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weirdmageddon · 6 months

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long mediation on jade and dave’s relationship - part 2

part 1 is here

this part is essentially about dave and jade’s personalities, their basic dynamic, and how it works. and addressing some things ive seen said about dave in moments that people remove from context because they dont weigh these contexts and prior ones. if you want a post that goes into dave’s attitude towards jade (conclusion: he cares about her a lot) here it is

part 2: switcheroo + misconceptions about dave's role in dave and jade's relationship

something interesting i realized while writing this is the thing about grimbark jade is that she is no nonsense when her normal self is all about nonsense and entertaining silly things because she can see the merit in them. in fact she is always having a chuckle caused by dave's sense of humor and im sure dave got used to interacting with jade like that so wtf with grimbark jade

EB: so i think i have to get TG to use his copy to save her! EB: but that jackass won't shut up and stop rapping and stuff. GG: hahaha GG: he is so silly! (p.293)

TG: snows a big chilly carpet of nobody gives a shit TG: like old man winter spread around his nasty mayonnaise and turned the landscape into his personal asshole sandwich GG: eww dave no TG: when i look around all i see is the miles of unharnessed snowmen im just too damn cool to build GG: no this is so lame GG: i am hearing an insane and stupid guy say stupid idiot things while wearing dumb sunglasses for lame morons! TG: whoa jade with the fucking haymaker TG: i need to go look for my teeth on the canvas as soon as shit stops spinning and there stops being like ten of you GG: heheheh GG: why dont we play in the snow later (p.3024)

GG: i cant get over how tiny this thing is! GG: its so cute GG: so the baby frogs show up on this pad here? GA: Yes GG: i cant wait to try it GA: What Are You Laughing At There GG: oh GG: lol GG: dave just has a lot of funny stuff to say about all this GA: What Is He Saying GG: oh you know, a bunch of silly stuff GG: theres too much to copy/paste! GA: Hmm GG: here ill save it all to a file and send it to you -- gardenGnostic [GG] sent grimAuxiliatrix [GA] the file "daveisafunnyguy.txt" -- GA: Okay Im Laughing Pretty Hard At All That GG: hahaha (p.3312)

JADE: *snicker* JOHN: what? JADE: nothing JOHN: is someone messaging you through the game? JADE: hehe JOHN: who is it? JADE: pffff! JOHN: dammit, jade... JADE: its davesprite, hes playing too JOHN: oh. JOHN: don't tell him any of our strategies. he is the enemy! JADE: we have strategies? JOHN: um... JOHN: ok, first, tell him we have strategies. then, don't tell him them. JADE: hahahahahahaha JOHN: oh god. JOHN: what is it now? JADE: did you know... JADE: davesprite is a funny guy? JOHN: meh, he's alright i guess. JOHN: i give most of his jokes a passing grade. sometimes as high as a solid b+! JADE: i just told him you said that JADE: davesprite says to tell you "youre basically welcome for being born 14 years ago and 1 year ago you ungrateful douche" JOHN: oh, like him taking credit for my existence isn't so old by now! (p.4732)

in a way i feel like their roles parallel dave and jade in the earlier acts from homestuck, but inverted (and twisted/not as nice cause grimbark jade is under nefarious influences)

dave approaches the world from a highly pragmatic position. his ego (in the purely psychoanalytical sense) that he holds himself to, shows to the world, and what he tends to reason through is one that’s about relaxed competence. he’s critical of unreasonable actions and takes it upon himself to guide others into being more efficient in practical, realistic ways. he sees that jade struggles in these initially but she readily accepts his help, which is more than glad to provide.

this doesn’t say anything bad about jade harley. this doesn’t make her stupid, or in need the saving from a knight in shining armor nor does it make dave condescending towards her. it’s information that he is able to provide and that she appreciates and trusts his assistance with while she sees through the things that she prioritizes like helping others with matters of hidden opportunities / the big picture and interpersonal needs which are completely out of dave’s league, something he highly respects but doesnt feel its his greatest asset towards other people like jade does. jade is very into science and gadgetry, but remember that she relies heavily on her sharp intuition rather than straight up pragmatism like dave would. jade really is exceptional and multitalented but she doesn’t know how she does the things she does half the time!

(p.790)

even though dave acknowledges this it doesn’t really bother him

TG: hey TG: oh TG: youre asleep again arent you TG: or do you even know if you are TG: i still dont know how that works TG: its like nothing means anything TG: its so cool getting hella chumped by your coquettish damn riddles all the time TG: i dont know why i believe anything you say im like the grand marshal of gross chumpage (p.829)

GG: i want to tell him happy birthday and ask him about his birthday package! TG: oh yeah TG: i was being sort of cagey and told him to check the mail cause i was wondering if mine came yet GG: i think it did! TG: yeah? GG: and i think mine came too TG: so uh TG: i guess you want to know if he likes it or something? GG: no!!!!!!! GG: he will not open it GG: he will lose it!!! TG: oh TG: uh TG: wow sorry to hear that i guess? GG: no its good actually! GG: because he will find it again later when he really needs it GG: which of course is why i sent it in the first place! TG: see like TG: i never get how you know these things GG: i dont know GG: i just know that i know! TG: hmm alright (p.382)

TT: Jade is connected with you? TT: Where did she get the discs? TG: i dont know how does she do any of the loopy batshit nonsense she does (p.1401)

but because she’s gotten by on intuition and her dreams for most things, she’s not as adapted to the rationale behind actions. dave can sense her struggling and wants to help because it’s basically his mission for everyone, not just jade. but that’s the information that jade is glad to be led by and continues to unconsciously prompt him with. she encourages his practical ways and doesn’t tell him to fuck off or just straight up ignore his advice which dave interprets as his strengths being needed by someone else

GG: dave! GG: are you busy? GG: i dont have much time! GG: i am about to make my entry item, and its a little confusing GG: i think the more players we add, the trickier they are to... um...... GG: activate! GG: like yours was GG: i figured we could brainstorm about it, while john fusses with the kernel GG: helloooooo? TG: nak nak nak GG: :o (p.2907)

TG: yeah honestly i figured wed have to do something like this TG: so i guess here we are doing it GG: doing what?? TG: well youre my server player remember GG: yes TG: i need you to deploy something first TG: in my apartment TG: in a few hours ill go back there and we can continue this GG: oh jeez, a few hours???? -- turntechGodhead [TG] ceased pestering gardenGnostic [GG] -- -- turntechGodhead [TG] began pestering gardenGnostic [GG] -- TG: yeah TG: as in a few seconds TG: im back at my place now GG: fastest hours :o TG: yeah TG: now TG: deploy the intellibeam laserstation GG: but that costs so much grist!!! TG: no it costs practically nothing TG: check out how much ive got GG: omg... GG: what does this thing do? TG: its mostly pretty stupid and useless TG: but itll come in handy here TG: it reads captcha codes GG: on the back of cards? TG: yeah GG: but GG: we can already read those! TG: some are too garbled and complicated TG: the human eye cant decipher them TG: needs sophisticated scanning technology TG: and artificial intelligence to figure it out GG: hmm GG: but isnt the whole point of captchas that only humans can read them? GG: and not robots??? TG: yeah well TG: thats why this is so dumb (p.3025 / 3026)

TG: thisll be the disc i use for your connection TG: while the original will stay bound to roses connection GG: so you will be the server for BOTH us ladies??? GG: you just keep getting smoother, i cant handle all this smoothness TG: well technically TG: i will be your server TG: and past me will stay as roses server TG: which is to say present me will TG: the one in the black suit GG: ohh... GG: i guess that makes sense TG: he can keep managing her for a while TG: until she sorta checks out soon and becomes totally useless TG: then he can start hopping around time like i did TG: make a ton of money and stuff TG: eventually become me TG: and become your server player GG: ok i think i understand that! TG: yeah see its not hard to get the hang of TG: in the meantime ill kind of loiter around this timeframe to help you out for a while GG: yessss thanks dave <3

TG: im just going to cut right to the chase and upgrade your alchemiter so you can avoid a lot of bullshit TG: ill give you some codes and you can punch cards and slip em into jumper blocks GG: yaaaaaaaaaaaay! (p.3030 - 3032)

jade has strengths that dave has weaknesses in too, which dave himself points out!!!

TG: ok so TG: the egg is now in a nest made of shitty swords and soft puppet ass TG: please advise GG: i think your sprite wants to hatch it! GG: awww TG: do you think thatll take more than four hours GG: hmm... GG: i dont know it looks like its pretty warm where you are TG: its hot as the sizzle side of the steak GG: maybe not too long then???? GG: i guess we'll find out! TG: maybe i should try to get it back TG: and put it in the microwave GG: :( (p.1507)

dave assumed the egg needed to be heated to break and allow him to enter the game, so his course of action is to go up there and get it himself and use whatever means are at his disposal. that is a logical, straightforward thing to do. he doesnt rely on uncertainty and blind trust that things will just work out when he has the ability to take action in a way that makes sense; that’s jade’s thing. but it turns out jade’s intuition for how to solve dave’s entry puzzle was right! it was actually a test of patience. he later says this to jade

GG: you guys are all so much better than me, i feel sooooo lame TG: we all start out somewhere TG: remember how i was scrambling up that tower to get that egg like an idiot TG: what the hell was i doing TG: i was like goddamn pooh bear in a tree reaching up his fat fuckin pooh paw for some mother fuckin honey GG: heehee TG: so even though im awesome now at one point i was plausibly likened to an autistic stuffed animal TG: and you even knew what to do TG: you told me how it worked all christopher robinning my ignorant ass about that egg TG: but i was all like IM A LITTLE BLACK RAIN CLOUD BITCH WATCH ME CLIMB TG: so maybe youre startin out with more sense than me GG: maaaybe GG: :) (p.3025)

hes pretty much like jade's hypeman but in his own sort of lowkey way and is actually sweetly reassuring to her. this includes davesprite btw

GG: those stupid things are impossible to kill :( TG: no you can kill them TG: youll get better dont worry (p.3024)

GG: hmmmm... GG: i dont know if i get that but ok! TG: well yeah TG: my thing is time yours is space TG: pretty different things TG: you GET things about space i dont TG: or you will GG: i will? TG: yup (p.3024)

DAVESPRITE: as a sprite im supposed to help him with his quest JADESPRITE: oh yeah JADESPRITE: im supposed to help jade too, but...... JADESPRITE: *sniffle* DAVESPRITE: shes doing alright dont worry about it JADESPRITE: ok, ill try... JADESPRITE: shes a lot more brave than me i think JADESPRITE: she brought me back thinking i could help her and all i did was disappoint her and everyone else JADESPRITE: you came back as a sprite and youre managing to do important things... JADESPRITE: but i just feel so scared and helpless DAVESPRITE: sounds like you came back because jade made the decision for you DAVESPRITE: i made the decision to come back myself maybe itd be different if you had the same chance JADESPRITE: i dont know if i would have if i had the chance JADESPRITE: but i would like to not feel so useless to everybody DAVESPRITE: i think everyones on top of this DAVESPRITE: theres not much for us to do anymore (p.3927)

DAVESPRITE: so jade must have done something right DAVESPRITE: to wake her up and get the forge going DAVESPRITE: dont know what she did though JADESPRITE: probably something amazing JADESPRITE: she is still working so hard to help everyone JADESPRITE: i guess i used to be that way... JADESPRITE: but ive completely forgotten how DAVESPRITE: are you sure (p.3945)

