#even the cat has depression

[prokopetz]

Historically, the American animation industry has recognised only two types of cartoons aimed at adult audiences:

The animated sitcom

Martial arts action with tits and gore

I'm watching the Fionna and Cake miniseries right now, and I genuinely think we're witnessing the emergence of a third broadly accepted option: whimsical fantasy adventure in the mode of popular children's programming, except everyone is clinically depressed.

#media #cartoons #adventure time: fionna and cake #adventure time #fionna and cake #tropes #genres #violence mention #adventure time: fionna and cake spoilers #adventure time spoilers #fionna and cake spoilers #seriously #even the cat has depression

[vvitchering]

I’m replaying act 1 (for the fifth time) and when Gale is explaining his condition to you he mentions he’s “never told another living soul” about it, except for Tara. You’re telling me this man shut himself up in his tower for an entire year and didn’t tell anyone why and no one ever bothered to find out? He has so few people who care about him in his life that he fell into a depression and disappeared for a year and NO ONE thought to go and check on him and find out what was wrong? He’s had no one but Tara providing help and support until he meets Tav???????

#I’m just #this is my Astarion run but holy shit GALE #like no wonder he’s a little bit insane #how isolated has he been his whole life that he has no one but his cat who cares enough to take care of him #the way he speaks about his mother I thought they’d be pretty close but even she never found out about the orb?? #either she shrugged off her brilliant son turning into a depressed recluse or she never bothered to check on him at all #and tbh Gale might not even realize that’s Not Ideal #maybe he’s always been held at a distance by his family #I have hcs about this actually #anyway that fucked me up this time #the way he begs tav for help finding items to feed the orb like he’s fully expecting to be shot down and left behind #ughhhhhhh I am Upset about the wizard again friends #bg3 #baldur’s gate 3 #gale of waterdeep #I didn’t even go into how Mystra also abandoned him at the same time #so he was going through a break up and a crisis of faith and being a human bomb all at once #🥲

[bubblegum-and-ciggarettes]

Spoilers For Final Episodes!

Tbh I’m kinda disappointed in these last two episodes. I knew that we would end the series with Simon and Fionna learning to be happy, but I felt like it went too fast.

I’m glad my accession of how Betty sacrificing everything for Simon was something that came back, and Simon actually learned that Betty sacrificed so much for him while he just let it happen.

Very cool that we got to see Beth and Shermy again, but I’m still confused on how Shermy and Simon were both in his head? And why Simon was naked for some reason??

I am glad on the direction they decided to take Fionna’s world, in how she made a wish for it to be real or for everyone to have their wish(which is what I’m assuming is implied as she never says it). I really do wish that they let Simon put on the crown and for Fionna’s nightmare to actually become real, as I feel it would’ve made the last episodes feel more active and led to her and Simons realization in a more direct way.

I honestly don’t get why Simons voice actor said it would be heartbreaking in the 9th episode as it really wasn’t. Even in the last episode it was pretty tame and didn’t feel as bittersweet as I felt it should’ve for the topic the show decided to address.

Also really wish Betty and Simon had more than like 3 sentences said between them, as it felt like Simon and Betty really didn’t get closure. It kinda seemed like Simon decided he was worth living for when the episode really wasn’t about that? It was about how Simon loved Betty but they weren’t on equal footing in terms of commitment so Betty agreed with Simon, even if it put them both in a bad place in the end.

They didn’t even show how it would’ve been different, which you could agree is the point of “well that’s not what happened”, but it just felt lacklustre with the rest of the context.

I feel bad because I REALLY liked this show and the rest of the episodes. The end just didn’t have the right kick to it and didn’t really make sense. Like why did we have the random characters show up to live in Fionna’s world, and we didn’t even get a glimpse of Finn or Marcy in Simons ending? I was thinking they would do a montage at the end with what happened in the universes we left, but I guess it does leave it open for a season 2. I’m of course glad that Simon and Fionna were able to feel happy in their worlds again, but still.

