point between life and death. it’s where spirits go to move on before fully embracing the afterlife. zarkon is fully dead, thanks to shiro. and shiro himself is here because he has a chance to take a second and relax before making a decision. he can either come back to the land of the living, or he can fully move on and join the afterlife

as shiro's processing this the guy is like “y’know kid, you're young, you gotta lotta life ahead of you. your team and your family would love to see you again. but after what you've been through, i don't blame you for wanting to call it quits early. i mean, you did it, you beat the bad guy, and the others are able to keep going without you, you pushed ‘em in the right direction. you can... hit the hay, as it were. but don't let me tell you what to do. it's your choice, son.”

shiro's like “that's a big decision. i can't just… pick one so easily.” because yeah, he loves being a paladin and of course wants to see his loved ones again, but god. he's so tired. knowing that the team will be able to continue without him fills him with relief and the sudden desire to rest

the guy says, “i get it. we can wait, you can think. we don't gotta talk.” so they both sit there and think, watching the stars of the astral plane twinkle around them.

shiro takes a moment, then asks, “are you dead?” the guy says, “yeah. died a few years back.” he doesn’t elaborate and shiro doesn’t press. instead he asks, “did you have a choice?”

guy says, “nah. you’re lucky as hell. wish i coulda stayed. but… i know that everything is working out without me, y’know?”

shiro’s like “i get it. i really wanna go back but… i also wanna take a break. i mean, we all die, right? everyone i wanna see… we’ll all end up dead together in the end, right?”

guy: “yeah. and when you’re on the other side, you can watch over ‘em.”

shiro: “am i selfish for wanting that? i mean, i can still help, i can save the universe, but part of me just wants to roll over and die.”

the guy chuckles. “boy, you’re not selfish for wanting a break. you’ve been fighting like hell for years, even before the space nonsense. it’s okay to want somethin’ that’s just for you. and if you help you, you’re still helping the universe, y’know? we’re all in this together.”

shiro doesn’t say anything, and the two of them fall into silence again

for the first time in years, there’s no rush. when he was a student, he was working hard towards good grades and graduation. when he was at the garrison, he was working hard towards teaching and reaching the stars. in space, he was working hard to just survive. and then with voltron, he had the entire universe on his shoulders. he was the leader, he had to be ready for anything.

but here, he wasn’t ready for here. and it’s turning out… okay? he has time to make a decision, and he isn’t being rushed, there doesn’t seem to be a deadline.

he wishes so bad that he had this more often when he was alive: time to breathe

but he’s still alive, isn’t he? he’s half alive, able to go back out there. if he can get through this war, he can be alive with his friends, his family, and they can all breathe together.

“i want to live,” he says.

the guy smiles, and stands. “i figured you would. you don’t seem like the type to sit and watch. here.” and he reaches out a hand to help shiro stand.

shiro takes it, and rises to his feet. “i, uh, never got your name.”

“ryou kogane,” the guy says, and shiro now knows why he felt so familiar. “i’ve been watching you since you met my boy, and i’m so happy he’s had someone like you there for him when i couldn’t be. thank you.”

and shiro’s about to burst into tears, so he pulls ryou into a hug. ryou hugs back, laughing.

“tell him i love him. and that he’s doing great, because he is. i couldn’t be more proud of that kid. he’s just like his momma.”

“i will. and thank you, for everything.”

“of course, son. now go, you got a life to live. i’ll see you when you’re done.”

and so shiro goes. when he comes back to the land of the living, he’s in the black lion. it’s because of her that he was able to come back, she was his tether to life. and he learns this in the calm purring in his mind.

he puts his hand on the dashboard and whispers, “thank you. it’s good to be back.”

meanwhile, in the castle, allura feels something’s off. she’s been trying to get closer to the black lion as it’s replacement paladin, and it would normally excite her to feel something shift in their bond from all the way in the dining hall, so far from the hangers. it would, but she’s more worried about what’s happening. when she suddenly stands up and starts to leave for the hangers, the others follow her

in the hanger, they all stand in front of the black lion, watching allura. something in her doesn’t want to move, doesn’t want to interrupt.

it clicks when the black lion bows and lowers its jaw, opening the ramp for shiro to come down the plank.

he looks different. his arm is gone, his hair is all white, and he’s calm.

keith reacts first, sprinting at his brother with a shout of his name, diving into a tight bear hug.

the others follow not far behind. it’s a happy, tearful reunion at the feet of the black lion.

shiro has moments alone with all of them after that, telling them how proud he is of them for keeping up the fight without him. of how they’ve all grown into better fighters and, more importantly: better people.

