#had some mental issues

[finemealprompt]

DP x DC Prompt #19

When Danny's team member asked him for a favor, Danny agreed before hearing him out. "What else are Titans for?" he had said, but really it's because none of the bats ever asked for favors. He was nosey, sue him.

However, he wasn't expecting to meet crime lord Red Hood and be asked to help with his "Pit Madness" or whatever.

Danny's sigh and hanging of his head seemingly worried the bats. He doesn't think the answer to their problems they were looking for was, "Go to therapy."

#finemeal prompt #dp x dc #danny fenton #jason todd #batfam #you died and came back to life dude #you have issues #go to therapy #and get better #get some coping mechanisms #men will literally become a crime lord and try to force their dad to kill the man who killed them which is the one thing he won't do before #going to therapy #men will literally do anything before going to therapy #go to therapy jason #you had a traumatic experience #you've had a LOT of traumatic experiences #please take care of your mental health

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem! #its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome' #instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems! #anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now! #house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

[canisalbus]

Hello I made you some more art!! IDK Why your little guys have just stuck in my brain as of late but yeah I'm just on a roll I guess!

This piece was inspired by wondering who was present around Machete's assassination, and how people around him would react to his downfall. So I had the idea for a portrait of a final lover's embrace, as Vasco holds his dying beloved in bloodsoaked arms.

I tried my best with the clothing -- especially the shoes -- and I think I did a pretty good job but BOY were they hard! XD Anyways, I hope you like this one, it was a blast to draw! I love machete sm istg <3

.

#Machete #Vasco #own characters #coldandfoggy #gift art #hhhhadgasjgdshad??? #THIS #¿¿¿¿¿ #congratulations you've managed to deliver some immense mental damage through the ethers #and I mean that as a compliment I live for the moments when art just really Hits You Where It Hurts #loving the way the scarlet red of Machete's cassock blends seamlessly with the pool of blood #Vasco's expression speaks volumes #he was always a very touchy feely person so thinking of their final embrace just puts a pit in your stomach #poses like this are tricky but Machete looks appropriately limp and lifeless and at peace in a way that's cruelly ironic #the halo is a nice touch it kind of evokes pietà imagery #the clothing and the shoes look fine I wouldn't have guessed you had issues with them if you hadn't mentioned it #just a grand old liver punch this one #damn son #thank you for drawing the sad dog guys I'm very flattered they've made an impression! I know I'll be agonizing over this piece for a while #some potentially upsetting lore musings!! violence and tragedy and stuff: #I haven't cemented the chain of events yet but I believe he was ambushed by a single assailant when he was alone #either early in the morning or late evening #he didn't manage to put up much of a fight that time the first stab punctured a lung and the second nicked a carotid artery #I believe you lose consciousness in a minute or so and generally bleed out in less than three #Vasco wouldn't have been informed of the murder because why would he be and even if he somehow found out very quickly #the distance between Rome and Florence is roughly 250 km don't quote me on this but it looks like it'd take at least 4 days on horseback? #I think but I don't know how horses work to be honest #maybe they had some sneaky correspondence going on but if there was a pause in communications it wouldn't have been a cause for concern #so it's highly likely he'd only find out when he rolled in town for another business trip #and Machete had been buried weeks or months ago

[ntj2pj]

#madness combat #madcom oc #my oc #atp soldat #the soldat in the dark (tm) actually cares about his bro #a lot #but he just can't get sad when he warned him about this shit nonstop #no id #The bitten guy just acts too friendly because his program made him too altruistuc and kind #Which sometimes helps since he is one who recruits workers #Well #Probably it's more benefitial most of the time #But he gets in shit like “oh i just wanted to help civilian get out from dangerous location and they stabbed me :(((” #And he ain't bullied for it by anyone but his bro. He is too... Kinda. Uh. Hard to bully guy who is most safest option to talk with auditor #And not die lol. It also doesn't help that he is guy who knows all of the AAHW by names and will kick you hard for bullying anyone #So bullying him is a privilege of some atp soldats #not an option :D #Other soldat here is just walking anger issues and he got no friends other than his bro. Constantly lashes at anyone. The Bitten™ included #So they're got that dynamic of angry antisocial cynical guy and pessimist & optimistic kind dude (well #(well he got a lot of mental issues too #But doesn't show it and never let it hurt others.) #And he is much older than the pessimist :'D #Pessimist guy is very young actually. But just experienced shit nonstop from birthday and lost very much everyone he cared about #And the second one... just atp soldat with no past. never known any other thing than work in AAHW and orders. Easy to manipulate #He also gets “You're not a real person” a lot for it. And constanly offended by it. But it's a problem of all yellow bloods here #Especially him #since he litterally didn't had a life outside from aahw. Also don't think he wouldn't kick his friends hard for orders. #Kill even. He is a dog for orders first #Kind guy with good morals is only second

