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inkskinned · 1 year

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hey it's nanowrimo. i have tips bc i've done it about 34 times.

Don't edit. Ever. Stop it. If you just decide to start a new project half thru this one with all new characters, no problem. pick up and keep writing as if you'd already written the first half of that.

"but i spelled it wrong" whatever. "but the grammar" whatever. make it exist first. no time for sense. think like you're working on a typewriter. no backspace. only forward go.

Don't re-read further than a paragraph or two backwards. "did i mention the gun before?" listen - it doesn't matter. if you need there to be a gun there, the gun is there. put it back in once you finish the book.

"i forgot the specifics of X thing i already wrote" whatever. change it, make a note/comment to figure it out later, and just write what makes sense for the moment. "no raquel it's legit the characters name and origin" idc that character is now reborn as Claudius from Elsewhere. it's fine.

only you see your mistakes. nobody else knows. one of the ways writing and dance overlap - only you know the choreography. nobody else will know if you miss a step, so just keep dancing and pretend you meant to do it like that.

it's an illusion that you need to write linearly - from point A to point B to point C. Nah; that's just timeline propaganda. I've written a LOT of books out of order and just reordered them once i've finished. if you have a scene you'd LOVE to write but can't get there yet because of plot, just fuckin write the scene. I've always found its easier to establish "point F" "point J" and "Point A" and then wiggle my way between those scenes.

write what you WANT to write. 230 pages of smut? of well-researched discussion on bread? whatever. the point is to strengthen muscles however you can.

if you miss a day, a week, whatever. not the end of the world. we all have dry days. also time is a myth so u can do this challenge whenever u want.

as soon as you try to write for a specific audience, you kill your voice. you are writing for yourself. stop thinking about how people will take ur book. it don't matter. what matter is u, enjoying writing. i luv u.

play to your strengths. i have characters talk so much because i don't know how to write a plot if it kills me but i'm really good at dialogue so.

i love a flight of fancy. write a poem in there. shift tactics and write in code. keep it fun for yourself.

see what happens if you shift something major about ur main characters - gender, wealth, superpowers. or if you change point-of-view. or if you kill everyone in a big explosion. do NOT edit anything before this or after it. often these little weird one-off exercises teach me what interests me about what i'm working on. it is never what i thought. plus it is a fun way to add like 1k words.

stretch.

it's for fun and for practice. stop doing that project if it's giving you anxiety. once my nano was literally 50k words of half-started stories. just things i tried and tried and tried and wasn't able to flesh out. oops. but i am now 50k words of a better writer.

add dragons?

read books/listen to books on tape/etc. people often make the mistake of "buckling down" to just write. you need inspiration. you need to like. fill up on words. you need to remember how it feels to lose yourself in a story.

i don't have the time or space to really talk about this in this post but a lot of creative people turn to drugs/alcohol because it can help you be more creative. this is harmful, and walking a blade that only cuts deep. if you notice you and your loved ones are turning more to substances, please know i love you and i hope you are able to get help soon. i feel like this almost never gets mentioned because it's kind of a hazy underbelly to art. you are always more important than the work.

on that note. drink your fukin. water.

don't talk about a story until you've finished it. once you tell the story, it exists already, and isn't about discovery. i usually have a very canned "haha we'll see" response.

grapes :) tasty snack.

i love you be free.

#edit: the command not to talk about it is from personal experience!#i have heard Otherwise in the tags so i will edit to say:#if you've noticed that you tend to like Talk A Lot about ur piece but never WRITE it -#consider voice-to-text #also #u might be like me and ... need to figure it out on the PAGE and not OUT LOUD #i am often an auditory processor so i wont tell people specifics but i'll be like #huh. so i have a character who is in love .... and they don't know it #and my friend will be like ''oh they should kiss' and meanwhile #somehow #saying it out loud im like #yeah thank u ur right the dress SHOULD be purple that's what the problem has been <3 #idk!!! it's up to you!!! my suggestion is to say LESS until you know for a FACT that saying MORE works better for you #-- always better to slowly unspool in ur exploration of that #than to accidentally talk too much and get Bored Of Project #idk idk idk #i have adhd so every book surprises me bc im like #wait where did any of this even COME FROM #and whatever little gremlin in my brain that writes is like :)#''heyyy girlie.......''#WHICH IS A LONG WAY TO SAY:#i didn't know about Not Talking About It as an option until i'd ruined a few projects!!#but there are people who need to do the other thing!!! and i love us both!!!!#wow brains are so funny!!!!

