#feed your characters well

[akaisenhatake]

pov them looking down at the mortals' questionable creations

bonus vv

them finding out about heimtreus ship

'they're so cute together' i find a bullet through my head more cuter than a kid shipped with an adult 😍

#'its the dynamic that we ship them for not the age' guess fucking what pal the dynamic ur referring to is power dynamic #with a goddamn kid #'just block the ship tag' yeah well doesnt help that you fellers also used the character's tag so they still pop up on my feed #dont give more excuses when youre very well aware of what ur doing #the fact that most of you are adults as well #but i learned that age doesnt equal maturity #do whatever the hell you want buddy #freedom of speech but no freedom of consequences #gow ragnarok #gow fanart #gow heimdall #heimdall #gow loki #gow atreus #atreus #my art #heimdall may be an asshole but he sure as hell aint letting any kid see the fuckin horror of what these people did to them

[jacksprostate]

Before Project Mayhem, before fight club, before Marla, before Tyler — there is still one sad sack of shit.

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The hard part about work trips isn't making the plane or seeing another family of five burnt into their leather seats. It's missing support groups.

See, if you're lucky, the company will send you out to a major city. Cities are great. A little advanced work to find a slightly below average church or library, you're set each night you're there.

It's a bit of novelty, getting to be a new face all at once. People assume you've just been diagnosed. It's never the failed treatments, the degradation of their life and everyone in it, the continuous experience of knowingly dying — none of those things are the worst thing that happens to you.

It's finding out they will.

So people cry. They crowd around, I sob like I've been told I've got stage four colon cancer and three weeks to live. We all cry. I sleep soundly on the plane back or in the nice, four star hotel my company provides me.

Flying out to a small town, though. I'll be awake enough to be hallucinating by the time I get back for Remaining Men Together. The only mercy is that the next time I show for all the groups I missed, I can see who thought I died. I get to be resurrected.

The other part about small towns, you have to take a second, shitter plane to a local airfield, or you have to take a rental car. One of the most popular rental cars available right now, it'll light itself on fire if you use the cruise control at the wrong time. I know this because I sat next to another guy with my job, who worked for a different company, and he said I'll show you mine if you show me yours. So I told him about the faulty airbags, and he told me about the overheating switch.

I prefer to avoid driving.

All the rental place at the airport has left for me, it's one of those flaming cars. I use cruise control. If I don't, one of my narcoleptic spells will send me into the Jersey barrier.

When you drive into these small towns, you have to try to pay attention, or you'll end up a county over talking about the wrong wreck. They're otherwise interchangeable, but the miles on your rental car won't line up and those are the type of records that might get pulled out when the company is finally sued for the big one ten years down the line.

As a result, I see the same decor on the way in every time. Meth lab. Abandoned homes. Garbage fire. Classic Americana. There is no four star hotel here; I sleep the same.

The only reason I've been brought out here is because the poor shithead who drove his truck into the ditch drunk was driving my company's flagship vehicle. It loses power steering if the car jostles the right way going above 55 miles per hour. I've been told to keep track of potential incidents and make sure the company can firmly claim it's not at fault.

We've had this problem for decades, and we will for many more. Sometimes, everything is falling apart.

The job is simple, and I only get tempted by the town's blatant opioid addiction for a day and night. Painkillers would probably make me sleep. The thing about being a recall campaign organizer, though, is like recognizes like. It's not only other Compliance and Liability guys who tell you company secrets while sharing the aisle in business class.

When I'm finally back in my own town, after my own support groups, after crying my eyes out into Bob's meaty middle — I pick up my mail. There's the newest IKEA magazine. Half of it looks like shit. The type of thing you'd only see in some curated art deco, modernist, post-modern traditionalist bohemian minimalist apartment.

I have to have it.

I go to sleep, hard, like God himself tucked me in. I sleep with my wallet net four hundred heavier, because even an IKEA spree tends not to outweigh a work trip. I sleep, with my called in IKEA goods only two short weeks away, my job well done, and I know, my life is complete.

