#god everyone should know this song

[picspammer]

They got exits covered All the exits underground I wish I could figure it out But the world's upside down

#this song.... let me tell you #god everyone should know this song #exits #foals #foals band #exits foals #everything not saved will be lost part 1 #the video is so?? but it's amazing. it's like a trailer to a film #a good trailer #but i don't understand it so... #yannis philippakis #jack bevan #christa théret #isaac hempstead wright #albert moya

[honeyvenommusic]

❗️NEWGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSAN-

#glass animals #honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk i’m just huh???? #like….. when i say wore out #i cannot describe how much i listened to it #i usually have some vague idea even if it’s a ridiculous number #like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened) #i cannot recall w this #gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke #so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao #(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to déjà vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol) #anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. 🥹 i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night #driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldn’t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in #sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who???? #had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused #it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping i’d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song #then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky & #ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work #(i was right & it blew her miiind) #god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok #i’m sure people are v quick to say they’re overrated bc of that but idk & i’m glad i don’t know. they’ll always be this #highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift #a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didn’t & should have ended them #as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?) #a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever

[jacksprostate]

im making a playlist for psych ward/post psych ward narrator getting back on his bullshit again :)

here's a song going on it:

#different varieties of it #this song specifically To Me is the narrator got put on some meds with major side effects that nuked his memory and he vaguely knows Tyler #kind of fucked up his life but yk Tyler is so sorry :( and Tyler's the only one who visits him :( Tyler says they'll be just all good from #now on :) #(as long as he remembers whose wearing the trousers) #and before you think this is unlikely. well. obviously its a little joking but also I went on a medication that destroyed most of my memorie #s of. i think it was 2018? 2017? god #and I was on it for a week #so. 1. be very careful with any neurological medications everyone should treat them with more seriousness #2. if the narrator forgot Tyler isn't real and the memories most prominent in his mind where all those fun good times with Tyler... #Ripe Pickings #music

[quietwingsinthesky]

Hiiiii! So, a few days ago you were talking about the whole thing with Amy, Rory, and River. And when I saw those posts a thought arose in my head and I wish to share it with you.

Since River grew up with Amy and Rory as Mels. And Mels was Amy's best friend do you think that they ever talked about children? Since I know that it can come up when talking with friends, and like... do you think that Amy might've ever expressed whether or not she wanted children?

And if she didn't, that Mels would've had to listen to her mother say that she doesn't want children? The idea is so heartbreaking and sooo interesting.

What do you think about it?

no, no, see, you're so right and this drives me wild.

because, the way i see it, i don't think amy wanted children. she's somewhere on the 'hasn't thought about it' to 'vaguely negative feelings about it happening' range to me, which falls sharply into 'Not Happening Ever Again' post-s6. (specifically, in terms of having a kid herself, even if she could, i really don't think she would. i do love that she and rory end up adopting a kid later, because that does make sense, for amy pond who grew up alone in one universe with her family swallowed by cracks in time before the doctor helped her set it right again, for her to want to make sure another child won't be alone in the world like she was. getting off-track here.)

and that's so. because the first real memory river/mels has of amy is of amy shooting at her. and depending on how well the silence fucked up the rest of her memory, it might be one of the very first memories she has at all. that's how she met her mother, crying for help and getting a bullet instead. her mother tried to kill her, so of course, you have to think. she must have needed to hear that she was wanted, right? even if she was taken away, even if amy shot her, at some point, melody must have been wanted?

river is good at getting people to do what she wants, but she is very, very bad at subtlety. and mels is younger, has less practice, so when she wants to know this, she's just going to ask. blunt and quick, easy enough because amy's used to the way mels will open her mouth and you just have to be ready to roll with what comes out if you want to keep up. it's why they're such good friends (like mother, like daughter.)

they're nine, and mels asks if amy wants kids, and amy wrinkles up her nose and says she won't have time for children, obviously, once her raggedy doctor finally comes back. they're fifteen, and amy and rory dance will they-won't they in a way that makes mels twitchy to watch, and taunting amy about wanting to have rory's babies is a good way to get on her nerves. but amy calls her gross, tells her she's got more life planned than children would leave room for, and besides, imagine her, a mom? it'd be a disaster.

mels does. a lot. she looks at her mother and just sees her best friend instead. she's not even sure what she wishes was there, but. maybe amy's right. and besides. imagine her, a daughter, instead of the ticking time bomb she really is? it'd be a disaster.