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shokupanko · 6 months

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╰(✿˙ᗜ˙)੭━☆ﾟ.*･｡ﾟSteampunk bunny Mayu for Mayu Monday!

#vocaloid #art #fanart #vocaart #mayu monday #vocaloid mayu #mayu #steampunk #steampunk aesthetic #GUYS BROWN COLOR PALLETE??? wasn’t as challenging as I thought ngl #ALSO CAN WE AGREE THAT STEAMPUNK IS LITERALLY THE BEST AESTHETIC LIKE EVER???#Mayu + bunny + steampunk?? *chefs kiss*#ALSO I’M SUPER PROUD OF THIS WORK- it took my like almost a week to finish it because of the details with the dress and lace #BUT she came out super cute :D #I have a Piko and Fukase design as well obv #atp I draw Mayu in anything other than her actual outfit for no real reason smh #she just gives such dress up vibessss #she started my vocaloid steampunk au fr fr like I can’t get enough of this girl SHE NEEDS MORE LOVE AND SUPPORT #ALSO if you look by her hips you’ll see that she has pockets!! because every lady in a dress deserves pockets #she’s gives pure girly feminine energy I just want to dress her up in everything #cyberpunk aesthetic mayu next???#/╲/╭( •̀ ᗜ •́ )╮/╱#Ohhhh I guess it’s time to start on my inbox again （´＿｀）#ALRIGHT I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE IT TIME FOR ME TO VANISH NOW BYEEEEE

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notmoreflippingelves · 1 month

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#elena of avalor #beauty and the beast #batbedit #disneyedit #eoa edit #belle x beast #estebalena #kinda but also not kinda #I think a lot about the fact that it's been confirmed that this is an intentional homage #like EoA series supervising director Elliot M. Bour was just like casually bringing BATB into things as an Easter egg #since it was his first job in animation #and like don't get me wrong; I LOVE that he did this. I just don't know how he expected anyone (i.e. me) to be normal about it afterwards #once you've introduced BATB; it ceases to be a fun and casual reference and just makes the literature major girlies go feral #i thought this was gonna be a quick and easy little project but it wasn't #the parallels are all there but they're in slightly different order in EoA than the original and the pacing for each reference is differen #so i had to determine which ones I needed to skip frames for and which ones to use all the frames #and then try to figure out the speed from there #the coronation day scenes were very hard to color because the grey skies and muted filter kind of whitewash the characters #like you don't even understand i added so MUCH vibrance and saturation to the 4th and 5th gifs but elena's skin still is just gray #and the coloring is still just a very very mixed bag #also i've realized that while I don't think it was an intentional reference in the same way BATB was #anna's sacrifice and resurrection from frozen is perhaps just as --if not more-- a clear parallel to the coronation day scene than BATB #so maybe I will do that one someday too?#once i psych myself up again to try coloring coronation day again #which i imagine will be awhile #these do not look like the same scene and pretty much the same scene at all even if i tried to use the same psd when i could #and edit them to make the coloring as close as i could

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spooksier · 1 month

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anything in your tma american au in oregon or the northwest?

yeah. alice dyer. aliceheads out there move to oregon they mass produce bitches (said with love) like her over there i know 3,000 of them

(for entities: the vast has the whole pnw is a CHOKEHOLD. me being a midwestern piece of shit, the first time i saw a mountain up close i literally felt prey animal fear. nothing should be that big.)

#text!#tma freedom au #<- technically.#the only reason i havent hit the oiar gang with the freedom gun (just a gun) is bc i need more info b4 i sentence them to a state #but alice is 1000% a portland oregon girlie #and sam….hrm. he’s giving me washington…he seems like a washington boy #i love u mount hood but get smaller NOW im SCARED

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snapdragons-nest · 4 months

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I should talk about my modern au-💥💥💥

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tokruta · 6 months

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someone who is good at psychology help me understand why i adore jegulus with all my heart but don't like drarry outside of very specific aus

please my family is dying (my ability to read jegulus lives aus is heavily compromised)

