#etc etc im too lazy this time

[spghtrbry]

opera bracket results in a nutshell

a woman stepping on a man stock photos. @malcolm-f-tucker here you go… sad onegin snaijsiansh

#opera tag #opera bracket #carmen #carmen opera #eugene onegin #onegin #the marriage of figaro #don giovanni #verdi #etc etc im too lazy this time #im sorry #🎉🎉🎉

[atoriv-art]

true art

#itadei #deidara #itachi #uchiha itachi #itachi uchiha #dont talk to me im going on a walk in the woods and never returning #naruto #2023 #art #fanart #this is perhaps the only time ive ever (ACCIDENTALY.) made a mans hair shorter instead of longer #i promise to grow and change from this mistake etc. #also i gave that dei design from foreeeever ago some iwa touches. am too lazy to update the art i drew for it for nwo.

[esaari]

#oc #gabe #he was too lazy to shave this time #i suppose #when i tell u my hand died drawing all these strands... #used both csp and ps for this so that was fun #the effect layers i added in the end were maybe a bit much but whatever throwing some extra colour having fun etc etc #anyways im too sleepy for thoughts

[palaeophis-fr]

I am free

#with this i have almost all the achievements that arent time reliant(fests etc) or require smth like hatching 50000 nests #tho i dont have the ones for unexalting a dragon (progen or otherwise) lol #im too lazy to get my progens outta my hibden and i never want to use my normal unexalt because What If I Need It Later #flight rising

[sparring-spirals]

Placing such a hard time limit using the Calamity was exceptionally good and also inherent to the tragedy of it and im thrilled by it. Don't get me wrong, forced time limits in tragedies and doomsday stories are common for a reason. They work, and they work well. but just, within the context of EXU Calamity, its really getting me.

because its always about not having enough time, right? its about expecting that you'll have more. There's complacency with power, and mistakes, and wealth, but maybe what the Ring of Brass were most indulgent with was time.

(you always think you'll have enough time, more time, another replenishment, another deal, another broadcast, another batch of bright children. youll get another time to hash out an argument with your father. you'll get another time to stay home with your kids and get to know them. you'll get another time to apologize and explain and fix your broken relationship. there's just something else, right here, right now, that should get done first.)

The Ring of Brass were rich, in so many ways. They had power, and wealth, and a million responsibilities, and so maybe they would've argued they had ZERO time, actually, and they just needed to sort everything else out first, and they'd have enough time to figure everything else out later.

but that's the point, right? There's never really a good time for this. for the important stuff, or the end of the world.

(Laerryn was, perhaps, the primary person in the Ring Of Brass operating under a time limit from the get-go, trying desperately to get the Leyline working, because if it wasn't now, it would be never. Because Quay wouldn't live that long. But even she assumed that was the extent of the time limit, that for Everything Else, there would still be time.)

(And is that such a ridiculous expectation? Is that so foolish of her? Of all of them? You never expect the world to end. You don't have infinite time, sure, but- you've got tomorrow, or next week, or- just not now.)

And so it is tragic, but it is also weirdly satisfying, to see the way time got shattered and stretched and sped throughout that last episode. The first second lasted forty minutes. They get maybe two hours at the hands of a damned demon, and its the best blessing they've ever had. Rounds are six seconds. A broadcast is maybe thirty. A healing word, a Wish, a Wall of Force, all buying paltry seconds that make all the difference. The dawn is coming, Avalir is landing, there's so much that has to be done, and that won't get done. We watch them make hard decisions, over and over, and over, and we keep saying "there's not enough time". Because of course there isn't. There could never have been.