#fight club #my writing #KEY INFO: this is Before Tyler #bit experimental as a result. how to peel away some of the narratorisms but have him still be the narrator? how to make him complacent #like a wisconsin dairy cow but still have undertones of extreme conscious and subconscious distress? #all car faults mentioned are real #ford had an overheating cruise control switch #and some other overheating fire switches #and jeep. i know because i knew a guy with a jeep — they randomly lose pwoer steering sometimes #horrific and scary and potentially deadly in any car — but jeeps have this known and bizzarely widely accepted flaw called the death wobble #which refers to the oscillations that rapidly feed on each other if the car is slightly out of tune #and can result in tearing the steering wheel from your hands #until you slow down #for some reason that's just accepted. #theres a lot of jeep propaganda #anyway you combine those two #you get the picture #i dont doubt theres been incidents even if there hasnt been major recalls lol #i hope this one comes across well... it's always strange to explore an almost hypothetical version of a character. the narrator where Tyler #is just a growing little menace in his head.... #I think what made this one fun for me though is the narrator would still be pretty openly bleak I think but the SUBCONSCIOUS stuff. #especially all the stuff I implied at the end. very fun to write #and it was also just fun to lay down the like.... seeds. of things #this is before Tyler in the sense that it's before he was well cooked. Before they met. Etc. Pretty early into the support groups. But yk #he is sleeping.

[helmarok]

i'm always thinking about this line

#ganon rambles #mcsm #mcsm petra #AGHHHHH AHHHHHH #i feel insane #bursted out laughing over 'you tend to push people away' #yasss feeding into her idea that people abandon her because there's something wrong with her 😋 #yeah i'll make your mental illness worse #but anyways it makes sense #you meet her and she's completely alone as opposed to everyone else who already has their established friend groups #and also her line in episode 5 about getting used to having people who worry about her or whatever it was #and she is like a different person in the witherstorm arc lol. #well granted there was the death illness/amnesia but like. #my point... im always crazy about how she goes from closed off and cool abd lonely to like #...crying about her friends #like !!! ahahahahahahahahahaha #literally the most well written character in this stupid game and ashley johnson is such a good va too god #i'm supposed to be doing chores but i had to sit down and talk about petra. grown adult btw

[lesbiansanemi]

Sometimes I just think about Soi Fon. Like that shit was so insane. Easily one of The characters of all time. You’re going to give me a woman who hates the physical manifestation of her soul because it’s loud and explosive and she doesn’t think it’s “proper” that it suits her, but it’s so obvious it does because she’s angry and stubborn and loud and explosive!!! And then the fact that she never ever calls upon that physical manifestation of her soul until things are so dire it’s practically that or death? The fact that in so many ways she lets her emotions build and build and build until they quite literally explode???? And then!!! AND THEN!!!! Add in that she hates her bankai because it’s “inappropriate” for an assassin… for her role as captain of the Stealth Force… the position she inherited from Yoruichi after she abandoned Soul Society for Urahara… She despises the physical manifestation of her explosive nature, the nature she hides until she can’t, just like she shoved down her feelings for Yoruichi, the betrayal, the hurt, the love, until she quite literally couldn’t anymore and it all came back up in a BANG!!! Like god… oh my god, no one will ever do it again and kubo did not deserve such a cool fucking character in the least

#bleach #soi fon #yorusoi #<— because like this definitely feeds into it #like I refuse to believe soi fon didn’t have some form of romantic feelings for yoruichi like it’s so OBVIOUS #also like add in the lesbian angle to this??? #oh… MY GOD it just makes it so much more intense #hiding from your feelings and swearing up and down they shouldn’t suit you that they’re not right for you #even though they obviously are #I can’t fuckin do it man #it’s been YEARS but the soi fon brain rot is still just SO strong #I really did fuckin imprint on her #but tbh in general I hate to give him any credit but kubo did kinda go off with characters who hated/hid their bankai #like the whole thing of hating your soul hating your very being #unparalleled. wish he actually did anything cool with those particular character arcs #like the soi fon ikkaku and yumichika character arcs could have been PEAK #(also don’t even get me started on the three of them being some of the uh… um… well ya know a teeny bit queer) #it could have been so good #but again kubo can’t write and hates gay ppl so lmao #wild that he genuinely created some of the coolest queer characters ever kinda on accident #like whoopsie #anyways I’ll shut up now #kaz rambles

[skitskatdacat63]