#jegulus #drarry #harry potter #my greatest shame is that i can't completely drop hp fan content #i'll never touch official hp stuff (and haven't since like 2018)#but the fan content slaps so hard #especially the marauders stuff. been a james girlie since 2008 #my leading theory is that i just don't like draco and the few aus im talking about have to do with getting me to like him first #i think the only time i actually shipped drarry is in the dark prince trilogy bc they were bffs and super supportive to each other in a way #i found very compelling. the trilogy is hinny but if it was drarry i would have been 100% okay with it #so since each fic needs to win me over on draco instead of starting at me already liking him it's too much effort to read drarry so i don't #(i like regulus. everyone is allowed 1 death eater to like (obv you can like more i just mean ppl who despise them) and mine is him.#what can i say? the black brothers the stolen horcrux and the love for kreacher compel me. loved reggie long before i shipped jegulus)#does anyone have any jegulus lives aus with hinny? that'd be great!#hasan't

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kyurochurro · 6 months

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I DONT USUALLY POST OCs HERE, BUT HEY LOOK I MADE A NEW SONA!!! :D their names gonna be Churpo! she’s an alien cat thing, living in the 25th century in a far off planet as a designer! Of course heavily inspired by 60s fashion trends but mostly a silly brand of retro futurism :3 I’ve been needing an updated one hehehe

#churro art #my art #doodles #my oc tag #oc art #original character #AHHH I NEEDED A MORE CASUAL SONA AND SHE CAME ALONG JUST PERFECTLY AHAHAHAA #don’t get me wrong I LOVEE my regular SONA Chark the shark girly #but she’s more of an avatar than she is a literal representation of me #so I though hey why not remedy that! and make a new one! since my latest obsession is Star Trek #and I’ve been obsessed with big hairdos and the funny little alien cat images for a while VGSHSVHXSHHSX #so it just kinda came along really well :D #I feel like when my pfp here is a persona and not my avatar I can post more relaxed like I usually like to do #as opposed to Twitter where I think I never got into the groove of posting whenever there #BUT ANYWAYS YESH I LOVE HOW THEY ENDED UP HAHA #Most of all the color palette and the outfit!! it came out so fashionable-secretary like I LOVE IT

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theprinceandthewitch · 7 months

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No, no I don't think I will "get over" this shows poorly veiled misogyny lol.

#ml salt #Adrien has always been the “female love interest” character who gets nothing substantial of his own #this is really obvious in Volpina: where Adrien's golden ticket to see Foo is usurped from him and given to Marinette through plot bs #Marinette is rewarded for Adrien defying his father. Adrien knows he will be punished for breaking into the safe but does it anyway because #the book is clearly filled with important miraculous info. Suddenly the fandom cries out:#but Adrien couldnt keep the book because hes too girly - i mean too feminine- I MEAN too stupid to figure out a good place to hide this boo #yeah okay listen if this show actually gave a single fuck about making him anything more than a female LI type of character #they would have come up with a way to make sure Gabriel couldnt take the book from him. he could have given it to Nino or something since #theyre ya know. friends. and Nino hates Gabriel so hed be cool with Adrien stealing from him.#something something people need to stop appying outside logic as for why characters behave a specific way #because the job of the writer is to clearly convey why characters do (x) thing

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wandaxpietro · 6 months

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I RUN NOW TO KEEP HER SAFE, AND I WILL KEEP RUNNING UNTIL MY HEART EXPLODES AND I FALL OVER DEAD.

#THE scarletsilver quote of alllllll time it's so fucking insane #and SO romantic. pietro you will always be a poetry fan in my heart #this even outsold ults pietro's death monologue to wanda can you believe it. that one was crazy too but THIS?#so simple. so deranged. makes me fall to my knees every time #i know he writes (probably mediocre) poetry and has so many notebooks full of stuff that's mostly about her #i need him so bad lmao he's so funny #txt #when is wanda getting a grandiose quote about him like this....... i need it #she's a lot more practical where he is theatrical plus she's more closed off with her feelings than he is #so i get why there isn't as much #(and the most romantic tragic deranged scarletsilver moment from her side is how she resurrected him #when magneto killed him in hom and cradled him in her arms imo bcuz she is just #more of an show affection and love with actions and not words girlie isn't she)#but i still want one. lol

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queenlucythevaliant · 1 year

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In Defense of Wuthering Heights

This is not an “I can make him worse” book. It’s a “we can make each other better in the face of tremendous pressure to do otherwise” book. I promise.