[eats-a-berry]

i swear this panel drives me INSANE. this as a visual while the text says "it feels like we're pretty close", them being the same age but hien already having developed her tough personality while he's still a sensitive boy. this being one of the FEW things we know about their relationship. what tje hell man what the hell

#dungeon meshi #shuro #toshiro nakamoto #hien #i need to expand on this a little more in my post but auuuu auuu god what is going on... #falin and laios giving him the push to be more of himself Guh #LISTEN #i know hien's totally got some repression in her too but she learned to deal with it completely differently #her low empathy note kind of feels like a measure along with her own confidence to not let things affect her #she got thrust into this world of her job since she was so small so no doubt she had to be strong mentally for that too... #and dont even get me started on hien's acceptance and expectation of them ending up together. bevause im gonna talk about it later #ive been trying to piece together why falin and laios being themselves affected him so much but presumably not hien #but like . she is fucking ripe with issues man i know it. i see now

[dropthedemiurge]

I've seen things after SOTUS extreme actor harassment, I've been here through BMF "hate watching flashmob" and you know what, this year I will actually stop tolerating BL fans (at least on tumblr) who don't even have the decency to just ignore things they don't like and who think bullying someone is a good fandom sport, and start calling out. No matter if you believe clickbaits or you're a proud member of celebrity witchhunt or just don't believe people and situations can change, whatever, I really don't want to see KristSingto hate if - when - they will come back with another BL series.

Peraya fans have been waiting and hoping for KristSingto reunion for years, they wanted it themselves for so long as well, and we've unfortunately encountered way too many people who don't use their braincells and who encourage others to follow their footsteps when making derogatory comments about (mainly) Krist or Singto who they don't even know about, or their shows. For years. Some even go to talk shit and laugh right at his face. What the hell.

Maybe don't ruin someone else's parade and don't turn a nice community lake into a swamp. If you consider yourself a good person who can have an opinion "I just don't vibe with this person/show", watch it unbiased, be open minded and if you don't have a full picture, ask fans of the actual story or do research and read proper compilations about him instead of blindly stacking your opinions on repeated echoed insults from yt and tiktok. And if you aren't willing to be open minded and rational, well, let the fans celebrate and stick quietly to your swamp.

It's really no fun to gather around to discuss something and slip on poop piles thrown around for no reason. What happened to civil discussions?

#this might sound harsh #but i've watched many shows over the past few years and read a lot of opinions #and bl fans were vile for nothing about no other popular bl actor as much as Krist #all the snide remarks in metas and retold HoRriBle RuMoRs for someone who really does not deserve it #and who has been battling mental health for years already #it really became a popular witchhunt and the last year showed that people are still happy to engage in it #even when the extreme viewers pressure and harrassment is exactly what created an issue in the first place #people do deserve to be called out when they are being ugly to others #my heart still hurts for bmf tbh because it's a beautiful and well crafted meaningful show with good acting #but people ignored it because some popular accs decided to be bitch about it because Krist was in it #OR they wrote meta and excited fans had to read discussions enduring all the - ew considering Krist it is not too bad - posts #just ffs #why people still do it #there are amazing posts with explanations or updates or just showing how good of a person Krist is #why don't you read those first and form a proper opinion if you take time to hate on him anyway #kristsingto #krist perawat #singto prachaya #peraya