they're sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, and on. mels stands on the outside of a love story that births a universe. and her. how do you compete with that? not that she would know, not yet, she hasn't been there. but it doesn't make her feel any less alienated when amy and rory talk in whispers about a half-remembered world that's bled through to this life, about roman soldiers and boxes and the big bang of belief.

all these memories, they never mention children. on amy's wedding day, she's different, not like someone remembering a dream but someone who lived it. rory stands straighter, won't leave her side, and they're both so much older than they were yesterday. maybe now, right? a wedding's as good a time as any to decide you want kids.

mels not being at amy & rory's wedding is such an obvious lazy way of them trying to explain why they totally didn't just throw this plot twist together at the last minute that i'm not even going to acknowledge it. of course she was at their wedding. she's their best friend. there's too many people around the doctor, and she wasn't ready today of all days, so despite this horrible burning need under her skin to strike, she stays her hand. doesn't let him dance with her because she might just tear his throat out if he gets too close. stays with amy and rory as the maid of honor should. she must have been there for the awkward questions that always gets asked, 'so, any plans for a baby?' 'when am i getting grandkids?' 'oh, you two are going to have gorgeous children together.' standing a few feet from amy in her wedding dress and watching her mother tense and grit her teeth and brush off the questions. watching her look nervously at rory but never ask if he means it when his mom asks him if he'd prefer a son or a daughter, and rory answers 'either one, some day, not anytime soon.'

god i'm just going on and on, aren't i. but really, what's it like to know that amy never changed her mind. the next time she sees them, she's already been born and stolen. i don't like let's kill hitler for. so many reasons. but there is something compelling about how recklessly river lashes out at the world, at the doctor. even her sacrifice at the end is almost suicidal, throwing all her regenerations into this man without knowing if that will even work or if it might kill her to do it. but it makes more sense in the context of someone who has reached the end of a long, long wait for some kind of indication, any kind, that her mother wanted to have her. and finally been told, no. she didn't choose melody.

#like. to be clear also: i don't think the fact that amy didn't want kids and really didn't have a choice in giving birth to river #means that she wouldn't love river. i think it would make their relationship Complicated but i do think amy loves her. so much. #that's her daughter but it's also her best friend. #but like. god. to spend your whole childhood hoping you'll hear about some little glimmer of yourself. #a dream. a passing mention. a debate on baby names. anything. and to hear nothing. #and river is. like. she is really really bad at relationships right? we know this. #the person she's closest to is the doctor and she spends most of her life believing *he doesn't even love her*. #we're talking about someone whose base assumption about everyone is that they will try to hurt her at some point so she should always keep #one hand armed. #and her mother. didn't choose to have her. didn't have that choice. that has to fuck her up a little. #(and also serve as proof that river is. so so bad at knowing when she is loved. because maybe amy didn't choose to have her but she named #melody pond after mels her best friend. she has been choosing river every day for the past however many years since mels decided to come #here and be near her mom and dad even if only as kids. but river still can't see it. #and. given the nature of how the ponds disappear from her life. and we never get any closure about them and river. #you have to wonder if she ever did. river song do you know your mother loves you? #having the melody-as-river reveal be so close to the end of the season and then getting rid of amy & rory before they can actually do #anything with the three of them as a messed up little family unit is the show's biggest crime. because i don't know! i don't know if river #knew her parents loved her! i don't know if she *ever* came to terms with how she was born and how they didn't need to choose her then to #choose her now! i don't know if river ever really felt comfortable thinking of them as her parents rather than her friends? #according to the transcripts. river calls amy 'mother' twice. (and 'mummy' once jokingly.) she calls rory 'father' once. and 'dad' in angel #in manhattan. and it just. it drives insane right? it's almost weirdly formal. like the words aren't right but she knows she should say the #and. and. i don't think i'm ever going to get over river song. #i think that's the takeaway here. #ask #doctor who #river song #amy pond #rory williams

[birdmenmanga]

using only song titles of one artist/band, cleverly answer the questions and then tag people (tagged by @udurghsigil)

I misread the prompt at first and I thought it was "use only artists and bands to answer these questions" but hmm... I think I will try Nuyuri/Nulut!!

what's your gender: Fragile | フラジール

how do you feel: It's Not the End | 終末じゃない

if you could go anywhere: Proto Disco | プロトディスコ

fave mode of transportation: Lonely Dance | ロンリーダンス

your best friend: Decadism | ディカディズム

favorite time of day: Shining Blue and Bluer | 青く青く光る

if your life was a tv show: It's Just Life | 命ばっかり

relationship status: Terminal | ターミナル

your fears: Panta Rhei | 万物流転

Tagging: @prettydykeboy, @radiashen, @vampiregokudera, and @yuudamari! and anyone who wants to do this!!