I’ve already written extensively about my love for Charlotte Brontë’s Villette and while I love lots of other Brontë books with all my heart, what I really want to do tonight is try to make you fall in love with Emily’s Wuthering Heights (generally the most divisive Brontë novel among modern readers) the way that I did.

The thing that a lot of people don’t know which I really think ought to be printed on all the dust jackets is that the Brontë sisters were the daughters of a revered. They were PKs and it totally shows.

So Wuthering Heights is not a romance; it’s a family tragedy. Specifically, it’s an astonishingly hopeful book about generational trauma.

Heathcliff is Mr. Earnshaw’s bastard son. This is never explicitly stated, but it is implied so heavily that it might as well be. To boot, Mr. Earnshaw favors Heathcliff over his legitimate son, Hindley. When Mr. Earnshaw dies, Heathcliff is immediately and violently cast out of the family and forced into servitude. Mr. Earnshaw’s hidden infidelity is Wuthering Heights’s original sin.

Of course, Cathy and Heathcliff love each other, but it’s a violent and destructive like-recognizes-like kind of love between two people who, on the one hand, absolutely should not be together and, on the other, totally deserve each other. They’re capital T Tragic and capital R romantic: co-dependent, sharp-toothed sibling-lovers who don’t understand their own relationship as kids because their father lied to them. That lack of understanding follows them into adulthood; they don’t really know how to make sense of what they feel for one another, but boy do they feel it.

Cathy tells Nellie “I am Heathcliff” and “He’s more myself than I am” and “whatever souls are made of, his and mine are the same,” and it’s half a reaction to the fact that one of her brothers (Hindley) has cast her other brother (Heathcliff) out of the family with a vengeance and half a statement of the fact that although she doesn’t know what Heathcliff is to her, she doesn’t know how to live without him. And while Cathy’s love for Heathcliff definitely fills romantic roles once they’re adults, it’s doesn’t really read as sexual. To use Lewis’s parlance: it’s not eros/gift-love, but rather need-love in the most emphatic sense. It’s storge. Actually, it’s really posessive storge that thinks it’s eros. Hence the problem.

From the other side, Heathcliff is an outsider from the moment he enters the story. He’s an intruder and a presumed bastard. He’s coded as non-white, maybe Romani or similar. (Probably not actually African-black, but kudos to that one movie for at least making the attempt.) He’s… probably kind of a psychopath in that he displays cruelty to animals and then later on becomes a charismatic, manipulative monster. You can make a nature vs. nurture argument—Heathcliff is definitely on the receiving end of a lot of cruelty—but there’s also something Off about him and that too is othering. And after Mr. Earnshaw dies, Cathy is the one person who still loves him.

But of course, they can’t actually marry. On and off the page, that simply cannot be. Heathcliff runs away, Cathy marries Edgar Linton. They hurt each other badly in the process. Neither Heathcliff nor Cathy can escape the harm that Mr. Earnshaw began and Hindley perpetuated. Cathy dies, Heathcliff marries Isabella, and then things get really interesting.

Because the beating heart of Wuthering Heights, the place where you can profoundly see the fingerprints of the reverend’s daughter, is in the third generation. Cathy and Heathcliff devour each other in life and in death, but the children survive. They forgive. The patriarch died without knowing what he had wrought on his children, the second generation died in anguish, but the third makes it out. Or at least Hareton and Cathy II do.

Cathy’s daughter is named for her mother. Heathcliff’s son by Isabella Linton is named Linton Heathcliff. Heathcliff forces Hareton, Hindley’s son and the only one among the third generation not named for his parents, to live in the same debasement that Hindley once forced on him: he denies Hareton any education and forces him into servitude while simultaneously courting his admiration. In essence, Cathy and Heathcliff implore the next generation to go on living their parents’ tragedy and it. Doesn’t. Work.

Heathcliff tries to force them both into awful situations in which they must act out his trauma, his revenge, to go on perpetuating the pain and bitterness. And at first, it looks like they’re going to play their parts. For a time, they’re as awful to each other as everyone else is.