JADESPRITE: it reminds me of when i died JADESPRITE: and i was trying to wake john up JADESPRITE: i was scared then too JADESPRITE: but i didnt let the fear stop me from trying to save him DAVESPRITE: what would you want to do DAVESPRITE: if you werent scared JADESPRITE: i have no idea JADESPRITE: i guess try to help JADESPRITE: what is there to do? DAVESPRITE: well DAVESPRITE: i was going to bring this sword to dave JADESPRITE: oh noo JADESPRITE: does that mean youre going to leave? DAVESPRITE: no DAVESPRITE: i was gonna say DAVESPRITE: im not in any shape for more adventuring DAVESPRITE: i figure this is probably my last stop JADESPRITE: :( DAVESPRITE: but maybe this is a way you can help JADESPRITE: you mean... JADESPRITE: that i should give him the sword? DAVESPRITE: if you want JADESPRITE: but i dont want to leave you here either DAVESPRITE: maybe you dont have to actually go anywhere DAVESPRITE: you oughta have a lot of special powers remember DAVESPRITE: because of ascending to doghood JADESPRITE: oh yeah! DAVESPRITE: try doing your spacey thing DAVESPRITE: i mean not to sound condescending or anything but its got to be like borderline omnipotence pretty much DAVESPRITE: just put your mind to it (p.3946)

knowing all of this about dave and jade’s personalities and how they work together, i’ve see people get on dave’s case about making jade slap herself in the face after she put the dead bird into his kernelsprite while he was preoccupied with taking a leak

dave freaks the hell out when he realizes she’s asleep; he needs to wake her up because she needs to help him get into the game while requires pragmatism and reasonable actions so that he’s not crushed to death by an imminent meteor. or falling plumbing fixtures. the goal wasn’t to show her who’s in control or whatever or to be mean (do people seriously think he would do that to be mean to her just to slap a girl?) it was strictly to wake her up since he has no means of influencing that besides getting creative

while asleep, jade doesn’t think logically and certainty not to the extent dave needs her to be right now. she’s scattered lalalalala and can forget about limitations or consequences in the real world and also has a short memory span while dreaming: e.g. “4 hours until what?” and she put something into the kernelsprite right after dave asked her not to because she forgor </3 and jade does acknowledge this about her dreaming self btw

GG: i mean, i only talked to you when i was asleep! i am kind of different when im dreaming... GG: i forget things, and at times im not totally sure whats real GG: dont you remember thats what its like to dream on prospit? (p.3056)

dave literally says “we need to wake you up youre not very logical like this” and he does apologize about making her dreambot wake-up slap her

i also see people say that dave thought of jade as helpless and he needs to be the hero and that's why "davejade is not good actually"

TG: but ok i mean isnt that what heroes should be doing TG: working to take down the bad guy without a whole lot of this fuckin grandiloquence and these huge sweeping plans that got nothin to do with fighting him TG: like always biding our time and tiptoeing around the unbeatable god boss TG: johns too nice to get mad TG: rose spends all her time calculating TG: too focused on machiavellian ploys of sabotage to try anything drastic TG: jade is TG: i dont even know TG: probably more a liability if she got it in her head to take him down TG: if anything id bet she just needs protection GC: WH4T 4R3 YOU S4Y1NG H3R3 D4V3, 1N TH1S CONV3RS4T1ON TH4T 1S ST1LL B31NG 4BOUT YOU TG: im just wondering TG: when does someone actually step up TG: jacks got shit to pay for (p.3703)

this minor thread gets followed up on in the pesterlog where jade contacts dave and eventually she concludes jack needs to be stopped and dave's like ... "oh shit" in his head. "oh shit" as in jade's got Game good for her go jade, "oh shit" as in she's going to be ripe for the stabbing cause the idea is in her head now, and "oh shit" as in this moment is the seed of why im going to have to rehearse jade accidentally killing me over and over and i cant tell her about it. due to this he is always fated to die in the alpha timeline both standing up to jack and to protect jade. it's woven into his story. but he was wrong about everyone else also! which i dont see brought up when that quote is used? rose does something drastic (pilots the moon into the furthest ring) and john gets mad (on the ship) and jade is the opposite of needing protection (she’s the only one jack won’t stab and also she ends up so fucking OP she has to be basically written out of act 6) so it's less a thing about jade specifically but to show that in hindsight dave was wrong about ALL his friends. which is an interesting discussion to be had about him in itself, but not now. this is the most sane and well-thought out interpretation of it ive seen

"In general, though, I think Dave has a tendency not uncommon to [thirteen] year olds (or… humans in general, if we’re being honest here) to cast everyone else as a player in his own story and characterize them in ways that fit what he wants. There’s the famous chunk where he says John never gets angry, Rose will never stop scheming long enough to take action, and Jade’s a liability, only to be proven wrong in every count. That fits his understanding of these people and his ideal relationship with them - friend, actor, protector, the one in the group who can be the hero." "Yes, I think Dave probably saw Jade as the most supportive and least judgmental friend. I’m not sure if that impacted his incorrect judgment of her since that’s kind of a pattern for him in general, but I guess it could’ve."

and also putting this solely on dave is kind of ... ehhhhh? because john says the same thing about jade but i don't see anyone getting on his case for it.

CG: SHE AND DAVE RAN INTO JACK, WHICH I'M SURE HE MUST HAVE SAW COMING BECAUSE I'VE NEVER SEEN ANYONE EXPLOIT TIME TRAVEL SO SHAMELESSLY AS HIM, NOT EVEN ARADIA. CG: SO SHE AND DAVE FOUGHT WITH HIM A WHILE, AND LONG STORY SHORT, HE DIED. EB: what!!! CG: BUT IT'S FINE, I GUESS THAT WAS HIS PLAN, LIKE SOME BIZARRE USELESS LAST STAND, EVEN IF HE DIDN'T TELL JADE WHO WAS PRETTY FREAKED OUT UNTIL I TALKED HER THROUGH IT. CG: JADE SAYS SHE HAS THIS FIGURED OUT, AND I DON'T HAVE TIME TO DO MUCH BUT TRUST HER. CG: THE POINT IS, SHE'S ALL BOOKED UP, AND ALL TOO MORTAL. SO SHE WON'T BE DELIVERING THE BOMB, AND NEITHER WILL YOU. EB: ok, well what about this. EB: since she is mortal, and i am not (sort of), and i don't need to do the scratch for a while, can i go help her? EB: maybe she could use some protection? maybe that is what dave was just trying to do, when he temporarily died. EB: remember, jack is still on the loose! he has killed rose and dave once, and me twice. CG: NO NO NO NO NO NO. CG: SWEET BLEEDING JEGUS, EGBERT, YOU KEEP BRAGGING ABOUT YOUR IMMORTALITY, AND THEN BRAINLESSLY ANNOUNCE PLANS TO GO OFF AND DO SOMETHING HEROIC! YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE THE SHORTEST LIFESPAN OF ANY IMMORTAL IN HISTORY. EB: sorry. :( CG: BESIDES, IT'S A TOTAL NON ISSUE. JACK WOULDN'T HESITATE TO STAB YOU AGAIN, BUT HE WON'T HURT JADE FOR SOME REASON. CG: IF ANYTHING, YOU COULD USE HER PROTECTION. (p.3869 / 3871)

and also keep in mind dave does absolutely change his perception about jade's strength??

DAVE: youll probably annihilate me worse than my bro used to DAVE: dont you have all of your dogs insane powers and like DAVE: god tier space powers on top of all that DAVE: how exactly am i supposed to compete with that (p.6384)

DAVE: gotta keep em napping DAVE: especially jade im sure you know what kind of crooked ass baloneyfuck powers she got DAVE: cant let her turn those against us (p.7485)

so back to grimbark jade and the switching of these roles, dave doesn’t entirely lose his pragmatic bent. that’s still the way he thinks about stuff through but his time on the meteor has softened him and allowed him to become more reflective on big-picture things such as his role in everything

ironically this is the exact reason for his clash with grimbark jade is because she’s trying really hard to make him do stuff and it’s stuff that he’s not going to budge on because he doesn’t think it’s practical

JADE: why not? JADE: our empress can hardly have a knight with such rusty combat skills in her service DAVE: will you cut it out with the evil jade baloney DAVE: im not going to fight you DAVE: my rooftop dueling days are OVER JADE: en garde! DAVE: ugh DAVE: even if we just went balls out jackass BANANAS with our swords here i mean realistically how much appreciable advancement in my battle skills would even result from that DAVE: are you actually thinking this through or just going through the vaguely nefarious motions that come with the territory of being evildog!jade JADE: im gonna go through the vaguely nefarious motions of kicking your ass in a minute if you dont put up your dukes!!! DAVE: yeah you probably will DAVE: youll probably annihilate me worse than my bro used to DAVE: dont you have all of your dogs insane powers and like DAVE: god tier space powers on top of all that DAVE: how exactly am i supposed to compete with that JADE: by using your time trickery! JADE: come on dave do your timey thing JADE: get creative, make lots of copies of yourself or something... outsmart me! DAVE: no! JADE: yes!!! DAVE: ok here i go JADE: !!!!! DAVE: wait DAVE: nah JADE: grrr JADE: dave, just try a little time travel to get this fight started JADE: see look, one of your time doubles is surely predestined to come from a few minutes in the future and appear behind me for a surprise attack, riiiight about... JADE: now! JADE: ... JADE: no wait JADE: riiiiiiiiiight... JADE: ... JADE: ... JADE: NOW! JADE: .... JADE: ..... JADE: dave why is your future self being such a wet blanket DAVE: i told you DAVE: im not time traveling DAVE: i think im giving it up for good actually (p.6384)

one thing floral mentions in her post is that dave is pushing jade for answers about her failed relationship with davesprite

DAVE: why are you dragging that guy into this DAVE: what happened with you and him anyway JADE: none of your business >:p DAVE: it kind of is DAVE: hes bird me DAVE: that clearly means i have a right to know JADE: that doesnt make any sense! DAVE: you said he had issues DAVE: what issues JADE: augh! JADE: forget i mentioned it DAVE: was he talking shit about me the whole time or something DAVE: i know he resents me for being the real dave JADE: dont say that, you arent the real dave! JADE: well you are, but phrasing it like that is so mean! JADE: hes just as real as you, and when you imply he isnt you sound like a jerk!!! DAVE: man i knew it DAVE: i knew he was poisoning your view of me all those years DAVE: and i wasnt there to say anything or defend against his slander so now of course you think im a neurotic douche (p.6386)

and while it is true nobody is obligated to share the details of their relationship, there is a LOT of evidence to believe dave was asking because he wants to be a good person and, to me his words here, and his past and future actions relative to this point, show that he’s not as messed up of a person as grimbark jade is making him out to be. let’s dive into it. think on this: why does dave care so much what jade thinks about him? he started getting “neurotic” halfway through the conversation once jade brought up her feelings about him

