#first ive lost my mind

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#first ive lost my mind #second i have season 1 on dvd #third i found a program to record dvds thats a whole other thing #anyways im here now #binge watching old shows #need that nostalgia #life with derek #casey x derek #derek x casey #michael seater #derek venturi #casey macdonald #ashley leggat #they are cute im sorry #gif #gifs #gifset #1x4 #nostalgic #childhood #dasey

[skitskatdacat63]

I think a lot about this painting that was, presumably, given to Fernando at the 2012 Japanese Grand Prix, which there is just zero explanation for it, other than these pics:

Where is it now????? It better be hanging up in a place of honor in one of his houses istg!

But what makes this better is that after he crashed out from that race, he tweeted a samurai quote 😭 I like to imagine him just nonsensically mumbling samurai quotes while staring at this painting in despair

#i meant to post this back when i made his chair lore posts #bcs someone actually pointed in out in the tags #but i forgot so ive just been hoarding it until now 😭😭 #literally lost my mind when i first saw it like oh my god!!! nando samurai art????? #wish we could've seen his reaction </3 #like is this not literally his dream???? #anyways he def has a painting like this in boy king au #but seriously where is it now 😭😭 I NEED TO KNOW #its just so perfect #oh yeah also that quote is from a 17th century japanese book #so it makes me question. did he just look up 'samurai quotes abt battle tactics' #or does he genuinely read samurai texts. id really like to believe its the latter #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #2012 japanese gp

[mishapen-dear]

something about qbad mentioning how much horror he put red team thru every time purgatory gets brought up... something about how proud dapper was of him.

like this is just my late-night read but- it feels like guilt qbad is trying to twist into pride. he keeps needling away at it. “i killed them all, over and over and over again.” “they were hunted by a monster.”

it’s like- reassurance. like a nail he’s trying o beat into his head. he’s had SO much trouble with legitimately hurting his friends, despite making that vow all the way back when the eggs first went missing, despite all the tree talk and the promises to save the kids no matter what. He never faltered with elq, and that protected them. He keeps faltering now. Sometimes he doesnt remember the code, or cucurucho, or skeppy. But that doesnt matter, right? Because he’ll protect the eggs. He’ll be the monster. he is the monster. he can and he will protect them even as his seams start ripping and he keeps breaking further and further apart. even at his worst, he’ll do whatever he needs to protect the eggs.

he’ll be the monster. wont he?

#qsmp #he loves his friends and he wants to hurt them #he loves his friends and he doesnt want to hurt them #qsmp badboyhalo #ita like. He was torturing himself with the soul vultures because he kidnapped ron and threw down some scary magma mobs #and then forever changwd rhe whole fuckin narrative with that appreciation room and bad remembered the joy of community #and then cellbit. Where bad was like ‘i see him destroying himself to get the eggs back and i know where that road goes’ #’his loved ones dont want that to happen to him. i dont want that to happen to him’ #and then purgatory gave him the first actal legitimate lead for finding their kids and he just had to get worse #and so he fucking swandived into self destructive violence (and the cc was purposefully playing qbad more recklessly violent) #(bbgirl couldve been lured into a trap so so easily) #ive lost my point somewhere now im just rotating qbbh in my brain and all the parallels #ah yes. But now theyre out of purgatory. And he refuses to regret what he did because he *had* to do what he could to save dapper #and the other eggs #because he has a huge complex about being the ‘only one who can protect the eggs’ because of a thousand little cuts and his mental health #issues. Like he’s Wrong bur its such a fascinating little direction for his character. Yes king burn thyself on the pure of protection #and then burn in a nuclear blast too because your self sufficiency left you to care for your egg alone #you can take care of the eggs. you can hurt your friends. look at how much you hurt your friends #look st the monster you are . your teeth are sharp and your claws are large #never mind that time you sent tina into a panic attack because you tried to recreate safety #never mind that your friends and family are worried about you #you are falling apart. but so many monsters survive the killing blow

[kiwibirdlafayette]

mianite but jordan arrives to the realm in the fuckass jord gt shorts and just never changes his pants no matter how many times hes asked to

based on this post

#first non AU mianitefa in like weeks im sorry it had to be this #im a mianite fanartist. yes i am #mianite #lafakiwi draws #mianite fa #mianite fanart #jordan captainsparklez #captainsparklez #its 4am btw. #ive lost my mind from sl i legit woke back up at 3am just to draw this. send help #real ones know this isnt the first time ive drawn bootylicious jordan #doodles #shitpost

[saturnisfallingdown]

the kids are alright!!