[handweavers]

in the last 6 weeks i've lost my dog of nearly 16 years and my uncle who i was close with and who financially supported me for years & now it's looking like i'm going to lose my grandfather who raised me and for all intents and purposes has been my father figure my entire life and my best (and when i was growing up he was often my only) friend. it feels like my entire world is ending and i'm not getting the chance to even process anything it's just happening over and over and over. it's also the 3 year anniversary of my stepdad dying, 7 year anniversary of my other uncle dying, the 9 year anniversary of my grandmother dying, and 16 year anniversary of my other grandmother/my "other" mother who raised me dying on my 10th birthday. the only person left in my immediate family is my mother and i have no siblings and no cousins on one side of my family. i can't even begin to articulate how i'm feeling and i don't think anyone i know would really understand either

#and i cant afford to live in canada anymore so i have to move back to malaysia at some point next year #and because of all this happening i had a mental breakdown and dropped out of university for the 3rd time #no degree no job cant work because of chronic health issues and ptsd from all of the above

[bubblesxo]

I’m sorry but the flat way that the fandom tackles the Enji Todoroki problem is so blegh. Yes, how he treated them (especially Shouto—we don’t 100% know if Touya’s training was the same, especially because he actually liked his training) was wrong, the way he treated his wife was wrong, the way he ignored his other kids is wrong. HOWEVER, him cutting Touya off from training was NOT 100% wrong. Should he have treated it more delicately? Yes. Should he have been more considerate to his kid? Yes. Should he have gotten him some kind of therapy to help him cope with his obvious mental issues? Also yes. But cutting him off from training when he gets hurt doing so and it’s unavoidable is NOT wrong. He was trying to prevent exactly what happened in the end. Maybe he could have revisited it a few years later when training isn’t all Touya is and looked into support items, idk, but Enji’s approach was the right decision in the wrong way.

#really Touya had some mental issues that couldn’t have just been from enji #because looking at it he wasn’t as bad on screen to Touya as he was to shouto #I feel like no one talks about that #shouto’s trauma kinda gets overlooked because he was strong enough to overcome it #but it was still there and erasing it erases his whole character arc #and really in the end touya did bad things. he became a villain. he killed people #despite the whole ‘touya died dabi was born’ thing they had going on (which was NOT MEANT TO BE TAKEN LITERALLY #ITS A LITERARY ELEMENT THAT EXPRESSES FIGURATIVE REBIRTH) people in this fandom oh so love to disconnect touya from dabi #they are the SAME PERSON #touya tried to KILL shouto when he was a baby #he has had VERY deep-seated issues for a very long time #and honestly I think he was born with it #and the environment he grew up in made it worse #that’s just my two cents tho #shouto todoroki #touya todoroki #dabi todoroki #dabi #mha dabi #mha #bnha #enji todoroki #todoroki #todoroki family

[mishapen-dear]

something about qbad mentioning how much horror he put red team thru every time purgatory gets brought up... something about how proud dapper was of him.

like this is just my late-night read but- it feels like guilt qbad is trying to twist into pride. he keeps needling away at it. “i killed them all, over and over and over again.” “they were hunted by a monster.”

it’s like- reassurance. like a nail he’s trying o beat into his head. he’s had SO much trouble with legitimately hurting his friends, despite making that vow all the way back when the eggs first went missing, despite all the tree talk and the promises to save the kids no matter what. He never faltered with elq, and that protected them. He keeps faltering now. Sometimes he doesnt remember the code, or cucurucho, or skeppy. But that doesnt matter, right? Because he’ll protect the eggs. He’ll be the monster. he is the monster. he can and he will protect them even as his seams start ripping and he keeps breaking further and further apart. even at his worst, he’ll do whatever he needs to protect the eggs.

he’ll be the monster. wont he?