But then they change. Hareton tries to stand up for Cathy II while she’s essentially being held captive as part of Heathcliff’s 12-Step Revenge Plot. Cathy teaches Hareton to read. She laughs at him, but when she realizes that she’s hurting his pride she apologizes and learns to be patient.

“I didn’t know you took my part,” she answered, drying her eyes; “and I was miserable and bitter at everybody; but now I thank you, and beg you to forgive me: what can I do besides?”

And after this, they both stand up to Heathcliff. They say, “This ends here. This far and no farther.” Heathcliff is their dragon and they face him together. And when everyone else is dead in grand, tragic fashion, Cathy II and Hareton are left living.

But it’s not just that Hareton and Cathy II survive. They specifically un-do the failings of the previous generations. There’s a kind of atonement to it. They’re honest with each other, unlike Mr. Earnshaw. Cathy recognizes Hareton’s humanity, something Hindley never did for Heathcliff. Hareton lets go of his bitterness and resentment, while Heathcliff let his fester into cruelty and Elaborate Revenge. Cathy II is willful, like her mother, but she is also kind. Hareton is proud, like his father, but he is also compassionate. They forgive each other, while Cathy and Heathcliff only ever held grudges.

At the beginning of the book, Cathy is dead and has explicitly not gone to heaven; with the Brontës, you’ve gotta take these things seriously. Cathy is not in heaven and Heathcliff is a monster and they both seem to be damned, but they do not succeed in damning their children. And in that (I would say because of that), even Cathy and Heathcliff find peace after death.

I also do think that the fact that the story is narrated by Lockwood (weirded out by all of this) and Nellie (unreliable, cares deeply about everyone involved) can make it difficult to see the redemptive arc in the story as clearly as we might if it had an omniscient narrator, or if, say Cathy II was narrating. We're presented the Cathy and Heathcliff love story as this great, horrible, compelling saga (and it absolutely is), but then the following generation can almost seem like a footnote. They're adapted out of most of the film adaptations. But they're the whole point!

I do get why Wuthering Heights just isn’t to some people’s taste. Really. Some people just don’t go for Big Romantic Family Tragedy and that’s fine. But too many people come to the Brontës looking for Jane Austen or Elizabeth Gaskell and that’s just. Wrong. You’ve gotta at least read Wuthering Heights on its own terms before deciding that you hate it (not directed at anyone specific on here, but I do know people irl...). And you really ought to read it with an eye towards Emily’s faith. It makes a world of difference.

TL;DR- There’s a beautiful, very Christian center to Wuthering Heights and it’s one of forgiveness instead of revenge and kindness instead of cruelty. It’s a book about people who are destroyed by the sins of their fathers and those that manage not to be. In a way, it’s almost a fairytale.

#this isn't an essay it's just a gush sesh i can write more coherently about this i promise #i have on multiple occasions #but wuthering heights is great and no one can convince me otherwise #the knitting circle is populated with a lot of Austen girlies and while I do love me some Austen it's always gotta be the Brontes for me #all three of them write in ways that cut right to the center of my soul #and while Charlotte is definitely my fave i think if Emily had lived longer and written more she absolutely could have been her sister's eq #equal #as it is Wuthering Heights is awesome any y'all (not anyone specific) need to stop making jokes about Charlotte being 'I can fix him'#and Emily being 'i can make him worse'#because if that's your take you have whizzed right by the point #also i took an austen and bronte class and i rewrote part of persuasion in the style of emily bronte and my prof thought it was awesome #just to toss that little bit in there #but even with that! austen and the brontes only really get grouped together because they're great British female writers #they are Very Different and that's Good #anyway #maybe i'll rant about Jane Eyre next #unquiet souls #literature makes us more human #pontifications and creations

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manda-kat · 4 months

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It actually hurts me to think that the closest thing we have to a proper, not shovelware, triple a, dress up video game is Love Nikki.

Which is a mobile game.

#its cute dont get me wrong #but I crave other options #suitU is cool too #but again #im so tired of dumb story stuff #and competing against other players #and time sensitive events #its boring to me #I want there to be options that mirror different ways people might play games #but dress up games- despite being considered one of the easiest things to create- are severely limited for some reason #guys who love shooters and complain that their ideal fps doesnt exist need to be grateful that they get more options to play every year #unlike fashion game girlies who suffer #especially if you like fashion games and are over the age of 7 #there aren't options

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factorialsotherfandoms · 5 months

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I'm busy so have a really short ficlet for today's prompt - Hidden Injury, with BBH and Baghera, 'true' drabble (AKA exactly 100 words).