JADE: THE ONLY REASON I THINK YOURE A NEUROTIC DOUCHE IS BECAUSE YOURE ACTING LIKE ONE NOW!!! DAVE: yeah but i only started acting like a neurotic douche like half way through this conversation DAVE: you clearly had an axe to grind with me from the start and i want to know why DAVE: what did i ever do to deserve this shit from you JADE: YOU BROKE MY HEART!!!!!! DAVE: what DAVE: i did DAVE: when (p.6386)

he’s genuinely so lost because he hadn’t had contact with any extension of jade in 3 years. alpha timeline dave has been sensitive towards jade for basically forever and especially now that he’s had time to grow up. he is not going to allow any version of himself hurt jade, and thats why hes asking so many questions to her about the nature of the relationship and what happened

JADE: ok not you JADE: davesprite did JADE: BUT YOURE BASICALLY THE SAME GUY! DAVE: whoa no way DAVE: thats such an unfair characterization we are completely different dudes JADE: you just said you had a right to know what happened between us because, and i quote, "hes bird me" DAVE: no i know DAVE: i was playing the "hes bird me" card because it was convenient to whatever it was i was saying at the time DAVE: i forget what point i was making when i said that JADE: *growl* DAVE: but thats not the point im making now DAVE: he and me are just DAVE: crazy different yo DAVE: hes got fuckin wings!!! DAVE: he also presumably takes a dump and lays eggs out of the same ghostly hole DAVE: ... DAVE: ew man whyd i have to go there JADE: *SNARL* DAVE: ok if he broke up with you or whatever that was because of his dumb bird issues not my issues DAVE: theres no way i would have done that to you (p.6386)

what dave means to say by “hes bird me because it was convenient to say at the time but it doesnt apply to this circumstance” is exactly what i was getting at in part 1 of this series of posts. yes, they are the same people at their very foundation, different reflections of a single character, but up to a point. there’s a gray area of whether or not we can call dave and davesprite the same person. in terms of this conflict though, dave should be regarded as a separate individual because of their diverging history up to that point and adolescent-teenage growth in different environments and under different circumstances. even if dave doesn't know what hes trying to say

he wants to know what this alternate version of himself did to hurt jade so much. even if grimbark jade really is bringing dave into some shit he had nothing to do with.

see the thing is, to me dave could have easily handled being accused a lot worse and say something like “youre overreacting” or something. that wouldve been dickish. but he doesn’t, he never does. he really seems to be more motivated by like, “woah what?? whats his problem? are these about issues i still have and dont know they were hurting jade or are they uniquely davesprite’s?”

like, this isn’t a joke to him even if his main form of communication through humor to lighten the mood (jade loves dave’s silliness dont forget all the times she’s giggled because dave was “so silly” and “hes a funny guy”). immediately after rescuing the mayor from eviljade’s lava kick, he was going to give davesprite a piece of his mind and this shows he is sincerely concerned about what an alternate version of himself did to break jade’s heart. he REALLY fuckin wants closure on it because he cares about her feelings so much

i don’t see this other side covered in floral’s post, but evildog jade here is Also pushing dave to do something that he is uncomfortable with as well, which is to use time travel.

dave stopped time traveling so he wouldn’t “have to wonder all the time if i was taking a wrong turn and dooming everybody”, stating he was “never that cool with it” to rose back in act 5. around the same time when karkat talks to john, he says “TO MY KNOWLEDGE, HE DOESN'T TIME TRAVEL AFTER [FIGHTING JACK WITH JADE], AND HE AND ROSE STAY ON DERSE WAITING FOR THE BOMB UNTIL YOU START THE SCRATCH” which honestly makes me think that whole event was the nail in the coffin for dave on time traveling. seeing himself die fighting jack and knowing it was coming and he couldnt tell jade no matter how much he wanted to that her bullets were going to be the cause. this is the last straw for him regarding time traveling it affected him that much

remember the last lines of pesterlog jade had with dave before being separated? i mentioned it earlier--the one where jade decided jack needs to be stopped and they should “come up with a better plan than Rose’s suicide mission to stop him. Dave suggests the idea is futile, but lets her know she’d come to her own decision regardless, and he’d be available to talk later if needed” (from recap 3)

GG: well maybe im just being naive... GG: but a crazy suicide mission does not sound like the ideal solution to me! GG: are you suuuure we cant beat him? GG: i dont know if we should rule it out! TG: well TG: youre about to do what youre about to do TG: and im not going to tell you not to TG: i wont do the bullshit troll thing and tell you what youre going to do and then just dare you not to TG: while knowing damn well you will anyway TG: so ill just say TG: whats next is up to you TG: and if later you want to talk about it TG: im here GG: ok GG: thanks dave! (p.3204)

this was dave’s nice causality-free way of saying “youre going to end up killing me during the jack fight that winds up happening. i cant tell you that im going to die and that youre going to be the one to shoot me, because i know you wouldnt go through with it. that would drag us in a doomed timeline and we’d all die anyway, not just me. youre probably going to be freaked out when it happens since i can’t tell you this, so if you want to talk me about it later, ill be here for you”

which, first of all is, holy shit. he cares about her and her feelings so fucking much. and it’s nothing new

TT: What about why you went to fight Jack? TG: sure TG: i did that TG: because i wanted to TG: and because i was supposed to TT: Are you sure? TG: yeah i saw my future self fighting him so obviously that had to happen or else id be dead anyway TG: without even getting the satisfaction of standing up to him TT: So what about Jade? TG: what TT: You didn't tell her your expedition with her would result in your death, let alone one she'd inadvertently cause. TT: Or that she'd be stuck with the job of resuscitating you. Did you? TG: what am i really supposed to say TG: hey were gonna hunt frogs til you shoot me through the jack TG: then i die and youve got to make out with me TG: that kind of changes how the whole thing goes doesnt it TT: Not if you're "supposed to," right? TG: what does that even mean TT: I guess you're right. No reason to make an effort to empathize if doing so comes at the price of oblivion. TG: wtf TT: It must be comforting to have your ASPD tacitly supported by predestination. TG: aspd TT: Antisocial personality disorder. TG: oh no TG: this conversation just got bumrushed by a mudslide of fucking awful TT: It wasn't already awful, believing you might be dead? TG: you dont know anything TG: about what i was feeling or what happened on lofaf TG: you were all pavement faced and babbling your throefester speak and flipping off the shit with your own crazy deathwish thing why do you think you know what was going through my head TG: youre just assuming and throwing around psyche buzzwords like aspd complex disorder TG: im telling you if i said anything at all about it she probably doesnt even fire her gun once and all im doing is dragging her into a doomed timeline with me TT: I guess I'm learning to be impressed by your sense of obligation to inevitable misfortune. It's a strange case of inspiration through futility. TG: none of this is that big a deal TG: i just mentioned the basics to her TG: that id stop time traveling soon TG: break out of the loops TG: not have to wonder all the time if i was taking a wrong turn and dooming everybody TG: i was never that cool with this (p.3896)

dave got suddenly super fucking defensive about rose making assumptions about how he felt about fighting jack and knowing jade was going to inadvertently kill him, knowing damn well how jade reacts to seeing corpses (remember that time dave threw his slain body out the window so jade wouldnt see it because “it would probably freak her out”), and the fact that he couldn’t warn her to protect the alpha timeline and also protect both of them and everyone from falling into a doomed timeline. and he knew it was coming the whole time. he was right, rose didn’t know what was going through his head. but his defensiveness here means he had strong feelings about it. not only that but dave saying “whats next is up to you, and if later you want to talk about it, im here” shows the amount of trust he has towards her

we see him tell this to grimbark jade straight up his thought process for why he stopped time traveling. and it’s spot on with what i said. again, remember that this is the first conversation he has with jade after 3 years being separated

DAVE: but see with time travel DAVE: all the stuff about learning it so you dont have to use it is true DAVE: theres no good that can come of it DAVE: you can crunch the logic on the loops all you want DAVE: but all youre doing is painting yourself into a corner DAVE: creating inevitabilities you have to rehearse and enact or face death for yourself or everyone you know DAVE: and sometimes facing death is the very inevitability you have to rehearse DAVE: and then you wait and wait knowing its coming and knowing it has to happen DAVE: how do you think it made me feel when we were gathering up all those frogs DAVE: and i knew the whole time in a little while you would have to watch me get shot DAVE: but i couldnt say anything or it would mess it all up DAVE: all cause i thought it would be cool to be marty mcfuckin fly DAVE: but instead of shredding johnny b goode on guitar to get my parents to bang DAVE: my crowning performance was doing a funny dance while getting pumped full of lead JADE: ...... (p.6385)

and what fucking broke me yesterday was realizing after all this time, ironically it was DAVE who wound up being the one who had to talk to jade about it.

JADE: sorry dave, you lost me there after the part where i shot you DAVE: damn DAVE: ok lemme start over (p.6385)

“damn ok lemme start over” bro he really wants to open up to her about this thing he’s been stewing on for three years only for it to fall on deaf mind controlled ears. it’s so fucking sad

part 3 is cooking and it’s going to be about dave’s character growth post-meteor and what that means for dave and jade

#homestuck #homestuck meta #davejade #dave strider #jade harley #homestuck analysis #hs

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Simon and his father take a trip to the Scottish highlands for the summer, he knows only one of them will leave.

Johnny is a boy obsessed with filming explosions from fireworks he's not supposed to have.

Los Vaqueros are a group of Mexican teens derailed from their field trip waiting for teachers that might not come back.

Huge lore and plot dump below.

Mild tw for Simons father

Simons father has always taken him on hunting trips, sometimes he hated them, some times he liked them. But he'd never taken him this far from manchester. There are weapons in the cabin they rent, his father is eerily sober, one of them is going to die out here. Simon can only hope that Tommy won't be next.

Johnny meets him when he strays too far from his father. Part of it on purpose, he would never be on equal footing, more so when his father had the rifle and not him. He's in the tree's, at first simon thinks its prey, but there's a camera lense staring right at his scope.

Los Vaqueros come later, the leader arguing with a girl with choppy hair, Valeria and Alejandro trade glares while Rodolfo tries to mediate. Their bus broke down, leaving them stuck in town desperately renting a cabin near but far from the one simon is in.

It's the most interesting thing thats happened to johnny, and in the makeshift bonfire Valeria corners him and Simon. Her gaze is snakelike and a ring clinks on the bottle she's holding

"You say that he's an asshole yes? Your padre. Mine was the same, en mi opinión? It is kill or be killed."

Valeria nods at Alejandro, she tells them of a faceless force where she's from. The person sponsoring the trip for them, 'good will'. The five of them band together, the rest of the Vaqueros utterly ignorant.

Simon will save his family, Alejandro will get them home, and johnny? He's going to make the best home video.

Yeah so thats the whole plot, originally it was just going to be ghoap but somehow the Vaqueros fell into place. It kind of made more sense to have Valeria give them the idea? She doesnt have a whole bunch of canon lore so I figured she'd have an in with the cartel via her father, who was awful. And when Valeria killed him the nameless helped her cover it up and she got her own little spot.

Alejandro broke off their relationship after that, it's why they're on bad terms. He formed the Vaqueros as a funny joke that he started to take seriously when kids around Las Almas genuinely needed help that wasnt someway connected to the cartel, adults had that with rudys mother, so Ale and his childhood friend Rudy decided to help people their age in a way that doesn't rely on adults too much.

Everyone here is about 16-18. Soap is 17, ghost is as well but a few months older. Rudy Alejandro and Valeria are 18. And the youngest cowboy is 16.

