#god im fucking old school

[decepticon-nerd]

I absolutely refuse to get rid of this fucking TV. Damn thing is older than me and it still works

#when it dies im breaking the screen out and making the interior a collage of all the shit my brother and i used to play #halo. mechassault. off road. sonic. super monkey ball delux. probably some other shit i cant recall #... ngl though the idea of breaking the screen out pains me. maybe ill try to fix her instead #ive got her vcr hiding under my tv stand cause ive got no room to set it up #god im fucking old school #yall out here streaming and shit and im like HEE HOO DVDS CDS VHS #i think i understand why my dad collects records now.. #ah yes and the picture presents my 20+ yo Gameboy Color that still works #hello Pokémon Gold. i should play you again sometime

[ylissebian]

caught up this week right in time for the start of season 5… we’re so back

#i missed this show so bad it’s unreal #if u were concerned yes rita is describing riverdale plot points and YES they are one hundred percent accurate (source: me im an expert) #frankly rita would fucking adore riverdale. the world should embrace this more #anyhow. falling back into old hyperfixations is what the summer is for innit ^_^ and its nice to draw better than 2020 me could. we have fun #the penumbra podcast #tpp #jupeter #juno steel #peter nureyev #rita (tpp) #buddy aurinko #vespa ilkay #jet sikuliaq #god i stopped listening somewhere when s3 was coming out cause school was too much at the time... relistening made me tear up #feels good feels organic feels like i missed juno steel so bad and didn’t even realize tili had him back #nureyev voice do you think these louboutins are too flashy for a kombucha brewing #<- real line from riverdale. rita could attest to that. i know this in my heart

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#so my mom's wake thing was today and that was a lot. not in an emotional sense but in a im standing here talking for 3hrs #to ppl i dont kno or barely kno. ya kno? but it was good bc so many ppl showed up to talk abt her #so many people. my mom made a huge impact on the school system. so many ppl relied on her. she encouraged at least 2 ppl to get their #master. for one person to specilize in helping the dyslexic after her experience advocating for 3 dyslexic daughters. she wrote and was #awarded a 10000 dollar grant for special needs and intervention curriculum. which will affect so many lives. #everyone loved her. she's gonna get a track meet named after her and a scholarship created in her honor. #she was an amazing person and she affected a lot of lives and im glad she was my mom. and she raised at least one jem in my littlest #sister who is so sweet and is a great teacher. god but there was some weird stuff too. were pretty sure her old boss was in love with her. #and there were some weird comments abt her being a strong woman or this woman doing so much and its like hm y do i detect a note of sexism #y not say she was an amazing person? y the surprise? weird comments about how pretty i looked. which yes i looked great lol. my funeral fit #was cute. we did bright colors bc it was a celebration not a dower event. and im sure it was ment well but it was a lil weird. and then #everyone was telling my grandma what a great job she did raising my mom and like god fuck off she didn't do jack. my mom was great despite #her terrible mother. ugh. but altogether it was good that everyone was able to express their love for her. it was def a day that was for #them mostly. i mean partly for us but mostly for them. none of us even cried. ay but we have 2 more parties in her honor #bc everyone loved her so much we have to do one in her hometown too. plus a personal friends get together. ugh. im so tired #i wish i wasnt the most awkward. eye contact avoidant person in the room but like ya kno. what can ya do? #unrelated

[kraviolis]

Belos: I’m going to raise Luz as my daughter and ensure that she remains pure and loyal to me.

Also Belos: I’m going to let the 7-years-old clone of my brother take care of her I’m sure he’ll be able to do that.

you joke but thats LITERALLY his entire thought process at first. he's so isolated and arrogant that he couldnt possibly comprehend the idea that luz wouldnt see him as her father despite the fact he literally told hunter he was going to be her older brother and never once encouraged hunter to see him as anything but an uncle.

i attribute this to the fact that philip is an orphan who only ever knew his blood brother as his only caretaker, so he sorta took having a brother for granted and didn't realize that was something you could want rather than something that just Is.

(also caleb was the only person philip ever truly knew + loved and even well into his 300s he never once picked up a child psychology book and realized that Perhaps His Worldview Was Skewed Because Of That.)

he literally like. could not comprehend the idea that you could even choose your own family outside of like. being adopted by someone. thats the other thing with him being so annoyingly christian in this AU, he was taught that your blood family (esp yr parents) is always the most important thing in your life & you should always be grateful to them no matter what.