2009 Brazilian Grand Prix - Mark Webber

#i thought mark deserved some gifs as well bcs even tho he won the race all the focus was on jense haha #the worst was when he got up to stand on top of his car and celebrate and then the feed instantly cut to jense pulling into parc ferme ;; #mark wins his 2nd gp and gets like probably a minute of podium footage LMAO #anyways i like the third gif bcs he looks like in a video game where the character's expression glitched #mark please talk with your hands more cmon i know you love it #the two moments where his hands are in frame absolutely had to be included(dedicated to dru hehehe) #(as always: my god the lighting in these pressers is absolutely horrible) #(it just makes everyone look so washed out and ghoulish LMAO) #(i said this before but still it astounds me. every time before i recolor them im like '...wait do i rly find this guy attractive?') #also i meant to finish this season during summer break but ran out of time!! so ig AD will be next week? #i could do it but like i dont wanna clash w zandvoort and ik its a podium i will rly like too so i dont wanna rush it #but ughhhhhh why does f1 coming back from break have to coincide with my school coming back from break #mark webber #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #2009 brazilian gp

[neathbound-fiends]

Crossposting this to Tunglr but I was thinking abt food and the diets you'd have on ship (especially as a mercantile vessel, so they lack the military funding of the Royal Navy) and I do think it would be really interesting to see crew bringing ideas from their homes for stuff. Like, I think it would be more difficult to make work given that the Neath is humid, but I wonder if there's a way to swing it that could make borts work and stay stable. I wonder if you could do buttered eggs to preserve them well enough to keep them as rations. Lutefisk and salted herrings. do you see my vision

Edited because HOW could I forget pickling

#you've got a wealth of knowledge from all over the place because the Docks tend to collect a hodge podge of whoever from wherever #use the knowledge!! learn from people saying ''well this is how we do it back home'' #the Neath and cooking are already so fucking weird #but everyone has preservation methods! figure out what you can do in bulk to feed a crew that's gonna be gone for weeks! #obviously some methods can't translate over but there's gotta be a ton of different methods available #also like this could apply if your character is Royal Navy but this was specifically me thinking abt my characters who are not #but I will not turn you away if yours are

[bbboar]

The other week i had a friend ask me essentially what the appeal of Gortash was and the experience was embarrassing, humbling, illuminating, devastating.

I am always delighted to explain why i like a character who is honestly kind of atrocious (love me an asshole, love me a villain etc) but ngl 80% of the appeal of Gortash to me is the durgetash dynamics and the rich potential for horrifying, romantic, gross, gorey, loving, tragic, expansions of canon implications. And i truly truly truly feed off the stuff my fellow enjoyers come up with. Its an ecosystem.

This is a house that has been built upon headcanons and character analysis. How these fucked up villains would commit cardinal sins against their respective gods because they like each other so much. How they see see the horrors in each other and not only not flinch, but admire them. And you can take that and do so much with it!!

Kind of reminds me when i was super into venom/eddie and it was bcs fic writers and fellow enjoyers were doing The Work!! They were analysing, they were expanding from canon, they were adding more story and depth etc And thats the beauty of transformative works but the down side is that you can look at canon and be like "Oh yeah i forgot you were bare bones".

Just like how i spoke to Gortash yesterday in-game after not having spoken to him in what was irl weeks and what washed over me was a feeling of "Oh. I have made a feast of crumbs"

Like im sure when i do my durge run, there will be perhaps a decent meal but i am also very aware of how much of this ive built up in my own head

#boblabla #lex plays bg3 #being into horror #and NBCs Hannibal especially #prepared me for this shit #i was already exploring #horror sensuality gore desire and sex in my characters #nd i keep stumbling upon #media that feeds into it #so i think thats another reason im eating well here #btw the other 20% Gortash appeal #is his stupid little outfit #his delight in being evil #also Jason Isaacs always eats when he plays assholes #anyway Briar if youre reading this #hope i could have explained this all as eloquently to you and Charlie #instead of just doing a stream of consciousness typa thing

[chickenly]

as someone who LOVES all the lore surrounding mohg, the white masks, and especially varre -- how have I NEVER seen anyone else make ocs out of the white masks before??? I never even would've considered it myself........ you are doing gods work friend and I love nepenthe already <33 im assuming she's pretty involved with varre, how do they feel about each other?

HOOHOO! Thanks, friend!