#look i dunno alright ive just got a lot of thoughts and feelings about time and priorities and tragedies #critical role #cr spoilers #exandria unlimited #exu calamity #exu calamity part 4 #meta #the ring of brass #my meta #speculation #theres like 5 trains of thought in this meta but im feeling too lazy to break it down into multiple posts so here ya go #its something like 1- the ring of brass were rich and complacent and that extended to assuming theyd have time later #2- the general role of time limits in tragedies and the 'i thought we would have more time' as a very classic sort of setup/delivery/etc #3- sense of urgency and fear and also /purpose/ that the time limit provides working BEAUTIFULLY for calamity specifically #4- laerryn was operating under a time limit before too. the decisions you make under time constraints are not always wise. but youre trying #5- theres not enough time. they shouldve gotten more time. there is unique tragedies for each of them that they didnt get more. #6- time IS a soup #ok im good. this is why i havent written a lot of posts after the finale they all look like this. also ive been busy. i Also dont have time #spar speaks #narrative meta

[saviourkingslut]

lmao was at a small social event at a colleague's home. conversation turned to video games. i drop the name fire emblem. turns out two guys present know the franchise. one of them has played three houses but only crimson flower, he's firmly on the left but somehow also seems convinced she was the good one for abolishing the nobility (anti-establishment/monarchy/capitalism etc) and fighting 'the monsters' (he has never played another fe game and is unfamiliar with their stories so to him monsters = bad). i disagree with him (in a normal way bc otherwise he's a nice guy). another guy asks for my opinion on her and the writing in general. cue me info dumping abt this game for 15 mins looking generally deranged.

#i was like the game has four routes and he didn't know bc he didn't know abt silver snow. also didn't know abt cf being much shorter #he was like hell yeah edelgard. i was like im a dimitri fan. he was like oh #bro you haven't even played his route 😭 so i told him abt dinitri's reforms etc #anyway i also said sometimes the writing between the routes doesnt seem to add up but it's bc characters have access to #different information. and it's not always the right information. so that's incongruity that makes sense. #but at other times. it's just lazy writing. #and also edelgard could've been a much more interesting character if they hadn't tried to make her moe and cater to #a very specific fire emblem player base demographic #curry rambles #i was dropping way too specific facts abt this game i felt like a wiki page fr.

[kaladinkholins]

hi, it's me. the fic writer that uses culturally-specific idioms in a very different cultural time setting and keeps confusing words like reign and rein. this is my story.

#kkglinka if you see this i salute your willpower for still being supportive even tho i KNOWWW it must get on your nerves LMFAO #the idioms thing tho i am conscious of it probably half the time but i'm like whatever cuz 1. it's fanfic & 2. prose & character voice >>>> #also if the characters are not speaking english but im writing in english then everything's a translation anyway #so that'd mean translating/localising expressions into ones the intended audience will understand #i toe the line a looooot when it comes to this in my novel wip as well cuz for all intents and purposes the charas SHOULD be speaking malay #but since im writing in english i do have to localise a lot of things do you get me #thinking about that book that went “i have to worldbuild my own culture”. i cant remember the book tho #whoops im going on a tangent #anyway #the whole mixing up words thing though i have no excuse for its just bcs i AM an idiot who doesnt proofread and im too lazy to find a beta #which is also why i have a bunch of typos in all my fics WHOOPS #this is Not a vaguepost btw! this is just me rambling and thinking thoughts in my own space like writing in my diary with glitter pen etc #also i Dont think they were even talking abt my fics in particular cuz i know it's v common among lots of fics (+idk if they read my stuff) #BUT i know i am very very guilty of doing this so. LOL #anywayssss!!!! #shut up haydar #on writing.log

[waitinqroom]

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#called my best friend today for the first time in foreverrrr and we just talked about literally everything #love lives movies politics our hometown our childhoods etc. #whenever i don’t talk to someone for a long time i get scared we will drift apart and lose our connection #but some people it’s just like :))) you are my best friend and we will love each other forever :))) #sorry i kinda stopped making personal posts on here but im too lazy to get out my diary lol #r