(this is another factor into why he keeps making grimwalkers. in his own twisted viewpoint, it's him giving caleb another chance. and another. and another-- at least in this specific characterization of him.)

philip thought that him adopting luz would mean she would immediately be eternally grateful to him and call him father and the whole nine yards. but he forget to actually express that expectation until it was too late (aka until he heard her call him uncle for the first time)

honestly, hes not MAD about it. he's just sorta :( about it bcus hes not actually insane and can still logically think like "she did say she had just lost her real father to an illness its perfectly reasonable for her to not want to replace him" (he doesnt think it outloud but he also enjoys living thru her vicariously

but also later on as she gets older it gets to a point where he's like "ok its been years now why isnt she trying to replace him yet" bcus he thinks its a normal + healthy part of the grieving process to replace the person you lost (figuratively or, in his case, Literally)

#qna #anonymous #little lamb au #toh #also luz is sort of catholic in this AU bcus she was raised like that #as in camila + manny would take her to church on sundays and she did sunday school sometimes and they'd encourage her to pray #but they never like. enforced it on her. it was more of a cultural thing for all three of them than a spiritual thing. #but belos is DELIGHTED when he hears baby luz praying out loud before bed on her first night in the castle #he tries to casually ask her about it like 'what is this God can you explain it to him' #but then as he listens to her little five year old explanation of God and Jesus she drops enough hints to make him realize #'Oh Good Lord She's Fucking CATHOLIC?' #'god truly is testing me by guiding this lamb into my care but no matter. no child is beyond redemption' #cue belos trying to push her more towards protestantism by attempting to have religious debates with a fucking. five year old #who has no concept of religion beyond 'jesus died for my sins which means i shouldnt lie to my abuela about taking an extra empanada' #sorry i love belos forgetting that religion exists up until luz arrives in the demon realm #and then he realizes Oh Fuck Thats Right. Im Doing This For God & Jesus Not Just For Fun #and then suddenly remembers everything his pastor from 400 years ago ever said to him

[puppyeared]

save me old flipnote studio MVs.......

#im going thru old flipnotes i used to watch years ago and ouggghhg so many good ones #is twenty one pilots still popular.... do people still remember the TRNDSTTER and marble soda meme......... #its like im unlocking some sort of primal part of my brain and everything is coming back to me. one of my biggest inspirations as a kid #i still remember thinking the final transmission lyrics were the coolest thing and watching =TopHat= Bee and Melissa over and over #theres a very specific feeling of longing and nostalgia looking back and watching these again years later #especially when there isnt anything genshin or mcyt and instead its either fnaf undertale eddsworld or another obscure #interest... and not even fnaf sister location its like fnaf 3 and 2. its THAT old. and a lot of oc MVs especially pokemon ocs and furries.. #god but they were so creative u know. i still find it amazing ppl took this little lightbox animation on the fucking NINTENDO DS and #cranked it all the way to 11.. like if u look at the transitions and movement its so fucking fluid its insane..!! HOW DO YOU MAKE THE #CHARACTERS SPIN??? AND CHANGING CAMERA ANGLES??? and keep in mind youre doing this all with a shitty stylus #on a THREE BY TWO INCH SCREEN. you only get two layers you can go up to 29FPS and you only have 999 slides to work with #and 24FPS eats up a lot of that. absolutely insane it literally boggles my mind every time i think about it. AND SOME ARE EVEN FULL COLOR #i forgot how popular EDM was back then too...they were really good for timing beats though so you get a lot of MVs with #strobe last and marble soda. porter robinsons goodbye to a world was also popular with undertale and oc MVs. also a lot of vocaloid #someone made a flipnote abt the warner bros fnaf movie being announced EIGHT FUCKING YEARS AGO. it even used the stay calm audio from #the office.... i wonder how theyre doing now... i love you shitty grainy MV audio.. but i have mixed feelings abt the flashing colors #ppl LOVED animating the sans vs frisk fight. aishite and primadonna were also big ones they were SICK AS FUCK #lots of these inspired my old oc designs.. a lot of my characters had side bangs with one eye covered. animal ears and simple eyes too #now i kinda wanna try my hand at the marble soda meme cause i loved it as a kid lol.. i wonder if i should compare my old and new art here #UGHHHH IM SO NORMAL ABOUT NOSTALGIA. IM SO NORMAL ABT MY SCHOOL BOOK DRAWINGS WITH SHIBA BROWS #yapping #nostalgia

[silenthillbunni]

🐰🌧️

#so on my way home.. #i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :) #you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :) #you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!! #you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u! #whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️ #god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it. #or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!! #not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭 #my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

[spiderwarden]

breaking chracter for a moment. WHY IS IT A TREND TO MAKE YOUR SHIT LIKE IT WAS IN THE 2000s. I DON'T GET IT.