I honestly wasn’t that stoked about a season 2 unless the ending for this season wasn’t the best, so I guess I’ll just hope season 2 gets created.

#fionna and cake #fionna the human #fionna Campbell #cake the cat #simon petrikov #adventure time #of course I’m not saying people can’t be satisfied with the ending #but imo stories about depression and shi like not knowing what to do with your life shout be bittersweet in a way #like it leaves the ending up to interpretation to whether it’ll b good or bad bc that’s how mental health works #even if you try and gain happiness again it doesn’t mean it’ll last #Simon and Finn’s mom kinda went over that but for luke one sentence #oh yeah the lich was there too ig #still don’t know who the scarabs boss is #cause it’s not Betty #prismo and scarab r kinda cute tho #prismo now has a dude to chill with and make fanfics #now that I’m thinking about it prismos arc wasn’t really solved either #kinda forgot about it but like he was depressed too

[morgana-artt]

That's it, I'm taking P, Romeo and Sophia (and a few others) with me, we're gonna live in a nice house and be loved and NO ONE is going to hurt them. Old man Geppy can back off 🤺🤺 and Simeon too 🤺

Everyone's happy, no ones hurt or in pain and everyone is petting the cat >:(!!!

#lies of p #im clearly distraught becausw this game is depressing af #this page has turned into a LoP fanpage LOL #my next piece is going to be a happy one istg even ifs just the cat

[sweetshire]

So, @silv-paru sent Sherlock Holmes for the character opinion bingo. thanks a bunch for this (and for your patience. my god, i’m answering this a week late. typical me behaviour). you’re a darling :D

Did you know, i used to tell these stories to my friends? they delighted in them AND i got a chance to sort of ramble on and on abt him and watson. it was a win-win, really. ah, those were the days! now i haven’t reblogged much of him this month at all. i miss him. I MISS HIM.

Onto the bingo: well. he’s The quintessence of gender™ to me. and i relate to him so so much. fav character of all time fr. i want to carry him in my pocket at all times & study him. like. do i want to BE him OR am i IN LOVE with him, ykwim? pssh who knows? certainly not me. uh-huh ‘a beast unleashed’ -does this refer to me or him? you choose. oh re: canon, i’m ignoring the part where holmes dies (or y’know, is dead for 3 years). that’s too angsty.

#sherlock holmes #my dearest blorbo #he’s my belovedest chewtoy basically #if i think abt how modern adaptations *looking at you bbc sherlock* have ruined his character i get so angry i have to take deep breaths #*mutters darkly* he is NOT an arrogant cold-hearted bitch like he’s portrayed; well he IS a bitch but not a cold-hearted one!! #see. the thing abt holmes is that he’s SUCH a sweet boy okay. and he’s compassionate #he cares sooo much. that’s the reason people come to him when they’re distressed. they trust him #he hates the police. he is a jester at heart. loves his watson #he’s here to help the truly desparate helpless people even if they have no money to pay him for the case. no questions asked. But- #he fucking despises obnoxious rich men. the first time he meets watson a total stranger he *very excitedly* tells him abt his experiment #it’s very adorable. he never stops trying to impress ever. infact blushes furiously when complimented by him #my guy has 0 knowledge of our solar system but he’s written several monographs abt different types of ASHES. go figure! #OH i almost forgot the most important fact he’s special to me bc holmes is an audhd gay disaster bastard. sometimes he’s even bisexual #but mostly he’s acespec and in a qpr w watson. he’s VERY adhd. behaves like an excited cat and oh so cute when he stims. everytime he does #i go SQUEEE. when he’s depressed it’s a goddamn hashtag big mood. as in many other ways he is me i am him #he’s PASSIONATE and KIND that’s all you need to know #acd stories are about just some guy who loves his job (which he invented himself btw after quitting college) that’s it #i am overcome with an almighty need to squeeze his cheeks #he’s everything to me <3 #alright if i don’t stop now i doubt i ever will LMAO bye #acd holmes #if u read till the end u get a cookie and a kiss on the nose i love u

