#for some reason i feel like im not making any sense

[rootbeerworshiper]

gonna complain bc it’s what i’m good at and then i’ll go back to writing my series bare with me!!

i’ve been watching the triplets since like late 2021 and i fell in love with them for more than just how hot matt is (will say it kept me watching tho) that being said, i loved their content. they made me laugh and i became very invested very fast.

people change and i understand that but what’s unfortunate to me is the ways they’re changing. as a viewer we’re meant to be expecting better content in return for loosing content and that is the last thing we’re getting. i know for sure im not the only one sick of car videos without a topic where it repeats the same trope.

chris yaps, nick yells while chris and matt laugh, and matt ends up annoyed. BORINGGGGG

it’s very clear they think they need to cut back with content to create better content but as a podcast lover… the content isn’t any better!! along with this it just feels like they’re more focused on their personal brands which is fine in theory but it makes no sense for them to make less content for viewers so that in turn viewers will buy their products

some of the best triplet content is on other people’s accounts because it follows a different video outline and isn’t the same shit two times a week

once again, love the triplets but someone needs to tell them that the reason their vids are getting worse isn’t because they are making too many. i understand it’s a lot, but realistically they post on one platform twice a week. they are only active on tik tok when they need to be to keep their viewers, and the same goes for insta.

and like nick has stated many times, he can edit a video the night before and filming it takes at most like 40 minutes so where are the twitch streams and personal videos we were promised?????

so as a fan that’s been watching them for a long time i’m just annoyed. i still love their personalities and occasionally they make me laugh but they need to do some serious reflection on what they want out of their channel. and if it’s just fans money then im not interested

#sienna yaps #sturniolo triplets #matt sturniolo #sturniolo #chris sturniolo #nick sturniolo

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

mooooore estrels. working out some more of her design

#elden ring #elden ring fanart #elden ring oc #tarnished #the nemesis speaks #nemesis art #estrel the alloyed #oh god i haven't done a full thing like rendered in... So long. i think it healed me. i feel good about it anyway #anyway yeah idk. custom mask fuck it. none of the ingame ones fit her perfectly! also im addicted to creating Lore Items #also not sold on giving her the astrologer's staff there's no real reason for her to have it specifically #but neither do any of the other ones make any sense #statswise she would be using the prince of death's but no way she is touching that thing with a twenty foot pole in lore #and the astrologer's staff has swag. it's a good design. especially if your tarnished fuckin holds it properly #and she's only casting some basic utility spells when incants fail really so idk i'll probably leave it at that #oh were you expecting ff art. or idk maybe dunmeshi. some fucking pokemon shit. NO. estrel again.

[weregonnabecoolbeans]

Luke and valentine’s relationship reminds me of obi wan and anakin

#if parabatai was a thing for the jedi obi wan and anakin would have been parabatai #ignore the detail that obi wan would have technically been too old #i feel like if you take all the negative things people think are true about the jedi #all the reasons people use as excuses to hate them #you’re left with the shadowhunters #like if the jedi really were the privileged stuck up entitled assholes people think they are #they would be like shadowhunters #idk if this makes sense #also im not saying i like valentine in any way #i very much hate him and think he got what he deserves #it’s just i feel like obi wan and luke would benefit from a nice sit down with maybe some tea #luke garroway…not skywalker lol #also i very much think the jedi are the good guys #i do not think the shadowhunters were the good guys they thought they were #but that’s a whole other conversation #idk..you can ignore all those tags #just something something parabatai fight as one entity because their souls are connected #something something dangerous ambition corrupting their own mind then betraying someone they once thought of as a brother #shadowhunters #luke garroway #valentine morgenstern #parabatai #star wars #obi wan kenobi #anakin skywalker #darth vader #jedi #kate's post

[bogkeep]

i saw the new ghibli movie yesterday, an experience that was a lot like seeing the green knight, very "that was cool but i have no idea what happened just now." except i think rewatching the green knight would let me connect some more dots, while rewatching heron movie would be purely for enjoying the animation and the vibes and not even try to grasp the plot because i think it would be detrimental to my enjoyment of it.

