#feeling so normal right now

[official-brennivin]

#john constantine #hellblazer #feeling so normal right now

[cockworkangels]

and he says this. to himself. like what else has he done all his life but gone past the breaking point

#feeling so normal right now #s6 rewatch #6x22 the man who knew too much

[b-dwolf]

SO OK

I’m doing a s6 rewatch and i’m on episode three and bobby just asked athena “hey, are you sure you’re doing alright? i know i keep asking but” AND ATHENA SAID “i’m not sure how i’m feeling”

REMINDS ME OF

“now am i allowed to ask how you really are” “honestly eddie, i don’t know”

THEY CANT KEEP GETTING AWAY WITH THIS.

#911 on fox #eddie diaz #evan buckley #bobby nash #athena grant #buddie #bathena #YOURE JOKING #feeling so normal right now

[den-um]

Okay

#trixya #trixie mattel #katya zamo #feeling so normal right now

[pinkseas]

on my hands and knees begging u to say your words about xiaolumi… i want to hear them… i’ll pay you back in art i prommy—

WHY WOULD YOU ENABLE ME LIKE THIS no need for art i literally owe you my fucking Life just for that one piece like oh my god. ohhhh my god. the amount of times i have linked that to my friends and waxed poetic and maybe cried a little. ANYWAYS. i am about to be So Silly And So Disorganized

so here's the thing right?? it depends SO heavily on how you interpret lumine. the traveler definitely has their own personality and agenda ingame but there's still SO much wiggle room in terms of what you do with that. if i really wanted to i could probably make it a Lot More Accurate by focusing on the traveler in canon and going from there however i will in fact be completely ignoring that and focusing on my interpretation of lumi specifically light and love <3 <- thats my little disclaimer ANYWAYS

they are So Similar in a lot of ways. young adults who are also centuries old. stubborn bastards who would give their lives protecting those around them even if they got absolutely nothing in return. so quick to throw themselves into the line of fire for the sake of friends and strangers alike. such a strong instinct to protect. not mortal, not by a long shot, but not quite gods either, something uniquely inhuman and in between. a centuries worth of weight on their shoulders. reaching their breaking points and pushing further still, refusing to let themselves crumble. and, even with very close companions, i think they're very lonely. there's no one quite like xiao in teyvat, no one quite like lumine without aether there by her side- maybe no one quite like lumine at all, anymore.

i think its about sharing. i think they'd find it easy to talk with and be around one another, even though they're typically so slow and so careful with trust. i think fighting together comes as easily as breathing, that their urge to protect lines up perfectly with the others and leads to them doing so much for those around them as well as each other. they will not let the other fall. they share the weight on their shoulders, share the centuries of bloodshed and horrors seen and caused alike, share in the unique brand of loneliness that comes with knowing that where someone was once by your side there's no one like you left.

vulnerability does not come easily to any of them. they can always push themselves further, always be a little stronger, always run a little faster. but its exactly that, i think, the recognition of someone so like themselves that makes it easier for them to trust in one another. lumine can call xiao's name when she needs him, xiao can find lumine if he needs her. i think that for all they would shoulder the world on their own and know the other would do the same in a heartbeat, they trust one another to come to them when they need help. it would be so, so easy to ignore it, to press forward, to remain alone. but they made a promise, and they intend to keep it.

i like to imagine that lumine's presence has a purifying effect on xiao. something she could control and channel should she realize, but for now something small, just enough to ease that weight. just enough to make sure he won't succumb.

i think a big part of it is about learning how to live again. they both carry that weight, that stubborn mindset, but wanting to see the other happy helps. knowing the other understands helps. when it hurts they can breathe together, and the type of pain they feel may never truly go away but they dont have to experience it alone.

every snowflake, every sunrise, every flower is just a little bit different from the rest. xiao's favorite quiet places are nicer with her there. they live so very differently but lumine's teapot is always there and xiao is no longer bound by his contract, learning ever so slowly how to let himself go. they have spent so, so long surviving. now, though, they remember to taste the fresh air, learn to indulge in the smallest things. lumine experiments with recipes until her almond tofu is catered to xiao's tastes exactly, the perfect texture. at night in liyue xiao tells her stories of the constellations and she remembers every word, at night in the teapot lumine will lift a hand and the sky will match her memories, her turn to tell stories about stars he's never seen.

they are both so, so tired. and i think that they would trust the other enough to let themselves rest. you can put your strength down. im sitting here with you at the kitchen table. you dont need to say anything. <- that quote is so them for real its shared silences mutual understanding and comfort always having each other's backs its twin moons twin stars two beings caught in each other's orbit and choosing every day to stay. sitting side by side on the mountaintop, hands entwined, lumine's head on his shoulder. breathing. loving. living.