#[ 🕷️ ] —— out of character #[ witnessing your childhood be made into 'retro aesthetic' has been a fucking EXPERIENCE let ME TELL YOU!!!! ] #[ the other day i reposted a t.iktok that .. it was a 'high school in these years' ] #[ and it usually focuses on like 60s and 80s- yeah NO - THEY HAD MY HIGH SCHOOL YEARS oh my GOD ] #[ and the other day i heard some kids call my high school music OLD stuff and im like LISTEN HERE YOU LIL SHIT!!! ] #[ people be making their images all pixels and 2000s desktop imagery like sSD:LFKJSD ] #[ classic vine vc; ... stop.. ]

[frecklystars]

im a little bit tempted to watch the Elvis movies but there are. so many. and ive heard they are so. terrible. and he didn't fully enjoy making them, he just... had to do it... bc he felt like there wasn't much of an option... and worst of all they are all so painfully heterosexual and i'm sure none of the couples ever communicate with each other properly. so you just sit there ripping your hair out and shouting at the screen "WHAT ARE YOU DOINGGGG"

#but i want to get some inspiration... for my Driver/Officer K Greaser AUs... #the Elvis 2022 movie was so good even tho some things were incorrect #like. him breaking up with his first girlfriend Dixie when he became famous? that did NOT happen #Dixie broke up with HIM before he became famous because she wanted a husband who could work 9-5 and come home. #she didn't want to date somebody famous who was out doing gigs 24/7. #then when Elvis' mother passed away years later he called Dixie and she came to the funeral to support him #he wanted someone from his old life to comfort him. someone who knew him before he became a celeb. #FUNNER FACT the first time Elvis and Dixie were crushing on each other in school #Elvis was too shy to approach Dixie to ask her out so Dixie took matters into her own hands #standing in church and shouting to her friends loudly 'IM GOING TO THE SKATING RINK LATER!!!! BY MYSELF!!! CANT WAIT!!!' #'THE SKATING RINK!!! YOU KNOW THE ONE BY THE ICE CREAM SHOP DOWN THE ROAD!!! THAT SKATING RINK!!!' #'ILL BE THERE AT 4PM!!!!!!!!!' and elvis overheard and he was like oh shit #so sure enough Dixie shows up to the skating rink and Elvis already has his skates on #AND HE'S HUGGING THE WALL FOR DEAR LIFE. FIGHTING TO SURVIVE #and then she approached him and said uh hey do u wanna get outta here. and he was like GOD YES PLEASE #i think that story is so fucking cute #woof #oh here's another fun fact. when Dixie and Elvis were dating and Elvis was out on tours/gigs whatever #Elvis was the jealous one. Dixie did not care if women were gonna be all over him #Elvis was always asking her 'what boys are talking to you??? WHO'S LOOKING AT YOU. HM???' #and she's like 'bitch I am just going to school and church. you're the one surrounded by models' LMFAO

[muirneach]

we need to make rent cheap again for all the obvious reasons but also because art lowkey sucks rn and if we had cheap rent we would have a renaissance like its the information age baby why aren’t we living as such

#sorry im bingeing old art assignment videos like im in middle school again #literally one of the greatest youtube channels btw. #but between watching her stuff and being insane about the 60s yeah its got me thinking about the state of creativity rn #obviouslyyy theres cool art going on everything always but fuck itd be better if artists could spend less time at min wage jobs #and more time fucking around #anyways go watch the art assignment bone meal and fluxus videos god bless #this postly is mostly about the FOOD restaurant of the late 60s in soho #altho also the grenwich village scene because the ‘30 dollars pays your rent’ line from bleecker street makes me go insane

[1o1percentmilk]

when i was in middle school and going insane like every single day because of puberty i used to write angry letters to god asking them why i was created in this way and i believed it was because i must've done something awful before i was born