#i Enjoyed the sensory experience of watching this movie #but the plot feels like alice in wonderland in that things just happen and there's not much rhyme or reason to it #ive seen some people praising the themes and having readings but im not seeing it sorry....... #it's vague enough to function as a horoscope. u can apply any reading to it and surely it'll make some sense #it feels fake deep in the way that it brings up a lot of interesting concepts and doesn't extrapolate on any of them #and i don't really appreciate that? it feels like it's tricking me into applauding how it says so much when it hasn't said Anything #a story doesn't HAVE to explain everything but i appreciate at least a foothold #ALL THAT ASIDE i think it's worth watching if u like animation and Vibes #there's a part with a butch. we all love the scenes with the butch

[bonesrbleaching]

had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what

#lolaa.txt #what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!' #'i wouldnt lie to you!' #okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time. #its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa #also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!' #yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up. #i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men #and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man #so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up. #and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face #that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense. #shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin #you dont have to worry about anyone else. #im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to #never really have #im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are #if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box #then when would you have any space for self discovery #youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats #and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that. #and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names #and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy #and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares. #and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look? #then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness. #SORRY RANT OVER. #im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric. #tw homophobia #tw transphobes

[vaugarde]

i know this may have just been a matter of budget and not having all the voice actors and maybe getting overwhelmed with all the pokemon goh caught and whatnot but man. it’s sad how jn is seen as a last roundup for ash’s journey and it brought back most of his companions and all, and that’s cool, but it completely failed ash’s pokemon roster back at oak’s lab and kukui’s house by going out of its way to justify using only pikachu and mr mime i guess over them in these earlier episodes and refusing to touch on them throughout the series until near the end

#ok im sorry ill shut up soon fjfjfjjfjfjfjg its just. its SO glaring in this first batch of episodes #no ash why cant you use pokemon besides mimey and pikachu. why is that #we dont see any of those guys until over 60 episodes into the show and even then its a small cameo #and his infernape gets a cool moment but its immediately overshadowed by gary #and then yeah theres the episode where it shows all of them but it feels so rushed and clunky and weird in a lot of areas #like they had to cram all of em in there and didnt know what to do with them all #which wouldnt be so annoying if theyd had some show up throughout the series #and the miniseries shot them in the foot cause really it just shows that ash couldve had a rotation team the whole time and just…. didnt #For Reasons. #like. in the other regions it made sense. they were isolated and self contained #but if you werent gonna give him an actual galar team then literally why NOT have ash use his reserves #hes traveling the whole world doesnt it make more sense for him to have oak on call? #oh and then the miniseries didnt even show all of them…. he didnt even have a full team most of the time #and i love the oshawott episode but other eps felt so disrespectful to his pokemon #like when his swellow got turned to stone and ash barely looked twice. wtf #echoed voice

[molliemoo3]

I just made myself sad at 2am by thinking about how I only got to see Seb race for a year, I never got to see Kimi race, I don't have many years left of Danny. People can be really annoying about new fans of the sport, but I missed the best of some of my favourite drivers, I can go back and watch those races online, but I'll never get to experience what those races were actually like in real time and it's awful. Someone needs to invent time travel so I can make child me love this sport sooner.

#this has also reminded me that kimis number is now available to use #sebs is available next year #i barely (or didnt at all) get to see them use those numbers but theyre their numbers #like im probably never gonna see my favourite driver win a race and yet for some reason you feel the need to yell at me for being new #i wish i was hear sooner too friends trust me #is 3rd season new???? newish i guess #motorsport #f1 #formula 1 #being a newer fan of stuff but loving older athletes is amazing but awful #this may not make any sense but its 2am give me some slack :)

[biblicalhorror]

Reading a court of thorns and roses bc it's been rec'd to me many times (by the same two friends mostly) and also I've never really read a smut novel before and Jesus christ this protagonist is insufferable

#first of all its like the author tried to recreate katniss everdeen without any fundamental understanding of her character #like the reason the whole 'i hunt and provide for my family because no one else will' thing works for katniss is that her mother is ill #and her sister is like 8 years old #so like yeah obviously she'd be the one to provide #but feyre is like 'i have to do everything around here because my two OLDER sisters simply dont feel like doing chores' #like what???? #i get that her dying mother for some reason put the responsibilities on her but it makes 0 sense #like whoever wrote this was clearly a youngest sibling with a martyr complex because its just. so heavy handed #also her insistence that nesta is simply too shallow and vapid to do what she does makes me roll my eyes every other page #honestly justice for nesta #1) if my sister started doing all of the hunting and providing without ever communicating why i would probably assume she wanted to do it #2) if after our mothers death she started completely resenting everything i do and glaring at me constantly id think she blames me for it #3) being around that kind of smug negative energy would absolutely make me start to be a little mean too even just as a defense mechanism #4) shes constantly assuming the worst in nesta and is proven at least twice to be an unreliable narrator in regards to nestas priorities #also that comment feyre made about how smug she felt after leaving knowing that her family would 'starve without her' god what an asshole #like you cant present yourself as so much morally better than your sisters and then turn around and say shit like that #anyway im hoping she becomes less insufferable as the story goes on #im told the first book is the worst in the series so i just gotta power through for the sake of world building #j reads acotar series #<<<feel free to blacklist if u dont want spoilers and/or critiques of this series bc i plan to vent on here a lot abt it