#tag game #SUCH a fascinating tag game I had to do it immediately. tysm for the tag! ! ! #I think balloon and nuyuri are probably the two artists I resonate with? like I listen to their songs and are like god I understand that #I've taken a shine to kashii moimi but like. I don't relate to it I just think it's neat you know #and balloon has a ton of songs that are just like. names. so I chose nuyuri... #Just so everyone knows. Nuyuri also did Lower One's Eyes but that didn't fit here anywhere #I also felt that I should only pick out of the ones I actually listen to regularly #debated between empty prayers and panta rhei for the last one... #panta rhei is worse right. it's definitely worse. Everything flows. Nothing ever stays the same. that's definitely worse than empty prayers #I know I know the birdmutuals are about to be like “Don't think of this as an unfortunate fate. You can beat down even fate.” #but consider. still scary

[squarebracketsmileyface]

A Pearl by Mitski is kinda post Jaylex into Jam territory if you think about it.

Hello? Mind reader?? You are so correct???

This is even better mind reading because of what I was writing like right before I remembered i had this ask and wanted to answer it and shit. Like???? This is very much post Jaylex and into Jam, BUT it is also post Jaylex the first time they "broke up" oh my god.

Hang on, I'll explain it with the lyrics lol

Lyric analysis time because for some reason this is like my favourite thing to do when I wanna think about sorry its locked but can't actually write it for whatever reason.

You're growing tired of me You love me so hard and I still can't sleep You're growing tired of me And all the things I don't talk about

SO ABOUT THAT POST JAYLEX'S FIRST 'BREAK UP' ehehhehehehehehheheh. Right, so, after Alex started dating Amy in college, Jay did (eventually) start trying to, like, date and have sex with other people. He never really managed to date anyone, it was always just not-quite-actually-casual casual sex. And they always ended up getting tired of Jay, because they were trying their best and he was hung up on Alex still (and would be for the next rest-of-his-life) And Jay never actually talked to them about why he was the way he way, just learned to warn them ahead of time to try and scare them away so that he wouldn't end up getting hurt when they inevitably got too upset with him over something and broke it off with him.

And, obviously. Yeah, Jam. Jay's so worried that the same thing that happened with Alex and all the other people is gonna happen with Tim, and if it did it'd probably break him even worse than Alex did, honestly. Purely because the stuff with Tim would stack on top of the stuff with Alex and they'd become one thing and Jay would just not know how to deal with that literally at all.

Sorry, I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry, I can't take your touch

Pre first Jaylex break up. Yeah. One of the reasons Jay got broken up with by at least one person was that they were meant to behaving casual sex, and Jay went through a period of time where he just, really really couldn't. Which like, fair, and fair i guess for the person being like, yeah i'll go find someone else to have sex with. but also they did it in a nasty way so never mind, fuck them lmao. (I just love putting Jay through shit lmao, I'm so sorry to that poor guy, I need to write a lil fluffy oneshot of him and Tim just being okay)

It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around every night Just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go

Ow. Just. Ow.

Cos, yeah, Jay did. He really, really did fall in love with a war didn't he? That whole relationship with Alex was just this constant series of battles with himself and his feelings for Alex, and battles with Alex himself because of how he treated Jay and how Jay wanted to be treated. And his brain can't fully comprehend that Tim's not going to just be the exact same as everyone else, the exact same as Alex. And the thing is that Tim IS going to be different, but they're not going to have enough time for Jay's head to actually wrap itself around that so that he can believe it.

And obviously, they never could get enough time, because of all the shit with the operator, but Tim at least is holding out hope that they'll both survive is and they'll get the time afterwards.

Sorry, I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry, I can't take your touch

Jay's so scared that having issues with intimacy is gonna fuck up his chances with Tim, but it wont. Logically he knows it wont (and I refuse to make them angsty enough that Jay wouldn't bother to say no if he didn't wanna do something) but there is still this little part of his head that says that if he goes too long not wanting to have sex, it'll somehow fuck something up.

