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steves6nuggets · 2 years

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“When’d Steve get so hairy?”

Pairing: Steve Harrington x (female) Reader

Summary: Steve takes Y/N to lover’s lake so they can stargaze together. Steve has an idea to go swimming while no one’s around, the only problem? They didn’t bring bathing suits.

Warnings: smut, semi-public sex (I guess?), fingering, penetrative sex (penis in vagina), praise kink, manhandling, hair pulling, language, dirty talk, consensual unprotected sex, nipple play, brief mention of best friend!eddie, brief mention of best friend!nancy, minors DNI

A/N: firstly, this is my 100th post on this blog - woohoo! secondly, this is the first time I’m posting my own original work online! I really hope you guys enjoy it. I’m sorry for the length… the story just kind of got away from me with this one! and before anyone comments on how ‘unhygienic’ having sex in a lake is, remember that this is a fictional story set in the 80s in Hawkins, Indiana where there were no other large bodies of water for the teens to go swimming in. they definitely didn’t care lol. thank you <3. title from stranger things season 4, ep. 6

Word count: 4k+

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Y/N could tell his arm was starting to go numb beneath the back of her head, and the small stones under her red and black picnic blanket were beginning to poke through into his sides. However uncomfortable the setup was, there was no denying the thought behind it all was incredibly romantic.

Y/N’s boyfriend Steve had asked her to go stargazing with him at Lover’s Lake. At first, she said no. Rain was forecast for the entire week and the sky was completely overcast. Y/N couldn’t imagine a worse time to go looking at stars than tonight.

Unfortunately for Y/N, or perhaps very fortunately – depending on how you chose to look at it, Steve was exceptionally persuasive. Albeit, not very organised.

When Steve first pulled up, Y/N was shocked by the amount of parking spaces available. She had never seen Lover’s Lake this empty before.

As this date was spontaneously planned, Steve hadn’t thought to pack anything to cushion where he and Y/N chose to sit – down by the water’s edge. Luckily, Y/N still had her thin, checked blanket rolled up in the backseat of Steve’s car from their anniversary lunch two weeks ago.

“Am I squishing you?” Y/N asked Steve, turning to look at him.

Her eyes were met by her boyfriend’s side profile, as he stared up into the night sky. Stars were beginning to peek through the breaks in the clouds that slowly rolled by. He hummed in response.

“Did you want me to move?” Y/N suggested, as she lifted her head off Steve’s outstretched arm.

This small movement by Y/N snapped Steve out of his daydream, as he turned his neck to look at her. His big brown eyes narrowed in on her face.

“What? Where are you going?” He asked, as his thick brows knitted themselves together in confusion.

“Nowhere.” Y/N laughed.

“I thought your arm was going numb under my head, so I thought I’d do the polite thing and move it.”

“Oh.” Steve chuckled.

“Yeah, your fat head was crushing me.” He teased, turning to look at his hand.

Steve stretched out his fingers and balled his fists repeatedly to get the blood circulating back into his arm again. Truthfully, he hadn’t even noticed it fall asleep under his girlfriend's head.

“Shut up.” Y/N pouted, pushing at Steve’s chest.

“It’s just heavy from studying. I have the entire biology syllabus up in here, you know?” Y/N said, tapping her forefinger against her temple.

“That wouldn’t shock me. I haven’t seen you for days. All you’ve done lately is study.” Steve said, raising his eyebrows pointedly at Y/N.

“That’s not fair, Steve. You know I have my finals coming up.” Y/N frowned.

“No, what’s not fair is me not being able to see my girlfriend for, what? Almost a week?” Steve said, more like a statement than a question. He knew exactly how long it had been since he last saw Y/N, right down to the second.

Y/N knew Steve was mostly joking, but there was still some truth behind what he was saying – he was hurt.

“Well, I’m here tonight, and that’s what matters. That we’re here together and we have the whole of Lover’s Lake to ourselves!” Y/N said excitedly, trying to lighten the mood again.

“We’re only here right now because I’m the master of persuasion. You didn’t want to come at first.” Steve said.

“And as it turns out, tonight was the perfect night to come because the weather warning kept everyone else away.” He said, smirking at Y/N.

“I’ll admit, tonight is the perfect night to be here crowd-wise, but it’s not exactly the best for stargazing.” Y/N said, pointing up at the clouds that were beginning to roll in again.

Steve sighed, as his gaze followed the point of Y/N’s finger up into the night sky. A single rain drop landed on his forehead.

Steve reached up to wipe the wet spot from his face.

“Is that rain?” Y/N asked.

“Barely.” Steve replied.

“It was a sprinkle at most.” He said.

“Should we start packing up and head home for the night? We can watch a movie at mine.” Y/N suggested, moving to sit upright on the blanket.

“Head home? When we have this whole place to ourselves?” Steve scoffed.

“How likely do you think this is to happen again, Y/N/N?” Steve asked sincerely.

Y/N thought about it for a moment. This was definitely the first time she’d been to Lover’s Lake with Steve and there’d been no one else around. She hadn’t come here before Steve; she had no reason to. But from what her friends Nancy and Eddie had told her, it always seemed to be busy.

“I have an idea.” Steve’s words broke Y/N from her daze.

“And what’s that?” Y/N asked, intrigued by what her boyfriend of six months could possibly suggest.

“We’re at a lake, Y/N/N. Why don’t we swim?” Steve gestured towards the large body of water in front of them.

“Swim?! Steve, it’s going to rain!” Y/N said, poking him gently on the forehead, reminding him of where a raindrop had just landed.

“And?” Steve laughed.

“Either way, we’re going to get wet. Now, would you rather get soaked in your pretty little dress sitting here with me, or… we can jump in that lake and have some fun.” Steve said, smiling mischievously.

Y/N felt her breath hitch in her throat as Steve moved his hand that was once under her head, around to rest on her exposed thigh. She swallowed thickly, darting her eyes from Steve’s face to his hand that was now slowly inching up her leg to the hem of her dress, out to the lake in front of her to steady her heart rate.

The water was calm. Tranquil. Still, besides the few and far between rain drops that were falling from the sky above them. It looked inviting.

“So?” Steve broke Y/N from her thoughts.

“What will it be?” he asked, fiddling with the small frays at Y/N’s dress hem.

“I haven’t got my bathing suit, Steve.” Y/N said lowly, as if she was making sure no one could hear her. Seemingly forgetting that there was no one else around them for miles.

Steve chuckled as he watched Y/N’s cheeks burn red.

“Neither do I.” He said in return, his volume matching Y/N’s but his tone was teasing in nature.

Steve stood up in front of Y/N and kicked his Nike sneakers off to the side of the picnic blanket. He leant over to peel his socks from his feet and stuff them inside his shoes.

“What are you doing?” Y/N sat up quickly, spitting those four words at her boyfriend in a hushed tone.

With his back still facing her, Steve turned his neck to look at Y/N over his shoulder.

“Going for a swim.” He said, giving her a wink.

Steve turned to face back towards the lake and pulled his shirt over his head. He yanked the yellow garment up from behind, knowing that this turned Y/N on.

Y/N’s eyes were burning holes into Steve’s back, taking in every detail. Every mole, every freckle, every scar. She took note at how broad his shoulders were getting and lowered her gaze as soon as Steve bent down to pull off his dark blue jeans in front of her. He turned around to look Y/N in the eyes, in nothing but his underwear. Y/N bit her lip as she began to feel that all-too-familiar sensation pool between her thighs at the sight of him. A feeling she only ever got when she was around Steve.

That’s when she saw it. A light shadow in the middle of her boyfriend’s chest.

“When’d Steve get so hairy?” She thought to herself.

“Hello? Earth to Y/N?” Steve waved his hand in front of his now drooling girlfriend’s face.

“What, sorry?” Y/N cleared her throat, feeling incredibly warm all of a sudden.

Steve laughed. “I asked if you were coming in, or if you were just going to sit there gawking at me all night?”

Y/N felt a raindrop fall on the bridge of her nose. After quickly wiping it away, she realised that her boyfriend was right. She would now either get drenched in her clothes while running back to the car that Steve had parked on the main road, or she could let loose a little and go swimming with him. And with no one else around, who was going to stop her from stripping down to her underwear for a late-night dip in Lover’s Lake?

Without saying a word, Y/N stood up on the picnic blanket and kicked off her shoes just as Steve had done only minutes before. She stuffed her socks into her Mary Janes and took a deep breath. She could feel Steve’s eyes on her, so she looked up to meet them. She reached her hands down in front of her, gripping at the hem of her dress. She slowly pulled it up over her head and dropped it beside her.

All that could be heard in that moment was the dull thud of dainty fabric hitting the red and black blanket beneath her feet. That, and Y/N’s heartbeat in her throat. Both her and Steve were still staring at one another.

Y/N stood in a mismatched set, a pale blue and lacy bralette with black cotton briefs. Steve was the first to break eye contact, having slowly lowered his gaze onto Y/N’s chest. She felt her cheeks turn red again, fighting the urge to cover herself with her arms.

Steve quickly shot his eyes back up to Y/N’s face when he realised that he had been staring at her tits for probably a few seconds too long and gave her a comforting smile. He extended his right arm and opened his hand for her to take. She did, and without saying a word, Steve pulled her body against his. Y/N was shocked at how warm he still was considering he had been in his underwear longer than her. Not to mention it was November in Hawkins and there was an unforgiving chill in the air.

Steve dropped Y/N’s hand and slid his body down hers just a little to wrap his arms around the back of her knees. She felt the tickle of his chest hair against her silky and exposed skin, making her grow wet between her thighs. He picked Y/N up with ease and tossed her over his shoulder, jogging into the water until he was about waist deep. Y/N squealed, kicking her legs in protest, as she knew what was coming next.

“Don’t you dare do it, Harrington!” She warned, hearing him stifle a giggle.

“No, Steve! I don’t even know how cold it is yet. I need time for my body to adjust to the temperature, you might give me a heart att-” And just like that, Y/N was cut off by Steve tossing her into the water in front of him.

Even underwater she could hear the high pitched, maniacal laughter coming from her boyfriend’s mouth.

