#gonna go insane thinking about it

[sunfoxfic]

Anyway. Akumatization as traumatic. Losing your autonomy and sense of self. Hawk Moth taking advantage of you at your absolute worst. Knowing there's nothing you can do short of not feeling negative emotions, but that stress just causes you to feel more negative emotions--people bottling up everything until it explodes in an absolutely perfect storm for Hawk Moth himself. Seeing your friends and family turned into villains and there's nothing you can do about it--only two people can do anything about it, and they're barely surviving themselves. Not wanting to be the trigger of an akumatization. The guilt. The fear. The anger. The collective trauma. Everyone knows someone who's been akumatized, and more and more people are getting akumatized themselves. It doesn't matter how much it's no one's fault--it's everyone's fault. Everyone feels like they can do better, be better, and it's making the problem worse.

#i'm not calling for the show to change btw #i just think fanfic can be a little bit more creative about it #the effects of akumatization last more than an episode #imagine your enemy's greatest weapons being your very own emotions #the *pressure* that would put on people #gonna go insane thinking about it #anyway if you like this post read my nearly 2 year old fic Butterfly Nest #still super proud of that one #rambles

[pachimation]

a secret rendezvous in fontaine

#genshin impact #chiscara #scarachilde #childe #scaramouche #feelin delusional in the club tonight thinking about the childe in fontaine storyline leaks #wonder what hes gonna do there… do a bit of harbingering perhaps? kiss scara? #endless possibilities for me. someone who is absolutely insane #hhhh cant believe black butler is coming back in the year of our lord 2024 i’ll be 21 by then omg #BROOOO new idea red wine and black butler watch party w my irls we’re going to be so fucking cringe hell yeah #my art

[italiantea]

soft and neat

#dan and phil crafts #dan and phil #decided to go to bed before watching the video. absolutely insane way to start the day #took a nap and it gave me strange and vivid nightmares about demons. still think its funny tho 10/10 #my art #this is so gonna come out of left field for my followers lmao #posts this with no context. doesnt elaborate. leaves #edit: ok i lied im elaborating. im not a phan account guys if you follow you will b sorely disappointed #im probably never going to post about it again ive just been lurking for 10 years. you know how it is

[yomeiu]

Happy new year to everyone!! ❤❤

#i speedran this #i'm v happy to have met so many great artists this year 😭❤ #literally blows my mind #and the support had been insane too i literally read everything u guys say and think about it for days 😭❤❤ #hes gonna do it btw #go get your man dazai #bsd #bungo stray dogs #dazai osamu #dazai #chuuya nakahara #skk #soukoku #chuuya #illustration

[swampthingking]

andrew’s definitely gotten in trouble with his pr manager for tweeting things along the lines of:

“no mania inducing medication will compare to the euphoria i will feel the day donald trump drops dead”

#pr manager is like: andrew… this is the last time i’m gonna tell you #andrew: whats the point of democracy if i can’t exercise freedom of speech #pr manager: andrew it’s no longer about your image #at this point we are concerned the fbi is going to show up #andrew: neil has connections. i’m fine #they thought marketing andrew on social media would be good #they were sooooo wrong #because now andrew has a place to share every insane thing he’s ever thought #for instance—a tweet that just says ‘an alien googling: human clothes’ #he’s on there advocating for lgbtq+ youth you KNOW HE IS #he’s cursing and mildly threatening members of congress for imposing these disgusting bills #one day he tweeted ‘does mitch mcconnell know he’s dead yet’ #when mitch mcconnell stepped down from senate andrew tweeted ‘hopefully next he steps down from life’ #unsurprisingly: this endears him to some people and makes others fucking hate him #and he’s such a shit. he does not care either way #he’s kind of just like: pr manager. you gave me a twitter and told me to tweet. i’m just doing what you asked me #they’ve threatened to change his password so many times #they actually did once but andrew reported the account so many times for defamation and fraud that it got suspended #and he made a new account out of pure spite #his pr manager is like: andrew nobody is going to want to sign you because of your public image #and andrew is like: ?? ok. they can lose every game then #(he knows he’s the best goalie) #ok i think that’s enough for now. however i will probably be back #andrew minyard #aftg #tfc #trk #tkm #the foxhole court #all for the game