There's a hole that you fill You fill, you fill

Also I fully intend for Jay to be very unhealthy about Tim :] Just like he was very unhealthy about Alex (especially back in college)

Poor guy's gonna fucking idolize Tim once he realizes Tim really really actually likes him. Which, y'know. Not good. Thankfully Jay's lil eventual obsession or whatever it is (idk, a hyperfixation on a person? that's what I called it. Basically, pretty much every waking thought Jay has is somehow about Tim/reminds him of Tim, if Tim is even slightly in a bad mood Jay assumes it's because of him and gets viciously terrified that Tim's going to leave him and hate him forever, he'd accept any kind of 'penance' or punishment from Tim for whatever he did wrong, if anything bad happens to Tim Jay get's violently enraged and wants to 'fix it' the quickest way possible, etc. He basically feels like Tim is perfect and he can't live without him. idk if that makes sense? I'm tired and never figured out what the fuck this thingy is, but i'm giving it to Jay)

Tim is Jay's missing piece, and Jay's going to hack at his own edges to make sure that Tim fits him, just like he did back in college to try and make Alex fit him.

He's just made up of pieces of himself and other people that he sawed off and cobbled together to make sure that the person he was in love with would perfectly 'complete' and 'fix' him.

But it's just that I fell in love with a war And nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around every night Just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Just to watch it glow

goddamnit now i wanna plan a fic to dive into Tim and Jay's relationship after sorry its locked and before Jay dies, just so I can make Jay not okay and Tim not okay, but their brand of not okay works well enough for the short amount of time they have together. If Jay lived they'd have the worlds messiest break up oh my god lmao.

why do i torture them like this?

#Also like oh my god i've been looking for this song for so fucking long because meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee lmao #honestly tho. this is such a perfect song for Jaylex as a whole. and the start of Jam #Mostly it's about Jay just being very unhealthy about all the people he falls in love with #he can't be fixed in the amount of time he has left. but if he lived and didn't end up running the fuck away from Tim i think he could heal #and still stay in a relationship with Tim. but itd be really hard and a LOT of work #they could do it. but also sorry its locked has everyone who dies in canon die in it. because i love the angst of: #“Jay dies in Alex's arms because he can't deny himself the chance to be held by Alex one last time” and: #Alex goes to Tim for help dying because he literally can't kill himself and he's so broken over having to kill Jay that he doesn't care #anymore. And he knows Tim has managed to live with the Operator sickness. so if anyone is left alive. yeah it should be Tim #That's too much words in the tags woops #marble hornets #marble hornets fanfic #alex kralie #tim wright #marble hornets fanfiction #jay merrick #jaylex #mh jam #MH sorry its locked

[chanyoungies]

김준서 (KIM JUN SEO) 1st Mini Album [ECHOES of love] 2022.11.20 6PM (KST)

#kim junseo #wei #ouiai #DEAR GOD it's 10AM as i draft we have 6 hours to go until i post but oh my god im finally done i thought id never finish dear GOD #this is far from the best thing ive ever done. but it was an interesting experience #nd definitely took some time (not the most tho . nothing can beat paula's birthday set when it comes to that) but also .... surprisingly #less than i thought ? like longer but also shorter .? u know ? #this made me go insane i kept forgetting about my food and i also kept working in silence half of the time bc i would forget to put smth on #eri if i decide to do a second one next year PLEASE tell me to start sooner like if i start brainstorming into ur ear in like may pls accept #i say 'if' as if i wasnt already working on song choices for next year lmao #i was really excited for this and i think that made me not rlly think as much as i should have i think i can do better next year . if i star #if i start early enough #ANYWAYS #happy junseo birth <3 my prince <3 or smth idk #pls dont perceive the mcd thumbnail from up close i beg u #boy who's so important . . a boy so fox . . . nation's model (2) pretty boy with pretty voice . . whatever im not gonna start rambling more #but he's very important n i hope he knows that he is & that he's so very loved & i hope that he's happy today and always . etc #nd i love him or whatever . whatever whatever no one look everyone close your eyes #*mine #special thanks to eri as always my bewoved who has been hearing me talk about this for the past like month thank u for putting up with me #(re:this and also in general i love u)