Emerging from below, Y/N used both hands to push her now drenched hair back off her face. She narrowed her eyes at Steve and inhaled sharply through her nostrils, winding her more dominant hand back in the water to violently splash his face.

“Shit, Y/N! That’s freezing!” Steve yelled, tensely raising his shoulders. He clearly hadn’t braced himself fast enough for the incoming payback that he knew he was bound to receive.

“You think I don’t know that?!” Y/N yelled back, gesturing to her fully wet figure in front of Steve.

It was silent for a moment before they both burst out laughing together.

“Come here.” Steve said lowly, opening his arms for Y/N to swim into.

She did just that, not needing to paddle far. Y/N wrapped her arms around Steve’s neck and her legs around his waist to keep herself steady, while Steve didn’t hesitate to submerge both his arms underwater to hold Y/N up by her ass. He spread his large hands to get a good grip on each cheek and lifted his arms a little to pick Y/N up to sit higher on his waist. He could now feel her crotch directly in line with his dick. The only thing separating the two were the thin layers of undergarments that they were both wearing.

Y/N swallowed thickly as she felt her boyfriend’s semi rut against her crotch under the water. She was surprisingly hot considering the low temperature of the lake; her chest flushed a lovely shade of pink that matched her cheeks perfectly.

Steve moved one hand from Y/N’s ass to the small of her back, pulling her body closer to his. They were now chest to chest, with their noses and foreheads touching. Y/N could feel Steve’s warm breath against her lips, and she instinctively parted her own, as if welcoming him to kiss her at any moment.

“Do you want me to kiss you?” Steve whispered, his lips ghosting Y/N’s.

Y/N’s eyes fell hooded at the feeling of her boyfriend’s lips grazing against hers, she was so incredibly turned on by this. All of this. She had never been swimming in public at night, let alone in nothing but her underwear with a boy. And not just any boy, the king of Hawkins High. Steve Harrington. Her boyfriend. She could easily name a million girls that would kill to be in her place right now. But they weren’t. It was her with him. And anyone could catch them right now, which was something that surprisingly excited Y/N.

Y/N nodded in response to Steve’s question, shaking herself from her own thoughts.

“Where do you want me to kiss you?” Steve asked.

“Here?” He began, kissing the left corner of Y/N’s mouth.

“Here?” He said again, kissing the right corner of Y/N’s mouth.

“Or here?” He asked, a little more seductively as he dipped his head to kiss just below Y/N’s jaw.

“Or maybe even here?” He smirked against Y/N’s skin as he kissed just behind her ear, in a spot he knew that drove her crazy.

Y/N let out a soft moan, rolling her head slowly to the side to allow Steve more access to that exact spot.

“There we go.” Steve mumbled into Y/N’s neck.

“Good girl.” He growled, pulling his head away to focus on holding his girlfriend up with one hand, while snaking the other between his and her body.

Knowing where this was going, Y/N locked her ankles around Steve’s waist to help keep herself upright and close to him. She arched her back a little to give her boyfriend room to slide his dominant hand to her throbbing pussy.

Steve moved Y/N’s panties to the side, running his middle finger between her warm slit.

Goosebumps immediately arose on Y/N’s skin, spreading like wildfire up her spine.

Steve flicked his tongue along his bottom lip before trapping it between his front two teeth. He gently ran his finger up and down Y/N’s pussy, teasing the entrance – lightly tracing circles around her tight hole.

“This okay?” Steve mumbled, looking into Y/N’s eyes for confirmation.

All Y/N could do was nod in response, her arousal already taking full control of her body.

Steve placed a gentle kiss on his girlfriend’s lips before dragging his finger back up between her folds and to her clit. He began massaging the sensitive spot, painfully slowly.

Y/N let out another soft moan, rolling her hips forward rhythmically.

“That’s my girl.” Steve cooed, applying more pressure to Y/N’s clit.

Steve loved to watch how Y/N’s body reacted to each of his movements. The way certain hairs on her body would stand when he kissed a particular spot, or the way she would scrunch her nose when he licked between her breasts.

But what Steve loved most was the way Y/N’s hips moved involuntarily when he fingered her. He stopped rubbing Y/N’s clit momentarily to readjust her on his waist, lifting his girlfriend a little higher for better access. His fingers meeting her now aching pussy again, but this time, back at its entrance.

“S-stop teasing…” Y/N managed to say, but it sounded so pathetic coming from her mouth. Steve couldn’t take her seriously.

“Try again, baby.” Steve said, as he pulled his finger just far enough away that Y/N could no longer feel it, but she still knew it was close.

Y/N rocked her hips against nothing but the gentle waves she herself was creating by moving, trying to reach Steve’s touch that was so cruelly taken away from her.

“Stop teasing.” She said again, and this time it was serious.

Steve smirked. Truthfully, he didn’t want to tease Y/N either. So, without hesitation, Steve inserted his finger into his girlfriend’s beckoning hole.

Y/N let out a guttural moan, one that not only shocked Steve, but herself. Her cheeks burned red, and Steve noticed.

“Do that again.” He said.

“W-what?” Y/N stuttered, shyly.

“Do. That. Again.” Steve wasn’t asking, he was instructing Y/N.

Y/N gulped. She didn’t have to be told a third time. Steve inserted another finger so that both his middle and ring finger were inside his girlfriend’s tight pussy hole. He started to move them in and out slowly, letting Y/N adjust before he picked up the pace. Y/N began rolling her hips to match Steve’s speed, and with that, she let out another raspy moan.

Steve finger fucked Y/N as she eagerly humped his hand, unable to help herself. His thumb coming up to massage his girlfriend’s clit at the same time his fingers worked her. He began moving his fingers inside her in a ‘come here’ motion, and when he felt Y/N’s body start to convulse against his, he knew she was ready to come undone.

Steve held Y/N’s back tightly. His nails dug in slightly to keep his firm grip on her, leaving little crescent moon shaped indents on her soft skin’s surface. Y/N entwined her fingers with the tight curls that formed at the nape of her boyfriend’s neck from sweat, tugging gently.

Steve decided to take this opportunity to remove his fingers from Y/N’s hole and pull his underwear down to his mid-thighs, freeing his hard-on beneath the water. Neither of them could see how much pre-cum was leaking from it, but boy, could Steve feel it. He took his dick and lined it up with Y/N’s entrance, pushing her panties to the side again.

“Ready, princess?” He asked, gently nipping at Y/N’s collarbones.

Before saying anything, Y/N tightened her thighs around Steve’s waist and removed her arms from around his neck, pulling the straps from her bralette down her arms. She didn’t know where she acquired this newfound confidence. Maybe it was the thrill of being seen catching up with her again. If anyone were to spot them now, she may as well give them a proper show, right?

Once her arms were fully free from the straps, Y/N’s bralette fell at her waist, still clasped tight at the back so she didn’t lose it in the lake. Her tits spilled out over the band of her bra, nipples immediately hardening. This was likely due to a mixture of both arousal and the cold air.

“Ready.” Y/N said.

Steve’s eyes fell to his girlfriend’s breasts. Full and perky, he leant down to take one of her hardened nipples in his mouth. Sucking and licking, he took it between his teeth and pulled back gently. Y/N whimpered at the sensation this was causing not only to her nipples, but her pussy too. She began to start humping at nothing again, desperate to feel Steve’s cock inside of her. Barely grazing the tip, Steve shuddered and let out a low moan of his own.

Steve swallowed thickly as he slowly pushed himself inside of Y/N. Pushing until he had filled her up entirely with his cock. There, he just held it for a moment. Feeling it throb inside of her as her walls tightened and released around him almost in sync.

Y/N wrapped her arms back around Steve’s neck, running both hands through his hair, grabbing handfuls to tug at.

“F-fuck…” Steve barely managed to say, pussy drunk by just how good Y/N felt around him.

“Fuck!” Y/N cried out in response.

“You’re such a good girl for me.” Steve said, as he finally started moving inside Y/N.

Those words set her body alight. Y/N loved when Steve praised her.

She began to ride Steve’s cock beneath the water, pushing her tits against his chest. Letting out a loud moan while revelling in the moment, Y/N’s thighs trembled as she tried her best to hold herself up.

“Don’t worry, baby. I’ve got you.” Steve said, moving his hands so they were now both firmly grasping Y/N’s ass. One hand on each cheek, Steve squeezed his girlfriend’s perfect butt before he began moving her hips.

The pressure of the water made it hard for Steve to go as fast as he wanted. Although it was cold, beads of sweat formed along his hairline as he moved Y/N up and down on his cock.

Y/N lurched forward at this new sensation, pulling Steve’s hair as her chest rose and fell against his.

The light rain drops that both Y/N and Steve had managed to mostly dodge during this time had now built up to become a pouring rainfall. Y/N turned her head towards the water’s edge to see hers and Steve’s clothes getting drenched, along with the picnic blanket. Steve forcefully grabbed Y/N by her jaw, turning her head back to face him again. His usual kind, honey-coloured eyes now dark and filled with lust.

“Look at me while I fuck you.” Steve said, more like a command than anything else.

Y/N swallowed hard as she panted in Steve’s face, she was breathless, and her eyes welled with tears.

“You’re close, aren’t you?” Steve asked.

Y/N nodded. “Uh-huh.”

“Be a good girl and cum for me then.” Steve said, leaning his head down just to lick back up again between Y/N’s breasts.

Y/N let out a whimper. Those words were enough to send her over the edge. Steve’s hand still cupping her jaw like a vice, holding her head in place so that he would have the perfect view of her face when she fell apart.

“Oh shit,” was all Y/N could manage to choke out as the waves of pleasure finally crashed through her body. Her entire body shook and convulsed, her pussy and thighs clenching around her boyfriend’s dick and waist. Her eyes looked pleadingly at Steve, her mouth open, jaw slack, with nothing but soft moans quietly escaping her lips.

With that sight unfolding right there in front of him, it didn’t take Steve long to reach his high as well. His eyes screwed shut as his hips stuttered. Steve’s cock twitched inside of his girlfriend’s pussy as he moaned, feeling his warmth flood inside of her.