[eyes-of-nine]

truly what a guy

#malevolent #malevolent podcast #arthur lester #arthur malevolent #john doe #john malevolent #my art #ahfdgfghsdd i have so many important things to do but these two have overtaken all of my waking thoughts so i'm fucked to say the least #adgfd i just wanna talk about them with someone but no one i know has the energy for that 12h long infodump #straight up today was my first truly no work day in a few weeks and what did i do? spent half the day figuring out how i want to draw arthur #still not sure if this the direction i wanna take his design in but somehow along the process he ended up as like my ideal look on masc days #tbh i don't have the time to unpack whatever that says about me ywy #john's design is very much still a first draft but i can't think about it too much or i might just actually go insane #this podcast makes me unwell(affectionate) #the universe is so evil for not letting me just draw them all day long ywy #in an ideal world it would be no diploma no uni applications only malevolent #.....i'm gonna stop with the rambling now #so yeah go listen to malevolent

[introspectivememories]

TIM DRAKE: ROBIN #7 YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS

#this comic won a pulitzer prize in my house #when they told us that it would be bernard pov.... chills #and then the actual contents of the book??? #i think i went insane as i read it #genuine changed my brain chemistry #OH MY GOD WHEN WE THOUGHT BEAR WAS GONNA PROPOSE??? #AND THE NECKLACE!!!! THE FUCKING NECKLACE!!! #sorry i'm going feral just thinking about it #td:r #tim drake: robin #bernard dowd #tim drake #timbern #dc

[beanghostprincess]

Luffy not knowing about Zoro promising Sanji to kill him if he ever ends up losing himself makes me go feral because that's something they can only know about. Because Zoro's respect for life and death goes beyond anything, and Sanji knows he understands. Sanji knows that if somebody has to kill him, it's him.

And I don't even think it's because Sanji assumes Zoro's opinion of him is hatred and it would hurt less for him to do this, but because Sanji knows only Zoro would be able to treat the promise as it is. Because he would put Sanji's wishes before any feelings he has for him. It's not that Zoro doesn't care, but I think he respects people's ideals and decisions to the extent of being able to kill Sanji if he so desires.

That being said, he'd do it if there's no other way to fix it. If it's either dying or living as an emotionless machine, which is the same as dying for Sanji, Zoro would fulfill his promise. And there is just... Something about Luffy not knowing. Their captain. The man they're devoted to the most as if he were their God. Luffy doesn't know. It's something only the captain's wings are aware of and the thought of these two keeping this from Luffy until the end is just insane. Not even trying to make it romantic here, but the bond and respect these two have for each other is crazy.

Maybe it's the poetry of it all, too. Somebody like Zoro, who has looked at Death in her face multiple times and said "no", ending Sanji's life, who wants to give in to death to not experience a fate worse than death for him.

#bean posting zosan this is so rare and weird don't get used to it sweeties #kind of tired of people jumping to extremes with these two btw like- #they don't hate each others but they're also not best friends-- respect is something they value even more than those things #they're not good for my mental health they make me go insane #this wasn't meant to be in a shippy way but idk if you wanna see it as romantic you do you bc it could def be #it depends on my mood #i consider myself a zosan shippers on random days #you could also say sanji thinks zoro doesn't give a fuck about him and that's why he tells him bc we know this guy's self-worth is awful #but i also like to think it's because zoro's views on life and death are exactly what sanji needs #luffy would try to look for a way to fix this and they others wouldn't be able to do it tbh #i mean if it ever got too serious i think luffy could do it but do you really think sanji's gonna make him go through that #if zoro has to die he wants to die by luffy's hand but if sanji has to die he wants to die without involving their captain #idk if that makes sense okay i haven't slept at all tbf #one piece #black leg sanji #roronoa zoro #zosan

[bakudekublogblog]

god thinking about katsuki murmuring "gotta win... right izuku?" right before charging right into his death is so so so fucking batshit insane of a thing to include. like he's yearning for him. like not only is he speaking as if izuku is still at his side, but he still remembers what izuku said to him all those months ago and is fighting to live up to the version of himself izuku admired. and then he goes "tell me.... izuku.... can i still reach you" CAN I STILL REACH YOU LITERALLY LONGING FOR HIM, TELL ME, ONE LAST THING BEFORE I GO, JUST TELL ME IF I CAN REACH YOU FUCKING I'M LOSING MY MIND OVER HERE IT'S PEAK PINING TRAGIC ROMANCE