Honestly, I'm surprised I haven't see any either tbh. I LIKE A MASKED FREAK. I feel like the lore of the abducted war surgeons just has so much delicious character potential too… like, obviously Varré is having a good time regardless of the nature of his induction, but what about the people that aren't? Makes ya think.

As for how Nepenthe feels about Varré… I've been rotating this in my mind, trying to figure it out. I would imagine that it's strained and complicated. I don't think they were particularly close prior to getting Mohg'd, if they knew each other at all. But afterwards -- well, a lot of the other white masks seem to have lost their minds according to the lore, which makes Varré the only fragment Nep has left to her past life. The only other person who knew - knows- exactly what she is going through. There's a connection there that she clings to, and she's too scared to let go, so I think she sticks around and pretends to go along with the whole blood cult thing even though she's definitely super perturbed about it all. There's also a bit of a weird... power dynamic, I guess? Varré was the only one that was able to tame the accursed blood. He is the Formless Mother's perfect little war surgeon, he is a shining exception, and he seems like the type of person to hold that over someone's head in his own skeevy way. Nepenthe knows this. She lets him.

Despite it all, I think she would be inclined to call Varré her friend. They've been through a lot together, after all! She'll make excuses for him time and time again -- for his actions, his devotion, his words. Surely, he's on the same page as her deep down, right?

… Right? <:)

#i just love tragic characters and fromsoft games feed me well #anyways this is YOUR sign to make a white mask oc if it pleases you. I would love to see how other people go about doing it #thank you for the ask btw anon i am so bad at talking about my ocs on my own but the prompting helps bigtime #<3 #white mask nepenthe

[slippery-minghus]

hmm. had an actual conversation with nightmare coworker today that seemed mutually productive. she apologized for saying some bullshit that hurt my feelings and i clarified that my intentions are to help not to undermine her, and we both agreed that there's no competition against each other and that it's the lack of growth in our role that's the problem. it was...productive.

and further cementing for me that it is time to begin making my Exit. i will be sending out my resume to a few places this weekend.

i'm still processing the conversation, and am struggling to place myself in where i am responsible to better my behavior. because i genuinely don't want to be an ass, even though i really don't like this lady and will jump for joy the day i never have to see her again. she stated that she knows my intentions aren't to hurt her, and that she thinks i'm very kind. i apologized for if my behavior came off as undermining her, and said that my intentions are only to better my own growth—and that i know she's trying to succeed too. i validated her feelings, and complemented the effort she is putting in.

where i'm struggling with is: am i in the wrong/causing harm and needing to change if the issue is that her feelings are incongruent with what she knows of my intentions? her feelings are her responsibility (WOW i almost typed "her feelings are my responsibility". i feel like that's a freudian slip) and she states that she knows i don't mean to hurt her. i'm going to try to be more clear in wording my intentions with her (she feels like me trying to take work off her plate is to undermine her. when really, i'm caught up and see her getting overwhelmed, and i want to help and also have something to do since i'm bored).

but i'm really struggling to look at my role in this and pass judgement on myself. i can and want to do better, and i don't think i did anything wrong, but i'm always so hesitant to say it's not my fault or i didn't do something bad. like i can't trust my judgement on that. my intentions were good, her bad feelings are ones caused by her insecurities, which she more or less has expressed to be aware that they are not true—the hurtful thing she said to me, she acknowledged was said out of hurt and not what she actually thinks. so, is it fair to say i'm not the bad guy? i'm not in the wrong? i know good intentions that still result in harm don't absolve anyone, but when the things that are clashing are insufficient communication and reactive insecurities... i'm not a monster, am i?