[cherrysnax]

okay this is meant to be said with no like judgement or anything. my mom hasn’t showered for an extensive amount of time. weeks. maybe months. how do I help her? is there anything I can do to help her or like. should we just let her be

#it’s getting to the point where my little brother and my cat are having reactions to her #my cat. #and she has bipolar depression so be kind #I may not like the bitch but this is very morally neutral #I just think she’d feel better if she showered or bathed #she says she can’t even look at herself in the mirror because she’s so disgusted by herself #and idk if it’s physical or mental but it’s bad #my older brothers also don’t shower #but I don’t care about them #but yeah I get not showering. my hygiene is the first to tank when im depressed but like. it’s been a month #maybe. I don’t have a good grasp on time #my mom will prolly get mad or cry if I bring it up to her so I. wanna be as gentle as possible

[dirt-str1der]

Yaoi has poisoned all of your fucking brains !!

#Yakuza HATEblog #i dont want to hear about the new yakuza trailer where kiryu proposed to soemone he wouldnnever do that thats so scary #also they refered to sayama as the cop lady like please show some respect to her she didnt be annoying for you to forget her #ive become homophobic now because i hated seeing a particular post so much like that will never happen you are crazy #like no this isnt how kzmj can win they have never even once considered a future together because kiryus foreplanning ended when he lost #his brother and majima has spent half her life waiting for saejima to come back like they have more important things to worry about #and kiryu is not able to share his kids with anybody he cant simultaneously raise haruka with someone he has to either be a single dad or an #absent dad no in between and sometimes haruka is left parentless in the middle of that mess but its not kiryus problem hes driving cars amd #beating people up .... well he does care sorry for insinuating he doesnt ... he thinks about his kids every day #but i guarantee you he does not think about majima every day i swear it to you he does not care about her that much !!! i have to forever #stress this doesnt mean that he hates majima but it simply means that shes not his priority AND SHE WILL NEVER BE !!! kiryu will never #risk it all just for a suckle on that majiwilly like he doesnt like her that much ... if kiryu didnt even give majima so much as a phonecall #when he was ignoring her the entirety of y3 AFTER tossing her back to the wolves just so he can play house at okinawa.. hes not going to #suddenly realise that he wants to spend the rest of his life with majima hes going to be pondering how miserable he is while beating the #fuck out of people because sorry i didnt actually pay attention to the gaiden stuff is kiryu a hitman now or some sort of mercenary either #way its so hot that hes paralleled by y0 majima because hes so depressed and wants to kill himself and forced to wear a nice suit and do #things he doesnt want to while being kept on a tight leash like hohooho ... have sex with me ...!!! #im going to kill him myself to put him out of his misery if i have to ... just let kiryu run off to america and join the cia im kidding but #wait i just thought of him actually running off and sayama pulling some strings in the force to keep people from looking for him because #shes like a bigshot cop now ... i think she should be able to cradle him gently and keep him like a show cat #a shivering wet penis in the rain and she takes him in and gives him a loving home ... i feel a little embarrassed talking about hetships #but the concept of kiryu just being in her house and living with her is making me laugh like wow ... hes straight now.... like obviously hes #still not going to be like lets get married 🥰 but sayama would want to... i believe that she could forge their documents so kiryu isnt an #illegal immigrant anymore and she gives him an american name so john yakuza can become real ... its like a fake dating au but they really #arent dating theyre just having sex and acting out scenes from a kdrama but eventually kiryu will have to go back because hes so sad #without his kids and he needs to see them one last time to pass away peacefully. sorry i just remembered how much older kiryu was than #sayama like thats a bit funny ... like i still think kiryu should be into older guys or girls but like we cant always have that happen #like how majimas options for getting fucked by creepy old guys are getting lesser year by year because those old geezers keep dying and hes #old now too ... like theyre so old thats fucked. i know ive been saying how kzmj can never win but i do think majima should breastfeed kiryu