[hella1975]

you cant make edits to vampire empire by big thief bc the moment i hear that song i have to start singing it dancing to it acting it out throwing up clawing the walls etc. could be the best edit in the world sorry bossman im not watching that shit. im busy

#YOU TURN ME INSIDE OUT AND THEN YOU WANT THE OUTSIDE IN YOU SPIN ME ALL AROUND AND THEN YOU ASK ME NOT TO SPIN #everyone on tiktok are soooooo annoying about this song (unsurprising) #basically a summary of the 'drama' in regards to this song: big thief released it as a snippet MONTHS ago #and the snippet sounded very jaded and heartbroken and CRUCIALLY it had the lyric 'i walked into your dagger for the last time in a row' #to then be followed by the lyric 'it's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow' #and everyone was OBSESSED with it i was obsessed with it everyone was so buzzed about the release #and then MONTHS later like truly a taking the piss amount of time later they finally released the song... different to the teaser #like they changed the WAY it was sung to sound more angry and like a scorned lover and they also straight up changed the lyrics #in certain parts like it's now 'i walked into your dagger for the last time / it's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow' #and everyone was like??? that sounds jumpy anyway but now we all know the old lyrics it sounds SO odd to get rid of 'in a row' like that #like what was the need??? and i backed all of that bc it was frustrating and more than anything it was just really odd and unnecessary #but oh my god tiktok fucking CRUCIFIED the song for it. imo both versions of the song are great on their own #i actually prefer the angrier sound of the official release as well as preferring the original lyrics #but ive seen multiple tiktoks made where people are like THIS IS THE WORST SONG EVER HOW COULD THEY DO THIS?!?!?! #and it's like. you guys truly cannot have a middling opinion about anything. it HAS to be some sort of extreme #declan mckenna's bridge for british bombs was actually a tiktok prediction. if it's not a fucking outrage... #anyway i started ranting but this is still one of THEE songs of the summer for me and you should all listen to it asap #song rec

[skitskatdacat63]

this video makes me want to sob and throw up and scream and cry and collapse onto the floor

#actually like sobbing through it this is going to kill me genuinely #god ive not cried these kind of tears in a while LOL #i cry a lot but not whete it makes my chest hurt like this #everyone should watch Get Back. best docu ever made actually :) #but no theres smth about getting a beatles song in the year 2023 #like its not smth i ever imagined but now that it exists its like wow. its truly over. its a fucking solid conclusion and it hurts so badly #im going to rip up my pillow the emotional pain this is bringing me is actually heart wrenching #my one brother one time was like the Beatles are so mid and overrated and i wanted to leap up and strangle him across the table #THEYRE LIFE CHANGING OKAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #idk its just so much my childhood :/ #and this song is ripping my heart out </3 #and hearing them talk about this being the last beatles track ever. like yeah i KNOW but god fuck ouch #the way they talk about george and john im going to bang my head into a wall #mayne i shoulf rewatch get back and have a mental breakdown #i told my friend about that docu when it came out and hes like wow that sounds incredibly boring #how dare you how fucking dare you. 8 hours of content????? fucking...great #but no seriously to listen to this song released now and it sounds exactly like their original work. im gonna throw up i feel so ill #never recovering from this actually 😊 #catie.rambling.txt #Youtube

[bowerywilliam]

once again very glad this isn't the universe where taylor swift and harry styles are end game 🫶

#god they will always be obsessed with each other and i fucking love it #but imagine if they were still together and were this set on making it everyone's problem #and like i know these are songs from ten years ago or whatever but still!!!!!!! #i still think they should get back together. i think that would be funny

[cinnabeat]

i still cant get over how fucking incomprehensible filament fevers music is like theres five different songs happening there, theres several toaster dings (which i love) the tempo changes in THE MOST awkward places and yet it somehow all fits together and also sounds COMPLETELY like white noise when the lyrics are layered over it

#i dont even hear it anymore like as music its literally just background noise #im sure theres a rythym there #i used to be able to hear it but i cant anymore #when that fucking song came out and i was literally baffled by everyone going oh my god this is so good #like ARE YOU SURE?? #like i love the song now dont get me wrong but the singing COMPLETEY carries it for me #i wanna know what goes on in a persons head to make this #like what are they thinking when thwy compose something like this #someone in the comments was like i love electric swing or something and im like???? what fucking music are you listening to???? #like i swear i love filament fever but also that song is like. 80% noise and the singing is amazing enough that i dont even register it anym #anymore #before when i first started listening it couldnt come up on shuffle without me being immediately aware just cuz of how incomprehensible it i #is but now i can go through half the song before realizing what im listening to #thats what i call stockholm syndrome #in my list of fave wxs comms im sure this would be down there in the list #i should make one actually #brb #michi tag