Steve’s pace might have slowed down, but he was still lazily thrusting into Y/N as the two of them came down from their high. After a few minutes, Y/N unwrapped herself from Steve’s waist and he removed himself from inside her.

“You’re such a good girl for me, Y/N/N.” Steve said, placing a kiss on his girlfriend’s forehead.

A comfortable silence fell upon the couple, as Y/N submerged herself shoulder deep in Lover’s Lake, pulling her bralette straps back on while Steve pulled up his underwear.

The pair ran as fast as they could in water back to the lake’s edge, grabbing their clothes and balling them up against their chests. With no time to get re-dressed in the pouring rain, they ran back to the main road in their underwear. Jumping in Steve’s car and locking the doors, the young couple laughed breathlessly as rain pelted on the BMW’s roof.

“Now, you still down for that movie?” Steve asked, grinning at Y/N.

Y/N beamed at Steve, biting her bottom lip. “Of course.”

“Good.” He said, leaning over to the passenger side to land a kiss on Y/N’s cheek.

“Let’s go.”

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A/N: I hope you guys enjoyed this piece of writing by me! if you did, please make sure to leave a like or reblog. I am hoping to do some more writing soon. they probably won’t all be as long as this one though lol. sorry again. please don’t hesitate to send me requests if you have any! I’m only planning to write for Steve Harrington, Eddie Munson, Robin Buckley and Nancy Wheeler so far (sorry if your fav isn’t mentioned) <3

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thesunoosshining · 4 months

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anyways while i procrastinate the next chapter of my smau. here's what i think i would consider my top 10 favourite movies i WATCHED in 2023. they may not have come out this year. and it might be a rewatch but like i saw them this year. ok yeah. keep in mind im a simple silly girl i honestly don't consume much content that isn't related to my hyperfixes sooo i do miss a lot of movies el oh el. anyways !!

under the cut cuz this list is Long sorry guys 😭 would appreciate if u read it though 🫶 just my silly thoughts and i'd love to hear urs !!!

1. spiderman: into the spiderverse. i'm sorry to say i didn't get to see across the spiderverse yet. also this was a rewatch i'm not that late to this movie. but. DUDE. genuinely what i'd consider my favourite movie. of all time. the graphics? literally gorgeous. ugh. i could go on about this movie for ages. it really did change animation if you ask me (a non professional teenage girl) but like ?? the story oh my god i loved the idea. and miles was such a Person. he was so real. oh they did such a good job on miles and gwen and stuff. just like. they were so real to me. i love them so bad this film genuinely had an indescribable effect on me. also i ADORE the soundtrack <3

2. oppenheimer. like. okay i know people complained it was too long. and i get that but also i genuinely would watch like. another hour of that film. THE CINEMATOGRAPHY?? dude it was amazing. i genuinely loved oppenheimer ough it was such an Experience. especially because i went into it thinking i wouldn't enjoy it very much? yeah i was dead wrong. LOVED that film.

3. top gun: maverick. this did come out 2022. which feels crazy i swear it was this year. but i know it was '22 because i rewatched it this year STILL HITS THE SAME !! i genuinely love this movie so fucking bad! the characters were so fun. and i liked how like? despite the established lore that's obviously shown in the film it has a very open new-audience entry point (idk what else to call it ?!?!) because i didn't watch the original top gun but i honestly think i understood like. basically everything in the film. maybe i missed some like nuanced ideas bc they were like linked to the first top gun but other than that it's good as a standalone too and! i value that. it's a great film.

4. blue beetle. i don't know if this film was like. Objectively this good? but i have a few reasons. firstly, i'll admit i'm biased and i just like blue beetle. i love jaime reyes !! so i was super excited to hear there was a blue beetle movie. secondly, i loved the acting. the cast wasn't all that big? not that it was small, or anything, but it might've felt that way bc most of the characters were jaime's family. but. like? they did so incredibly well. it was a Generic Superhero Movie tbh. like, half-assed romance, character's family member dies (will not spoil who though! soz for the half-spoiler) and all that? but. OUGH. beautiful film like the premise was pretty interesting as a blue beetle origin story and i loved the acting it was just. yeah. i loved this movie so so much.

5. transformers: rise of the beasts. i didn't think i'd like this one as much as i did when i watched it. like i really did not. BUT? oh my god it was good. i loved bumblebee !! like okay i know he had his own movie with the reboot but i haven't seen it so. ya. but like also? i really loved the humans. they felt like such People to me? i love them dearly yeah this was actually such a banger movie. 10/10 would recommend!

6. the lego ninjago movie. now. i know a lot of people hated this film. from what i heard back when it came out anyways. and i remember shitting on it too back then but? i genuinely liked it when i rewatched it. it's an enjoyable film. i personally am actually a big fan of the redesigns ?? i like the new designs i like how they put them into the show (even if i'm like. not up to date. at all. sawry!) and i liked the whole high-school thing i thought it was a cute little au. and ?? i know it was very unserious but like. that's by design. i liked it like sometimes you really just shouldn't take it so seriously TEE BEE AYCH !! but maybe that's just me.

7. enola holmes 2. oh my god I LOVED THIS ?! i honestly found the first movie like. a little boring in terms of rewatchability? and i remember liking this film but i rewatched it again and like oh this one was so cool. the match girls strike thing was actually really interesting to me! i didn't know about that so it was pretty cool to learn that. AND? THE ROMANCE? "it means i love you" let me ouuuuuttt oh my god !!!! yeah i loved this movie honestly.

8. a whisper of the heart. honestly i'm kind of late to the ghibli scene </3 I DID SEE THIS BEFORE THOUGH THIS IS A REWATCH but i love this film too much to not mention it. ough. i love a whisper of the heart !! it's so cute and i just love the characters so bad !!!

9. baby shark's big movie! is this on the list only because enhypen was in it. yes. okay no not actually lmao but! it was a factor! like okay. HEAR ME OUT !! it gave me equestria girls vibes! my girlfriend told me never to compare baby shark to EQUESTRIA GIRLS but like. i will speak my truth ! the whole thing was just. silly! like yeah it was a little boring at times and i agree with my gf because nothing beats equestria girls (which i sadly didn't see at all last year. nor descendants but if i had they'd have made the list for sure!) but i genuinely did enjoy this one. it's the truth!

10. drive. i know someone's going to be confused but my brother made me watch it and like. man i genuinely liked it okay 😭 it was a fun watch? that's rlly all there is to it i thought it was funny how he never had a name and is literally called "driver" in the credits. it's hilarious. and like. ryan gosling. yk? and i'll be honest i was running out of movies i saw last year that i actually like. remembered. because i have shit memory and i don't think i saw anything All That Life Changing below like the 8th movie so idk.

bonus: a little list of movies that i might've been interested in but i didn't get to watch last year. just in case one of your favs (or popular slash mainstream movies you've heard of) didn't make the list and you're wondering why. barbie, across the spiderverse (watching soon i swear !), guardians of the galaxy 3, teenage mutant ninja turtles, aquaman and the lost kingdom, anyone but you (i plan to watch it with friends soon!), the boy and the heron, the super mario bros movie, five night's at freddys, and i'm sure theres more but i forgot so yeah.

this is already very long 😭 IF YOU STUCK AROUND THEN THANK U ! let me know what movies you enjoyed this year !!! and if you also enjoyed any i put on this list ! or if u have recs i'd be happy to hear them <3 no guarantee i'll watch them bc i'm very bad with watching movies and stuff but i'd still love love love to hear them !!

#⭐️; star talks #YALL IM SORRY ITS HUGE? i shuld be writing the next chapter for chapter: extra.... oops #but alsooo um i wanted 2 share!#lmk ur favs. if u stuck around to read all of that then ty i know it's long 🫶 but i have many thoughts #not all of them are coherent though

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TELL ME ABOUT THE CHIPMUNKS LORE. pretty please.

1st thank you for indulging me (even tho i asked lol) 2nd.maybe dont open this unless you want to get blasted with useless information + unimportant yet dearly held opinions + offtopic addendums + true sincerity. i tried to hold back guys im sorry. hold onto your hats im getting fucking crazy in here

firstly ill summarize and say that my "version" of the story of aatc [1] is basically just an idealized version of the "lore" the 1960s version gave us (i say "lore" in quotations bc there was. none lol).

now a lot of my ideas concerning the "lore" of story are interconnected to my opinions about the actual application of aatc media in real life . for instance, the story is set, vaguely, around the late 1950s - early to mid 1960s, like the irl "run" of the original chipmunks records. i personally believe that, as a real media franchise, aatc really has no reason to exist within our modern world with the technology we have today [2] so aatc as a fictional story is affected similarly. along with that, when the story is played out in the context of 1960s america it creates a richer thematical experience as the themes are compounded and expanded on. [3] a lot of the themes that i consider Essencial to the story deal with acceptance of differences and familial love and questioning of ones own humanity and sense of belonging, both within oneself and within the family unit and within larger society, and conservative 1960s suburban america is just a rlly good backdrop to place all of that. so basically i believe in the Contextuality of 1960s aatc and i love to allude to those contexts within the story.