TW for blood, serious character illness/injury.

Bad coughs into his hand, blood leaking between his fingers as he does. He hunches over, muscles straining as the tainted blood is hacked up from his lungs. Blood pours through his shaking fingers, and maybe a more accurate term would be vomiting blood, if not for his aching lungs.

He gets himself under control just in time to see Baghera approach. She looks him up and down, and asks "Bad? Are you okay?"

"Of course! How are you Baghera? I haven't seen you in ages!"

He smiles away her concern and Dapper's side eye, and continues on his day.

#qsmp fanfic #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp baghera #whumpcember2023 #lmk if more warnings needed #I like the long fics best #but the challenge of short is fun #and I reeeeally don't have time today #want to get a couple of bits done #as in like in theory I have 1 task a day until sunday but wanna get 3 or 4 done today #so later in the week for more inspiring prompts I have time #bbh is in an extremely bad way huh #this is for all the bbh girlies/ghosties out there #love your guy but jfc he streams too late for me

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truegoist · 1 year

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I want shido to turn out to be rllly insecure and shit

#HEAR ME OUT FOR A SECOND OKAY #Ik a lot of guys that r like him #On surface at least #They’re loud and constantly in trouble and they get into a lot of fights #Nd u see them and go “yeah he just doesn’t give a fuck”#But when u get to know them it turns out they do give a lot of fucks actually #they actually care sm and it’s fucking stupid how hard they try to look like they do not #and they’ve almost always came to the conclusion that only way to stop thinking so lowly abt themselves is to just #Not think at all #But this behavior leads to everyone degrading them as a joke bc it’s funny and they’re a silly guy who doesn’t care so it’s ok right???#so they also start to make self depreciating jokes to satisfy their desperate need to fit in #which makes them think more and more which makes them repeat the cycle again and and and #It’s depressing how many guys r like this but whatever anyways #DO YOU GET WHAT I MEAN #SHIDOU FITS PERFECTLY INTO THAT TROPE #HE HAS A DEPRESSING STORY IK IT #anyways on a second note I love befriending that type of guys bc they’re actually rlly cute #+ they almost always have this one hobby they talk to no one abt (bc it’s too girly or too weird etc) that they’re rlly rlly excited abt #blue lock

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swordmaid · 6 months

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so I was looking up the tenets for lolth’s paladins and I found this little list. not sure how canon exactly this is but I thought it was interesting -

kind of laughing that shri’iia does the exact opposite in act 1 which leads to her oath breaking. she girlflopped so badly lolth decides to drop her ass then prob hunt her ass down for being an embarrassment and a failure. like girly was not exerting her power at all - it’s her first time in the surface ever and she’s surrounded by people who could literally kill her any given moment (considering all the stories she heard abt how surface dwellers hates drow) not to mention that the tieflings you encounter when you see lae’zel were ready to attack you that just fueled her paranoia. > she was not sowing discord at all she was laying low and keeping her mouth shut …!! she has no allies here! and she doesn’t know where she is! and there’s an illithid tadpole in her head! it would be foolish of her to paint herself as an enemy when she’s already so out of her environment so she keeps her mouth shut … thoughts to herself … bides her time and sees who’s useful to her and who’s not … she can always get rid of the ones that she doesn’t need later but for now she’s seeing what she can work with first …… > have a plan… shri’iia had no plans…. at all. she was following lae’zel around because the crèche was her only lead … but then they mentioned a druid named halsin who’s a very good healer so she turned her objective to that … then a goblin mentions their priestess is a healer too so guess she’s looking for her as well… honestly who thought making the drow who’s never been to the surface and literally does not know where she is or what she's doing the leader of the group a good idea….. in my hc the leader is gale