[lottieurl]

society if poi had a shoot spinoff where shaw deals with her ptsd

#insert the pic im too lazy to google #like goooood ill forever be sad we didnt see more of her coping with it #imagine a spinoff exploring 1) shaw's ptsd and lack of trust in her surroundings etc #2) root's fear of losing shaw for the second time #like i get that from a fic and my own mind but imagine it fully explored on screen #biting screaming im never gonna be fuckjng normal!!!! #poi blogging

[note-boom]

Okay. Quick thoughts after episode 3

Firstly. Something isn't computing with me. The thing of Dazai already having a plan for a new shin soukoku when he obviously wasn't going to leave the mafia or break up with Chuuya. Whatever you might say about Dazai's predictive genius powers, I do not for a moment believe that he really needed Akutagawa for something other than an unlikely backup, or that he thought he was ever going to leave the mafia, or that he really thought Chuuya was die or leave either. You know. For a suicidal guy, lots of plans sure hinge upon him staying alive, so maybe his little messed up plans and manipulations and contingency plans are just ways to give himself excuses to live even as he tries to kill himself but what do I know?

The reason I think Fukuchi and Fyodor get along so well is that they both have this weird thing where they think they have the right and the destiny to carry out heaven's will upon the earth. Fyodor "I am only doing the will of god" Dostoyevsky and Fukuchi "I wield this sword and want recognition from heavens, who will not let me rest" Ouchi are both living cycles of self-delusion

In my (probably wrong) opinion, Akutagawa telling Atsushi that he had lung disease was probably the hint to tell Atsu that he could trust Aku. "See. I'm telling you something I've never told anyone before. I'm trusting you. So trust me, idiot" Except Atsushi heard Dazai and was like "oh yeah, Akutagawa's not gonna turn me in dead." Oh, well...at least it worked

Fukuchi is basically Yoo Joonghyuk from ORV if Yoo Joonghyuk did actually defeat the end of the world, but only after dying for it several times before winning. And then if he had to witness another end of the world and go through it several times before beating it.

That ending. I am dead and so is Akutagawa. Send help

#also #theres something suspicious about islands in bsd #standard island and tokoyami island both...if i had a nickel for everything an island in bsd was created mysteriously... #...id have two nickels which isnt a lot but its weird that it happened twice #also this would have never happened if the un had more women on the council #okay slight joke but also i dont really notice those things and i kinda noticed it... #and finally. fukuchi @ atsushi's cut up leg: 'tis a flesh wound compared to what i got' #really? really? wheres your prosthetic heart and lung and etc then? #i know you probably time travelled it away but dont talk to my son that way! #okay im really done now #i probably spend too much time rotating these two episodes in my mind #will do so for the rest of the day now thanks bye #bsd #bsd season 5 #bsd spoilers #bsd s5 spoilers #bsd musings #spitting nonsense #too lazy to tag all the characters #orv #but only sort of #brb sobbing

[mrfoox]

Uh you ever.... Feel okay or pretty decent and then you remember your lifes circumstances and then you're at the verge of tears?

#miranda talking shit #Maybe this is too specific but hah yeah ... #I can feel okay and be like ah things are pretty good ! And then i remember how my life 'is' and im close to a breakdown #Trying nit to compare myself to others and so on but like.... Its so hard not to lmao #25 soon and no job havent finished high-school i got no partner (plus i guess a virgin lol) #And all the things i havent done or experienced which is pretty universal? Yeah mmm... Ive lost so much of my time and life to mental #Illness and i cant help but morn that. Like if i didnt have my child trauma id probably have a lot milder anxiety and depression which is #Keeping from doing most things... Id still have my autistic and add struggles but i want to imagine I'd manage to accomplish more if #My dep and anx wasn't this bad bc of my past... I hate how my mentality was wrecked before i even knew how to count to 100 #And sooo many years of my childhood just feeling bad and even suicidal (first time i mentioned wanting to die in my diary i was 10-11...) #Just struggling so many years mentally and since i was so young i couldn't make the connection why i was feeling like it? Like the first #Time i started considering why etc i was already like 16.... I didnt think it was weird to cry every single day as long as i can remember #Now at 25 i am still a crybaby but i do it weekly instead. Its just so ... Weird and sad. You dont understand how serious something was #That happened to you and how it affected you until youre almost an adult... And you start to understand that its not just all on you #Its not just your fault youre struggling so much. Youre not just being lazy and difficult ... God Just wish someone protected me when #It mattered . I know my past could have been worse i could have been treated a lot worse and abused more and still to this day it makes me #Feel iffy or bad to claim i was abused? I mean... I was? But cant help to feel my trauma and experiences is not as serious as others #Like i wasnt sexually abused for example or abused by my parents... And i know many have so i feel its not my ... Right to say anything ? #Like my brothers mentally abused me for years and physically from time to time but it could be so much worse #Idk where im going with this i need to go to my vourses instead im crying in the bathroom like stop #Negative