but keith is the only one who learns about what shiro did in the astral plane, and who he was with. shiro relays everything his dad said, and hugs keith when he breaks into tears

in the future, he and allura lead voltron side by side. they take turns as the black paladin, giving each other well needed breaks from the fight because neither of them would step down completely

when it’s shiro’s turn to fight, he wonders how. he doesn’t have his prosthetic, so no weapon. (“so… you’re unarmed?” lance asks.)

the answer comes when allura gives him the black bayard. he activates it, and it replaces his old prosthetic. proof of his connection to his lion. he beams.

and farther in the future, when they’re all safe at home on earth, shiro gets his wish: he’s with his loved ones, happily married to adam and surrounded by the kids more or less adopted as his own years ago. they’re all safe, all here, and they’re all breathing

#hiiiiii. i’m so normal about him #he wants to be a paladin!!!! #txt #shiro #fuck it. tagging as #fic #mine #because this took a while to write #keith&shiro #allura&shiro #<- because broganes is so so important to me but so is shiro being allura’s big brother #rewrite #<- because i’m gonna make more posts later hashtag autism

[moomoocowmaid]

“Why would you send me a video when we’re on call?? What if you start talking while I’m watching it, and then I like —— explode.”

#irl harley excerpt #me devouring #him #on call #text post #uhm #uhmmmm #hashtag #funny #explosion #haha #evil #freak #original post #humor #textpost #lol #literally #real conversation #autism #adhd #overwhelmed #shit post #shitpost

[mrsillymccoolguy]

me, constantly:

“ okay I’m about 97% sure I’m autistic”

(Looks over at my tv, where community is playing. Abed starts saying literally anything)

“.. okay I’m 98% sure I’m autistic “

#abed nadir #community #I think I’m autistic but uhh I don’t know #Joke #i relate to abed so much guys #Wait the hashtag that I think I’m autistic wasn’t a joke the post is #Just to clarify #have y’all listened to jaws by lemon demon it’s so fun #autism #??? #I just sneezed

[maxgicalgirl]

If there is one thing about me it is that I am a merch girly. I go to an event and I am immediately in a merch line with no less than $100 at the ready. 90% of my wardrobe is shirts and hoodies with logos of my special interests slapped all over them. My room is covered in posters and little figures and trinkets arranged in shrines to the things I love. I am nothing if not a walking talking advertisement for niche obscure media please ask me about the band on my shirt I have so much to say !

#tagging a few of my top merch contenders #Haikyuu #welcome to night vale #stray kids #big hero 6 #gravity falls #pokemon #taylor swift #heartstopper #alice oseman #sk8 the infinity #dungeons and dragons #d&d #ALMOST FORGOT BEARS IN TREES HOW COULD I #bears in trees #genshin impact #< I went to the genshin concert this past weekend and waited 50 minutes in a merch line but it was too long and I didn’t get anything before #it started :( #this is a hashtag autism post #it didn’t hit me until this week when I was going through my clothes to throw out stuff just how vast my collections of merch are

[hacksawboy]

fun fact, the way leigh whannel describes shit is absolutely insane! i say this because adam is described as a drowned rat from the tub in the official script and i think thats fucking hilarious

#saw #adam saw #adam stanheight #i fucking love leigh whannel #dude is so silly #first real post ive made in ages hoping this shit dont flop #also im in creative writing class rn and i didnt sleep all night PRAY FOR ME!!! #the saw fandom on tumblr probably knows this and im slow #yall are just as autistic as me #i can smell autism and gay people from a mile away #they all flock to saw (2004) it really is like fish bait #did yk fish are actually rlly smart #they have rlly good memory :) #sorry im rambling again #hashtag autism #sorry for being acoustic babes #stan leigh whannel!!! #why do my tags still have that komahina shit GET THAT SHIT OUTTA HERE #stan saw NOT danganronpa 2 fr

[z0mbatz]

i love to take every opportunity i can to flex my (unfinished) mlp collection and i recently added a bunch to it so

#WOO AUTISM #mlp #mlp g4 #mlp fim #my little pony #my little pony friendship is magic #mlp collection #collector #hashtag autism #i’m blowing my nose as i’m posting this

