#gOOD OBSERVATIONS MY FRIEND

[inkskinned]

i know people are good because of this: the universe often assigns me side quests. in a circular strangeness; despite my inability to locate my-own-anything, i am almost-always finding someone else's lost things. dogs, coats, phones, cash, laptops. it happens so often it's almost tiring; suddenly being looped into a tiny amount of detective work.

but when i'm with other people who are not used to this: the response is almost invariably delight. yes, maybe they are simply thrilled by the mystery. it's just... they light up so much. i think maybe more... i think they like the opportunity to do something kind.

a few weeks ago, i was at a bar and i found a wallet as soon as we stepped outside. i felt nervous to ask for help, worried i would be holding up the night. i picked it up and said go on without me, i should help this get back to its home.

instead, three people pulled out their phones - to find him on facebook, to help cancel his credit cards. two people went back into the bar to tell the bartender, two others went calling down the street. group texts, facebook posts, instagram stories. people, without even seeing what happened, start offering help to me. fifteen minutes and: someone knows someone who knows the guy. the cheer that went up - just for finding him, just for this small thing. someone gets him on the phone. strangers dance around me, hopping on their feet - are you the girl that found that wallet? good for you, that's a good thing you're doing/same thing happened to me and somebody did what you're doing and i thank god everyday for people like you/i can't believe you found him so fast this is so exciting

i gave it back to him in a parking lot. i watched his shoulders sag with relief. there was cash in it still - he checked the pocket, and then sheepishly held the money out to me. i didn't take it. i held up my hands. "it's no problem, man. i know you'd do the same for me."

i don't know him, to be honest. i don't know if he is the same kind of person i am. but he nodded at me.

and i know people are good. i know people are good, because the way this story ends isn't surprising. we wave goodbye awkwardly. my friend loops their arm around me.

"i can't believe we got it back to him," they said. "i'm going to be riding that high for weeks."

#i lost my wallet in disney world once #and really thought i had beefed it bc i was 19 and alone #and a woman got it back to me within an hour #just like . a mom #i have no idea how she got my number or info #and i do think that since then karmatically god has been like. #ur about to be the same person in someone else's life #btw i like the side quests but they never happen at a good time #once saved 2 lost dogs while on the way to the airport. i already had my 70 pound dog in the back of my car #and had to chase 2 dogs down the street to wrastle into my passenger seat #(she ended up writing me the fucking nicest thank you card and sending me WAY #W A Y too much in target bucks as a thank-you) #i went 2 go see batman the other night and legit like. had already been running late #to go see a friend #and instead was like. sorry i have to step outside and use this person's phone to see if i can find them #i once found 250 dollars in cash lol #MEANWHILE IN MY PRIVATE LIFE #I LOSE FUCKING EVERYTHING #adhd will be like #: thou art so observant that it is distracting : #: BUT not observant towards items that are not novel to you : #: die mad about it : #: so it is written. so it must be : #: no nobody saw where you put the fucking car keys :

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hi! Your Hollow Knight AU has really cheered me up so I wanted to do a little drawing for it! This got me to get my art tablet out after months of not feeling like it so thank you for the inspiration! I hope the colors look good on any monitor that's not mine sdfsdf

Bugs In the Jingshi wyd?

I am so genuinely awestruck at how well you translated this AU to the hollow knight style! Also obsessed with the height difference.

#mdzs au #hollow knight #lan wangji #wei wuxian #fanart #Thank you so much for this B'*) #This is *so* incredible!! I feel incredibly honoured to have inspired something so beautiful! #I showed this asap to my friend who's been letting me observe their hollow knight playthrough and oh man oh man. The hype was real. #The colours have the Hollow Knight gloomy swag and the way that this looks like it could be an area in the game is soooooo good. #Thinking about the bug sounds they would make.....Peace and love on earth could be achieved with lwj hollowspeak.... #I hope you keep finding fun things to draw!! Your art has continuously brought a lot of joy! #I very much understand the pain and struggle of having a craft you just...cant seem to get your heart back into. #Sending you so much love and energy and artistic inspiration!!!! #(lwj has the wrong eye shape b/c I was too focused on getting the silly angle for dramatic perspective. whoops) #I have honestly loved doing this AU and I'm fiercely happy that its been resonating with people (as it makes me want to do more hehe)

[ladynicte]

Something that always breaks my heart is how during the House of Hades Nico is described as smiling and grinning actually pretty often, but later on in his pov he mentions that it's hard for him to do that, or really emote as a general.