[soldier-poet-king]

Cemeteries of amalo bk 3 isn't out til next year but maybe I'll reread the first two again just to ruin me bc thara is The Most Of All Time for me in every single way imaginable and I know I say that about a lot of shit on this web site bc I love hyperbole but it really is true about thara. Top 5 Fran coded characters of all time bc it's in literally every single dimension of his being

#its june so yknow. extra pain #franposting #like. hes depressed. hes got a guilt complex. hes always sleep deprived #hes lonely. he likes cats #he has this duty to other people. hes deeply religious. he has a firm belief in a calling to help but is also burdened by it #his god never answers him. hes pathetic. hes kind. he doesn't think he deserves any respite or happiness #because the duty is all and it always comes first #hes lost his sense of self completely #the barest minimum of human kindness and decency breaks him #hes the most introvert. he loves trashy novels. he has like two (2) friends but he cant even be convinced of their regard for him #hes got FOOD ISSUES #he is so so sad and he tries so hard and it is about duty and he will run himself into the ground for it #he has absolutely no regard for himself or his wellbeing #im just. oh boy. finished thr sparrow 2 and its like. yeah actually maybe thats right. #its a thara world for me #tge is objectively way more comforting and softer and kinder and just a lovelier book #but the cemeteries books are the ones that get me. specifically. in a way maia's hope doesnt #and somedays i cant e #*cant bring myself to have that hope for myself. not truly. ill take a grim stubborn not quite hope. equilibrium I guess. a bitter one. #take it over the soft kindness i want but isnt realistic. not really #sometimes u rlly just do gotta look the horribleness in the eyes. and say. okay. i see you. we are the same. inseparable. and thats that

[cringefailfagcat]

the way one of my friends offered to get people drinks. one of the others asked for a rum and coke, so i asked for a vodka lemonade n then they stood right behind me and went 'is olive allowed to drink?' it killed something inside me a little bit. like i wasn't episoding i've been responsible about my drinking recently don't take away my autonomy when i'm capable of looking after myself please. i know i barely can but don't. don't make this one of the few things people will actually talk to me for

#sorry but i just feel so isolated in the friend group #like no-one's leaving me out its just everyone is coupled up and the only other single people are in a qpr and go home together to watch #korra everytime we hang out and it kills that i'm the only one who has to go and be alone. everyone else skips off all happy and i'm left #to go back to my little den of depression and fight through the panic abandonment response that i get every time i leave them #but if i isolate myself completely i will be even worse. my therapist told me to make myself socialise as much as i can and i've been tryin #and it's usually alright for most of the time when we're together. like nice even if its heartbreakingly lonely and i dont have the spoons #to contribute consistently to conversations #vent #sorry i'm just. i feel like i'm falling apart slowly #catching bits as they fall and shoving them back into me but still deteriorating faster than i can fix myself #i want to stop. #i can't be a human anymore #i can study and live in literature but i cannot be human #i can't be loved. #i just want to beg one of my tutors to let me camp out in their office for a few hours so they can help me somehow do my essay #like. i can't do it on my own. i can't think enough to scrape up my memory of the books i'm writing about #and i don't have time to reread them to find quotes #i just. want to be a cat hiding under people's tables with the occasional pet from people who are kind enough to like my type of creature #but be left to sleep and do what i need to at my own pace #is that really so much to ask? can i become smaller please. take away this body of mine and give me something that fits the shape of me

[blunderpuff]

my mom hates the house, hates the neighborhood (can't walk to anything/have to get in the car for everything), can't find stuff she packed, doesn't have good places to put her stuff, her big desk doesn't fit in the "office alcove", the cat is days away from being put down and so he's clingy and sad...