Im trying to fit Gaz and Alex in? Im thinking that they both live in Texas, Gazs parents had a falling out since mum was from Texas hes there. Their school is on the same trip in the same bus a sort of cross trip to help the shitty american public school get a better name, as well as the cartels big PR move with having a class from one of Las Almas' schools.

Johnny is a bit weird here, but his motivation is he's suffering from extreme middle kid issues. Loves his family but since he's almost invisible is able to just kinda run off as long as hes back home eventually. He has a camera he uses to film any of his mishaps with, its essentially just jackass. As well as a video diary. Dont be fooled, its also an excuse for me to write some of it in script like format.

Simon is almost exactly the same as he is in the 09 comics, obviously a bit different. But childhood is the same.

I wanted farah to be here so bad but her childhood is literally a warzone and theres no way I can get her and her brother in Scotland. Because im trying so hard to make this somewhat believable, like yes its is a summer mystery horror au. But god I just really need things to make a little sense otherwise I cant do it. Same with Price Nik and Laswell. Like I could group Laswell in with Alex and gaz, and maybe I could pair her with Valeria for funsies. However Nikolai is in russia so... oopsie, and price? Like... how do you turn price into a teenager, he'd be what 19 or 20? Theres no reason he'd be in school, I dont think he'd be held back.

Also you may wonder, why is graves not here? Uh.... because I dont care, he wouldn't have a place here. The antagonist is Simons father, and honestly man? I just dont care that much for his character.

Man theres... theres so much I have here dude, I want to throw roach in there, and I THINK I could squeeze him in as one of ghosts school mates but the point is the first act has Simon completely isolated.

Anyway thats it. Bye.

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persephone11110 · 9 months

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Mother I’d Like To….

Jake Seresin x Bradshaw Wife Reader

Warnings: grey hair, aging insecurity, age gap(reader:45 J:34), Jake“I Love My Wife” Seresin, stepdad j.s, unnamed douchy ex/husband, religious word is used once-blasphemy, sprinkle of curse words, slighty smutty end

Summary: She embraced her grey hair with ease never seeing a problem with it until one night a young mean woman words come crashing into her head.

“One man's loss is another man's gain”.

ofc:Lucie Bradshaw-Seresin, other oc: Leo Bradshaw-Seresin,

pretend goose was born in 59 and the b4 he met carole he had a kid in 77 and then met carole and had bradley in 80. Also there’s kid name in their bcus Lucie has a son from her previous marriage and his name is hyphenated just like his mother. idc idc reader is an admiral while jakes still a lieutenant idk how idky. There’s five admiral’s instead of four.

AN: plz i don’t why the title is that don’t ask me, im dealing with insomia rn. I was gonna do B.Bx Reader. But decided against it. an old draft that took forever to finish. Should I make this into a small series?

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“Awe, I think its nice your younger brother is here with you celebrating your 54th birthday”, the younger waitress drops the cake down infront of her.“Give him my number please”. (sn: waitress purposely switched the bday # around)

Lucie was beyond tired— not because she had get up for work the next morning, but because she’s sick and tired of being mistakened for her husbands sister. Jake Seresin is a blonde man, while Lucie Bradshaw-Seresin still had streaks of her brunette hair left. She couldn’t help but think about what that waitress said a couple of nights ago.

Look normally comments don’t bother her, being a mother and a woman in the navy she’s built a pretty thick shield around herself, Lucie always throws a fake smile on her face and pushes it to the back of her mind. But she’s cant help but realize the wrinkles that have made her face their new home or how her bones cracked when she went on her morning and evening run.

She’s getting old— what’s new?, You can only handle being mistakened as your husband’s sister for so long before your self-confidence sinks into hell. Lucie Seresin is always been known for impulsiveness, she’s proved it too many times to count. There’s a reason why the navy calls her Falcon.

An example is allowing that jackass to walk all over her.

She was standing infront of the bathroom mirror alongside her was a box of brown hair dye on the counter. While Lucie there she spends sometimes looking at herself, picking and prodding at her sagging skin.

Surprisingly. Only because she’s afraid of what Jake will think if her hair is re-dyed.

No matter how many times she dyes her hair, she still be old. “Hey Jake where’s your old lady at?”.

Lucie talked him up. She recognized that cologne from anywhere, Lucie straightens up and throws a fake smile on her face and greets her husband.“Hello Lieutenant Commander?”.

“I hate that dumb fuck so much”. Jake says, he has one hand on his hip and the other hand is carding through Lucie’s hair. “I swear Lucie the next time him and I—”.

Lucie could see Jake visibly stiffen, she could feel his confusion.“My Love is there is a box of hair dye behind you?”

“Mr. I See All”.

Shit…that— Lucie herself stiffens at the mention of the hair dye, suddenly finds herself combing through various insecurities in her head. Was she right— did Jake also hate her grey hair?, did he want her to keep the grey?

“Options”, Lucie lies with a smile on her face.“Just wanted to have just in case”.

Her husband green eyes zeroed in on her, but luckily he drops it.“okay darlin”. Maybe she should dye it, Jake doesn’t deserve someone like her on his arm.

“I know my opinion wasn’t asked for, but I love your grey hair”. You gotta be fucking kidding me. Wait a minute—

“Really?”

“Of course, darlin—how could I not?”

Thank god, that means Lucie doesn’t have use her hair dye— also means that she just wasted 15 dollars.

“Wow”, she doesn’t mean for that slip— but then again maybe this conversation is something they need have. She’s getting it over with.

“What Lucie?”Jake so gentle with her— he’s not getting angry by the minute. Lucie bites her lower lips in attempts to calm herself down. Great…now shes crying.

“Sugar, I’m so sorry I made you doubt yourself”, She hates whenever his eyes get so damn puppy like. He’s used it so many times to get out of trouble with her. EX:Between me and you darlin I purposefully pushed to mach 10”.

“It’s….It’s not your fault—”, Lucie starts again, her ex-husband words echoing in her ear.“Ducky, Ducky—me and you both your not pretty anymore”.

Jake’s fingers are underneath her chin, her eyes are rimming with tears.“Yes it is— I should’ve made sure my wife knew how much I was in love with her”. His arms wrapped around her waist— his fingers interlocked together. Never letting her go.

“I looked so much better in my prime Jake— I looked so good twenty years ago”. Lucie spits out her mouth-as if she just tasted something distasteful.

“Blasphemy” Jake’s shaking his head, and pulls from Lucie him— having the need to make sure his hardheaded wife listens to him.

“Jake—”. A strong hands strokes her face, dissuading Lucie from saying more hurtful words.

“Lucie, Lucie—darlin I know you outrank me by alot but listen to me right now”. He standing infront of her with a slight frown on his face. “I love every physical & emotional trait about you from your grey hair to the stretch marks from carrying our son to how you switch between Lucie to Admiral Seresin or how you always smile when you see a bird in the air”.

God her husband could’ve been a poet. She practically throws herself into Jake arms— clinging onto him for dear life. “You mean that Jake?”.

“Of course I mean that darlin, I’ll love you till the day I die”. She hates when Jake pulls her out of his arms again. “Darlin the dye must go”.

He walks over to the bathroom counter—“Would you like to do the honors Lucie?”

“Sure Lieutenant”, She replied with a small smile on her face, Lucie picked up the hair dye box and without hesitation threw it away.

“Need make sure you understand how much I love you twenty years later”, Jake stands behind her.

“Come show me Seresin”, he has his hands tightly wrapped around waist.

“I will Seresin”.

#top gun #top gun maverick #jake seresin #jake seresin x reader

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munamania · 3 months

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so right a couple of my film friends and i met last night to do wine and glee and i left and tried to catch a bus in our gross rainy cold weather and so when it finally comes im just like zoo wee mama my glasses r fogging up and all that shit. but who of course is on the bus but my one friend the main perpetrator of acting like im some flaky cunt (rant city below)

so i guess technically this wouldnt look great on my part bc i was obviously Somewhere and had been ignoring the group chat making plans but oh my GOD whatever who careessssss who Cares. so im like fucking phenomenal ok walk back Omg hi and she moves her shit so i can sit and i get settled and am like hey. and she asks what i was up to and ofc when i say anything bc this is fucking awkward shes just got this stupid smug little smile but i was just sitting there like bitch im not gonna sit here and act embarrassed for seeing my other friends so i was just like So are u guys doing x tn and shes like mhm yep are you coming and i was like well gee i dont know. sarcastic shrug. make conversation about the timing of the place for a second kinda jokin then awk silence

and so then because im a chill normal adult and am aware that shes about to go meet the group of friends and no matter what this interaction is going to be brought up and i had been planning on composing a levelheaded text but i just said Look im sorry that i ghosted you guys (and shes again smug smiling nodding next to me. girl.) i just honestly got tired of feeling like im being singled out and judged when i cant make it to something and she literally is just like Well im sorry you feel that way just u know we do try to come up w different days etc (if u like me are bad at reading between the lines this was a non apology and defense based on uh Nothing) and i was like right well ik last semester wasnt great it's just that sometimes i feel like im being shunned in the group chats when no one answers or reacts to anything i say and the other day when you said like. yk the 'could u commit' thing that felt really sort of condescending

and shes like again well im sorry u felt that way i was just trying to find another day that u could actually make it cause i wanted us all to be there so im not really sure how that came across as condescending but um yeah. and i, jackass that i am (<3) pulled out my phone and pointed and said Well u see we didnt have actual plans and in fact no one answered when i said anything abt it and yk things come up and so for me to have sent this whole nice thing and just get 'do you think youd be able to commit' in response felt a little bit needlessly mean (and i also tried to earnestly say at some point in all this that i genuinely do love and care for them and want to see them but yk this Sucks and was just bad timing)

THEN we somehow spin into her going Well i just had no idea this was even a thing until you brought it up just now i mean i wasnt even thinking abt it ive never really thought that of you etc and so then im sitting here feeling like im being gaslit in real time not to be dramatic and i felt very much like when i was in high school and people manipulated me bc i was a very easy target (its not that real but w/e) and so im like Ok be calm but dont just like let that slide cause girl be serious (prob should have but what ever) so i was like well you know i do apologize if i just couldnt tell your intent over text, but after you guys never answered me about hanging out and then the short responses like maybe u can kind of see where i felt like you were being rude (didnt say it quite that bluntly w/e)

and she pulls out the big card. the. well i just think youre being defensive. oh years and years of being the youngest and punished for um having feelings lmfao slammed me in my chest at that moment. and i calmly said Okay cool i think youre being defensive. and i lit missed my bus stop cause this driver was swerving so then i was just like Well you guys have fun maybe ill see you tonight bye. so. really feeling awesome abt the state of that. in all reality tho it's like i hung out w some friends and then went out to the gay bar w others and danced and etc and i can only imagine how much of a Thing this was for them so. if someone could win it'd be me right

(on another note at some point during this ride sams roommate requested to follow me back <3 which i had been pretending not to think abt for the last couple hours) anyway

this has been a post let me know if im being normalish

#abby talks

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feralthembo · 6 months

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I pity people with constant empathy like yeah im a cunt and i forget other people are human beings and not an elaborate simulation of the mind sometimes but god damnit im not pouring my heart out every time some jackass republican has a bad thing happen to them

#i have done this in the past trying to perform empathy to yalls standards and tbh i find it pathetic now.