#but I’m like 🤭🤭🤭 at the idea of shri’iia being considered an embarrassment by Lolth just bc apparently lolth paladins are pretty rare #like she doesn’t give her blessings easily and they mostly go to her clerics but to a paladin … and for someone who’s not noble birth too….#like she had potential ..!! she was mentored by a matriarch of a noble house ..!! but then she flopped soo badly 😭😭#and I hc mid/the end of act 1 she still hasn’t accepted that she’s an oathbreaker and she’s still delusional thinking that she can get #lolth’s favour again it’s like no 💗 girly. she hates your ass 💓 if you ever return to menzoberranzan she’ll turn you into a drider probably #and it’s only in act 2 where she accepts that she is an Oathbreaker. and she does Not need Lolth. and Lolth doesn’t deserve her (delusion)#but I love that idea for her bc she was So proud of herself … and she devoted herself to her goddess to the point that her sense of self is #essentially Gone.. but then she gets rejected. so now the thing she’s most proud of is taken away from her #by HER own actions no less .. like she can’t blame anyone bc it’s her own fault ..!! and that’s what stings more ..!!!!! she’s the one who #fumbled the bag … so it’s like where do u go when the very thing you dedicated your whole life to rejected you #and you’re so far away from home. and you CAN’T even go back home.. where do you go. no choice but to keep going….#then she eventually accepts the role as an oath breaker bc it's the only thing she has left. her oath no longer binds her ; every choice #she makes is hers and hers alone.. which is so ..!! girls when you're faced to reclaim your own agency or else you'll fall into the void #you're left with ...!!!!!!! also it is so perfect bc the oathbreaker dialogues are all abt freedom and agency of self.#being free from dogma and making your own decisions! and you also want others to be free too …#and the fact that the oath breaker knight helps you make that decision I hc she becomes similar to him as well #where if someone chooses they want to be free she will help them … but it has to be their own choice …#which ties in perfectly with the act 2 and 3 quests esp for the companions .. all abt making ur own decisions …#so the leadership role goes from gale then to her …#should be heading to bed bc I have an early start tomorrow but hrk head filled w thoughts of my oc...#but act 1 shri'iia is essentially her getting such a bad grade at being Lolth-Sworn Drow that lolth disowns her 😭#im so ill at the thought of her not being able to return to menzo tho ... i dont think the underdark is safe for her either like she should #b getting hunted like sport .... maybe thats why she released the vampire spawns down there lol #like <3 revenge. everyone loves revenge especially an ex oath of vengeance girly <3

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tiny-huts · 1 year

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Still not over Brennan making me be obsessed with Asmodeus. I had always just thought he was kind of the dullest of the devils/betrayers in both the Realms and in Exandria and then Brennan came out with his shitty little wounded gazelle routine and then murdered everyone in one (1) in game second and well..... I'm open to changing my mind

#Asmodeus #critical role #exu: calamity #feel like pure shit miss the sheer high of watching calamity #i was and still am a Lolth girlie but i love Asmodeus too now for the betrayers #and for the realms i just never thought about him #i went for the demons more #Especially mr Urbluu hes fun #and i mean. Lolth Realms version #uwu i need a strong paladin to help me #immediately gets son zoned #now im running the Cassalanters here we sre #because i didnt do anything wrong #lives rent free in my head #i did run a one shot in stygia #wnd we did make alot of jokes about Asmodeus defrosting Levistus with a hair dryer

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nthflower · 1 year

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I am having thoughts about Xavier wtf?

#i will real immortal X-Men xavier issue again #later #i love xaiver as a self hating mutant who cares more about looks than actions etc. etc. like #he likes being messiah being a figure good figure a hero #and he loves also mutants too he is not evil not intentionally but it always comes second or third #first is looks how humans sees them how public sees him #he want to still be respected and accepted he didn't even say puplic he is a mutant for years #he is egoist also i think #like he love having powers and good things being mutant brings and rehects hates avoids bad things it brings #mind reading is cool but he still need to be respected professor attending conferences getting applause #shit man #this is why i am not a cherik girlie #magneto is also flawed like i ilove uwufing him but he is deep complex etc. but his relationship and brotherly or loverly love for Xavier #just sad #this is why i love he is rejected him #i am really interested now in xaviers fall and i want him to be pathetic about him #xavier needed to be betrayer not moira tbh i want him to sell mutant kind for saving his looks #and by selling not being cartonishly villain but also wgile keeping his looks good for mutants that he cares too #kinda like leaving morlocks because he need acceptable mutants for his X-Men but also sending his acceptable child soldiers to save them #i am missing points probably definitely i am not good at getting things but i like thinking #and i like this version #long long tags

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