MA'AM. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO WAS DESPERATE TO MOVE. BUYING THIS HOUSE HAS BEEN IN THE WORKS SINCE JULY OF THIS YEAR. "MOVING" AS A CONCEPT HAS BEEN THE SUBTITLE OF MY LIFE FOR THE PAST 5 YEARS. YOU DO NOT GET TO BE A PISSY TODDLER NOW. THIS IS LITERALLY ALL YOUR DOING.

#the secret world of merry mac #and she keeps yelling at Arthur to leave her alone but he's fucking dying. he barely eats and he's cold and has balance issues #the poor cat is existing in his final week on this planet and she's just mad at him and taking it out on him #i have basically no furniture (none of it matched and so i didn't mind giving it away/selling it) #so that means my things are all shoved into precariously stacked boxes and i'm sleeping on an army cot #i'm depressed too!! i left a decent paying job doing something i really liked! i would have been fine moving to a different house in town!! #she wanted (1) trader joe's (2) kaiser permanente and (3) her own swimming pool #she got (1) trader joe's 2 freeways/30m drive away (2) no kaiser and (3) no pool #this is how we always move; my mom gets the itch and then we leave. it's not that she wants to move TO somwhere-- it's just AWAY from here #(wherever 'here' is) #so i spent my entire last paycheck on furniture that won't even be here for a week or more #i also hate the (brand new) fridge that came with the house. it's a side-by-side and it's simultaneously stupidly spacious #but also the space is used in such a stupid way that you can't even lay a frozen pizza flat on a freezer shelf #she also collects screws/nuts/bolts/nails/washers like a fucking magpie and so no two are the same #and she doesn't use the correct things for the job and she just put two ROOFING NAILS into the wall to hold a magnet board up #she sucks at home repair (made worse by the aforementioned WRONG TOOLS FOR THE JOB) and so everything is done #with extreme frustration and it turns out half-assed and looks bad #she doesn't wait and/or think about where she wants stuff to go so she's just spent the afternoon hanging things up badly #and the house is going to look like it was decorated by some clown who needs to hang every piece of art they own all at once #we have picture rails so we can swap artwork/photos according to mood/season/etc but no... she just puts EVERYTHING out all at once #anyway i'm so sad and tired and frustrated and angry and it feels really unfair to keep my mouth shut when she says 'i wish we never moved!

[allmpa]

I have a black cat and I’m convinced she’s a Regulus Black kinnie (or Regulus Black themself) for the following reasons:

Ma’am doesn’t let anyone touch her for days then cries because she’s touch starved (idiot behavior, love her though and I run to give her cuddles when she gets so desperate she asks for some)

She eats one type of food for like 3 days then gets bored of the taste and refuses to eat until we give her a new flavor (picky but she’s cute and irresistible so what can you do)

She gets into a strange little depressive state when her favorite family member isn’t there—she gets a little more pissed off at the world basically (I yell at said family member to get back home so that my cat isn’t sad anymore)

On (very few) miraculous days she decides to be the loveliest, prettiest, cuddliest cat and has an all round marvelous time being the center of attention (as she should)

Whenever we have strangers at the house she disappears, she’s playing an extreme level of hide and seek and will not be found until she decides it is safe (I hope I didn’t somehow transfer my social anxiety to my cat oops)

Essentially what i’m telling you all is that i am the Barty to my cat’s Regulus.

#marauders era #regulus black #regulus #barty crouch jr #bartylus #platonic bartylus #black cat regulus #regulus being a little shit #but he’s our little shit so we love him for it #it’s not even that I’m the barty to my cats regulus #it’s more like my cat and I are like regulus with the fandom #regulus is touch starved at all times and he hates asking for physical touch #picky eater regulus #obviously #he ​gets depressed when he can’t see james or Sirius #like not that his happiness is entirely dependent on them #but let’s be honest it partly very much is #regulus has good days #days where he feels good and happy and when he lets himself love and receive love #i love that he has good days #i wish he could have one eternal good day #wait that sounds ominous #I’m just saying I want him to be happy #also yeh Reg has social anxiety #no surprises there #i love regulus black #-said James potter #and everyone in this fandom

[blanketburritotoro]

*leaving for work*

*can't find car keys*

*is now late for work*

*texts supervisor apologizing and explaining*

*keeps looking for keys*

*over two and a half hours go by*

*panic attack*

*calls off work*

My boss: "Yeah ok, as long as you have the leave to use. Seems like you need to have less anxiety."