another thing about my version is that i allow it to be inconsistent both with itself or with real life, just cuz it doesn't really have to be. for instance, this story has a floating timeline and i consider the chipmunk's ages to range from 8 - 10 years old— theodore is 8, alvin is 9, simon is 10. (simon is the oldest in the 1960s era idc who says what, i will die on this hill) however at the same time i think it would make the most sense for them to come from the same litter, which would make them all the same age. so i consider the chipmunks to be different ages while also considering they were born at the same time. i do have an in-world resolution for this discrepancy [4] but you get what im saying: my version of events is a little fictional story for me and me only so inconsistencies like that can be brushed over . mainly so i don't think too deeply about the logistics of things (cuz i tend to do that to avoid any possible criticism cuz i am Afraid of flaw) . like i'll catch myself being like "but how does the development of a real 8yo match theodore's behavior? 🤨" and i have to tell myself "bro.. this is a fictional cartoon world ur literally talking about a talking chipmunk its Not That Serious it doesn't have to be that realistic dude" so i just say its my own little play place and i get to do what i want :)

my version of the backstory of the chipmunks is not really all there in terms of external and internal consistency, but it mostly resembles the 1980s series' backstory where dave finds the chipmunks on his doorstep. (see [4] for entire story) i think that the months after dave took them in were honestly a p dark period for the family. i don't imagine dave had good support system and i think the mental struggle of suddenly caring for 3 incredibly strange children all the while fearing societal reactions to them (which restricted him from getting the help he needed) [5] definitely aged him. ithink hes like, early 30s when the chipmunks arrive, late 30s when the timeline "starts floating"... not as young as most (?) fans/iterations interpret him to be. i think that, before "the chipmunk song" was created, dave had raised the chipmunks for like.. 3-5ish years. what i'm saying is that dave definitely took in the chipmunks out of the kindness of his own heart and not cuz he wanted to capitalize on their singing prowess (aHEM looking at a certain movie 🤨)

also, i like to accentuate the animal-ness of the boys by taking real world information about chipmunks and applying it to them :) in general its a little bit of a pet peeve of mine when ppl just completely disregard the animal part of funny animal characters... esp with alvin and the chipmunks bc thats like. Their Whole Thing . they are chipmunks ? why do you just ignore that 😭

now i have talked a LOT about angsty stuff but i do want to make it clear that legit all this stuff is the subtext and background for interactions shown within the 1960s chipmunk media. the chipmunks are still happy kids who have fun and goof around and piss off david !! its just that they have fears and their own Issues like any real person.

so yeah! thats my chipmunk lore!! ^^ i have a whole document about my version so im definitely. fucking insane about the chipmunks. if any other aatc fans are reading this please be nice to me 😦 i feel as though i am very much a weirdo in my sandbox all alone soo dont h8 me plz :)

and just to send it off with some silly lore here are some random headcanons for each character that i have taken straight from my lore document ^^

alvin: would 100% be a leash kid . just sayin (as a former leash kid myself)

alvin: takes after david musically— when he writes his own music and makes up little songs to himself it sounds very similar to the songs dave writes. alvin doesn't recognize this but dave definitely does :,)

alvin: insecure about his height and constantly reassures himself that he will have a growth spurt when hes older

simon: loves loves LOVEs non-conventional and instrumental music! especially those set in different modes

simon: astronaut kid he loves space and wants to b an astronaut . born at just the right time B)

simon: knows better than to follow along with alvin's troublemaking + rebelliousness, occasionally tries to push back, but often is just like. fuck it we ball and goes along with it, especially if its fun ^^

theodore: LOVES the technical aspect of music + the recording process . he will tell you all about the science behind how vinyl records work unprompted.

theodore: doesnt like to sing solos as much as his brothers do bc of past childhood asthma at age 3 and also because he can not stop himself from giggling when hes singing hes just so happy :)! (THIS ONE IS CANON 💥💥💥 SOURCE: UP ON THE HOUSETOP CHRISTMAS W THE CHIPMUNKS VOL 1 ‼️)

theodore: although he is the most naive of the bunch, he is not dumb . hes just a little kid who likes being silly !

dave: before taking the chipmunks in in his early 30s he was the world's most regular guy . wrote hits for other people, continues to do that occasionally into the boys's careers

dave: literally has a song for everything . he will do everything to a beat .

dave: embroiders and cross-stitches to regulate his anger + knows how to sew really well since he has 2 make all of the boys' clothes. (CANON ⁉️😍) also it was his decision to color-code and embroider their initials onto everything they wear lmfao

FOOTNOTES (color coded for your convenience!)

[1] - in this post i refer to the media franchise as "aatc" (alvin and the chipmunks) and refer to the actual trio of characters as "the chipmunks" to avoid confusion. i just want it to be said that i personally dont like to call the media franchise "alvin & the chipmunks" on account of the whole "uuu if alvins a chipmunk why is it called alvin & the chipmunks" joke, i personally prefer to call the franchise just "the chipmunks" as it is shorter and includes the 1960s era as for most of it the franchise went by several different iterations (if we lived in a perfect world the franchise would still be called "david seville and the chipmunks" . just saying)

[2] - back in the early 60s, combining pitch-shifted vocals and character-acting was an innovative technique that took real time, effort, knowledge and skill to achieve. but nowadays not only is the concept no longer fresh but literally anyone can create their own "chipmunk" vocals in a matter of minutes. the story & characters (also nostalgia) are really the only thing keeping the aatc franchise going, esp since that's what more modern iterations of aatc focus on rather than the actual music.

[3] - in the media outside of their albums (the alvin show & the dell comics, specifically) there is always an underlying theme of comparison between david and the boys and the 1960s concept of a nuclear american family. its not exactly an "Intentional" theme, it more or less comes with the (irl) time-period the original aatc media was created in. the seville household is, inherently, a subversion of the ideal of the "perfect family" that households were compared against and strived to be, even at the expense of their own comfort, ideals, safety, etc. this subversion can be played into for drama and angst in a richer, more plausible way than it would be if the story were set in a more modern time period, u know? but yeah i believe that, as a fictional story, aatc shouldn't be divorced from the context of the attitudes and values of what mainstream society thought a family should be in the 1960s.

[4] - essentially in my version of events, dave was given no information about the boys and he basically made up their ages. when david found them in his backyard, they were oversized chipmunks as large as your average cat. they all sort of acted like young human children, but they were a lot more... chipmunk than child. they could only babble— but the sounds were recognizable as human speech. dave was obviously freaked out and resolved to keep an eye on them whenever they were in his backyard. he really only resolved to take them in due to the fact that he could literally see them change throughout a single week. how i imagine the chipmunks' biology is that they are a mixture of human and chipmunk (not literally, mind you, more as a physiological, figurative thing) so they have the intelligence and development of a human while still doing certain things like undertaking hibernation, wanting to forage and stockpile and burrow, things like that. however their growth rate is incredibly fucked up, going from the actual size of a newborn baby chipmunk to the size of a human toddler within like, a year. with this rapid growth also comes more human-like intelligence. once they were actually living in his house, dave knew there was something human about them with these creatures so he couldn't just let them return to the wild, especially since they were becoming more and more dependent on him and more and more human-like as days passed... i definitely think there was a moment of pure clarity for dave where he realized like. wow, that's a child. these things are children. and they are relying on me to provide for them. they are absolutely attached to me by now. and i think i might actually be attached to them too. and thats when he decided to name them and truly care for them like any other human child. overtime the chipmunks slowed their growth rate and matched their developing rate with the same as an average human. the chipmunks don't remember much of their early childhood and nothing can really be disputed so davids word of what happened is gospel. And yeah thats their backstory basically. if you want more on dave's view point on the chipmunks and their fucked up growth process, you can read this post here :)

[5] - he overcame this, of course. he did not want the boys to think that he was ashamed of them. public school was a different story, however, and the boys were more-or-less in a state of homeschooling before the release of "the chipmunk song." knowing that most of their peers would actually look up to them rather than down upon them extremely reassured him.

#Dont look at me.#this is literally the most vulnerable i think i have ever been in my life.#please be kind i am obviously mentally ill 😭😭#um im not tagging this one guys. sorry #i am VERY afraid.#i will be tagging personal however. because this is literally the most personal i could ever get.#personal

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bibliophilea · 1 year

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Through Traps and Overgrown Paths Our Fates Await

Inspired by "Through Traps and Overgrown Paths (Our Fates Await)" by @bubblegumbeech

Album artwork by @kawaiijohn

For @invisobang 2022

It starts with a bed of Poppy Flowers and a stranger holding out a helping hand. How was Danny to know this stranger was anything but and that Family dynamics in the Infinite Realms were even more complicated than back home?

Read the phic here: ao3 | tumblr See Dante's art for the phic here: tumblr Listen to album on bandcamp here: bandcamp

Mastered by @lexosaurus First track mixed by lexosaurus Lyrics and lead vocals in first track by bubblegumbeech

Thank you, @kinglazrus, for being the head organizing force behind Invisobang! It's been a pleasure working with you as a mod and an artist, and your spreadsheets are phantastic!

Firstly, I am so sorry for how late this is! Invisobang 2022 is over, and Invisobang 2023 is well underway! Nevertheless, I loved working on these songs, and working together with the folks above to create this music! Invisobang has been such a great experience for me, and I am so thankful to have worked on it with y'all!

Bee, your phic is amazing - I love how you've developed Flynn and his ghostly family, including Misery Vex, and their relationships to one another! And I adore how you throw Danny into this mess of a family! Very well done, and delightfully written!

And Dante, your art slaps! I love how serious and rugged you draw Flynn, and I love how you do Danny's expressions! And the cover art you made for the phic and for my work is so good - it does a great job catching the vibes of Bee's phic!

Thank you, Lexx, for mastering my work, and for mixing the first song to really capture the vibes! You did and do incredible work!

I hope this music does the phic and the art and all your work justice!