[todayisafridaynight]

if i doodle during unlucky monkey stream later would we be mad at me

#not rgg #snap chats #oh yeah stream later. 4:30 THE USUAL #anyway no cause i THOUGHT about drawing during it. i prob wouldnt show it on screen since #Thats A Lot Going On LOL but im only askin in the event i do and im half-paying attention so no one wonders why im Half-Paying Attention #unlucky monkey one of my fave movies and because of that ive always wanted to draw art for it but i keep getting distracted #i suppose the best time to do so would be. during my fourth rewatch of it LOL #there a lot of ttm movie art i wanna make tbh lol... like ive made SOME but theres still more i wanna do #oh but yeah if youve read this far. for whatever reason. after unlucky monkey it'll be a normal judgment stream #'snap what do you mean normal judgment stream' i mean im playing the game for four hours LOL #i need to catch up on lost time so. lol. #i realize pretty much everyone will leave halfway into it if not the first hour of it but thats prob for the best #i'll vod it in any case so if anyone really cares to see it it'll be there #ok bye i have to. uh. god idk #im ngl i still feel crummy LOLOL but i promise i wont be crummy during stream #i forgot the most important thing about streams and that being streams are equivalent to being on stage #i mean i never became an actor for a reason LOLOL #it's a performance art and i forgot that and im mad about it. BUT I WONT FORGET THIS TIME so dont worry bout me bein ill during stream #well. ill in /that/ sense. we are watching a ttm movie ahaaaaa im a sicko 😩 #IN ANY CASE. hope to see people there :) for the judgment segment i promise to make up for yesterday #NOW im gonna uhhhhh yeah idk :) oh my god my organ hurts im going to kill myself #im gonna stare at this google doc for a hot minute

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ay ay ay. now that the soul crushing project is done ive elected to spend the week managing data #which is decidedly more chill than what ive been doing for the last month but also isnt not doing anything and it isnt getting stuff done #for when i have to move. so thats annoying. and ive been drawing again at least but i can feel the escalation in my controlling behavior #so its now very frustrating trying to draw anything. coloring is gonna take a million years rip. #also suddenly everyone wants to b social rn? like tomorrow my boss is organizing a thing with an old lab mate and this weekend a #collaborator is having a retirement party. and next week my lab mates wanna do a trivia night. and i kno that i should go to these things. #and i will try but i really dont want to go to any of it. mostly for driving reasons but also im a husk of a person rn. but the more #devastating thing is that uh next week one of the kids i grew up with is getting married to a rich girl lol. and like we werent that close #bc i was and am such an asocial freak but after the wedding my parents r picking up their new camper and camping their way across the #country with my sisters. and im sure someone probably told me the dates of these things at some point but if u tell me dates i will #instantly forget them. so thats. ya kno. happening over basically the next 2 weeks while i have to kill myself over measurements for a #different study i dont care abt. and like. its fine. ill see them mid may for a different planned trip. it just makes me kinda sad #a product of living halfway across the country i guess. im just inherently more disconnected to everyone. i would suspect thsts semi #intentional subconsciously. u cant b upset abt not being able to connect with ppl if you create enough physical distance that u never see #them in the 1st place. u cant misunderstand me if i make myself absent and unknowable. idk. i was explaining to my mum that i didnt realize #the timeline and she was like. understandable whatever u wanna do! and idk y that upsets me so much. i guess its just that i dont want to b #doing this. its causing me pain but dont kno how to articulate it in a way that makes sense. whatever. my mouth hurts. my lips r so chapped #that the irritation is spread past my lip line. probably doesnt help thst i keep rubbing at it lol. anyway things r still annoying #less soul crushing thsn last week but still frustrating #unrelated

[red-dyed-sarumane]

kyuuyakus so good not only bc its like the only song heavy enough i can tolerate at loud volumes that can Almost drown out my coworker who never shuts up but ALSO for the points ive said 74times & will continue to,

aru sekai shoushitsu set us up for something super sci-fi, which. yes. the series very much is. but it was so technical and almost coldly indifferent. and then we're given the whole "old testament" in the title & the whole intro reading that isnt far from dantes inferno type content as my good friend emimin pointed out. we've got this new aspect added in and at the same time the lyrics let you know this character's still dealing with the complex technical stuff, from the terms down to the second kanji in ashita being incomplete as though because of a program error or interruption or some other similar reason.