[ID: Two digital sketches made to look like polaroid pictures. The first shows Arthur and Lydia Hills from LUCIDS by Nick Podany, leaning towards each other and smiling at the camera. Arthur is in his normal jacket, while Mrs. Hills wears a leather jacket with studs and a stitched on flag. Handwriting at the bottom of the photo reads "Post-Karaoke Night (1992)". The second photo is of Quinn Hills and Jasper Jasperson, in which they have their arms around each other, with Jasper winking and smiling at the camera. Jasper has an ace flag pinned to his coat, while Quinn has a trans flag stitched to his jacket. Handwriting below the photo reads "After his Jasperfice! (2022)". End ID]

#lucids #nick podany #quisper #lyar #been getting a weird amt of lucids fans in my notifs but it makes me super happy !! #i havent posted art of them in foreverrr so heres something from the sat art archive from 2022 :] #not the happiest w the second one but i moved programs so those brushes are lost forever.... might as well post em!!!! #OH IS THIS THE FIRST TIME IVE POSTED COLLEGE LYAR ART HERE.... #ohhh the headcanons oh god. my mind is so full #sat art #quinn hills #jasper jasperson #lydia hills #arthur hills #fanart

[kyuala]

SOOOOOO hard to go through everyday life trying to ignore the never-ending feeling that im just irreparably fucked up and therefore should just give up on everything

#this aint exactly s******* but it aint exactly not s******* either #anyways it gets even harder when i have to live under the same roof as my brother who is so much better than me in every single conceivable #and imaginable way possible like #and i knowwww a LOT of it comes down to us having relatively similar yet wildly different lives despite being 1.5y apart and having the sam #family our entire lives like he has gone through NOTHING and i mean not a single societal issue ive had to face and endure my entire life #he's a man im a woman. he's white im black. he's straight im gay. he's skinny ive always been 'overweight'. he's always been the good #christian kid ive always had issues w faith and religion. he's never been mentally ill i was clinically depressed for nearly 8yrs of my lif #we both lost the same parent and im the only one who got pathological grief and a personality disorder out of it. he's had a great job for #the last 7yrs that now pays him 20k+ every month ive only had 3 odd jobs my entire life and 2 of those my MOTHER had to give me so i would #have SOMETHING and ive never made over 1.6k monthly n my last job was minimum wage only #he's had like 4 relationships and is nearly engaged im so traumatized + emotionally unavailable ive only ever been on 1 date my entire life #he has a good relationship w every family member we have i have Issues w like half the family. he's always been an active member of our #church i can barely listen to like 4 traditional hymns before i start losing my mind and spiraling. i think the only two ways we're pretty #much equal like socially is that we're both able bodied cis and christians but still the cis and christian thing is debatable for previousl #stated reasons so like. do yall see how much better he is doing than me in every little last area in life and how he's always gotten the #long straw when it comes to Not having to deal w certain obstacles in life. n i know its like yea idk what it actually is like to be him an #he could not be doing all that well first of all shut up. second of all if it was 1 or 2 things i'd get it but it's literally EVERYTHING #and i know bc of said things n our v different lives it's unfair to me to compare the two of us but then it begs the question: WHY #WHY did i have to go through these things. WHY do i have to deal w this. WHY did i get the short straw literally every goddamn time #WHY did i have to get THIS life like WHYYYYY why ME GOD. why have I had to put up w all this bullshit for 24 fucking years!!!!!!!!! im TIRE #and this is not me hating or resenting him i know it's not his fault and he is so good to me #but still. why was i left with these things? to live like this? #so yes i guess i do envy him a little bit. who wouldn't #mari.txt #personal #tw negative #dl #btw i do NOT mean some identities are better than others. i mean he is better and is doing better than me in life partially bc he's never #had to deal w certain social issues and obstacles that come w oppressed identities.