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hey tibby, i got two questions about saw for you. firstly, when do you think the saw movies take place? like what specific year/s? i know theres a few writing errors when it comes to years in the franchise (the tag on jigsaw’s foot at the autopsy, for example) so i’m just trying to see what would make sense despite these errors.

also. what would the spiral killers role be in Jigsaw the family sitcom (more important than the other question)

i am a firm "saw the first movie takes place in 2004" believer. yeah yeah the idea of it happening the day before 9/11 is funny but it doesn't work with the few established dates we do have (gideon night takes place in late october of 2006, hoffman's sister is murdered in 1997 and baxter is released from prison after five years which makes hoffman's revenge kill and recruitment from john in 2002 at the EARLIEST, trying to include a coherent timeline of events by including jigsaw is impossible but fwiw logan was in the iraq war. i think. i don't remember the movie). also the idea that amanda and john manually set up the phone to that date just to fuck with them is also very funny to me. and my research suggests that the motorola used was released in q4 of 2001, which means it came out in october at the earliest. but nothing is conclusive and i respect all walks of life etc etc.

generally though from the time amanda is recruited (april 2004, because i do believe bathroom trap takes place in september regardless of the year and lawrence mentions being interviewed by police five months prior) through to the end of the final chapter (late 2006) it's like a 2.5 year time frame. nerve gas house takes place at least a year after bathroom trap, gideon night is six months after nerve gas house, and the events of v/vi/vii shortly follow. again, no canon confirmation, but given strahm's throat is still bandaged in v we can assume his tracheotomy wasn't that long ago and he dies like the day after being discharged from the hospital. and then hoffman's vi/vii clownery is like two nights back to back. so that's that. early to mid 2000s over a three year time period.

unfortunately the spiral killers don't really play a big role in jigsaw the sitcom simply because it takes place like 15-20 years later. which is a tragedy because i think jigsaw fanboy william emmerson/schenk having the worst "don't meet your heroes" experience of all time only to not learn from it is hilarious to me. i did vaguely conceptualise an episode where he starts his silly little copycat killings and they have to come out of retirement to trap his ass because oh now we gotta be responsible for this clown. and william really does think it's an honour that a bunch of middle aged retired murderers have reunited just to torture him.

my beloved dizzy did write a fic about this concept (not sitcom nonsense but adam/amanda/hoffman live and william loves team maim and kill). unfortunately my concept of retired-but-still-completely-off-their-rockers hoffstrahm (they're NOT dating and they're absolutely NOT married and strahm is still trying to prove hoffman is guilty and hoffman still plans on killing him one day but they do live together and have weird gay sex and are trying to figure out how to get married for tax benefits without actually getting married) having a honey where IS my supersuit moment from the incredibles about the glass coffin didn't make the cut. but we can imagine it <3

they also all try to impart "queer elder wisdom" (see: absolutely horrendous dating tips) onto william to help him with zeke. unfortunately he takes their word as gospel. hence the whole "torturing you and sending you body parts" stage of the flirting process. it's dawning on me that this message is completely incomprehensible i'm sorry. missed saying absolute nonsense about these movies to a public audience.

#sawposting #jigsquad #ask #anonymous #also i have like eight billion asks im sorry. they will happen. somehow. eventually.

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June, hello! I already told you that but I just want to, firstly, congratulate you on finishing the Little Bird, and I honestly can't believe it's over! It was such a rollercoaster and I'm going to reread this story a lot!

And secondly, thank you so much for such an incredible journey and such an outstanding story that honestly has a great influence and effect on me. Thank you so much for your incredible work!

Thank you, Anna 💕 I’m so grateful for your support and glad that the story gave you something good, and if you will end up rereading it, I hope I can get a glimpse of whether and how your perception on the story changes (especially the fairy tale).

As it is usual the end of things brings me a bit of sadness after a while, and I am taking some time off, so sorry if I’m replying a bit late. Hopefully I’ll be back on my (fan writer) feet soon… ready to write… confabulate… and who knows what else 🪽

#little bird #ask

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sleepy-seal · 3 months

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Welcome back to another episode of: TMAGP & Treats!!!

This week's treat is........ brownies!!! Just plain baking mix brownies.

sorry for the lackluster treat! i'm currently recovering from a wisdom teeth removal surgery and wanted something easy to make while listening.

- got lucky that we have another box of baking mix because energy is low today after yesterday's surgery

- pan is greased

- COLIN?

- thats actually kind of nice sam is worried for him

- cameras huh? almost like he's afraid of being watched

- uh ohhhh sam's a bit agitated

- SAM

- SAM STOP FUCKING AROUND AND FINDING OUT YOU'RE LITERALLY GOING TO DIE THIS WAY

- WELCOME TO MY TWISTED MIND????? LMAO

- 2000's ass blog post

- "Bye! ^_^"

- this is a bit interesting though. the blog owner states that they're keeping the blog for posterity, but a good chunk of the posts have since been deleted

- voyeur huh? sounds like that entails a lot of watching

- A KOFI TOO OH MY GOD

- CINEPHOBIAAAAAAA LMAO

- GIRL RUN

- HOW IS THEM MANAGING TO FIND YOUR ADDRESS WITHOUT YOU INPUTTING IT NOT RAISING ANY RED FLAGS

- it looks dilapidated on the outside?????? run???????

- since i can't eat the brownies due to Surgery Reasons i'm opting to eat the batter instead (as carefully as possble)

- eating all the popcorn before the movie starts? relatable

- okay so before the Scary Part starts i'm going to guess it's a detailed version of the writer's life story but from a 3rd person's perspective

- okay i was a bit off. but i was right in spirit

- that is a bit interesting though. it's like the movie is a disease that keeps spreading. someone sees it, makes a blog post about it with the same exact words, someone else sees the blog post, that someone else sees it, and so on and so forth

- OKAY. INTERESTING

FINAL THOUGHTS:

okay firstly, this episode was pretty interesting! it was a bit shorter than the previous episodes but still something substantial. i'm nevertheless intrigued and still curious as to how things will develop.

but more importantly, COLIN!!!!! i know he was in episode 3 but i miss him already. it's interesting though that sam notes how weird colin's been acting lately. he is very intentionally going analogue. and to be honest i can't really blame him. he knows that the programs inside the computers are watching them, and will use practically anything digital to connect from one aspect to another and spy on people (remember how they managed to connect to alice's phone in the first episode??? literally no device is safe.) him doing literally everything he can to distance himself from the electronics is not going unnoticed. while we're on the topic of IT's, i'm wondering why gwen was so interested in them all of a sudden. does it have to do with the video she saw? could klaus be the german IT guy? what happened to him? perhaps he knew too much, and it was getting in the way of his work. and the fact he's german. could he be the one who wrote the code for the system? it doesn't explain things, but it definitely something to keep in mind. it seems like gwen is onto something, and she's starting her own little investigation.

i am also keeping an eye on sam. he's a bit better at this than jon, in the sense that he's not being overtly obsessive about it Yet, but something is up with him. he's a bit irrate and making incredibly bad decisions, but to be honest, who doesn't when they're in a bad mood? i do appreciate him trying to bring up colin's current state and offering some kind of solution, rather than pushing him away. i think he genuinely wants to help.

also alice is so confused. i feel so bad for her. "why is everyone acting so weird?" honestly i do not blame you. alice get behind me everybody is going to make you look like the weird suspicious person for trying to stay sane.

sorry for the delay guys!!!! the pain is bearable but i've just been having a hard time getting my thoughts together. this episode has given me a lot but also not very much. overall, i think everybody is acting weird and i know this is bad because my guys :( my little sillies. anyways, that's all for now! goodbye!

#tmagp spoilers #tmagp speculation #tmagp #TMAGP & Treats

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sadistpet · 4 months

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(( ok, i saw you post a portrayal meme i think and i just wanted to drop in there for a quick minute and do a thing; I AM SORRY IF THIS MAKES LITTLE SENSE I AM SO SLEEPY

oh my lord, where did you come from? like, you appeared one day and the volgin inside me was like 'AY OOP U WOT' and dont get me wrong i need to get on volgin and let these men make love but shhh enough of that a minnie while i talk some waffle;

firstly, your writing is. MWAH. the goOD CUSH. the best cush even? i've seen you talk of your education and like, in my opinion, it goes beyond that. like, i read your writing and im just- i feel as though i should get a hot cup of cocoa and snug up as if i'm reading a book. you're articulate and your words are beautifully written. im no critic by any means (high school level BAYBEEEE) but i can tell you now that when i read your writing, i'm simply blown away by how incredible it is. you can see the passion in your words, the way you describe things, people, places, etc. it's like seeing someone paint a beautiful picture - but with words! (if that makes sense???)

as for your portrayal; THANK YOU SO MUCH. seriously, thank you for showing us raikov. thank you for giving him more than just 'the pretty boy comic relief lover of big scary man'. you've given him so much more, while staying canon, respecting canon and doing canon justice. i think if kojima saw the way that you write raikov, he would give it his blessing because you truly do such a magical job with the character. i always say to people who are passionate about their characters that i love that, i admire it. it excites me seeing writers clearly in love with what they're writing and i always get that vibe from you. and AND as one side character writer to another, straight up solidarity with you, my friend. keep doing a wonderful job (i know u will).

fINALLY cause i have WAFFLED MASSIVELY, you - are so wonderful. seriously, always supportive, always sweet, always kind. i want to pat your head and show u to everyone like that one will smith meme. you're fab and i am SO so glad that we're moot moots. thank you for being so fabulous, i'd tell you to keep being amazing but i know that you will. <3 ))

OH MY GODDDDDS HAN YOU ARE SO SWEET ( CRUSHES YOU AFFECTIONATELY LIKE WHEN RAIDEN DOES IT WITH A SPINE ) YOU ARE LITERALLY SO SWEET IM THROWING UP SCREAMING CRYING

to answer your question of where i came from i was in fact delivered to this world in a very small little basket with pink bows on it and an atomic bomb in my hands. and i found out about raikov because my beloved showed me mgs2 and he loves raiden ( me too ) and raikov is obviously linked on his page and something about him just made me keep coming back. maybe because i am also blonde haired blue eyed love eating whiny mean and annoying. but something about him i just needed to write. i love love love taking neglected characters and doing a 2000s makeover to make them into an actual Character and he was a perfect candidate !

and then i nailed down this url and i just HAD to make this blog ESPECIALLY WHEN I SAW THAT YOUR BLOG EXISTED. OH MY GOD. i was like no now i need to theres a fucking stellar writer here writing volgin. i need to throw raikov at them with all the strength of a baseball pitcher or whatever theyre called idk baseball terms BUT YOU GET THE PICTURE. part of the reason this blog exists is literally because of yours. SO YOU HAVE YOURSELF TO THANK

YOURE SO SWEET since i developed cfs/me in my mid-late teens ive felt my writing has kinda. gone downhill. so it makes me so happy to hear that people are still enjoying what i'm doing ;o; YOU ARE SO SWEET I AM SO GLAD I DIDNT LET THE AVPD WIN AND STOP ME FROM MAKING THIS BLOG CAUSE AUGH. AUGH. everyone intimidated me so much but youre all so so sweet and nice to me i fucking baheem sob sob THANK U SO MUCH. GRABS YOU