Cheers Dave, I'll try that next.

#you dont say #dont be mean to dave tho we like dave #panic attack #anxiety #I KNOW my keys are in my house somewhere #looked everywhere they could ha e possibly gone with out being walked off with #turned the ground floor upside down looking but no luck #at this point im worried one of my cats walked off with them and ill find them months later behind a pile of boxes i still havent unpacked #we moved over a year and a half ago but theres still a couple of room with piles of boxes #depression will do that to ya #panic disorder #mental health #lost car keys #i had to call a locksmith #it was expensive #im too poor for this shit #like no really #if the bank hadnt been all you do good money but you poor here have more borrowing power even tho you didnt ask for it #i would not have had anyway to fix this problem #screaming

[nordic-language-love]

Once again I have messages and asks to reply to that I haven't got round to yet because last couple of weeks have honestly been hella stressful but I promise I'm not ignoring you; I just haven't recovered enough to respond yet.

#i'm flagging big time ngl #sorting the whole trip back to the uk has been exhausting #haven't even finished booking flights yet and i still have to get a train ticket from london to my city #and then either tell my bf i can't stay that night bc being a bridesmaid i have to stay over at the wedding venue #or tell my friend i can't stay over the night before the wedding bc it's been 10 months since i saw my bf and cats and i wanna cuddle them #why does my life always seem to involve having to choose which person to disappoint #i honestly feel like life right now is just throwing me choices that involve losing either way instead of winning #it's never like. trying to choose between chocolate cake and salted caramel ice cream where both options are a win #it always feels like choosing between having my hand cut off or my foot cut off #and when i tell people this they're just like 'but you shouldn't see it that way! it's so sad that you choose to view it like that.' #so yeah i'm exhausted because i'm depressed and poor and stressed out about going back to the uk #just wanna sleep for a week but noooooo #at least this week is fairly light. short commute relatively easy classes and i like the staff i share the classroom with

[pepprs]

ok two things. #1 i am IMPOSSIBLY exhausted. just took a nap for a couple hours and have been awake for a bit but i feel like ivr been whacked like a punching bag like good god. and #2 is gonna have to make me delete this post later bc i feel weird and bad and paranoid abt saying it lol but. it’s just fucking weird and bad kinda bc im literally 2 years older than / removed from the students who work closest with us rn (who i spent most of today tabling w) and it’s so awkward bc we’re at the same-ish life stages and ik we totally would’ve been friends if we’d gone thru the same programs together as students but they ignore me / don’t and can’t talk to me like we’re friends bc im a staff member and my attempts to talk to them are lame and weird so idk. it’s just a lot and stressful and sobering