Which means my poor most specialest little boy in the whole world Nico di Angelo was constantly going out of his way to mask and smile at the rest of The Seven even though he didn't know them basically at all.

And he had also just gone through literal hell while everybody except his sister was super rude to him the entire time.

And the whole time they are all just thinking about how he looks creepy when frowning but that they prefer that because his smile is even creepier.

They are all so mean to him whyyyyy

#poor nico he was probably thinking yes imma smile imma be helpful and not threatening even though i just went through tartarus got #kidnapped and i also miss my friend Percy so much whos like one of the two only people in this ship who have any good faith on me that my #voice breaks at the mere mention his name #but i will still do my best and the rest were all like ew why is it looking at me like that #nico di angelo #Luna's meta #<- i mean its presented really silly but its a genuine observation i made while reading so the tag fits #either way house of hades is just a big testament to nico di angelo being the most autistic character ever i raise my case

[katlypso]

Our good friend Johnathan is waiting 😭

#happy Dracula daily season to all those who observe! #my good friend jonathan harker #Dracula daily

[incomingalbatross]

Happy Easter, friends in my computer!!

#it's NICE to be back #things i did this lent: #tried to observe lent #school #saw live music last week! it was fun #hung out with friends over spring break #got into one piece and yes that is still ongoing so there MAY be posts about idiot anime pirates in the future #and in the past couple weeks (somewhat because of the last tag) rejoined the christian tumblr discord #...which DID feel like cheating on the Giving Up Social Media intent of giving up tumblr #but on the other hand i initially stopped hanging out there by accident/too much Life Stuff getting in my way #and i think being back there is good for me so i'm not gonna worry too much about the lent aspect :P #oh!! and my new tiny writing group with other people from my english program #is turning out to be good for pushing me toward writing (or at least getting excited about writing) some of my stuff that isn't fic #and on Easter AND Easter Monday we get to visit with family :)

[cinna-bunnie]

god having to admit u can't dance is always so

#VERY very beautiful woman also bumping her music and getting down #and she started getting crazier w it n rocking her car gesturing me next and it's like aaa (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) #im chy and can't dance now that im being Observed sorry (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) fumbled an actual bad bitch earlier. haunting #thank u for the attention though ╰(￣ω￣ｏ) the only good part about being stuck in traffic #i miss her.. she was a vibe.. #oh! hehe i went to the zoo w my friends today ૮˶• ﻌ •˶ა ♡⁠ it was very fun and cute #I'm omw home for a lil intermission n then we r getting trashed at her place later (❁´◡`❁) ♡⁠ #they r making dinner and i am making drinks :3

[commsroom]

reading your eiffel posts feels like you have access to another plane where you get to observe him and take notes to bring back to us. factually correct information with such detail that surely could only be gleaned after spending hours in his presence.

this is such a sweet and funny thing to say, thank you!! that is kinda how it feels sometimes. i wouldn't claim to speak for eiffel or to know his innermost thoughts beyond a shadow of a doubt, but he does feel like a person i know well enough to make an educated guess. so often i will see things online and think 'i should show that to eiffel' as if that's a reasonable, feasible thing, like, he just exists in the same part of my brain i use to think about real life people that i actually know. and that explains at least a few things that are wrong with me.

#i will not say what i said to prompt this comment because it's kind of wretched but my friend once said something to me like #'you talk about eiffel like you live with him' and that made me laugh. well in a way i guess i do #<- person who listens to wolf 359 on loop forever and has thought about eiffel every waking moment for years #i need a real life boyfriend. i won't claim that will make me more normal but i can't go on like this #that's also one reason i find him easy to talk about though like. i feel like i have a good understanding of him but #i don't personally relate to him so i'm not worried about projecting. i'm just observing him in his natural habitat (dave & buster's) #(thank you; this also made me laugh) #asks

[tabellae-rex-in-sui]

18th century men be like "I'm fine with cuddling and making out with you because Rome but the SECOND you get hard, I will tell everyone and call you slurs"

Voltaire.