#bkdk #bakudeku #i'm literally going insane thinking about just how hard katsuki was yearning for him #all of this happening knowing he's probably going to die specifically to hurt izuku #the word choice the TELL ME #IZUKU ONE THING SPEAK TO ME ONCE MORE JUST TELL ME #CAN I REACH YOU #RRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAA #CAN I STAND BY YOU CAN I BE BY YOURSIDE AM I WORTHY AM I STRONG ENOUGH #the fucking YEARNING IS GOING CRAZY AND THIS IS WHAT HE THINKS ABOUT WHEN HE DIES #when izuku thinks he's gonna die to muscle man in s3 he's like “sorry mom” #katsuki is just full god i wish i could be at your side izuku i want to speak to you one last time i want the silly trading card we got #signed #hori i swear to god if you dont let these boys hug each other after all this tragic gay pining i'm gonna scream

[babisawyer]

Ben coming back to the cabin to see yet another cannibalistic ritual

#🐇 #yellowjackets #again with the cannibalistic blue balls I see how you guys are playing the game at least I know it's gonna happen #poor javi it should have been travis let's be real he provides nothing #loved the misty on mari violence also #and we were all right about jackie's necklace! our girl's keeping the group together even still #also I know I'm literally the only one on the jackie antler queen train and while I don't think it's true rather than just funsies #it's making me wonder if this is more of a fae situation going on? it's been a looooooong time since I read about all of this stuff but now #after jackie's death and the baby's death and what happened to Ben this week it's kinda making me suspicious #like is the antler queen supposed to represent the unseelie queen? is it the unseelie queen? idk I'll have to look into this to see if it #fits. I'm leaning more towards that now than wendigo psychosis #also hilarious because I did say that portals was insanely jackie coded so we're coming full circle #also I've said I'm suspicious of walter but how the fuck is that dude so rich?? I'm onto his ass he is not to be trusted

[demadogs]

god i fucking LOVE shows fuck the whole concept of shaming people for watching tv all day or binging a show i am CONSUMING ART

#i have so many favorite shows its insane #target audience but im thinking about a million shows other than st #im gonna go rewatch the wilds

[stone-stars]

a while ago i saw a post by @sideblogdotjpeg about how the cycles in c3 seem a lot more personal/familial. and i kind of went insane in the tags at the time and i’ve been thinking about it a lot since because like…

you have the heroic cycles that the band of boobs parallel/break on this large scale. the idea of these broken trios of adventurers is there throughout the campaign, but they really start to engage with it towards the end— with the divine hearts, and thiala, and the wheel of suffering/wheel of joy idea. the thing hardwon says as he takes the divine heart, that no matter what anybody chooses from then on it’s with love in their hearts, i feel is very relevant to how they break the cycle. they love each other, and they choose over and over to hold each other tighter rather than be driven apart.

and on the other hand, you have duck team’s refusal of fate vs their family’s resignation to it. look at swag working with mothership, oliana’s contrition, and the stuff that is currently ongoing with gowan. you know— sol is a version of swag who fully rejected mothership and found his friends instead. callie refused to be a part of her family’s business, and her love for the wild and the serpents is giving the world a chance. calder, when he makes the deal with ultrus, telling callie and sol that he trusts them to save him. and now calder is refusing to sit back and let gowan handle things in the ice knife.

it's not that duck team aren't trying to save the world. they are. and it's not that the boobs didn't have a personal connection to the cycles they were breaking. they did. but it's like... well... how do i put this into words. right--

the song melora's boon plays when the boobs arrive at the heart of the world and speak to melora. when she talks to beverly about duty, shows him the places he faltered and how at the last second, he gets back up. (later, when they face thiala, bev doesn't go unconscious once. at one point, he's the only one standing.) for sol, this is the song that plays when he expresses his fear of going down again. when he admits to callie that he's scared of the day that she and calder are down and he's the one that needs to stand up alone. when callie says she's not afraid of that day, and sol finds himself empowered by the mushroom in his chest. the moment that sets up sol's long death monk ability, where he's able to refuse to go down and keep on fighting.