#im not as insane anymore #or it's more like i've made peace with being a fundamentally cursed person #but i'm ballin #i've read enough philosophy to know that even if im a bad person in the eyes of god my actions define who i am more tangibly than that #so. i know god means something different to everyone and i respect that but to me they've been a very malevolent force that i rebel against #...i used to have a bible special interest in middle school. mostly old testament. don't remember much of it anymore so dont ask #middle school was fucking awful

[attractthecrows]

what do you MEAN Warthrop is only 34

no wonder he acts so damn childish sometimes hes practically a baby

#HES SO YOUNG????? #i swear to god when i picked that book up in middle school i thought he was in his mid-late forties #HES ONLY LIKE 7 YEARS OLDER THAN ME #the monstrumologist #oh im gonna rail him so hard. i was already willing to fuck that old man to pieces and now i find hes not even old

[hella1975]

i hate my town i hate the people in it i hate the shame that consumes us all i hate that every failure might as well be posted in the square because everyone knows everyone i hate that my grandparents are here and i hate that my mother came back for them i hate that the kids are dying and no one cares i hate that every good memory has a bad memory right next door like sam's house around the corner from my childhood home i hate the body they pulled from the river i hate the memory of hearing yellow by coldplay at my cousin's funeral because all i could think was that it was too modern for the situation but then he was only seventeen so it makes sense i hate that i was seventeen too and all the boys i knew were there his friends that were supposed to be the tough guys the scary guys i hate that i pretended not to see them sobbing i hate that everything smells of cigarettes here i hate the politics i hate the people i used to love that dont even smile at me on the street i hate that the girl who called me a slut works at my favourite bar i hate every alley and hidden shortcut and i hate that i know them like the back of my hand i hate the same fucking coffee shops i sat in when i was fourteen and scared and now im nineteen and scared and i hate that it's exactly what this town wants i hate that it wants anger i hate that it wants fear i hate that it wants shame i hate that i can give it everything

#thinking about how the two biggest things in my life rn - writing and my degree - are so punctuated by this fucking town #like my biggest fear with my degree isnt what id think of myself if i dropped out or failed #or even what my family would think bc they're nicer to me than i am #it's genuinely the thought of what my hometown lot would say that keeps me up at night #like the thought of my neighbour who told me id never accomplish anything bc my school was shitter than his fancy one #the thought of having to look him in the eye #or the thought of knowing my friends will tell their mums who are still on the PTA with old teachers who thought i was special #like small towns wrap you in this bubble of smallness and it suffocates you and you're so terrified and ashamed of every little mistake #and then my writing GOD i keep thinking about how tbos is probably the best thing ive ever written #and id publish it id genuinely try and get it published #but im just again so scared and ashamed and embarrassed like how do i explain to these assholes that im writing fantasy #and that's not even counting the gay angle bc that's the biggest part #i just am not brave enough for that yet and yeah maybe it's bc im still young but i shouldnt have to be brave to enjoy things to begin with #failure shouldnt require bravery when it's just a fact of life #and i think about if we'd lived in london like my dad wanted us to or if we'd gone to dublin bc my mum loves dublin #or even if we just hadn't come to this fucking town and we'd lived in ANY FUCKING CITY #my dad jokes about how in london he didn't even know his neighbours names and god i just crave that anonymity so fucking much #it's so frustrating and my mum takes it so personally whenever i say i hate the town and my sister says i'll grow out of it just because #she did but i genuinely dont think i will #and maybe that's the creative in me or the queer in me that she just cant relate to but i have always always hated this place #like a guy i have a VERY complicated history with messaged me the other day and we havent talked in TIME #and it was kinda sweet if not awkward just bc of our aforementioned rocky past but one thing he mentioned when i said i was at uni #was that he said really genuinely 'im so happy to hear that; i know you always wanted to get out of [town name]' #like he still remembers that about me even though weve been friends since we were 12 and i havent spoken to him since i was?? 17?? #UGH i just hate it here and it's the fact that i'll never escape it either bc i cant totally abandon ship without also #abandoning my family and i refuse to do that and they refuse to leave so now im just stuck with all these CONNECTIONS #sorry to vent lol #ig this could be a poetry thing? we'll say it is instead of me just having another meltdown LMAO #hella goes home