#virtuous friendship makeout session to strengthen your brotherly bond absolutely ruined by debauched thoughts society FORCED you to have #I started having licentious dreams about my Brother in Arms. This an extension of our Roman bond or have I been corrupt into libertinage? #help?? I was admiring my friend's calves the way one would observe a greek nude but I'm now having nonconformist thoughts???? #when is a kiss upon the mouth a fraternal greetings and when is it bawdy debauchery?? what its the line?? #how much tongue did they use in ancient rome???? #I had contemplated sodomy after some glasses of good wine. Is this cause for concern??? #ask #anon ask

[huntingrays]

i love satosugu

have i watched/read jjk? no

do i remember the names of the characters? no

do i know what happened with them? no

do i even know who is sato and who is sugu? no

but i’ve seen so many edits of them that i have no choice but to love and ship them. any ship that can be edited with like half of taylor swift discography has my respect

#ray rambles #jjk #satosugu #in my mind they are white haired guy my friend simps for and his bf #maybe eventually I’ll watch it? idk #for now i just love observing the fandom and shippers #and like the edits are so good i can’t not ship them #like i have to ship a ship that works so good with say don’t go??? #I have no idea what their ship dynamic even is… but something went down and now they’re exes #and now every sad ts song is about them apparently

[icewindandboringhorror]

I know multiple of these are likely important to people, but I'm asking in terms of like - which of these do you tend to focus on the MOST, enjoy the most, that is most essential for you to actually care about the media, etc.?

(For example: someone finding "Relatability" most important would likely not enjoy a show much if they have trouble empathizing with the characters/relating to it, even if it were good otherwise. Or, someone might be able to overlook bad acting and ugly costumes, as long as the Character Dynamics are fun to them, because they value that more than Aesthetics- while for others, bad costumes would be a dealbreaker.)

Also feel free to reblog and explain your answer or more information in the tags- I've always been curious about people's relationships to media, how they conceptualize it/what they get out of it, how some people value some parts more than others, how that informs their overall taste and genres they may be more inclined towards, etc. :0c

#I was having a conversation with a friend about our favorite type of media and they said the reason they DON'T like historical or fantasy #media or etc. is because they can't imagine themselves being in those situations like it's too detached from anything that they can relate #to personally. they put themselves in the shoes of the characters and apparently like feel emotions while watching stuff and actually #get into the way the characters are feeling so they kind of judge how 'good' or 'bad' a show's writing/setting/etc. are by how it makes #them feel and if they think the characters reacted realistically based on what they were feeling in the moment/what in their head they #would be feeling if they were in the postion of the character. SO apparently the distance of it being in an unrelatable setting or too #detached from our reality makes it harder for them to relate to and less able to really engage with it on that level. WHEREAS I watch #things exclusively in a very like.. detached way?? I'm INTERESTED.. it's like im intellectually analyzing everyhting that's happening and #can be intrigued by events but it's not in an emotional way? More of like a distant 'intellectual curiosity'. Maybe the premise or the #aesthetics or something about it has piqued an interest for me to observe it. to see what it's like or how it plays out. how the idea #is executed or etc. But like.. I cannot remember EVER really relating to any character or situation or projecting onto a character #or having those sorts of feelings or investment in it. That is just not a central part of why/how I watch things or what I care about #BUT after this I was thinking maybe this is my disconnect? I do not seem to conceptualize media the way some other people do and I often #walk away with an entirely different take on things. etc. So I wonder if maybe it's part of how everyone values different things probably? #maybe I literally just watch stuff and percieve it from a different frame of mind that others. More of a like detached curiosity #vaguely bemused analysis mode. Instead of a 'I am deeply emotionally invested in this and am feeling for all the characters' mode #And also I bet people who care more about plot/story are also the people who mind spoilers. Whereas for me I literally seek out spoilers #intentionally because that element of 'suprise ooh what will happen next!' is not central at all to my enjoyment. I could know literally #everything that will happen and still can find it interesting to observe - since for me #that's not the point. I'd rather know the ending so I can determine whether I want to invest the time in it in the first place. etc. #ANYWAY!! If I had to choose - I would say I'm usually heavily focused on world details and aesthetics. With only a slight preference #towards characters individually being interesting. Group dynamics can sometimes be okay but I get tired of everything being about relations #hips and romance - especially when sometimes it seems to be like. people who could not stand on their own as a character/are fundamentally #boring otherwise lol. I would watch a series of just one guy locked in a closet talking to himself as long as he was interesting and saying #things that were amusing or notable for some reason lol. I actually tend to dislike plot because most 'plot heavy' things like action focus #ed shows ALWAYS feel to me like they're moving so fast just to get from one thing to another that I'm not getting enough details. Part of #why I tend to not like movies. the time limit makes them too quick. I need a 95 hour expostion dump of the history of the entire world #and a series of 17 episodes straight where a guy is trapped in a room & the audience is just psychoanalyzing him. hghj.. Maybe I find all #characters annoying/unrelatable bc people w my personality type make bad characters/are not often represented (or are done BADLY). so then #I'm just picking 'who is the LEAST insufferable? who could i study like a lab rat?' whilst my main focus is the worldbuilding&costumes lol