[nukkibunni]

literally so over this bunk ass fluctuating internet outages!! dude. all my messages whether it be here or disc legit take ages to send or the apps eat them. discord has a special knack for fuckin destorying audio messages in multiple ways. im a fucking neet shutin who has yet to find a job again, let me at least waste my time with online access, xfinity, you fucka

#nukki.txt #just complainin #not but seriously #ive been troubleshooting and unplugging my router for DAYS #its about to be a month of this i think?? may be exaggerating #anyhoo im literally in between two emotionaly charged conversations #and then casual banter on here #so its like..... please this is the worst timing #and im worried about angie/ley #but ugh i have to deal with this and den and levi first #also gotta get meelk rq #but on god why is my internet connection so dogshit bro #i can post most of the time and only have lost a couple of things to tumblr eating em #but irc/messaging/pictures/audio? #forGET it dude #its crazy irritating and one of my few pet peeves #anyhooooo back to normal stuffs #and im gonna work on my card/blogs! :)) to distract my mind #bc ngl last night had some weird and bad nightmares #and its driving me crazy how i dont have a life #like a job or school or social life #need to bc im going mental even if its weak and intimidating that i dont #ugh. #i dont wanna go back to food service though i know that much #bleh #>;0

[skitskatdacat63]

"Fernando Alonso, Aston Martin F1 Team, hugs the tyre warmers"

#CONVULSING SCREAMING HBCS IVE NEVER SEEN TEH FULL PICTURE ONLT THE CROPPED #HES SO TINY LOOKA THIM SMALL TINY KITTY AHAHAHHHHHH #LESS THAN 4 TIRES TALL TINY TINY!!!!! #his feet always look so small in the racing boots godddddddddd #mayhaps this series of pics are like top nando pics of all tkme flr me? #lost my entire brain when i first saw it #HES JSUT SO CUTE TO ME OKAY???????? #anyways im finally looking through austria 2023 pics and absolutely losing my mind #theres so many good ones!!!!!! #i love when the captions on motorsportimages are more fun like this one #sry if someones posted this but !! as i said ive only seen the cropped ones and this one is !!!!!!! #old man who is in fact babygirl #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #fa14 #2023 austrian gp #2023 austrian grand prix #formula one #we do a little bit of f1

[adhdvane]

im dying he r fkcuking face

#im rewatching mlp while farming gw or at least i think it still counts as rewatching but i dont remember #i know i never watched all of it #i got to season 5 and was like okay i def remember the first two eps and some in between #but i dont remember the finale so i must not have watched season 6 #but i was like but isn't there another dragon episode???? and it's in season 6 and i remember that episode #but i like don't think i remember the other ones???????? #i might have watched season 6 #there's no way i watched beyond that tho #did netflix ever actually have 5 & 6 bc i know they're dumb af and only have 1 - 4 right now? #did hulu ever have them??????? #bc i this is the first time im sailing the high seas to watch pony shit so i must have watched them in some official capacity before?? #anyways ive been wheezing at this fucking clip and idk if it's just bc ive lost my mind from farming #the FUKGCING FACE SHE MAKES IS ENDING ME

[camelspit]

OH MY GOD ?!?!

#so. for those of you who dont know. #my first ever real fandom was warrior cats #and i used to have. a strange obsession with river ripple/star #he was like my first blorbo ever #and apparently ??? he got a special edition recently ??? #oh my godddddddd #losing my mind. freaking out. #little me wouldve lost their absolute mind if she had heard this #would be running to books a million in a heartbeat #although. from what ive seen online apparently the book isnt that good. #still. this is wild. #not ashamed to admit i was a graywing/riverripple truther

[ghostbustermelanieking]

yknow that scene in the lion king (1994) where rafiki is like "he [mufasa] is alive!" but it turns out he's speaking metaphorically? that scene used to rickroll the shit out of me as a toddler... alternate version of the movie where mufasa is somehow alive here and he and simba go back to defeat scar together

#so sorry i rewatched the lion king for the first time in like 10 years last night and ive lost my mind a little #i was OBSESSED as a child #the lion king #also fake death is my favorite trope of all time so..

[velaraffricate]

been reworking my tarot-inspired divination cards lately and i think i'll start drawing and posting about them soon once i figure out an illustration style i like...