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Ugh. You won't believe this. I'm sorry to bug you, but I just needed to vent.

I saw some idiot on twitter saying that when E met Priscilla he had an eleven year old girl living with him in Germany. They mentioned Scotty Moore said that in his book so I looked it up. What he said was at the time E met Cilla, he had an "even younger German girl" (his words) living in the house with his father and grandmother. Except...well, I can't find any proof of this; there’s no evidence nor mention of this girl (or how old she was) anywhere else in the book nor in any other books written about him. No proof he had anyone else like that living with him in Germany.

So I don’t think that claim is true. Where do people come up with this stuff anyway? How do you not get into an argument with these idiots? Because it's super annoying.

ugh, believe it or not, baby, im not surprised at all. but you could never bug me !!! 💖 sorry it took me so long to answer this, but rest assured i haven't calmed down about this any since you first sent it 😅

a couple notes‐ honestly, i'm inclined to believe scotty. NOT TWITTER to clarify lol.. eleven seems young for him even if you are looking to view e through the most unflattering light possible 😬 but it seems likely to me that he had another teenage girl maybe not uh. officially on the lease or anything but staying over most nights ! more than ONE even sounds plausible.. we all know that someone didn't like his bed cold.!

people who claim to hate elvis sure spend an awful lot of time reviling him on the internet, especially by regurgitating half-remembered anecdotal evidence without citing their sources. 🙄 on the other hand, it's also easy to fall into the trap of too-faithful elvis historian; by that i mean that the fact that so much of his life is documented sometimes makes us complacent in our belief that if it can't be verified by multiple primary sources that it must not have happened. but we can't always say, and getting too involved as if the historical accuracy of one particular proposed event is the end-all be-all of elvis fandom can get exhausting.!

i wouldn't be surprised to find out either way, that this was or wasn't true. but you're free to make up your own mind, and if it distresses you, then fwiw i think you Totally have a leg to stand on affirming it never happened, like you said !! ultimately, it doesn't have much bearing on right now- if you like elvis, this vague and nebulous criticism probably isn't the thing that'll make you stop liking elvis, and if you hate elvis, you're probably determined to keep doing that regardless.

regarding the twitdiots- while looking into this claim i found a lady on there who legitimately believed that agent elvis tells the true story of how e was experimented on and mind controlled into drug abuse by the government.. like she said That with her whooole chest. so i don't put much stock in public opinion over there 😂😂💀

i want to fight those people extremely often (they're not just on twitter, either- it seems to have died down a little praise GOD but especially in early days after the movie there was a wave of ppl on here who would put their elvis hate in the main tags. WHICH DROVE ME BATTY), but i come from the "don't feed the trolls" era of fandom. as much as id like to rip 'em a new one when they rehash the same two issues over and over and OVER again ad nauseum, i content myself with the fact that they're living a pathetic existence in which they actively choose to fill their life with something they dislike for... no discernable reason.?

no one who spends their time bringing up a dead celebrity at all opportunities just to bash them is actually open to a discussion. and i do think there is a discussion to be had- his life was certainly very troubled, and i think there are a lot of nuanced issues that benefit from being spoken about openly !!!

but i like to debate bc i like to WIN- so jackasses tend to be a waste of my time 😘

#ask #if anyone DOES decide to start fighting idiots tho tag team me !!!#ill pop in for a few rounds 👊💥#i try to just move on without paying it too much attention #and everyone on here is so lovely its a good distraction !!!#i dont think theres any harm in choosing to see the good in people #esp dead people im sorry #like either im right and elvis was a flawed but kind person (all i get is bragging rights)#or im wrong and he was a dirtbag (all i get is . literally nothing)#when i die and meet him ill send yall word but i think we already know what the answer is 😘#but either way it doesnt have much objective bearing on my life..#as long as im deluding myself into writing fanfic anyway who cares right?? 🤪#like who cares if i choose to use him as a vessel to make myself happier #i DO truly believe he was a good person and i think weve p much reached the point where #no one but angie marchese herself could talk me out of that #🙃🙃🙃#NOTE THIS LOGIC DOES *NOT* APPLY TO PPL WHO MAKE FLOWER CROWN EDITS OF SERIAL KILLERS

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fictionkinfessions · 1 year

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Sometimes i feel so weirdly bad for my memories not following canon, but atst... im so glad that they dont.

Its a great show, dont get me wrong, but... it never felt right, a lot of it. Especially the end. I did love you, Kagome--but you were only 16. Why would you give up everything to live in the past? Your family, your friends, all the day dreamed lives you'd imagined up until you fell through the well? And for that matter, why did your mother let you? If we had been a bit older perhaps id understand but... God. It feels awful to say but im glad my Kagome didnt stay. Im glad she went home. I can't imagine living in the feudal era after only ever knowing the comfort and security of modern life being anything but absolute misery. I wouldn't have been able to give her kids, anyway.

Im also glad, and feel bad, for the fact that that means the events of yashahime never happened for me. No kids--at least not that soon, for neither me nor my brother. Which also means none of them had to deal with the Kirinmaru situation. I haven't watched the series in full, but i recognize him. I dont like that i recognize him, amongst the unfamiliarity of everything and everyone else in that show. Very... pit-at-the-bottom-of-my-stomach feeling, haha. At least i know that my brother and I were on... Genuinely good terms whenever that happened. Nice bedhead by the way, jackass.

And then of course theres Koga. I still dont remember a lot about him, besides a few... Steamy things. Which is kind of disconcerting when i cant remember confidently if he still married Ayame or not, or if something happened to her. Either way, it was an interesting relationship. At least until the politics got involved.

I dont even know what im talking about, i think i just need to ramble since i dont really go into kin spaces anymore, besides this blog. Got no one to ramble to anymore--nevermind sourcemates. Theres more than a few problematic things about my canon that i dont think a lot of people would like; stuff i haven't mentioned. Thats gonna stay in anonymous fanfiction for now lmao.

Point is--i hope everyones ok. I miss you all a lot. I hope you're happy and safe, wherever you are now.

-- Inuyasha

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#fictionkinfessions #fictionkin #inuyashakin #genshinimpactkin #memories issue #canoning issue #shipping issue #anty ship #?#mod party cat

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dufrau · 1 year

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💎why is writing important to you?

🧿what steps do you take to not take things personally if a fic doesn't do well, or if your writing/posting/sharing experience isn't going how you'd like it to?

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

💎why is writing important to you?

I mean it's a creative outlet, of course. And I am a person who needs one. I went to school for fine arts (painting and print making) and that was fun but I never had any real drive to do it specifically, i was just good (for a teenager) at it and I liked doing *something* creative. Its also sort of a focal point for my indecisive energy. I have not-very-good time management and executive function skills. Sometimes "Open up a word doc and write a fucking paragraph, jackass!" is enough to switch me into productivity.

Besides that, I just feel kind of good at it? and I find it satisfying to "succeed" at it. And it surprised me to be kind of good at it, and it still surprises me and excites me. Also it feels good to be on the creating side of a fandom after spending like two decades entirely on the consuming side. Like giving back to the ecosystem or something lol.

🧿what steps do you take to not take things personally if a fic doesn't do well, or if your writing/posting/sharing experience isn't going how you'd like it to?

Oh god this is such a hard question!

Im gonna be completely honest there is like a 24-48 hour period after I post something new where I am only functioning as like half a human being because my mind is on How Is This Fic Doing. Usually when I post something I convince myself it is Bad Actually and people will hate it, and I'm just refreshing and refreshing waiting for somebody to tell me they didn't hate it.

Im lucky because i generally get a good amount of engagement on the things I write, so Ive never had anything flop and like destroy my morale. But some things do better than others, and the thing I usually tell myself if something doesnt hit the way I maybe hoped it would is, like, hey, the people who liked it liked it! And probably some other people liked it too and just didnt have the energy to comment. (i personally find commenting on fics really stressful and hard, i try to do it often because i know how good it feels to get a comment but i totally understand that sometimes it feels hard to do!) And also, like, nobody owes me anything! I volunteered for this, any feedback I get is a bonus!

But like, sometimes something that I wrote quickly, or didn't put too much thought into or whatever will do dramatically better than something that was like Very Important To Me in whatever way, and that drives me a little crazy, even when I can see why that's probably the case and even though I'm not upset that the lesser thing is being enjoyed, im just like... i wish you liked the other thing better 😂

I dont know if this actually answered the question! Basically I am as insecure about this stuff as anybody else on here, probably more than many.

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

Giving myself two compliments in one day is a lot. Um. Okay. I think something I'm good at is establishing the more complicated feelings underneath the "we're in love and haven't realized it yet" part. The different amounts and ways they know each other in each story, the ways they like each other and the ways they frustrate each other. I think I give a good foundation for the inevitable romance.

Thank youuuu!!! ❤️️❤️️❤️️

(asks from this post)

#asks #writing

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xamaxenta · 1 year

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God clients really do suck ass around the holidays, I’m not looking forward to my Christmas Eve shift 😖 sometimes I want to tell them I don’t even celebrate this holiday and to please leave me alone,,, gh

fingers crossed your day gets better man

😔 yeah im right there with you, i like the aesthetic of winter holidays bc pretty lights, tasty smells, cold weather

But thats it i celebrate nothing at all, and i always got so stressed having to think abt gifts for people who Also dont celebrate like bhfhbfx i need the money more than u need this gift!!! You get… nice enough branded chocolate forever now — so you leave me be lmao (tbh i think if youre adults, you dont celebrate and youre expectant of gifts bruh… like ofc gifts are always nice!! But yknow my two cents)

I just say “have a nice end of year” now LMAO it always catches ppl off guard like wait what, but yeah just dont be a dunce dont be … a jackass if you will

I understand youre stressed abt making this holiday good for your children and stuff but do not take it out on people who are trying to do their job

Which is unfortunately helping you

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pesterloglog · 4 months

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Jade Harley, Dave Strider

Act 6, page 6383-6387

JADE: her imperious condescension has duly noted your ridiculous tantrum

JADE: now take your welsh sword

DAVE: why

JADE: since you have obviously been identified as the one who must deal english his fatal blow we will need to make sure you are battle ready

JADE: and you do not seem very battle ready to me dave

JADE: show me what you can do

DAVE: wait since when could you use a sword

DAVE: also

DAVE: whats up with that dumb sword

JADE: i will not hear another word of such appalling slander about this fine weapon

JADE: its colorful and its silly and its a sword

JADE: end of story

JADE: as for why i can wield it, i surpassed the need for a strife specibus quite some time ago

DAVE: how

JADE: havent you climbed any more god tiers over the last few years?

JADE: what were you even doing on that meteor

DAVE: ohh

DAVE: yeah no

DAVE: i climbed a few yeah

JADE: what badges do you have on your kiddie camper handysash?

DAVE: which ones do you have

JADE: i asked you first

DAVE: show me your badges and you can see mine

DAVE: i want to scope out this universal specibus badge that sounds pretty cool actually

JADE: dave

JADE: we both know neither the kiddie camper handysash nor the badges sewn onto it are real objects

DAVE: oh yeah

DAVE: its pretty easy to forget sometimes tho

JADE: yeah...