[autisticlee]

i'm aroace, sex repulsed and don't get traditional romance or find the need for it, but I still often think how it would be neat to have a gf/partner for other purposes that arent romance and sexual. but it seems impossible to make someone want to date you if you take out those things????

sometimes I think it would be nice to have a gf to do cute gay cosplay photoshoots with. there would be mouth smooching and you usually can't do that with a friend and I don't really want to either, so a gf would be useful for that.

then there's hating showers because they exhaust me and it would be nice to have a gf to wash my hair and stuff for me??? can't call up a friend to do this every time I need to shower. that won't work and I doubt they'd want to/be comfortable doing that.

most friends will end up putting all their priority into their partner and/or family they create. I want someone that will make me their priority and not run off with someone else they start dating and abandon me??? something like that. their priority is cleaning our home together, hanging out together, going shopping and other domestic/partner stuff. they don't do that with someone else or use me temporarily until they can find a partner. so it's essentially dating/being partners. but it looks different from your typical expected romance and partnership.

doesn't matter how aroace I am, I have accepted that a relationship is beneficial in many ways and there's certain things that you can't expect friends to cover and they can't fill. but I have zero interest in looking for a partner in traditional ways that requires small talk/flirting/dates/etc. so that makes me realize i'll most likely not trick someone into partnering with me lmao

the internet seems to call this kind of thing "queer platonic relationship" (did I remember it right?) and you just need to find another sroace person to do it with. but either way, there's no textbook to study for how to get that and where to find these people. it seems harder than the puzzle that is regular dating tbh.

there's that saying "there's other fish in the sea" but i'm a worm in a puddle the other worms got out before they drowned. there's no fish here lmao. my options are so limited that I haven't met a single option yet in my life. there's barely any chance the first aroace person I meet irl will be compatible, or the first compatible person will accept a relationship with an aroace. you know what I mean? any other aroace that's interested in some kind of relationship/partnership and feel like you don't get that whole sea to choose from like everyone else and only have a dried up puddle? 😅

#lee rambles #asexual #aromantic #aroace #im not desperate and not looking. it's just a passing thought sometimes.... #when it would be convenient i think about it. like how convenient it would be to find a canadia partner so i csm move there #and move in with my 2 closest friends #and the cosplay thing. that comes up a lot because i currently have a big interest in doing more cosplay stuff #i know i say i dont get romance and flirting stuff but sometimes when i observe others or see it in media #when someone does flirty things to their partner ans the partner gets flustered like a girl calling her gf cute and she gets shy and blushy #sometimes i want someone i can do that to because it amuses me to see people react that way and i like to be amused and make people react #to things lmao. another good use for a gf/partner #not sure if that means i do have some interest in that stuff or if it doesnt count because my reason for it seems different than usual 😅 #ALSO. its so hard for me to tell if i truly want a relationship/partnership or if its because society and people around me make me feel like #i have to?????? amd im making uo excuses for why i would need it or would benefit from it? so that i can fit in or something??? #i genuinely dont know which one it is and i hate that. could it be a bit of both? i suppose so....hmmmmm