#SCREAMS ALL THE TIME FOREVER. SCREAMS. FROWS UP #SAVE #g: ¦ ❝ ooc. ❞#g: ¦ ❝ answered. ❞

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safetycar-restart · 2 years

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OH NO!!! i cant BELIEVE i missed boypussy!seb object insertion woe be me i am INCONSOLABLE (i went down with a cold so bad it was like a nosedive and the disturbance in the force brought me back to life but TOO LATE oh no)

i will at least come scream at you about it as it is all i have left in life 🥲

because hello ????? walking in on him masturbating is always fun and i think A LOT of it would be the most unexpected place/time because when he is horny he is horny and he would just shrug shove a hand down his pants in the first semi-private corner he can find and think nothing of it. So usually he isn't fazed at all by your appearance but now you walk in and he is suddenly shy? hiding, covering himself up?? and was that ?? was that a bottle between his thighs ???? shels hello???????

and YES the fun thing about water bottles is how easy it is to include temperature play and YES getting a fun-shaped water bottle and putting it in a freezer would be PHENOMENAL but also can i rase you a boring-shaped round one that is on a thick side and filled with hot water?

and it's mostly unplanned, you just decide last-minute while he's choosing panties that you might want a bottle on hand for today and this is the only safe-looking one (no label glue or scratchy cap etc) you can find quickly, and then you fill it so it's heavier and easier to handle and turn the tap to hot in a bout of inspiration.

you genuinely don't expect it to have much effect on top of the fact that it's A Water Bottle, but then you press it up playfully between his thighs and he just freezes? His eyes go huge and mouth falls open when you nudge it about just a little and then he is scrambling for your wrist frantically so he can make you hold it still while his hips slide up and down it in a beautifully obscene motion you don't think you've ever seen him make? he opens himself with his free hand impatiently, desperately trying to angle his hips so that the hot side of the bottle presses simultaneously against his clit and entrance, and you're just, entranced by how smooth the glide becomes in barely a couple of motions because he is so wet it gets smeared all over the bottle instantly, and then he starts whining helplessly because he cant get it to press against him snugly enough so you snap out of your trance to help him find a better position

and then when you get it inside him--it's cooled down a bit by then but is still warm, and you can't imagine what would've happened if it was still properly hot because even as is he comes so quickly and so messily, all of him seizing up, and oh my god it never occurred to you before to look into heating-up toys but maybe you should?

lmao SORRY idk what happened here evidently i am in water bottle seb land now. i feel like there should be a cheerful little 'kink unlocked' icon on my forehead or sth

Lwmon 🍋

also sorry i went quiet for a hot bit ive been through like 4 time zones in under 3 days bc i had to get to a uni where im doing masters abroad but now im HERE and im SO FUCKING HAPPY i cant even tell you and then i barely been to like 2 days of classes and my body was like yup off with you and i went down like a shot plane with im-hoping-not-the-flu but anyway

Oh my god this is AMAZING. Lemon anon you are truly incredible I always look forward to your ramblings after I post Seb content.

Firstly, I’m kinda in love with Seb always masturbation around the house? I think at first he’d be really shy about it (which is less to do with being shy about masturbating and more about being shy about not shaving his pussy and being worried about it you not wanting to always see it). But then once he’s comfortable? Absolutely all over the house.

You arrive and Seb is sitting on the couch with his hands down his pants or touching himself in the bathroom. And especially in the gym? You guys have your own gym at home and the amount of times you’ve walked in on Seb masturbating mid workout is ridiculous.

But anyway back to the object insertion idea:

I had never even thought of using hot water but oh my god that’s brilliant??

And Seb wouldn’t have thought about either. He doesn’t expect it at all. He’s more focused on the fact that you’ve brought a thick waterbottle for him, happily spreading his legs because he’d like it right now please.

Then you run the bottle over his folds and holy fuck it’s hot??

Seb doesn’t even know how to deal with that, has never felt anything like that before and he needs to have that against his pussy IMMEDIATELY.

He grabs your wrist, holding your wrist tight to make sure you don’t move as he grinds against your he bottle. It feels so good.

You’re entirely entranced by how good he looks, how desperately he’s grinding against the bottle. And he needs it inside him as soon as possible.

Seb almost never opens himself up, but you’re holding the bottle against him and he’s so desperate and he just has to start opening him.

But the poor thing can’t get the angle right?? He’s trying to have the bottle against his clit and his fingers inside and it’s not working he needs help!!

Maybe you let him hold the bottle against his clit? He holds the bottle like it’s a vibrator, pressing it against his clit as you open him up enough to take the bottle and then take the bottle from him to fuck him with it.

The bottle isn’t as warm as it was before, but Seb loves it either much. He whines and tenses to quickly, cumming almost instantly.

So yeah, you’re gonna have to start looking into heated toys.

#kinktober tag #shels catches up on kinktober asks #nsfw.#sub!sebastian #sv #gn!reader #🍋#👅

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moonmeg · 2 years

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Alright I feel well enough to address what happened to me the last two weeks that I had to speak in riddles and was so sad.

TW// death

Firstly, about two weeks ago my mom broke the news to me that our cat Mila, like her older sister a year before her, was hit by a car and did not make it. This is still difficult to talk about - no loss of someone you held so dear and close to your heart is easy to talk about. I was heartbroken and was left with this more or less alone. I had my best friend who I called immediately after who comforted me and I had my other friends giving comfort too and I am incredibly grateful to have friends that are there for me. What I needed though was a hug. I wanted to just fall into my best friends or mom's arms and cry, because no one here would hug me. Or understand my pain, as I was to find out. Now don't get me wrong, my host family was really really nice to me but when I confessed about my loss two days after I myself found out, because I didn't want to bother them with my personal problems, I was met with a simple "I'm sorry" from both host mom and host dad. I wasn't expecting a hug or kisses, but a gentle stroke on the shoulder or some more words of comfort other than a plain "I'm sorry" would've been nice.

These are the downsides of being abroad and away from family and friends. When you need them physically, they aren't there and can't be.

Because I was so hurt and because I was mourning my little baby I had barely to no motivation for anything the next day. I overslept for work and after host mom arrived from the night shift she went to Corso Italia with the boys and her sister and brother-in-law. She invited me to come along but I refused, due to the low motivation. A mistake as it turned out.

Last Wednesday I was late for about 4 minutes. I left my phone downstairs and in my rush I didn't close the door upstairs fully. I urged to the host mom and while she did criticise and scold me (as deserved) she also said "I know you don't do this on purpose but this cannot happen again."

When I arrived home, I made myself a tea and suddenly host mom calls me. The connection is bad and there is wind hindering me on hearing her properly. I misunderstood a question about the door at first and thus answered wrong and when I understood correctly I obviously answered with the truth. In the evening first the Au Pair agency called me, letting me know my host mom is worried and asking me how I feel about the placement here. Then they called me upstairs. To talk. And we did talk. I found out apparently they had their doubts since Saturday (the day after I found out my cat died) because I was so off and now after the disastrous day that was Wednesday, they... couldn't trust me anymore. Because I was late, because they thought handling the kids was too much for me (which isn't true but they never bothered to ask me), because they thought our life styles are too different (which is true but it's not a problem to me), because they thought I lied on the call, because my inactivity on Saturday was unreasonable, host mom literally saying "I worked the whole night through and still went with the kids. You just stayed here and rested.". That I refused because I found out my beloved cat died the evening before and had no time to mourn her because I had to work again didn't seem like a reasonable "excuse". I explained myself but without use. They made the decision to end the hosting. I can stay with them until I found another host family but they cannot trust me enough anymore to keep me as Au Pair. Ironically, this week they still wanted me to help out with the kids despite not being able to trust me?

For clarification: the way I'm handling with the kids wasn't the problem at all. Just what's mentioned above.

Anyways, I did find a new host family very quickly thanks to the agency and they are also very nice and open people so far. I'm not with the new family just yet, I'll probably move this weekend. The only person I had to truly comfort me was the caretaker of the great-grandmother that I live with - Olga. Due to both of us being able to communicate in Russian and coming from similar cultures (she's Ukrainian, I'm half Russian) and her treating me like I'm some long lost daughter or niece, she has established herself as the most important person to me here. It pains me to leave her behind but I got her phone number so we can stay in contact.

Hopefully everything goes well now.

#moonmegs au pair in 🇮🇹

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lopez-richter-fangirl · 2 years

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Okay let’s talk spies are forever it’s a musical it’s about spies

Firstly gotta say that I am so damn proud of TCB for making this happen it was so so cool to hear this songs revisited and all the original cast were SO much better than they already were in the original show. And the new additions also killed it

I was gonna try and stay on focus with the songs but immediately have to shout out Joey’s hair it really is so damn luscious. Still think there’s a little too much mustache but it is a Look and he does rock it. And while we’re at it fucking Lauren Lopez’s hair ma’am. MA’AM. God bless you and your curls I’m eternally grateful and also dead and in heaven. And the ring my god why did they need SEVEN diamonds I didn’t wanna keep looking at it but I kept looking at it it’ssofuckingsparkly. And definitely wasn’t emotional about it one bit

BUT back to the actual show lol love seeing these gay spies back together and love how much they emphasised they were gay because the subtlety makes sense in the show but we want everyone to know they were lovers

Curt has always impressed me with Spy Again and the emotional journey he goes on is perfect but hearing it live really made me appreciate his voice. Also taking someone’s drink during the song and then proceeding to accidentally spill it was a big Agent Curt Mega move

POMME I’d never seen/heard any of his performances my #1 thought with him had always been thank you but fuck you for giving us that story about them flirting, but his voice was also SO good and he was so funny. Joe’s DMA is so distinctive but this had the same essence without being an imitation it was so great. The start of Somebody’s Gotta Do It was him onstage asking Clark if it was his number and he said hi to Denise both nights (idk how many shows his parents went to but both that I was at) and made a joke about not having seen the show and been meaning to watch it for 6 years and then we get baby boy running on stage with his “sorry I’m late” and he’s just SO GOOD as Sergio. But “wife” got me just as much as I was expecting and there was a lot of hip game definitely at least the last night and doing it to emphasise wife was not it Joey. Not. It. Also didn’t think about hearing the dialogue so the wedding anniversary bit was also no. And I had an anon talk about Pomme hanging out with J&L but them singing this song together also made me like,, 🥺 But Joey’s VOICE I continue to be impressed by how much he’s improved