and it feels even more different because theres just so much emotion in this one compared to shoushitsu. all the "bye-bye"s written in ways that express deep pain, the fact that the "see you tomorrow"s are cut off in the way they are the first time, and so drawn out the second time. the genre's not the spacey, distant trance type that shoushitsu is; its heavy, its intense, its got as much to it musically as there are details in the story. it's not just to sound cool, it's getting her state of mind across just as much as the spoken words. the world's being destroyed physically & metaphorically, everyone's suffered this over and over, they've parted ways so many times and its just never something they can get used to, especially not if they want to keep trying to end this whole loop, she's stressed past imagination trying to keep everything in check when its just not possible, & the intensity of the music just emphasizes all of that. there's less intense parts too, sort of like a forced focus on what she's doing that all too quickly builds to a panic. or the in the second part where everything gets so dire, the bell's tolling and she's running out of time, the piano over top of it giving such an uneasy feeling, and then right back to that heavy panic. theres so much emotional charge in it you know the long notes aren't just magu having fun with it; you just know they're meant as screams. i dont even think i can say screams for help, i think she knows shes past the point of help or at least that she's supposed to be everyone else's source of help that it's just stressed lamentation. she's doing everything she possibly can and its not working so all thats left is to cry out about it.

and then u have the rute furute wo a motif in here that's added in under the "fractal wa/kurikaeshita" parts that really hits harder now with kannagi for extra context. knowing that this is in the past & can't be changed and everyone else is using this as a point of reference. then u of course have the nami no ne wo motif, & the longest & clearest instance of it aside from maybe oumen mokushiroku so u know she's herself & gets to live, gets to keep doing this & watching other people die. (although i have absolutely no frame of reference for how long she lives given this is a past event & she doesn't seem to be present in the more current time songs. we dont really have that context yet) & then we're back to the rute motif on top of what still sounds like a jumble of nothing. but i also thought the rute line was nothing and here its a big deal so i cant wait to realize what this other jumble is, considering its also under the last ima kizanda parts.

theres just so so much to it, so many little intricacies that build such a full picture from whats otherwise one of the more simple series songs & i cant love it more.

#aru sekai series #part of me is desperately like is that last jumble here the reason the end of ashura sounds so familiar to me #but its not quite right for that i dont think #its also not the repeating whatever from shoushitsu #& it didnt make any sense to me when i tried reversing it either so i just dont know #ashura's a different conversation but oh my god i am so desperate to realize why the end of it sounds so familiar to me #like which song is it from & what motif is it #its NOT the nami no ne no. i know that. that's not in that song despite everything telling me it should be. #which is interesting in its own right considering the whole. cycle of things with ashura as a concept & whatnot. #& yet without that motif it implies she doesnt get to live after her song so thats something i think about often #anyway i feel like what im looking for is in either kyuuyaku or touhikou or both but i can never pinpoint it #compels me tho #as ive said many times the sound design in series songs is amazing when magu says they compose to fit a certain mood they fucking nail it #i thought about putting this under a read more but ive decided to actively be annoying #oh yeah once again im not looking at anything directly this is just off memory & the lyrics i can understand #bc some of these words i forgot immediately after learning. whoops.

[raeygina-george]

Tumblr is so mean to me

#raey spam #something something watching the site fucking destroy itself #it's straight up just Not showing one of my mutual's posts on the dashboard despite us being! mutuals! #then the gross ass twitter layout #the userbase shifting almost entirely to liking instead of reblogging #random ass people finding random ass reblogs of mine #like go reblog from op or people you actually follow 😭😭😭😭😭 how the fuck did you even find that 😭😭😭😭😭 #and. tumblr live #don't get me wrong i still love tumblr but. :( #im mostly just confused at why it's not showing my mutual's posts #they can't see my posts andi can't see theirs and it doesn't make any sense #only reason i could possibly think of is because i blocked them on accident like a month ago but i dont? get why that would make this happen #anyways omori magical girl update i have run into a roadblock #which is that i am struggling to write the story #and that means i can't make any art for it bc i quite frankly have no idea what the fuck kind of worldbuilding there is #atp i think i might just drop the story part & just draw some fun stuff #then maybe i can come back to the story later if i feel like it #bc this wasn't intended to be a fullblown novel it was just. hehe magical girls