[halfcarrotikemen]

So Spitz just released a new album and I can’t stop looping one particular song and I got the uncontrollable urge to write a cytham/haino fanfiction (omg it’s been years since the last time I wrote a fic)

Anyway if anyone wants to check it out:

#cytham #haino #genshin impact #alhaitham #cyno #fanfiction #also the song #the title is sabishikunakatta #IT’S SO CUTE I SWEAR TO GOD #I’ve been looping the song for days now #couldn’t sleep because of it #NOW I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW #okay goodnight #i should probably go to bed

[outeremissary]

📀💛🔮 for Balthazar, please!

From this prompt list!

📀 How easy is it to shock your OC? To confuse them? To lie to them, to manipulate them? How are they with feelings of trust? Can your OC be trusted?

This first one was answered here! Apparently something many want to know…

💛 In general, how in control of their emotions is your OC? Do they have a good hold on them or do their emotions control them, not the other way around? What do you think is the reason behind this and is your OC ever concerned about their lack of or good control?

Ooh, a difficult one. On the one hand, he’s a very practiced actor. He’s good at keeping a handle on what shows of his feelings- I suppose you’d say he has an excellent poker face. That’s a level of performance he can maintain for long periods as well (although not indefinitely). With that said! His feelings get the better of him in other ways- when he feels strongly about something, that can become a compulsion that’s impossible to resist. He’s prone to petty revenge, he throws out his own plans when his feelings about them change, and when he cares about something he doesn’t let it go. It would make him uneasy to acknowledge how readily he follows his heart rather than his head. Maybe it’s a flaw of pride (or perhaps its great virtue).

As for his feelings about it: it really varies. On the one hand, he's deeply ashamed of what he sees as a capacity for self-sabotage and weakness, but on the other, when it works out he feels terribly clever for having his cake and eating it too. Overall I think he doesn't like to think about it. Even when he has pride in staying true to his desires he'd rather think about it as being good at fulfilling ambition than being guided by emotion. He wants to imagine himself as a clever strategist before anything else. No one imagines that kind of person as overflowing with feelings.

🔮 Star gazing or cloud watching? Hand-holding or snuggles? Early mornings or late nights?

Cloud watching over star gazing. There’s more fascination to the shifting shapes of the clouds than the stationary twinkling of stars. Late nights win out easily over early mornings- he hates to wake up early, and for business or pleasure has spent a lot of time out at night. Really, he’s most likely to experience early morning as a consequence of a truly late night… In young adulthood, he spent a lot of time out on town until near dawn. His periodic “sick days” caused no end of annoyance to the wizard he was apprenticed to. It wasn’t much secret what kind of “illness” he had. As for hand holding or snuggling… enjoying either is a fairly recent development in his life. And both are very, very good. I suppose that snuggling wins purely for the full body closeness. It's reassuring. Peaceful. Private. And he has an amazing talent for tangling his limbs up with Tristian's in such a way that escape takes some effort.

#I got very sidetracked writing this one by the song Mortal with You. god I fucking love Mili #that really is neither here nor there but I thought you should know #everyone should know. #everyone should listen to Mili #anyway. thank you for the ask as always haha #I was on top of them this time!! #and they've all been very fun :) #ask game #ask me emithing #balthazar lucienne #dmagedgoods

[sanstropfremir]

i’m sure u received asks about the mma 2022 performances - hoping i’m not adding too much noise ur inbox 🫡

but i feel a bit underwhelmed with these performances? i was sad to see the lineups for all of the upcoming award shows and how there aren’t a lot (or any) 2nd gen/3rd gen performers. granted there aren’t as many 2nd gen active kpop artists that are doing music (most ventured into acting but also hello! i want a key gasoline end of year stage!). and 3rd gen bgs are enlisting + ggs disbanded or not as mainstream.

i’ve seen a lot of praise for le sseafim’s stage but idk it wasn’t anything wow. it felt awkward to me?