#feeling so normal right now #um. um. um. #yeah i have no excuse im just out of my fucking mind #currently being plagued with post-chasm thoughts where zhongli saving xiao lent him energy and that energy Fades #and xiao is fucking exhausted and still hurt and completely burnt out #and lumine is there and its the first time he enters the teapot because if she says theyll be safe there he trusts her #if lumine says no harm will come to them here he believes her #very 'you took care of me now let me take care of you' #washing the dirt and debris from their skin from their hair shielding his face with a hand so she doesnt get shampoo in his eyes #every movement gentle and careful and precise and purposeful. i love you on purpose i care about you on purpose that quote is so them too #making both of them food because neither of them need it but it helps with their energy regardless #making both of them sleep because they desperately need the rest #and its a little selfish of her to wrap her arm around him because she needs the reminder that hes there and safe and whole #but he doesnt stop her. and everyone has to be selfish at times #spending hours and hours laying there beneath the stars breathing deeply existing together remembering that theyre alive #idk. like i said. the quiet moments the unconditional trust #im so tempted to try and think of more but i am Stopping Myself finally. we're done we are DONE #one day i will be normal about them but until then. #aly.genshin #aly.writing

[crehador]

love to see a man who is so inauthentic and untrue to himself traumatized and broken down to his core components, just absolutely stripped of all his masks and defenses and left with no choice but to show us his soul

#feeling So Normal right now #crab.txt

[sacha-da-1]

Me to my younger self like: “Yeah, one day you’re gonna rewatch The Lie of the Land and you’re gonna notice yourself crying at the end, but not for the reason you’d ever expect.”

#doctor who #the lie of the land #feeling so normal right now #ouch #this is about the oppressors doing what they always do when they realize who’s really in charge #they run

[nytfythfhtyf]

i can get so obsessive and mentally ill about shirts you havent even seen since the 2000s

#i see a shirt i want and i cannot rest until i know its possible for me to have it #cause when i know clothes arent being made anymore i freak out #bc you cant rely on everyone to resell clothing instead of throwing it away #theres a limited number of these shirts and it will only decrease as time goes on #and clothes that get made now keep getting worse and more expensive #nothing like it will ever be made again #feeling so normal right now #this is normal behavior right #its normal to spend days obsessively scouring the internet for one shirt like my life depends on it #ive only done this a few times now #i say things

[inkskinned]

there are a lot of posts out there that are positive and healthy coping mechanisms for handling the holidays. this is not one of them :)

i think there's like. going to be times in your life you will be stuck in a social situation that you cannot escape from gracefully. i do not know why the internet doesn't believe these times exist. it's not always just that your physical safety is at risk - sometimes it's legit like "i just don't currently have the energy or time to put in the effort of responding to this." sometimes it's a coworker you hate so much. sometimes it's just like, fine, you know? like you know you can handle your aunt when she's cheerily horrible, but if you actually set a boundary around her, it's going to be weeks of fallout with your father.

i don't know why people think the answer is always just "cut them out!" or "don't let them get away with that!" because ... the real world is tricky and complicated. i think kind of a lot of us have an internal "radiation poisoning" meter for certain people. like - i'm talking about the ones who are absolutely giving you gradual ick damage. like, you can handle them, but you'll be exhausted.

and yes. you absolutely should listen to your therapist and the good posts about handling others and set good boundaries and take care of yourself. prioritize peace.