#well. i AM probably a monster for how much i dislike this lady #but i don't ACT on it #and i genuinely couldn't care less about her. i participate in decent human pleasantries because i am a decent human. #and at work we're stuck together #the thing that's irked me so much about this conversation is just.. her self centeredness #that she thinks everyone is out to get her. to undermine her. whatever. #bitch nobody cares about you enough one way or the other to put in that kind of effort. i sure don't #i empathize but i do not sympathize. to feel that pit that makes you feel like the worst kind of center of attention #i get it. but genuinely you are not the main character and no one is going to spend their limited time and energy to slowly attack you #you are not the cat with all the knives pointed at it #it's a terrible feeling to feel like you are! but when it influences your behavior to the point that you are making snide comments #to people who have no option not to interact with you then uh. then you're in the wrong buddy #and the people around you (who cannot easily leave! bc work!) should not have to bend over backwards to assure you #that they're not pointing knives at you. to protect themselves from your feelings making you say mean shit #like yes. i can be more clear with my intentions. i'm generally not the greatest at that. but my baseline that i want to #modify my behavior from is NOT one that a regular well adjusted person would take as anything but kind #and if a regular well adjusted person got a little offput by me volunteering to take work off their hands we would've had a very chill #3 sentence conversation about it MONTHS AGO. #i understand and respect (even if i find it annoying and overbearing) the need for me to announce my intentions like im working in a kitchen #and saying 'hot water' or 'knife' as i move around other people but we shouldn't have reached this conclusion this way #and frankly who's to fucking say me being more clear with my intentions will only feed the flames of her thinking i'm out to get her! #'i caught up on my stuff and your plate looks full. i'm bored. anything i can do to help?' could be a pointed knife for all i know!! #and if it is- and my actions still hurt her in that scenario- am i still responsible for the hurt caused?? #like WHERE DOES IT FUCKING E N D ? #personal #*exhales* okay i feel better now #i just hate talking about my interactions with her bc i just want NOTHING to do with it. i want her out of my head!! #but until i process it i can't let go #and i'm still going to have to go over all of this with my shrink tomorrow #it just makes me mad how much of my time this bitch takes up. i'm not getting paid to think about work right now!!!!

[mattodore]

#making my two favorite ocs like oh i’m gonna give you both sooo many character flaws you’ll be helplessly drawn to each other bc of it #river dipping #theodore doe #echthroi #cw drugs mention #questionnaire lb #hello all........ i come bearing good news: theo's doc is already at 9.2k words <3 #not so great news: i actually still have 29 questions left so.......... um. i'm still not done... #😂🔫💥 #i'll definitely be making some cuts for length once i'm done answering all of the questions #like i simply can't have this go over 11k at any point... bc that would be....... just too much. like just way too much. #editing is gonna be rough when i get to it like i can just tell but whatever kill your darlings etc. etc. #also :) i've been so good at not opening tumblr or letting anything else distract me which is how theo's doc is already this long #in such a short amount of time like!!! i'm really proud of myself actually!! #i'm trying to finish it quickly bc i miss being on here but dfjkhh when i took that three hour break the other day to catch up i lost all #of my motivation to write and ended up stopping for the day bc i felt like everything i was writing was awful and ooc 😭 #so i'm holding off....... i do see my activity feed and i'll get to it i promise i'm not ignoring anyone on purpose!! #or. well i guess i kind of am but jsdkchddkj i'm just trying to get this done first!! #honestly i'm moving pretty fast tho so i feel like i'll have this done soon :) theo favoritism etc. etc. #okay... i need to go now........ i've rambled here for much too long #just felt compelled to drop another little update since my blog is inactive otherwise #logging out...... wish me luck friends and lovers

[neorukixart]

Here have my 2022 Art Summary while I remind you that even when I'm a pair of glasses, is thanks to the human that I wear that I am able to draw with her own hands. She spent over 15 years crafting her skills and she actually knows how to draw hands ;3

My art might not be perfect, but at least I draw it myself (the human I wear) so, your so called "AI art" can go to hell uwu

Hire real people guys, they will be more understanding than those. Don’t want to hire real people? Well great news for, you can do it yourself if you know how to pick up a pen/pencil! ;3

#art summary #art summary 2022 #sorry if I sound salty #but this whole AI shit stresses me so much #overall because folks being there calling themselves 'artist' when it was the damn generator that stole and plagiarized the thing #'uuuhhh but I thought on the prompts! the AI wouldn't know what to do if it weren't for me bububu' well no #it doesn't work like that #think for a second on this: order a pizza #you ask for your toppings and size of the pizza #does that makes you a chef? #other one I saw that explains it so well: a game #you make your character and level up and you get your items etc etc #you did spent time and effort to be where you are in the game right? #what if I came with a very effective bot to out you all in less than 5 minutes? #with the most difficult to find rare items and the most poweful level #do you find that fair? #anyway #AI generated art is shit and you all should stop feeding them #NO ONE AUTHORIZED THE USAGE OF OUR ART TO FEED THOSE THINGS #support human artists #AI is thief #*mic drop*

[paimonial-rage]

People thinking up cute headcanons of Dottore when he'd probably modify you against your consent or create a clone of you that's more pliant and agreeable to this nature. Turns out he actually prefers base you, but you don't know that, and he'll use that fact against you.