[pookinat0r]

trugger warnig autistic (megamind rant)

this makes me so mad. the animation makes it look like a tv series. megamind looks uncanny valley, and some random characters that are probably someones self insert?? the plot is so mych weaker than the plot of the (Beautifully crafted) first movie. How could we destroy somethinf so perfect? We shol have just left it unrouced. it looks like it was made in gmod. actually thats an insult to gmod. Everything looks and sounds SO Unfinished and unpolished. I can't o believe thwy would do this: im so upset. It looks fanmade. No actualky it would lod better if it was fanmade. Im goinf to die. I feel like megamind in the new movie (from what ive seen in the trailer) did not go through the same development that the megamind from the original movie did. The whole fucking movie was about his character arc, but it feels like they forgot about that, and just wrote his character as “the same as the start of the movie but hes a good guy now.” Also, the entire CONCEPT of these new characters makes no sense storywise!! In the intro of megamind, he states that all he had was minion (and his dehydration ray but that is besides the point). Its not the fact that there are new characters that bother me. Its that dreamworks obviously only did this for money, but they contradicted everything about the first movie that made it so loved and seperated from other movies. Everything from the artwork, to the writing, to the music, to the characters and their interactions was PERFECT in the first movie, and illustrated so many themes about thw world aroudn us. well what does tbis sequel illustrate?? maybe that corporations do not give a shit about art ajd only care about money?? it looks like tje only love put into rhis movie was the love for a fat fucking paycheck. i will now go cry mysekf to sleep and wish i was the man i once was before watching this evil disgusting fucking trailer. sorry if this post is kind of a mess, i made it at like. 1am. And i was really upset (and still am!!) alright goodbye tumblr

#rant post #movie rant #megamind #megamind rant #most likely autism #sobbign #shitty sequels #angry rant #im so mad #what the fuck #what did they do to they beauty that once was #hashtag #im going to kms #wahhh wahhh

[vi-visected]

i will say it as many times as i need to. i am not a happy and successful person regardless of my autism. i am simply a happy and successful autistic person. i am not happy and successful *in spite of* having autism. i am not happy and successful *in spite of* my experiences as an autistic person. being autistic will always color the way i experience happiness and success.

i am not a whole person despite the fact that i have autism, i am a whole autistic person.

#autism #actually autistic #autistic adult #autism spectrum disorder #autistic experiences #hashtag autism posting #autistic people have unique struggles #autistic people have unique experiences #but if i struggle because i am autistic then i am also happy because i am autistic #it goes both ways

[goldiipond]

rare self-indulgent doodle <3 certified autism moment

#skye's doodles #drawing this made me happy sure i'll post it. autism <3 #havent been very motivated for art beyond doodling at night .. its that time of year again #tpn #i'll maintag this now actually. hashtag confidence #the promised neverland #tpn ray

[apopcornkernel]

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#SCREAMSSSW FUCKKKKK ONE OF MY COLLEGE FRIENDS IS A HASHTAG TUMBLR BATFAM STAN EVERYTIME THEY OPEN THEIR MOUTH ABOYT COMICS I WANT TO RIP MY #HAIR OUT IM SO SORRY BUT YOU ARE JUST SO WRONG IT MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAMMMMM #imagine me talking to our other friend about why i enjoyed the parallax arc and they butt in going 'i once saw a tumblr post saying all the #lanterns have diff kinds of autism like for example that one guy knows all about planes so he can build them from scratch with the ring' #HAL. HAL JORDAN THAT'S. HAL. HAL JORDAN . Shrieking #im so sorry i know i shouldnt expect everyone to have the same level of obsession with comics as me but it's sojdjehejrjkkfndkdb #dcposting #poppy speaks

[thebrideofreanimator]

“what would you say to your fav celeb if you met them” ID SAY FUCKING NOTHING BECAUSE ID 100% HAVE A SELECTIVE MUTISM MOMENT FROM BEING NERVOUS

#i saw a post that was like what would you say to conrad veidt if you met him #nothing. i’d say nothing. #i would just smile really awkwardly and walk away #hashtag autism!

[adiseasedrat]

gently touching the front of the dishwasher to see if it's running like a doctor checking my patient's pulse

#these newfangled dishwashers are too quiet #joke post #satire #autism #funny relatable #hashtag relatable #relatable af

[vincent-stims]

Eminem - The Marshall Mathers LP

🎧 🔪 🪦 | 💿 🎤 ⛓️ | 🩶 🔊 🚙

#he’s worn at least one of the overalls in that gif i recognize drawing them. hashtag autism #the ones with the red tag #my post #stim #stims #stimming #stimboard #stimboards #gif #eminem #marshall mathers lp #the marshall mathers lp #mmlp #grey #music #album #blue #gun #chainsaw #clothes #special interest

[friendly-neighborhood-furry]

are you “everything needs to be absolutely silent for me to get anything done” autistic or “i need loud and intense music to blasting in both of my ears to get anything done” autistic

#personally i am of the loud fucking music variety #shoutout to the yoinky sploinky by japanesecoffee on youtube in particular #shit is actual fire #autism #love that i get to write hashtag autism on posts #undiagnosed autism #actually neurodivergent #actually adhd #adhd #neurodivergent