Then Eyes on the Prize I my beloved. Adore Lauren’s Cynthia. “Curt shut up” when he’s not saying anything? Perfect. Love the range in this song because her high notes are the most angelic thing to ever exist in this world but she controls the switches so well. And definitely the last night the growl in “die on me”,, babe do you want me to pass out? Okay and AJ!! He is so fucking funny, the way he does the “you gotta’s” and then just walks away so casually. And Lauren’s sustained notes at the end my goddd she’s fucking incredible. Really need her to not sing with her hands so much when she’s wearing the goddamn ring though

And man Tessa with Pay Attention is also perfect every time, 150% vibes and energy. Talking about Curt’s beard when he doesn’t have a beard always gonna be funny. This song was also about making sure everyone knows they’ve got great asses, apparently

Eyes on the Prize II truly sensual as FUCK. In a funny way but also a Lauren you gotta stop way

And we did get (a slightly censored) Not So Bad! They really handled it so well, and Brian really emphasised the “I’M Jewish”, it was even more over the top ridiculous, they cut the dance break to check in, and said a very explicit “fuck Nazis” at the end. Love them

Like I’ve said, fucking adore Joey’s Vanger Borschtit but AJ was so fucking great, I knew they wanted to change some but they changed a LOT of lyrics which was fun

Doing This is such a great song MK and Curt are really great (we know I’m not her biggest fan but the way MK sang the “in your mother’s home” part really hit something in my brain but are we gonna act like Lauren wasn’t the best part of it, no. She’s SO funny. Okay wait also in my head she did a really pretty riff but I’m actually 96% sure I’m making that up lol

And then my favourite part of the show, Lo coming onstage to say “best song in the show” and then “oh not that one, the one I’m about to sing”. Uproarious applause. She takes a bow. Incredible. Genuinely her stage presence and command of an audience is insane

One more shot is suchhhh a fun song and I really wish Esther could have been there but Brian was SO great

Then One Step Ahead honestly the first night I was just like my god Joey is Hot. So either I was just distracted or they did up it by the last night but like getting close enough to kiss, Joey checking out Curt’s ass, THIS is what this song is. And again, Joey’s voiceee. And the return of “time-a decide!!!” Can’t believe I almost forgot

Then Spy Dance is another really fun song and made even better by Lauren maybe fucking up and then laughing at herself bby girl I love you

And huge shoutout to Clark (and Pierce) for WRITING the most amazing songs and accompanying

This really just emphasised even more how *incredible* this show is, I’m so grateful I got to see it and I really really hope this is the start of even bigger things for them

Honourable mention to Lauren’s little runs when she was going offstage you’re the most adorable person I’ve ever seen

Everyone get the digital ticket!!

#i love this show so much #and i’m so proud

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"hello mr. tajna. is your daughter by any chance at home?" i immediately recognize this voice, jump off the couch and run towards the door. "i am home, hi. you didn't tell me you were in town." "yeah i wanted to surprise you." i hug him tightly and he hugs back even tighter. "i missed you." we both say at the same time. i giggle. "but i missed you more baby." i gasp, how dare he. "no way!" i say theatralic. we pull away. he smiles and pinches my nose slightly. "i'll always miss you more." he then exclaims. now it is my turn to smile.

"i'm being honest, lucija. i really missed you a lot."

"i'm being honest too, jimin. i missed you a lot too." he smiles again. then we hear a clear throat. i completely forgot about my father. "are you two now arguing who missed the other more or are you going to do actual productive things?" "we are mr. tajna. i'm ging too take lucija out and we could do a sleepover at mine. if that's okay with you?" jimin asked my dad. "if you two use protection, then yes."

my face immediately went bright red, jimin on the other side seems to be amused about this answer. "dad! we didn-" "we will, thank you mr. tajna. have a good evening." jimin interrupts you and turns towards you. "do you want to pack your things? you'll need-" "i know what i may need, thanks" now it's my turn to interrupt jimin. a little bit angry i walk upstairs to my room to get my things.

firstly i start looking for my travelling bag. once i find it i throw it on the bed and go to my closet. there i start searching for some shorts and a cropped tank top, that would function as my pyjamas, then i look for my favorite black, cropped top with a blue butterfly on it and my sport leggings. the last but not least things i pack in my room are my underwear and socks. then i go to the bathroom to gather my toothbrush, toothpaste, brush, my mascara, eyeliner and my concealer, for the case we would stay up late.

five minutes later i walk the stairs down again. i see dad and jimin talking about something and i walk to them. "i'm ready." i say and smile. "have fun my little one." my father says and kisses my forehead. "thank you dad. i bet we will." jimin and i both bid our goodbyes and then walk to jimin's car. we hop in and he starts the engine. "are you still mad at me, because of what i said earlier?" he asks once he sees my pout. i nod defiantly. "oh come on. that was obviously a joke. look, i' sorry i embarrassed you in front of your dad, but you look cute when you blush. i didn't want to waste a chance to see your cute blush." he explains and my mouth drops open and i blush again. "okay, i'm not mad anymore. but still, you embarrassed me in front of my dad, by saying: 'we will thank you.'" you try your best to mimic his voice which fails miserably and you both start laughing.

"wait," you say once you are able to stop laughing. "where are we going? to your dorm?" "yes" "but do the others know about me?" "no, we'll smuggle you in and out, okay?" "sounds like fun. count me in." i laugh.

"i don't want to tell them about you yet. what if someone tries to steal you from me? i don't want that to happen." he pouts and looks incredibly cute. "but that could happen now and in a few months too, right?" "oh, you are right. i didn't think about that." "but i'm okay with hiding, so let's talk through this when we are at the dorms. but i can assure you, i wouldn't want anyone else except you. you don't need to worry about that."

some time later jimin says: "we are here" and parks the car. "you don't have to worry darling, the boys are out, you have to hide or anything, but they will be here tomorrow, so then it will get complicated with smuggling you out of the dorm." i cringe at the pet name. "darling, it's okay." i mock him. "hey, what should i have said? huh?" "i don't know, my name?" i say while getting out of the car. "okay baby." he answers sassily. "ugh, i can't with you." " oh come on." "joke, you are the best."

jimin takes, like a gentleman my bag and carries it, while we walk to the building. we get in and he opens the door with his key. "here we are. home sweet home." he says holding the door open for me. i enter the hallway and jimin points towards a huge wardrobe and motions me, to put my shoes under it. as i have done it, i realize, that there was one pair of shoes other than mine and jimin's. "jimin," i whisper. "yes?" he whispers back. "i think there is someone else here." "oh shit. let me see." i move out of the way and let him have a look. "oof, and i thought it was the maknae or tae, or jin, or hobi. that are just yoongi's shoes. it's very likely that he's sleeping. so let's just go up to my room."

while walking to jimin's room we don't dare talking, in fear we would wake yoongi up.

once we entered jimin's room, we both let out a sigh. then i look around. his room is nicely decorated and a little bit messy. "i'm sorry, it's not as tidied as your room but, it was a spontaneous decision. when i heard all the guys are out i hurried to the car too get you, so yeah, sorry." "so you are since a few days back in town?" "yeah, since yesterday night." "oh, and you don't have a jetlag?" "nah, i slept pretty well. oh, and sorry, i don't have any extra matress, so, you will have to sleep with me." i raise an eyebrow and grin. "you sure, you know what you said?" "oh, sorry, you will have to sleep next to me on the bed, i mean, you could sleep with me too, but then-" i take the next best thing, that happens to be a pillow and throw it at him. "hmpff." he grumbles from underneath it. "deserved bitch"

"yah!" he takes the pillow and throws it back in my direction. luckily you saw it coming and avoided it in time so that it flies back on the bed. "ey, i had a reason! you didn't" "'deserved bitch'" he mocks me. "i had a reason too, so you don't have a say in that" with that he tackles me and we both fall on his bed. "hey!" i laugh as he starts tickling me. "no no no no! p-ple-please!" "please what?" he laughs too. "s-stop" "then beg" he growls with a deep voice. as i pry my eyes open again and look in his they are darkened. fuck, i think. "please stop. please!" i beg him desperately. "good girl." he says, still with a deep voice. he lets himself fall next to me.

as i am able to breathe properly again, i turn to him and ask: "what was that?" "what was what?" he mocks now with a raspy voice. "good girl? and the tickling thing?" "i do not even know myself. it just came to my mind and i didn't think before talking." "- or doing" i continue his sentence. "or doing." jimin confirms.

we both smile. "that's so typical you jimin." "wow, thanks for that compliment." he says with a sarcastic tone. "you are welcome." i say also sarcastically. i start laughing. "we should get everything ready for our sleepover, shouldn't we?" "oh yeah, and most important, we should get some food. i start to feel hungry." i say. "well then, lets make a plan. wait a second, i'll grab a pen and paper." he stands up from the bed and walks towards his table to get some paper and a pen.

'Luz' and Jimin's Sleepover':

- get food

- make the bed ready

- look for a movie

- listen to music

- take a walk at midnight to the park

- get ready to smuggle luz out of the dorms

jimin lays the list on the bed and we look on it, to rank the points to make a order how we would start.