HOWEVER :) ...... since im often in a situation with a Gradual Sense of Ick person i cannot just "cut out" of my life (without losing someone else precious to me) - i have sort of developed the most. maladaptive form of mischief possible. because like, if i'm going to have to listen to this shit again, i like to have a little bit of private fun with it.

now! again, i am physically safe, just mentally drained by this man. you should only do this with people you are not in danger with. which leads me to my suggestions for when your Unfortunate Acquaintance shows up and says oh everyone pay attention to me.

my favorite word is "maybe!" said as brightly and happily as possible. whenever the Horrible Person starts in on a topic you do not want to go further with, particularly if they make a claim that you know to be inaccurate, do not respond to it. you and i have both tried to actually argue with this person, and it hasn't gone well, because this person just wants the drama of an argument. however, "maybe!" gives them literally nothing to go on. it is incredibly disarming. they are used to people having some response. they know they can't prove what they're saying, and maybe! treats them like the child they are. it dismisses them in the politest way possible.

i like to say maybe! and then, in their stunned silence, immediately change the subject. this is because i have adhd and i will have something unrelated to talk about, but if you can't think of topics fast enough, i recommend just pointing to something and saying, "isn't that lovely?" because fuck you let's bring in some positivity.

by the way. that second trick - of pointing to something and stating an opinion about it? - that just works on its own, like, 70% of the time. i picked it up from teaching preschoolers. it's an intentional "redirect". it stops children crying and it also stops grown adults from finishing their explanation on why women belong in kitchens. dual wielding!

keep it silly for yourself. i absolutely do not care if people think i'm fucking stupid (it's more fun if they do) and as a result i will purposefully misunderstand things just to see how long it takes them to realize i've completely removed them from the subject at hand. when they say "women aren't funny" i get to be like. "which women." "all women." "all women in america?" "no in the world." "like the mole people? the people in the world?" "what? no. like, alive." "oh are we not counting the mole people?" "what the fuck are you talking about." "you don't believe in the mole people?"

similarly, i play a personal game called "one up me." my Evil Acquaintance literally knows this game exists (my family & friends caught onto it and now also play it) and it always fucking gets him. i don't know why. you have to be willing to be a little free-spirited on this one, though. the trick is that when they make one of those horrible little bigoted or annoying comments they are always making, you need to go one unit weirder. not more intense, mind you - just more weird. "you don't look good in that dress." "yeah, actually, my other dress was covered in squid ink due to a mishap at the soup store." "you shouldn't wear such revealing clothes." "wait, what? oh shit. sorry, your son tears off strips when no one is looking and eats them. i swear it was longer before we left the building."

the point of "one up me" is to completely upend this person's narrative. we both know this person likes setting up situations where you cannot "win" and then they really like telling other people how badly you handled it. in a usual situation, if you respond "please don't say something that rude", you're a bitch. but if you let it happen, you're letting yourself be debased. they are not usually expecting door number three: unflappably odd. because what are they going to say when they're telling everyone how badly you behaved? "she said my son eats her dresses" ".... okay?"

if you can, form an allyship with someone whomst you can tagteam with. where they can pick up on your weird "soup store" story and run with it.

the following phrase is amazing and can be deployed for any situation: "oh, be nice :) it's the holidays!" i do not know why this works as often as it does. i'll say it for the most random shit. i think this is bc most of the time these people know they're being impolite, they just like to fight.

godbless. when in doubt, remember that you could always start stealing their pens.

the whole point of this is - if you can't escape. maybe see how long you can just be. like. a horrible little menace.

#this is objectively bad advice #don't listen to it protect yourself and do real work on yourself find one of the good posts i've made about this #but also. u know. if u want to have fun while u do the work of setting boundaries #.... it IS fun #i will say that my fear of him went SO down after i just started. fucking with him. #bc i used to get SO fucking upset #i'd spend WEEKS arguing with him. tearing my hair out. sick with anxiety and dread and anger about all of it #and now i just LITERALLY do not engage #instead i'm like '' haha :) mole people" and get the HELL out of any tense conversation #i kind of think some of these people are literally addicted to drama as a form of connection #they like the rush they get from arguing #but those arguments are incredibly damaging for me #so like..... i am in the process of literally rehabilitating this person to figure out how to find connection thru #NORMAL CONVERSATION #he doesn't get it yet #i also do talk to them like they're preschool kids lmafo . ''are you using a safe and kind voice right now?'' #'' do you need a snackie? you sound a little upset. let's have some hummus and come back to playtime when we feel ready''