[robotwrangler]

28 year old men at uni can’t get enough of my approachable theythem swag

#I do not mean this in a good or bad way. just an observation #i cannot go anywhere in this place without acquiring satellites who make small talk and ask me my pronouns #I am inclined to believe they do genuinely just have intentions of being friends #bc I mention my bf casually every so often when relevant so as to gently discourage any ideas just in case #and they still stick around. so I think they just want a friend in class #I must just come off as very non-threatening which I don’t mind at all #I am not the type to start conversations with strangers unprompted but I don’t mind other people doing the same to me #the social feel of uni is very different to how highschool was. it feels more laidback but also more isolated I guess #in high school friendships seemed to just kind of happen #in uni it feels like something you have to consciously initiate and keep up each week #I’m really glad I signed up for a club & also went to the workshop days for neurodivergent students #I’ve met the most good people from those things

[obstinatecondolement]

I saw my psychiatrist on Wednesday and he seemed pretty embarrassed when I was like "And also the Victorians were right and that womb do be wandering" for about ten minutes discussing the issues I've been having with PMDD-like symptoms among other gynaecological Unpleasantness that have contributed to my overall emotional ~dysregulation, but also like... listen, buddy, I also do not want to be talking to you about this, but unfortunately the fucking thing is strangling my brain for half the month, and my brain is your department.

#not to be too hard on him though #he does seem to be like... fine as psychiatrists go #it was only my second time seeing him since he replaced by previous guy who has since retired #but I haven't had any big red flags #and did have the green flag of him being like 'yeah no that wouldn't be a good idea at all and I wouldn't recommend it' #re: not looking at my phone and/or laptop screens in the evening #when I said that my sleep schedule had been hard to get sorted #but that strictly observing ~sleep hygiene and having no screens after 9 p.m. would mean that I'd be very socially isolated #because most of my friends live abroad in other time zones and I largely interact with them in the evening #and when I'm not getting out much I don't have a lot of other social outlets #and it felt like the net cons of avoiding screens outweight the net pros of it #and I wouldn't realistically be able to hold myself to it #because I'd get too lonely

[ladynicte]

Just thinking about how heartbroken Reyna must have truly been when Jason came back to Camp Jupiter and barely remembered her.

Because she met Percy, she does know that even when Juno takes your memories away, if you truly truly love and care and need another person you will be able to remember her, even if not entirely perfectly, but the memory will be there with you the whole way. Like the memory of Annabeth was with Percy.

And then Reyna sees Jason arrive with Piper, and it's okay really, it doesn't even hurt that much, she's Praetor, she has got a job to do, she cannot be getting distracted with silly little sentimental things like that.

And, okay, sure, Reyna can say, maybe Jason and her weren't that close in that sense, it's okay, but they were still good friends, co-leaders of a grand city, he still mattered a lot to her.

And same thing right, Percy did remember Nico, not that vividly or anything, but he did immediately know Nico and him knew each other from somewhere before, because The Ambassador was important to him, in a different way but still, important to Percy.

And then, Jason tells her that he didn't remember her at all, no name, no blurry face, no dreams, no voice, no vague sense that he was missing somebody from somewhere.

That he only started sorta remembering her days after he had already finished his quest, for his new patron goddess, and his new friends, at his new camp, in his new life, with his new girlfriend.

But it's fine, really, Reyna is mature, she doesn't let little things bring her down. She's roman, truly roman, daughter of a fully only Roman Goddess. She's Praetor, she's strong, she will welcome these strange Greek people into her city and throw a feast in their honour, she won't even be salty or rude about it. Really, Reyna is fine, it doesn't even hurt.