"so, at first we should get the bed ready, then-" jimin starts and i interrupt him: "-then we get food and listen to music while we look for a movie-" now he interrupts me. "-and we take a midnight walk and then sleep and then we smuggle you out of the dorm." "sounds fine with me." "so this order it is, alright. then let's start now." jimin says.

jimin walks to his closet, where he seemingly keeps an extra blanket. he returns with one so my intuition was right. he doesn't need to get extra pillows since he keeps three of them, with his own one counted, "can i help you somehow?" i ask him curiously. "no no, i got this. but thanks,"

when he was done with getting the bed ready, what didn't take him long to be honest, now i wanted to get food. "can we get food now?" i want to know. "sure baby. let's go, we are going out." "wait what?" i follow him downstairs, where we put our shoes on. then we walk outside. "so where do you want to eat? wait, more specific, what do you want to eat?" "i don't know, food?" he groans. "ugh, why can't you answer like a normal person?" "sorry," i let my head hang down and pout. "oh no, don't be sad. we are going to get ramen, okay?" he hugs me tightly. i hesitate for a while but then nevertheless, i hug him back. as we pull away, i nod. "ramen sounds fine."

after we were done eating we walk back to the dorms. luckily no one recognized jimin, as an idol and wanted to make photos with him or was wanting his autogram. that could be, because of the face masks we are wearing. at the dorms there is still no one home except yoongi, so we are able to sneak back to his room without any incidents. there jimin turns the television on and i get my phone from the back pocket of my jeans and get my airpods from my travelling bag and hand him one, the other one i am keep to myself. then i turn my favorite playlist on and jimin smiles as the first song sounds.

meanwhile he looks through some movies and series on his disney + account until we find one. "how about this one?" he asks with a soft voice. it was captain america: civil war. "can we see the trailer? pretty please?" i answer in return. "sure baby," with that he presses the button for the trailer. i love this movie so much, i am even able to talk a few sentences with the actors. jimin knows that this is one of my favorite movies, which is the reason, he showed it to me. "can we watch it?" "sure we can luz."

he then turns on the movie and i crawl closer to him while he puts an arm around my shoulder.

after two and a half hours of cuddling and talking nearly the whole movie with the actors in synchron, we finish the movie (and the snacks). we then get ourselves ready to take a midnight walk. jimin hands me a hoodie and says: "wear it. it's going to be cold," "you know, that you will never see this hoodie in your closet again?" i ask playful. he sighs but then he smiles. "yeah i know. but you can keep it." "you are the best!" "i know tell me something new." he jokes. "now shh, we gotta be silent. or else someone will see or hear us." i nod in agreement.

as we are outside, jimin grabs ahold of my hand and we start walking to the nearest park. as we reach the next park we sit down on a bench and i lean my head on his shoulder. he kisses the top of my head and lets his head rest on mine. we both look up to the moon, which is clear to see. lucky for us today is a cloudless night and we're able to see many stars and the moon.

"you are cute." jimin tells me. "thanks, and you are very handsome." i reply. i raise my head and so does he. we look each other in the eyes and lean in for a kiss. jimin puts one hand on my cheek and the other hand sneaks around my waist. as our lips touch i feel, like it is the first time we kiss. it always is like that. our lips move on their own and my hands make their way up in jimin's hair.

awe breathlessly pull away and smile at each other. "we should get back, shouldn't we?" i am the first to speak up. "yeah, i guess we should. let's go." he answers and stands up and reaches his hand out to me, to help me up. gratefully i take his hand and stand up. we both don't let go of our hands and walk again towards the dorms.

at the dormitory he motions me to stay silent and we sneak hopefully silent enough in jimin's room anthere we change in our pyjamas. "that was a great day jimin, thank you." "no need to thank me baby. i liked it at least as much as you did." "what means at least?" he only laughs as response.

"what i actually wanted to say is, i, park jimin am lucky to have a girl like you on my side. i never want to lose you, alright?" "i never want to lose you too." "i love you, tajna lucija." "i love you too, park jimin."

this was my first time ever saying 'i love you'. i smile at the thought. it was beautiful.

and with that we both lay down on the bed and cuddle at each other. within five minutes we both sleep like a rock.

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if you read luz, please pronounce it like luc, (idk how to pronounce it, like in spanish the light yk?)

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bingsoo-jung · 1 year

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A rant on how humanities coursework will not solve the AI problem

So I’ve seen a lot of people saying that the ongoing AI crisis and resulting strikes is a result of the decline in funding and education of the humanities, and as someone who both writes and is a STEM student. Let’s discuss this.

Also I apologise, this is going to be long.

Firstly, this is a hypersimplification of a problem to make people who study the humanities feel better about themselves. I’m so sorry to say that, but it’s true. Your course on the introduction of composition is only so useful to a STEM student. I am almost willing to say that it’s useless. It is a nice platitude for people who do not understand the problem.

What we need are courses to both teach humanities people more about STEM and how it works, and teaches STEM people about how the humanities applies to what we study. Because not only are STEM folks failing to understand the ethical implications of their work, but the way non-STEM scicomm and ethics people discuss STEM is misinformative. So many people seem to think the solution to the AI problem is legislation of the algorithms and not how the data is obtained or what data is used in the first place. This is a problem of intellectual property caused by corporations like Disney and cases like Citizens’ United.

And while I understand the call for more humanities, at my uni only STEM students are required to take cross department courses, and rarely have I seen it have any effect on my classmates understanding of ethics. While many will make the ethics leap of how this applies, when your field is majority cishet white men, you need to point it out. The humanities coursework offered doesn't do that. That will only be solved with scicomm and science ethics courses. And if you want to have STEM kids take you intro to composition course, then you should change your coursework so that it address us as well.

I've taken somewhere around 12 humanities courses in my underground, as well as a physics ethics course. None of those increased my understanding of actual ethical concerns and dilemmas going on in STEM. In fact, the best education I ever got for this from a university was was watching 1 hour argument from two EE professors over coffee and tea when I was 17. I do not attend that university. It does not bode well for anyone that a conversation I could've walked away from was the best education.

The current university coursework for all fields is incredibly behind and is still acting as if technology as a whole is brand new. It hasn't been for decades. OpenAI and ChatGPT have been a problem since their inception that people like Timnit Gebru have been discussing for the past decade and you have all been ignoring, brushing it off as if it were only a STEM problem. Science ethicists and students told you this would be bad a decade ago. You didn’t listen because you didn’t understand the science. These things were invented on your college campuses, and the fact that you didn't know of them until it was 'too late' is your fault. So start making humanities coursework that addresses STEM and stop expecting people to make those leaps themselves. Because they're not going to, and you need to stop acting like a class on Charlotte fucking Bronte will actually solve the problem.

#stem #ai #chatgpt #science #computer science #artifical intelligence #rants #physics #computers #machine learning #mlm #computer generated image #science technology engineering math #math #technology #engineering

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the-sappho-of-lesbos · 2 years

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I worry about you seeing some of your personal posts. Other anons have said it too, but you seem to truly hate so much of yourself. I am not saying this to try to be unkind or hateful, it just truly hurts to see people, especially intelligent, thoughtful ones, do this to themselves. I hope you get the happiness and love you deserve, truly. I just hope you learn to stop giving in to the self hatred and commit to the incredibly brave act of learning to forgive and love yourself first. Please treat yourself with the gentleness and kindness you would give your younger self. They're still there.

And please remember, nobody's timeline is the same. Some people find their true love in their teens, some in their late forties some in the retirement home. Some people marry young and end up miserable and some stay single most of their lives and are truly happy, even if they aren't aromantic. Things happen in their own time, you are not restricted to some imaginary social checklist.

Good luck, honestly and truly. I wish you nothing but happiness.

-love, a very late blooming lesbian who took a very long time to find herself, love herself, and find someone else to love her too 💜

I’m so sorry it took me so long to reply to this!! I kept trying to get my thoughts right on what to say but I don’t know if I’ll be able to lol. So I apologise in advance if this is just a jumbled mess that makes so sense whatsoever.

But firstly thank you for being so kind 💕💕💕 it truly warms my heart and means a lot to me 💕

Ever since I started therapy I’ve jumped around “I hate myself” to “ can I really say I hate myself?”. I get conflicted because I feel like my actions and desires don’t always align with that self hatred. I buy myself things. I can definitely argue I do it sometimes in an OCD related way, to fill the void, , impulsivity issues. or a self harm sort of way. But sometimes I just see something I want and get it for myself. I start to wonder can I really say I hate myself if I do that. Would I happily buy something for someone I hated. I don’t know. And with how much I crave love and relationships. I’m definitely on my last tether with the whole thing , and I give up hope a lot, but I still try in my own way to get it. If I hated myself would I do that. Maybe just makes me a horrible person to chase after something so vulnerable and beautiful when I dislike myself so much. Butch

But also I don’t look at myself and feel joy. Most of the time I feel a massive disconnect to be honest. Like I’m not actually me, or I never have been me, or I don’t even know what me is. Sometimes it feels like my soul is disconnected from my brain and my brain is disconnected from my body. Like there are three layers of me that aren’t tethered together properly and all just floating around. So when I say I hate myself what part am I referring to. Because they often don’t feel like the same person. It’s like everything is fuzzy but clear all at the same time. As if I’m half awake and half asleep. So when I do feel hatred what part is it for. But also how do I fix it when everything is just floating away.

That sense of wanting to be neutral at the very least is sting. But it’s hard to catch that feeling when so much is going on in my head. This probably makes so sense but I often don’t feel real while simultaneously feeling so unbearably real it hurts.

So self hatred gets mucked up in all that. I don’t know what I can call she and what I can’t. Where it starts with me and where it starts with my circumstances. Or not being able to reach this fictions ideal of life I’ve built up in my head from an early age. I don’t feel cut out for living - not necessarily always in a suicidal way, just in an this doesn’t feel real or I don’t think I’m feeling what I’m supposed to kind of way. Like a blocked up river or something. Things aren’t flowing the way they feel like they should.

And just with the way my brain I’m so enamoured with ides of love. It’s probably so unhealthy and unrealistic and I’m probably never doing to find what fantasy I’ve built up in my head - and I know it’s just exasperated by the hole and emptiness I feel in my chest. But I wholeheartedly genuinely don’t know how to stop those feelings. I don’t know how to not crave the love and relationships I do. Or to just be content with what I have and wait for love. I want to. I just don’t know how. But maybe with more therapy I’ll get there one day. Because I think having that more grounded and understanding approach to relationships will go a really long way :)

And I completely feel like I’ve lost my train of thought now lolol.

But genuinely thank you again so much for reaching out and being so kind and helpful. It warms my heart so much 💕💕💕

I hope you have a say just as beautiful as your heart!! 💕💕💕💕💕💖💖🌸

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