#ive done a couple readings for myself and in-world readings for characters and they actually work really well #just need to refine them a little bit #in my first draft i think i lost a bit of sight on the whole concept that each set of 4 is a cycle and just started throwing in random stuf #but now im doing it better and keeping the bigger picture in mind and ah its just so cool. im rlly proud of this project #ramblings

[caramelmochacrow]

grumble grumble. (hater-ness under the cut)

you ever have a fic idea for a certain pairing and then someone already writes it for another pairing w one guy from the pairing you like is w another person? so then when you eventually write that it looks like you copied them and made a version for your pairing bc you hated it even tho you've had the idea stewing in your mind for a few weeks before they posted it?

hate it.

whats worse is that they also like a lot this certain pairing a lot and then. you're currently writing that one person from their pairing set up the pairing you like (which has the other person from the pairing they like) so it looks like you wrote it out of spite. even tho you've been working on the fic for months. like. yikes my dude.....

#NOT TAGGING THANKS HAHA. #im gonna forget abt it. #i will be an adult and move the fuck on #i will not let whatever Horrors plague my mind stop me #im not writing the first thing tho (i lost the want to write it lmao) #ive been working on the second one for months im not gonna scrap it now #im being more and more of a hater i think i should go. see things that make me happy. #i think im just tired. im gonna sleep it's almost 3:00 in the morning #(literally 3 minutes)

[solcarow]

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#. hm.. thinking about la chopper ……. mayb he shud look like a capybara #fucked up deer looking human thing whatever creature #solar-talks #i was talking abt this w my sister but like i think it was a really fun choice not to disclose how kuina died in la #like when i first watched his backstory in la i really thought he was going on some revenge quest or something #so watching ep19 was really fucked up actually i remember being real iffy about it but god the Layers #zoro’s thing with fate and not really luck but his acceptance of wtvr outcome he gets is doing some cocomelon shit tio my brain #itd b so neat if they revealed her death in loguetown like Come On having it right beside the kitetsu scene would b such a smart choice #WITH TASHIGI god i hope they give tashigi a little more something #ok now im thinking abt the la changes … #what iv noticed is how they seemed to isolate the eastblue kids from their islands a little more .. not exactly a flaw tho #zoros basically the same but usopp didnt have his oh my god i just realised usopp didnt have his babyguy gang oh my godddd THAT was what was #missing my whole train of thoughts derailed NOOO USOPPS BABYSITTER CHARACTER TRAIT …….i get it they couldnt fit the vegetable kids bc #of the tone but waugh…. primarily hanging out w a bunch of 8yos says so much abt him………. it was cute #anyways back to it yeah they didnt syrup village noticing his absence and the rest of baraties connection w 3ji which honestly i dont #really mind either i think the only ): to me was how they did cocoyashi #lost a bit of it’s depth my making them hostile to nami tbh #its a good thing i watched the anime After la bc i feel like i wouldve been way sadder abt that decision #these arent real complaints btw the la did a reaaallyy great job #if they didnt i really wouldnt be here thinking about this show . in depth . god how did it come to this SKFHDJFJSHF #anywho . they missed some bits of course but oughhh they did baratie really good .. #ill b honest zeff n 3jis backstory is seriously my favorite thing about the la #some ​absolutely breathtaking execution it really Got Me .. #the all blue speech …. taz skylr yuoure line delivery skills are insane #whats rlly crazy is how when u take away 3ji’s 1 flaw hes fucking unstoppable . why r u favorite character material . explode forever #head in hands its the themes of hunger .. hate it here so bad ….. #ack he grows on u like mold . it was the stupid curry filler episode that got me i rewatched a while ago goddd hes so annoyinggggggg #the curry filler ep was cute . i liked it . <- mad about it #ugh spent 2 hrs writing these tags i dont wanna do my psychology essay .. nico robin save me ……. save me nico robin ……………..

[celestriix]

ngl i thought hikari and partitio was gonna be this little cute ship that only me and like 5 other people would care about

#celeste rambles #no but that first week after i played the demo i swear i lost my mind #my friends had to deal with me ranting on about these two and going omg but they would be so cute together #'i know the game hasnt even come out. and ive seen nobody else talk about them. but i think they should fall in love and maybe kiss' #everytime i see more hikartio/partkari stuff i love it #<333 #i am so normal about them