DAVE: i think were getting sidetracked by the kiddie camper shit

DAVE: are you really suggesting that we do an actual sword fight right now

DAVE: like for training purposes

JADE: why not?

JADE: our empress can hardly have a knight with such rusty combat skills in her service

DAVE: will you cut it out with the evil jade baloney

DAVE: im not going to fight you

DAVE: my rooftop dueling days are OVER

JADE: en garde!

DAVE: ugh

DAVE: even if we just went balls out jackass BANANAS with our swords here i mean realistically how much appreciable advancement in my battle skills would even result from that

DAVE: are you actually thinking this through or just going through the vaguely nefarious motions that come with the territory of being evildog!jade

JADE: im gonna go through the vaguely nefarious motions of kicking your ass in a minute if you dont put up your dukes!!!

DAVE: yeah you probably will

DAVE: youll probably annihilate me worse than my bro used to

DAVE: dont you have all of your dogs insane powers and like

DAVE: god tier space powers on top of all that

DAVE: how exactly am i supposed to compete with that

JADE: by using your time trickery!

JADE: come on dave do your timey thing

JADE: get creative, make lots of copies of yourself or something... outsmart me!

DAVE: no!

JADE: yes!!!

DAVE: ok here i go

JADE: !!!!!

DAVE: wait

DAVE: nah

JADE: grrr

JADE: dave, just try a little time travel to get this fight started

JADE: see look, one of your time doubles is surely predestined to come from a few minutes in the future and appear behind me for a surprise attack, riiiight about...

JADE: now!

JADE: ...

JADE: no wait

JADE: riiiiiiiiiight...

JADE: ...

JADE: NOW!

JADE: ....

JADE: .....

JADE: dave why is your future self being such a wet blanket

DAVE: i told you

DAVE: im not time traveling

DAVE: i think im giving it up for good actually

JADE: :\

DAVE: im serious

DAVE: the thing is

DAVE: being a time guy

DAVE: like actually MASTERING time travel

DAVE: im pretty sure what that involves is

DAVE: learning to never use it

DAVE: see its like karate

DAVE: well

DAVE: its more like what they SAY about karate

DAVE: that you learn it so you dont use it

DAVE: but i mean we all know the truth about karate is if you know karate then obviously in reality you use it all the time

DAVE: like doing lethal fuckin crane kicks and sweet karate chops while walking down the street just cause you can

DAVE: its a god damn no brainer thats what you do with karate

DAVE: but see with time travel

DAVE: all the stuff about learning it so you dont have to use it is true

DAVE: theres no good that can come of it

DAVE: you can crunch the logic on the loops all you want

DAVE: but all youre doing is painting yourself into a corner

DAVE: creating inevitabilities you have to rehearse and enact or face death for yourself or everyone you know

DAVE: and sometimes facing death is the very inevitability you have to rehearse

DAVE: and then you wait and wait knowing its coming and knowing it has to happen

DAVE: how do you think it made me feel when we were gathering up all those frogs

DAVE: and i knew the whole time in a little while you would have to watch me get shot

DAVE: but i couldnt say anything or it would mess it all up

DAVE: all cause i thought it would be cool to be marty mcfuckin fly

DAVE: but instead of shredding johnny b goode on guitar to get my parents to bang

DAVE: my crowning performance was doing a funny dance while getting pumped full of lead

JADE: ......

DAVE: then i had to leave everyone behind and get into the delorean and return to the 1980s

DAVE: but the delorean was actually a big purple moon

DAVE: and the 1980s was me accidentally reaching god tier and living on a shitty meteor for a while

DAVE: and i guess rose was doc brown

DAVE: doc brown accidentally reached god tier too

DAVE: ok i guess this is where the analogy falls apart but you get what i mean

JADE: sorry dave, you lost me there after the part where i shot you

DAVE: damn

DAVE: ok lemme start over

JADE: omg, no!

JADE: the fact is youre going to have to rely on those powers if you want to stand any chance against a lord of time

JADE: it is safe to expect he can only be challenged by someone with a similar command over the aspect

DAVE: why is that safe to expect

DAVE: where are all these presumptions coming from

DAVE: if you can use swords why dont you take the welsh cueball sword and fight him yourself

DAVE: i bet you could fuck him up

DAVE: youre probably even more extra strong now that youve succumbed to the bark side

DAVE: did you ever think about that

JADE: dave i am perfectly aware of the awesome powers granted to me by the bark side

JADE: it does not matter

JADE: i cant be the one to wield your sword against english

JADE: it has to be you

JADE: it is the will of the empress, and thats final

DAVE: the empress can suck it

DAVE: i have no intention of fighting him

DAVE: and this isnt even me pulling more lame self aware reluctant hero junk

DAVE: i am just straight up not going to do it

DAVE: see thats not reluctance its just petulant refusal on my part

DAVE: reluctant hero shit is when the guys like aw shucks i dunno if i wanna but deep down we all know he really does

DAVE: but i really dont

DAVE: why should i

DAVE: i dont give a damn about lord english or his nebulous atrocities out in nowherespace

DAVE: what kind of villain is someone you never met who hardly did anything evil to you or your friends directly

DAVE: or even to anyone in your universe for that matter other than through some vague insidious influence

DAVE: who even is this guy and why should i hate him

DAVE: am i really supposed to be pissed off at a green muscle monster i never met

DAVE: cause i aint pissed off at no muscle monster

DAVE: hell wasnt he in some ass backwards way responsible for us existing in the first place?

DAVE: or all of humanity for that matter??

DAVE: maybe i should thank him before chopping him up via welshscalibur

JADE: jeez you sure have some issues

JADE: honestly it has become very tiresome listening to this sort of thing

JADE: i thought davesprite had problems

JADE: his issues i could kind of understand

JADE: i thought you might be different, being the alpha dave and all

JADE: but no

JADE: you might be even more messed up inside than he was!

DAVE: what

DAVE: why are you dragging that guy into this

DAVE: what happened with you and him anyway

JADE: none of your business >:p

DAVE: it kind of is

DAVE: hes bird me

DAVE: that clearly means i have a right to know

JADE: that doesnt make any sense!

DAVE: you said he had issues

DAVE: what issues

JADE: augh!

JADE: forget i mentioned it

DAVE: was he talking shit about me the whole time or something

DAVE: i know he resents me for being the real dave

JADE: dont say that, you arent the real dave!

JADE: well you are, but phrasing it like that is so mean!

JADE: hes just as real as you, and when you imply he isnt you sound like a jerk!!!

DAVE: man i knew it

DAVE: i knew he was poisoning your view of me all those years

DAVE: and i wasnt there to say anything or defend against his slander so now of course you think im a neurotic douche

JADE: THE ONLY REASON I THINK YOURE A NEUROTIC DOUCHE IS BECAUSE YOURE ACTING LIKE ONE NOW!!!

DAVE: yeah but i only started acting like a neurotic douche like half way through this conversation

DAVE: you clearly had an axe to grind with me from the start and i want to know why

DAVE: what did i ever do to deserve this shit from you

JADE: YOU BROKE MY HEART!!!!!!

DAVE: what

DAVE: i did

DAVE: when

JADE: ok not you

JADE: davesprite did

JADE: BUT YOURE BASICALLY THE SAME GUY!

DAVE: whoa no way

DAVE: thats such an unfair characterization we are completely different dudes

JADE: you just said you had a right to know what happened between us because, and i quote, "hes bird me"

DAVE: no i know

DAVE: i was playing the "hes bird me" card because it was convenient to whatever it was i was saying at the time

DAVE: i forget what point i was making when i said that

JADE: *growl*

DAVE: but thats not the point im making now

DAVE: he and me are just

DAVE: crazy different yo

DAVE: hes got fuckin wings!!!

DAVE: he also presumably takes a dump and lays eggs out of the same ghostly hole

DAVE: ...

DAVE: ew man whyd i have to go there

JADE: *SNARL*

DAVE: ok if he broke up with you or whatever that was because of his dumb bird issues not my issues

DAVE: theres no way i would have done that to you

DAVE: my issues are totally different and probably way more serious

DAVE: i dont see anyone ordering him to master time travel or trying to pawn brittle welsh swords off on him do you

DAVE: nobody is telling him hes got to murder the incredible hulk

DAVE: did you tell him hes got to murder the incredible hulk jade

DAVE: no i think not

JADE: *sigh*

JADE: dave, i did my best to put all this behind me a long time ago

JADE: i did not come here to dredge up any of this drama with you

JADE: besides, such behavior is unbecoming of her condescensions loyal subordinates

JADE: you can be stubborn all you want, but i will force you to comply with her wishes one way or another

JADE: it will be quite easy actually

JADE: all i have to do is target the people you care about most

DAVE: hey

DAVE: what are you doing

DAVE: dont you dare touch the mayor

JADE: he is a very cute mayor

JADE: it therefore pains me to have to do this

DAVE: GET AWAY FROM HIM!

#homestuck #jade harley #dave strider #homestuck act 6 #page 6383 #page 6384 #page 6385 #page 6386 #page 6387 #homestuck act 6 act 6 #homestuck act 6 act 6 intermission 1

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mrstsung · 2 years

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The problem with mk anymore is they keep writing themselves into a corner and writing it as if it was the last game ever.

And sometimes thats not a good thing.

I doubt mk12 is gonna be good because you cant really move forward well without another retcon. And people are genuinely tired of that.

And they are appeasing to the crowd that doesn't even play the games or know the lore and knows how much nrs and to an extent boon as fucked up the whole thing.

And it saddens me that we had the greatest talents working with them in mk11. So its a waste to not have them come back. Which as crappy as mk12 i predict will be. At least we'd have them reprise the roles.

But i doubt that because they are legit getting rid of everything. And that makes me both angry and sad.

Because im sick of them retconning everything. And im sick of wb sticking its dc comic dick in everything.

MORTAL KOMBAT IS NOT INJUSTICE GAMES WITH VIOLENCE. ITS ITS OWN FUCKING GAME AND LORE AND HAS BEEN AROUND LONG BEFORE YOU FUCKERS EVEN WE'RE A THOUGHT! AND IM SICK OF NRS TREATING IT WITH DISRESPECT AND WB BEING THE JACKASS COMPANY WHO DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING OTHER THAN MONEY.

And im tired of people pretending its ok. When its not.

Mortal kombats story is so fucked up anymore the only thing good about it now is to beat up your friends over local or online and thats fucking sad.

The story is so bad. You can put it on mute and it would be more entertaining. The only thing good about mk11 was shang tsung. And tagawa coming back. But i doubt they are ballsy enough to do that again. Especially since well....you know. In the story. They kinda fucked shang over. At least on lius ending. And the only way to fix that is say both endings (shang and lius) are both canon. But i doubt that since they still wanna suck protag dick. (Sorry i love liu but yeah.)

Not to mention these crappy new movies. The only good ones are the animated ones. But even then they have their problems.

The live action one (2021) is god awful. And the sequel is more likely just as awful if not worse. Because again they are appeasing dc comicbook fans not mortal kombat fans. Which is fucking stupid. Because nobody wants to see those. So what makes you think sticking it in where it doesn't belong will work? WE DONT WANT SUPERHERO MOVIES ANYMORE YOU DUMBASSES! god wb is just as bad as marvel studios.

But thats for another rant.