i haven't actually, it seems like everyone (including me) forgot about it. i don't know what the full list of performers is so i probably haven't watched all of them, but yea almost no strong performances. what the hell is wrong with the creative directors for these groups, like did y'all forget how stage a good awards show performance in two years? the mmas gave like 11-12 minutes to all these trendy fourth gen groups and NONE of them could keep any semblence of my attention for more than maybe three minutes. the only two groups that actually understood the scale of what they were supposed to be doing were monsta x and ive, bc starship has been sending groups to awards shows for ages. and of that mx's was the only one that was actually interesting and in proper scale for the event, and they did it in less time than everyone else. and also gidle but like. was that a good performance? no, but at least they got the scale right.

tbh the main problem seems to me that all these groups are doing songs/vcrs etc that are just too sedate/slow for that large a stage and they aren't planned well. some groups are kinda sol in that regard (sorry newjeans, your music isnt gonna work on an awards show stage without revamping the production), but literally why were there vcrs in the middle of some of these performances. the one in the ive performance literally just covered up them WALKING TO A DIFFERENT PART OF THE STAGE. why. are you too good to sing a song and hype up the audience while you walk? i dont even want to talk about the txt performance it has some of the worst everything i've seen in a hot minute. the le sserafim stage had extremely poor understanding of how to actually use the stage properly and pathetic styling. like sorry diesel outfits do NOT cut it for an awards show performance. enhypen had legitimately horrible styling like what the actual fuck was that. a lot of these groups are treating these stages as extentions of their 'lore' or whatever and having these ponderous ~mysterious~ vcrs without actually realizing that that is not what these shows are for. these shows need BIG performances bc they are long and they have huge lulls in them thanks to the actual awards presenting. it's one of the only types of performance that it's not necessary to build a dynamic arc into because you do not need one.

#i actually forgot how much i liked rush hour its so fun #also if i see another person call what changkyun was wearing a corset im going to walk off a bridge are y'all stupid? #have none of you seen a corset before?? #mx im gonna be so sad when you eventually go on hiatus bc ur literally holding everything up rn #GOD i miss nu'est so fucking BAD they were so good at awards show performances #also like.....where tf is highlight???? like theyre active they just had a really successful cb theyre an industry staple? #the lack of older gen groups here was really obvious like i hope they're going to show up at some other shows bc this is tragic #AND also the lack of sm groups too. i know its bc theyre all prepping for the winter concert but damn i could have used a real nct stage #(sorry atbo you tried and did admirably but you're still too baby) #also like....i know ateez said fuck all y'all and went on tour doing awards show season but lads i need you to come back you're our only ho #generally the song festivals have better lineups at least so maybe those will be better. fingers crossed #did everyone just have really long performance slots bc they didnt have a big enough performance lineup? #like 12 minutes is WAY too long these should be two songs maximum #mma 2022 #awards shows 2022 #text #answers #went and watched boa's inkigayo stage right after this and boy the difference

[janiedean]

#when you're listening to the radio #this happens #and you go like hey wondering why it always was my fave stones song! #even when I didn't know exactly how relatable those lyrics could be! #maybe i knew deep down or fucking something #god i should be writing a report for second job i finished two weeks ago I managed five lines #why can't i just get my shit together instead of whatever the fuck this is #at times i wish i could clone myself so the other one could do everything i'm not managing #and then i think who tf could handle another me i can barely handle myself on a normal notice #i'll go write the thing and stop wordvomiting whatever this is #i'm gonna answer everyone soon i swear i just really can't even begin to rn #queue of the beam #the rolling stones #music #i'm queueing this so i don't think about it while i'm doing the damned thing #nor get the temptation to add #anyway whatever i just #need to get a grip

[autisticgirlautumn]

Dinner Bell the Mafuyu song ever …

Starting off — “warmth” is a word Mafuyu uses a lot in the story, the physical feeling she associates with love, though she doesn’t quite know that it’s love yet. However, as a child, she still understood and could experience emotions, and in memories, she associates the positive ones, again, with warmth. In the events Mirage of Lights and Guiding a Lost Child to What Lies Beyond (+ the cards associated with them), she has memories of her childhood and feelings associated with warmth/cold, specifically in relation to her mother. Mafuyu wants to go back to the way she was a child; she wants to understand what she’s lost sight of now but had when she was little.