#qsmp #he loves his friends and he wants to hurt them #he loves his friends and he doesnt want to hurt them #qsmp badboyhalo #ita like. He was torturing himself with the soul vultures because he kidnapped ron and threw down some scary magma mobs #and then forever changwd rhe whole fuckin narrative with that appreciation room and bad remembered the joy of community #and then cellbit. Where bad was like ‘i see him destroying himself to get the eggs back and i know where that road goes’ #’his loved ones dont want that to happen to him. i dont want that to happen to him’ #and then purgatory gave him the first actal legitimate lead for finding their kids and he just had to get worse #and so he fucking swandived into self destructive violence (and the cc was purposefully playing qbad more recklessly violent) #(bbgirl couldve been lured into a trap so so easily) #ive lost my point somewhere now im just rotating qbbh in my brain and all the parallels #ah yes. But now theyre out of purgatory. And he refuses to regret what he did because he *had* to do what he could to save dapper #and the other eggs #because he has a huge complex about being the ‘only one who can protect the eggs’ because of a thousand little cuts and his mental health #issues. Like he’s Wrong bur its such a fascinating little direction for his character. Yes king burn thyself on the pure of protection #and then burn in a nuclear blast too because your self sufficiency left you to care for your egg alone #you can take care of the eggs. you can hurt your friends. look at how much you hurt your friends #look st the monster you are . your teeth are sharp and your claws are large #never mind that time you sent tina into a panic attack because you tried to recreate safety #never mind that your friends and family are worried about you #you are falling apart. but so many monsters survive the killing blow

[haphazardcorvid]

There's something sort of distorted with how grief is currently being seen and dealt with on the island + Qsmp.

I've been thinking about this for a while during the missing egg arc, but Bagi implying that Foolish wasn't that attached to Leo has finally pushed me into putting the thoughts into words.

I really don't like how several of the islanders - especially the new ones - view grief and expressions of grief. It's like they expect all grief to be big and loud and performative, and otherwise, it isn't as significant, or as important. Like how Bagi's expectations for sadness seem to be shaped by Bbh's very visual, obvious deterioration, and disregards that MAYBE, just MAYBE, not everyone is going to shove their feelings in your face when they barely know you? That some people may break down privately, where you are not privy to their thoughts, and you are not entitled to a public performance of that grief in order to verify that they do, in fact, care?

It's not just islanders who haven't spent much time with the eggs either - Forever himself said he thought that, ASIDE FROM BAGHERA AND BBH, everyone was simply moving on and living life without the eggs. Funnily enough, these are both players with skins that specifically denote emotional turmoil :). Does grief have to expressly visualised for people to acknowledge that it's there? That was particularly jarring as a Philza main, who's character was and is currently going through a drealisation and mental deterioration arc after going to suspicious coordinates (the birdcage) FOR THE SAKE OF HIS EGGS.

Most annoyingly it also bleeds into the fandom sometimes, despite the fact we have the benefit of meta awareness. I've seen posts or comments about how 'oh, bbh is the only one truly miserable about the eggs' 'other islanders aren't suffering about the kids like ___".

It's just striking having watched Fit, a person whom canonically struggles with outward expressions of vulnerable emotion due to his background but clearly deeply misses Ramon, who would fall into this 'unaffected' category because he's not giving showy public displays or monologues about his feelings. Or Phil, who to members of the island who haven't reached out to him on those topics, seems largely still like a strong rock to lean on because he plunged himself into propping up other islanders the moment he returned - but behind closed doors fell apart at Tallulah's letter and is clearly rapidly deteriorating as a character. Or Foolish, who maintains an upbeat character, retains his capacity to carry on moving, and lives as brightly as he can while SIMULTANEOUSLY being completely broken up internally about his daughter. You can see it in the way they talk about their kids, how they rush to collect any clues whenever they pop up, how many of them seem to be living in limbo, incapable of new changes and beginnings.

And alright. So that's not explicit to those other characters. But it should not have to be visually explicit for them to not degrade their grief. The assumption should not be that grief is either public or nonexistent. You are not entitled to flashy displays of feeling. Forthright and in your face emotion is not the baseline requirement for distress. Demeaning someone's attachment to their child because they aren't grieving in the RIGHT way for YOU, one that isn't visible enough to YOU, isn't excusable because 'oh I can't really see how that person is feeling though'. It's basic social understanding.

