Romans 3:23, KJV / Ephesians 2:8-9, KJV / “Fall Away,” twenty one pilots / “Isle of Flightless Birds,” twenty one pilots / “Before the Line,” dodie / Revelation 3:15-17, KJV / “The Judge,” twenty one pilots / “Doubt,” twenty one pilots / “Polarize,” twenty one pilots / “What Have I Done?/Valjean’s Soliloquy,” Les Miserables / Little Fires Everywhere, Celeste Ng / The Crucible, Arthur Miller / “Cannonball,” Noah Cyrus and PJ Harding / “Pray,” Sam Smith / “Weak,” AJR / “Say No to This,” Hamilton / definition of temptare, Latdic / Romans 7:15-20, KJV / “Sorry,” dodie / definition of “wrong,” Google Dictionary / “Because God is Real,” Peter Kreeft / quote by Julien Green / Tumblr post by petitefleuriste / Tumblr exchange by spillywolf, iadoreimani, mikeyspsyche, and lilliesofinspirationvalley / “American Sign Language, 'responsible’,” Lifeprint / “Amerian Sign Language, 'wash’,” Lifeprint / "American Sign Language, 'sorry’,” Lifeprint / "Signs for SHAME,” Handspeak / “American Sign Language, 'forgive’,” Lifeprint / “American Sign Language, 'clean’,” Lifeprint / “American Sign Language, 'new,’ ” Lifeprint / “Get Up,” Alex Boniello / Colaborate, Unit 4: Lutheran Living / Colaborate, Unit 2: Lutheran History & Catechism / image of a shade of purple / Article 3 of the Apostles’ Creed / “Signs for CONTROL,” Handspeak / “Signs for SIN,” Handspeak / quote by Anne Frank / theology notes on guilt vs. shame / “Let’s talk about Proctor’s ‘God is dead’ speech and how it sets the stage for Act Four,” chaotic-theatrical-weaver / “Anti-Hero,” Taylor Swift / “Forgive Myself,” Sam Smith / “I Just Want a Lover,” Noah Cyrus / image of a metronome
DVD Menu // Pheobe Bridgers
Kids Will Be Skeletons // Mogwai
Crystalised // The xx
Philosophy of Time Travel ?? Michael Andrews of the Donnie Darko OST
Loud(y) // Lewis Del Mar
Nightcrawler // James Newton Howard of the Nightcrawler OST
Gossip // Tame Impala
Daydreaming // Radiohead
2AM // Bear Hands
Yes I'm Changing // Tame Impala
Clouds // BØRNS
Where Is My Mind? // Pixies
Hometown // Twenty One Pilots
A Lack of Understanding // The Vaccines
Mourning Sound // Grizzly Bear
Under the Milky Way // The Church
Trouble // Cage the Elephant
THE QUIET // Troye Sivan
Time After Time // Gunship
Running Up That Hill // Coldbones
Silk // Wolf Alice
I Know The End // Phoebe Bridgers
Truce // Twenty One Pilots
If It Bleeds It Leads // James Newton Howard of the Nightcrawler OST
oh man. oh man oh man. would you guys believe this playlist started almost ten years ago? on fuckin 8tracks? on my second rewatch ever? jesus what was I... 16? christ.
anyways. wowza I started this when I was writing my angsty little one-shot on quotev back when i was like, a junior in high school. and here I am starting my third year of post-grad in a med program, a grownass adult, and i'm rewatching again after so so long and i actually felt inclined to reopen this mix and update it. of course of COURSE the (ecto)core is still there, just a few additions from more recent years to round it out and goddamn, do they fit perfectly or what?
from one antique Phan to the rest of you. thank you for keeping this show alive. it's time i shared this.
singing to stressed out and ride makes me feel a little guilty because I know these ones so well and the others not at all but also that’s my childhood right there
To celebrate my success on my last geometry test (it went so much better than I thought) welcome to another rare episode of Ellie Draws Stuff in Her Geometry Notes!
Yes, I finally did do “Doubt” with Proctor--cue the end of my two-part series of Blurryface Miller-ception, at least for now.
Now onto the Abbey Glover art for “Cold-Hearted” and “Everybody Leaves” (the former is your regularly-scheduled sad Elizabeth concept and the latter is actually some rare Sad Drowned Girl Book art, which is not from my geometry notes at all):
It's been ages since I've last heard this song, but boy, does it hit close to home.
I know the song's about struggling with religion, but for me, I personally interpret it as an epitome of my complicated feelings for Nathan Chen. Even though I'm uncertain where my obsession with him is gonna go, I feel like I'm "no good without him," and I don't want him to forget me, considering we met in person in November 2022.
I might make a drawing inspired by this song in the future.
Want the markings made on my skin
To mean something to me again
Hope you haven't left without me
Hope you haven't left without me, please
Don't forget abou-bou-bou-bou-bout me
Don't forget abou-bou-bou-bou-bout me
Even when I doubt you I'm no good without you, no
this is what i looked like when i first got zr (really awful picture because i deleted most of my photos from around this time in my life), i feel like gary king gripping the clone of my childhood self by the chin “i’m so cute!”
i make myself SAD because i was so beautiful and i really believed that i wasn’t but when you tell children things they believe them!!
i downloaded the app roughly 5 years ago in a weird era of my life: 12, vegetarian, encyclopaedic knowledge of twenty one pilots’ music (that’s endured i can still recite most of their songs. i saw them live in 2019 it was cool as fuck i’ll admit). looking back, orthorexia feels like an appropriate name for what i was going through, eating my salads with no dressing and going for runs like i had any business trying to change my body.
long story short, i love my body now. i think it’s cool as fuck. i have a running app on my phone because i care about the story which feels like coming full circle. GROWTH.
also me this year at the same festival. wept when paul heston played caravan of love 👍