This is not how a game especially a legend like mortal kombat should be.

Especially us fans who have been here. Played all the games. And now we are being treated like jokes. Especially from what was built up in 9. Which isn't a great game but they had and idea. I was cool with it. Then they threw it in the toilet.

Which isn't surprising since legit i feel like they dont wanna do half the shit they did in mk11. And not to mention the amount of hours put into the game. And even then its not complete.

Again mk12 im just gonna watch streaming of. Until im 100000000000% sure that i wanna buy it. Because mk11 is gonna be my last mortal kombat game if its shitty.

Which not to be a downer but again realistically i doubt mk12 is gonna be good. Because what more can you do to actually fix the shithole you wrote yourselves into?! Like the only way is to make both endings canon. Because otherwise you're not gonna have many fans be happy you legit killed off a huge roster. Icons. And are now left with no offense. Mediocre characters with no good antagonists. One dimensional shitty dcu/mcu writing relying on "funny quips" instead of actual personality development. Tropes(bad ones) instead of something worth getting invested in.

Like mk hasn't been the most kosher. Lemme be honest. But this could have been a chance to expand and explore already established lore and add i dunno ACTUAL FUCKING EASTERN CULTURES! and asian cinema references and not stupid American centralized/eurocentric bullshit. No offense but yeah. Im tired of fucking greek mythos being shoehorned into everything. Greek mythos aint that fucking special or great sorry to those that love it.

We have many other fucking mythos n cultures and if anything. Mortal kombat should be asian and eastern culturally centered. Period.

Im just sick and tired of the bullshit.

Im just disappointed more than anything. Mk11 could have been so much more. But nope. Corporate greed. Its a helluva drug for these dudes in NRS.

#mortal kombat #mk discourse #im sorry im just sad that mk12 is more likely gonna be a complete reboot and it makes me worry for the future of the game and its integrity #admin is sad #im calling it mk11 will be the last decent mk game #and even then mk11 isn't the greatest #its a better game than 9 but not as good as 10 but only better as in certain features thats it #in fact its a polished down version of what it could be #shang tsung and tagawa saved it broke his back and honestly i feel his talent is even then as much as i love him in the game is wasted #still love mk11 but its not above heavy fucking criticism as a fan

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friedbreadwombat · 2 years

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To die means to have lived.

And also my teachers that have literally grilled me to near death for my genius intellect bullshit ability to get grades and As for their school rep,

Over the fact that I looked like the very epitomy of "please take this child to therapy they are not okay and are very young"

They would rather I die and bleed, than not get the As for them.

The manipulation is obvious. Enough said. I don't need to explain as if my recount is simply an opinion with no value. Even so, my recount has more value than anything you could offer, and you know that. Otherwise, you wouldnt need me this badly. You wouldnt break knees for my goods. Even though you said outright that you didnt need me.

So why don't you leave me alone? Since you clearly dont care, which I refused to believe, because I actually fucking cared about you. Your opinion had reached me, but it held nothing and meant nothing, because it was genuinely valueless, and you know it, too. I had struggled to comprehend what you had meant. But I could find no answers. Or, literally anything.

Because there was no question to begin with.

So why is your entire staff body so hung up on a little minor teenager that wont just do your shit for you?

Imagine adults bullying children. I dont need to do that. Both contextuals.

I could really name drop each and every one of them right here. I remembered everything, jackasses. And all the people that did similar things, who weren't teachers, sure, but it doesnt look like theyre turning out to be great people. They will prove themselves anyway, if it is so certain that they are in any way great. And they're all scared of a nice child, like said child is nothing but a fucking murderer. I did not butcher your self esteems. You did that yourself. You couldnt handle one (1) literal child, and threw a collective, hissy fit about it.

And it really hurt. Because in spite of all that, this child really did care about you all, because maybe, this child didnt know love much. Maybe this child tried to learn it by maybe knowing you.

Maybe you failed this child completely and utterly. Not because you were obliged to do shit, I didnt care if you didnt care about me, but because you failed the bare minimum of being a respectful human being and dove straight into the negative-range, what kind of adults bully children like whatever happened back there?

I could detail every little thing and you will never not deflect it. I assume this makes you angry? Like it always does? What is making you angry? Please tell me then. Try me. I literally, dare you. I have nothing to truly hide, nor anything to truly lose. I am a human. This is the game of life. And you clearly don't know it. Because all of you were too weak, and none of you were capable enough, to face it, On your own. I may have said it once, or not, but I'll say it again. Here.

Nobody can live your life or do your battles for you. You do that yourself. Sometimes there are people beside you, all of various histories entangled with yours. Sometimes they help you. But they can only help you.

People can only help you. They cannot do it for you. This means, that by expecting everybody else to do it for you, that you yourself,

Have done absolutely nothing. Hm. And you say thats about how much Ive done over those couple of years.

Quite the irony, don't you agree?

Otherwise prove me wrong.

But I dont need your answer or not, to know that you can't.

You've shown enough of yourself before for me to pass this judgement. You give yourself more credit than necessary.

Indeed, you're just an exam center to me. Im just going into this, just like any other kid my age would enroll in a school. It is a part of growing up, and it taught me how to cement my change into the most hard to change minds. You absolute fucking mormons.

May god bless you because you will need it. Why? Why not.

Sueing me changes nothing, btw. Every normal fucking person knows, that doing that, is absolutely fucking bonkers, in the stupid way. And you dont even dare push that in the first place, you coward.

I deserve a place in this world. Maybe I am an asshole that deserves to die, even though none of you had the audacity to say this to my face, me, the worst being in existence, in your area like its blackpink babeyy. But you do not have to be an asshole like me, to be capable of being wrong, on more than one occassion.

And maybe, just maybe, you are an asshole too.

Let's both be assholes, together, shitting in harmony. No hand in unloveable hand, I dont like touching people.

Also short psa being a frequent sex haver or relationship haver doesnt mean getting bitches for real, if you still speak, talk, walk, exist in the form of an incel.

I know you all stared when I was in my prom dress. Nobody had the choice to look away, because nobody did, quite literally. Very surreal experience. I don't really recommend, I don't value the opinions for very obvious reasons. I know you liked all the art you saw on my notes, gory and barely finished honestly as most of them were. I possessed enough talent to make yall insecure, I get it. I dont like drawing. I killed you all with what little of what I am capable of that I showed.

This is the epitome of "Hounding people or even asking them about what, pubic hair yes no, doesnt make them like you romantically or otherwise, Louis. I also dont recognise that kink anywhere, never seen it, in Japan or outside of Japan, you weeb. Doxxing someone doesn't, either. Go back to 4chan, we don't like you. Trust me. They will kill you out there. Actually I was just kidding. Im gonna go crawl back in my hidey hole, and red headphones (ayy?) go explore the rest of tumblr, and do talk to at least 8 villagers, to progress to the next area. I know you're a gamer boy, amigo, you can do this, you got this."

Just go live your life and stop hurting people. Oh wait, none of you will do that. Perish then.

♡ not really ♡ go die ♡ or Call the local suicide hotline if youre really gonna go die

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ravenwolfie97 · 4 years

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god my parents can be real stupid sometimes

#they let in the california wildfire smoke and just. let it keep coming in #all windows and doors open #and im like wtf why didn’t you immediately close everything as soon as you could smell it #and they’re like it’s already everywhere and if we close everything now it’ll get stuffy and boiling hot in here #boo fucking hoo i’d rather sweat a little than Breathe In Fucking Smoke.#if they get sick from this i wholly blame them #i gotta wear a goddamn mask in my own house #also did they forget we have an air purifier? that they had wanted to get me when i was on my own to deal with local smoke air?#turn that fucker up!#my room smells like a safe haven compared to the living room #oh my god mom said i should open my door to get rid of the stuffiness and i was like Fuck That? i don’t want your nasty ass air in my room #and my dad was just so flagrantly passive aggressive when i dared to suggest closing the house up like ‘’well then #i guess You’ve got everything figured out huh’’#and inside im just like what the fuck??? you really thought keeping the house pumping full of smoke was a good idea?#outside i just said ‘’...Okay’’#like fucking hell i guess i can’t have a fucking opinion or an explanation for why you thought this was a good idea #he gave me one a little later but like. Dude. you could have said so instead of being a jackass about it #they weren’t even wearing their masks they just breathed that shit in all night #fucking idiots sometimes #ugh

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peanut-butter-parkerxx · 2 years

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Sunset till Sunrise

Requested

pairing: JJ Maybank x shy!reader

status: friendss

disclaimer: jumpscares, slight drowning, language, NOT PROOF READ

A.N: SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT. hope you guys enjoy this one :) ALSO this fic will be edited soon!

II REQUEST FORM II NAVIGATION ||

it was a pretty normal monday; i cleaned my room, did some laundry, and now im finishing up my english homework. i was solely focused on the worksheet infront of me, my headphones blaring all types of music to cheer me up, coz school can sometimes get pretty depressing, when i heard a soft thud. i turned around to see someone at mid-lunge trying to rip my heart alive.

"AHH" i shrieked so loudly the attacker took a huge step away from me, covering their ears, and immediately hit their head on the shelf of the opposite wall muttering a hurt "ow". at this point my headphones were thrown away from how fast i flinched.

the room was dead silent, only my rapid breaths and faint music was heard. quickly, i started searching for a weapon when i came across my blue pen. i opened it and swiftly turned around positioning my pen to the intruder.

"damn, y/n. didn't know you could scream that lou- HEY!" before he could say anything else the pen was already thrown at him. it took me a second to process that his voice belonged to my best friend.

"JJ?!?"

"fuck, YES ITS ME." he rasped, one hand on his head while the other one was on his left eye brow.

. . .

i didn't expect my afternoon would be nursing my best friend who i unintentionally hit in the eye and head.

"ah ah o-ow, y/n/n. ow ow" JJ hissed carefully taking my hand, that was gently dabbing alcohol away from the infected wound. the jackass did scare the shit out of me but i felt extremely bad for what happened; i obviously didn't mean for him to hit his head.

"stop swatting my hand away! i have to clean it before it gets infected, dumbass" i spoke with a hint of edge in my voice.

"relax, y/n. nothing happened its just a little scratch" he smiled reassuringly, immediately picking up on my level of of distress. i sighed deeply and checked it once more.

"something worse could've happed, J. you know how dangerous head injuries are? you could've had a concussion for god's sake!" i said, my voice going a few pitches higher - a sign that im gravely concerned, and of course he noticed.

"hey-" JJ turned around so he could face me. he placed a hand on the bed we were sitting on for support, and the other on my shoulder rubbing small circles for comfort. "im okay" he tilted his head, smiling. making my stomach drop and heart flutter. it was no secret i had a crush on the infamous JJ Maybank. i mean how could i not?

he was kind, sweet, and...fun. i can't remember a time i've laughed harder than i have with JJ. JJ and i've been friends since we were in diapers, it was only when he turned nine he moved to the outer banks. but our parents still kept in contact so we'd occasionally see eachother in spring breaks or summer. fast forward to many years later, my parents decided to move there. it's been a few months and im loving every single minute of it.

i've always thought JJ was cute. but i was a kid then, obviously, i didn't act on it. but now its all i've been thinking about it. i just wanna tell him how i feel but with the feelings, come shyness, and nervousness. i can't speak a single word without freaking out over the way he's looking at me. that's why i would randomly stutter or stumble with my words and i'd cringe everytime.