And of course they are aware of the mental and emotional states of their friends - who are also very visual with their grieving - above others, because those people are ALSO the ones that those like Bagi and Forever consistently interact with for prolonged periods of time. Have they actually really, deeply talked with all the other islanders about their internal state? No, of course not, they don't spend that much time with them and aren't that close. That's not bad or anything, that's life and relationships and very normal. But then what grounds do those assumptions of 'oh, there are parents who don't care' actually have? They themselves should be capable of acknowledging that they don't actually have insight into these other people, and they should not be using the expressions of grief from say Baghera and Bbh as a cudgel to cheapen and diminish that of others.

#Sorry that's a lot #It was all adding up slowly - just an awareness of a general disregard some people had for how others were processing the disappearance #But the fact that it didn't get resolved with time and in fact seems worse just pulled it out of me all at once #The Foolish and Bagi thing mainly #Just how being subtle in your distress leads particular people to brush it off or pretend you feel quite the opposite is frustrating #And soz kinda personal lmao #as a person who has struggled heavily mentally but has had it devalued using how others outwardly react to their own issues #It kinda resonated #Foosh you are valid and a brilliant father to me #qsmp #qsmp foolish #qsmp baghera #qsmp forever #qsmp bagi #qsmp eggs #qsmp philza #qsmp fitmc #qsmp badboyhalo #Edit - just to note this is about the characters and their interactions only #It would be stupid to be saying this about actual ccs lmao

[halfmoonstruck]

finallyy started playing botw so i finished off some crossover doodles ive been meaning to do for a while :-D

#deltarune #kris #noelle #botw #loz #my art #justtt managed to squeeze in an upload for october lol.. #sorry for the inactivity! had some sudden health issues that resulted in one of the most physically and mentally taxing months of my life #and im just getting back into drawing again after basically not being able to do anything for weeks on end #anyway. #also i know the hookshot isnt in botw i just think its rly cool and wanted to draw kris using it :-D

[flamboyant-king]

Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.

I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.

I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.

So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?

#i was in there for a week and ill continue partial hospitalization for a few weeks #i hope i learn more and i hope i get specific help to my issues. because whay i learned there didnt directly pertain to me #but having structured daily life felt nice. but it wasnt all relaxing because there were still responisibilites on the outside world #tapping on the window or calling me on the phone. chose the best time for a meltdown. i have taxes and credit card bills to take care of #but if i stress about it now ill jsut be going back to the ER and thats no good. the hospital was so cold dude im glad im home with blankets #this is mr octopus again. im glad i broguh hom to work. i went straight to er from work and if i had no plushie with me #i probably would have stayed longer or be even more mentally unstable and distressed. its good to have comfort items #i dont think i want to know ehat if be like without some kind of companion or grounding item with me. i dont want to imagine me without em #its okay to have a little friend with you. i would be so distraught. everyone loved me there #the nurses the patients the residents yhe social workers the students #mr. octopus made them happy because of his big smile and mine too. the people there did not expect the mass amoutns of stress and depression #in this bubbly happy baby witb a happy pink octopus. one of the patients thought it was the meds the happy pills they gave me #no im jsut naturally like this. or artificially like this. i still dont know how to express or understand my feelings #if what im showing is real or not because i know ill be the happiest in the room wherever i go. maybe its a front or a mask #but when im like that kinda hard to know whats really underneath. they always ask me if im okay but i turn to myself #and its nondescript like ive put a blanket over how i really feel. its weird. the bubbly energy is blinding. #words #mr octopus #mental health #doodles

[cerise-on-top]

Ghost with a Schizophrenic!S/O

I've been going through it again as of late, so I decided it's time to write something that would help me cope. Not requested, because who would request something like this in the first place? I'm very nervous about posting this, but I thought maybe someone else would like to see something like it, maybe someone else can like it as well. That's the reason why I started to write in the first place, so the things I want to see are somewhere out there as well. Anyway, what it says in the title. These are based on how I would like someone to treat me, so this is not at all a guide on how to treat someone with the condition. I wrote the same thing for Soap, except his is twice as long. I'm gonna post it afterwards.