#purrs #aldo one of the interns who will be working w us this year just found a living situation that is like… EXACTLY the kind of thing i think i #would want and she was telling me all abt decorating her apartment and getting / buying stuff for her cat and having all this freedom and… #RRAUGHHHH im so proud of her and happy for her bc her situation was rly hard before this and she told me all abt it and it’s exactly what #she needed and deserves but it’s just so WEIRD bc i need the exact same thing and still live w my parents and share a room and can’t drive a #and am literally like… ‘in competiton’ w students im working w for resources and also im about to be a grad student and idk how to act #arojnd undergrads or if i get to / should sympathize with them or like talk abt anything bc im also a staff member and a semi-supervisor of #theirs and i know things they don’t and have power over them and it’s like. aughhhh it’s just bad. i feel really horrible saying this but i #just need time to pass. i need to not be going thru the same life milestones undergrads are going thru. i need to be 3-4 yrs in the future w #where no one ever knew me as a student (a couple of them did just as a senior when they were freshmen etc!). so that it’s not weird anymore #and there are no blurry lines that make us confused abt how to interact w each other or make me feel so fucking bad abt myself lol #<- which i literally shouldn’t like i have no reason to and it’s ridiculous and childish to. but idk. imjust depressed and exhausted i think #delete later #also for the second semester ina row im about to be an instructor of a class with someone i literally… took a class with as a student in the #class 💀💀💀💀💀 like she and i were classmates in spring 2021 and my co-instructors were O UR instructors and nowi am also an instructor. and #its just so fucking bizarre and uncomfortable aughhhhh #i just feel very lonely abt all of it. and im isolating myself again which isn’t helping esp bc the guilt has been gnawing at me hard lately #not to say this but it’s even weird on here. like a lot of you guys are in college rn and… i work for one. and it doesn’t matter but also it #just feels weird and i feel weird abt complaining abt the semester or being like yeah the semester is so hard haha fellow kids. which im not #bc it legitimately is hard for staff too it’s just… a lot. idk. idk how to explain it

[orcelito]

Honestly hate how hard it is to start writing again when you've gone too long without it. Like for fuck's sake man Why's shit gotta be like this

#speculation nation #daydreaming of the early discacc days when i wrote 70k words in 3 weeks. those were the days... #im just... so tired and wrung out and everything is so fucking hard #im barely even Doing anything besides working. my apartment is in horrible shape rn. #what is it about grief that makes life so hard to live man. you lose a cornerstone to your life and suddenly everything is in shambles #and i know he wouldnt have wanted this for me. for me to be Barely functioning bc my brain has been so bad in response #im alive im going to work im feeding myself and showering every day #but i havent been doing the dishes i havent taken out the trash theres Stuff all over my floors and cat messes i havent cleaned #and i dont have the energy for any of it. i get home i eat and then i climb into bed. rinse and repeat. #im just... tired. im so very tired. #i keep wanting to turn to my hobbies to cope with things but it's so fucking hard to stick to #constantly oscillating between manic moods where i think i can finally start moving on (but i dont have the focus to do writing) #and depressive moods where Good Fuckin Luck doing anything besides laying in bed #if you couldnt tell im in the second boat right now. in bed as we speak. and so i shall remain until it's time to go to work #at least ive been going to the woods almost every chance i get. it hasnt given me the power to write but it's been good for me i think #get out of the apartment. experience nature. pick up a snail. you know how it goes. #i kinda feel bad for entering a fandom and trying to dig out a place for myself and Kind Of succeeding #i have a good handful of followers. people who wanna see more of my analysis and fanfic #but i havent posted anything significant in like a month bc i have belonged to the void. all month. #losing family will do that to a person i guess. doesnt stop me from being frustrated though. #negative/

[anthro-cat]

what will i do once my cat dies?

#we already lost one cat. they aren't dead. they just.. left one day. #i kinda miss him #he was my mom's bestest friend #its weird though. when we couldn't find him i wasn't panicked or depressed... #i felt numb. like i couldn't feel anything for him or how he got lost #even now i kinda. care less than i want to #but we have another cat. the one that has been with us all this time #what will happen to me once she dies? #once i see her body lying down with no movement? #will she leave before that happens? because i kind of hope so #seeing her die might just break my heart in two #i'd rather suddenly never see her again than say goodbye to her knowing she's gone #...maybe it'll happen soon #we haven't brought her to the vet... #my mom said she was gonna take her to the vet one day #or more like. the vet would come here (to our house) and check her #she's not ill or anything #well. i hope she isn't #sorry i watched a vid of someone telling a story of how their cat died #and got a bit anxious #i'm just scared that i won't care once my cat dies #cw animal death #cw death mention