"y/n?" i snapped my head to his direction

"yeah?"

"what's your pretty little brain thinking about" he murmured, a refreshing shade of bright blue observing my every move. SEE WHAT I MEAN? HE'S GIVING ME THE EYES-

"uhh..the beach!"

"really?! wanna go?" he offered, his smile growing into a huge grin but it didn't quite reach his eyes yet. one thing you need to know about JJ is that he LOVES the beach, the ocean in general, to the point where i wished he'd think about me as many times as he'd think about surfing. the beach was like his other half, and it was incredibly satisfying to see him light up from the mention of the place.

"yeah, i'd love that." as long as i get to spend time with you. and there it was. he smiled like crazy, eyes and all, and dragged me to the window.

"LET'S GO-"

"WAIT-" i spoke and the boy immediately stopped, he gave me a quizzical look before scanning my face to see any discomfort."y-your head." i subconsciously stepped forward and rubbed the small band aid "are you sure you feel okay? no dizziness or anything?" i asked, concerned. JJ groaned in irritation but i could tell he was joking, coz his stupid smile couldn't leave his beautiful face.

"i told you already, y/n, i'm fine. now let's go!"

"you know girls say fine when they're not fine, right?"

"what?" and just like that his face was like a troubled puppy.

. . .

third POV

y/n and JJ managed to arrive at the beach in record time. it was all JJ's fault because he 'didn't wanna miss the sunset' but the sun wouldn't set till a few more hours.

"C'mon, y/n?" JJ flung his t-shirt in the air and dashed to the glimmering water. y/n couldn't help but smile from the contagious excitement that radiated off of him and quickly stripped her clothes off as well. she wore a simple white one piece that made her tanned skin - from the burning hot sun - look absolutely stunning. putting her hair in a messy bun, she caught up to her best friend- he wasn't there.

"where the fu-?"

"Y/N!!" y/n turned to her right to see him standing on the deck ready to jump. she smiled at the idea but then it struck her.

"JJ WAIT-" it was too late, he already jumped in the water with a huge splash that would've made her grin everytime but not today. she quickly ran to the deck and jumped as well. rising from the salty water that should've stung her eyes, but the benefits of living in the outer banks was going to the beach everyday, so the ocean water felt normal to her, she gasped for air while searching for her friend. "JJ!"

she felt like something brushed past her but she ignored it, her mind fully occupied on the one and only. until she felt arms wrap around her legs. her stomach churned. im fucking dying.

but before she could kick whatever was beside her she rose up. turns out JJ swam underneath her to carry her by his shoulders.

"JJ!!" she sighed in relief. "what is up with you and scaring me today?" y/n made sure to not swat his head but his shoulders instead. JJ definitely noticed, his cheeks were hurting from how hard he was beaming. he always loved how caring she was with him, he doesn't know why but he damn well knew that he always wanted to be on her mind and vice versa. sure he has the pogues but it was different with y/n. yes, he loves hanging out with them, they're practically his family. but he would always cherish the conversation him and y/n would have together. silly or not, he loves them. he feels safe talking to her about...things. he never felt like the conversation went deeper than he felt comfortable with coz it was never the case.

"why were you panicking before you jumped?" he asked, tilting his head up to see her face.

"coz you're acting as if you haven't hit your head 15 minutes prior!" she said with her arms flung in the air for dramatic effect. JJ had enough and threw her to the water eliciting a scream from the poor girl. she rose from the water for the second time in 5 minutes gasping for oxygen to relieve her tired lungs. but from the shock of the unexpected jump and the little waves made it hard for her to breath. JJ swiftly carried her, wrapping her legs around the middle, and swam to a more calmer area. '

"are you okay?" JJ asked, concerned, but he kept giggling like a child.

"no! i was gonna die and you're laughing!" she whined, a smile plastered on her lips, huffing annoyed.

"i can't help it! you look cute with your hair clinging to your face" he giggled again making sure to tilt his head up to give her a teasing wink as well. y/n thanked the lord above that the boy couldn't see her because she was F L U S H E D. a couple minutes went by and they reached the shallow waters. JJ gently lifted her off his shoulders and made sure that she could stand. y/n thanked him before hurriedly taking his arm to sit down where the ocean and creamy sand meet. slightly moving forward to feel the warm water surround her body. JJ quickly followed, opening his chest as he placed his hands behind him. from how close they were sitting, y/n felt his warmth radiating off his body. both teenagers sighed in pure bliss, admiring gods work infront of them.

the swarm of pale orange, red and a tint of pink was blessing the sky with their presence. the sun was on the verge of setting, the ocean waves became lighter, faded ripples of water were heard as tiny droplets of water splashed both of their faces every once in a while. birds and seagulls were going back to their families.

the scene before them was the calmest they've ever seen, the pair were admiring the beautiful painting in the sky.

"its...breath-taking, right?" JJ stated, flicking his eyes between y/n and the sky.

"yeah..." she replied, solely looking at the boy beside her. his silky smooth blonde hair was drenched in water making tiny strands fell onto his forehead, she could see the suns reflection from his shiny blue eyes. he was breath-taking.

JJ was over the fucking moon. he felt a sense of pride knowing that the girl he fell hard for subconsciously called him breath-taking. y/n turned her face to the other side so she wouldn't have to see what his reaction was, the boy found her shyness rather adorable once she realized what she implied.

"i- uhm" y/n felt herself getting hot. what the hell, y/n? she tried to explain herself because who calls their guy best friend breath-taking? but she couldn't mutter even a word. "i meant- uh you are- the sky is-" she fumbled, resting her forehead on his shoulder as a sign of giving up.the both of them were snickering for entirely different reasons. one wanted to die right on the spot, while the other wanted to scream from the top of his lungs out of pure joy that was overflowing him.

"y/n?" JJ whispered. the girl lifted her head off his shoulder to meet his eyes.

"yes?" she replied, almost sounding out of breath from how quiet she was whispering. he looked away for a second before asking,

"what did you mean when girls lie about their feelings?" he tipped his head, eyes suddenly hardening.

"uhm" y/n didn't expect this sort of tone from him now, he looked and sounded serious. "well, it different with ever girl, but occasionally we feel like a burden by showing or expressing our real feelings. whether we're hurt, or sad, or angry," she exhaled deeply, closing her eyes in concentration to find the right words. "sometimes, its easier to pretend you're fine then telling someone what you're actually...feeling." y/n finally looked up to see his sun-kissed face. he looked sad.

"d-did that ever happen to you?" this was definitely serious JJ asking, no more jokes or playful giggle now. he was fully giving her his attention. "to us?" y/n's heartbeat quickened

"what?" y/n couldn't think of a time she never wanted to vent to her long life best friend. he was her everything. her rock, her emotional support - as she is his - her friend, her...JJ "never-" but he wasn't hers hers. to hold hands all day without feeling a small piece missing to fit their puzzle of a relationship, to kiss, to cuddle, to sleep with, to wake up to..

"y/n" the boy guided her face to meet his for the 394th time today. "talk to me" his voice was soft, gentle, with a hint of hurt and guilt. "you dont have to lie about your feelings with me, express them, talk, vent, hell, you can shout them if you wanted to! jus-" his hands balled to fists, lips tipping down, forming a pout. "just, dont hide it from me. ever." his looked determined, wholehearted, and genuine.

"JJ?" at this point, she wasn't talking, her self-conscious was. "can i kiss you?" she asked, with heated cheeks. his heart was drumming. fast. the long awaited question that was kept hidden was finally out. how is he supposed to react? all these months he'd though he'd ask her the question, and now he's on the other receiving end?

"...what?" JJ was flabbergasted, shocked, but nonetheless, fucking booming. no way...no fucking way "i- me? you? yes."

JJ wasted no time in connecting their lips. y/n's eyes widened in surprise. because one, agreeing with no doubt in his mind, and two, for pulling her in so quickly. eagerly. it took her a second to process what's happening before she closed her eyes and kissed him back, making him feel like fireworks erupted behind them, celebrating this special moment. his warm lips were moving slowly guiding hers in the most gentle way. y/n felt one of his hands tighten around her waist as the other traced up her body until it reached the side of her face. he stroked her cheek, jaw, chin with his thumb before tilting her head to deepen the kiss even more.

eventually, he pulled away. staring, gratefully, into her eyes.

"wow" he muttered, erupting a laugh from the bashful girl. a kiss turned into a series of kisses. the boy couldn't have enough of it, of her.

"suddenly, i really like kissing." y/n mumbled on his lips causing him to chuckle.

"California boys not kissin' ya right?" JJ asked making her chuckle.

"not quite" she exhaled before smashing their mouths again. y/n's lips were so soft and sweet like sugary caramel and honey. it drove him wild. the boy felt so addicted that his senses were going haywire, touching, feeling, listening to her every move. y/n inhaled sharply, the mixture of JJ's signature scent and the salty ocean breeze was heavenly.

but, as embarrassing as it sounds, she was unsure of what to do with her arms. she's never kissed anyone in the ocean before? and she certainly didn't kiss a boy for this long. all she was familiar with were simple pecks that lasted for 3 seconds, max. she felt like her arms felt out of place. do i rest them on his neck? play with his hair? shoulder? arms? should i just cross them? she saw how comfortable, and more importantly experienced, JJ wason these things. so she certainly did not want to embarrass her already humiliated ass for not knowing how to kiss! crossing my arms it is.

JJ for sure noticed because she felt the vibrations of his laughter. he pulled away, laughing. LAUGHING. oh god.

"i- is something wrong?" she asked, she felt hot again, humiliated, awkward, any word that would describe the feeling of digging a hole for a few years would work. JJ guided her arms and wrapped them around his cooled neck.

"better?" he looked down on her. sometime when they were kissing they've gotten extremely closer to the point where he was hovering above her. y/n ignored the rapid beating in her heart and acted calm,

"much" she looked between his beautiful eyes and flushed lips, kissing him again. she could get used to this feeling, this warm fuzzy feeling bubbling inside her stomach, this comfort. she could get used to JJ holding her waist tightly, massaging his big hands and curling them around her frame, she felt the tips of the mop of his blonde hair tickle her forehead and temple.

after a couple minutes, y/n pulled away but couldn't seem to stop admiring him. the glow he's emitting, the contagious smile he's radiating, it was all perfect. even though they've been the closest of friends, the bashfulness continues, suddenly, she felt like she couldn't look him in the eyes. she felt nervous to talk to him even when its clear he likes her back. she felt her heart beat quicken, her clammy palms pulsing, you can do this. she kept repeating to herself. but really, one quick look at the boy that captured her heart made the storm stop pouring, made the birds chirp happily, made the most beautiful rainbow, made her feel safe.

"can you stay? for the night?" she felt herself getting hot out of nerves would he think im moving too fast? but we always sleep at each others places? does this change everything? her thoughts immediately were interrupted by JJ shifting....getting closer to her. his smile looked eternal, and full of genuine love, but she knew it was wayy too late to admit the love she has - had for years - for him. JJ moved closer till their faces were almost touching, that 1 cm gap was full of dread and agony. he captured their lips to a warm, quick kiss. bumping their noses gently before saying,

"how can i say no to that face?"

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