As soon as you come home from your appointment, either completely dejected or empty looking, he’ll know something was up. Whether you outright tell him or not is up to you, but he will ask you what happened, he’s just that worried about you. Your diagnosis must be pretty bad if you, usually so cheerful and always trying your best, are pretty down in the dumps about it. He’ll gently try to coax it out of you if you won’t tell him immediately, he just really wants to know what he can do to help you. While he won’t force it out of you, if he sees you’re feeling especially blue about it then he will try to ask you about it. Making you budge in a gentle way is his goal, he just really wants to be there for you whenever he can.

In all honesty, Ghost is probably the last person to judge you for something like that. When it comes to you he’s understanding and patient, just communicate with him what you need. You really don’t need to be ashamed of your being schizophrenic in front of him, or at all, you can just tell him.

When you do tell him, he’ll be quiet for a moment, processing the information and what he should do with it. Granted, he doesn’t exactly know what it all encompasses, thinking it’s just hallucinations of varying degrees, but the second he has some time to spare he will read up on it and what kinds of symptoms there are, what it’s like for someone who has the illness and, most importantly, how he can help you. While he may not always trust what his sources have to say, he will openly communicate with you about what he read and ask you if it sounds like it might be of help to you. Generally speaking, he wants to understand this as well as possible since being schizophrenic can be quite the hurdle.

You have a problem with obsessive thoughts? He can’t take them away from you, he knows that much, but he can try to help you with them. You wanna hurt yourself? It’s alright as long as you don’t act on it. While he will grow concerned with you and maybe put the knives somewhere you can’t easily reach them at first, he trusts you to not act on your autoagressions. If it gets so bad you’re nauseous, shaking or twitching, then he’ll gently put your hands in his and tell a few jokes to get your mind off of things, to get a conversation with you going so you can be distracted from it all. It might not always work, but if it helps even somewhat then you can be sure he’ll try again, try harder next time.

Your mind is foggy and you’re confused, incapable of thinking well, or at all? He won’t judge you and try to make the conversation easier for you to follow. He definitely won’t belittle you and act as if you’re stupid for having a hard time. He tries to repeat things he said during a sentence so you can remember better what the conversation was about in the first place. And if you can’t speak at the moment in the first place? Not a problem either! The two of you can just spend your time together in silence, watching a movie or a series, maybe reading a book together while drinking some tea. If it’s easier on you, then he’ll help. By the time you’re together, Ghost probably knows you well enough to be able to respond for you from time to time, if you’re comfortable with that.

Thoughts or delusions of persecution? He knows it’s probably even harder for you in that regard since he works for the military and thus you might become a victim of the government or other organizations at any point in time, but he’ll go to great lengths to show you that he’s not affiliated with the government in that way. While he’s also well aware that you likely won’t believe him either until your episode is over, he’ll repeat it as many times as you need to hear it. Problems with thinking everyone can hear your thoughts? Oh, he’ll play a guessing game with you. Whatever it is you’re thinking, he’ll try his darndest to guess it wrong just to help assure you that he cannot, in fact, read your thoughts, regardless of what vicinity you’re in. He does try to make his wrong guesses a bit humorous as well. After all, it definitely wouldn’t hurt to see you smile again.

If you’re isolating yourself, he’ll tolerate it to some degree. While he knows that that’s just something a lot of schizophrenics do, he does want to spend time with you and make sure you’re doing well. If you’re prone to loneliness despite isolating yourself from time to time, then he’ll slowly introduce you to the people he trusts the most, namely Soap, Gaz and Price. They won’t know about your condition, but he’s hoping that you can befriend them somehow and have a good time with them as well. Soap especially is a social butterfly and it’s not that hard to get along with him. If you’re scared of any of them, he’ll try to desensitize you towards them with silly stories and making time for hangouts every once in a while, but he won’t force you to see them. Being scared of people is hard, but he just wants to help you be less lonely and maybe find some friends as well.