#this isn't a yandere blog but.... #well Dottore is just insane so idk if that technically counts as a yan #i just don't get why ppl romanticize certain characters as if they wouldn't canonically be like... #you know #if you're aware of this it's fine but to pretend like they wouldn't hurt you is dumb #like idk the nicest way to say that you're at your sexiest feeding his ego and his lust for heresy #i should clarify like... #i'm not dissing yandere lovers or whatever #i am dissing ppl that write those things like #'dottore would think it's soooooooooooo hot if you did/wore this ;)' #he ain't gonna treat u like that!!! #sorry!

[bothsidesnow2000]

Finished my year of rest and relaxation last night btw 💗 absolutely loved it. I do have a lot of thoughts but I’d also like to say reading it at the same time as I’m having mono was.. an experience.. I sleep like 11 hours a night + an afternoon nap and I’m still really tired. So it felt like we were going through some stuff together 😌

#tbh I expected to hate the main character but I think in many ways I could relate to her #the last 20 or so pages were really nice <3 #I understand it’s satire but #it was so well written I thought it was a fun but also relatable story #but sad ofc #and I guess I’ve had thoughts relating to painkillers and sleeping pills #esp during the winter months where I’d like to hibernate for a few months #the whole sad g*rl aesthetic is so comfortable once you’ve fallen down the rabbit hole but holy fuck why do we do this to ourselves #I’m happy the book ended like it did #like go to a museum feed the ducks get rid of your phone #be a little bit kinder to yourself #you literally don’t know what will happen tomorrow #okay good night 😴

[sodacowboy]

do you not relate to female characters because they’re poorly written or is it because you’re transmasc

#because I’ve seen and loved lots of well written female characters #and not once have I deeply related to them #maybe a thing here or there #but otherwise??? #anyway #trying to come to terms with the disconnect between myself and womanhood #and uhhh it’s hard lol #i stg if any transphobes touch this fucking post I will feed your fingers and toes to your loved ones

[possessedscholar]

Not all of The Rules Of The Internet (origin of Rule 34 and, less remembered, Rules 50 (A Crossover, no matter how improbable, will eventually happen in Fan Art, Fan Fiction, or official release material, often through fanfiction of it) and 63 (For every given male character, there is a female version of that character (and vice-versa). And there is always porn of that character.) has aged well, but always remember a few other rules (boiled down to the basic meaning):

Rule 11: No matter how much you love debating, keep in mind that no one on the internet debates. Instead they mock your intelligence as well as your parents. (Never assume any “debate” is done in good faith if you have any reason to believe otherwise)

Rule 13: Anything you say can and will be turned into something else (someone somewhere will maliciously twist your words)

Rule 14: Do not argue with trolls—it means they win. (Don’t Feed The Trolls, block em and go, you don’t owe them shit)

Rule 33: Lurk moar—it's never enough. (If you don’t know, don’t speak up. Internet version of “better to be silent and thought a fool, than to open your mouth and confirm it”)

Rule 39: CAPS LOCK IS CRUISE CONTROL FOR COOL. (Classic memes never truly go out of style, someone will appreciate it…)

Rule 40: EVEN WITH CRUISE CONTROL YOU STILL HAVE TO STEER (…but you can always go overboard, mix it up every once in a while)

Rule 49: No matter what it is, it is somebody's fetish. (Self explanatory, but in more modern times a reminder to be wary of people asking for things you don’t possibly believe could be a fetish)

Rule 62: It has been cracked and pirated. You can find anything if you look long enough. (Keep Circulating The Tapes, and ask any tech savvy friends if they know a guy)

[uwudonoodle]

I'm a foodie, so I'm always thinking about my next meal. Now that I'm writing a story, I'm always thinking about my character's next meal too.

#food #foodie #food is always on my mind #feeding your characters well is a love language #writing #writer #ficwriter #fanfic #writerslife #I hope whoever eventually reads my fic appreciates all my descriptions of food #Writing about food is easier than cooking it #If you love your characters feed them #food lore