No big analysis or connections for this one, just Hey Haha That’s So My Favorite Character Lyrics HEY!!!! Deep down, Mafuyu wishes that her parents would love her for herself, and not her accomplishments. She doesn’t want to be their good girl, their smart girl, their prodigy doctor-in-training daughter who they can brag about — she doesn’t want to need to be special to be loved. She just wants to be loved like everyone else.

(Left: Dinner Bell, right: Tricologe)

I just found these similarities really interesting. I think Tricologe is a song that Kanade wrote to be from the perspective of someone who is both like her (self sacrificial, the outside “savior”) and another person who is like Mafuyu (trapped in a life that is slowly “killing” her, the imprisoned “saved”); and these lyrics are clearly about the latter — Mafuyu even sings them in the group cover of the song. I think that both songs, “eating” refers to the state of…being, though that’s somewhat vaguely put. More specifically, eating something you don’t want to means being a self that is not truly you — Mafuyu is “fed” the unwanted expectations other people put on her, which she then mindlessly accepts and tries to fulfill. Similarly, the protagonist of Dinner Bell has “things [they don’t] want to eat” — I think this is a similar setup to Mafuyu if the previous lyrics about being “special” are any indication of their relationship with their family. I believe that the protagonist has run away from home in some capacity because of a bad familial life, and even though they still crave love and acceptance that can only be given if they live up to their family’s wishes, they know that this will “kill” them if they keep going with that. Conversely, Mafuyu already became “a corpse” due to her accepting her parent’s expectations of her and focusing her whole life on living up to them.

いい子 (good child/girl) THE ULTIMATE MAFUYU REFERENCE! Also — “The rule mom … set / I lost it by the roadside”:

Both of these cards (arguably both “by the roadside” but either way close enough) are moments where Mafuyu’s illusion/high opinion of her mother shift. First, Mizuki telling her that it’s okay to run away sometimes: Mafuyu realizes she’s not obligated to put up with this, she can put herself first — something her parents have taught her, where her consciously or not, is bad and selfish. Second, (IMO) when the image of her mother truly shatters — it’s revealed to her that that her mother doesn’t care about Mafuyu the way she’s has convinced herself she does.

Alright so I probably should have put this earlier but this is primarily a Mafuyu analysis not a Dinner Bell one so you’ll just have to deal with me here. I believe the “dinner bell” in this song represents being loved and wanted by someone, and the singer so deeply desires that — to be called to enjoy a meal because they are wanted there, to be surrounded by warmth and to be loved enough to be called back home. Mafuyu craves unconditional love and acceptance from her parents, but she only gets love on the basis of her performance in school, as well as her performance as a Person, as a “good girl”. She so desperately wants to be called by the dinner bell - to be wanted no matter if she strays from her family’s wishes, to be loved even if she’s not always with them, following them and their plans for her. She…doesn’t get that. Not from her parents, that is.

In the event Mirage of lights, Mafuyu gets sick (with a fever, woah haha that was in the song) and stays at Kanade’s house to recover. She has memories of a similar experience when she was a child, when her mother took care of her, and she makes the same request both times — to not be left alone.

Both times, the caretaker in the situation stays with her and holds her hand. But Mafuyu’s grown up now and she doesn’t get that kind of kindness and care from her parents — her mom doesn’t even notice she’s not doing well and she has to go to school sick, sacrificing the time she wants to spend on her own tasks to help other people. Her parents, especially her mom, have somewhat stopped seeing her as a Whole Person — instead, she’s their perfect little girl, a straight-A student who helps everyone around her and has a bright future. Anything outside of that is foreign to them. Mafuyu probably won’t ever get what she wants — unconditional love — from her parents. But she will get it from her friends, her true family. And that’s more than enough, I think.

#talks #mafuyu #analysis #<- double welling analysis of a vocaloid song and My Fucking Guy #wielding*. help. #I woke up in a cold sweat at 3 am and my brain was telling me to write this and also tumblr crashed twice and didn’t save for me so LOL … #This shit is written like my English essays god I should just ask my teachers to compare everything I have to analyze to vocaloid music #This also falls into my greater insanity about food as a representation of love But we shan’t get into that #Just know . Just think . Being called to have a meal with everyone being representative of being wholly loved. Niigo always eating at #famires together Do You Understand Do You Get It #Jesus . Ok lol . Listen to Harumaki gohan music