[thebleedingeffect]

I still unironically think that hashirama's and tobirams's mom was a hatake and was one of the key factors in the mokutun kekkei genkai and not just senju bs alright good night everybody

#i love how this makes zero sense if youre not invested in narutos lore #results from my very very late night energy spike but im crashing now so yippeeeeeeee #some elaboration cause i feel like it. i personally headcanon that the hatake clan used to exist but was killed around the same- #time as the uzumaki clan #the reason they werent so well known in the fire country is cause they originated from the lightning country #the hatake and uzumaki clan became allies after the lightning country became fearful of their white charka and turned hostile #the uzumaki clan deeply related so the two quickly became fierce allies and that's how tobiramas mom happened #basically konoha met the hatakes through the uzumakis extremely early on in their history and was a key result of the mokuton #in my brain white charka works like this. its an extremely volatile but powerful charka nature but its not made up of any one element #its basically pure energy that has the ability to heal and build upon existing jutsus to make them 10× more powerful #thats why people were so fearful of them as they could take your own jutsu and make it way more lethal in a blink of an eye #another plus is that the healing properties are unlike any another. basically it was well known of hatakes healing uzumakis that had- #pushed their charka systems too far during sealing. blowing out or even collapsing part of their charka network #white charka would basically restructure their network to a 'fixed' or 'pure' state #it was also very common for hatakes to work alongside uzumakis to help them control and share the vast power of their charka so that- #if anything happened. they could siphon majority of the kickback and make sure they didnt just fucking ko in a heatbeat #thats my argument to why things such as charka chains were much more common in the past cause youre SUPPOSED to have- #a hatake on standby who helps heavily in stabilizing their charka and shares the power while making it more durable and controlled #thats why karin and kushina fucking combusted each time they did the charka chains and its NOT supposed to be a- #solitary jutsu!! get you a fucking hatake to HELP YOU OR YOU WILL REGRET IT!!! yeah anyway so im making an oc

[irascible-iridescent]

I just can't explain to people why I hate passports and visas and borders. I hate when some official asks for my documents and looks at them. I hate that. Why are you judging me? Why are you looking if I am good enough to stay in your country, in your city? The country doesn't give you ANYTHING bc you have these papers, but you will have to go through hell sometimes to get them. This is literally the same planet. Its the same earth and the same air and the same water, why can't people just go to any direction they want? How does it make sense that some people drew some lines that define where "their" piece of the planet is? Like it can't belong to anyone, its literally a planet.

#personal #i hate it #if you see enough people struggling and suffering bc they are refugees or immigrants you start to hate this system a lot #also for some reason it feel like violation of my rights when the officials demand to see my documents #i know it doesn't make sense #i dont care #i dont like when ppl look at my passport like its my thing you cant look at it #are you implying that i might be a criminal bc i exist on this planet same as any other mammal???? #im so tired i will never try to explain it to anyone but i wanted to vent on my blog

[redysetdare]

There is something about being able to write an ADHD character and being able to air out all your feelings you had as a kid in relation to no one understanding your ADHD let alone not understanding it yourself.

#text #idk what feeling it is but there is a lot happening #the character im writing is undiagnosed but I was diagnosed as a kid and basically had the undiagnosed experienc #becuz no one bothered to tell me or learn about ADHD #and instead it was brushed off as not the actual reason i had so many problems #I will never share this writing becuz it's of ocs that r too personal for me to ever feel comfortable sharing #but it's like....cathartic??? idk what it is #I tend to do this a lot where I explore and express myself through characters so ig it's just... being able to do that helps a bit #idk if im making any sense #i just reread some writing I did and i just realized how much of myself i put into it #like yeah. those were my feelings. this is how i felt. this is how much it hurt #anyways #writing #writblr #ADHD #actually adhd

[adwox]

i think ive defeated every boss in mmx1 so far without their weakness except for one... thats crazy

#idk the buster just makes more sense to me #ive also configured it so i shoot with L idk it just feels better #hopefully that wont screw me over in future games #launch octopus is the only boss i have left oml i do not enjoy that guys stage #its the only one i dont really care for. also it reminds me for some reason of this ancient pc game i used to play on a FLOPPY DISK #im not that old it just was at school and my school did not have any money so we didnt get cds for the longest time #we still were on windows 95 when xp had been out for years #ANYWAY . #>mine_>text #>liveblog_mmx1 #cause like why not i love tags