[vellichorsdesire]

f/o who doesn’t know they’re touchstarved until they meet you.

the heavy want grows in their chest and is absolutely undeniably there whenever you two even just briefly touch. when you’re so close that they’re so desperate have you closer, wanting to feel their body pressed against yours in a tight embrace, that the thought of your hand in theirs is barely enough. when you two finally hug, or whenever you do, they sink into your embrace almost immediately, a deep sigh of content heard as they wrap their arms around you to return the tender hug. it’s a little hard to get their arms off you afterward, with those small mumbles of “just a little longer” and “i don’t want to let go yet.”

maybe they’re super embarrassed about feeling so at first and are so glad whenever you indulge in their desire to have you, to feel your warmth. or they’re incredibly stubborn about it but their actions always say otherwise, finding every little chance to have their skin touch yours, to quietly tug on your sleeve or any other sign that you immediately know what they want with it.

eitherway they’re forever thankful that you’re so understanding. with the little touches you guys end up doing like from simply pushing a strand of hair behind an ear or running fingers through each other’s hair, they’re absolutely addicted. smitten, even, so incredibly much that they can’t put their love for this, for you into words.

#they’re forever thankful for you too by the way. that you’re in their life #that you love them super duper much. they feel the same btw #oh man this is kind of long…. sorry. i can be normal i promise. #just fixing up the drafts i have saved right now #so very blue hydrangeas coded btw :((/pos #❥ vels ramblings #self ship #self shipping #f/o imagines

[hansoeii]

I'm very much not normal about loki and mobius right now

#the way I fully expected the show to just have them act like good ol' buddies #but instead they gave us extremely touchy mobius like that man couldn't let him go for a second #then LOKI ALMOST CONFESSING APPARENTLY??? #Mobius not caring about getting his skin ripped off cos all the cares about is his loki being alright #AND THEN THEM FALLING ON TOP OF EACH OTHER?? #And no mention of the selfcest kiss either and showing how sylvie just wants a normal little life???? #Feels like they're pretending that romance never happened and I'm hoping it stays that way #Anyways I'm so not okay right now like homy shit #This is either the greatest romance ever or another horrible queerbait added to the list #Loki #Loki season 2 #Loki season 2 spoilers #Lokius #Loki spoilers

[skitskatdacat63]

AND I'M SUPPOSED TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THIS??????

I am staring intently

#so sorry to my parents if they just heard the anguished scream of a dying animal i let out when i saw this #HE FUCKED THAT OLD MAN #WHAT OTHER EXPLANATION IS THERE #OH YM GODSDDD #how can i be normal about this???? how???? how!???!?! #no bcs i was already dying from hyperness after fernando's p2 but this???????????? #WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW #and what if i exploded huh? what if i just exploded and crumbled away right now huh??? #genuinely feel like a rabid dog rn #lance stroll #fernando alonso #fa14 #ls18 #strollonso #alonstroll #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #2023 miami gp #2023 miami grand prix

[jeremystrongs]

who wants to come over and do this

#the passenger #the passenger 2023 #kyle gallner #johnny berchtold #oh to be tenderly caressed on the cheek by kyle gallner #who else is feeling so normal and okay right now #text

[illdothehotvoice]

come here I'm just a normal Mario game there's nothing to be afraid of I'm not going to permanently alter your brain chemistry and how you view the world I promise.

#and mr. l is there too I guess lmfao #spm #smb #super paper mario #super mario bros #idk what else to tag this as I'm feeling SO normal right now

[noecoded]

guys what if he was a bunny and a doll…

#ill nevermake these. alas.i feel sick imagining it #being brokeis so difficultrn............ #have to make normal vers and seperate emo au vers for my self… #i needto have an extra $100laying around right now

[cillixn]

feeling very normal rn

#credit to @cillianmarchive on twitter for posting these #i’m so normal about this i’m normal i’m normal #this is actually ridiculous #it literally feels like i’m staring at a renaissance painting #hang these in the louvre right now #cillian murphy