melora’s boon is also the song that plays for moonshine’s boon at the heart of the world. there are actually two songs in this scene, hardwon’s is different, and the transition back happens when melora says there’s a part of herself that moonshine hasn’t embraced. when she speaks to moonshine leading her people to a better future like an alpha wolf leading her pack. for callie, it plays when she tells hardwon and sol that she’s a liability and she needs to change— to embrace winter— in order to get calder back, even as they reassure her that she doesn’t. it also plays when callie asks the others to help her protect honeysuckle while he’s weakened. when they promise to lead honeysuckle home and free him from his connections to gromdal.

the writing on the wall plays when the boobs reach the court of gods. there's the wall of prayers there, and they hear the prayers of the people of bahumia, reaching out to them. prayers of protection-- for and by them. prayers that put the future of bahumia in their hands. for callie, this is the song that plays when she sees aryox's carving of her reaching the cave. when she realizes her mother acted the way she did because she could see what was coming in the future. when she realizes her mother was leaving the world in her hands.

the songs that the boobs first encounter at the end— when they’re basically demigods stepping up to face thiala— return for duck team in these personal moments. when sol finds the strength to refuse death. when callie talks about embracing winter, her mother’s season, something she eventually finds strength in, to save her friend. when callie asks the others to help honeysuckle, one of the serpents that she’s promised to protect partially due to the harm her family caused to the wild. and when callie realizes her mother saw the future and acted as she did because of it, pushing callie to walk the path she’s walking now.

anyway. this was a post about naddpod music.

#naddpod #ba2mia #naddmusic tag #sorry to leave calder out his story is too ongoing to fit yet #(and we haven’t had any songs that fit in his arc either) #if we get a late stage bahumia song during this arc #for calder and gowan im gonna fucking. die. #truly just going insane over here anyway #like obviously on a meta level the reason the songs were never used for the bob #before the endgame is bc they weren’t written yet #but like. when you start to think about it #it kind of fits that it happens like this #there’s also more examples like i just want to know you’re taken care of #which is used in c1e91 for moonshine and paw paw’s convo #being used for callie and foster in ep10 #of c3 #specifically in the context of callie’s love and her fear of loving big #(contrasted against moonshine resigning herself to hell and her fear of that future) #anyway if i keep talking abt this i’ll explode so #enjoy? i guess? #hanbles

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

In sally and poppy's character page it says "Sally and Poppy are often depicted together and, according to recovered material, could potentially be best friends."

and to that i say, best friends my ASS!! those are lesbians right there

oooo i actually talked about this in the update stream when i was reading the updated bios! to restate!

a common Cover for lesbians used to be "best friends". why are those two women living together? why they're best friends, so why not! why do these women spend all their time together? they're best friends! why are those women so physically affectionate - well! they're best friends! an excuse that would never fly with gay men is perfect for lesbians.

and you still see this in recent years! remember all of the posts making fun of facebook moms / grandparents seeing photos of lesbians and going "well they seem like a lovely pair of Best Friends!" this still happens! i'm sure there are people today seeing lesbians and thinking that they're best friends. the amount of times i've pointed out to my own parents "they're gay" and gotten surprise and sometimes even denial is response because they genuinely thought these blatantly gay people were only friends

to me and my current knowledge, this addition to Poppy & Sally's bios is evidence worth considering with this context. a tally in the "canon Popstar?" box!

#i would also like to bring attention to Rich Aunt Toodaloo and Best Friend Sue. #ive already been insane about it on stream but. #tee hee!!! #but yes so like #if two guys are referred to as 'best friends' in the context of Welcome Home's time period #im not gonna bat an eye! bc! well! there aren't any secret connotations to that! #but if two women are specifically called out as best friends? im going to be narrowing my eyes! #and honestly i think that the Toodaloo-Sue thing could. potentially. #be a way of hinting at the bios' 'best friend' status' true meaning #its certainly an interesting coincidence!! compelling one might say #homebogging #wh speculation #welcome home speculation #man. popstar Also has receipts huh. #lmao what if they're Also in a secret established relationship... #i doubt it but! an argument May be made... #man especially since it says May be best friends. the Ambiguity! #and how it points out that they're often depicted together... HELLOOOOO I SEE YOU!

[suffarustuffaru]

hi i made a tier list of how homophobic rezero characters are

hello in the spirit of valentine's day and the very welcoming community here on rezero tumblr i decided to make this with the help of my lovely mutuals.