#and then half her city gets destroyed by them #reyna avila ramirez arellano #jason grace #pjo #just man i can imagine her feeling so destroyed because she knows how much percy loves Annabeth to the point of remembering her no matter #what and then Jason arrives and just barely knows who she is and then she can say well i mean at least we were good friends right close #friends and then its not the case either because jason didnt have a sudden recognizion moment like percico did he just randomly remembered #her a few days after finishing the quest and felt vaguely remorseful about it and that's it #and then reyna isnt even allowed to show weakness and be openly sad about it because shes a roman leader and percy is about to leave her #making her the only roman leader once more she has got to be strong and then they betray her and octavian takes over #:((( my poor girl #luna's headcanons #not really a headcanon though more of an observation i suppose #like i feel bad jason didnt have anything to bound him back no matter what like percy had his friends and girlfriend #gonna start tagging this as Luna's meta

[hekateinhell]

caught in between being desperate to have time to write fic and also doing my best to navigate adult responsibilities which this week alone look like: an assignment due, a lawyer meeting (everything is fine I just had some questions about stuff), an interview, and my bestie about to go into labor at quite literally any second and I have to be Available

#and i'm sure i'm forgetting stuff #i miss writing!!! #on the plus side a friend sent me a king cake straight from new orleans because i was homesick for louisiana and it is Very Good #hadn't had king cake since 2016 and that's way too long 🤧 #the foundation of my mental health currently looks like dough with icing and colored sugar on top with a plastic baby jesus inside it #i hope i didn't accidentally eat jesus idk #also i've been trying a new antidepressant idk stuff is happening man i miss my fics 🥲 #not that i think i'm an incredible writer or anything but like that was my one creative outlet and #the only one i've ever had that came organically to me #and now i don't have the time for it or when i do i don't have the energy because Chronic Fatigue and anyway i'm very sad about that #it feels like a loss of self in a way and i think i'm gonna go talk to some king cake about this #i'm not depressed though i'm just whining! i've observed that my life tends to play outs in cycles so i know it'll be fine! always is <3 #hekate.txt

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

alright i have a mild dilemna that i need advice on

on my course we have to post these weekly self-reflection things responding to the themes of the week's class and some questions about it. i posted last week's and yesterday the course convenor replied to it in a way that implies i was wrong (in my SELF reflection) and just generally misunderstands my point/takes it in bad faith. i've shown these posts to others on the course and they agree that my original post adressed the things her reply asks about and that she has misinterpreted me, in quite a "cheeky" way

my issue now is: do i reply and try to explain myself better? or is it better to just let it go?

i don't want to dig myself in deeper if she's really opposed to my viewpoint, but at the same time i do feel like i answered the questions thoroughly in the first place and the things she's accusing me of aren't fair

#to be clear we were working on issues of identity this week #and we visited a specific gallery in the national museum of scotland and in our reflection we had to talk about how it reflected identity #and i talked about how all of my scottish friends loved it and it was really effective in provoking nostalgia in them #but that as a non-scottish person i wasn't able to access a lot of the exhibits because they assumed prior knowledge #and i said (or at least i thought i made clear) that i think it's good to have a gallery focusing on scottish identity #but that for a museum which aims to ''show scotland to the world'' this gallery doesn't do a very good job #and i finished by saying that i understand issues of identity are difficult and i don't have an answer for how they should be negotiated #these were just MY observations and feelings (which. again. is what i thought the SELF reflection was for) #and one of the other non-scottish students (a chinese girl) replied and said that she agreed #and that she even tried going on a guided tour of the gallery but she still couldn't really learn anything from it #and the course convenor (who btw is not scottish either so. take from that what u will) replies saying that #the gallery actually isn't MEANT for international visitors it's only meant for scottish people #and ''why can't scottish people have somewhere to express their identity in THEIR national museum?'' #which. first of all were all points i made in my post #and second of all - if that gallery isn't meant for international visitors to be able to understand then WHY DID YOU ASK US TO GO THERE #WHAT DID YOU EXPECT US TO SAY??? bear in mind i'd say at least 60% of people on the course aren't scottish #anyway yeah. i wasn't trying to say that scottish people shouldn't be able to express their identity #and i thought i made that clear in the post but obviously not? #but the people i asked about it are all scottish and they all said they thought what i said was fine #and in fact they agreed with a lot of my points!! #ugh i just don't know what to do #bc my instinct is to defend myself and that if i just re-explain then she'll get what i'm saying #but maybe that's not sensible? especially bc i was pretty clear the first time #🧃