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#tfw ur life has been so busy that u forgot that with a new school u have a new email to keep track of #and u forgot to hook it up to ur outlook so now u open it up and see emails from abt a month ago #telling u to do TA orientation stuff. uuuuuh oops #so i guess i have some bullshit to figure out tomorrow. also i should finalize my class sign up staff #stuff* bc when i was doing yhat my brain was on fire. also i should email my new boss. oh god. why didnt i check that email???? #i dont even kno if im supposed to b a TA this semester??? i should just email the guy but also i dont wanna roll up like yo #im already damaged goods bc ive suffered a whole year in a state of burnout. also i fucked up my sign up process by not paying attention #but uh hi hello nice to meed u again for the 2nd time in my life. this is definitely not a bad omen for things to come #ugh. why have i done this to myself? i cant even call to try to fix anything until Monday. fuck. #but i mean. i cant b thr only one who's ever done this. so maybe itll b fine? hopefully? #but i wouldn't have this problem if id just fucking looked at my fucking email in the 1st place #i can already feel it. this is where the overlap starts. the overlap between my old lab and my new lab #will it tear me into pieces? perhaps. i have to shift into go mode. i cant b a sad sack anymore #ugh. im usually really good at being on top of stuff like this bc im such an anxious freak but here we r... #unrelated

[oflgtfol]

he was only nineteen???? he should've been at the clubbbb

#guess what musical ive been relistening to . #but the musical is very hard to get plot beats out of cuz theres so many story gaps between the songs. hence why im here #even though this is the book's wiki page. and im pretty sure the musical and the book differ a lot. but still. #brot posts #music #back in middle school when i was in my musical phase (phantom/monte cristo/jekyll and hyde/etc) #and also just old literature in general phase (divine comedy/paradise lost/etc) #i really wanted to try to read the source material #but like. i was in 7th grade. i had no fucking idea what the hell was going on #i tried so hard to read paradise lost LMAOOOOO #like girlie pops you are 11 you havent even read shakespeare in class yet #so after i gave up on paradise lost i gave up on reading everything else as well. #although i do think i tried to do phantom at one point in middle school but also barely got through it #and then i tried it again in high school and only barely got a little furhter #though the high school time was just cuz i didnt have the patience #so yknow sitting here its very easy to say i would love to read the count of monte cristo instead of listen to the musical #but will i actually read it? probably not #god looking at the wikisoruce for it. its long as fuckkkkkkk man im not reading this LOL #ive read jekyll and hyde but thats because it was pretty short so the patience aspect wasnt a problem #so j&h is the only musical-based-on-1800s-literature that ive actually read the source material for. <3

[isjasz]

And about the school project istg my sole goal is to include one (1) reference to the life series watch me

#i will do it #somehow #and then after i get out of school im just gonna actually aggressively draw fanart #CUB SCULK PEARL AND BDUBS GOD THE FUCKING 3 SEPARATE DESERTDUO AUS IVE SEEN SAUSAGE JIMMY THE TAG HAT AND EVERYTHING GRIAN SHERRIF #LET ME DRAWWWWW #ALSO SRY FOR THE INACTIVITY MAYBE I CAN POST SOME OLD DOODLES AND DRAWINGS FOR THE FUNSIES LATER BAHDJJS #HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL AND TY FOR ALL THE FOLLOWS I DONT DESERVE THEM HELPFJF #ITS SO NICE HERE ON TUMBLR THO IM GROWING TO LIKE IT A LOT #:D #is.txt

[kraviolis]

if i had to guess, i’d estimate that only about 1/3 of all the fanfiction i’ve written has been posted.

#krav talks #i have posted 2 star wars fanfics that equal about 20k-28k words altogether iirc #but i estimate myself to have written probably like. 80k words worth of star wars fanfic #also i have like 200k words worth of gravity falls fics ive never posted #and 25k worth of steven universe fics #and you dont even wanna KNOW how much ive written for half life/hlvrai and never finished. #i was fucking insane in 2020. i was riding a high that im forever trying to recreate #a lil 18 year old freshly dropped out of high school right before the pandemic hit so i never had to do zoom school #i had just stopped going to therapy but at the same times just started taking adhd meds that actually worked after 2 years of duds #sometimes i wonder if i have bipolar disorder just because that whole entire era of my life could be classified as a manic episode #maybe i just hibernate in the winters actually. bcus consistently every single summer for the past 4-5 years have felt similarly #oh my god wait. no im dumb i just have seasonal depression. #i cant believe i was thinking that feeling good and motivated and happy and being full of life was mania