#anyway heres some fun little explanations if youd like to read: #otto has. so much internalized shit going on i dont even know where to begin. not as severe as like subaru fr and def not in the same way a #whatevers happening with ferris but like by the time u get to arc 8 hes a total shitshow LJSLDKF #like ottos. transphobic. canonically. with natsumi schwartz. and then hes def got More going on bc his attachment style is soo.... #wilhelm and heinkel i think would def be homophobic outside of reinhard/reinhard related things but its funnier to describe it like that ok #and either way the main target of their homophobia is gonna be reinhard LMAO #oni elders suck ok. theyd all be homophobic #rams got a strong case of comphet rn but when she doesnt have comphet shes chillin with subarus gf and having wlw mlm hostility with subaru #and otto. the entire judges your taste tier is all insane teen girls or frufoo and patrasche (who DEFINITELY judge otto and subarus taste) #frufoo patrasche are like that one reddit post about that one guys dog being homophobic after seeing their owner get topped in gay sex #also als in that tier bc al. #alcor is technically subaru but he gets to be a tier lower than subaru bc. hes also not technically subaru its very complicated but #at least he doesnt have the entire boy drama subaru has LSJDF #reids iconic line is the ones where he calls julisuba boyfriends u know. its extremely iconic. #a dear mutual of mine has informed me tivey is in lol ok while his triplet siblings wouldnt know what being gay is which LKJDSLFSD thats #fucking funny i had to do it #id argue satella is in lol ok bc she lets subaru do almost anything ok. this includes being terribly into men. she knows shes got his heart #either way. and also elsa dont care unless it affects how ur guts taste #rems reaction is gonna be lol ok unless its subaru coming out to her. then shes gonna have some Mixed Feelings #rezero #re:zero #i forgot to add but u could def argue garf knows what being gay is bc his two older brothers are just Like That #but also neither of his brothers would be caught dead explaining what being gay is to him

[hiyyihrts]

I’ve only recently got into the bridgerton fandom side of things but making an entire blog about how much you hate one ship/character is actually kinda crazy and obsessive 😭 if you don’t care about them or don’t even like the show bc of them why keep entertaining it and talking about it… maybe unclench and log off for a bit idk

#bridgerton #like idk if I don’t like smth I’m not gonna make my entire personality online about how much I hate them #aren’t y’all exhausted or what #maybe take a break from being online and go outside and realize… it’s all fiction and not reality #you don’t have to entertain it if you truly don’t care or don’t want to no one is holding a gun to your head man 😭 #this goes for any bridgerton ship tbh bc some of y’all sound insane #also… media literacy ain’t there anymore #y’all think every character has to be 100% good with no faults or very few faults in order to like them #but all characters in bridgerton have their faults and morally grey areas #and some are worse than others #but it’s all fiction at the end of the day #polin #saphne #kanthony

[gilmores-glorious-blog]

POV you’re a medieval townsperson in a poor village that’s being frequently raided and the only plan anyone has is for this one mom to go fetch her son from another town, but when she comes back, not only is it with her son- who you remember as this weird awkward kid- and two other women, but with the fucking PRINCE of an enemy kingdom. and after you recover from the shock of that, you realize that the prince and the weird kid are like……… really close. they’re always having private conversations and staring into each other’s eyes and you heard tell that the prince is sleeping on the floor of the kid’s hut? you remember hearing that this kid was the servant to the prince, but clearly you missed something along the way, because this literal actual prince who is here in your town won’t stop smiling fondly and making the world’s most obvious heart eyes at this random lanky teenager from your small village.

#i was rewatching this episode because it makes me feel things and like. they were genuinely insane for this. #the way merlin’s mom and childhood best friend (and morgana & gwen) ALL call him out on how obviously in love he and arthur are?!!?!!??? #because that IS what’s happening there and you can not convince me otherwise #anyways gonna go think about arthur following after merlin in the dark of night just because he can’t bear to see him leave for good #and the way merlin exclaims “arthur :D!” with more fondness and excitement than i have ever heard when they find each other in the woods #merlin #bbc merlin #merthur #also: i don’t actually know how old merlin is.. this is me interpreting him as ~19 and arthur as ~21. if i’m wrong please don’t come at me 😔 #eli.posts