[finalhaunts]

> I go to calculate my BMI on a website

> Straight up just gets called obese

#.txt #pr0ana/th1nsp0 do not fucking touch this post this aint about you #anyways god its so fucking hard #knowing how BMI is a load of inaccurate bullshit and knowing that being fat isn’t inherently unhealthy and etc etc etc #and I can easily apply those ideas to other people! I don’t look at other fat people and get disgusted. i see them as normal people #but for myself its so hard to fucking apply that #its so hard to believe ‘i can still be overweight and healthy’ when it comes to Myself #and its so hard to Not give in to the fatphobic shit that has been drilled into my head for decades #from schools to media to literally my own parents telling me I’m getting fat and that i’m lazy and so on and so forth #telling me how I should eat less #just. i dont knkw. #i wish to stress this isnt about other fat people at all i really love y’all #this is about Me #internalized fatphobia tw #vent #im scared im just goign to keep gaining kore and more weight the older i get too. which sucks. #and i Should work out more and i Should eat healthier but I’m depressed and tired all the time and school and fucking LIVING drains me #of all energy to exercise

[psihoactiv]

You still have so much time you never know how your life could turn out

you are so right, thank you for the encouraging words 😭❤️

#im in that awkward phase where #i know i am capable of taking an exam like this #but i feel like i lost too much time already being lazy / if only i had more time etc etc etc #but i have to get it together!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[oflgtfol]

argh. gar. i normally draw by using my finger on my laptop touch screen but now i dont want to touch my new screen bc its so clean and new i dont wanna ruin it immediately with smudges all over the place lolll

#it did come with a touchscreen stylus maybe i'll try that out ...??? #god i havent used a stylus in the longest time #i literally have a drawing tablet too and its pretty decent i just never fucking use it bc im too lazy to plug it into my laptop etc every #time i want to draw when i can just sit there and use my finger on my screen lol #brot posts

[ranvwoop]

woo persona switch

#vwoop.noises #after i went 2 all that emulation trouble Pensive #i might still play 4golden on pc still for trans na*to mod. if i have to see his cis-ening arc i might explode #shoutout to the tumblr user who made the trans na*to arc i owe you my life #<- is too lazy to play it yet #im on 3. im playing em one at a time. #okay. #(my friend got me into them he actually had a playstation ok ;; i know im a fake fan. whatever. the anime wasnt that bad etc) #i am a sleepy little guy Yes i play mainly handhelds but you can play handhelds Laying Down. i can't see far enough to see a tv #handhelds are made to be brought directly to your face. and then to squish your nose when you start to doze off

[glitch-e-rat]

...i still really want to stream star time game, bad, but i have no idea when a good time would be...?

#glitch.bat #not on my end either like #i dunno when anyone could show up. if they even wanted to?? #but it would be fun... and i need to get the steam deck saves set up At Some Point so................ #laying on the ground like i understand im supposed to give people a heads up and have a time and etc and #oh gods i am way too eepy and lazy for this