#cod #cod x reader #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x reader #I wrote these over a month ago since I didn't feel well #but I do believe that he's one of the most accepting and supportive people out there when it comes to mental health issues #these are very surface level because being schizophrenic can encompass many many things some of which I don't even know about #Soap's is twice as long so there are a few more things I discuss in his #I just really wanted some comfort for once but when it comes to this I was sure I had to do it myself and so I did #I am genuinely so very nervous about posting this and potential backlash but I'm gonna be brave about this for once #please don't ostracise me for this I just wanna feel better about my condition for once

[onebarofsoap]

beach experience summer 2023

#soap tries art #animals #ocean #beach #showcasing the friends i found on the beach a few days ago :) #top ten places that cure every mental issue i have 😁 #a friend showed me the coquina clams and sand fleas (aka mole crabs not the ones that bite) and we had some good fun watching them burrow #in mini tidal pools we made #water was unfortunately warm. which makes me worried for the corals since hearing about the current coral bleaching. man

[pallanophblargh]

I think part of me expected this burnout would last a long time, but it’s drawing close to a year now. I have a strong reason to suspect medications are prolonging it. Granted: I have no intention of stopping medication, but I suspect I may need to make some changes. It’s been nice not to feel burning rage/crippling despair/panic most of the time, but I also miss being able to actually... act on things! Start things! Feel some semblance of motivation, as fleeting as it is. Mostly my reaction to prompts of any kind are “nah, don’t wanna” or “so what?” which isn’t terribly conducive to anything more than day to day life. (Y’all, I can’t even reliably plan my vacation and that’s pretty terrible.)

I’m saying this in part as a sort of explanation as to why I’ve been so slow to respond to anything, or post any art, or even re-open commissions this past year. I just... generally can’t make myself do anything that isn’t a part of my daily maintenance routine. Knowing that making art (even personal art) takes 3x times as long to complete is a standout reason I’ve been refusing to reopen commissions especially, since I’d be unwilling to make clients wait more than a few months for even something as simple as a sketch. People were patient enough with “Old Me,” I don’t think most would hold out for “New Me.”

Thankfully I’m speaking to my doctor tomorrow regarding my experiences on the current medication, and maybe I can find something that works a little better. I feel like I’ve been pretty fortunate so far, all things considered, and my side effects have been fairly mild. (Though I have suspicions it’s also thinning out my hair something fierce... probably time for supplements for that issue!)

Hopefully I’ll figure it out sooner rather than later? Either way, I’m learning to accept things as they are these days. 

#April rambles #text post #mental health #medication #I know I'm one of the lucky ones but I'm still not discounting my aggravations #like yeah I'd like to think I should be capable of motivation #but at what cost? #and I never thought I'd care so much about hair loss but yikes I never had a lot of hair to begin with #wanting to cry anytime I see someone with a full head of thick hair #guess I'm kinda shallow after all lol #I have some beef regarding my other issues and suspicions but whatever #I can deal with them later #but I still find it hard to believe I've been assigned Just Anxiety instead of low grade well masked ADHD #Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh whatever #I'm a pleasant zombie for the most part are you happy? #I can't be arsed to do really anything are you sure that's just anxiety? #I'm literally masquerading as an apathetic potato most of the time now with meds so yeah ok sure? #we'll get there someday I hope #shit count my blessings it could be so much worse

[tranakin-skywalker]

Nauterposa from @husborth fic Scorch the Earth

The flowers are inspired by Echium trygorrhizum which grow in the Sahara. They're also medicinal: "Echium species exert sedative, anti-inflammatory, antioxidant, and anxiolytic pharmacological properties. As a result, these species are largely used to treat respiratory problems, ulcers, mental health ailments, and aid in wound healing" (nih.gov)

I find this fact utterly hilarious, given the premise of the fic. Oddly fitting though.

#myart #anooba #she's a lot more dog like than i normally draw anooba but that's because she's domesticated #at least that's the excuse i'm going with #still cracking up over the fact that i accidentally chose a flower used to treat respiratory issues and mental illness #of all plants i could have picked #anyway chronic pain had me rereading mustard gas and roses for reasons and i decided to doodle some stuff from that series